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I know God will get me through this....
Posted by smileybegs on 2012-05-16 21:58:37
*our monthly condo maintanence fee of $258.00 for the past 3 months.
*I have a $160.00 car insurance payment due on 6-10-12, this will keep my paid until 10-10-12.
*The divorce attorney is asking for a $2500.00 retainer.
*June health insurance of $555.00.
*The numerous unpaid medical expenses.
I make it happen with the rest of the things my boys and I need. In July of 2012 I will recieve Medicare, since I will then have been on disability for 2 years. I think that will make things somewhat easier on me. As a note, lymphoma is not being treated right now. Thank goodness the nodules have remained stable, though if there is any change I will probably have to start some sort of treatment.
Any kind of help would be greatly appreciated. Since almost dying in 2010, I have a renewed faith in God (though I have always been a believer). I know that God walks beside me and my children and the He watches over us. Prayers to all that are on this site, whether asking for help or giving it.
Family of 5 (Soon to be 6)
Posted by jemstone on 2012-05-16 10:58:06
Fiancee Died in arms Need help for kids!!
Posted by kdoggdatdude on 2012-05-15 02:58:55
Please help this pregnant single mama!
Posted by Justamommy3 on 2012-04-28 20:58:30
I need an angel !
Posted by MommaShae on 2012-04-19 20:58:33
PUPPI-STOP CONTRACEPTION FOR DOGS
Posted by puppi-stop on 2012-04-12 17:58:10
Puppi-Stop Sheaths - Easy to apply condoms in a variety of tastes, colours and sizes (six or twelve pack).
Puppi-Stop Diaphragm - Applicator and spermicide jelly. Available in 3 sizes, washable and hard wearing
Puppi-Stop Pill - Low oestrogen pills, to be crushed and added to regular dog fold. Total protection 24 hours a day
Puppi-Stop "Predict-A-Puppi" totally new pregnancy test kit
Not wanting to bore anyone with details of my bumpy financial--and personal--life which has got me where I am today but to enable me to work out how the heck I am going to develop and test puppy condom, I need to pay my bills.
Anyone who loves my idea and has a spare bit of change please donate to my PAYPAL ACCOUNT ~ jluker4470@aol.com
Be your dog's very best friend with PUPPI-STOP - The humane way.
Need Help with Rent or Rent Deposit
Posted by FlickFam on 2012-03-22 13:58:54
In January of 2011 both my wife and I lost our jobs. We have been working to make ends meet ever since. Last year was the beginning of our misfortune. After losing our jobs we spend months looking. Then in June we were evicted from the home we lived in for 3 years -- financial problems. We moved into a hotel where we lived for a month looking a new place to live. Living in a small room with a 17, 13, and 2 year old was tough.
In additon to living in the hotel my wife and I found out we were pregnant. However, the pregnancy turned out to be ectopic. No insurance and an ectopic pregnancy to get through. It wiped out our savings.
We finally found a place at the end of July. We used the last of our money to get rent the place. My wife started working towards the end of August. She didn't make enough to support us, but she was working. Now, I just needed to find a job.
After a few months of looking I decided to start my own business. It is tough, but it also has potential. I have a limited marketing budget so growth is small.
Next up, my wife got pneumonia and was out of work for nearly a month. This killed us. we fell behind on rent and cannot catch up. We havent paid rent since January. We owe rent for February and March. Total -- $6100. And we have April coming up. We would love to stay in our home but it looks impossible. I understand the owners dilemma and am happy we got to stay this long.
We are looking for some catch up. Anything would help, anything at all.
We have tried various community agencies, but my wife makes a too much (the standards are set very low) or since we live in San Ramon agencies do not serve that area.
We thought about moving, but with 2 out of 3 kids in school it would be extremely difficult to uproot them.
We got our 3 day eviction notice today. We need to be out of our home by Monday at noon unless we can pay rent. If we cant we need to find a new place to live.
My family is falling apart. My friends dont have the resources to help (well I did have one friend pay Decembers rent for us but he cannot help anymore until he builds back some savings). My parents and my wifes parents are not able to help (fixed incomes and no savings).
Hopefully this can help.
Thank you. And if you need help too, good luck -- tomorrow will be better.
