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I am middle child of three brothers. Currently, my older brother and I are currently unemployed looking desperately to find a job again. Back in November, my mother was diagnosed with acute leukemia. A day after she was diagnosed she had a stroke and my mother has not been the same since. The stroke caused a condition called "Broca's Apasia" which affects the speech part of your brain. Basically with this condition she can understand everything spoken to her, but it's her finding those words to speak back which has been affected. No complete sentence hardly ever. Well my brother and I quit our jobs to become her caretakers at home. In to a few weeks of this we had to take her to intensive care at MD Anderson because she had developed MRSA infection (Hostpital Super-Bug), and she went into septic shock. Septic shock summed up is your organs going into failure. She was put into a sedated coma for a little over a month. She was then slowly brought out of the coma and transferred to a ICU at a Hospice/Rehabilitation Facility where the doctors estimated her recovery program to take 2-3 years. We all now how much money this will accumulate to. Her insurance is fixing to run out, and when she is put on medicaid they can take all of her assets to cover medical costs. So my brother and I had to put our house (Mom's House) up for sale so they wont take the house to cover her medical costs. If the house sells right now while my brother and I are unemployed we will be homeless. I dont know how or if websites like this really recieve donations, but it is worth a try. I am all out of options. Thanks for reading my story!

I am a stay-at-home mom with two adorable children. My husband left me today, taking all the money and the car. AND today is the day I usually buy groceries, so the cupboards are bare. I am planning to start hunting for a job tomorrow, but I need money NOW to feed my kids and get us on our feet -- he seriously left us completely penniless and I don't know how long it will take for me to find work and get my kids into affordable day care. We do not have family in the area to help us out, and the family we do have are having financial problems of their own. Any help would be greatly appreciated! We are in shock and don't know what to do.

Hello,
Me and my boyfriend are both 21 years old. We just recently moved out to colorado together to pursue our lives. We arrived with a set amount of money and had a specific plan to buy a car and get into a house, but things turned upside down. We have been forced to spend what little money we have in a motel 6 with our whole life in suite cases. We have been here for almost a month now and we have no more money to give to them. We have been living day to day for the and struggling to eat. We are very scared and see no other outcome but to be forced out on the streets. We have looked for jobs but it could be weeks before either one of us can get paid. We have pawned most of the belongings we arrived with and have been left with only our clothes. We have searched and searched for someone with an available room but it's hard for a couple, a gay couple at that, to find an opportunity, much less a safe opportunity. We had a life and we are both living examples of how your life can be turned upside down in no time at all. We have no family to help out and we are in a new area that we are not familiar with at all. We don't know what to do and are beginning to think that our future, no matter how much of a drastic change and shock, lies in the streets starving for food. We only need enough to get us into a safe and steady home. We are both very kind people and have helped others as much as we can. Now we hope that we can receive the same kindness from others in our time of need. Please help us if you can and we will accept anything you can give, we can use every penny offered.
Thank you very much for your time, interest, and donations.

Hello,
Me and my boyfriend are both 21 years old. We just recently moved out to colorado together to pursue our lives. We arrived with a set amount of money and had a specific plan to buy a car and get into a house, but things turned upside down. We have been forced to spend what little money we have in a motel 6 with our whole life in suite cases. We have been here for almost a month now and we have no more money to give to them. We have been living day to day for the and struggling to eat. We are very scared and see no other outcome but to be forced out on the streets. We have looked for jobs but it could be weeks before either one of us can get paid. We have pawned most of the belongings we arrived with and have been left with only our clothes. We have searched and searched for someone with an available room but it's hard for a couple, a gay couple at that, to find an opportunity, much less a safe opportunity. We had a life and we are both living examples of how your life can be turned upside down in no time at all. We have no family to help out and we are in a new area that we are not familiar with at all. We don't know what to do and are beginning to think that our future, no matter how much of a drastic change and shock, lies in the streets starving for food. We only need enough to get us into a safe and steady home. We are both very kind people and have helped others as much as we can. Now we hope that we can receive the same kindness from others in our time of need. Please help us if you can and we will accept anything you can give, we can use every penny offered.
Thank you very much for your time, interest, and donations.

Hello,
Me and my boyfriend are both 21 years old. We just recently moved out to colorado together to pursue our lives. We arrived with a set amount of money and had a specific plan to buy a car and get into a house. We have been waiting on our tax refunds to come in but they have been late for about 2 weeks now and the IRS has informed us that we will not see anything for at least 60 days. We have been forced to spend what little money we have in a motel 6 with our whole life in suite cases. We have been here for almost a month now and we have no more money to give to them. We have been living day to day for the past week and struggling to eat. We are very scared and see no other outcome but to be forced out on the streets. We have looked for jobs but it could be weeks before either one of us can get paid. We have pawned most of the belongings we arrived with and have been left with only our clothes. We have searched and searched for someone with an available room but it's hard for a couple, a gay couple at that, to find an opportunity, much less a safe opportunity. We had a life and we are both living examples of how your life can be turned upside down in no time at all. We have no family to help out and we are in a new area that we are not familiar with at all. We don't know what to do and are beginning to think that our future, no matter how much of a drastic change and shock, lies in the streets starving for food. We only need enough to get us into a safe and steady home. Safety deposit and first months rent along with bills. One month and we can both be back on our feet. We just need some help. We are both very kind people and have helped others as much as we can. Now we hope that we can receive the same kindness from others in our time of need. Please help us if you can and we will accept anything you can give, we can use every penny offered.
Thank you very much for your time, interest, and donations.

