Suicidal Tags

Well to start this off I'm a 19 year male living in socal with my family.I grew up poor and we still struggle to make ends meet.My mother is a single parent.As a kid i grew up with an abusing father and two older brothers who would constantly hit me,my mother and sister.They were alcholics and drug addicts.With all this happening at home i began to form a deep depression that made it hard for me to make and keep friends.I also began to have problems with school,I began to fail classes and miss school on a daily baises.Where was I? Home sleeping my life away,wishing I had no exsistance.When finally i dropped out of high school.Things got worse.I became suicidal and began to cut myself to outdue the pain and lonliness i felt in my heart.I kept looking for somthing tho,something that can make things better,anything.Mabe a passion and thats when i met a guy.He was 18 and i was 15.we spent nights together and after 5 months i realized i was in love.He was the only person who cared for me,took care of me and understood what i was going through without judging me unlike all those fake "best" friends.With a little of support i got into counseling.With a counsler i tryed several times to get back into hs but i kept giving up.and now today im still struggling to live my life.This is basically whats going on.Im still depressed and have really low self esteem.Yes im with my boyfriend(3 years :D) i want so badly to get my ged and start college and get a job.But i have a little problem.it sounds silly but,my acne scars prevent me from living my life!!! they make me feel so self consious.and with low self esteem you get where this is going...i have BDD.(Body Dismorphic Disorder) make face in my eyes looks so gross that i never want to go out and do anything productive or fun :( Im scared ill lose my boyfriend soon because we never go out and do anything fun and exciting.he basically has to force me to go out! And i truely just want to get back to school.ugh my story is to long to keep this going so here it is.I grew up in an abusive home.I was malested.I was bullied in school.I was suicidal.And now i just want to be happy.im tired of always being sad everyday.I have low self esteem and i want to do a procedure to get rid of my acne(i have tryed everything even proactive lol) So if anybody can help me raise money to get laser acne removal.i will truely from the bottom of my heart aprciate it.No this is not a scam.I just want to be happy.Please and Thank you.:) Sincerly Fernando V. Ps sorry for the bad grammer,im a drop out remember? lol

I am a 37 years old begger. My wife, my widow mother, a 7years old child, 13 physically disabled persons of various age (who are dependent on me) and myself are my family members. Last year I was in better financial position. But then slowly I have lost my stability. Now I have so many public loans in monthly interest basis which has finished my whole property and now a days I have nothing to do. So we are in a suicidal condition now. So help me and let us live. My SB A/C Numbers are 31865725321 (STATE BANK OF INDIA) and 06730100005220 (UCO BANK, INDIA). Thanking all of you.

I am a 37 years old begger. My wife, my widow mother, a 7years old child, 13 physically disabled persons of various age (who are dependent on me) and myself are my family members. Last year I was in better financial position. But then slowly I have lost my stability. Now I have so many public loans in monthly interest basis which has finished my whole property and now a days I have nothing to do. So we are in a suicidal condition now. So help me and let us live. My SB A/C Numbers are 31865725321 (STATE BANK OF INDIA) and 06730100005220 (UCO BANK, INDIA). Thanking all of you.

I am a 37 years old begger. My wife, a child of 6 years, my widow mother, 13 handicapped persons of various age and me is my family. I have so many public loans in the basis of high monthly interest. And that is pushing me to the suicidal point. Please save my life and let my family alive. Thanking all of you.

Hello, My name is Erica. I am struggling, its enough to make me want to give up my life! yesterday 3/11/12 I went to the hospital due to suicidal thoughts. I don't have any family left. My parents died in a fire and my Aunt help raised me. and she just died last year of brain cancer, now I am all alone! growing up wasn't easy! I been with people since I was 13, being abused by men one after the next. beaten and so much more. I try and hang on and hope for a better day. As I type this tears are pouring down my face. I have nothing left and I have been tore down and beaten so much I dont know how to stand. One thing after another has happen to me. I live in a apartment in Central New jersey and I can barley afford it. I just dont know what else to do. If I can get some help in life or someone can hear me out for once that would be the biggest Gift! just to have a chance is all I ask. Please somebody, if you can take time to read this and find it in your heart to help I would be so greatful...Thank you.
Love Erica

Hi all, I posted on the site a few months back, with no response, even though I myself donated to the site, thinking what you give may indeed help see some return,I was sadly wrong, now I find myself in dire situation with, only the help of my sister, which I feel i can no longer continue, I feel suicidal at time things are that bad, not really sure why I am telling you all this, look if you can help me please do.