High Risk Pregnancy...PLEASE HELP US
Posted by pamar30 on 2012-03-14 00:58:22
I lost my HR job on 12/8/11 and my husband left us shortly thereafter. My mortgage is current however my HOA is proceeding with foreclosure on our home. In sum, I need 12k within the next 5 weeks. If you can spare a $1.00, it will greatly appreciated.
I know that with a bit of help, we will be ok.
Thank you for you consideration. God bless.
Patricia
Baby Boy in SERIOUS need!
Posted by Jae1 on 2012-02-27 03:58:44
I am not sure where to begin, but first I just want to thank you for viewing my post on behalf of my baby Boy.
I have a darling son who just recently celebrated his first birthday. I always thought that I would be the successful and married mom, but life still has me.on the waiting list. During my pregnancy I was involved
in Two vehicle accidents. Both times i was merely a passenger. Unfortunately the accidents left me disabled. My physical disabilities and pregnancy costed me my job. I became homeless during my pregnancy for several months. My boyfriend/father of my child had been with me for.several years but became Very angry about the pregnancy. After several abusive threats and statements he finally cut off ALL contact with me and our unborn child. I was already disabled at this point. My baby does not receive Any child support. NONE. His father still has refused any and all contact even now...He is paid cash as to avoid helping our son. Eventually, i began hearing alarming threats through third parties on the life of our baby that he does not want. So, I fled the state. :'(
I want the best for my baby. I feel like such a failure. I do as much as physically possible to provide a safe and stable home. Due to my limitations i can only do so much and fall short every month.
I would like to raise money towards buying him a crib, getting at least a one bedroom apartment of our own, preschool, clothes, a college fund, etc.
I need a better beginning for my baby. He deserves a fighting chance and i love him more than anything in the world. It.brings tears to my eyes to have a faithless baby with a disabled mother.
Please i am begging you....help my son to have a bright future. I would be happy to provide updated information as he.grows if possible.
In case you are wondering where is the help from family members: Every once in awhile a family member will buy him a few books or a pair of shoes. Not often. I guess they cannot afford to consistently help raise someone else's child and i fully understand. Everyone has their own battles to fight.
This is just the beginning of my baby boy's journey through life. I pray that you will be a blessing to him and help to make his journey one full of wonderful memories.
Thank you so much.....
Disabled Solo Mom & Bright Eyed Baby Boy
Vasectomy Reversal.
Posted by vasreversalplz on 2012-02-06 23:58:39
Tummy Tuck :(
Posted by stacylynn on 2012-02-06 14:58:05
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we are sinking fast..
Posted by riversofsound on 2012-02-04 21:58:00
Worst Year of My Life Please Help!
Posted by SKennedy on 2012-01-24 08:58:01
My only dream - Funding IVF/Surrogate
Posted by SweetPea on 2012-01-24 05:58:27
im a 23 year old woman, married with a mortgage and a full time poorly paid job. i wouldnt do this unless i was absoultly desperate but please here my story.
ive got a special body - i was born with two uteruses and two ovaries. *great your thinking, theres no reason why she cant get pregnant*. unfortunatly i wish that was the case. each ovary is only connected to one womb. only one of my wombs has a passage for "sailors" to do their job. i also have polycystic ovaries (which means i dont ovulate without ibtervention from medication* i was told from being a teenager it would be diffuclt/ dangerous to get pregnant.
on top of that i was also born with severe kidney failure, I only have 1 working kidney and the other one is really tiny with cysts on it. My doctors estimate i will be on dialisis within 10 years if my kidney continues to fail as fast have they have. My kidney function is currently only working at 25%.
i have diabetes type 1 (insulin) and I was also born with a hereditary bones disorder called, Multipul Ephiseal Displasure. i know what your thinking, *theres no way this girl is being serious* well believe me, if could take anyone of these away i would in a heartbeat.
now despite all of this, after 3 years of trying to get pregnant i succeeded dispite what the doctors said. unfortunatly this ended in miscarriage due to my health problems. my world broke, i was depressed for months because my special sweetpea my only dream, had been taken away from me in the most horrific way imaginable.
this was 3 years ago - we still havent been caught pregnant again (bearing in mind sweetpea was nigh on a miracle). we have tried numerous methods and advice and intervention from doctors. doctors are now advising it wouldnt be safe to get pregnant again as the chanes of miscarrage are high and i would more than likely be on dialisys as pregnancy takes it toll on your whole body.. ie kidneys.
