Relief Tags

Where to begin? Well Im currently pregnant, close to 7 months and working part time. Ive stepped in some muck lately but it just gets deeper, trying to get out though. I have a roof for which Im thankful but have nothing to cook on, I have an ok job but no transportation, Im being blessed with a second child at my age but no bassinette or car seat, I barely make the bills and have a disabled mom to support, but I get up every day and try. Im only asking for a little relief from worry as I near maternity leave (unpaid of course). If anyone can just donate spare change thats a few cents off my mind, and believe me worry weighs more than an elephant! Anything would be a blessing, pennies from heaven or a quarter from the ashtray in the car :) Thank You

In need of prayers...and donations. I have been battling chronic pain for about 8 years. This has progressively gotten worse and caused more horrible symptoms and is ultimately interfering with my quality of life. I REFUSE to take any type of Rx medications for pain. I have resorted to taking Goody's powders which only cause more issues but they are the only thing that offer ANY relief. I do not have health insurance and frankly don't really like going to doctors. I finally broke down and went to the doctor in early April and was told that I have adhesions (internal scar tissue) from a previous surgery that was causing the pain and needed a Lap procedure done to remove it. The cost of this procedure is approximately $6000. I have a job,, my husband has a job but neither offer health insurance and there is just no way with three children and our other bills to save up this much money. We have tried and every time we do something comes up and the money has to be used elsewhere. I just want my life back. I want to be able to play with my boys like I used to instead of only feel like laying around so that I don't hurt AS bad. I want to be able to stop taking Goody's before they cause more problems with my stomach. I want my life back! I don't even care if it's just a $1 donation...it's more towards surgery than I have now.

hi im 27 i just recently just had a baby he is 3months now and my bills are stacking up and i cannot even aford to buy him a crib and the stuff he needs i just want some relief its so hard to raise a family now a days with the prices of everything rent and food if your a parent then you would understand where im coming from even a lil bit of money would help me out i know there are kind people out there and i know there are parents that have been in my situation before so please if you understand my situation please help thanks 4 reading this:)!!!

Hello I am 29 and in desperate need to debt relief. I took out Payday loans and maxed out my credit cards to help pay for tuition. Now I am in deep debt and I can't get out.

I work and it's not enough to cover my bills. I want to attend school in the Fall but, I won't be able to because the payments are taking my entire paycheck.

Any donation will be used to pay off my debt, I just need some help so that I can begin to live a debt free life.

I'm a single mother aged 35. I've lived in California for almost 14 years ( it will be 15 this year on memorial day weekend.)
I’m going to be a little blunt, because I'm tired and I want to give up so bad, but I can't. I'm better than that and my kids are my motivator. I wake up everyday and remind myself of 2 things :1) Faith is what you have when you all your beliefs are blown to hell. 2) What doesn't kill you makes you stronger -Nietzsche

I am a 35 year old educated, ambitious, head strong woman. I have owned my own business with my soon to be ex. I know what hard work and determination are. I went to private school and I am educated. I value my community and have always given back and will continue to do so. I also know that I have the drive and determination to get myself back on track. I'm not ASKING for a handout, I'm asking for help up! I also know what loss is. I don't have the business, a house or EVEN the car anymore. We lost everything. He bounced back , I didn’t. All I have is HOPE, that someone or some program can help me carve a path back to self sufficiency.
It's gone continually downhill.I am amazed at the allotment of programs for both housing and employment for all different walks of life. However, what about those that are just struggling. No hang ups, no record, just struggling and are LOW INCOME. I'm not writing this to make you feel sorry, I'm writing this because I have exhausted possibilities that I have researched both on my own or been given the information to do the work with.
There are people who struggle everyday through no fault of their own. They don't want a hand out, but help up would be a relief. Society doesn't need band-aids they need solutions.
Not every county, city or state program fits everyone's needs.
First of all Section 8 has been closed since BEFORE I left my marriage so that idea could never work. The list has been closed for years. Because I have limited time with my children, I do not qualify for CALWORKS. I have tried getting assistance in every way possible. I had very little unemployment left since I have been struggling to find work. I was delayed for about 3 months because they needed verification and I had to appeal and request a hearing. I have won my appeal but will only receive $91/week and for a short period of time.
I took a project management class through WIA in 2011, and I was able to get CTB benefits. I NEED HELP. I have hit the absolute worst point in my life and still refuse to give up. I have been looking for work and am now HOMELESS.I am in week 3 of staying in an extended stay hotel (paid for by my mother back east, who makes maybe $26,000/yr in PA) I recently sold my car because I needed to pay bills and rent. I have maybe $75 to my name.
The fact that they say there are services for low income/ homeless is frustrating. I say this because there is no category for me. I'm not a drug addict or in recovery. I don't have a mental illness. I wasn't in prison, I don’t' even have a RECORD. I can proudly say I've never been arrested or even in the back of a cop car. I'm not a victim of domestic violence and I do not beat my kids. Why aren't there programs in place for single parents struggling to make it? Everyday people that are responsible and respectable. I understand the need to assist those that may not have the capacity to take care of themselves. However, I have a huge problem with the fact that Santa Clara County & all programs (private, govt or state funded) will rehabilitate and reintroduced felons into the community, but if you're poor, homeless, no record, are looking for work, have high intelligence; sorry, you can't get help. This sounds extremely cynical and jaded, but I am a little after going through all I have.
I have been told constantly “I wish I could do something but we don't have any programs to help you.” My favorite reply is: "Yeah and you have done everything. I'm surprised you even knew about all the programs you did"
I have talked to employment counselors, program coordinators, program advocates and case managers, volunteers, just about anyone. The bankruptcy is hindering my chances of securing housing, even if I had employment.

