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Because I believe in the power of prayer & the kindness of my fellow man, I've decided to swallow my pride & ask for help. This is not an action I am at all familiar with but am grasping at every straw to attempt to keep a roof over my family's head. We live in a modest house that we've called home for the past 20+ years.

I am a single mother who's been truly blessed with 4, beautiful, healthy children; 3 biological & a foster son that joined our family when he was 12…..he is now 23. My kids are the reason I continue to battle through what has been the most challenging, darkest phase of my 50 years on this Earth.

In the summer of 2011, life, as my family knew it, was forever changed. My son got off the school bus & proceeded to enter a crime scene upon opening the front door of the house we call home. It was immediately clear that we were victims of a daytime home invasion and robbery. A trail of splinters led straight to my bedroom door, which had been demolished in the process of gaining entrance & access to my personal belongings. Robbers took my box of trash bags & proceeded to fill them with anything that could be sold or traded. I came home to find that they had stolen everything of value that I had worked for in my 50 years of existence & everything of value that my kids cherished as well.

It didn't happen often, but on the occasion that I had a few extra dollars to spend on myself, I found pleasure in buying nice jewelry. Through the years, I had managed to accumulate a nice collection. Also, as a child, my father & I shared an interest in coin collecting. I had managed to hold on to several interesting coins my dad & I found. Weekly, he also, gave me & my brothers our allowance of a fifty cent piece each. I had somehow managed to hold on to many of these as well. I stored my coin collection in the bottom portion of my large armoire. This area is what my family referred to as "the safe." Anything of value, particularly sentimental, was given to me to be protected in the safe. A couple good examples are my, then, 10 year old son's game ball for hitting the Championship game winning grand slam home run & my daughter's horse riding medals, show jewelry & accessories, as well as a silver handled knife & sheath…….the only personal possession my foster son owned from his childhood. I carry a tremendous amount of guilt for not doing a better job of safe guarding my family's precious & dear possessions.

In addition to the lingering guilt, the robbery also resulted in life altering psychological effects to me & my family. I continue to wonder if & when I will ever fully recover & be the secure, self confident person I was before the robbery. Immediately following the break-in, I was consumed by finding out who was responsible & ways of obtaining this information…..I could think of nothing else. After several weeks of frantic guessing & running wild goose chases, I started to realize that regaining possession of my property was less likely as each day went by. I could feel myself falling into a dark, lonely place with deep despair…..& unfortunately, I was content to be there. For the next several months, I could not work, did not eat or sleep & rarely came out of my bedroom. There was a film in my head that ran & reran the events leading up to & immediately following the robbery…..filled with the "I should've"s, "I could've"s and "what ifs." I am plagued with distrust & no longer find interest in much of anything. I was robbed of far more than just pieces of property…..they stole my trust in mankind, my desire to thrive, my faith in the world & my sanity.

I have worked as a medical school curriculum manager for 21 years. As a result of my mental decline, I was unable to work for over three months which, consequentially, made it difficult to pay all of the bills. I managed to rob Peter to pay Paul for several months & kept up with everything except for my house payment. It is now in arrears nearly $5,000.00 & I am out of resources. For the first time in my life, I am facing foreclosure. It is embarrassing & humiliating & I don't know how to tell my kids that they are likely to have no place to call home in the very near future. I feel like such a failure! Even though I've been an exemplary employee for many years, as a consequence of the self doubting & tremendous stress, I am now faced with the strong potential of losing my job due to my inability to focus & my lack of desire to face each day, As if this wasn't enough for one person to handle, I am also witnessing the daily decline of my father & my hero due to end stage Parkinson's & Alzheimer's.

I'm not sure how this begging website works but if there is someone out there that is willing to make me a loan & work out a payment arrangement, I promise not to let you down.....you will be repaid! I am working hard to battle the persisting PTSD symptoms that continue to plague me. I just worry that facing homelessness may be more than I can handle. Lord, I hand it over to You coz I come to You a broken, wounded angel. I thank you for any consideration and appreciate all prayers. May God bless you many times & in many ways for your generosity & kindness!

Because I believe in the power of prayer & the kindness of my fellow man, I've decided to swallow my pride & ask for help. This is not an action I am at all familiar with but am grasping at every straw to attempt to keep a roof over my family's head. We live in a modest house that we've called home for the past 25 years.

I am a single mother who's been truly blessed with 4, beautiful, healthy children; 3 biological & a foster son that joined our family when he was 12…..he is now 23. My kids are the reason I continue to battle through what has been the most challenging, darkest phase of my 50 years on this Earth.

In the summer of 2011, life, as my family knew it, was forever changed. My son got off the school bus & proceeded to enter a crime scene upon opening the front door of the house we call home. It was immediately clear that we were victims of a daytime home invasion and robbery. A trail of splinters led straight to my bedroom door, which had been demolished in the process of gaining entrance & access to my personal belongings. Robbers took my box of trash bags & proceeded to fill them with anything that could be sold or traded. I came home to find that they had stolen everything of value that I had worked for in my 50 years of existence & everything of value that my kids cherished as well.