I am a recent Volunteer At saint Joseph Hospice in Rawalpindi,Pakistan and a member of Pakistan Red Crescent Society.I am Regular Blood Donor For The last 1 year.The hospice is located in the heart of Westridge but my home is somewhat around 35 km away ,i admit that i belong to a middle class family but due to some family health problems i am now being told that we cannot afford your travel expenses which is 5000-6000 Pkr plus i have to got PCRS on several times a week.

There are only 3 three volunteers excluding me and we have to attend couple of depressed people (suicidal s) , handicapped and bed sores patients and at the play with some orphans as well ,total beds are about 60.Sisters are highly corporative and there staff as well but still being a 18 years old teenagers the fun is still better then the aged ones.
Please Please Please help (donate) me to be a better person and a great friend. donation of any number will be helpful but still if you have some questions regarding my activities please call me at 923085555940 .Paypal doesn't work in Pakistan but Western union or money gram are available in Pakistan.
You may also email me at Hamzaqaseem92@yahoo.com

I am a recent Volunteer At saint Joseph Hospice in Rawalpindi,Pakistan and a member of Pakistan Red Crescent Society.I am Regular Blood Donor For The last 1 year.The hospice is located in the heart of Westridge but my home is somewhat around 35 km away ,i admit that i belong to a middle class family but due to some family health problems i am now being told that we cannot afford your travel expenses which is 5000-6000 Pkr plus i have to got PCRS on several times a week.

There are only 3 three volunteers excluding me and we have to attend couple of depressed people (suicidal s) , handicapped and bed sores patients and at the play with some orphans as well ,total beds are about 60.Sisters are highly corporative and there staff as well but still being a 18 years old teenagers the fun is still better then the aged ones.
Please Please Please help (donate) me to be a better person and a great friend. donation of any number will be helpful but still if you have some questions regarding my activities please call me at 923085555940 .Paypal doesn't work in Pakistan but Western union or money gram are available in Pakistan.
You may also email me at Hamzaqaseem92@yahoo.com

and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.

and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.

and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.
My paypal account is added, maybe you can spare a few pence to help

Hi and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.

The short story of my request is that I want money to help the love of my life pay for my $1000 plane ticket to meet his family, in Sweden, for the first time. He's done everything for me, and saved my life. All I want in the world is to repay him, please help me do that. Our story is below. Thank you for your generosity.

Any questions, email me at kelci.davis@yahoo.com

As humans, we inevitable spend our entire lives searching for someone to share life with. The only thing worse than never finding your other half is finding him and having 4,486 miles separate you.

I met Arvid because he responded to my plea for help after I had taken a fatal dose of pills. Ever since, he's helped me through the hell of my life and I am no longer suicidal and out of the worst of my depression. For Christmas, I gave up all presents so he could come visit me. I could try to explain to you the feeling, but I can't. The two weeks he was here flew, and soon I was grasping onto him outside the airport, crying my eyes out.

Now, I want to be a part of his life, to meet his parents and siblings, to see his world and one day become a part of it.

I am asking for money because Arvid is trying to pay for me to visit him this summer, all with his own expenses.

I feel bad to request money to travel when others need money to live. But this isn't just for me, it's for him, and I would do anything to make that boy smile.

Thank you so much for reading, and your generosity.