The icing on the cake has to be with food stamps and General Assistance. I qualified for Cal-Fresh. However, at the time I had a car worth $2200. So I wasn't able to get General Assistance. Fast Forward a year later, I HAD to sell my car to pay bills. Now this month when I went for General Assistance, I qualify.

It's a never ending cycle, a constant push down. I can take public transportation to work, but to get around and see my boys and being able to transport them would be extremely difficult, not to mention financially stressing. I have scoured employment books, read articles, searched the library, spent hours online trying to find a job, program, a company, anybody who could be a resource whether for low income assistance or employment.
I can probably tell you about a plethora of services this county (Santa Clara) offers for both income assistance and job services.I am registered with CALJOBS; I know all the career sites and have my resume there. I get interviews, however I am starting to think the bankruptcy from loss of business is holding me back when employers do background check.
I also could teach the business writing class or the resume writing classes they offer at Work2Future, I practically did when I took them. I could do the same at Sacred Heart. I've been to InnVision and EHC. I’ve talked to Sunnyvale Community Services. Boy he was a treat he sounded older then my 80 yr old grandma. When I said I need housing and employment help, he gruffly told me to check the newspaper and hung up. I've called St Josephs in Gilroy. I've talked to a program coordinator at West Valley Community Services. I called the Sobrato Organization hoping they had ties to something and one the employees just by grace of god happened to pick up and take my call. I was able to talk to someone at HIF (they couldn't help)
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I am responsible, respectable and just want to work, have a place to live, and be able to have my children 50/50. I have no police record. I am not in recovery, nor have I ever had to be in a program
I want to work and am attaching a compilation of ALL my work skills. I would not send this out otherwise, I would tailor it specifically to the job I am applying for.

I used to volunteer as much as I could I like being active in my community and helping others. I'm still about that I believe in PAY IT FORWARD. I believe the good you do comes back to you tenfold and that no matter what is going wrong in your life, someone else is struggling just as much if not more; so be thankful for what you have.
I attend church and was a hospitality volunteer for that as well.
I just need help getting on my feet. I have no family, other than my children here in CA.
I do not want to move back east and be far away from them. I want to work, I want to live again. I want to smile and mean it.

I hate what my life has become and know that I am SO MUCH BETTER THEN THIS.
Please help me : money is fine, but it's only a temporary fix, please help me find a program that can assist me in getting on my feet, direct me to employment, and most of all afford me the opportunity to have my children much more consistently so I can be a mom again.
Thank you
Courtney DiMiceli

Hello, my family needs help! Like most of the people here we are struggling. We are in debt trying to make it with twin baby girls. We just need someone to find it in their heart to send some relief. We are hard working, average americans just trying to get by. I am not asking for a certain amount because at this point anything will help us out.

I just got released from the hospital this week after having been there for a week. I also have a condition called pyoderma gangrenasum which causes debilitating ulcers on my legs. I went in to have a doc see my ulcer because it had gotten to the point where it was painful to walk. They took blood tests and found a slew of other things wrong. They found that I was Anemic, low Vitamin D right off the bat. Upon further tests including colonoscopy, CT scan, Enema and more they found a blockage and a small hole in my colon so I was admitting and pumped with medication. I started feeling better and after a week they finally let me go home. I am still on multiple medications and am struggling with getting things back to normal. My Crohn's disease has made my life a living hell at times. Some days I can't eat without pain, I suffer from arthritis like symptoms that make it painful to walk, it wakes me up at night so I have difficulty sleeping and now on top of that I have become moody and depressed. I am unable to work and have no income. I am in the process of retrying to get disability after being denied because I am only in my 30s and they think I can still work. Stress makes my condition worse and I cant help but be stressed every day. I get very little relief. I have a wonderful fiance who has been struggling to pay for all of our living expenses on his own and it is making his life dramatically harder as well. I need help. I am asking for your grace and kindness right now. It is increasingly difficult to be able to afford just daily items such as soap and shampoo, not to mention medications because I am unable to afford insurance. Please if there is any amount you can give, it would be wholeheartedly appreciated. I am in dire straights right now.. Thank you for taking the time out to read this..

I never thought i would find myself in this situation, never thought i would have to ask complete strangers for help but here goes...
I recently left an abusive partner after several years, the relief is undescribable. Unfortunately during the relationship i was naive enough to take on the majority of his debt. I have managed to secure myself a new place to stay however im now drowning in bills from my old accomodation i shared with him. Im stuck between paying for my new place (and thus securing my freedom and new life) and clearing what i owe on the old place and being free of the past.
I cannot afford to do both, and im in real trouble if i do not pay off bills from the old place.
So im begging you good people for help, i hope that someone out there can help me.
Many thanks for your time reading this post

I am currently going to school to get my certification in medical assisting. I have a 7 year old highly ashes son who is my reason for trying so hard. I currently came out of a bad relationship and ended up with nothing, no job, a car that is on its last leg, and a house that's falling apart. I go to school during the day time and I have no one to watch my son at night, so I could get a job...I have never felt so lost in my life. I want so badly to provide for my son, I'm down to 100 dollars left of my income tax money and no relief in sight, I only have till august and ill complete school, I just don't know if I can financially survive till then...I'm so scared that ill have to drop out just so I can get a job, and all my schooling will be for nothing..I've never begged for anything in my life, I'm a caring person and try to always help those in need, I just hope now that I'm in need that someone might help me...thank you for reading this, and I know that through it all god will keep us going.