I need to rasie some money for my medical bills. I am 40 years old and a single mother of 3 children. I have had my share of medical problems from Stroke to depression but last year was the icing on the cake. I had went to my cousins' house and was helping him with arrangements for his wifes funeral (breast cancer) when I couldn't sleep. And when I say I couldn't sleep it was 4 days before I could fall asleep. I thought that it was just stress and noticed my shorts falling off. So I weighted myself and was in shock. Before the trip I weighted 248lbs but the scale said 219lbs. I couldn't figure what was going on because I had been eating more than ever. So I left my cousin and came home and went to my doctor. He wanted to run some test, he felt a lump in my throat. The Ultrasound showed some nodules and needed to have a biopsy. During the biopsy the doctor mentioned the spots to be calcified which meant noting to worry about. I was so happy. Then the next day my doctor called me at home and said we need to talk. I told him I know it's nothing since it was calcified and he said no that it is cancer. That a rare number of people will have this type of cancer. So I am unlucky. How can I be that 1 person in a million. Why couldn't I have hit the lottery. I am unable to work due to the dizzyspells and the fainting I have from this. I also have the shakes so bad that I look as if I will spill everything I touch. I had welfare insurance which covers the treatments but I am required to work for the system to keep the insurance and my doctor and my body will not allow this. I have worked all my life in the medical field until I became ill. I have applied for SSD and had to appeal the out come because this type of cancer is not covered by there means. So I am now stuck. I need surgury but have no means to pay. My doctor is willing to allow me to make payments while I get treatment but still need to upfront a part of the cost before they can do anything. So please help me.

Hello, my name is kimberly and i dont know where else to turn so i am posting on this website. I am a survivor of the joplin may 22nd tornado. I was working at walmart when we got a code black and we all went to the back of the store. We were all joking around not really thinking much about it. We never thought walmart would get hit. My brother called me and told me that there was a tornado in joplin and that it was big and not to panic. I still didnt think walmart could get taken down, we were in a busy populated area in the middle of the city. The power went off and i told my brother i had to get off the phone. It got pretty loud and sumone yelled that it was here. I looked up and seen the roof getting ripped off. Everyone then screamed and we got down on our knees and prayed. All i could do is pray to see my little boys again and my husband and the rest of my family. The winds were so fast and i was getting hit with all sorts of things and something was on my back and was very heavy and something hit me in the head. It got quiet and people thought it was over and i was yelling at everyone to stay down for a little while to ensure it was over. After about 5 minutes we got hit with the end of the tornado and was just holding on to whatever i could and telling everyone that i loved them, even if i didnt know them. We were very crammed together as some people were on top of each and there was zero moving room and we were getting heavily rained on and hailed on. I found a small hole to put my hand through so that hopefully someone would see it and help us out. After about 30 min sumone was able to help get me out and i started helping others get out as there were many injured and many children. I started ripping open blankets to give to people because we were all soaked, filthy and freezing. Once i finally got out of the store and to the parking lot, i was in shock. Everyones cars were on top of each other and crushed. And i looked around and everything was flattened for miles. I dont know how any of us survived because walmart was totaled where we were. I have dealt with alot of anxiety since then and am dreading spring this year. I would really like to raise money for a shelter to have peace of mind and to ensure my kids safety. I never want my familys safety. Going through this tornado has made me realize how important things are in life and to have fun with my family and to appreciate life. I am going back to school andd my car just broke down and we think its the cadillac converter which i cant afford. I also want to help my dad out. He is disabled and raising my 3 teenage brothers. He is hurting financially as well and i love to help him when i can. I have a new found look on life now and love my kids so much and im so happy i was able to go home to them. There were many people that didnt make it that day and that easily could have been me. There are many heros from that frightful day. I dont like asking for help but i didnt know where else to go. I appreciate the people that help out people like me. You are wonderful people and god bless. Anything at all would help me out at this time. Thank you for taking time to listen to my story and thank you for donating. You are amazing and cherish those you love because you never know what could happen. Thank you!

hello, i,m looking for help with the funeral costs for my mother in law her husband my father in law passed away on 17th december 2011 it came a very big shock to us all, they were together since they was 15 years old, myself and my partner was laid off work just after chritsmas my mother in law is really struggling with every day bills and we have got the funeral to pay for as well me and my partner are looking for work every day and relly trying our best, every penny counts and thank you very much..

Hi, I'm new to this so please bear with me.....

I am a 35 year old single mother of four beautiful children aged 10, 9, 5 and 5 months. I have a spinal injury that after many tests and consultations with Dr's and Neurosurgeons is inoperable and I now have to just 'deal with the pain', which I do, without medication, as I didn't want to add another problem to my ever growing list of health related issues that stem from the issues with my spine.

I discovered just over a year ago that I have a brother and sister (twins) who are 10 years younger than me. It was a massive shock but since finding out about each other we communicate on an almost daily basis through a social networking site and on skype and it feels like we have always known about each other. My children have no-one apart from myself and my mum and to have discovered my siblings and their children has been brilliant for us all.

We desperately want to go and see my brother and sister and their families but we need to fly and to be able to do so we all need a passport, which, having worked it out, is going to be very costly.

I have managed to find someone I know who falls into several of the categories to countersign our passport application forms so I have managed to save some money there and I have, through selling some items on ebay, managed to raise the money for all the photos to be taken and for copies of all of our full birth certificates, but the actual cost of the passports is proving harder to raise the money for.

I am embarrassed and ashamed that I am having to 'beg' for help but I do not want to go down the route of having to borrow the money from a loan company as the interest rates are astronomical and as desperate as I am to meet my siblings, I do not want to do so by getting us into debt as I spent 10 years paying debts off and we now live debt free, buying only what we can afford. We live within our means, do not holiday; in fact my children have never been fortunate enough to holiday; this is something I feel very upset about as I have many happy memories from my childhood family holidays....It breaks my heart when holiday adverts are on the television.

Any help will be gratefully received, no matter how small as we are all too aware - every penny helps!!

Thank you in advance for reading.