im still heartbroken after losing my little miracle and we are now looking to fund 1 round of IVF in a surrogate mum. please help me with our dream. We need roughly £5000.00 to fund the bills and without your help, it would take us roughly 10-15 years to save that amount of money up. we are desen, honest, hardworking people who are doing anything to make their dream a relaity again.
please donate.
much love and baby dust
xxxx
My only dream - Funding IVF/Surrogate
Posted by SweetPea on 2012-01-24 05:58:27
im a 23 year old woman, married with a mortgage and a full time poorly paid job. i wouldnt do this unless i was absoultly desperate but please here my story.
ive got a special body - i was born with two uteruses and two ovaries. *great your thinking, theres no reason why she cant get pregnant*. unfortunatly i wish that was the case. each ovary is only connected to one womb. only one of my wombs has a passage for "sailors" to do their job. i also have polycystic ovaries (which means i dont ovulate without ibtervention from medication* i was told from being a teenager it would be diffuclt/ dangerous to get pregnant.
on top of that i was also born with severe kidney failure, I only have 1 working kidney and the other one is really tiny with cysts on it. My doctors estimate i will be on dialisis within 10 years if my kidney continues to fail as fast have they have. My kidney function is currently only working at 25%.
i have diabetes type 1 (insulin) and I was also born with a hereditary bones disorder called, Multipul Ephiseal Displasure. i know what your thinking, *theres no way this girl is being serious* well believe me, if could take anyone of these away i would in a heartbeat.
now despite all of this, after 3 years of trying to get pregnant i succeeded dispite what the doctors said. unfortunatly this ended in miscarriage due to my health problems. my world broke, i was depressed for months because my special sweetpea my only dream, had been taken away from me in the most horrific way imaginable.
this was 3 years ago - we still havent been caught pregnant again (bearing in mind sweetpea was nigh on a miracle). we have tried numerous methods and advice and intervention from doctors. doctors are now advising it wouldnt be safe to get pregnant again as the chanes of miscarrage are high and i would more than likely be on dialisys as pregnancy takes it toll on your whole body.. ie kidneys.
im still heartbroken after losing my little miracle and we are now looking to fund 1 round of IVF in a surrogate mum. please help me with our dream. We need roughly £5000.00 to fund the bills and without your help, it would take us roughly 10-15 years to save that amount of money up. we are desen, honest, hardworking people who are doing anything to make their dream a relaity again.
please donate.
much love and baby dust
xxxx
My only dream - Funding IVF/Surrogate
Posted by SweetPea on 2012-01-24 05:58:27
im a 23 year old woman, married with a mortgage and a full time poorly paid job. i wouldnt do this unless i was absoultly desperate but please here my story.
ive got a special body - i was born with two uteruses and two ovaries. *great your thinking, theres no reason why she cant get pregnant*. unfortunatly i wish that was the case. each ovary is only connected to one womb. only one of my wombs has a passage for "sailors" to do their job. i also have polycystic ovaries (which means i dont ovulate without ibtervention from medication* i was told from being a teenager it would be diffuclt/ dangerous to get pregnant.
on top of that i was also born with severe kidney failure, I only have 1 working kidney and the other one is really tiny with cysts on it. My doctors estimate i will be on dialisis within 10 years if my kidney continues to fail as fast have they have. My kidney function is currently only working at 25%.
i have diabetes type 1 (insulin) and I was also born with a hereditary bones disorder called, Multipul Ephiseal Displasure. i know what your thinking, *theres no way this girl is being serious* well believe me, if could take anyone of these away i would in a heartbeat.
now despite all of this, after 3 years of trying to get pregnant i succeeded dispite what the doctors said. unfortunatly this ended in miscarriage due to my health problems. my world broke, i was depressed for months because my special sweetpea my only dream, had been taken away from me in the most horrific way imaginable.
this was 3 years ago - we still havent been caught pregnant again (bearing in mind sweetpea was nigh on a miracle). we have tried numerous methods and advice and intervention from doctors. doctors are now advising it wouldnt be safe to get pregnant again as the chanes of miscarrage are high and i would more than likely be on dialisys as pregnancy takes it toll on your whole body.. ie kidneys.