Hi, my name is Sandra and I was diagnosed with an auto immune disease in December. I have IC of the bladder and have to get weekly treatments.I have had three surgeries the last year and the medical bills are adding up and I can't pay them, but if I can't pay then I can't get the treatments I need once a week. I live in pain everyday,but the treatments do help. They compare my pain to cancer. So,some relief I get helps a lot. I have never had to beg of borrow money before. I have tried loans and other things, but can not get approved. I could use any help I can get. So,far my bills are over $6000.

thanks for taking the time to read this.
Sandra Martinez

I'm a 23 year old man barely making ends meet. I am thousands of dollars in debt. I can't pay my rent or my credit card and car loan payments, or any of my utilities really. In a moment of weakness I've taken payday loans online to try and get by. Suffice it to say, the payments are killing me. Ever since I've pretty much given all of my money to someone I cared deeply for, I've been in a downward spiral. I've never even considered begging before. My pride simply would not allow it. I thought things would get better, but I simply can't do this anymore. I need some kind of relief. I've made foolish mistakes and I'm paying dearly for them. I just want to be able to live without worrying about losing everything.

Ours is a Research, Development and Charitable, Non-Profit Organization in Andhra Pradesh, India providing services for Poor and Below poverty line Community in the field of Education, Health and Housing, Water and sanitation, Environment, Rural energy, Animal welfare, Human Rights, Disaster management, Emergency relief Works, Shelter, Orphan Homes, Old Age Homes,Creches, Livelihoods, SHG's, Research and Development, Community Development, Community Health Centers, Agriculture, Watersheds, HIV/AIDS, Childrens related Issues, Cancer, e.t.c. in our area nearly 340 HIV/AIDS Orphans are living and more over they are from below poverty line.We need help for these childrens by way of Nutrition Food,Books, Uniform,Medicines, e.t.c for the academic year 2012-2013. All are girl childrens only. We request you please kindly help us in this issue. It is my request. If you need more information please kindly visit our web-site www.rrheds.org

In 2010 i had a good job with wife and kids. in june of that year i luckily found i had cancer. i had a kidney removed and then returned to work 4 weeks later, i was however laid off because there wasn't any work. i have 3 kids to support and i have just adopted my eldest daughter because her mother attempted suicide. i suffer from post traumatic stress disorder followning my cancer and am unable to go to the toilet which now i am in emdr therapy because this leaves me unable to work. we are stuggling to find anysort of money to live on and the bills are piling up, i would just like some relief to concentrate on getting better and i will donate happily myself once i get back onto my feet.

I've decided to try and get help through donations http://www.giveforward.com/unbreakmyheart and funding http://unbreakmyheart2011.blogspot.com/from outside sources since every doctor I've seen in 2 years agree that I need the leads to my ICD (defibrillator) replaced; but shuffle me back to the original doctor and wash their hands of me.

I'm raising funds for ICD replacement surgery, to go see a HOCM specialist (Dr. Craig Asher) at Cleveland Clinic in S. Florida and to have advanced testing through Vanderbilt Autonomic Center in Tennessee.

I don't want to admit I need help; I've always been a strong, independent person who took care of everything and everyone. In August 2009, my whole world changed. After my procedure, I applied for disability and was turned down twice and had to hire an attorney. I went from being "super" mom, wife & friend and care taker of an Autistic son to being the one who had to be taken care of.

So how did I get to the point I have to ask others for help? Shortly before Father's Day 2009, I fell and broke my foot. When it didn't heal, I went to my primary with a broken foot and came out with a broken heart. After the shock wore off from the doctor telling me that I was going to die if I didn't have valve surgery; I started asking questions.

I didn't quite believe him and thought he was over reacting when he told me I was going to die because I walked and ran 3-5 times weekly and even did strenuous yard work. I felt fine and have 4 children aged 9-26 and kept up with them and stayed very active in things they did; but I was a ticking time bomb just waiting for the right time for my heart to stop.

He sent me to several specialists who said I had nothing really wrong, just some mild valve problems associated with aging; which was a huge relief. Everything seemed normal except my EKG's; they showed I had a huge amount of PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) roughly 50,000 “extra” heartbeats daily.

My heart didn't really beat fully; it only quivered like a bowl of jello day in day out. The problem with it beating like this is, the heart becomes very ineffective at pumping and your cardiac output drops and heart muscle damage can occur.

The cardiologist and electrophysiologist I saw did extensive testing and recommended more testing in the hospital. I went in for a sleep study, Tilt table test and EP Study with Ablation. The sleep study revealed I had moderately severe sleep apnea and my oxygen goes from 99% down to 73% at night making it very dangerous for me when I sleep.

The tilt table test was the first inkling that something dangerous was going on inside. I fainted and had no palpable pulse; which is a very rare thing to happen. I was diagnosed with Dysautonomia - Neurocardiogenic Syncope and Orthostatic Intolerance.
I then had an ablation to burn the extra pathways in my heart and get rid of the pvc's I was living with daily. I was told this would be a relatively easy process and given a 95% success rate to get rid of the extra beats completely but it never crossed my mind that anything would happen.

What preliminary tests failed to show, is the pattern and origin of my arrhythmias were in a very dangerous spot to ablate - the RV Apex – in the bottom thin underside of the heart.

During the EP Study, I went into cardiac arrest and my heart stopped completely with no rhythm they could shock (Asystole), some how it started again for a few minutes but then stopped again. They were able to shock me back to normal sinus rhythm and luckily, the third time it stopped; it restarted on it's own so I didn't have to be shocked again.

I was diagnosed with Polymorphic Ventricular Tachycardia; a very dangerous, life threatening arrhythmia. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days trying to find a cause and to be prepped for an ICD (implantable cardiac defibrillator).

It took a cardiac catherization to finally find the problem and to show I had HOCM (obstructive Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy) and internal high pressures in my valves.

My regular EP had to go out of town after the first procedure, so his partner had to do the implant; he wasn't as skilled as my regular dr and botched the lead implants.

