Sadness Tags

I been thinking back on how I got so alone in this world. I was in a couple of abusive relationships where what few friends I had drifted away. I have always been shy so making friends hasn't always been easy for me. I had a couple close friends but they are long gone from my life now. The last couple of relationships, my boyfriend was my best friend but they weren't much of a friend or boyfriend but I stayed in both way too long because it was all I had. Both were so abusive I have no self esteem left. Then to top it off, for the past couple of years depression has caused me to eat way too much. I work part time so very little money, eat on the cheap, and without a car, I just haven't gone anywhere. I just sit at home. To tell you the truth, I am really ashamed of the way I look and people can be SO mean when you are big. About a month ago, I stepped on a scale at Publix and found I weigh 293 lbs. For the past month I have been reaccessing my life and I have already lost 23lbs. Out walking more and beginning to thaw my heart out a bit. Unfortunately with this thaw, I am finding there is so much pain, sadness, shame, and loneliness. I guess the food was covering all of that up. Today I was actually on links about depression then on to crisis and it led me to this site. I was just thinking about picking up and moving to a new area, anything to get me out of this rut. Unfortunately the weight and loneliness I will take with me anywhere I go. So I thought I would give this a try. Honesty, I am not a downer. I was always known to have a great sense of humor, was trying to learn German, and took off on adventures at the drop of a hat. I love to picnic so much, I actually spread a blanket out on the livingroom floor and have floor picnics. I loved to walk in the rain. I usta love hiking and being outside. I was a good friend too. I lost her somehow but am trying to get her back :) I know there are chat things but I am older (49) and I never chatted. I don't know much about twitter but I do get texts from Blake Shelton on twitter because I love his sense of humor (warped and a little naughty like mine)Anyway, I didn't mean for this to be a book, just reaching out to see if anyone is there...

and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.

and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.

and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.
My paypal account is added, maybe you can spare a few pence to help

Hi and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.

I was on the internet trying to find a charity that would help us, when I came across Begslist. I have a difficult time asking for money, let alone "begging" for it. However, my husband and I are in a desperate situation.
A couple of months ago, we lost our baby son. We were 5 months pregnant. It was the most difficult thing my husband and I ever experienced. The pain hurt to our cores and stung like nothing we had ever experienced. I feel empty (literally and figuratively) and would love to hold our son. We are left with a sadness that we will carry with us the rest of our lives.
Now, as the medical bills have started to arrive, we are forced to relive our loss daily. As I open each envelope, my heart hurts and I long for our son.
On top of being left with such sadness, we have also been left with over $9,000 in medical bills and NO clue as to how we are going to be able to pay them.
That is what brings me to my search for charity and I pray that some kind soul (or souls) out there find this post. I do believe in miracles and know that God is SO faithful.
Any donation amount would greatly help. I would be more than happy to disclose medical bill amounts and names of debtors.
Thank you and God bless.

Hi, i'm Francesco, i'm 28 yo and i'm from Florence (Italy). Sincerely... i'm not starving, i have live parents (but my father can't work because of ictus) and i'm in good health. I know that there are tonns of people that are living a poor life with sadness and health problems.. but it's not my fault. If possible i help people, i can't help with money, but with my work. I'm a stand up comedian, i'm a comic actor and i write all i act. But here in Rome it's the panic! Financial crisis is at high level from 2008 and all nice guys want to do acting! So.. i must change work... but i've studied to became an actor 7 years of accademy.. theatre labour.. and more. i don't deserve it. So i need money to raise my own show and to bring some happyness at people who see me on stage. Can you help me? Thanks.
Ciao ciao everyone!