im still heartbroken after losing my little miracle and we are now looking to fund 1 round of IVF in a surrogate mum. please help me with our dream. We need roughly £5000.00 to fund the bills and without your help, it would take us roughly 10-15 years to save that amount of money up. we are desen, honest, hardworking people who are doing anything to make their dream a relaity again.
please donate.
much love and baby dust
xxxx
My only dream - Funding IVF/Surrogate
Posted by SweetPea on 2012-01-24 05:58:26
im a 23 year old woman, married with a mortgage and a full time poorly paid job. i wouldnt do this unless i was absoultly desperate but please here my story.
ive got a special body - i was born with two uteruses and two ovaries. *great your thinking, theres no reason why she cant get pregnant*. unfortunatly i wish that was the case. each ovary is only connected to one womb. only one of my wombs has a passage for "sailors" to do their job. i also have polycystic ovaries (which means i dont ovulate without ibtervention from medication* i was told from being a teenager it would be diffuclt/ dangerous to get pregnant.
on top of that i was also born with severe kidney failure, I only have 1 working kidney and the other one is really tiny with cysts on it. My doctors estimate i will be on dialisis within 10 years if my kidney continues to fail as fast have they have. My kidney function is currently only working at 25%.
i have diabetes type 1 (insulin) and I was also born with a hereditary bones disorder called, Multipul Ephiseal Displasure. i know what your thinking, *theres no way this girl is being serious* well believe me, if could take anyone of these away i would in a heartbeat.
now despite all of this, after 3 years of trying to get pregnant i succeeded dispite what the doctors said. unfortunatly this ended in miscarriage due to my health problems. my world broke, i was depressed for months because my special sweetpea my only dream, had been taken away from me in the most horrific way imaginable.
this was 3 years ago - we still havent been caught pregnant again (bearing in mind sweetpea was nigh on a miracle). we have tried numerous methods and advice and intervention from doctors. doctors are now advising it wouldnt be safe to get pregnant again as the chanes of miscarrage are high and i would more than likely be on dialisys as pregnancy takes it toll on your whole body.. ie kidneys.
im still heartbroken after losing my little miracle and we are now looking to fund 1 round of IVF in a surrogate mum. please help me with our dream. We need roughly £5000.00 to fund the bills and without your help, it would take us roughly 10-15 years to save that amount of money up. we are desen, honest, hardworking people who are doing anything to make their dream a relaity again.
please donate.
much love and baby dust
xxxx
My only dream - Funding IVF/Surrogate
Posted by SweetPea on 2012-01-24 05:58:26
im a 23 year old woman, married with a mortgage and a full time poorly paid job. i wouldnt do this unless i was absoultly desperate but please here my story.
ive got a special body - i was born with two uteruses and two ovaries. *great your thinking, theres no reason why she cant get pregnant*. unfortunatly i wish that was the case. each ovary is only connected to one womb. only one of my wombs has a passage for "sailors" to do their job. i also have polycystic ovaries (which means i dont ovulate without ibtervention from medication* i was told from being a teenager it would be diffuclt/ dangerous to get pregnant.
on top of that i was also born with severe kidney failure, I only have 1 working kidney and the other one is really tiny with cysts on it. My doctors estimate i will be on dialisis within 10 years if my kidney continues to fail as fast have they have. My kidney function is currently only working at 25%.
i have diabetes type 1 (insulin) and I was also born with a hereditary bones disorder called, Multipul Ephiseal Displasure. i know what your thinking, *theres no way this girl is being serious* well believe me, if could take anyone of these away i would in a heartbeat.
now despite all of this, after 3 years of trying to get pregnant i succeeded dispite what the doctors said. unfortunatly this ended in miscarriage due to my health problems. my world broke, i was depressed for months because my special sweetpea my only dream, had been taken away from me in the most horrific way imaginable.
this was 3 years ago - we still havent been caught pregnant again (bearing in mind sweetpea was nigh on a miracle). we have tried numerous methods and advice and intervention from doctors. doctors are now advising it wouldnt be safe to get pregnant again as the chanes of miscarrage are high and i would more than likely be on dialisys as pregnancy takes it toll on your whole body.. ie kidneys.
