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Some moths ago, I came home from a normal day at work, happy to see my two little boys (Josh 3 and Liam 4 months) and what I used to consider my better half. I walked in to find the house empty - no note, no indication of what had happened. I toyed around with calling the police, but it was clear this wasn't a missing persons case, or a robbery or anything else other than what it was. Everything was gone. Phone disconnected, bank accounts cleared out, credit cards closed. Suddenly it was me, the house and the car and nothing else. After a few days of searching, talking to family, friends and yes even filing a police report - not they cared much - I discovered I had been dumped for a guy my wife had been seeing for months. We has only just signed the lease less than a month before, and I thought we were really happy together. There were no signs - nothing that I saw at least. This really isn't the part that hurts, I can live with all this; it's her life and her decision. What really hurts is not seeing my boys.

During the first few days I didn't work, too busy trying to piece together what had gone on and why and how it had come to this right under my nose. The rent still needed to be paid, even though the house was unfurnished and too big for me alone. I was (and still am) locked into the lease! Problem number one.

Problem number two is rather more complex. Last Friday I received two letters. The first from a solicitor (our version of what you would call a lawyer) informing me of divorce proceedings and the second was sent a letter from the Child Support Agency informing me my wife is seeking child support payments from me. Now, I'm no deadbeat dad! I think all parents should pay for their children's needs but here I am - rent on a house I don't need, no furniture (some friends have lent me a TV and cooking utensils and a couch), no money to contest the proceedings and on top of that she wants me to pay child support while she's shacked up and living a 'normal' life with my boys, whom I haven't seen since.

I've seen a solicitor who advised me he wouldn't bill me for the first meeting - we talked about the situation, and what he could do from here... It requires more than I have, to achieve what I want and what I think is fair! All I want to do is split our assets 60/40 her favour (she has the kids). Get out of this lease that I'm legally locked into, and get shared custody of my beautiful little boys. Problem is she has the assets and without a court order to either return a portion to me or divest herself of some of the assets so I can be compensated, I can't pay a solicitor and barrister to get the money to do all this. Once it's all settled I'll happily pay my child support requirements, see my boys and leave her out of my life, seeing that's what she wants.

My solicitor has told me I could be up for as much as $10,000, but $6000 should be a good starting point. His firm wont proceed without knowing they'll be paid - fair enough, but what's a man to do in this situation?

I am literally begging for $6000. I haven't wanted for anything in my life - I've always worked and worked hard for what I had, but when it's all taken away from you, you realise how vulnerable we all are. I'm pledging that whatever I receive from this site that's not used in the case, I will pay forward, to another needy soul from this site. Please help... My heart and thanks, and that of my boys will go out to you.

Update: 6th Jan 2012. I've managed to get the proceedings heard at a later date, due to my personal situation. But nothing has changed. I still don't have the funds to fight this and to date not one response to my plea for help. I'm begging - literally for some assistance. I haven't seen my boys since December and I can't fight this without your help.

Update: 25th May 2012
I have nothing to fight her with. No funds, no will and no motivation. The house has been re-leased and the owner has started legal proceedings against me, I have nothing but what she left me. I am trying my hardest to provide some money for my two kids - that I haven't seen since December. I can't go on like this. No-one can!

I am a hard worker! I had a child young and my parents were ot very suportive. I have struggled ever since. I graduated from cosmetology 2 days before I had my son. I worked at supercuts which pays hourly. it wasn't enough so I tried to work on commision doing hair I am now bringing in even less. the salon is slower than I thought. I am so scared right now... I don't know how i will pay my bills. I have been going to school as well part time. I feel like this is never ending. I just want a good job that pays the bills. I dont want to realy on my credit card. please help!!! I have experience in hair, sales, computers, payroll.

I am faced with an impossible request I think. 3 years ago I was a strong, confident woman, 13 credit hours away from a BS in Biology with plan of going to graduate school. I was in an extremely abusive relationship with a man that I had to assist authorities in putting in prison. The same man left his daughter in my custody under the pretenses that her mother had abandoned her. I cared for her for two years as the only mother she knew before I found out that he had in fact kept her from her real mother and I had to return her to her biological mother. That same man sent people after me to attack me later and forced me to fear for my life. I still do.

I now understand that I was dealing with a psychopath.

