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Help a cancer patient pay for her last semester of college
Posted by PMoyer on 2012-05-14 15:58:27
My friend started having a panic attack after doing some calculations and realizing that she can't afford her final semester of college this August after paying for Chemotherapy and some unexpected car repairs. Her family refuses to give her the information she needs to fill out her FAFSA, so she can't even get student loans.
I couldn't stand seeing her like that -- She's been struggling with issues for years due to a traumatic childhood, and to see her dreams of graduating fall apart due to money issues was too much to bear.
So I told her I'd pay for her last semester, in full. And looking at my finances, I will be able to pay for most of it if I penny-pinch, don't eat out, avoid driving anywhere I don't need to, and donate some blood to the local blood bank. But it looks like even with doing that, I'll come up about $500 or $600 short.
If you can donate and help out, I'd be forever grateful for you helping her dreams come true. If you can't donate, have any ideas on how someone living in the Clark County, Nevada area could make some money over the weekends, let me know in the comments.
Medical Student Without Family Support
Posted by MD_to_be on 2012-05-06 01:58:24
My family has never had much money, but I have never been the type to accept that as an excuse to not excel in the areas I could. I'm thankful for the perspective that it has given me while watching my peers live stress free without them realizing how lucky they are. They're all great people, but they just live their lives on financial peaks, whereas I've always lived mine in the valleys.
The costs and time commitments that are required or pursuing my dream are astronomical. I have borrowed what I can in student loans, but unfortunately they don't cover all of the necessary fees. For instance, we are required to buy car in order to be able to get to all of my clinical rotations, not to mention pay for board exam fees and prep courses.
I'm here looking for what little help might be available, and I desperately look forward to the time when I am able to come back here and help as many people in unfortunate circumstances as I can. Thanks for your time and consideration.
Helped My Parents, Now I Need Help Please!
Posted by HumblePie on 2012-04-11 19:58:26
To type it all out would be exhausting, depressing and most importantly, a total disregard of your time. I will try to keep this as short and to the point as possible.
Five years ago my stepfather and mother were forced out of the home they had rented for 15 years after the real estate market came to a halt. My stepfather had always been very successful in commercial real estate but unfortunately did not save or invest for the proverbial "Rainy Day".
Totally in the dark, my mom continued spending money on daily needs and wants unaware that the essentials such as utilities and rent were not being paid. After realizing that my stepfather had no monies coming in and facing eviction she called me asking if I could help out by loaning them enough money to pay back rent and past due utility bills. Yes, I realize what most of you are thinking and I wholeheartedly agree but I was assured that one of John's deals would be closing within the next couple of months at which time the money borrowed would be repaid.
Needless to say the deal fell through and my money has not been repaid and what started out as a $5,000 loan from credit cards has more than doubled when factoring in all of the payments I have made and continue to make plus the mounting interest charges. They are now in their seventies with health issues and living month to month on social security.
The reality is that I will never see my money and will probably be paying for a very long time. Some people I suppose would file a lawsuit which for me is simply out of the question for 2 reasons. (1.) I love my mom dearly and I try to look at it as payment for the years she spent raising, doctoring, feeding, clothing and housing me. The second reason is obvious. Blood cannot be extracted from a turnip.
I know that there are a lot of people in much worse shape than I am in right now and I am employed, however I am now 5 months behind on what is called an upside down mortgage which I am trying to hold onto at least until home values come back. I would be more than happy to sell it for what I owe but there are major repairs (the roof being top priority) which have to be made before I can even hope to sell.
My goal is to pay off the credit card debt and if Bank of America doesn't foreclose on my house I hope to make the need repairs so I can at least sell for what I owe and then rent a small affordable apartment or house. Please... Any help that you can give will be greatly appreciated. Thank You & God Bess!
Thanking You in Advance!
Posted by HumblePie on 2012-04-11 19:58:25
Five years ago my stepfather and mother were forced out of the home they had rented for 15 years after the real estate market came to a halt. My stepfather had always been very successful in commercial real estate but unfortunately did not save or invest for the proverbial "Rainy Day".
Totally in the dark, my mom continued spending money on daily needs and wants unaware that the essentials such as utilities and rent were not being paid. After realizing that my stepfather had no monies coming in and facing eviction she called me asking if I could help out by loaning them enough money to pay back rent and past due utility bills. Yes, I realize what most of you are thinking and I wholeheartedly agree but I was assured that one of John's deals would be closing within the next couple of months at which time the money borrowed would be repaid.