I am a broken mum at the moment and need anyone to help for survival purposes.i have taken care of my brainill son 24 hours daily who now is in hospital.about a 3 weeks ago my husband who is the sole provider had a very traumatic accident,garage door fell on his head split his sculp open,after emergency medical care wound has healed nicely.then shortly after that he had a major stroke with bloodpress 230/180 drs has found tumors in his colon,spread to his liver,kidneys and lungs.we are cuurently going through major difficulties,and trauma ,no income and try to deal with all this to the best we can.medical bills are piling up,food we dont have and i beg of you to please assist us anyone who are by means with any donations.we have our only daughter getting married 27/11 and cannot even give a lunch for only 30people as was originally arranged.all due to these traumatic incidents happening now.i am not by means to help in anyway as i am running between my husband and son daily hospital in and out.please is there anyone that can help urgently.if you could donate and email me ,would appreciate it so much,to make my daughter day a happy one with all the sadness going on in our life and her dad to still walk her down the isle.help for anything,medical bills ,money for food and help my husband son and daughter.thank u so much,plse get in contat for much more details.

Hello, I dont know if this works and people actually donate or not but im willing to try. I am a 34 year old single female who is alcohol dependant and suffering from depression and dissociation. I contemplate suicide daily as im in so much poverty and cant afford the help I need to get well. I long for the help of a pyschiatrist to help me but havent the money to pay for it. I am constantly struggling to pay for food and electric and am behind on my rent. I have to live on £60.00 a week and find it unbearable. would love some money so I could have some joy back in my life and be able to pay for the help I need. I doubt anyone will donate but just expressing my sadness helps. I feel completely lost like im living in a bad dream that I cannot wake up from. Im haunted nightly by horrific sexual abuse dreams and feel totally alone in this world. My dream was to become a writer one day but my sickness has taken over so much of my life that even getting washed is a struggle for me now. sometimes id like to sleep forever as my world is to difficult to live in. Any donations or help would be greatly appreciated.
Kind Regards
Nicola

This blog will devote an honest story about a very brave woman who throughout his life only knows the grief, pain and suffering ... my mother ... a few years ago, after a tragic accident and my father's death, even as an underage girl remained alone with her mother .. my mother is a really generous person, a person with a big heart full of love .. Given that we are after father's death, the other two of us, mother coped through life as they knew only that the two of us survived, and not to be found on the street .. She has worked in a company as a cleaner and thus earning money to pay the loan, and directing the money from which we live ... his mother a few months ago lost her job because she is on her left lung cancer was observed, and no longer able to work ... and is unable to pay the loan which was raised to buy some small piece of land on which we ourselves have made a small cottage in which we live now ... We have not had a man at home I remember that we are hungry, frostily operated and participated in building the house ... but the mother was always brave and hoped that it will get better tomorrow, cold nights comforted me, hugged and talked to all problems in one go , that we will one day live a normal life like everyone else .. when I saw a child playing with a beautiful, new toys, and after a few hours and toys throw it away, I would be sad, because my mother had money to buy me one, but this would give me the rules of the old pieces of doll clothes with which to play and comforted me by saying that we will one day buy the most beautiful Barbie doll ... thanks to her, I could not, even though she wanted, because he barely collected money to cover costs and bills that are coming every month. It's true mother did not earn enough to be able to start work on the house, so she decided while she had a job to raise a loan and to all health .. and better if it had never picked up, because now I see how in the dark room, because we do not have electricity that we excluded because of debts and a pair of unpaid bills sitting and crying, they drink a large quantity of pills that was kept alive, but not for long .. :((( is a look I know I can not help her .. just know that every month come new unpaid accounts, the rate loans more expensive, and we have no where to be back soon ... we expect that we will get someone from the bank, knock on doors and telling us that we move from our modest home by his mother with a lot of sweat, blood spilled and made ... .. I'm stuck because I'm his best friend and her parents asked him to allow me access to their computer and internet so I spoke to all those people who understand me for at least a little help ... because I know that somewhere in the world there are people of good heart that will help us .. I am sure of it ... that would pay off our debts, we have nothing to sell, but we only hope that all those who understand us in any way that could help us ... believe that we welcome and donations of clothes, medicines, money ... and also I'm sure all of you in your closet has at least one piece of clothing that does not carry, I believe that each of you every day because of money buying things that you never need, and believe that this money is welcome and anyone a bar for what little life he was much else in life, made you happy .. please do not judge me, do not make fun of this by my painful story, because I really do not know how to watch someone so dear to you and not be able to help him ... the only thing I want, and my greatest desire that I have is to see that beautiful smile on her mother's face, which has long since disappeared, because they are occupied by a pretty face problems, worry, hunger, misery and poverty, illness ... I believe that you or Written the smallest part of one of sadness and pain that we passed along, we pass by every day .. do not blame your mother that has raised loans in the bank that we can not repay, because if it did not raise never would have had nowhere to spend the night ... now just know that we were God is determined by birth and who will allocate which belong to the Society of bed .. just do not know what all the bad things in life happen to good people, why all the misery, disease, sorrow, suffering, going to good people? What are they deserve ... but I still have faith in God and you my dear .. and if someone in any way can help us..:((((((((((((((((

