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please help me to be a graduate
Posted by joshua2810 on 2012-05-05 06:58:22
need money to pay for food and my studies
Posted by joshua2810 on 2012-04-30 03:58:37
absolutley skint
Posted by nicky on 2012-02-24 16:58:14
Need genuine help desperatly
Posted by Invisblegirl on 2012-01-27 15:58:05
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Need genuine help desperatly
Posted by Invisblegirl on 2012-01-27 15:58:05
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Need genuine help desperatly
Posted by Invisblegirl on 2012-01-27 15:58:05
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Need genuine help desperatly
Posted by Invisblegirl on 2012-01-27 15:58:04
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Need genuine help desperatly
Posted by Invisblegirl on 2012-01-27 15:58:04
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Need genuine help desperatly
Posted by Invisblegirl on 2012-01-27 15:58:04
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Need genuine help desperatly
Posted by Invisblegirl on 2012-01-27 15:58:03
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Victim of Anti social behaviour
Posted by nightmare1 on 2012-01-22 14:58:58
Desperate need for genuine help?
Posted by Invisble212 on 2012-01-14 16:58:18
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Desperate need for genuine help?
Posted by Invisble212 on 2012-01-14 16:58:17
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Desperate need for genuine help?
Posted by Invisble212 on 2012-01-14 16:58:16
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Desperate need for genuine help?
Posted by Invisble212 on 2012-01-14 16:58:15
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Desperate need for genuine help?
Posted by Invisble212 on 2012-01-14 16:58:15
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Desperate need for genuine help?
Posted by Invisble212 on 2012-01-14 16:58:14
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Desperate need for genuine help?
Posted by Invisble212 on 2012-01-14 16:58:13
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
Desperate need for genuine help?
Posted by Invisble212 on 2012-01-14 16:58:09
I was born and landed straight into hell, for as long as i can remember i have been beaten up, cut, burned and occasionly tied up and attempted to be drowned in a bathtub by the 2 people thats should love and care for u as a child; my parents...I was raped and abused by my own brother and suffering in silence. School was a safe place for me but after the teachers started to notice that i wasnt a normal happy kid my parent kept me home from school...In order for them to stay out of trouble they married me off at the age of 14 to a 36 yr old nephew. Since i never wanted that marriage they drugged and kidknapped me abroad to my birthland..
After 8 months of utter misery my grandfather helped me get my divorce and to get my passport back so that i could return to The Netherlands.
When i got back to The Netherlands i finally turned 18 and wanted to try and get my life together but the past haunted me so bad i couldnt see straight so i sufferd a heart attack in 2004 at the age of 21 or 22..Due to unablility to keep a job i lost my house 3 times. I know what it feels like to be hungry for food, longing for a nice warm shower, being homeless and in desperate need of a save place to stay.
Today i have a home but am on the verge of losing it again, i have so many bills surrounding me that keep me from having a goodnight sleep,no food in the house for months now and am so tired of being rejected for a decent job.Everytime i turned for help around me, i end up wanted to be taken advantage off.
For years and years i have looked up to god and prayed, cried and begged for a better day with no avail.
Lord knows i never had much of anything but to whomever reads this please, please help me, if have no one to turn to but you.
Gratefully yours,
Invisible girl.
In Need of an Angel of Mercy
Posted by tribble_t on 2011-06-26 17:58:26
Although I was able to make it back to my home state several states away and back to "safety" and to my family--to live with an elderly aunt, and have found work here, I have essentially become an unintended financial burden on her. I would really like to be able to find a way to stand on my own two feet again and to somehow find a way to repay my aunt for her kindness and generosity. However, my financial means are completely wiped out after everything that has happened.
What would it take to put me back on track so that I could start again fresh? To catch up on my currently delinquent bills would be a great start. But, to be honest, that would only help temporarily. Whereas, if I was able to gain enough cash to use as leverage toward building a sustainable income, I might be able to gain enough momentum to end my predicament permanently. In order to do this, my financial goal is $15,000. To many, this isn't a great deal of money, but to me it will make the difference of a lifetime.
Please consider helping me in reaching this goal. If you are not able to help me financially, I do understand and your prayers for me would be greatly appreciated too. However, if you can give even $1 to help me, you are a true angel of mercy. God bless you for taking the time to read my petition.