im still heartbroken after losing my little miracle and we are now looking to fund 1 round of IVF in a surrogate mum. please help me with our dream. We need roughly £5000.00 to fund the bills and without your help, it would take us roughly 10-15 years to save that amount of money up. we are desen, honest, hardworking people who are doing anything to make their dream a relaity again.
please donate.
much love and baby dust
xxxx
My only dream - Funding IVF/Surrogate
Posted by SweetPea on 2012-01-24 05:58:26
im a 23 year old woman, married with a mortgage and a full time poorly paid job. i wouldnt do this unless i was absoultly desperate but please here my story.
ive got a special body - i was born with two uteruses and two ovaries. *great your thinking, theres no reason why she cant get pregnant*. unfortunatly i wish that was the case. each ovary is only connected to one womb. only one of my wombs has a passage for "sailors" to do their job. i also have polycystic ovaries (which means i dont ovulate without ibtervention from medication* i was told from being a teenager it would be diffuclt/ dangerous to get pregnant.
on top of that i was also born with severe kidney failure, I only have 1 working kidney and the other one is really tiny with cysts on it. My doctors estimate i will be on dialisis within 10 years if my kidney continues to fail as fast have they have. My kidney function is currently only working at 25%.
i have diabetes type 1 (insulin) and I was also born with a hereditary bones disorder called, Multipul Ephiseal Displasure. i know what your thinking, *theres no way this girl is being serious* well believe me, if could take anyone of these away i would in a heartbeat.
now despite all of this, after 3 years of trying to get pregnant i succeeded dispite what the doctors said. unfortunatly this ended in miscarriage due to my health problems. my world broke, i was depressed for months because my special sweetpea my only dream, had been taken away from me in the most horrific way imaginable.
this was 3 years ago - we still havent been caught pregnant again (bearing in mind sweetpea was nigh on a miracle). we have tried numerous methods and advice and intervention from doctors. doctors are now advising it wouldnt be safe to get pregnant again as the chanes of miscarrage are high and i would more than likely be on dialisys as pregnancy takes it toll on your whole body.. ie kidneys.
im still heartbroken after losing my little miracle and we are now looking to fund 1 round of IVF in a surrogate mum. please help me with our dream. We need roughly £5000.00 to fund the bills and without your help, it would take us roughly 10-15 years to save that amount of money up. we are desen, honest, hardworking people who are doing anything to make their dream a relaity again.
please donate.
much love and baby dust
xxxx
Please help an infant in need
Posted by Dee331 on 2012-01-18 21:58:56
With the pride of being a aunt for the first time i feel so heartbroken to see this little precious baby girl stay up all night crying restlessly. She is so adorable but so tiny since she was born 2 months premature. My sister, was a diabetic during her pregnancy and had high blood pressure which is why Natalie is so vulnerable she could get sick really easy, the care for this infant is 24/7 and I'm proud of my sister for dedicating her life to her child. I just want to show her that she doesn't need to drop out of high school just because of life's struggles I tell her that Natalie came into her life to make her a stronger woman.
Although i do not know you I want to thank you just for hearing me weather your able to help me or not god bless you. And if you are able to make any amount of a donation we would forever be grateful. Thank You So Very Much!
I'm So Worried for My Sister
Posted by yedda_2000 on 2012-01-11 16:58:15
She was told she would not have any more children. Against the odds, she has discovered that is pregnant once again, much to her fear and delight.
Being pregnant is a danger to her health, but it is too late to turn back now. She is ordered to bed-rest, and her health and even her life are at risk. Her husband works full-time, and she has two young children already. They cannot afford full-time care, and so she is unable to follow the doctors orders for bed-rest. Her pregnancy has landed her in the hospital twice already. I'm so worried about her.
I'm on the other side of the continent from her, but I want to move to her location so that I can care for her children and for her. She has no one else.
I can't afford a move, or even a plane ticket right now. All I need is to scrape the cost of travel together so I can go be with her. Any help would be appreciated.
Need help bad
Posted by lilones on 2012-01-08 23:58:35
Help Save my home while I am in Treatment for Bipolar
Posted by ernewt on 2011-12-24 02:58:04
Moving on, I really struggled in school and got into a lot trouble. I was reckless, promiscuous, used drugs and alcohol and was dangerous. To keep it short, I dropped out in my junior year. When I reflect on those years, I remember some of what I did but mostly I forgot. I guess I felt as though I was being pulled by the strings of a puppet master whose name I now know is Bipolar.