Hi, this will be probably the fourth post I have made. I am writing because I am desperate for someone to save me. My best friend is currently dying of cervical cancer. She is only 23 years old. I have practically no money because I have severe back injuries which disable me from working. I have a cleaning job in which I only get paid $200 a month. My friend Melani who has cancer has no family and neither do I. I am desperate for help or support from someone. One treatment is about $2,000+ and there have already been 3 treatments. We thought about the possibility of a hysterectomy which the doctors said it'd be about $10,000 or more. I don't have that kind of money. Melani has a younger brother who just had his 8th birthday party and she was unable to attend because she was sick. He doesn't know that she has cancer yet because they don't ever see each other. I want to help her be happy with him and live a full and healthy life. I am afraid because the doctor says she may not have more than a few months. If I don't get the money for some type of treatment, she will die. Honestly, I'd probably die too, she is my life and pretty much my only friend, I have no one left in this world for me. She brings me happiness and laughter even in this time of sadness. I need her with me, please someone I am begging, please help me. I can't stand the sight of disappointing her and letting her go without a fight. I am willing to pay back half of whatever is given. Thanks.

Hi, this will be probably the fourth post I have made. I am writing because I am desperate for someone to save me. My best friend is currently dying of cervical cancer. She is only 23 years old. I have practically no money because I have severe back injuries which disable me from working. I have a cleaning job in which I only get paid $200 a month. My friend Melani who has cancer has no family and neither do I. I am desperate for help or support from someone. One treatment is about $2,000+ and there have already been 3 treatments. We thought about the possibility of a hysterectomy which the doctors said it'd be about $10,000 or more. I don't have that kind of money. Melani has a younger brother who just had his 8th birthday party and she was unable to attend because she was sick. He doesn't know that she has cancer yet because they don't ever see each other. I want to help her be happy with him and live a full and healthy life. I am afraid because the doctor says she may not have more than a few months. If I don't get the money for some type of treatment, she will die. Honestly, I'd probably die too, she is my life and pretty much my only friend, I have no one left in this world for me. She brings me happiness and laughter even in this time of sadness. I need her with me, please someone I am begging, please help me. I can't stand the sight of disappointing her and letting her go without a fight. I am willing to pay back half of whatever is given. Thanks.

Hi, this will be probably the fourth post I have made. I am writing because I am desperate for someone to save me. My best friend is currently dying of cervical cancer. She is only 23 years old. I have practically no money because I have severe back injuries which disable me from working. I have a cleaning job in which I only get paid $200 a month. My friend Melani who has cancer has no family and neither do I. I am desperate for help or support from someone. One treatment is about $2,000+ and there have already been 3 treatments. We thought about the possibility of a hysterectomy which the doctors said it'd be about $10,000 or more. I don't have that kind of money. Melani has a younger brother who just had his 8th birthday party and she was unable to attend because she was sick. He doesn't know that she has cancer yet because they don't ever see each other. I want to help her be happy with him and live a full and healthy life. I am afraid because the doctor says she may not have more than a few months. If I don't get the money for some type of treatment, she will die. Honestly, I'd probably die too, she is my life and pretty much my only friend, I have no one left in this world for me. She brings me happiness and laughter even in this time of sadness. I need her with me, please someone I am begging, please help me. I can't stand the sight of disappointing her and letting her go without a fight. I am willing to pay back half of whatever is given. Thanks.