My name is Jose 44 years old .I am trying to get myself out of debt. I have
about 6000 in debt everything use to be fine but since my wife got mentally ill she has suicidal thoughts I
got more bills because while i go to work my wife need care service as well
as my daughter if i pay some bills cann't pay my mortgage my hope is in some
of those good hearts arround here god bless you all
please help me to save my home

My name is Jose 44 years old .I am trying to get myself out of debt. I have
about 6000 in debt everything use to be fine but since my wife got mentally ill she has suicidal thoughts I
got more bills because while i go to work my wife need care service as well
as my daughter if i pay some bills cann't pay my mortgage my hope is in some
of those good hearts arround here god bless you all
please help me to save my home

Hello, my name is John, I am 52 yrs old partially disabled man who is at the end of my rope. Once upon a time I was pretty established yet psychiatric issues have plagued me my whole life. I have just completed another 20 day treatment which makes 4 this yr for major severe chronic depression and social phobias / anxiety along with suicidal thoughts and plans. I am a recovering alcoholic 24 yrs now and thats all I have left, being sober. Six yrs ago I was diagnosed with Lymes arthritis, a rare one along with fibro mialgia symptoms. It has now been diagnosed as Rheumatoid arthritis, my medications for meds alone are over 1.200.00 a month which the state is paying, but the ins will run out soon. The ins co will not pay for an operation I need on my back. I am in severe chronic pain, emotional, physical, mental, all day every day and I am close to my end. For the past 8 yrs I owned a small garden center, and I cannot afford to re open this spring for we had a terrible yr with 2 storms wiping us out and the economy. I owe vendors who are taking me to court, owe sales tax, and am just doomed it seems. Before I was a alcohol and drug couselor, and a good one at that and saved hundreds of lives. After 16 yrs I burned out and had a breakdown. I now live with my mother temp, I cannot find work and feel like such a burden and a loser. She is such a love, the only thing holding me back from harming myself is her. Four weeks ago, my 32 yr old nephew and my beloved dog passed away. I raised my nephew like my son and I have no children, I am grieving terribly. I have a very hard time asking for help much less begging or pand handling. Everything is crashing down on me and I am single, alone and suffering . I am a good man that some how didnt make it in life.Every day I fight depression and suicidal thoughts, I am sceduled for elctric shock therapy in 2 weeks for severe depression, have never known what it feels like not to be depressed. I look back when there were days I'd pay for a strangers meals, sponsored children and animals. Is it really true that nice guys end up last? Anything would help, thanks for listening.I have no money for a paypal account nor have a checking account, my number is 203-264-8907 Love and light,
John

please help i am a mom of two teenagers recently their brother died on july 7thfrom a motorcycle accident the birthday of my other son who turned 17 one sons death one sons birthday we have been devastated and heartbroken as you can imagine louie would have been 25 on halloween today received letter emigrant savings bank is foreclosing and sale date of my house in court on jan 17th 2011 my daughter since her brothers death has been suicidal and losing our home would push her over the edge ...i am separated due to being beaten by my husband i have a stay away order in effect and he does not financially take any part in this house couldn't care less if we were out on the streets he is heartless .my sons death has taken a toll on all of us i have tried getting the bank to work with me and they haven't budged i am scared and try to keep faith in god that he will not allow this to happen to us .please someone out there please help donations can be sent to 400 flower rd valley stream ny 11580 would give you my home address but the mail doesn't get properly delivered here please whatever you can do to help us keep our home would be forever appreciated thank you from our hearts --home is where our hearts are !!!blessings to you !

In 2005 I was on 12 medications, mostly psychiatric. I got a migraine after 3 days of no sleep due to chronic insomnia, which I still have. My Dr. did not know how to treat it and gave me a flu shot and sleeping pills.

I had a severe reaction to the shot and got the flu which turned into chronic fatigue. I also developed cognitive problems similar to early dementia. I have not been able to work successfully since 2005 and have a lot of cognitive problems when I do. I am on disability which barely covers my personal needs and does not cover my bills. My partner supports me.