I've decided to try and get help through donations http://www.giveforward.com/unbreakmyheart and funding http://unbreakmyheart2011.blogspot.com/from outside sources since every doctor I've seen in 2 years agree that I need the leads to my ICD (defibrillator) replaced; but shuffle me back to the original doctor and wash their hands of me.

I'm raising funds for ICD replacement surgery, to go see a HOCM specialist (Dr. Craig Asher) at Cleveland Clinic in S. Florida and to have advanced testing through Vanderbilt Autonomic Center in Tennessee.

I don't want to admit I need help; I've always been a strong, independent person who took care of everything and everyone. In August 2009, my whole world changed. After my procedure, I applied for disability and was turned down twice and had to hire an attorney. I went from being "super" mom, wife & friend and care taker of an Autistic son to being the one who had to be taken care of.

So how did I get to the point I have to ask others for help? Shortly before Father's Day 2009, I fell and broke my foot. When it didn't heal, I went to my primary with a broken foot and came out with a broken heart. After the shock wore off from the doctor telling me that I was going to die if I didn't have valve surgery; I started asking questions.

I didn't quite believe him and thought he was over reacting when he told me I was going to die because I walked and ran 3-5 times weekly and even did strenuous yard work. I felt fine and have 4 children aged 9-26 and kept up with them and stayed very active in things they did; but I was a ticking time bomb just waiting for the right time for my heart to stop.

He sent me to several specialists who said I had nothing really wrong, just some mild valve problems associated with aging; which was a huge relief. Everything seemed normal except my EKG's; they showed I had a huge amount of PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) roughly 50,000 “extra” heartbeats daily.

My heart didn't really beat fully; it only quivered like a bowl of jello day in day out. The problem with it beating like this is, the heart becomes very ineffective at pumping and your cardiac output drops and heart muscle damage can occur.

The cardiologist and electrophysiologist I saw did extensive testing and recommended more testing in the hospital. I went in for a sleep study, Tilt table test and EP Study with Ablation. The sleep study revealed I had moderately severe sleep apnea and my oxygen goes from 99% down to 73% at night making it very dangerous for me when I sleep.

The tilt table test was the first inkling that something dangerous was going on inside. I fainted and had no palpable pulse; which is a very rare thing to happen. I was diagnosed with Dysautonomia - Neurocardiogenic Syncope and Orthostatic Intolerance.
I then had an ablation to burn the extra pathways in my heart and get rid of the pvc's I was living with daily. I was told this would be a relatively easy process and given a 95% success rate to get rid of the extra beats completely but it never crossed my mind that anything would happen.

What preliminary tests failed to show, is the pattern and origin of my arrhythmias were in a very dangerous spot to ablate - the RV Apex – in the bottom thin underside of the heart.

During the EP Study, I went into cardiac arrest and my heart stopped completely with no rhythm they could shock (Asystole), some how it started again for a few minutes but then stopped again. They were able to shock me back to normal sinus rhythm and luckily, the third time it stopped; it restarted on it's own so I didn't have to be shocked again.

I was diagnosed with Polymorphic Ventricular Tachycardia; a very dangerous, life threatening arrhythmia. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days trying to find a cause and to be prepped for an ICD (implantable cardiac defibrillator).

It took a cardiac catherization to finally find the problem and to show I had HOCM (obstructive Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy) and internal high pressures in my valves.

My regular EP had to go out of town after the first procedure, so his partner had to do the implant; he wasn't as skilled as my regular dr and botched the lead implants.

When they checked the leads the next day before releasing me, they found a problem with the lead placement but the dr said it was "ok" and sent me home. Since then, I've had nothing but problems with the unit and been told by several other EP's I need to have the leads replaced and the ICD could be causing part of my problems.

Doctors think my other problems are related to HOCM (obstructive hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) and Autonomic nervous system failure and when I faint, my heart stops briefly causing damage each time this happens.

After the procedure, my body started failing from the damage it sustained the 4 times my heart stopped. My original cardiologist told me I would be in a wheel chair and totally dependent on others for everything by the time I'm 50; which is daunting because in March I'll be 45 and I can't deny the facts - my body is failing.

I was put on 10,000g sodium daily, water/fluid loading, Midodrine (insurance won't cover it $312 - 30 day supply), Propanolol, Pantoprazole, pain meds, suppression hose and binders as well as having to stay supine the majority of the day - which caused my heart failure to worsen and my EF (ejection fraction) to go down.

Nothing the doctor's have tried has helped, I still faint and my heart stops on a daily basis and I never know from one day to the next if something is going to trigger fluid build up and I have an acute attack.

In June 2011 I fainted falling into the side of my tiled tub, lacerating the side of my head in the process, severely sprained my neck and suffered a concussion. After that episode, I became a bit more cautious with every move I make because the dr found declining neurological functioning and mild brain damage; he said any more falls could lead to permanent major brain damage.

With so many previous medical bills and co-pays, I can't afford the 20% co-insurance to have my ICD replaced and Mayo Clinic wants a $5,000 deposit up front even with insurance. My ICD alone is $125,000, leads another $30,000 and then there's the doctor and hospital fees; which I won't know the cost until the procedure is done.

Each heart rhythm specialist and cardiologist I see tell me there is nothing more they can do after going over my history and treatments; I have a long hard fight to go and I have to just be thankful each day I'm alive. Some days I'm really glad I made it through, other days when the problems and pain take over; I wish the dr's had let me die.

I developed PTSD after the procedure, panic disorder and extreme agoraphobia. I went into such a deep depression over my health issues, I was afraid I would never see the lighter side of things again. I finally went to see a psychologist who prescribed Lamictal and diagnosed me with Bi-Polar disorder which has helped greatly but I still struggle on a daily basis.