Hi, this will be probably the fourth post I have made. I am writing because I am desperate for someone to save me. My best friend is currently dying of cervical cancer. She is only 23 years old. I have practically no money because I have severe back injuries which disable me from working. I have a cleaning job in which I only get paid $200 a month. My friend Melani who has cancer has no family and neither do I. I am desperate for help or support from someone. One treatment is about $2,000+ and there have already been 3 treatments. We thought about the possibility of a hysterectomy which the doctors said it'd be about $10,000 or more. I don't have that kind of money. Melani has a younger brother who just had his 8th birthday party and she was unable to attend because she was sick. He doesn't know that she has cancer yet because they don't ever see each other. I want to help her be happy with him and live a full and healthy life. I am afraid because the doctor says she may not have more than a few months. If I don't get the money for some type of treatment, she will die. Honestly, I'd probably die too, she is my life and pretty much my only friend, I have no one left in this world for me. She brings me happiness and laughter even in this time of sadness. I need her with me, please someone I am begging, please help me. I can't stand the sight of disappointing her and letting her go without a fight. I am willing to pay back half of whatever is given. Thanks.

Hi, this will be probably the fourth post I have made. I am writing because I am desperate for someone to save me. My best friend is currently dying of cervical cancer. She is only 23 years old. I have practically no money because I have severe back injuries which disable me from working. I have a cleaning job in which I only get paid $200 a month. My friend Melani who has cancer has no family and neither do I. I am desperate for help or support from someone. One treatment is about $2,000+ and there have already been 3 treatments. We thought about the possibility of a hysterectomy which the doctors said it'd be about $10,000 or more. I don't have that kind of money. Melani has a younger brother who just had his 8th birthday party and she was unable to attend because she was sick. He doesn't know that she has cancer yet because they don't ever see each other. I want to help her be happy with him and live a full and healthy life. I am afraid because the doctor says she may not have more than a few months. If I don't get the money for some type of treatment, she will die. Honestly, I'd probably die too, she is my life and pretty much my only friend, I have no one left in this world for me. She brings me happiness and laughter even in this time of sadness. I need her with me, please someone I am begging, please help me. I can't stand the sight of disappointing her and letting her go without a fight. I am willing to pay back half of whatever is given. Thanks.

Hi, this will be probably the fourth post I have made. I am writing because I am desperate for someone to save me. My best friend is currently dying of cervical cancer. She is only 23 years old. I have practically no money because I have severe back injuries which disable me from working. I have a cleaning job in which I only get paid $200 a month. My friend Melani who has cancer has no family and neither do I. I am desperate for help or support from someone. One treatment is about $2,000+ and there have already been 3 treatments. We thought about the possibility of a hysterectomy which the doctors said it'd be about $10,000 or more. I don't have that kind of money. Melani has a younger brother who just had his 8th birthday party and she was unable to attend because she was sick. He doesn't know that she has cancer yet because they don't ever see each other. I want to help her be happy with him and live a full and healthy life. I am afraid because the doctor says she may not have more than a few months. If I don't get the money for some type of treatment, she will die. Honestly, I'd probably die too, she is my life and pretty much my only friend, I have no one left in this world for me. She brings me happiness and laughter even in this time of sadness. I need her with me, please someone I am begging, please help me. I can't stand the sight of disappointing her and letting her go without a fight. I am willing to pay back half of whatever is given. Thanks.

Hi, this will be probably the fourth post I have made. I am writing because I am desperate for someone to save me. My best friend is currently dying of cervical cancer. She is only 23 years old. I have practically no money because I have severe back injuries which disable me from working. I have a cleaning job in which I only get paid $200 a month. My friend Melani who has cancer has no family and neither do I. I am desperate for help or support from someone. One treatment is about $2,000+ and there have already been 3 treatments. We thought about the possibility of a hysterectomy which the doctors said it'd be about $10,000 or more. I don't have that kind of money. Melani has a younger brother who just had his 8th birthday party and she was unable to attend because she was sick. He doesn't know that she has cancer yet because they don't ever see each other. I want to help her be happy with him and live a full and healthy life. I am afraid because the doctor says she may not have more than a few months. If I don't get the money for some type of treatment, she will die. Honestly, I'd probably die too, she is my life and pretty much my only friend, I have no one left in this world for me. She brings me happiness and laughter even in this time of sadness. I need her with me, please someone I am begging, please help me. I can't stand the sight of disappointing her and letting her go without a fight. I am willing to pay back half of whatever is given. Thanks.