On top of this I have struggled with mental illness my whole adult life and have felt suicidal most of the time. I have been diagnosed with Early Dimentia, Anxiety Disorder, Bi-Polar, PTSD from childhood abuse and recently Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)which is very hard to treat. (Learmm about BPD here http://www.medterms.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=17770 )

The only evidence-based treatment for BPD is Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) which costs $800/month for a 4 month group with intensive therapy.
(Learn about the treatment here http://www.cognitivetherapynyc.com/DBT.aspx )

As a result of not working I have not been able to contribute to family bills and we are 2-3 months behind on most. We rob peter to pay paul monthly not to get the electricity shut off or the car repossessed or foreclosed on. We faced forecloseure one year.

I hope that with treatment I can return to work. I am happy to talk to you about this in detail if you are interested.

i googled no money no food no hope and this site popped up you just never know!! feeling suicidal again tried before this is truely one of my lowest points had to send my 12yr old away ,why? one less mouth to feed didnt go to work today why? do i use 4.70 for transport to work or to use for food for today i think food for my son is more important i dont know what tomorrow will bring my rheumatiod arthritis is flaring up kinda bad have to move rent is almost 100% of my pay i see no relief in sight since i work im not able to recieve help

Hello my name is Sue and I am a 35 year old woman with 3 children. I am in my final year of my nursing program and am desperately in need of help. I lost my husband 6 months ago, he was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and committed suicide 4 weeks after his diagnosis. I feel blinded by grief and depression has consumed me to the point of feeling suicidal. I must go on for my children and I am struggling to continue my program and recently lost my part time job. I feel like I have died inside and my body is just going through the motions of life.

It is difficult for me to ask for help, as I have always been on the other side when i was in a position to be able to help others before everything fell apart. I am a very compassionate person and my dream is to help others and complete my nursing program.

I used to have a stellar credit rating which has been destroyed now. I desperately need financial help for medical costs for my son. I am behind on my rent by one month and I am at the point that I will lose my rental apartment in October which will leave my children and I with no home and no options. I desperately need $6000.00 for medical costs/rent and any little bit will help.

I am so inspired by those who help others and I want to get my life back on track to be able to help others again as i have so often in my life. I appreciate any help you can give and thank you so very much for reading. My heart goes out to you for being such compassionate people and my heart goes out to those like me who are struggling..a thread of humanity runs through us all and we are never alone

I have a little under $200 to my name right now. No job as I have been recently fired. When I go broke I have a suicidal thoughts that make it so I need to be entered into a hospital. Please help me. Any donation will really help me out. I am on many differnt types of meds. I also have to have a crown put on my tooth and that is going to cost me $1000. Because my health plan wont pay for it. So that is going to have to wait. If I run out of money I am going to have to go to the hospital and I don't want that to happen. Please help me. Anything will be appriciated.

I am a widowed mother of a 17 year old son. Since my husband of 23 years died over six years ago, I have experienced one tragic loss after another. I am desperately trying not to totally despair, but I need a break soon. My son developed severe emotional problems after his dad died. My medical bills have run into the thousands of dollars. A couple of years ago I lost two full-time jobs due to having to assist my son with his mental issues (i.e. suicidal tendancies, depression). I, myself had to be treated for a chronic health condition, and have managed to hold down a full-time job since. In addition, I work cleaning homes in my spare time. The problems here is that too much has come at me too fast, and I am having a hard time recovering from all the losses. I can barely afford my weekly grocery bill.
Please, could someone give me a helping hand so that I can start re-building my life? I have worked very hard to hold things together, but I feel it's all slipping away. I cannot take on more debt at this point. Thank you for your consideration.

I had posted on this site several months ago asking for help and not one single person did. I am still in desperate need. My husband and I both work full time but can not get ahead. We are in the process of going through bankruptcy, but we don't have the money to pay the lawyer yet. All of my bills have been a month late every month and I am afraid of losing my home. We have to pay a lot on prescriptions every month. My husband has a disease called ankylosing spondylitis and is in constant pain, so he takes a lot of meds. I am suffering from depression and anxiety due to all of this and have felt suicidal. My car's check engine light came on and it's going to cost over $1,000 to fix. I have to have my car. My husband can't take me to work because he has mandatory overtime and I get out of work hours before. My husband's car was in need of repair but his he had to learn how to fix it because we couldn't afford a mechanic to do it. With my car, we have no idea what is causing it to run so rough and loud with the check engine light on. I have pretty much lost faith in humanity. I feel like things are never going to get better. We are drowning in debt and I just want to catch up. We have pretty much tapped out our family members. I have tried selling things on ebay and etsy with very little success. Believe me, I have cut back on a lot. We never go out. Please, please is there anyone who can help? I need to pay my bills and get my car fixed asap. I need to know that there are people who actually care.