One day we were just the “normal” every day family and the toughest thing we had to deal with is a child with Autism. Then; our whole lives changed in an instant we were dealing with mounting medical bills, expensive prescriptions, tests, appointments, loss of income and dealing with the possibility of death on a daily basis.

You just never know what the day may bring, so keep those you love close to you and never take one second for granted.
From the bottom of my heart thank you - even if it's support to say hey; I'm here if you need to talk or I know how you're feeling.

I've decided to try and get help through donations http://www.giveforward.com/unbreakmyheart and funding http://unbreakmyheart2011.blogspot.com/from outside sources since every doctor I've seen in 2 years agree that I need the leads to my ICD (defibrillator) replaced; but shuffle me back to the original doctor and wash their hands of me.

I'm raising funds for ICD replacement surgery, to go see a HOCM specialist (Dr. Craig Asher) at Cleveland Clinic in S. Florida and to have advanced testing through Vanderbilt Autonomic Center in Tennessee.

I don't want to admit I need help; I've always been a strong, independent person who took care of everything and everyone. In August 2009, my whole world changed. After my procedure, I applied for disability and was turned down twice and had to hire an attorney. I went from being "super" mom, wife & friend and care taker of an Autistic son to being the one who had to be taken care of.

So how did I get to the point I have to ask others for help? Shortly before Father's Day 2009, I fell and broke my foot. When it didn't heal, I went to my primary with a broken foot and came out with a broken heart. After the shock wore off from the doctor telling me that I was going to die if I didn't have valve surgery; I started asking questions.

I didn't quite believe him and thought he was over reacting when he told me I was going to die because I walked and ran 3-5 times weekly and even did strenuous yard work. I felt fine and have 4 children aged 9-26 and kept up with them and stayed very active in things they did; but I was a ticking time bomb just waiting for the right time for my heart to stop.

He sent me to several specialists who said I had nothing really wrong, just some mild valve problems associated with aging; which was a huge relief. Everything seemed normal except my EKG's; they showed I had a huge amount of PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) roughly 50,000 “extra” heartbeats daily.

My heart didn't really beat fully; it only quivered like a bowl of jello day in day out. The problem with it beating like this is, the heart becomes very ineffective at pumping and your cardiac output drops and heart muscle damage can occur.

The cardiologist and electrophysiologist I saw did extensive testing and recommended more testing in the hospital. I went in for a sleep study, Tilt table test and EP Study with Ablation. The sleep study revealed I had moderately severe sleep apnea and my oxygen goes from 99% down to 73% at night making it very dangerous for me when I sleep.

The tilt table test was the first inkling that something dangerous was going on inside. I fainted and had no palpable pulse; which is a very rare thing to happen. I was diagnosed with Dysautonomia - Neurocardiogenic Syncope and Orthostatic Intolerance.
I then had an ablation to burn the extra pathways in my heart and get rid of the pvc's I was living with daily. I was told this would be a relatively easy process and given a 95% success rate to get rid of the extra beats completely but it never crossed my mind that anything would happen.

What preliminary tests failed to show, is the pattern and origin of my arrhythmias were in a very dangerous spot to ablate - the RV Apex – in the bottom thin underside of the heart.

During the EP Study, I went into cardiac arrest and my heart stopped completely with no rhythm they could shock (Asystole), some how it started again for a few minutes but then stopped again. They were able to shock me back to normal sinus rhythm and luckily, the third time it stopped; it restarted on it's own so I didn't have to be shocked again.

I was diagnosed with Polymorphic Ventricular Tachycardia; a very dangerous, life threatening arrhythmia. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days trying to find a cause and to be prepped for an ICD (implantable cardiac defibrillator).

It took a cardiac catherization to finally find the problem and to show I had HOCM (obstructive Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy) and internal high pressures in my valves.

My regular EP had to go out of town after the first procedure, so his partner had to do the implant; he wasn't as skilled as my regular dr and botched the lead implants.

When they checked the leads the next day before releasing me, they found a problem with the lead placement but the dr said it was "ok" and sent me home. Since then, I've had nothing but problems with the unit and been told by several other EP's I need to have the leads replaced and the ICD could be causing part of my problems.

Doctors think my other problems are related to HOCM (obstructive hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) and Autonomic nervous system failure and when I faint, my heart stops briefly causing damage each time this happens.

After the procedure, my body started failing from the damage it sustained the 4 times my heart stopped. My original cardiologist told me I would be in a wheel chair and totally dependent on others for everything by the time I'm 50; which is daunting because in March I'll be 45 and I can't deny the facts - my body is failing.

I was put on 10,000g sodium daily, water/fluid loading, Midodrine (insurance won't cover it $312 - 30 day supply), Propanolol, Pantoprazole, pain meds, suppression hose and binders as well as having to stay supine the majority of the day - which caused my heart failure to worsen and my EF (ejection fraction) to go down.

Nothing the doctor's have tried has helped, I still faint and my heart stops on a daily basis and I never know from one day to the next if something is going to trigger fluid build up and I have an acute attack.

In June 2011 I fainted falling into the side of my tiled tub, lacerating the side of my head in the process, severely sprained my neck and suffered a concussion. After that episode, I became a bit more cautious with every move I make because the dr found declining neurological functioning and mild brain damage; he said any more falls could lead to permanent major brain damage.

With so many previous medical bills and co-pays, I can't afford the 20% co-insurance to have my ICD replaced and Mayo Clinic wants a $5,000 deposit up front even with insurance. My ICD alone is $125,000, leads another $30,000 and then there's the doctor and hospital fees; which I won't know the cost until the procedure is done.

Each heart rhythm specialist and cardiologist I see tell me there is nothing more they can do after going over my history and treatments; I have a long hard fight to go and I have to just be thankful each day I'm alive. Some days I'm really glad I made it through, other days when the problems and pain take over; I wish the dr's had let me die.