It didn't happen often, but on the occasion that I had a few extra dollars to spend on myself, I found pleasure in buying nice jewelry. Through the years, I had managed to accumulate a nice collection. Also, as a child, my father & I shared an interest in coin collecting. I had managed to hold on to several interesting coins my dad & I found. Weekly, he also, gave me & my brothers our allowance of a fifty cent piece each. I had somehow managed to hold on to many of these as well. I stored my coin collection in the bottom portion of my large armoire. This area is what my family referred to as "the safe." Anything of value, particularly sentimental, was given to me to be protected in the safe. A couple good examples are my, then, 10 year old son's game ball for hitting the Championship game winning grand slam home run & my daughter's horse riding medals, show jewelry & accessories, as well as a silver handled knife & sheath…….the only personal possession my foster son owned from his childhood. I carry a tremendous amount of guilt for not doing a better job of safe guarding my family's precious & dear possessions.

In addition to the lingering guilt, the robbery also resulted in other life altering psychological effects to me & my family. I continue to wonder if & when I will ever fully recover & be the secure, self confident person I was before the robbery. Immediately following the break-in, I was consumed by finding out who was responsible & ways of obtaining this information…..I could think of nothing else. After several weeks of frantic guessing & running wild goose chases, I started to realize that regaining possession of my property was less likely as each day went by. I could feel myself falling into a dark, lonely place accompanied by deep despair…..& unfortunately, I was content to be there. For the next several months, I could not work, did not eat or sleep & rarely came out of my bedroom. There was a film in my head that ran & reran the events leading up to & immediately following the robbery…..filled with the "I should've"s, "I could've"s and "what ifs." I am plagued with distrust & no longer find interest in much of anything. I was robbed of far more than just pieces of property…..they stole my trust in mankind, my desire to thrive, my faith in the world & my sanity.

I have worked as a medical school curriculum manager for 21 years. As a result of my mental decline, I was unable to work for over three months which, consequentially, made it difficult to pay all of the bills. I managed to rob Peter to pay Paul for several months & kept up with everything except for my house payment. It is now in arrears nearly $5,000.00 & I am out of resources. For the first time in my life, I am facing foreclosure. It is embarrassing & humiliating & I don't know how to tell my kids that they are likely to have no place to call home in the very near future. I feel like such a failure! Even though I've been an exemplary employee for many years, as a consequence of the self doubting & tremendous stress, I am now faced with the strong potential of losing my job due to my inability to focus & my lack of desire to face each day. As if this wasn't enough for one person to handle, I am also witnessing the daily decline of my father & my hero due to end stage Parkinson's & Alzheimer's.

I'm not sure how this begging website works but if there is someone out there that is willing to believe in me & offer me a loan & payment arrangements, I promise not to let you down.....you will be repaid! I am working hard to battle the persisting PTSD that continues to plague me. I just worry that facing homelessness may be more than I can handle. Lord, I hand it over to You coz I come to You a broken, wounded angel. I thank you for any consideration and appreciate all prayers. May God bless you many times & in many ways for your generosity & kindness!

Hello there, my name is Lorraine. I am here as I need help. I am 43 with a child aged 13. New Years Eve 2010 I got married to a gentleman who I adored,hes 55 we didnt tell anyone we was doing this only our 2 witnesses. It was a gorgeous day. Feb 2011 I picked up my Husbands phone to another woman!I cannot tell you how devastated I was, I still am. This had been going on 10 months & whilst we planned our wedding day. He begged me for another chance which I gave him. We moved house for a "new start" which as it needed quite alot of work doing it took my mind off the problems. Well, it hasnt worked out & im devastated. The problem now is that although we are married as its only been a short time i'm not entitled to stay in the property. The mortgage is in my husbands name (long story)& it was his savings paid the deposit. I'm beginning to wonder if this was his plan all along. I have now got to move out before I lose my sanity. I have been sleeping in the spare room & my son is being affected by this atmosphere we live in which in turn is affecting his schoolwork. I dont claim benefits, I'm a hard worker & the only thing I have is my car which I am more than prepared to sell to pay a deposit to rent somewhere. Its not worth much though & I still need to travel to work (15miles) can anyone please consider helping me? If not me then consider my Son? I'm not asking for much, even a couple pence helps towards something. I'm a proud person & this is very difficult for me. Thankyou in advance to everyone that has read my letter.

Hi, I wonder if my previous posts have been just too long for others to read. My car has failed me again today, this time the air conditioner has stopped working :(. It was only a few weeks ago that I had to replace the battery, before that the tyres and before that the exhaust fell out of the engine and had to be welded back on. I am at a loss for what to do. I live in the Northern Territory of Australia and humidity peaks about 70% most days. It is extremely hot and humid. I am by myself with 3 kids, the youngest is just 1. He was wet all over when I took him out his car seat earlier. I am so sad and I don't know what else to do :(. Honestly we fell on hard times a year ago when my marriage broke down. I wish so much that I had more money to repair the car. It worries me a lot as it seems to be one thing after another :(. Along with the shocks and A/C that now needs replacing all the other expenses have cost in the hundreds. If you are reading my plea right now please find it in your heart to give me a helping hand. I will be forever grateful for anything, honestly.