Desperately Need Help Paying Mortgage and Other Bills
Posted by ldonnelly on 2010-10-19 03:58:58
Throughout this time, both of my teenagers were living with me and since January I had been doing everything I could to help my 19-year-old son get into the Marines, as I felt it was the only thing that could get him back on the right track in life. I knew he had been drinking, smoking pot and doing some drugs throughout his high school years, but had no idea at the time how bad it was, so I ended up wasting six months taking him to work out with the Marines at the recruiting office five days a week in addition to many other Marine-related things. The last week of June, about a week after he failed his drug test at his Marine physical, I discovered that he had stolen several hundred dollars from my bank account. The next five weeks were utter hell. I managed to get him to admit to me that he was addicted to heroin. We have a tremendous problem where we live with teenagers getting hooked on OxyContin and then switching to heroin (both opiates) because it is about 1/10th the cost of OxyContin. Thank God, my son is scared to death of needles and never injected it (he was smoking five balloons of black-tar heroin a day). If you have lived with a drug addict, you know how it affects every single aspect of your life. Drug addicts are liars, thieves and master manipulators. They cant help it because their brains have been hijacked by the drug and it is as though they are possessed. The only thing they can think about is how to get more drugs. My sweet, sensitive, smart, funny, loving boy was gone. You cannot reason with an addict and you cannot trust anything they say or do. It is the most unbelievably stress-inducing experience you can imagine. Until his father and I managed to get him into an inpatient rehab facility at the end of July, I spent most of my time dealing with him and trying to keep him from stealing everything in my house so he could either pawn it to get money for drugs or give the items to his drug dealer in exchange for drugs. Among many other things (I could type pages about just those five weeks of all the hell we went through), I had to buy my iPod back from his drug dealer after I discovered it was missing. During those five weeks, my son overdosed once and ended up in the hospital (this happened about a week after I kicked him out of my house). He had no place to go and I was scared to death he would die living on the streets, so I let him sleep on the hammock in my back yard (after I went looking for him and found him stumbling down a sidewalk in a heroin stupor) until he went to rehab (which he had been adamantly fighting against for the prior month) four days later. Because I was only able to work a few days during this period of time and had to spend almost $800 on repairs to my 16-year-old car, I got behind on all my bills again. I have been able to find an average of about 20 hours of work a week since then, so have fallen even further behind. I have been looking for a real job for months, without success so far.
Finally the third source of major stress in my life this year. The love of my life, whom I had been with for 6+ years, ended our relationship in January. We grew up in the same town, went to jr. high and high school together, and I was head-over-heels over him then. We dated after high school, but he was too shy at the time to ask me to marry him, which I later found out he had wanted to do. After 25 years of not having any contact with each other, we reconnected almost seven years ago and it was as though we had never been apart. We were unable to marry at that time because we live in neighboring states and my two children were 11 and 12 then and my ex would not agree to me moving to Colorado and he was unable to move to my state because of his business. I have virtually put my life on hold career-wise for the past seven years, knowing that when my youngest turned 18, I would be moving to Colorado, and so I could have the flexibility in my schedule to make trips to see him every one to two months. Four months before her 18th birthday, he ended our relationship (which was a complete shock; I thought everything was great between us). Needless to say, on top of everything else, this has been very devastating and I am just now beginning to come to terms with the fact that my future with him that I had been working towards and looking forward to all this time is gone, besides dealing with the immense pain of a broken heart. I have felt utterly lost and alone, and very very sad. My wonderful 18-year-old daughter moved out of the house almost three months ago, so it has been kind of hard being in an empty house since then and not having my best friend to talk to every day on the phone like I had done for six years.
I have recently been working for a married mom of four boys, decluttering and organizing her house. Two days ago she called to tell me she had broken her foot and has to keep it elevated for two weeks, so she wants me to wait until after that before coming back to work. I currently have no other job prospects, am desperately looking for work, and worrying about the fact that I have to make two mortgage payments before the end of this month in order to keep from being over 60 days past due, in addition to being at least that far behind on my other bills. I have about $40 in cash, a quarter-tank of gas in my car, and my bank account is upside down.
I have always been a strong person and a survivor (having grown up with an angry alcoholic father). I have never sought any type of government assistance and never will. I have taken care of myself since age 17 and am a hard worker, so it is very difficult for me to ask for help and I apologize for doing so. I assure you that any money you choose to donate to me will only be used to pay bills, put gas in my car, buy groceries, or other similarly legitimate expenses. Thank you so much for helping me out (if you choose to do so). I am humbly grateful.