I developed PTSD after the procedure, panic disorder and extreme agoraphobia. I went into such a deep depression over my health issues, I was afraid I would never see the lighter side of things again. I finally went to see a psychologist who prescribed Lamictal and diagnosed me with Bi-Polar disorder which has helped greatly but I still struggle on a daily basis.

One day we were just the “normal” every day family and the toughest thing we had to deal with is a child with Autism. Then; our whole lives changed in an instant we were dealing with mounting medical bills, expensive prescriptions, tests, appointments, loss of income and dealing with the possibility of death on a daily basis.

You just never know what the day may bring, so keep those you love close to you and never take one second for granted.

From the bottom of my heart thank you - even if it's support to say hey; I'm here if you need to talk or I know how you're feeling.

Hello, my name is John, I am 52 yrs old partially disabled man who is at the end of my rope. Once upon a time I was pretty established yet psychiatric issues have plagued me my whole life. I have just completed another 20 day treatment which makes 4 this yr for major severe chronic depression and social phobias / anxiety along with suicidal thoughts and plans. I am a recovering alcoholic 24 yrs now and thats all I have left, being sober. Six yrs ago I was diagnosed with Lymes arthritis, a rare one along with fibro mialgia symptoms. It has now been diagnosed as Rheumatoid arthritis, my medications for meds alone are over 1.200.00 a month which the state is paying, but the ins will run out soon. The ins co will not pay for an operation I need on my back. I am in severe chronic pain, emotional, physical, mental, all day every day and I am close to my end. For the past 8 yrs I owned a small garden center, and I cannot afford to re open this spring for we had a terrible yr with 2 storms wiping us out and the economy. I owe vendors who are taking me to court, owe sales tax, and am just doomed it seems. Before I was a alcohol and drug couselor, and a good one at that and saved hundreds of lives. After 16 yrs I burned out and had a breakdown. I now live with my mother temp, I cannot find work and feel like such a burden and a loser. She is such a love, the only thing holding me back from harming myself is her. Four weeks ago, my 32 yr old nephew and my beloved dog passed away. I raised my nephew like my son and I have no children, I am grieving terribly. I have a very hard time asking for help much less begging or pand handling. Everything is crashing down on me and I am single, alone and suffering . I am a good man that some how didnt make it in life.Every day I fight depression and suicidal thoughts, I am sceduled for elctric shock therapy in 2 weeks for severe depression, have never known what it feels like not to be depressed. I look back when there were days I'd pay for a strangers meals, sponsored children and animals. Is it really true that nice guys end up last? Anything would help, thanks for listening.I have no money for a paypal account nor have a checking account, my number is 203-264-8907 Love and light,
John

After almost a year of denying that I truly am a victim of domestic violence, making excusses and all, I was shown pictures of what was done to me and oh my goodness, I was in shock, and sitting back and looking at what I have been through for the past few years made me wake up. Even though my abuser is not around at the moment, he has made many threats, I am needing to get to a safe place, I know where I am going, just need the funds to do it. I have 8 year old child that I need to get in a safe and happy enviorment. I've been told that we are being watched and that scares me. I need to get out of here Asap. Please anything to help would be grateful. I have a 2 bedroom w/ basement house I need to pack up and get out. I have until Feb. 01, 2012 to be able to get out safe. I NEED HELP with money to get a moving truck and fuel. Please if you know any companies out there that would help, please let me know. if you need proof of this abuse I can do that. Merry Christmas everyone!!! PLEASE HELP, I am scared for my son and myself...

This year ive been diagnosed with Spondillitus, my spine has started to form like bamboo and I can hardley walk,move or get out of bed in the morning.

Been put on to Benifits has been a mass

ive shock to our family, and now with christmas here weve got our eviction notice. Weve always been catious with our cash have pawned out worldy goods to survive but housing is only covered at 50% thats a £250 a month shortfall. We owe £750 and untill i can see the specialist have no way to stop my Wife and 2yr old daughter been made homeless. Ive tried everything i can and feel like such a failire, I see specialist 22nd Feb 2012 and hope after this we can make progress towards me going back to work.

PLEASE HELP KEEP US TOGETHER AS A FAMILY I BEG YOU

Hi everyone. If you're reading this, thank you. Let me say upfront, I'm not asking specifically for money. I'm just going to spill my guts about this hand I was dealt.

I've had a hard life. My mother passed away when I was 12, and my father passed away at 20. He left me a lot of debt and a house to maintain.

The stress of all this has given me problems. I started having panic attacks and was hospitalized for a cardiac arrhythmia. Recently, I developed optic neuritis. I'm working on getting Medicaid to cover some of my costs but right now I'm in debt about #1000.

There is one blessing in my life, a relative who pays my internet and utilities. He also helps me with food. But that's all he can do. He goes without to provide me with that. Otherwise I'd be homeless, hungry, and who knows where.

So I'm blessed to have the basics in life. But there's so many things that I need that I have to beg other people for. My family is...not so supportive. All I have left are aunts and uncles, all except one on my mom's side. My mom's side of the family pretty much abandoned me when she died. They put me though shame and humiliation when I ask for help.

I want a job, but I live in a very rural area. I've applied s o many places up to an hour away but I don't hear anything back. Recently I applied for some state jobs which I'm hoping might come through.

These are the things I need and things I want, so you know what my intentions are.

Need:
Toilet paper.... :( The way I've been getting it now is to go into public restrooms and putting some in my purse. I feel wrong about this. But what can I say, it's a necessity?

Personal items...I won't go into detail but I'm talking about um, feminine ones. I get the Dollar Store brand kind, but even then it's too much. I've had to go without it which is very hard.

Hygiene items...I stopped using soap and shampoo conditioner. I would love to...I feel dirty honestly. But I can't afford anything. I only use deodorant every few days because the bottle is running low and I'm trying to make it last.