Needless to say the deal fell through and my money has not been repaid and what started out as a $5,000 loan from credit cards has more than doubled when factoring in all of the payments I have made and continue to make plus the mounting interest charges. They are now in their seventies with health issues and living month to month on social security.
The reality is that I will never see my money and will probably be paying for a very long time. Some people I suppose would file a lawsuit which for me is simply out of the question for 2 reasons. (1.) I love my mom dearly and I try to look at it as payment for the years she spent raising, doctoring, feeding, clothing and housing me. The second reason is obvious. Blood cannot be extracted from a turnip.
I know that there are a lot of people in much worse shape than I am in right now and I am employed, however I am now 5 months behind on what is called an upside down mortgage which I am trying to hold onto at least until home values come back. I would be more than happy to sell it for what I owe but there are major repairs (the roof being top priority) which have to be made before I can even hope to sell.
My goal is to pay off the credit card debt and replace my roof. Any help that you can give will be greatly appreciated. Thank You & God Bess!
i hate to have to beg..
Posted by sgk1000 on 2012-02-15 10:58:06
With the wedding fast approaching we are realizing that we will not have enough money by the day to take our honeymoon or even to finish paying off all of our vendors.
He studies full time and i've been working multiple jobs to support us for years, but it seems to have finally caved in.
Please help give us a positive start to our future together..
Getting a divorce from habitual liar. HELP!
Posted by ThisFamilyNeedsHelp on 2011-12-06 13:58:11
He put a bunch of our stuff in storage when we separated, we moved to Missouri with my mom and he moved in with a friend in Iowa and then LOST it, so I don't have a lot of stuff I've worked for and had before we even met. The list of stuff he lost...5 seat sectional with chaise lounger, 37" flat screen tv, PS2 and about 12 games, Wii and 2 games, new surround sound, 5 disc stereo system, new bluray player, box of my season dvds like Smallville, Friends, One Tree Hill and ER, a huge box of my Disney VHS that I had been collecting since high school, nice new short entertainment center, 2 end tables, 2 lamps, washer and dryer, refrigerator, tall dining table with chairs, vacuum, electric can opener, butcher block knife set, corelware dishes, stainless steel pots and pan set, toaster, king bed, bookcase, desk, riding lawnmower, 2 weed eaters, etc. I probably could keep going.
I'm living on the good will and love my family offers and my small student loan refunds. I get NO child support. I am looking to pay off $15,000 in student loans, the $6200 loan on my Tahoe, the $1100 bad check and a couple hundred in lawyer fees, and the $1,400 Target Visa he ran up and let go bad. I need 4 new tires, an alignment, and a new windshield on the Tahoe. I would like to build my children and I a house in the next 3-4 years.
My goals...
~ Finish my BSBA in Management, end of 2012.
~ Thinking about getting my MBA.
~ Open my business, if you are interested I can tell you about it. Looking for potential investors. Working toward fall of 2012, may have to be fall of 2013.
~ Build my kids and I a house, which my mother will eventually come live with us. Right now she is taking care of my grandmother. If my business takes off like I foresee, I would like to build as I have the money so I don't have a mortgage, or put 50% down and get a loan for the rest.
~Be happy in life!
I am an honest Christian woman and I believe that the bills should be paid first BEFORE you go out and blow any money on luxuries such as eating out. He eats out a lot!
If you find it in your heart to help me out, please send me a note with how you would like for me to use the money, 3 choices as there will hopefully be others who can help me, and I can send you proof that that bill was paid. This is new to me and my first attempt at "cyberbegging", which has taken all I have. I am proud and have done many things on my own, so it is very humiliating for me to have to take this route.
I would assume your donation is tax deductible, but you will have to check on that.
If this works for me, I will give back and help out others who need it.
God Bless you and your family. Happy Holidays!
Getting a divorce from habitual liar. HELP!