When they checked the leads the next day before releasing me, they found a problem with the lead placement but the dr said it was "ok" and sent me home. Since then, I've had nothing but problems with the unit and been told by several other EP's I need to have the leads replaced and the ICD could be causing part of my problems.

Doctors think my other problems are related to HOCM (obstructive hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) and Autonomic nervous system failure and when I faint, my heart stops briefly causing damage each time this happens.

After the procedure, my body started failing from the damage it sustained the 4 times my heart stopped. My original cardiologist told me I would be in a wheel chair and totally dependent on others for everything by the time I'm 50; which is daunting because in March I'll be 45 and I can't deny the facts - my body is failing.

I was put on 10,000g sodium daily, water/fluid loading, Midodrine (insurance won't cover it $312 - 30 day supply), Propanolol, Pantoprazole, pain meds, suppression hose and binders as well as having to stay supine the majority of the day - which caused my heart failure to worsen and my EF (ejection fraction) to go down.

Nothing the doctor's have tried has helped, I still faint and my heart stops on a daily basis and I never know from one day to the next if something is going to trigger fluid build up and I have an acute attack.

In June 2011 I fainted falling into the side of my tiled tub, lacerating the side of my head in the process, severely sprained my neck and suffered a concussion. After that episode, I became a bit more cautious with every move I make because the dr found declining neurological functioning and mild brain damage; he said any more falls could lead to permanent major brain damage.

With so many previous medical bills and co-pays, I can't afford the 20% co-insurance to have my ICD replaced and Mayo Clinic wants a $5,000 deposit up front even with insurance. My ICD alone is $125,000, leads another $30,000 and then there's the doctor and hospital fees; which I won't know the cost until the procedure is done.

Each heart rhythm specialist and cardiologist I see tell me there is nothing more they can do after going over my history and treatments; I have a long hard fight to go and I have to just be thankful each day I'm alive. Some days I'm really glad I made it through, other days when the problems and pain take over; I wish the dr's had let me die.

I developed PTSD after the procedure, panic disorder and extreme agoraphobia. I went into such a deep depression over my health issues, I was afraid I would never see the lighter side of things again. I finally went to see a psychologist who prescribed Lamictal and diagnosed me with Bi-Polar disorder which has helped greatly but I still struggle on a daily basis.

One day we were just the “normal” every day family and the toughest thing we had to deal with is a child with Autism. Then; our whole lives changed in an instant we were dealing with mounting medical bills, expensive prescriptions, tests, appointments, loss of income and dealing with the possibility of death on a daily basis.

You just never know what the day may bring, so keep those you love close to you and never take one second for granted.
From the bottom of my heart thank you - even if it's support to say hey; I'm here if you need to talk or I know how you're feeling.

I've decided to try and get help through donations http://www.giveforward.com/unbreakmyheart and funding http://unbreakmyheart2011.blogspot.com/from outside sources since every doctor I've seen in 2 years agree that I need the leads to my ICD (defibrillator) replaced; but shuffle me back to the original doctor and wash their hands of me.

I'm raising funds for ICD replacement surgery, to go see a HOCM specialist (Dr. Craig Asher) at Cleveland Clinic in S. Florida and to have advanced testing through Vanderbilt Autonomic Center in Tennessee.

I don't want to admit I need help; I've always been a strong, independent person who took care of everything and everyone. In August 2009, my whole world changed. After my procedure, I applied for disability and was turned down twice and had to hire an attorney. I went from being "super" mom, wife & friend and care taker of an Autistic son to being the one who had to be taken care of.

So how did I get to the point I have to ask others for help? Shortly before Father's Day 2009, I fell and broke my foot. When it didn't heal, I went to my primary with a broken foot and came out with a broken heart. After the shock wore off from the doctor telling me that I was going to die if I didn't have valve surgery; I started asking questions.

I didn't quite believe him and thought he was over reacting when he told me I was going to die because I walked and ran 3-5 times weekly and even did strenuous yard work. I felt fine and have 4 children aged 9-26 and kept up with them and stayed very active in things they did; but I was a ticking time bomb just waiting for the right time for my heart to stop.

He sent me to several specialists who said I had nothing really wrong, just some mild valve problems associated with aging; which was a huge relief. Everything seemed normal except my EKG's; they showed I had a huge amount of PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) roughly 50,000 “extra” heartbeats daily.

My heart didn't really beat fully; it only quivered like a bowl of jello day in day out. The problem with it beating like this is, the heart becomes very ineffective at pumping and your cardiac output drops and heart muscle damage can occur.

The cardiologist and electrophysiologist I saw did extensive testing and recommended more testing in the hospital. I went in for a sleep study, Tilt table test and EP Study with Ablation. The sleep study revealed I had moderately severe sleep apnea and my oxygen goes from 99% down to 73% at night making it very dangerous for me when I sleep.

The tilt table test was the first inkling that something dangerous was going on inside. I fainted and had no palpable pulse; which is a very rare thing to happen. I was diagnosed with Dysautonomia - Neurocardiogenic Syncope and Orthostatic Intolerance.
I then had an ablation to burn the extra pathways in my heart and get rid of the pvc's I was living with daily. I was told this would be a relatively easy process and given a 95% success rate to get rid of the extra beats completely but it never crossed my mind that anything would happen.

What preliminary tests failed to show, is the pattern and origin of my arrhythmias were in a very dangerous spot to ablate - the RV Apex – in the bottom thin underside of the heart.

During the EP Study, I went into cardiac arrest and my heart stopped completely with no rhythm they could shock (Asystole), some how it started again for a few minutes but then stopped again. They were able to shock me back to normal sinus rhythm and luckily, the third time it stopped; it restarted on it's own so I didn't have to be shocked again.