Thank you & may God's blessings rain upon you.

i have recently been unable to work due to a back injury and have not been able to provide for my family it is embarrasing to have to wonder where you are going to get your next meal or even if you are. $1.00 will help buy a cheeseburger or something for us to eat. god bless

Hello everyone,

I have tried everything else in attempts to pull together funds for my daughters education at catholic school. We are catholic and this is of the UTMOST importance to me. I have tried to set up a fundraiser website and raised zero dollars in doing so. I have found a job and began working in hopes to save the money for this coming fall. However, I am barely keeping my head above water even with working. I realize that maybe Catholic quality education is only for the financially well off but I want the absolute best for my daughter just as any parent would. I pleaded with my parish priest to allow me to volunteer to offset tuition cost to no avail. I have tried everything except begslist. I wonder if God will give me a MIRACLE here. I sure hope so. Please help in any way you can if you feel you can. The total cost of tuition is $5,000 but what I need immediately is at least $250 to get her seat secured and registration form in. She already had her assessment and scored above the local and national average! Thank you for reading and God bless.

Hi I am a student studying fulltime at college working towards a degree in admin/office tech, currently I live with my partner in a local authority rented flat. The government decided that £3995 was how much our household was entitled to claim and that was mostly a student loan and small bursary. We have applied for many other grants and been refused. We are now in debt with our rent, gas and currently feel like we are both going hungry too much. The government are more than happy to pay for anything for you if you are a heroin addict or alcoholic or have 6 children but someone who wants to better themselves by studying to earn a living has very little help. Its no wonder the uk is in such a state with unemployment when people are encouraged to become mothers to get benefits and houses, or encouraged to be a junkie. PLEASE if anyone out there can help in any way please donate and help me to stay in education and get the career I deserve.

Could use your assistance please:

I have owned a wig salon for over 20 years
my main focus is helping ladies, children, and
men deal with the effects of chemotherapy
that causes their hair to fall out. I see
so many people of all age groups that struggle
with the purchase of a wig and some headwear.
Most insurance companies do not pay for a wig
(cranial prosthesis) in medial terms. Most
women feel that losing their hair is almost
as devastating as being diagnosed with cancer.
Most ladies have famalies and small children
that don't understand the changes taking place
to their mother. That is way it is important
for Mom to look as normal as possible.

I carry name brand wigs that look so real
and natural for work or home. The smiles and thanks I receive are heart warming, it just makes you wonder how they will overcome the
hand they were dealt. I already discount the wigs as low as I can but still the really nice wigs are expensive (lace-front,mono-top).

Please help me help others - I would appreciate donations to purchase more wigs and headwear and give them to families that can not afford this necessity while going
through chemotherapy.

My business is very well know in the community
and I work closely with the American Cancer
Society and local Oncologist. Many people have
been through this process and know that a wig
and headwear are so very important through
the journey of cancer treatment.

Regards

The Wig Lady

Not to proud when it comes to taking care of my daughter. It's been a rough couple years. The best part of it all is my beautiful 4 year old daughter who is my world. I fought and lost a lot to get custody of her but it was worth every penny. Thanks to her mother I lost a lot, my home, my car, thousands of dollars worth of possessions because of her drinking and drug use.

I've worked 2 jobs for 3 1/2 years to make ends meet. It's my daughter and I in a 1 bedroom apt, with a car that makes me wonder some mornings. I've had my house foreclosed on, had to file bankruptcy and had the bank remove items before they were legally able. That's another story.

Regardless, I am a hard worker and at the suggestion of a friend took a job here in Cincinnati with a company. Everything was great, salary etc finally, until 2 months after I started. They fired the CIO and my hiring Director. Brought in a new CIO who basically is cleaning house. Not based on performance, but on financial reasons. Therefore, my entire dept is being outsourced to Lima Peru. After the first of the year I may be without a job.

I'm kicking myself for leaving my last job. Sure finance wise it was a struggle but I was doing it. Now I'm not sleeping, worried sick as to what I'm going to do. I'm not looking for handouts, I would rather a good paying stable job in this area or maybe someone to critique my resume and maybe beef it up so to speak. I'm an IT Project Manager with almost 10 years experience but can't afford,nor have the time to get my PMP with working 2 jobs and all.

Any help is appreciated and will definitely pay it forward once I have the means.

Thank you for reading and God bless

6 months ago we responded to an ad on Craigslist. It was for property managers in Fl. We accepted the position sight unseen and in good faith. With my wifes health getting worse and having a hard time working. This seemed like a good thing. We took our savings and left for Florida. Well when we got there it turned out to be a scam. Lesson very well learned! We ended up in south Ga with her sister. I recently started a job that requires travel. our car is up for repossession due to our payments falling behind. I have tried to make payments when I started working and they said it was to late so I am using the car till they come and take it. We have financed 2 other cars with them and always on time. I wonder if the people that work in those places ever fell on hard times. I am not sure if that is the right thing but I honestly did try to catch up. When they take my car I will not be able to travel. This job is not very steady but it is work till I find another. I am looking for work in the Albany Ga area. If anyone from this area reads please consider me. I have a good work history and can provide a resume. I have posted many resumes and have responses from many scammers. I have learned there are very few ads on craigslist that are not scams. Also if anyone knows of a cheap car around this area please let me know You can contact me at ludavis1956@gmail.com. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Happy holidays to all!
A few months ago I asked for your help but I have not received a penny.
If before I was in a bad way now worse.
I still can not find work and I can not save almost nothing.
I live with my son 19 year old needs a complicated surgery to the mouth.
If we do not act soon his face will deform with hearing loss and other consequences.
Pay the mortgage or bills overdue for some time is no longer my priority.
For several years I have done charity and taken into custody boys stavaino community.
I have always believed that doing good I would one day pay off, earning a place in heaven.
Today it is up to me, no one offers them hospitality for this money and I often wonder if God has always given me the strength, the abundance and the joy of sharing, now that I need so much, I have abandoned it.
Maybe if I am here writing this I still have faith and to look for in you my God that I loved so much.
Sorry for my English, I'm Italian.
I am convinced that God is in each one of you and I'll soon confirmed.
Donate as much as possible.
Thank you.