Hi, this will be probably the fourth post I have made. I am writing because I am desperate for someone to save me. My best friend is currently dying of cervical cancer. She is only 23 years old. I have practically no money because I have severe back injuries which disable me from working. I have a cleaning job in which I only get paid $200 a month. My friend Melani who has cancer has no family and neither do I. I am desperate for help or support from someone. One treatment is about $2,000+ and there have already been 3 treatments. We thought about the possibility of a hysterectomy which the doctors said it'd be about $10,000 or more. I don't have that kind of money. Melani has a younger brother who just had his 8th birthday party and she was unable to attend because she was sick. He doesn't know that she has cancer yet because they don't ever see each other. I want to help her be happy with him and live a full and healthy life. I am afraid because the doctor says she may not have more than a few months. If I don't get the money for some type of treatment, she will die. Honestly, I'd probably die too, she is my life and pretty much my only friend, I have no one left in this world for me. She brings me happiness and laughter even in this time of sadness. I need her with me, please someone I am begging, please help me. I can't stand the sight of disappointing her and letting her go without a fight. I am willing to pay back half of whatever is given. Thanks.

Hi, this will be probably the fourth post I have made. I am writing because I am desperate for someone to save me. My best friend is currently dying of cervical cancer. She is only 23 years old. I have practically no money because I have severe back injuries which disable me from working. I have a cleaning job in which I only get paid $200 a month. My friend Melani who has cancer has no family and neither do I. I am desperate for help or support from someone. One treatment is about $2,000+ and there have already been 3 treatments. We thought about the possibility of a hysterectomy which the doctors said it'd be about $10,000 or more. I don't have that kind of money. Melani has a younger brother who just had his 8th birthday party and she was unable to attend because she was sick. He doesn't know that she has cancer yet because they don't ever see each other. I want to help her be happy with him and live a full and healthy life. I am afraid because the doctor says she may not have more than a few months. If I don't get the money for some type of treatment, she will die. Honestly, I'd probably die too, she is my life and pretty much my only friend, I have no one left in this world for me. She brings me happiness and laughter even in this time of sadness. I need her with me, please someone I am begging, please help me. I can't stand the sight of disappointing her and letting her go without a fight. I am willing to pay back half of whatever is given. Thanks.

Hi, this will be probably the fourth post I have made. I am writing because I am desperate for someone to save me. My best friend is currently dying of cervical cancer. She is only 23 years old. I have practically no money because I have severe back injuries which disable me from working. I have a cleaning job in which I only get paid $200 a month. My friend Melani who has cancer has no family and neither do I. I am desperate for help or support from someone. One treatment is about $2,000+ and there have already been 3 treatments. We thought about the possibility of a hysterectomy which the doctors said it'd be about $10,000 or more. I don't have that kind of money. Melani has a younger brother who just had his 8th birthday party and she was unable to attend because she was sick. He doesn't know that she has cancer yet because they don't ever see each other. I want to help her be happy with him and live a full and healthy life. I am afraid because the doctor says she may not have more than a few months. If I don't get the money for some type of treatment, she will die. Honestly, I'd probably die too, she is my life and pretty much my only friend, I have no one left in this world for me. She brings me happiness and laughter even in this time of sadness. I need her with me, please someone I am begging, please help me. I can't stand the sight of disappointing her and letting her go without a fight. I am willing to pay back half of whatever is given. Thanks.