Posted by ThisFamilyNeedsHelp on 2011-12-06 13:58:09
He put a bunch of our stuff in storage when we separated, we moved to Missouri with my mom and he moved in with a friend in Iowa and then LOST it, so I don't have a lot of stuff I've worked for and had before we even met. The list of stuff he lost...5 seat sectional with chaise lounger, 37" flat screen tv, PS2 and about 12 games, Wii and 2 games, new surround sound, 5 disc stereo system, new bluray player, box of my season dvds like Smallville, Friends, One Tree Hill and ER, a huge box of my Disney VHS that I had been collecting since high school, nice new short entertainment center, 2 end tables, 2 lamps, washer and dryer, refrigerator, tall dining table with chairs, vacuum, electric can opener, butcher block knife set, corelware dishes, stainless steel pots and pan set, toaster, king bed, bookcase, desk, riding lawnmower, 2 weed eaters, etc. I probably could keep going.
I'm living on the good will and love my family offers and my small student loan refunds. I get NO child support. I am looking to pay off $15,000 in student loans, the $6200 loan on my Tahoe, the $1100 bad check and a couple hundred in lawyer fees, and the $1,400 Target Visa he ran up and let go bad. I need 4 new tires, an alignment, and a new windshield on the Tahoe. I would like to build my children and I a house in the next 3-4 years.
My goals...
~ Finish my BSBA in Management, end of 2012.
~ Thinking about getting my MBA.
~ Open my business, if you are interested I can tell you about it. Looking for potential investors. Working toward fall of 2012, may have to be fall of 2013.
~ Build my kids and I a house, which my mother will eventually come live with us. Right now she is taking care of my grandmother. If my business takes off like I foresee, I would like to build as I have the money so I don't have a mortgage, or put 50% down and get a loan for the rest.
~Be happy in life!
I am an honest Christian woman and I believe that the bills should be paid first BEFORE you go out and blow any money on luxuries such as eating out. He eats out a lot!
If you find it in your heart to help me out, please send me a note with how you would like for me to use the money, 3 choices as there will hopefully be others who can help me, and I can send you proof that that bill was paid. This is new to me and my first attempt at "cyberbegging", which has taken all I have. I am proud and have done many things on my own, so it is very humiliating for me to have to take this route.
I would assume your donation is tax deductible, but you will have to check on that.
If this works for me, I will give back and help out others who need it.
God Bless you and your family. Happy Holidays!
i need help with my rent
Posted by mendezj23 on 2011-12-06 00:58:37
Help Save my Best friend! Need help with Vet bill!
Posted by KieraKittie on 2011-11-26 18:58:29
The reason I am asking for help on this vet bill is because my fiancee' was just released from the hospital after a week in Critical care and a week in recovery from a past accident and surgery issues sneaking up on him. We have plans to move to a house in Missouri after the first of the year. I quit my job a few weeks early to take care of my fiancee' till he can walk and get around by himself again, which did not leave room for many more surprises such as this vet visit. We managed to save these last few years for the home in Missouri, enough to make my car payment and insurance, move with, and a little to fall back on till I start work down there. Though I am hunting for a holiday/seasonal job in the area. The vet highly suggest this needs to be taken care of now to prevent risk of infection getting into the blood stream.
I'm terrified of him having to be sedated, and even more so of the tooth infection getting worse, I don't want him to be in pain but I need a hand with this bill. We have already cut out Christmas presents this year so we can afford to move. If not, I would of gladly sold them all to pay for his health, but I have nothing left to sell. Samson's mom lived to be18 years old, and though he is old, he is in the prime of his health and you would never guess his age. I want many many many more years with him at my side.
Thank you for your time, holidays are tough on everyone, money is tight all around. I, out of everyone understand that. Anything will help even a $1. I promise in return I will update his progress with how everything goes.
http://samsonpup.webs.com
woman owned business needs help getting started
Posted by jdrum7 on 2011-07-17 16:58:22
Help reunite a poor couple, separated over seas
Posted by jmcdon50 on 2011-07-07 19:58:43
She was the only thing that saved me from a life of crime and possibly worse, and she came all the way from Argentina to do so. I was, as I am now, a poor student in Colorado and a "lucky bum" who finally got a break by love finding him. Currently I study foreign language, ie; Spanish, French, German, Russian, and Latin. As impressively smart as one would assume i'd have to be to study so many languages at once, to the contrary I was terribly stupid where it matters most, which is at romance. In short because of being a total " fat -head" and ingrate, I let her get on a plane out of my life without saying goodbye. Its been over a year.