Life was looking good. Good job (till a week ago) and I was finally able to buy a car. After all is said and done, two weeks goes by and I wonder where my plates and registration are. I went to the DMV to find out what is going on and get a very hefty slap in the face. It turns out, the dealer is not responsible for paying the taxes and registration. Gee, would have been nice to know that at the time of signing. My plea for help is to be able to get my taxes and registration taken care of by 1/1/12 when the temporary sticker runs out. Total needed is $1,280. Thank you for your consideration.

My name is Meya Acuna and I am writing you in hopes that you can (or lead me to someone who can help) help bring a Christmas miracle to pass! I am really putting my faith out here because this is something that I've never done before, but am in desperate need. I am a 30 yr old stay-at-home mother to a 4 yr old and 22 month old and am 5 months pregnant. Having turned 30 I have had a revelation that I am in need of continuing my education to not only help my family financially but to be an inspiration to my children who will one day wonder why I did not live my dreams and get a degree in education.

Over 10 yrs ago I began on the right track attending TCU for a semester but with no funds saved up for college it was soon apparent that I would not be able to finish. Much to my despair, I left Ft. Worth and began living out of my hurt by getting into drugs, lascivious living and just keeping bad company. It wasn't until I met my husband, a PK (or preacher's kid), that I realized what I was missing and that I did have hope and didn't have to carry around the shame and anger at not being able to finish school. I stayed home and worked while he got to go out and travel the world in a Christian band, living his dream while I helped to support us and when he got off the road we decided to begin a family. Well no one told us how hard that would be especially financially and I soon left work to take care of my children because the cost of daycare was too much for us (almost 1200 for the two of them!). My husband lost his job earlier this year due to a bad truck accident that left him needing two surgeries and us on public assistance. But we moved to Seguin and he was able to start work at TPS thank God. It doesnt pay all our bills but we are so thankful! We also moved back here to begin work on a ministry with a focus on our youth. We are big volunteers at our church, always making ourselves available to what needs to be done for not only our families but our community. Most recently we've assisted with our youth at the Daddy/Daughter Dance sponsered by the SPD and the Blue Santa wrapping days. It has been hard on just one income and in the past 2 years we have moved 5 times with our children finally settling in Seguin. I am from Austin and had never lived in a real community of people before. I love it here! Everyone speaks to everyone and it is not so rushed. I'm in awe of how a community is supposed to be! Parades, Holiday Strolls, wow!

This past two weeks we have done things we have never had to do before like seek help from Community Council and Salvation Army for utility assistance and visit the EATS food pantry. I'm thankful they were there but I just never thought in a million years I'd be needing those types of services. This is also what pushed me to go back to school. I need to do something bigger than me to feel that I've accomplished a legacy for my children. I won't let them suffer worry and fear the way we have recently. But I need help.

I'm pleading with you to please help me pay $982.07 to Texas Christian University before January 1st for a Loan that I owe. If I pay this loan off by then I will be free to attend a university with Federal funds to attend classes and began pursuing my Associates Degree in Early Childhood and ultimately a Bachelors in Education. I plan on getting a teaching certification and giving back to the community that helped me by working in a low-income school here and sharing my story through hard work that people helping people can make a difference in someone's life. Again, I'm not asking you for money for me or my family or Christmas presents or any "thing". I am looking to pay directly to TCU in Ft. Worth. None of the funds would go to me. I trust that what we need as a family my God will supply, because He has kept us this long and it's only going to get better. Please be a part of this transition out of a dry place into abundance. I'm humbling myself today by doing this and I trust that if you can or know someone who can, you will help me. Thank you for your time and consideration and I look forward to sharing a good report!

It has been a difficult month. The dog got attacked by cats over Thanksgiving and had to go to the vet. The day after we took her she was grabbed by German shepherds. Though she's fine physically, I worry that she is going to need training to calm her down on leash again. A drunk driver hit us last week and totaled our car. We have student loans that are due and precious little to eat in the house. We have one income but we need two, we need two cars but the one we had to buy is two years older than the one we lost because we didn't get much from the insurance company. Nobody is willing to hire me at the moment, after family emergencies, marriage, and full time classes kept me out of the work force for two years. Once I graduated, there was nobody willing to hire, and I got caught in an unemployment trap, stuck with a clean slate, all the right education, and no experience at a time when experienced people are filling entry level jobs. We worry about the coming year with rising rates and costs, and we wonder if we can make it any more. I would really like to be able to pay down on my loans. It feels like it's too late for Christmas, really. Our extended families are all limited income so they can't help at all. There's not a lot of hope around here and a whole lot of worry. I would really like any help at all. A little cheer, especially in the holiday season: a little bit of help for the car, the rent, the student loans, the fridge. I don't ask much, just if you stop by this, don't ignore it; contribute and pass it along. Help restore hope to our fledgling family. Help me show my husband that not everyone in this world is interested in taking and destroying.