My husband and I have been together for 3 years now. Since we first got together we have had to move 6 times in 4 different cities. We have went through one rental contract after another, moving once each contract was up. Each time, having to find new jobs in a new area. This has taken a major toll on our family in the sense of having no stability. We moved into a new home back in November, a home that the owner's agreed to sell to us for CFD. Finally feeling as though we have some security and structure, we became comfortable, only to find out at the end of last month that the owners now want to sell it outright. We do not have the credit or job history to get a loan through any bank or lender. This is once again leaving us with no place to call home. And with it being such short notice, we had little time to try to make new arrangements. Now we have to move ourselves and our 2 young children in with my parents until we can get our feet on solid ground again. This is going to mean the four of us living in a single room that used to be a 2 car garage. This disappointing news was made worse by me losing my job 2 weeks ago once it was discovered that we would be relocating far away. My husband was let go from his place of work back in January after missing too many days after his brother was killed in a car accident. 4 months into the new year has only brought us sadness and disappointment, and I am to the point of putting any small bit of pride I had aside and asking for help. We are a younger couple who want nothing more than to provide a nice, safe, secure home for our children. We don't drink, do drugs or party. We have always earned our living the honest hardworking way, and we continue to wait to see that come through for us. We are both actively looking for work,filling out applications, sending in resumes and contacting work placement places constantly. We just need that jump start to get us settled into a permanent home. Because, it is extremely hard to keep a job when you have to constantly move. If you are able to help in any way, be it by donation or job placement, we would greatly appreciate it and would like for you to send a message with an email address so we can thank you personally. As far as our experience, I have 5 years' clerical experience including medical and have completed my generals in college with top grades, and my husband has done work restoring car exteriors and graphics/paint along with some mechanical work and random clerk positions, as well as labor/factory work. Please help us make a stable home for our two wonderful kids, who deserve that and so much more! Thank you!

Please, anyone who will listen I am forced onto the streets in danger of rape and murder, because I am not safe in my 20 foot 1977 broken down Dodge motor home. I can't go to WEAVE, because they won't allow all my pets, my family will not take me in with them either, and any friends I had are too scared of the guy I'm running from to help me, or they have left me, because they could no longer watch me being destroyed by this person. I love my animal friends and am willing to crawl through the mud with them because they are all I have left in the world and the only ones who always love me, although I can see their sadness and disappointment every day. Please before it is too late for us all. I am Misty, they are Angel, Kona, Rover, Chunky, Mama, Buckwheat, and Baby the newest stray I could not find a home for and could not stand to let them be put down. I have even been willing to be admitted to a mental facility or thought about getting myself arrested by the police just to have a moments peace. I am going through physical, psychological, emotional,financial,abuse and sensory deprivation. I eat 15 days out of the month at the most every month, for 12 years now, to make sure my critters always have what they need first. I am in a dangerous neighborhood with no transportation, and my health has deteriorated to the point where constant pain is here, and death feels around the corner for me. I had a collapsed lung,from pollups,during my last job while simply walking to the restroom on my break, chest pains, constant head aches, asthma, allergies, panic attacks and clinical depression, I have applied for SSI, and SSA to get benefits but it is a slow, repeated process that is very difficult to get if you are 37 years old and appear okay to someone who isn't really looking or looking deep enough. I have no medical, or dental, and need both critically. I also need flea, ear mite, and tapeworm medication for my pets. I just need a boost to get away, and start the healing process for us all. I'm not looking to be rich, or greedy just out of this very toxic, and destructive environment, and want very much to build a life for us all by getting healthy, possibly going back to school and definitely, work. I do have dreams, goals , and invention ideas, but no opportunity in this captive, unhealthy, oppressive situation. I wish to be a mom (to humans)if still possible, and truly in love someday, and desire mostly to be a good, kind person to others. I am willing to show our (critters and my) progress to whoever willing to help so you know helping me is not in vain or a waste, to your mental and emotional satisfaction. And will hopefully be able to eventually give back in return someday, the sooner the better. This help would save our lives, salvage our love and health , future and happiness, and the love and appreciation, I can already pay you back for right now. Honorably and respectively, and non-shamefully that is, or I would have tried less dignified things by now. I grew up with an alcoholic step dad, which, possibly, set me up, unknowingly, for the situation I am in now. This is not an excuse, but it is the truth, that I, apparently, was not strong or smart enough, or had opportunity, to overcome the result of that. Regardless, of fault, I feel guilty and regretful, and so so sorry for not. Please give me a chance, and WHEN successful, very hopefully, I will spend my whole life giving others a chance at a good life, as well. Thank You, so much for taking the time even to just care enough to read this. Please, please, PLEASE? And, HOPEFULLY, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!! Love always, Misty and furry family. (They're not human, but they are important. You never know they could save the planet somehow, someway, someday. Or maybe just you, same difference, all ='s 1 and 1 ='s all)WE LOVE YOU, WE LOVE YOU, WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! I SAVE AND SPEND EVERY PENNY, SO ANY PENNY WOULD HELP. I'M TRYING TO STAY HOPEFUL, WHEN ALL SEEMS OR MAY BE HOPELESS. a KIND WORD MAY EVEN MAKE OUR WORLD GO ROUND. I DON'T TAKE ANYTHING FOR GRANTED. IT MAY BE ALL I EVER NEEDED. I have no bank account so please email me at mrainbowfright@gmail.com for forwarding info. Sorry for the inconvenience, but if I have nothing to put in it, then whats the point?