I was diagnosed with Polymorphic Ventricular Tachycardia; a very dangerous, life threatening arrhythmia. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days trying to find a cause and to be prepped for an ICD (implantable cardiac defibrillator).

It took a cardiac catherization to finally find the problem and to show I had HOCM (obstructive Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy) and internal high pressures in my valves.

My regular EP had to go out of town after the first procedure, so his partner had to do the implant; he wasn't as skilled as my regular dr and botched the lead implants.

When they checked the leads the next day before releasing me, they found a problem with the lead placement but the dr said it was "ok" and sent me home. Since then, I've had nothing but problems with the unit and been told by several other EP's I need to have the leads replaced and the ICD could be causing part of my problems.

Doctors think my other problems are related to HOCM (obstructive hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) and Autonomic nervous system failure and when I faint, my heart stops briefly causing damage each time this happens.

After the procedure, my body started failing from the damage it sustained the 4 times my heart stopped. My original cardiologist told me I would be in a wheel chair and totally dependent on others for everything by the time I'm 50; which is daunting because in March I'll be 45 and I can't deny the facts - my body is failing.

I was put on 10,000g sodium daily, water/fluid loading, Midodrine (insurance won't cover it $312 - 30 day supply), Propanolol, Pantoprazole, pain meds, suppression hose and binders as well as having to stay supine the majority of the day - which caused my heart failure to worsen and my EF (ejection fraction) to go down.

Nothing the doctor's have tried has helped, I still faint and my heart stops on a daily basis and I never know from one day to the next if something is going to trigger fluid build up and I have an acute attack.

In June 2011 I fainted falling into the side of my tiled tub, lacerating the side of my head in the process, severely sprained my neck and suffered a concussion. After that episode, I became a bit more cautious with every move I make because the dr found declining neurological functioning and mild brain damage; he said any more falls could lead to permanent major brain damage.

With so many previous medical bills and co-pays, I can't afford the 20% co-insurance to have my ICD replaced and Mayo Clinic wants a $5,000 deposit up front even with insurance. My ICD alone is $125,000, leads another $30,000 and then there's the doctor and hospital fees; which I won't know the cost until the procedure is done.

Each heart rhythm specialist and cardiologist I see tell me there is nothing more they can do after going over my history and treatments; I have a long hard fight to go and I have to just be thankful each day I'm alive. Some days I'm really glad I made it through, other days when the problems and pain take over; I wish the dr's had let me die.

I developed PTSD after the procedure, panic disorder and extreme agoraphobia. I went into such a deep depression over my health issues, I was afraid I would never see the lighter side of things again. I finally went to see a psychologist who prescribed Lamictal and diagnosed me with Bi-Polar disorder which has helped greatly but I still struggle on a daily basis.

One day we were just the “normal” every day family and the toughest thing we had to deal with is a child with Autism. Then; our whole lives changed in an instant we were dealing with mounting medical bills, expensive prescriptions, tests, appointments, loss of income and dealing with the possibility of death on a daily basis.

You just never know what the day may bring, so keep those you love close to you and never take one second for granted.

From the bottom of my heart thank you - even if it's support to say hey; I'm here if you need to talk or I know how you're feeling.

Hello all. I am in soooo much trouble and could use some help! My wife and I have been out of work for several months and unemployment is not enough to keep up the mortgage. I am set to go back to work soon but we are 2 months behind on our mortgage and in debt relief program but I just got served papers as one of our credit card co. are suing me for $1,500. My debt mgnt. co says that there is little they can do except guide me through this court hearing. The mortgage (BOA) is threatening us with foreclosure. I am a father of 3 and my wife has MS and diabetes. If anyone out there can lend a helping hand PLEASE let me know. All this stress is making me ill, very ill. I know there are tons of ppl in this same situation with very few ppl out there who can help, I guess I am hoping for a miracle, the right person(s) at the right time. Thanks, R. Douglas Ewing

Hi everyone, I am asking for you help with donations to help my family. My story is one that involves a split family. It starts in 2006 when my ex-wife took my two children away to another city with out my knowledge. Being in the military I was not able to up and relocate to be close to them. Taking on the debt load from the past relationship and marinating a home for myself and children was the start of my struggle. Thru many lawyers and court appointments I received 8 days a month visitation due to the 3.5 hrs distance between us.
3 years pass and I was remarried. Due to the unfortunate loss of my father we came into an inheritance, we were able to balance out our debt and for once we felt some relief. Still with only 8 days a month we yet again went back to court to try and obtain more access in the summer. As with all messy divorces my ex was unwilling to budge and wanted no more than 2 non-consecutive weeks in the summer for access. Luckily for us we were granted a full month each year.
With that good news came notice to us that we were to be posted to the same city my children lived. Once we were posted to the same city the military deemed that I was to deploy to Afghanistan, with this came a lot of training and travel to complete this all while my wife was pregnant with our son. As I know being in the military not everything will go as planed, I missed the birth of my son. Once my rotation was complete we were able to make new attempts to have more access to my children (in the original agreement between my ex-wife and myself we agreed to a set amount for child support).
Once my ex-wife found out about us wanting to have the children 50/50 she asked for an increase in child support and put my two boys into hockey to try and burden us financially. Needless to say hockey is very expensive and with the increase in child support (equivalent to another mortgage) we started to sink into debt again. My wife was unable to work due to child care costs of over $780/month, legal bills thru the roof and a vindictive ex-wife making all attempts to keep me from my children.
As if that wasn’t enough, my lawyer was suspended from practice, my wife’s and my 19 month old has now been diagnosed as possibly having celiac disease.
To sum it up, we are left with $200 per paycheque to buy groceries, gas for the car and anything else that may come up which in turn we needed to rely on our credit cards. Trying to get my children 50/50 is at a stand still now because no lawyer will take us on unless we have $2000 as a retainer, we don’t qualify for legal aid due to the fact that on paper I make too much.
So this is why I have turned to asking for help, to regain financial stability, gain access to my children and try and provide for my 3 boys and remove the stress from my wife. Any help would be greatly appreciated. We thank you for taking the time to read this.