After that man was incarcerated I tried to rebuild and began a relationship with another man who later went to prison for a charge that he accepted for someone else basically. While he was incarcerated my best friend of over 20 year died of unknown and still unexplainable causes. Once the man that I was with came home I then suffered two miscarriages.

I am told by my physicians that the constant state of being in a heightened and frightened state caused post traumatic stress disorder which led to an anxiety disorder coupled with daily panic attacks and agoraphobia.

Due to my condition I lost my job and no longer have health insurance. I am unable to drive or leave my house 90% of the time. I have been hospitalized on several occasions in an attempt to control the anxiety and depression that seem to only be getting worse. I feel over medicated but still as if nothing is working.

My physicians have suggested a residential psychatric program that would last approximately 30-45 days to assist me in in getting a handle on these conditions and assist me in regaining control of my life. However these programs are all self pay even if I did have insurance and range from 40-60,000 for the complete care in a facilty that can handle both the medical and therapeutic side of psychiatric care.

There is simply no way that I can accomplish this, but I feel as if I am slipping away and I am scared that I will never come back.

I just want my life back. To be free from these nightmares, this panic, these fears and to not live my life on medications that due nothing but make me a zombie. I had a life and a plan, I was going somewhere, and now I can't even leave my house for weeks sometimes months at a time.

My parents have basically been placed in financial ruin to assist me during this time, and they can no longer assist me. I am scared beyond words, If I don't find a way to get help, to get better, I fear for what will happen to me, how I will live, pay bills, work, be a functinal member of society.

I feel that committing to a residential program as suggested is my only option left, my only option for survival. I am desperate and scared. But I don't know how to accomplish what seems to be the only hope.

Please Help, someone please throw me a rope, I am desperate, lost in a dark pit somewhere, I can't see out, there seems to be no way out......I need a rope.....Please help.

okay my parents are on a fixed income and my mom is on ssi and my dad works we barely have money to get by were behind on bills and need them paid in a few days before they shut things off. im expecting a baby boy in another month or so and my parents can barely help me out so please find it in your heart to help me out my mom takes so much medication as it is. so please help me out i cant recieve donations from paypal but you can send it through the mail if you need my address please text me at 813-965-7499 only serious people that are willing to help me not people who are just getting my hopes up. im grateful for whatever you are able to give me.

Hello all! My boyfriend of 6 years has made the huge commitment to serve our country. He graduates from his air force basic training in 2 months. I am 21 years old and need financial help to get there! My entire family is struggling from severe medical conditions so I am unable to work. I am the only family my boyfriend has, because he was raised in a children's home and left by his parents at a very young age. I would absolutely LOVE to be there for his graduation, and would appreciate any donation no matter how small or large it may be. Thank you all for taking the time to read this!

Hello all! My boyfriend of 6 years has made the huge commitment to serve our country. He graduates from his air force basic training in 2 months. I am 21 years old and need financial help to get there! My entire family is struggling from severe medical conditions so I am unable to work. I am the only family my boyfriend has, because he was raised in a children's home and left by his parents at a very young age. I would absolutely LOVE to be there for his graduation, and would appreciate any donation no matter how small or large it may be. Thank you all for taking the time to read this!

I am a teenager, and my parents passed away due to cance. I'm don't have any relatives to count on..tried to work part time jobs and stuffs, but school fees, bills, medical bills from hospital for parents etc have been too much.. last resort to try begging..am crying as i'm typing..have hands and legs...but yet need to beg..

Please kindly help me out if you can. I'm just looking to get my life back..

I don't have Paypal..If you would like to help, kindly email me direct at yippayip@aol.com. Thank you.

Hello, I am a student wanting to accomplish my dream by obtaining my degree in biology. I have been in school thus far for three years and have one more to go. However, I can't afford to go anymore. I recently lost my job, have no finacial aid coming in, and my parents basicaly told me I'm on my own. I don't have bad parents they just can't afford it. I have been stuggling for some time now and I came across this site. I'm not a lazy person looking to get by on others I am a hard worker and am looking for another job. I just have been having the worse of luck and cant afford to apply for a loan. I am looking for help. Please if you can just donate. Even if its a dollar it'll be appreciated because its a dollar I didnt have. Thank you so much and I promise your money will not be wasted.

me and my son is renting all our lives.single parent and has unstable income.I really need to have atleast $1500 to build a small house so I can breathe from renting a house. It is getting too much to bear. We usually run out of other basic need because of the house rent. No matter i saved some, it just never get enough. I am tired, I am afraid that we get to sleep on the street one day.I have a small lot I bought years ago..I only worry the cost for a small house.This will mean a lot if anyone out there can help me get started..It's just me and my son. Parents are gone and siblings has the same situation as me. I do not know where to find way. My son is 8 years old and I am 33. thank you very much to anyone with a big heart. every cent count...