I know everybody has a story and there are probably plenty of people on here who really need help. I am sure if you are reading all of these that it is hard to tell who is real and who isn't. This is the first time I have ever done anything like this and to be quite honest, I am embarrassed and ashamed to put it out there. We have always paid our bills and been on time. Up until two years ago i had a 720 credit score too. That is over with. You see we had been foster parents for the last 5 years and had really enjoyed it. In fact we adopted a child through fostering. He is our fourth child, the other three are our birth children, and he is amazing to watch. We know we were doing it for a purpose we might never know what it is but i know I have a son from it that I would have never known.
About two years ago we took in a sibling group of four that were my nieces and nephews. This brought us to 8 children. Our car was too small, our house was too small and for about the first year we weren't receiving any financial assistance. My grocery bill every month was over $1500.00. As you can imagine, most months I had to choose between feeding my kids and paying a bill. I chose to feed them. In doing this we had a home foreclose on us, we had a car repossessed. I couldn't help it. We did the best we could and limped along.
About 6 months ago we discovered the sibling group was being physically abusive to my children. We couldn't help them and hurt our children any longer. We made the difficult decision to let them move to a therapeutic home that would be more of a fit for them. One where they could be together. It was a difficult decision and one that I struggle with everyday. I love them and miss them but was forced to make a decision for my family. I had to choose them.
In the mean time we have tried to get back on our feet but you know how the snowball seems to roll sometimes. You feel like you cant catch a break and wonder why all this stuff has to happen to decent people just trying to do the right thing.
As we speak i can't pay a car payment of 402 which makes it two months behind and if it rolls into january it will be three months and that means they start repossession. I cant pay phone and gas and have until the 21st to do that or they go off and i don't have a thing for christmas for my kids. Its not like i spent too much money on them and cant pay my bills. I don't have anything. I have about $100.00 in the bank to make it until January 1 and I simply don't know what to do.
If you are out there and read this and it touches your heart please help. I have never felt so helpless in my whole life.
I have already sold off anything I had of any value.
I figure if i could get $2500.00 I could get groceries and pay the utilities and car and have a little bit left over for something for the kids for Christmas.

Won't you please look inside your heart and give something, anything.

I am a 40 year old women with two children that I love vary much. I lost my job & my unemployment is gonna run out next week, which I wasn't even close to paying any bills with I am so far behind on my house taxes that I am sure that it will be taken soon. Christmas is suppose to be happy not sad but yet how can anyone be happy when you can't give. I have no famliy except my two kids so I have no help. I cry everyday & wonder what & how I am gonna feed my kids. If there is anyone that can lend a helping hand it would be appreated and thank you if you did read this & sent any donations.

I dont know how to make this stand out, to have someone witha huge heart read it and say thats the one, thats who I want to help this family....
We can all post anything and the huge hearted person may wonder is this true is this real...who knows I guess we have to trust. And me asking have to have faith...life is hard for us all and we all have struggles. But I cant stand to see my kids go without, I do my best and teach them right. I work part time in the evenings so I can homeschool my A.D.D son, he was falling behind in school and I cant bare to see him on the medication it changes him. My partime work pays for rent and food and gas and the occasional "going out" I have 3 boys 13, 11, 9 Christmas is around the corner and I may be able to get a toy each. I just put a fuel pump in my car last week (christmas money) I also was diagnosed with having Trans Ischemic Attacks (mini strokes) I was told I need a brain scan because something is going on with the left side of my brain. I was told this 6 months ago...I just had a birthday I am 33... Life is hard and I pray alot and blessings do come so I know god is listening....hopefully a heart happens to pass his or her eyes over this posting, I dont care right now about me I care about the boys....I know if something happens to me it affects them but i have to ignore my health problems for now what can I do....someone please help...pray for my family...we are good people and we are one of many needing help...I wish someone could help us all.......

Hello to you, for reading this.
I am 43 single mom of 5, and 3 grandchildren.
I have always provided the best I can for them but have been laid-off for 3 months now.
I lost my home and moved in with my daughter, very small apartment for family of six right now. My daughter worked in a nursing facility that was recently closed down for the state not having enough funds.Basically political, I think.
So now all said and done she is out of work, with my 2 granchildren, and 1 baby in which she has temporary custody because the mom of baby did not take care of herself.We have about 1200 dollars in utility bills with shut off notices, no money for winter clothing, especially for children, no money for food (and yes we wait in lines at food pantries) but yuck. But its food. Our rent is already a month and a half late. We are very worried. I send out resumes everyday...but still wonder when I do get a job, about how I will get there, with gas, and winter coming I have real bad tires. Its really everyones nitemare that society is going thru. Not just ours. i have never asked for help like this and really dont know what to think of it but if there are people out there that truly donate to families> GOD BLESS YOU ALL

As I lie here, flat on my back, with the laptop perched on top of me, unable to move. It has been like this for 3 days now, my lower back is in suck agonising pain, the first 2 days was worse, I could not stand up, or walk at all, confined to lying on the floor for 24 hours, and painkillers.