Since then, my nights have been like torture without her, and each new romantic fling has been as hollow and meaningless as the preceding. The good news is however, that her and I have keep frequent contact via SKYPE.COM video calls.(thank God 4 skype!) She is in the same position as I am, realizing that she too cannot find closure to our love, and therefore we have decided that we want to be together, except forever this time. So I decided to move to Buenos Aires, Argentina indefinitely to be with the only girl for me.
However it is not enough for me to just get a plane ticket and rush over to South America and live happily ever after, I will also need a job, as well as a room or a hostel to stay in while I job hunt. ( Quite frankly, I am not trying to be unemployed,broke, and living in her mother's house in S. America, no thanks!) Therefore I am also hoping to earn/receive enough money to enroll in a program called ITTO or (International Teachers Training Organization) in Guadalajara, Mexico to receive my license to teach English as a second language(TESL) before going to live in Buenos Aires.
Target date you ask? I am trying to get out of here by early september or october of 2011. As it stands I am basically homeless, out of school for vacation, (meaning no financial aid) and have been doing temporary labor jobs which barely keeps me fed on the weekly basis, let alone permit me to save money for the provisions necessary to go on this life altering journey to find the truth of true love.
All together, I estimate with the cost of a round trip ticket to Argentina ( round trip, because non- citizens are not permitted with one way tickets) as well as the cost of the fore mentioned ITTO course and travel to and from Mexico from Colorado, plus the survival money I will need once ( god willing) I arrived in B's A's, I stand in a financial need of about $5,000.00 or slightly more.
I realize there are people with more important matters that can use money, and I truly hope they receive charity just as I would like to. However this is a petition for those who understand what it is like to let the perfect one get away and could do little or nothing about it, like a child who drops their ice cream off the cone and sadly watches as it melts on the side walk. By donating to this cause, you can be the "adult" who walks up to that kid, fumbles in his pocket for some spare change to present that poor kid with a new ice cream that takes the tears from their eyes. She is my ice cream, and I don't want another flavor for my whole life. You can help make this possible, by aiding me with an airline ticket, or even check out the ITTO website and if you feel generous enough and pay the tuition of the program. I would be more than happy to correspond with each and every donor to update you on this story with letters and even pictures of what became of your generosity.
I'd like to thank any donors in advance, as well as any one who took the time to read my story and had it in their heart to give but wasn't able. Together we can prove that there is a such things as second chances at a good thing, chivalry is certainly not dead, and love stories aren't just for the story books, in fact...it can happen to you!
Thanks and warm regards,
James McDonald
Help reunite a poor couple, separated over seas
Posted by jmcdon50 on 2011-07-07 19:58:43
She was the only thing that saved me from a life of crime and possibly worse, and she came all the way from Argentina to do so. I was, as I am now, a poor student in Colorado and a "lucky bum" who finally got a break by love finding him. Currently I study foreign language, ie; Spanish, French, German, Russian, and Latin. As impressively smart as one would assume i'd have to be to study so many languages at once, to the contrary I was terribly stupid where it matters most, which is at romance. In short because of being a total " fat -head" and ingrate, I let her get on a plane out of my life without saying goodbye. Its been over a year.
Since then, my nights have been like torture without her, and each new romantic fling has been as hollow and meaningless as the preceding. The good news is however, that her and I have keep frequent contact via SKYPE.COM video calls.(thank God 4 skype!) She is in the same position as I am, realizing that she too cannot find closure to our love, and therefore we have decided that we want to be together, except forever this time. So I decided to move to Buenos Aires, Argentina indefinitely to be with the only girl for me.
However it is not enough for me to just get a plane ticket and rush over to South America and live happily ever after, I will also need a job, as well as a room or a hostel to stay in while I job hunt. ( Quite frankly, I am not trying to be unemployed,broke, and living in her mother's house in S. America, no thanks!) Therefore I am also hoping to earn/receive enough money to enroll in a program called ITTO or (International Teachers Training Organization) in Guadalajara, Mexico to receive my license to teach English as a second language(TESL) before going to live in Buenos Aires.
Target date you ask? I am trying to get out of here by early september or october of 2011. As it stands I am basically homeless, out of school for vacation, (meaning no financial aid) and have been doing temporary labor jobs which barely keeps me fed on the weekly basis, let alone permit me to save money for the provisions necessary to go on this life altering journey to find the truth of true love.
All together, I estimate with the cost of a round trip ticket to Argentina ( round trip, because non- citizens are not permitted with one way tickets) as well as the cost of the fore mentioned ITTO course and travel to and from Mexico from Colorado, plus the survival money I will need once ( god willing) I arrived in B's A's, I stand in a financial need of about $5,000.00 or slightly more.