I am a single mother of two childeren and another one on the way. I went through a divorce this year and my ex took all that we had saved and left me with $40 bucks in our joint account. His family has done nothing but help him get on his own and mine does not have the means to do so. He is currently seeking full custody and I am having to pay temporary child support when i don't make much as it is. I need some help to get a few of my bills paid off and to be able to get out of my parents and get on my own and have my childeren back with me. I am currently exspecting another baby and my ex is the father and wants nothing to do with the baby because he doesn't want his family to know that we are having another baby together. Please help anything will help. Even just donating some items will help. You can e-mail me with question. devotedmomma78@gmail.com

My name is Jason. I am a hardworking 28 year old married man with three wonderful children 7, 4, and 1 month old, and the best wife anyone could ever ask for. When I and my wife married we were “given” my parents’ home in NY along with the mortgage as a wedding present. My wife and I have spent the last three years renovating this home, dumping every single cent we had into its improvement. We both come from broken homes and both wanted something more than what we came from, and have managed to build a loving stress free environment for our family, and in a matter of a month my “family” (brother, mother and father) have managed to crush our dream out of selfishness and this, “the world owes me something” mentality they all seem to have.
I work full time and also do side jobs on weekends to make ends meet, my wife has been out of work on disability (she will return full time in the next 3 weeks) due to the birth of our son, which should be the happiest time of our life, and yet I get to go home and see my children upset wondering why there uncle is acting the way he is, I get to see my wife cry over the fact that we have been basically reminded that even though we pay the bill and we fix this home and have made it what it never was for me growing up an actual home, that it is not ours and we should have no say over what happens.
My brother who at one time made hundreds of thousands of dollars a year an selfish heartless drug addict, who even though has never treated me or my family with any respect I have always dropped what I am doing regardless of time or place to go “save him”, and by save usually picking his drug addict ass up and making sure he gets home, or dropping what I’m doing to take him to the hospital cause he is so sick from whatever he has taken this time. Now that brother has decided to move in with us, not ask, not offer to help, but blatantly tell me and my wife, “it’s not your house , I am not asking permission to stay here”, and my parents who told me this home was a “Wedding gift” seem to agree. They feel it’s okay for a drug addict to be living among children, that it’s okay that slowly one by one pieces of my wife’s jewelry are disappearing, or that since he came has literally taken over my infant sons nursery with his disgusting belongings that I found my wife sitting on the floor of the living room trying to feed the baby because he’s asleep on the sofa passed out cold and his belonging are strewn all over the house.
My only options are to buy this home that I and my wife have built a great life in so I can say who stays and goes, or to uproot my children and move as far from these selfish disgusting people as possible.
In order to purchase this home I would need a deposit upwards of 12000 which due to me draining my accounts my sons accounts and my wife’s to “save” my brother from jail, drug dealers, etc., we have nothing left. Which has led me here, led me to the point where I feel more dependent on asking strangers for help than my own family because they can’t even help themselves? I am the little brother (youngest of four) who has always had to be the big brother, I am the one one whose entire family drops there problems in my lap as if to say deal with it. I have been the pillar supporting every single family member I have for the last 28 years, the pillar has finally cracked and can’t hold up the weight of the world anymore. I am begging on my hands and knees for help from completer strangers so I can continue to give my children the life I never had, and offer them some stability instead of having to tear them from the home they have come to love, that my wife has come to love, that I love. I want to give my children the world but my family continues to assure that won’t happen under there watch. Please I beg of you with everything I am I need help. Please don’t make us just another statistic, I found my calling and made a life for my wife and children, I have put aside pride, because they are all that matters to me. Thank You for taking the time to read this and thank you for any support or help you can provide.

hi im 27 i just recently just had a baby he is 3months now and my bills are stacking up and i cannot even aford to buy him a crib and the stuff he needs i just want some relief its so hard to raise a family now a days with the prices of everything rent and food if your a parent then you would understand where im coming from even a lil bit of money would help me out i know there are kind people out there and i know there are parents that have been in my situation before so please if you understand my situation please help thanks 4 reading this:)!!!