When I turned 18 I shared an apartment with a friend. We both worked for the same nursing home and later for the Bureau of Reclamation. In was at the former job, I received my GED. I was still behaving recklessly resulting in a lot of missed work. But I was having fun being independent, partying all night but slowly losing control of my life.
I became pregnant by my boyfriend and we married several months later. My daughter is a grown woman. I then had another child four years later. Money was also a struggle. My husband wanted me to work but it did not make sense financially. I paid more for daycare then I was paid. When I found a position over the weekends, my husband refused to watch the children. That being said, I was still reckless â the mood would not go away â still a slave of the puppet master. Eventually the relationship became abusive and my husband left leaving $200 on the kitchen table. I did not have a car so I borrowed my fatherâs truck. I drove my fatherâs truck with my two small children in back to a safe house. However, it was not so safe. My husband who insulated homes, worked on the safe house. He found the truck and wrote things, I cannot mention here, on the outside of the truck. He coerced my grandmother to call me; and she did! Having to deal with these distractions kept me from focusing on me.
Good news! I was able to move into low income housing. It was a struggle to get my possessions; I took what I could. My father out of the blue wanted his truck back. My mother headed him off at the pass. I think I remember that my life settled down a bit. I enrolled in college. I loved college. In spite of this, I quit school to work from my mother at her computer store. Did I mention my parents were divorced? I am not sure it matters at this point. About six months later, the puppet master caught me and off I was again.
I had a boyfriend â I was 32 years old â and pregnant againâ¦..This relationship was worse that the first. It included drinking, drugs, sexual and physical abuse â oh my, sigh. In the course of it all, I secured a position for one of the largest companies in Loveland. I was thrilled. I had actually come a long way. I divorced my second husband and found my own apartment.
Wow â raising three children on my own was not easy. We got by â I was able to provide what we needed. I forgot to mention I shared custody of my third child and had to pay child support. I never complained; I met my responsibility. I was performing very well at work and procured a position of a trainer. WeeHee â my new position allowed me to travel the globe. Can you imagine, me, the girl from Loveland, Colorado? During this time, I encountered a lot of problems with my ex-husband. Once, he called me at work and said he had a brain tumor. It was a joke; I did not find it funny.
I was promoted again returned to school and bought a house!!! I cannot think of the words to describe these accomplishments. I transformed from the woman driving my fatherâs truck to a home owner; kind of like the Home Sweet Home book. I was still partying, drinking, but not like before. The puppet master must have been on holiday. I met the man of my dreams and we married in 1998 (I think). We are still together.
The puppet master had those strings a rolling. I could and did accomplish anything. I could see what others could not. I finished school with ease and received my BA in Organization Development in 2005. What year did my story start? We bought a new home in a nice neighborhood. It is a modest home but fits us very well. I was still partying but it was not disrupting my work and home responsibilities.
CRASH! He let go â how could he let go? A woman pulled in front of us and totaled our car. I realize this does not sound traumatic, does it? I really do not know anymore. What I do know is this rocked my world. More than any other event did â and there were many. I could not recover. My performance fell down the well. I could not sleep. I drank a lot. I would even get up at night to drink because I could not sleep. The unthinkable happened. My strings let me down. I swallowed a bottle of pills. I was so afraid. I spent three days in the psychiatric hospital and two months in intensive outpatient therapy. During this time I was on short term disability. I am a fighter; I have never let my circumstances stop me. I returned to work for about two months. Nevertheless, the strings dropped again, were they ever pulled, I am not sure; I spent eight days in hospital. I was out of work again. This time when I returned to work there was no position waiting for me. I was laid off the summer of 2009. I lost it all in one short year.
Remember I am a fighter. I returned to school in July 2009 to obtain a masters degree and I graduated in early 2011. The problem? I obtained a degree and I could not use without further education. I still do not say this out loud. During this time, I landed a part time job as an instructor for students seeking their AAS Human Resources degree. I make a third of the salary I previously did. I have performed this job since April 2010. It is hard. I forget â my memory is not that good. What you have reading are the highlights of my life.