I realize there are people with more important matters that can use money, and I truly hope they receive charity just as I would like to. However this is a petition for those who understand what it is like to let the perfect one get away and could do little or nothing about it, like a child who drops their ice cream off the cone and sadly watches as it melts on the side walk. By donating to this cause, you can be the "adult" who walks up to that kid, fumbles in his pocket for some spare change to present that poor kid with a new ice cream that takes the tears from their eyes. She is my ice cream, and I don't want another flavor for my whole life. You can help make this possible, by aiding me with an airline ticket, or even check out the ITTO website and if you feel generous enough and pay the tuition of the program. I would be more than happy to correspond with each and every donor to update you on this story with letters and even pictures of what became of your generosity.
I'd like to thank any donors in advance, as well as any one who took the time to read my story and had it in their heart to give but wasn't able. Together we can prove that there is a such things as second chances at a good thing, chivalry is certainly not dead, and love stories aren't just for the story books, in fact...it can happen to you!
Thanks and warm regards,
James McDonald
help us have a child
Posted by cyshorter on 2011-05-23 21:58:29
Help if you can~Friend in need of Heart Operation in England
Posted by poweoflove on 2011-04-30 20:58:59
is in need is a very good friend of mine from England. So I am asking
for your help to raise some money to go towards a heart operation.
This person is currently in the hospital so time is of the essence.
Over there, their healthcare system is pretty much good for those that
live in the right postcode of the Country. Unfortunately, my friend does
not. Therefore, this operation that he needs to have done, has to be
paid for up front.
While the amount there in England is 75,000 pounds, here in the USA,
that equals $123,000.
As you can see it's no small deal, but I think the important thing is
that people feel good when they something to someone whose life depends
on their generosity. The PayPal address below is a special address set up
for donations for him.
No one should be told they have to die because they live in the wrong
postcode, especially at the age of 47. He's really a great guy and would
give you the shirt off his back. But he is a very private person. His
Brother in England has been keeping me informed and he is the original
person that has started this attempt to raise enough to get the
operation. So while he is asking friends in his country, I am asking
friends in the USA and from other countries that I know.
I know things are tough all over and we have our obligations to meet,
but if any of you can spare anything to help out, it would be deeply
appreciated. This isn't a come-on. This is a true situation and a sad
one. Wouldn't matter if it was $1.00, it would still help raise the
funds needed.
I would ask that the donation be put into my PayPal account under
mystereedonors@gmail.com and I will forward it over to England. I
certainly understand if you are not able to help but appreciate you
taking the time to read this. Thank you in advance.
Diane (termie)
P.S. The following is information that I received from the Brother and
from the patient himself. I felt it necessary to include in this.
*From the Brother
Yes, the medical situation is strange, it was, and should still be an
amazing health care system. Everyone pays into it through their taxes,
and then you get free health care, operation, medicines etc.
Trouble is, they are now realizing that the NHS as we call it, national
health service, is a bottomless pit, the more money the government throw
in, the more they can. It will always use whatever funds it has, and
they don't like it.
So now they are limiting some of the more expensive treatment and
medicines. Hence the postcode lottery. If you live in the wrong
postcode, you don't get the surgery.
The heart problem, is a basically a defect that he had from birth, a lot
of people don't know they have a problem, until one day they drop down
dead, and by then obviously its too late. In fact, usually people
don't even get to his age of 47. (I know he's not really old or
anything, that is just what the experts say!).
The problem is, in his case is that instead of just being a birth
defect, there is also a family history of heart problems and added to
this, the fact that the defect has been very slowly getting worse.
Already having one heart surgery done about 4 years ago, it didn't last.
*From the Patient
To do the full op privately would cost over £75000, including the
follow-up care. Where as I'd be happy with just the injections, and
possibly a new, better, icd being fitted. That would be a lot cheaper,
and while wouldn't be a proper fix, it would remove the risk of sudden
death. I guess all will be revealed eventually as to what they are
planning
*From the Brother. Keep in mind that this is just part of what needs to
be done. The cheaper version.