Greetings,
I'm a single parent, who fleed from domestic violence- having to quickly store my furniture and children items in florida. I've been making payments up till now, I'm not currently working although I'm deligiantley looking. I have not make my payment of 165.00 per mth for april and may and now june is approaching quickly. Ny belongings are up for auction this 25th of May. I will make june payment if the prior are made or they will not accept it and the late fees will continue and of course i lose everything. I really need my furniture when things pull together for us, and losing them for 500.00 dollars hurts deeply. If there is anyone who can make this payment for me the storage company is cypress self storage acct. 4153, their number is 239 287-2566. they accept pymnt by phone as well. I thank you in advance

My name is Jason. I am a hardworking 28 year old married man with three wonderful children 7, 4, and 1 month old, and the best wife anyone could ever ask for. When I and my wife married we were “given” my parents’ home in NY along with the mortgage as a wedding present. My wife and I have spent the last three years renovating this home, dumping every single cent we had into its improvement. We both come from broken homes and both wanted something more than what we came from, and have managed to build a loving stress free environment for our family, and in a matter of a month my “family” (brother, mother and father) have managed to crush our dream out of selfishness and this, “the world owes me something” mentality they all seem to have.
I work full time and also do side jobs on weekends to make ends meet, my wife has been out of work on disability (she will return full time in the next 3 weeks) due to the birth of our son, which should be the happiest time of our life, and yet I get to go home and see my children upset wondering why there uncle is acting the way he is, I get to see my wife cry over the fact that we have been basically reminded that even though we pay the bill and we fix this home and have made it what it never was for me growing up an actual home, that it is not ours and we should have no say over what happens.
My brother who at one time made hundreds of thousands of dollars a year an selfish heartless drug addict, who even though has never treated me or my family with any respect I have always dropped what I am doing regardless of time or place to go “save him”, and by save usually picking his drug addict ass up and making sure he gets home, or dropping what I’m doing to take him to the hospital cause he is so sick from whatever he has taken this time. Now that brother has decided to move in with us, not ask, not offer to help, but blatantly tell me and my wife, “it’s not your house , I am not asking permission to stay here”, and my parents who told me this home was a “Wedding gift” seem to agree. They feel it’s okay for a drug addict to be living among children, that it’s okay that slowly one by one pieces of my wife’s jewelry are disappearing, or that since he came has literally taken over my infant sons nursery with his disgusting belongings that I found my wife sitting on the floor of the living room trying to feed the baby because he’s asleep on the sofa passed out cold and his belonging are strewn all over the house.
My only options are to buy this home that I and my wife have built a great life in so I can say who stays and goes, or to uproot my children and move as far from these selfish disgusting people as possible.
In order to purchase this home I would need a deposit upwards of 12000 which due to me draining my accounts my sons accounts and my wife’s to “save” my brother from jail, drug dealers, etc., we have nothing left. Which has led me here, led me to the point where I feel more dependent on asking strangers for help than my own family because they can’t even help themselves? I am the little brother (youngest of four) who has always had to be the big brother, I am the one one whose entire family drops there problems in my lap as if to say deal with it. I have been the pillar supporting every single family member I have for the last 28 years, the pillar has finally cracked and can’t hold up the weight of the world anymore. I am begging on my hands and knees for help from completer strangers so I can continue to give my children the life I never had, and offer them some stability instead of having to tear them from the home they have come to love, that my wife has come to love, that I love. I want to give my children the world but my family continues to assure that won’t happen under there watch. Please I beg of you with everything I am I need help. Please don’t make us just another statistic, I found my calling and made a life for my wife and children, I have put aside pride, because they are all that matters to me. Thank You for taking the time to read this and thank you for any support or help you can provide.