Yesterday I decided to try lying on the sofa, that worked better, the painkillers left me with nausea, diarrhoea, and feeling very sick but at least I had relief from pain for a little while.

The house is in terrible mess, kitchen dishes everywhere, wish I could move around and do my housework, I wish I could sit up and eat, and not have to be bent over on my hands and knees or flat on my back trying to eat.

I wonder what the best thing to do is, do I go to the doctor, or the physiotherapist? How will I get there? How can I pay for it, there is only $2 in my bank account, until my sickness benefit get paid in 3 days time, can I manage to work around to free up some funds for this emergency medical need.

I wrote out a grocery list, 9 items, total cost $49.00; I work out my budget for next week:
Income: Sickness Benefit - $260.00
Outgoings:
Rent $260 can only pay $160
Phone $10.00
Internet $12.00
Power $15.00
Transport $20.00
Therapist $40.00

Total: $257.00

I realised I cannot afford them, will have to ask for food grant if I want to get groceries, I need to find a cheaper place to live, but can’t find anywhere within city Region, have to look further out, to the rural areas for anything under $200 per week.

I also need to find a part time job, but my searches and applications have not been successful so far, no one wants to hire someone with Osteoarthritis, and depression.

All day I search the internet for some idea, some open door somewhere, to start my own business, or find some work for a few hours a week, that would give me a chance to break out of the current situation, to change my life, to make a fresh start.

Lying here unable to do much, my mind starts thinking, thinking and more thinking, I reflect on my life, I take stock of where I am now, how I got here and where I want to be. I am living in a substandard rental home that I cannot afford the rent for, on a sickness benefit, in therapy to deal with 15 years of childhood sexual and physical abuse.

15 years of beatings and torture has left me physically, emotionally and psychologically scarred.

The psychologist is helping me to deal with the emotional and psychological, the painkillers sometimes helps with the pain of the physical, but the scars and injuries are always there.
I don’t want to live in this state, I want to break free, make a new start, but how?

I cannot work as a Computer support analyst or a caterer anymore, because the osteoarthritis diminishes my ability to cope with physical work and movements for long. I have tried finding part time work, just a few hours a week, but there are not many jobs out there, and when I do apply for any, they do not want me.

If only I could get my driver’s licence, a little place I could afford the rent for, and a little car, and retrain, I could get back to work and change my life, get a second chance at a normal life…that is all I ask.

What I need to change my life

Re-training = $4,000.00
Driver Licence = $600.00
Car = $2,000.00
Moving costs $1100.00
Business start = $7,000.00

Total $14700.00

I don’t drink, smoke, or go out, I don’t go to café’s or buy coffees or cans of coke. My only outgoings are the basic necessities of life, one day I would love to be able to do these things, but now my goal is to get to a better place, higher place, out of the gutter that I am in, and start feeling like human again, to feel worthy of life.

Hi, guys!

Straight said, I am feeling that with those words, my last chance to save my worlds is slipping between my fingers. And I tremble, because the feeling is so crushing. I am a fan of the positive thinking, I think that all can get better If you are positive, but don’t know if this time the things will work out so easily. I am almost 21 years old, and I had my good and my bad moments. I have a great brother btw, a really great brother, who unfortunately used to spare the bad moments, regardless my wish to be otherwise. I also have great parents, really good people with only desire to live normal life, and to give both me and my brother some good start in life. Unfortunately not every plan and dream in this world is as easy to accomplish as it is to be said. My mother and my father risked much, to start a new business when the whole country was in poor situation. And this business wasted for 20 years, until now. We have a farm and cows, not the prettiest business out there, but it is our and we love it the way it is. We are town people, but that doesn’t matter, because my parents really knows much about how to breed cows, and they give their best when it comes to that. We help them as we can, I’ve tried my best to make this business better, and easier for my parents. But what can I say, there are times in life, when your endless hard work doesn’t matter in the end, when the luck abandons you, when the faith is difficult to oppose to. And that time is now, in the second half of 2011 I am sure that If I don’t make any wonder, we may lose our business, our home, and most troubling – we may lose our happiness, even if it’s uncommon these days one family to be united and happy.

As I said – my parents made hard decision, to risk and work hard in order to rise us well, instead to work for someone else and barely survive. But this kind of things requires finances, and the only finances were credits from banks. They’ve pledged our possessions and our home, to guarantee the credits and with pain, and unsatisfying feeling in my heart I must admit that we are about to lose our home and our way of life, if I don’t work out something, very, very quickly.

I am working now, on two jobs, and if I am lucky enough, I work only 12-14 hours per day, six-seven days per week. Not the best thing in the world, you can be sure in that, but I feel that I must do my best to save our home. And still, with two works, with my parents working too in what remained from our business, I am still 800$ monthly behind my credit bills. Not the best situation to be in… but… I still keep fighting, as do my parents too. And I need to do that for six months more, because after that I will have a chance, and a good one, to keep my home after all. And still that are six months in which I am 800$ behind the bills, and that means that I could lost my hope in only month time from now. Most people in my place would assume that they lost what they’ve had, that they’ve lost their home, that they’ve lost every hope. I am not such kind of guy. I may not the greatest man in the planet, true, but I don’t intend to surrender until the surest end.