As for what has to be done, and the exact name of the condition, I am
not sure of the medical terms. The injections you were talking about,
are not stem cells nor are they clinical trials. They are to help
restructure part of the heart, some parts are over grown, and need to be
reduced in size, this can be done through through a series of controlled
injections, that will kill off specific parts of the tissue, thus
reducing its size, enabling the chambers to hold more blood, and for the
heart to be less restricted in its movement.
Another part of the procedure, is a kind of re-wiring of the heart. The
electric pulse, runs around the heart in a particular way, causing it to
beat. But in his case, the pulses are not traveling on the routes they
should be, and this needs to be corrected.
By performing these two sets of procedures, he would not be totally
cured, BUT, he would be stable, not have constant chest pains, and the
risk of sudden death syndrome, would be drastically reduced!
Please Help With My Dream, I Promise to Give Back
Posted by lindabaker on 2011-04-04 17:58:54
Please Help With My Dream, I Promise to Give Back
Posted by lindabaker on 2011-04-04 17:58:54
Exploring and Understanding Zambia: The Heart of Africa
Posted by Zambia28 on 2011-03-24 10:58:02
About to be out of a home
Posted by Munley on 2010-11-27 02:58:58
To those reading, I cannot thank you enough for taking the time to consider aiding a complete stranger in need.
I am a 28 year old man who was laid off from my job in January of this year and have exausted all my savings. At long last I have found new work, unfortunatly, the position does not being until the week after Christmas, and I have less than $500 dollars to my name to live on until that time.
I am $1050.00 behind on rent as I stupidly put a medical bill before my rent earlier this year, realizing too late that my home can be taken away, but my health cannot.
My landlord has given me an eviction notice to be nullified ONLY if I can pay my rent in full by Monday, December 13th. This ordeal has ruined my credit, and my car isn't even worth enough to obtain an auto loan. Unfortunatly I have noone else to turn to. If I can simply pay this one bill, I will be back on my feet when my new job begins. But I currently have less than $500 in cash money, and failure to pay the bill will put me out of a home.
If anyone has the heart to help me, with anyamount, I will be forever greatful. Thank you so much for taking the time to hear my request.
Munley Whitacker
Help me get my daughter back
Posted by lauthorlee on 2010-08-20 16:58:58
At this point I haven't seen my daughter in two years. They refuse to allow me to talk to her or see her and they have totally tried to alienate her. I think this makes me the most upset. Missing my child more than anyone could imagine on a daily basis, my mind is consumed with her.
I have attempted to seek help from law enforcement, court, attorneys, community action groups and several others. To no avail everyone points the finger to another outlet that points me in another direction which completes in a circle and still no answers. Is there nothing I can do besides possibly facing parental kidnapping charges...hmm...I wonder.
I know I could get a lawyer; however, custody litigation could become very costly and I still have to survive. Everything I have built for be my child and I will need to be maintained. I cannot believe a retainer for a family court attorney is so expensive. The retainer itself is $3000, that doesn't include the work. My parents probably know this and think I will never be able to come up with that kind of money. Well, even if I don't I will still manage to find a way to get her back home with me.
I will never stop fighting to see my child grow up and be the best mother I can. I have dreamed everyday that this fight will be over soon and I will stand on that faith until that day arrives. I intuitively know that my child still loves me and she knows that I adore and love her. I know our bond will be so much stronger when she does come home.
How could you hate someone so much that you prevent them from seeing their child. Her father has never been in her life but if he wanted to see her I would never object.
These aren't even my biological parents, they adopted me. My father abused me. I was damaged goods up until about two years ago when I started soul searching. I started realizing that I deserved to have good things happen to me. I realized that as long as I continued to be a good and loving person I would be blessed, and this has not failed me yet. At first I was so afraid of my father. I was brainwashed by an alcoholic, abusive, controlling, and manipulative man. As a child I always wanted to be accepted but I was always too fat, or I talk too much, or I was stupid, or not talented enough. There was never anything good about me according to my father. After hearing these types of things for so long I actually started to believe it. So naturally when I had a child I wasn't good enough to be a mother either, according to him. He told me this so much throughout my child's early years that I actually started believing that. I hated myself for that.
I guess the point of this story is that no matter what people say about you, and no matter who it is that says it, you have to know that you are the one in control. Ever since I started taking control of my life, I started feeling better about myself and confident in my abilities. It is hard to make a change like this without the right help and guidance. Sometimes it is very important to look within for guidance your conscious knows best and it will lead you in the direction you need to go.