My name is Jason, I am 28 Years old and married with three children ages 7,4 and 1 month. When me and my wife married we were "given" my parents home in NY as a "wedding Gift"( home still had mortgage whcih we make the payments on) My wife and i have built a happy stress free life together, only to have it shattered, by drug addict co dependant family mmebers who feel since the home is still owned by my parents (although i pay the mortgage) they can come and go as they please. I have tried everything form asking them to leave , to having my parents ask them to leave, only to be reminded how its "not my home" and i cant make the rules. My wife and i are destroyed at the fact that anyone would tell us its ok that they are putting my childrene in danger or making my kids see there family members like they are. I have been to every bank possible in order to purchase this home from my family, only to be told that iven with anf FHA loan i will still need close to 12000.00 dollars to put down on this home in order to buy it, make it my own, and keep the people whos own selfinshness and obscured mental state is only adding to the destruction of a once happy home. My only other option is to move again from a home i love, that my wife and children love and move away from these people, or purchase the home (which was the plan originally) I now have a a family mmeber leaching off of us, refusing to leave because "its not my home" my wife is out of work on disability due to a recent surgery, she will be returning to work in the next 3 weeks, I have done everyhting for my family, dropped what i was doing at insane times of the night to go "rescue" my drug addict family members, emptied my chiuldrens savings accounts to "save" my drug addict family memebers, gotten loans in my name to save my drug addict family members, only to have it thrown in my face, I am the little borther who spent his life haveing to be the big brother, and i just cant anymore, all that matters to me is my children and wife and keeping them in a safe and stable home where they can have the life i did not,I know its a long shot and everyone has a sob story, but i have no where left to turn, please im begging on my hands and knees, forget pride i just want to save my real family, my wife and kids, they are all that matters to me. My children are in a good school district doing very well, i just dont know what else to do, thank you for your consideration, and any help you can give.

I am in desperate need of 12,000 dollars for a down payment to purchase the home, please, i have to turn to strangers for help, that has ecome the qaulity of my so called "family"

thank you all

Hello, My names Kaylee and I am in need of a little help if possible. My parents divorced this year and it ended with me, my mum and my brother moving to a 2 bedroom repossessed property that is in dire need of repair. My mum works, but her wages only cover our necessities and there’s no room to save for the house to be repaired. Me and my brother help where we can but we are on little wages ourselves. We currently have no ceiling or flooring in the lounge and kitchen and every wall in the house needs repairing and painting. We also need a sofa and other bits of furniture as we currently have plastic garden chairs. I have a friend who is a builder and is willing to do all the repairs for us, it's just the part of raising the money for materials that’s an issue.
I would be most grateful for any donation that could help towards my cause and I know it’s not life threatening and in some people’s eyes not a lot of money but for us it could make a huge difference to our lives. My mum suffers with Bipolar and this can have a huge impact on our everyday life, with the house in such disarray this can cause my mums behavior to be very erratic and disorganised, I just feel with a home she does not need to worry about that it will help us all to lead a better quality of life :)

I am 22 year old recent college graduate struggling to find a job after graduation, thus I am struggling to pay all of my bills. I am now on the verge of homelessness. My parents are homeless as well and I come from an extremly poor family, so I have no safety net for moments like this. I have run out of savings and I have been searching for a job. I am now swallowing my pride because times are tough especially since I come from humble beginnings and I have no social connections. I have never been the type to ask for things but I don't want my pride to negatively affect my well being. I put myself through school and I am the first in my family to go to college, unlike other kids my age where their parents take care of everything for them, my father is dead and my mom is homeless as well. I really need help. I am out of options.

Hi, Im Tracy and Im 33. I have 2 children and im a single parent. I was born with knee problems and recently had surgery on both knees which did not help me and now I need knee replacement surgery. My job does not offer short term disability insurance and I already used my sick/vacation time up on the last surgery. I currently cant work more than 2 hours at a time so I really need to get this surgery ASAP. Im looking for any donations that I can get to help with every day expenses. I do have health insurance that will pay most of the surgery but im worried about how my family will survive when Im off 6 to 8 weeks or longer. Really starting to stress out over it. Thanks for you time

Hi, Im Tracy and Im 33. I have 2 children and im a single parent. I was born with knee problems and recently had surgery on both knees which did not help me and now I need knee replacement surgery. My job does not offer short term disability insurance and I already used my sick/vacation time up on the last surgery. I currently cant work more than 2 hours at a time so I really need to get this surgery ASAP. Im looking for any donations that I can get to help with every day expenses. I do have health insurance that will pay most of the surgery but im worried about how my family will survive when Im off 6 to 8 weeks or longer. Really starting to stress out over it. Thanks for you time

I am a member of my high school's swing choir. The swing choir is planning a trip to New York where we will perform at trump tower and see some Broadway shows. I have never been to New York. I live in a very small town and would love to have this experience. The cost is $1200. $275 is due in June. I have been working part time, but will not be able to make the deadline. With three people in my family in college, my parents cannot afford this expense. Please help me with this experience!