The only thing that can save me and my family now is I to find more money to pay in time every month. With all the shame in the world, I must ask for those money from you. I know that most of you would have problems in you lives, some will be similar to mine. I’ve been generous in all my 21 years of life, I’ve made my best to help the others, to make the world better. Now I need the help of others, to help me to rebuild my life again, and save my family from the disaster that this thing could turn if I don’t find a solution. So I ask you, with all my heart, and all my shame, please help me with some money. They could be even only 1$ from person, they may be 5$ or 10$, no matter how much, but if enough people spare from their hearts and help me with that, maybe I will succeed and fulfill my most sacred dream – to save my family and my home. And don’t ask God for fame, for glory, for mountains of money. I ask him, and you, to help me, for I cannot help myself now. I know the price of my happiness – it’s 4800$. That’s the amount that I’ll need to find, to save my world. I know this is a long post, I know that you maybe heard hundreds, if not thousands, similar stories for people struggles in life. And this story is one of them I think, but in same time is different – different because I still can make something for things to get normal, somehow. And I need you and your kindness. So, please, I beg you – help me. I beg you with last of my hope, you are my last chance to survive this.

Hello everyone! My husband and I have never done this and this is something we really don't want to do but we have ran out of options so this is why we are turning to you beautiful people.

My husband and I were able to buy our dream home 5 years ago after working so hard for 8 years to get where we are today. I lost my job of 6 years last July (2010) making decent money; money good enough to land us our dream home. Ever since losing my job, we are living off my husbands income which isn't much at all, certainly not enough to keep paying our overly high mortgage payment and underwater house. We have been fighting to save our home and the job market isn't helping much with hiring the unemployed people out there. I have been applying endlessly to jobs with no luck so far. It's getting to the point that we both have lost all hope. There are months, weeks and even days we wonder if we can even eat or feed our family pets. We are so stressed out that we don't even recognize one another sometimes anymore as we are usually happy, outgoing and full of life type of people.

We don't want to say this is begging and I don't want to think of it as that but simply asking for honest help. We aren't picky and don't have a figure in mind as we are grateful for what you can help donate to us with.

God Bless you all and Thank you in advance for the donations!

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The rent is Overdue, I don't have a dime in my purse, 2 kids clinging to me for every ounce of want and need. No child support checks, no family to help, or who would care to help. Old credit card , medical bills, and other misc. charges that I've incurred over the past 10 years remain unpaid. Sought government assistance and they only give you enough to do one or the other, so it's either pay my bills or pay the rent. I no longer have a cell phone, besides the free govt phone they give you with 70 minutes a month on it. I have a car, but it needs work, hundreds of dollars of work. 35 years and I'm still striving for a destination spot. a place of rest, stability, and contentedness. Wondering when and how my load will lighten. Thinking about running away, then I look at my babies and know that they would find a way to keep me here with them, their smiles, playing, hugs, and the like. I often wonder how I ended up in this place of not knowing, confusion, heartache, toil, lack, despair, and think why me, then again, why not me? Is God trying to show/tell me something? What, I'm all ears, and eyes, you've got my attention, and have had it held there for about 5 years. Everything changed when my mom left us, everything changed when she passed. You must understand my mother was a paragon, well I guess every decent kid would say that about their mom, but mine really was. If I were to tell you about her, you would feel what I felt and others felt about her even in a moment, a fragment of a second, you would get a sense of her spirit, humor, nuture, kindness, humility, charity, etc. I could go on and on about her. but you don't want to hear about that you want to know why I am writing this, and like so many other countless stories, what makes my struggle any more worthy than the next man or womans. I am in no position to tell you that my trial is far worse, or more deserving than anothers, I am not asking for a certain amount, or for one particular thing. Anything you send would be beneficial to any and all areas of my life and that of my children. I can only say that for someone who has dreams and aspirations of someday coming out of this fog, permanately, your donations would put me in a position of independence.

I am a single mother and grandmother. Both my daughter and grandchild live in the home with me. I work night shift so I can take care of my grandchild while my daughter goes to school and works(and she barely makes enough for her gas and diapers for the baby). We can't afford childcare, and being the baby can't speak in sentences we don't want her in daycare anyware.

Because I care for my grandchild during the day I can't get another job to help with expenses. Currently all of my check goes to rent, my car expenses so I can get to and from work, and my lights. After that I have nothing left over for food, usually just enough for about a weeks worth of Ramen noodles and some snacks for the baby.

I've pawned everything I can pawn. I have 1 television left, and that is what my grandbaby watches PBS on....so I can't pawn that! I'm losing my furniture this week...but thats neither here nor there, my concern is what is my family going to eat tomorrow. I can stand to lose a few pounds, but how can I look at them, especially a 2yr old, knowing they're hungry!

I also have to take our dog to the shelter because she's hungry as well. She has only had scraps from what little bit of food we had....I can't feed her either.

It's so embarrassing to be in this kind of situation. I look at my coworkers and wonder if they realize I'm skipping meals, that I have hunger headaches.

Anyhelp that anyone can give me would be so appreciated. $1 can buy almost 6 packs of Ramen noodles at Walmart! That would seem like a Thanksgiving feast right now.