Please, anyone who will listen I am forced onto the streets in danger of rape and murder, because I am not safe in my 20 foot 1977 broken down Dodge motor home. I can't go to WEAVE, because they won't allow all my pets, my family will not take me in with them either, and any friends I had are too scared of the guy I'm running from to help me, or they have left me, because they could no longer watch me being destroyed by this person. I love my animal friends and am willing to crawl through the mud with them because they are all I have left in the world and the only ones who always love me, although I can see their sadness and disappointment every day. Please before it is too late for us all. I am Misty, they are Angel, Kona, Rover, Chunky, Mama, Buckwheat, and Baby the newest stray I could not find a home for and could not stand to let them be put down. I have even been willing to be admitted to a mental facility or thought about getting myself arrested by the police just to have a moments peace. I am going through physical, psychological, emotional,financial,abuse and sensory deprivation. I eat 15 days out of the month at the most every month, for 12 years now, to make sure my critters always have what they need first. I am in a dangerous neighborhood with no transportation, and my health has deteriorated to the point where constant pain is here, and death feels around the corner for me. I had a collapsed lung,from pollups,during my last job while simply walking to the restroom on my break, chest pains, constant head aches, asthma, allergies, panic attacks and clinical depression, I have applied for SSI, and SSA to get benefits but it is a slow, repeated process that is very difficult to get if you are 37 years old and appear okay to someone who isn't really looking or looking deep enough. I have no medical, or dental, and need both critically. I also need flea, ear mite, and tapeworm medication for my pets. I just need a boost to get away, and start the healing process for us all. I'm not looking to be rich, or greedy just out of this very toxic, and destructive environment, and want very much to build a life for us all by getting healthy, possibly going back to school and definitely, work. I do have dreams, goals , and invention ideas, but no opportunity in this captive, unhealthy, oppressive situation. I wish to be a mom (to humans)if still possible, and truly in love someday, and desire mostly to be a good, kind person to others. I am willing to show our (critters and my) progress to whoever willing to help so you know helping me is not in vain or a waste, to your mental and emotional satisfaction. And will hopefully be able to eventually give back in return someday, the sooner the better. This help would save our lives, salvage our love and health , future and happiness, and the love and appreciation, I can already pay you back for right now. Honorably and respectively, and non-shamefully that is, or I would have tried less dignified things by now. I grew up with an alcoholic step dad, which, possibly, set me up, unknowingly, for the situation I am in now. This is not an excuse, but it is the truth, that I, apparently, was not strong or smart enough, or had opportunity, to overcome the result of that. Regardless, of fault, I feel guilty and regretful, and so so sorry for not. Please give me a chance, and WHEN successful, very hopefully, I will spend my whole life giving others a chance at a good life, as well. Thank You, so much for taking the time even to just care enough to read this. Please, please, PLEASE? And, HOPEFULLY, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!! Love always, Misty and furry family. (They're not human, but they are important. You never know they could save the planet somehow, someway, someday. Or maybe just you, same difference, all ='s 1 and 1 ='s all)WE LOVE YOU, WE LOVE YOU, WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! I SAVE AND SPEND EVERY PENNY, SO ANY PENNY WOULD HELP. I'M TRYING TO STAY HOPEFUL, WHEN ALL SEEMS OR MAY BE HOPELESS. a KIND WORD MAY EVEN MAKE OUR WORLD GO ROUND. I DON'T TAKE ANYTHING FOR GRANTED. IT MAY BE ALL I EVER NEEDED.