Hi, Im Tracy and Im 33. I have 2 children and im a single parent. I was born with knee problems and recently had surgery on both knees which did not help me and now I need knee replacement surgery. My job does not offer short term disability insurance and I already used my sick/vacation time up on the last surgery. I currently cant work more than 2 hours at a time so I really need to get this surgery ASAP. Im looking for any donations that I can get to help with every day expenses. I do have health insurance that will pay most of the surgery but im worried about how my family will survive when Im off 6 to 8 weeks or longer. Really starting to stress out over it. Thanks for you time.

Lets see. I am 20 years old and living in Austin TX-for 2 years now. I am a ballet dancer training with the Austin Ballet. I have been dancing for 14 years. I was adopted along with 7 other siblings in my family, due to abusive and addictive birth parents. My dance teachers are the reason why i am still dancing, paying for tuition, shoes, ect, because my family of 10 already struggle enough finiacially. I graduated early from high school and moved away and now I was acccepted into a school in New York! Alvin Ailey School for modern and ballet, it is unbelieveable how big a chance this is. And now I'm looking around, seeing as I can't even buy a plane ticket let alone be able to support myself all summer into the fall. Things in Life happen for a reason in the most unexpected ways. I am asking to help get me to New York. I havn't been home to see my family in 2 years because I have not been able to afford to fly home to see them, but its the sacrifice we must make to do what we love. Thank you for listening, and I can't wait to give to others the way so many have helped me in this journey we call life. I have less than a month to be in NY, along with paying for rent and bills.....

When my daughter was born in January of 2011 she had to be extracted via a fast emergency c-section. She had been engaged in the birth canal but she disengaged herself and the umbilical cord came out. The doctor was concerned that the cord was strangling her and took my wife to emergency surgery. My daughter survived and is now healthy. My wife developed an infection from the procedure and spent three months with a wound vac and endured two more procedures to try and remove the infection. In the time since I have changed jobs and moved my family back to where I grew up so we could get help with child care for both the baby and her 6 year old half sister from my parents because of the costs of day care. My wife can no longer work. I tried for several months to sell my home. When the opportunity presented itself I moved my family and ceased making the payments on the home I was trying to sell. It is now being foreclosed on. We are covered up with medical bills both from her past before we were married and also from the procedures to stop her infection and also credit card bills that are partially thanks to my ex-wife. After reading through this site I have decided that I guess I am not too proud to ask for help from compassionate people. Please contact me if you have any questions or thoughts on my situation.

My kid brother is a 29 year old who is dieing from End Stage Kidney Decease. His Dr said the following:
that he is terminal, he needs help and I need help to provide for him as he has no income and can not work. He has been staying with me since just before Christmas(about three months after he was diagnosed), He spends most of his day dealing with hospitals and the nights going to dialysis treatments then back home. he is applying for SSI and SSD but still no word as of yet. In the mean time I need help to purchase the medical equipment his doctors have required him to have at home, also we need clothing for him as the last 3 clothing banks I have gone to near our home have had nothing his size. His diet is a dialectic renal diet and I can no longer afford to provide foods that meet it's stringent standards with out help. He dose not qualify for pre-SSI as he has no children. We have tried everything and now must resort to begging for help. We need a bed, bedding, a Fridge, clothing, activities(Batman themed), food, a new kidney would be nice. The list goes on, Please help If you can I can provide letters from his DR as proof.
This has put a strain on all of us both physically and emotionally But I love my kid brother our parents are dead so we have no one to turn to.

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Melissa

Hello,

I'm 19 years old, no diploma and no parents to help me. I can't get a job because i don't even have my GED because i don't have the money to get it. I want to go to school and further my education and get a decent job. I'm currently living with my fiance and her family because i have nowhere else to go and have no way of supporting myself. I've done odd jobs here and there but the money goes just as quick as it gets in my pocket. I'm an honest hard working guy that just needs a little push to finally get going. Pleae help me. Thank you.