To whom it may concern:

My name is Angela K. Baker. I live in Green Bay, Wisconsin and have been living with diagnosis of Systemic Lupus since I was fourteen years (I am now 34 DOB 06/16/1977). Although as a child, I knew there was something a little different about myself compared to my twin brother Johnathan. I could never run and play with the other children because my body just would not keep up with the other kids. It always felt like I had sandbags attached to me and I would pass out in the sunlight, I was always exhausted and my body cried out in pain. I just didn't know why. I can remember being like this all the way back to my kindergarten year. Not that my parents were bad people, it just seemed like they just didn't have anymore to give, there problems were so on the surface, (both of my parents are alcoholics, and my mother has had Multiple Sclerosis (MS) since I was born and as for my father, he spent a large part of my life locked away in the Wisconsin jail system (due to his own alcohol induced indescretions.) At fourteen I got a full-time job to pay for my medical bills and a part-time job working at a nursing home to help my family. I have always been stuborn and a fighter, but at this point in my life the fight has just about been exstinguished out of me and I have to admit that I need some help. Over the last twenty years I have been under anasthetic approximately 125 times. I am missing more parts than I have. I feel like an experiment gone wrong or a human pin coushon. I hope that at least some of my surgical suffering at least helped the surgeons learn something from my body...You see I have lived longer than anyone that they know of with this kind of Lupus. It usually manifesters in the late 30's or 40's not in children. My most recent operation was on June 9th 2011, to fix holes in my intestines that were accidentley left after my colon was removed (my colon exploded after it had been recected four times) Right now I have an Illyectomy system that does not work correctly, it leaks blood, bile, puss, fecal liquid ect. and the plastic appliances do not work on me because my skin is so sensative from the Lupus. My medical exspenses are so astronomical even with Medicare and I struggle every month to pay my basic needs (rent, public service water copays ect) I was forced to retire at 23 my body deceided it just couldn't do it anymore, even though I worked very hard to put myself through college so that I could have a decent job that I enjoyed. Thank God that it does not take much to feed me, because the state of WI says that I do not qualify for food stamps or medical assistance, I make $4.oo a month too much. I am not asking for large donations, I know the ecomomy is bad and we are all struggling. What I am asking that when you balance your checking account that you round up to the nearest dollar and please donate the change. My goal is to collect enough money to see a special surgeon at Freodert Hospital in Milwaukee Wisconsin. He would like to see if he can help me have some kind of quality of life and end some of the suffering that I have been enduring for a long time . I would be happy if I even received a little relief. I don't remember what it is like to feel healthy, everyone in this life deserves at least a shot at it... If I am given the help that I need, I fully intend to open my home again as a safe house ( I am not able to do that now because of the leaking illeostmy ) and I would love to a foster mom to any child who needs a good loving and stable home. The way I am right now is horrible ( I have not left my home in over six months excluding doctor appointments) I do realize that some people use these sites for frivilous things and for scamming people. All that that I can do is to give my word that I promise to pay it forward. In my life I have been through an extraordinary amount of human suffering and it is a miracle that I am alive still to tell my story, and for that I am truly greatful and I am here still for a reason. It is not so bad to live without certain basic human needs, it's the having too that is very heartbreaking.

Sincerely,

Angela K. Baker

To whom it may concern:

My name is Angela K. Baker. I live in Green Bay, Wisconsin and have been living with diagnosis of Systemic Lupus since I was fourteen years (I am now 34 DOB 06/16/1977). Although as a child, I knew there was something a little different about myself compared to my twin brother Johnathan. I could never run and play with the other children because my body just would not keep up with the other kids. It always felt like I had sandbags attached to me and I would pass out in the sunlight, I was always exhausted and my body cried out in pain. I just didn't know why. I can remember being like this all the way back to my kindergarten year. Not that my parents were bad people, it just seemed like they just didn't have anymore to give, there problems were so on the surface, (both of my parents are alcoholics, and my mother has had Multiple Sclerosis (MS) since I was born and as for my father, he spent a large part of my life locked away in the Wisconsin jail system (due to his own alcohol induced indescretions.) At fourteen I got a full-time job to pay for my medical bills and a part-time job working at a nursing home to help my family. I have always been stuborn and a fighter, but at this point in my life the fight has just about been exstinguished out of me and I have to admit that I need some help. Over the last twenty years I have been under anasthetic approximately 125 times. I am missing more parts than I have. I feel like an experiment gone wrong or a human pin coushon. I hope that at least some of my surgical suffering at least helped the surgeons learn something from my body...You see I have lived longer than anyone that they know of with this kind of Lupus. It usually manifesters in the late 30's or 40's not in children. My most recent operation was on June 9th 2011, to fix holes in my intestines that were accidentley left after my colon was removed (my colon exploded after it had been recected four times) Right now I have an Illyectomy system that does not work correctly, it leaks blood, bile, puss, fecal liquid ect. and the plastic appliances do not work on me because my skin is so sensative from the Lupus. My medical exspenses are so astronomical even with Medicare and I struggle every month to pay my basic needs (rent, public service water copays ect) I was forced to retire at 23 my body deceided it just couldn't do it anymore, even though I worked very hard to put myself through college so that I could have a decent job that I enjoyed. Thank God that it does not take much to feed me, because the state of WI says that I do not qualify for food stamps or medical assistance, I make $4.oo a month too much. I am not asking for large donations, I know the ecomomy is bad and we are all struggling. What I am asking that when you balance your checking account that you round up to the nearest dollar and please donate the change. My goal is to collect enough money to see a special surgeon at Freodert Hospital in Milwaukee Wisconsin. He would like to see if he can help me have some kind of quality of life and end some of the suffering that I have been enduring for a long time . I would be happy if I even received a little relief. I don't remember what it is like to feel healthy, everyone in this life deserves at least a shot at it... If I am given the help that I need, I fully intend to open my home again as a safe house ( I am not able to do that now because of the leaking illeostmy ) and I would love to a foster mom to any child who needs a good loving and stable home. The way I am right now is horrible ( I have not left my home in over six months excluding doctor appointments) I do realize that some people use these sites for frivilous things and for scamming people. All that that I can do is to give my word that I promise to pay it forward. In my life I have been through an extraordinary amount of human suffering and it is a miracle that I am alive still to tell my story, and for that I am truly greatful and I am here still for a reason. It is not so bad to live without certain basic human needs, it's the having too that is very heartbreaking.