Adult children and BABIES!! Not one baby; two and a one year old. My daughter was in a bad situation in Arizona. She was pregnant with twins, had a one year old daughter, had no car and was being evicted. The dad? Letâs say there is a lot to be desired. She packed as much as she could and moved in with us. Would anyone turn a loved one away in this situation? I could not. I was still drinking. As I write this, I now realize drinking was the one constant in my life. Sad. Her pregnancy had it challenges, but I think this is common. The first snowstorm of the year, December 30th, if you can believe that for Colorado, the babies had enough; my daughter was in labor. We called 911 since the roads were bad. Several hours later we welcomed two healthy baby girls! They will be one year old soon.
New Chapter. How many do we get? My daughter and 18 year old son live with us in our modest home. We clash, how we could not. I have been telling my doctor that I am depressed, damn strings. I canât sleep and my body hurts so badly; especially when I lay down. Oh, I forgot to mention, no drinking! I quit over a year ago. Regrettably the depression and pain are driving my every moment. I think the puppet master is on vacation. There is no hope. I have been out of work too long. We are waiting for the repo man to get our car. We are barely holding on to the house. How can everything crash so fast and so hard? I am a fighter remember. My mind is full of hopelessness. I have a note that says âPlease just let me goâ. I am a fighter remember. I call the crisis line. They tell me to call 911. I donât. I go to bed. Maybe it will be better tomorrow. Not a chance. The same message is repeating over and over in my head; âplease let me goâ. I tell my family I am driving to the hospital. I do not want anyone to come with me. I go alone.
Hospital
I'm really down & out but I'm optimistic & still have a little fight left!
Posted by SonicHelpPlease on 2011-12-23 01:58:21
Here's some history: Basically when I started college my family lost our home due to my mother's gambling problem. This lead to my father's infidelity which ultimately lead to their divorce (which both my parents made me decide if they were to separate or not). Several months later I found myself pregnant & kicked out of both my parents apartments. During that time I still tried to keep things together by working as many shifts as I could & by going to school during the day. It was hard because I was like a nomad, moving from one friend's house to another. At times I even slept in my car. But then there came a point where my pregnancy became too complicated and I ended up living in the hospital for 2 months before my child was born at 7.5 months. Due to his pre-maturity and the many complications that ensued I decided devoted my life to taking care of him. It worked to some point, where I was able to drop my 3 jobs and obtained a stable one. I was also able to obtain a certificate from university. However, when my father died. I felt the obligation to take on the responsibility of honoring his last wishes. In a sense it aided me to find a type of closure yet in another way it had opened Pandora's box. It was not easy grieving and dealing with my father's side of the family, my mother's side & to add more, my father's girlfriend's side. The funeral, the back taxes owed by my father, my husband loosing his job & my son constantly getting sick... All expenses were on me. To add more "injury" within the span of 9 months I was in a total car wreck, I gave birth to my second child & then I was in a horseback riding accident, that almost paralyzed me. Honestly, what are the chances of going horseback riding for the first time, loosing control & getting thrown off?!
I've really tried my best to deal with things one day at a time & also do it with a smile. But now I find myself dealing with arthritis, kidney problems, crazy medical fees, no job (since the company closed), and bills now reaching almost $60,000. Even as I look at that number now, I honestly feel a sense of nausea...
The only thing I do know is that, I still have a lot in me to give and I've tried, despite it all, to give it back by going back to school to become a licensed nursing practitioner. It may sound crazy & it comes at a very inopportune time (considering that I'm drowning in debt!) but by doing this course, it helps me in so many ways. It calms me... It gives me a sense of purpose, knowing that I may alleviate a person's pain, even in the slightest, which in turn somewhat alleviates mine as well. It also gives me confidence knowing that all the teachers that I have encountered during this course say that they believe in me, in my determination & in my will power to survive & conquer.
So ultimately, I'm asking you this... For your help, to help me help others. Even if you could spare $1.00. One small step, is still a step forward for me. And like I said in the title, despite all the things that I've gone through, I'm still optimistic & I still have a little fight left in me. So please help me fight!
Have 5 kids, HELP with Food, Oil, clothing, just the basics for life!
Posted by CUTETWINS on 2011-12-22 00:58:58