Please Can you help, this is my story.
Where to begin, my life since I was born has been hell I was adopted at birth kicked out of home at 13 because I was pregnant and had to fiend for myself my son was taken off me from the government as I was too young but at 18 thought I had met the love of my life and had 3 beautiful daughters. That was the relationship from hell after 14 years of violence and beatings I fled with my 3 daughters back to where I came from and decided to start a new life and give my kids a better life. It was a real struggle on my own with no support the kids would go back to their father every holidays until one time they came back and one of my daughters was suicidal and then came the devastating news they had been abused by an uncle from the age of 4 years old to 13, it felt like my heart was ripped out what do I do now. Well I did what was right called the authorities and he was jailed for life and has since died in prison, but the devastation it had on my kids was horrific. They dropped out of school, got in trouble with the police, did drugs, burglaries etc and I had to deal with it all on my own they just got so angry. Since then they have settled down as they have children my oldest is 26 with a 5 year old son she lost her daughter at birth that was another tragedy she still can’t sleep and has nightmares. My youngest has a 3 year old daughter and she gets scared to be alone and my middle daughter the one who was suicidal is 24 with 5 kids under 5 she suffers with bi polar disorder and depends on me 24 7. She has just moved down the road from me so I can have a bit of time but we rotate the kids and she is on my doorstep most of the time. She still gets weary of people and needs me around and has a mean anger problem so I still have to be there for all of them. Anyway my mum felt sorry for us and about 10 years ago helped us buy a cheap home she is 80 years old but about 2 years ago the kids all moved out and left me with the mortgage and I couldn’t afford it. My mum nearly lost her home so to save it I lost mine and my truck and now I am on a benefit renting a house with 40 dollars left a week for food power and petrol which is not happening, I am struggling so bad. In spite of all that I suffer depression and asthma and I am hugely over weight due to diabetes with low insulin and after so many diets because of this cant lose weight. I am so scared I had a mild heart attack about 3 months ago and I want to be around to see my grandchildren grow up and give them what I couldn’t have. My doctor told me I need that operation where they shrink your stomach but that is 30 000 dollars, I cant even raise 10 dollars if I needed it, I don’t know what to do I have bailiffs and bills coming out of my eyeballs plus my health. Please can someone help me this is just a brief story I could practically write a whole book of my life but every cent would help. I just want to enjoy the next few years I have with my grandkids and be happy. I have a PayPal account and my e mail address is Carolk@slingshot.co.nz. May God Bless whoever may read this Thanks.

I've been on here for a while now and I'm so ashamed to resort to this. I've contacted two people on here posting offers to help and turns out they just wanted my bank details (to try and use them I'm now assuming as contact ceased once they got them)

Luckily or unluckily there actually isn't a single penny in my bank. I have a massive cavity in one of my molars (literally half my tooth is missing and I haven't been able to afford to get it fixed) and I'm in agony. It hurts to eat, it keeps me awake, it makes me cry.

I also can't afford the prescription cost for my anti depressants, so am suffering withdrawals. I'm crying, hypersensitive, having stomach aches, headaches, disorientation etc.. I'm truly miserable and back to feeling suicidal. I'm in about 700 pounds worth of debt. I can't cope. And I can't deal with another BASTARD trying to scam me for my bank details to try and take the last of my money. Good luck you swine, I don't have a single penny.

I sound self pitying, I know. I may even sound to some of you like I'm making it up. Or that my problems are lesser to yours. And for all of that I'm sorry. If I had the money to help you rather than be here humiliating myself by begging I would.

Please, help me. I will even repay in the future when I'm out of this financial rut. Or pay it forward if needs be.

If you've taken the time to read this thanks.

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