Sincerely,

Angela K. Baker

NAVIDAD……..CHRISTMAS
ANO NUEVO…….NEW YEAR!!!!
THROUGH THIS SEASON, MANY PEOPLE WISH FOR PRESENTS,
FOR NEW THINGS, EXCITING TRIPS, PEOPLE’S COMPANY,
AND SO ON AND SO ON,
BUT ME……….I WISH FOR………………….
FOR RELIEF, YES , RELIEF TO MY PAIN, PAIN DAY AND NIGHT. AT NIGHT YOU FALL ASLEEP, ME??? I AM AWAKEN IN PAIN, AMONG MANY OTHER SYMPTOMS MY BACK IS SEVERELY CROOKED THERE IS NO BALANCE IN MY BODY, SO I FIND NO COMFORTABLE POSITION TO FALL ASLEEP. MY NEUROFIBROMAS OR SMALL TUMORS ALL OVER MY BODY, HEAD, FACE, HANDS, FEET, ETC HURT AND DESESPERATEDLY ITCH SPECIALLY AT NIGHT.
I HAVE SCOLIOSIS AND NEUROFIBROMATOSIS FROM BIRTH.
PLEASE SEND ME ANY AMOUNT OF MONEY YOU CAN, I NEED MEDICINES TO CALM MY PAIN, THE ITCHING IN MY BODY, DOCTORS’ CARE AND SO SO MANY OTHER THINGS.
YOU CAN WRITE ME AT MY E-MAIL IF SO YOU WISH. GOD, PLEASE TALK TO THIS PERSON.
My e-mail: morrita123@yahoo.com

NAVIDAD……..CHRISTMAS
ANO NUEVO…….NEW YEAR!!!!
THROUGH THIS SEASON, MANY PEOPLE WISH FOR PRESENTS,
FOR NEW THINGS, EXCITING TRIPS, PEOPLE’S COMPANY,
AND SO ON AND SO ON,
BUT ME……….I WISH FOR………………….
FOR RELIEF, YES , RELIEF TO MY PAIN, PAIN DAY AND NIGHT. AT NIGHT YOU FALL ASLEEP, ME??? I AM AWAKEN IN PAIN, AMONG MANY OTHER SYMPTOMS MY BACK IS SEVERELY CROOKED THERE IS NO BALANCE IN MY BODY, SO I FIND NO COMFORTABLE POSITION TO FALL ASLEEP. MY NEUROFIBROMAS OR SMALL TUMORS ALL OVER MY BODY, HEAD, FACE, HANDS, FEET, ETC HURT AND DESESPERATEDLY ITCH SPECIALLY AT NIGHT.
I HAVE SCOLIOSIS AND NEUROFIBROMATOSIS FROM BIRTH.
PLEASE SEND ME ANY AMOUNT OF MONEY YOU CAN, I NEED MEDICINES TO CALM MY PAIN, THE ITCHING IN MY BODY, DOCTORS’ CARE AND SO SO MANY OTHER THINGS.
YOU CAN WRITE ME AT MY E-MAIL IF SO YOU WISH. GOD, PLEASE TALK TO THIS PERSON.
My e-mail: morrita123@yahoo.com

NAVIDAD……..CHRISTMAS
ANO NUEVO…….NEW YEAR!!!!
THROUGH THIS SEASON, MANY PEOPLE WISH FOR PRESENTS,
FOR NEW THINGS, EXCITING TRIPS, PEOPLE’S COMPANY,
AND SO ON AND SO ON,
BUT ME……….I WISH FOR………………….
FOR RELIEF, YES , RELIEF TO MY PAIN, PAIN DAY AND NIGHT. AT NIGHT YOU FALL ASLEEP, ME??? I AM AWAKEN IN PAIN, AMONG MANY OTHER SYMPTOMS MY BACK IS SEVERELY CROOKED THERE IS NO BALANCE IN MY BODY, SO I FIND NO COMFORTABLE POSITION TO FALL ASLEEP. MY NEUROFIBROMAS OR SMALL TUMORS ALL OVER MY BODY, HEAD, FACE, HANDS, FEET, ETC HURT AND DESESPERATEDLY ITCH SPECIALLY AT NIGHT.
I HAVE SCOLIOSIS AND NEUROFIBROMATOSIS FROM BIRTH.
PLEASE SEND ME ANY AMOUNT OF MONEY YOU CAN, I NEED MEDICINES TO CALM MY PAIN, THE ITCHING IN MY BODY, DOCTORS’ CARE AND SO SO MANY OTHER THINGS.
YOU CAN WRITE ME AT MY E-MAIL IF SO YOU WISH. GOD, PLEASE TALK TO THIS PERSON.
My e-mail: morrita123@yahoo.com