Hi there. I am a 31 year old male British male and my girlfriend of 10 years left 4 months ago. I have been left heart broken and homeless. When we met all them years back her Dad was beating her up and seeing the bruises got to much for me. Her sadness was unbearable so I moved her into my parents house and gave up my college course so we could afford our own place. The plan was to help her feel good again and set her free. or fall in love and live happy ever after. Her mum died from aids and It was only after she moved in that she told me she was illegal in the country and from Zimbabwe. With no id and no hope of a job I worked rubbish jobs to pay the bills untill she became so depressed I had to give up work and look after her. 2 people lived on one poor wage and on/off government benefits. We had so so much love that its heart breaking its gone. After finally being told our immigration case failed 2 years ago we put in various appeals until we were told we had no choice but to leave. Then came the answer to a load of prayers and we found a lawyer and they said they could help us stay in the UK. Sadly my ex was finding life very hard again and felt suicidal. I tried to pick her up and help her see the positive and she turned to Buddhism to get her through the day. After a few visits to the Buddhist centre she left me. SO SO SO NEAR THE END OF A TEN YEAR NIGHTMARE. She thanked me for loving her and told me I had the biggest heart of anyone she had met..she told me she would die for me. I dont know what went wrong but she said I was better off without her. I swear along with a mental breakdown this Buddhist group some call cultish have ruined her mind and life. My part in her immigration case and the good case we had was ended by her and for one reason or another all contact has been severed and though her last email said life without me is unbearable I am not allowed to go near the Buddhist centre she lives at and they had me arrested so in affect I cannot contact my ex. We ended 4 months ago and the flat was so empty and the stress so bad I gave EVERY SINGLE THING TO CHARITY AND HAD ME A BIT OF A BREAKDOWN. From 21 years old until that day I remained strong and gave her my everything. And now this. Nothing left. She rang me a months ago telling me she started a new case and is feeling suicidal..YET MARRYING A BUDDHIST GUY SHE MET..thats the last I have heard and I am heart broken homeless and scared for her. I need to raise money for anything really. So I can afford a bus pass to look for and maintain work. So I can give a bit of money to the very few friends I have to help me keep a roof over my head. That would possibly allow me to claim government benefits which is a start. Being able to afford to rent a place of my own might allow me to win my sweetheart back. She can't have gone from loving me that much she would die for me to loving enough to marry straight away can she. I dont know maybe but theres always hope and any help anyone can give would be much much appreciated. This is all genuine and I am in tears writing it. Yeh I'm a sad git lol. I can show emails between my ex and I and the Buddhist centre if you so wish. I mean the world to her apparently and she does to me. I would be so grateful for any donations and I will some way give back when possible. if you knew me you would know I am selfless and its very rare I ask for anything for myself. peace and love

My request is a two part request. Yes, my family and I have been struggling with bills as we don't make more than minimum wage. I know that so many others are struggling like myself so this is just perhaps, another request to help humanity along.

I'm scared at where we are going (all people). So many of us seem to be working and working without being able to raise ourselves out of the ashes.

I could get into detail and I will if anyone need but I never really had a chance in life to get started.

My immediate needs are rent, electricity and some funds to get started in a business where I can actually try to make money.

I've been seeking additional employment for close to two years now and been on many interviews but I will admit, I'm not 19 any more so it's more difficult.

This is really rough because I don't look like I am greedy or something cause I truly don't have any assets.
I figure I need $600 toward rent and about $400 or so to get a web site going to sell artwork and other ideas I have.

I am creative and have some education. I've just been delt a not so great deck of cards in my life.

Any help anyone can give will be great.

Thank you all for reading my note.

I am in no way mis-representing myself and I can back up the fact that my life has been a roller coaster of financial sadness.

My heart also goes out to others in need.

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