Thanks for anything that you can do!

hi i would like to start off by saying thank you for giving me and my family a chance. my name is Sasha martin i currently live in north Hollywood ca with my six small children win a homeless shelter i am 22 years old and am seeking help in obtaining a car . i have had a hard life and am now trying to get it on the right path i love my children more than anything in this world well. at my young age i have had babies not because it was the thing to do but to fill hole in my heart growing up i had n family it was only me and my sister who is 2 years younger than me and we got split up when i was 15 about time i was 18 i had been in 30 different foster homes and am now trying to live differently please consider us for a car so that we can live a little easier i have none of the fathers around and getting to Dr APPOINTMENTS an let alone the grocery store is hard enough September school is starting and i don't know how i am going to do it but with it being just us it has to be done and i promise how hard it gets i wont give up but sometimes i wonder if any of these stories are real or is it all TV i have hope like when i watch TV or read the success stories i wish i were those people where one day someone just shows up on my door step willing to help but life goes on doesn't it but who am i to doubt i Am just a woman with a whole lot to keep thriving for even if my whole lot is my kids i really think i live for them today not me yet im 22 i have never been to a club or out with friends now don't get me wrong i don't even like the idea of clubs i actually enjoy taking my babies to museums parks outings all in all but on the bus is soooo difficult and people stare let alone comment but in the end at the end of it all its just me a 22 year old single parent and my 6 beautiful angels today is 7-15-11 and i was up thinking a lot last night on how it will be when i get my house i am totally satisfied with getting a house and my babies being happy but no matter how things look i still seem to worry about my kids happiness i was thinking about if i get a house can i actually afford a playground set for my kids to play on now i know in my mind that should be the least of my worries but i guess because i wasn't really happy as a kid i want the best life for my kids i really want them to be children and not have to worry about grown up stuff like i did at the age of six and seven am i safe or where will i be tomorrow and with it being so many of them and just me i want them to be able to go outside and play because at a park let alone walking the crazy streets with little ones you cant be to safe i dont know but if i had reasonable means of transportation one of my worries would be out the way i mean all parents fear something happening to their kids but it would be easier knowing that in a car i would not have to try to keep them from running in the street to much just like last week my 8 month old was in the stroller the 6,5,4,4,2 babies were walking and we were going to the bus stop and imagine this they are holding hand and it was a hot day the girls had on sandals we were crossing the street and my 6 year olds shoe came off in the middle of the street and the light was turning red i was trying to get her shoe stop traffic and make sure no one got hit i was so scared i am only one person and i know everyone has problems but oh my god i know that that particular situation could have gone real bad thank god for angels because we were protected that day i know our day is coming all i have to do is LET GO AND LET GOD

hi i would like to start off by saying thank you for giving me and my family a chance. my name is Sasha martin i currently live in north Hollywood ca with my six small children win a homeless shelter i am 22 years old and am seeking help in obtaining a car . i have had a hard life and am now trying to get it on the right path i love my children more than anything in this world well. at my young age i have had babies not because it was the thing to do but to fill hole in my heart growing up i had n family it was only me and my sister who is 2 years younger than me and we got split up when i was 15 about time i was 18 i had been in 30 different foster homes and am now trying to live differently please consider us for a car so that we can live a little easier i have none of the fathers around and getting to Dr APPOINTMENTS an let alone the grocery store is hard enough September school is starting and i don't know how i am going to do it but with it being just us it has to be done and i promise how hard it gets i wont give up but sometimes i wonder if any of these stories are real or is it all TV i have hope like when i watch TV or read the success stories i wish i were those people where one day someone just shows up on my door step willing to help but life goes on doesn't it but who am i to doubt i Am just a woman with a whole lot to keep thriving for even if my whole lot is my kids i really think i live for them today not me yet im 22 i have never been to a club or out with friends now don't get me wrong i don't even like the idea of clubs i actually enjoy taking my babies to museums parks outings all in all but on the bus is soooo difficult and people stare let alone comment but in the end at the end of it all its just me a 22 year old single parent and my 6 beautiful angels today is 7-15-11 and i was up thinking a lot last night on how it will be when i get my house i am totally satisfied with getting a house and my babies being happy but no matter how things look i still seem to worry about my kids happiness i was thinking about if i get a house can i actually afford a playground set for my kids to play on now i know in my mind that should be the least of my worries but i guess because i wasn't really happy as a kid i want the best life for my kids i really want them to be children and not have to worry about grown up stuff like i did at the age of six and seven am i safe or where will i be tomorrow and with it being so many of them and just me i want them to be able to go outside and play because at a park let alone walking the crazy streets with little ones you cant be to safe i dont know but if i had reasonable means of transportation one of my worries would be out the way i mean all parents fear something happening to their kids but it would be easier knowing that in a car i would not have to try to keep them from running in the street to much just like last week my 8 month old was in the stroller the 6,5,4,4,2 babies were walking and we were going to the bus stop and imagine this they are holding hand and it was a hot day the girls had on sandals we were crossing the street and my 6 year olds shoe came off in the middle of the street and the light was turning red i was trying to get her shoe stop traffic and make sure no one got hit i was so scared i am only one person and i know everyone has problems but oh my god i know that that particular situation could have gone real bad thank god for angels because we were protected that day i know our day is coming all i have to do is LET GO AND LET GOD