House items...I need dish washing soap. I can't afford paper plates and am just washing dishes with hot water now. Sometimes I cant' clean it all the way through that way, but I just have to forget it. I also need laundry detergent. I'm almost out of a huge bottle that I have made last over a year. It was Sun brand from the dollar store, and I loved it. I'm all about generic.

Gas money...My car is an old SUV, and it takes a fair amount of gas. I try to limit when I drive. But it's a necessity since I live alone and in a rural area. I have to drive to run errands, go see the doctor, go to job interviews. I usually beg for this the most cause this is one of the things I can't do without.

Medication...I'm on two heart medications because of my arrhythmia. It's important I take them. I tried taking them twice per day instead of three, and I had horrible palpitations. So this is kind of my priority. As I'm still uninsured, both medications cost about 12 dollars a month.

Okay those are all things that I feel I need. Now, what I "want".

Clothes...I haven't bought new clothes since 2007. That's when my dad got diagnosed with cancer. My shirts have holes in them, so do my jeans. I got them from Goodwill originally most likely, I like to be frugal. The only person I have is made of linen and has a hole so things fall out of it! I've lost weight and I have had my jeans fall down in public. It's bad. I only have one bra and it's way past it's prime. I would love a little money to buy some basic things. Jeans that fit, some cotton T-shirts, a purse. Maybe even something for job interviews? I think part of the reason I get denied is because I show up in jeans and a T and flip flips. But that's all I have.

Beauty stuff...Okay, this stuff is totally not worth your money, I get it. But I just thought I'd list everything. It sucks being a young woman who can't feel pretty. I'm unwashed, my clothes make me feel like a hobo. I see other girls my age in class (I attend college part time thanks to financial aid) looking and smelling beautiful. I mean...

I just want a hair cut. Recently, I hacked about 6 inches off myself with scissors. It's not pretty. I just want a little powder and some lip gloss to not feel so plain. I just want a spritz of perfume so that there's something beautiful in my senses. I daydream about when I used to wear cute clothes, go to a salon. Wear mascara and paint my names. Ahh...But this is just a dream. I don't expect anyone to help me with things like that.

A new laptop/tablet...The one I have now is really old and really slow. Don't expect anyone to get me one. If it happened, I would probably assume I'm dead and in some sort of heavenly afterlife. Then I might pass out from shock.

So this my friends, is my general beg for help. I'm a 23 year old girl without much family. My basics are covered, but that leaves a lot for someone who is broke. I'm actively searching for employment. I've applied from Dr.'s offices to bars. I'm part time in college, and I'm not sure what I want to study yet.

I don't drink, if I had the money for beer I'd buy TP instead. I don't smoke or do any illegal drugs. I'm not a criminal.

I am not someone who wants to just take money. If you are down on your luck too, please don't send me anything. Put it in savings. Give it to some of these people who are about to lose their homes if you must. They're deserving.

If you're apprehensive about giving money but still want to help, you totally can. A package filled with toilet paper, tampons, shampoo...that would be like Christmas morning to me, I swear.

I'm not sure what I'm going to get out of this. Writing this was therapeutic though. If you're on this site, you're already a nice person. I bet 90 percent of the traffic is people who want something, like me. People who go on here to help someone is probably such a rare thing.

Thanks for reading.

Hello and yes....I am asking, well begging for help. I never thought that this would be me. I was always the giver. You hear of other people having problems, but you never think that it will be you. Well, times have changed. I am a single mom that was downsized when my company shut down in my home state and facing foreclosure. After the shock and worry wore off (and believe me, it took a while) I picked myself up and found a job in another state. Early this year I was once again unemployed due to "changes in the industry". All that really means to me is the company that I worked for did not make enough profit.

It's amazing but right now a whole boatload of people are falling into this category.

Here is how you can help: I need to raise $25,000
I need to pay off my car (no decent public transportation in my area) and credit cards (money that I used to live on) and some bills.
I have never depended on the kindness of strangers before but now I am bearing my burdens to all and asking for help.

One dollar or two, Any amount that you can give will be a blessing and I thank you in advance.

Greetings
On 5th November 2011 I was fortunate to get a contract to work with East Africa Safaris during the month of December being a tourist peak season in Mombasa Kenya I will be working with hundreds of individuals who have cars that will be used during the December holidays
Tourism in Kenya is a growing one, with the potential to positively impact many more people without employment
I'm writing to ask you to make a financial donation in order for me to repair my Toyota Noah town ace in time before the Christmas holidays
This issue is one that is close to my heart. I have
Struggled with this problem, of repairing my car so that it can generate money and to provide for my family and fees for my brothers who are the local universities
That's why I'm dedicated to doing everything in my power to help my family and continue to provide assistance
I've been challenged to raise $2100 dollars through my Participation in fundraising for the car repair before the December Christmas Holidays. Please do what you can to help me reach this goal with your donations.
Please consider donating to the car repair in the form of any of the following:
1. Car respraying and panel beating $350
2. 4 Munroe heavy duty shock absorbers. $250
3. 5 new firestone tires $500
4. Gps tracking system for security $500
5. 8 black seat covers $200
6. Two head lamps and indicators $300
Total $2100

Regards
Andrew

Hi my name is Michelle, I feel terrible having to do this but i just don't know what else to do. Currently we are $4550.00 past due on our current mortgage. We were served with foreclosure papers yesterday by the sheriff. That was a horrible feeling. I am still in shock that this is all happening to us. My fiance and I have a son who will be turning 2 this month. I can not imagine not having a home to live in during the holidays. My fiance broke his back in 2004 and is permanently disabled. I am a stay at home mom and operate a daycare. If we loose our home, I will have to close my business. I can not afford to get another job as I would have to pay for daycare. My fiance has strict restrictions that prohibit him from lifting his son. I am begging for any help that we can receive. Please if anyone is reading this and can afford to help us, please find it in you hearts to do so. I do not want my son to spend the holidays homeless.