NAVIDAD……..CHRISTMAS
ANO NUEVO…….NEW YEAR!!!!
THROUGH THIS SEASON, MANY PEOPLE WISH FOR PRESENTS,
FOR NEW THINGS, EXCITING TRIPS, PEOPLE’S COMPANY,
AND SO ON AND SO ON,
BUT ME……….I WISH FOR………………….
FOR RELIEF, YES , RELIEF TO MY PAIN, PAIN DAY AND NIGHT. AT NIGHT YOU FALL ASLEEP, ME??? I AM AWAKEN IN PAIN, AMONG MANY OTHER SYMPTOMS MY BACK IS SEVERELY CROOKED THERE IS NO BALANCE IN MY BODY, SO I FIND NO COMFORTABLE POSITION TO FALL ASLEEP. MY NEUROFIBROMAS OR SMALL TUMORS ALL OVER MY BODY, HEAD, FACE, HANDS, FEET, ETC HURT AND DESESPERATEDLY ITCH SPECIALLY AT NIGHT.
I HAVE SCOLIOSIS AND NEUROFIBROMATOSIS FROM BIRTH.
PLEASE SEND ME ANY AMOUNT OF MONEY YOU CAN, I NEED MEDICINES TO CALM MY PAIN, THE ITCHING IN MY BODY, DOCTORS’ CARE AND SO SO MANY OTHER THINGS.
YOU CAN WRITE ME AT MY E-MAIL IF SO YOU WISH. GOD, PLEASE TALK TO THIS PERSON.
My e-mail: morrita123@yahoo.com

To whom it may concern:

My name is Angela K. Baker. I live in Green Bay, Wisconsin and have been living with diagnosis of Systemic Lupus since I was fourteen years (I am now 34 DOB 06/16/1977). Although as a child, I knew there was something a little different about myself compared to my twin brother Johnathan. I could never run and play with the other children because my body just would not keep up with the other kids. It always felt like I had sandbags attached to me and I would pass out in the sunlight, I was always exhausted and my body cried out in pain. I just didn't know why. I can remember being like this all the way back to my kindergarten year. Not that my parents were bad people, it just seemed like they just didn't have anymore to give, there problems were so on the surface, (both of my parents are alcoholics, and my mother has had Multiple Sclerosis (MS) since I was born and as for my father, he spent a large part of my life locked away in the Wisconsin jail system (due to his own alcohol induced indescretions.) At fourteen I got a full-time job to pay for my medical bills and a part-time job working at a nursing home to help my family. I have always been stuborn and a fighter, but at this point in my life the fight has just about been exstinguished out of me and I have to admit that I need some help. Over the last twenty years I have been under anasthetic approximately 125 times. I am missing more parts than I have. I feel like an experiment gone wrong or a human pin coushon. I hope that at least some of my surgical suffering at least helped the surgeons learn something from my body...You see I have lived longer than anyone that they know of with this kind of Lupus. It usually manifesters in the late 30's or 40's not in children. My most recent operation was on June 9th 2011, to fix holes in my intestines that were accidentley left after my colon was removed (my colon exploded after it had been recected four times) Right now I have an Illyectomy system that does not work correctly, it leaks blood, bile, puss, fecal liquid ect. and the plastic appliances do not work on me because my skin is so sensative from the Lupus. My medical exspenses are so astronomical even with Medicare and I struggle every month to pay my basic needs (rent, public service water copays ect) I was forced to retire at 23 my body deceided it just couldn't do it anymore, even though I worked very hard to put myself through college so that I could have a decent job that I enjoyed. Thank God that it does not take much to feed me, because the state of WI says that I do not qualify for food stamps or medical assistance, I make $4.oo a month too much. I am not asking for large donations, I know the ecomomy is bad and we are all struggling. What I am asking that when you balance your checking account that you round up to the nearest dollar and please donate the change. My goal is to collect enough money to see a special surgeon at Freodert Hospital in Milwaukee Wisconsin. He would like to see if he can help me have some kind of quality of life and end some of the suffering that I have been enduring for a long time . I would be happy if I even received a little relief. I don't remember what it is like to feel healthy, everyone in this life deserves at least a shot at it... If I am given the help that I need, I fully intend to open my home again as a safe house ( I am not able to do that now because of the leaking illeostmy ) and I would love to a foster mom to any child who needs a good loving and stable home. The way I am right now is horrible ( I have not left my home in over six months excluding doctor appointments) I do realize that some people use these sites for frivilous things and for scamming people. All that that I can do is to give my word that I promise to pay it forward. In my life I have been through an extraordinary amount of human suffering and it is a miracle that I am alive still to tell my story, and for that I am truly greatful and I am here still for a reason. It is not so bad to live without certain basic human needs, it's the having too that is very heartbreaking.

Sincerely,

Angela K. Baker

Christmas Donations for My Family
My family is really large (9 members) and I wish I could give everyone
something for Christmas because I know my parents won't be able to provide
for my younger siblings. I am the oldest of the 6 kids.

I am currently a full-time student and I work 25 hours a week to pay my own
rent, groceries, and tuition. Everything is just so stressful. I can't go
home until the 24th now (3.5 hours away) because I have to work to pay the
bills.

Last XMAS was horrible because our house caught on fire and we spent it in a
hotel.

Please help me out so I can see smiles on my brother and sisters faces and
relief in my parents eyes. ANYTHING from 1 cent to whatever your heart feels
like giving.

I truly appreciate everything! You are amazing and have a wonderful winter
break. I will give back as soon as I am able too. I always do.