Please...if you can help. I lost my job due to my company losing a government contract. It was to my understanding that I would start with the other company but someone higher up in the company decided not to keep me. I was let go unexpectedly. What a shock. I need about $1,100 to cover my bills for the next 3 weeks. I'm actively looking for work and I have requested unemployment. I'm optimistic that everything will be okay. Gotta have hope. Please send donate money. It would be greatly appreciated! Thanks for your generosity!

My husband died after a long illness, I took care of him alone, to my shock I discovered I was not taken care of. I am still fighting an ongoing battle with his insurance company, and it has tapped out all I had. To make matters worse I got swindled by a man that I thought I was starting a business with. I have no place to go, if I don't get some money together for rent I will be put out onto the street. Please could someone find it in their hearts to donate to me?

Hello, my family and I are in desperate need of financial assistance. We have been going through a storm of rain these past couple of months. I've always heard the saying when it rains it pours, but never ever thought it could get this bad or continue on this long.It started with my husband having a tumor in his throat, the next week I was told I was over paid financial aid and had to pay back a very substantial amount of money. Week after that our daughter shattered her elbow, I stepped on a nail and had to go to the ER, following week on a trip to a Dr.s appointment out of town our vehicle broke down nearly 200 miles away, had to have it towed at 4 dollars per mile. And they charged us an arm and a leg for a simple simple repair. My husband never got to his appointment. Medical expenses are just breaking us this year, we do not have medicaid and everytime we see a dr we have to pay a copayment that is ridiculous. Especially ER and specialist visits. Our bank account was also hacked into by someone who had our checking account number, so our account was locked. During that time several checks that had been sent out to pay bills came back NSF. So things keep adding up and adding up. 2 weeks ago I was diagnosed with an ectopic pregnancy, which was a complete shock because my tubes are tied! The medical care for this treatment is very expensive. It just seems as soon as we catch up or get paid, everything is gone plus we are still in the negative. We just cant catch a break. We are extremely faithful people...but at the moment I just can't seem to understand why this keeps happening? Why can't we catch a break. These are only the major things that have been happening...there are so many in betweens. Now we are about 1500 to 2000 dollars behind. This all started in June and every month we say to ourselves it will be better next month and so on and so on. Well, so far it seems as if we are on a downward spiral. We are always the couple who people can come to for help, the couple who seeks out those in need and offers our help. Whether it be financial or spiritual or just a helping hand. And now, we are going through the roughest times we have ever had to endure, and unfortunately we have no one to help us in this time of hardship. We are grateful for all that we have and know that we are beyond blessed, sadly though you cannot feed and house a family when you have absolutely no money. I know that things could be worse. We just need a little help getting back on our feet. Just to catch up. Once we can catch up we will be back in business and will definitely pay it forward. Sorry for the long vent, and I am so ashamed of having to post this on here. There is just no other options, we have exhausted everything we have. If there is any possible way you may be able to help us, we would appreciate it beyond measure. Thank you for your time.

Well, I'm not quite sure where to start with this post. I will tell you a little bit about my situation. I am a 25 year old female who has almost completed my bachelors degree in Criminology and am hoping to go for my masters degree next year.
I grew up in a dysfunctional household so chaos is not a new thing for myself or my family. However, I consider myself to be different and believe that I have a purpose in life and that is to help others.

In May of this year (the beginning of my semester) my life had turned upside down. I was going through extreme family issues earlier this year as my brother has mental health issues as well as drug/alcohol dependency issues. Nevertheless, I had managed to cope with family situations and tried my best to be strong and focus on my own life ( a difficult thing to do when you are always worried about others). On the evening of may 12th I was settling in to bed when I received a phone call from one of my sisters that my other sister had been rushed to the hospital. I had quickly come to the emergency room to find that she had overdosed on many prescription pills. I had waited in emergency for two hours not knowing at all what was happening. The RN informed me that they had to just let the drugs go through her system and it was a waiting game. By the time they had told me, it was about 2 in the morning. I got a ride home from one of her friends, however five minutes later I got a text from my sister in law (brother's wife) to call 9-1-1. I called the police and we drove to my brother's house. I had walked in and there was blood everywhere.I couldn't tell what who's blood it was. I was in shock. To make this short, both of my siblings had attempted suicide in the same evening. My sister was put on life support and my brother was put in psych. This night has left me traumatized to say the least.
I had to take the rest of the semester off however it was too late to get a refund on my tuition. I know that I am still dealing with the trauma of what happened that night/early morning. I guess It was the straw that broke the camel's back. My doctor had recommended that I took a break until September to avoid stress. I am working hard towards healing in every way possible. I have found a new job that starts on August 2nd to help pay for my tuition for this September, however I am still struggling as this much needed mental break has taken a toll on my finances. I had not prepared myself for this kind of situation.
The only thing I can do at this point is focus on getting out of the darkness.I would love to go back to finish my degree in September so I can move on with my life. I want to help others who are in these types of situation because many people were such a huge support for me. If you could help pay for any of my tuition for this upcoming semester I promise to pay it forward whenever I can in life. I know this is a long shot. I don't expect much but miracles happen every day. I can provide proof of my schooling, gpa, and tuition fees or anything else you would like to know. Anything will help at this point. If you have read this far, thanks for taking the time to read this.


Thank you for your consideration.
Sincerely,
Emily (Vancouver, BC Canada)
-PS- to all who are reading this, I will make sure to update everyone on if I get any donations. I hope that everyone else on here gets the help they need. Good Luck to all of you.

If you have any questions please contact me at notyouraverageblonde@hotmail.ca

My name is Carmen and I will start off by adding as many details to this picture.
In 2005 my family won the visa lottery. The U.S Government approves a limited number of visas every year to foreign nationals. My son has a medical condition for about 9 years now, alopecia areata. The capillary hair left his head in chunks, now being completely bold. I refer to him as he due to a full array of bulling issues encountered in the past and perhaps still possible in the future. He is not growing hair on the head anymore. As a child he dealt with it, however the culture shock and the new school environment were adding extra pressure on his already tormented psychic.

He is fine now due to prednisone infiltration by Dr. S., a great practitioner with one of the best Dermatology Clinics in Nevada. It was not easy and I had to start working 2 jobs during the day and the night shift on weekends as a cashier in Century 21 Theaters.

From 2006 to 2007, I applied with over 200 companies, made phone calls day and night trying to get employment. As 2007 started things got better and I was happy with even extremely low paid jobs I held. My son was getting the right treatment and that was everything I cared at the time. I never applied or accepted any help from any governmental sources, used only the temporary work I got.

The financial situation I was in had a deep impact on our morals and still, we kept high hopes about everything that surrounds us. It was a time not too long ago that made me realize that I do need help and can’t push this anymore. My mother passed away overseas and I could not even travel to see her or say my last good bye. My father is alone, old and I really would like to see him if I could. We still carry around 20K in debt, a dragging debt that became unbearable. We both have limited jobs that keep us alive but never allow the dream we chased here. We make all ends meet paycheck to paycheck with less than a hundred left as extra per month.

I am open an honest, I feel exhausted by this ride and hope that if this debt would be paid back everything will be much better for us. I had over 80K to pay back and did with great sacrifices and tears. I refused bankruptcy or debt settlement as I knew that karma will return. I am grateful for the good that happen in my life and I just want to be able to pay back the remainder and move on. Thank you for reading, understanding and all the help send our way. I will make sure to pay it forward in due time. Thank you.

My name is Carmen and I will start off by adding as many details to this picture.
In 2005 my family won the visa lottery. The U.S Government approves a limited number of visas every year to foreign nationals. My son has a medical condition for about 9 years now, alopecia areata. The capillary hair left his head in chunks, now being completely bold. I refer to him as he due to a full array of bulling issues encountered in the past and perhaps still possible in the future. He is not growing hair on the head anymore. As a child he dealt with it, however the culture shock and the new school environment were adding extra pressure on his already tormented psychic.

He is fine now due to prednisone infiltration by Dr. S., a great practitioner with one of the best Dermatology Clinics in Nevada. It was not easy and I had to start working 2 jobs during the day and the night shift on weekends as a cashier in Century 21 Theaters.

From 2006 to 2007, I applied with over 200 companies, made phone calls day and night trying to get employment. As 2007 started things got better and I was happy with even extremely low paid jobs I held. My son was getting the right treatment and that was everything I cared at the time. I never applied or accepted any help from any governmental sources, used only the temporary work I got.

The financial situation I was in had a deep impact on our morals and still, we kept high hopes about everything that surrounds us. It was a time not too long ago that made me realize that I do need help and can’t push this anymore. My mother passed away overseas and I could not even travel to see her or say my last good bye. My father is alone, old and I really would like to see him if I could. We still carry around 20K in debt, a dragging debt that became unbearable. We both have limited jobs that keep us alive but never allow the dream we chased here. We make all ends meet paycheck to paycheck with less than a hundred left as extra per month.

I am open an honest, I feel exhausted by this ride and hope that if this debt would be paid back everything will be much better for us. I had over 80K to pay back and did with great sacrifices and tears. I refused bankruptcy or debt settlement as I knew that karma will return. I am grateful for the good that happen in my life and I just want to be able to pay back the remainder and move on. Thank you for reading, understanding and all the help send our way. I will make sure to pay it forward in due time. Thank you.

My name is Carmen and I will start off by adding as many details to this picture.
In 2005 my family won the visa lottery. The U.S Government approves a limited number of visas every year to foreign nationals. My son has a medical condition for about 9 years now, alopecia areata. The capillary hair left his head in chunks, now being completely bold. I refer to him as he due to a full array of bulling issues encountered in the past and perhaps still possible in the future. He is not growing hair on the head anymore. As a child he dealt with it, however the culture shock and the new school environment were adding extra pressure on his already tormented psychic.

He is fine now due to prednisone infiltration by Dr. S., a great practitioner with one of the best Dermatology Clinics in Nevada. It was not easy and I had to start working 2 jobs during the day and the night shift on weekends as a cashier in Century 21 Theaters.

From 2006 to 2007, I applied with over 200 companies, made phone calls day and night trying to get employment. As 2007 started things got better and I was happy with even extremely low paid jobs I held. My son was getting the right treatment and that was everything I cared at the time. I never applied or accepted any help from any governmental sources, used only the temporary work I got.

The financial situation I was in had a deep impact on our morals and still, we kept high hopes about everything that surrounds us. It was a time not too long ago that made me realize that I do need help and can’t push this anymore. My mother passed away overseas and I could not even travel to see her or say my last good bye. My father is alone, old and I really would like to see him if I could. We still carry around 20K in debt, a dragging debt that became unbearable. We both have limited jobs that keep us alive but never allow the dream we chased here. We make all ends meet paycheck to paycheck with less than a hundred left as extra per month.

I am open an honest, I feel exhausted by this ride and hope that if this debt would be paid back everything will be much better for us. I had over 80K to pay back and did with great sacrifices and tears. I refused bankruptcy or debt settlement as I knew that karma will return. I am grateful for the good that happen in my life and I just want to be able to pay back the remainder and move on. Thank you for reading, understanding and all the help send our way. I will make sure to pay it forward in due time. Thank you.