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I am 38 yr old mother of 3 married for 17 yrs. Been with spouse 19 yrs total. Spouse is an alcoholic. I'm a disabled high school drop out with a GED. This past year spouse destroyed our marriage yet I'm stuck in this hell with no way out. I can't get disability or SSI. I have no income, savings or any way to support my kids. When I told spouse I wanted a divorce he was going to walk away & leave me with no way to pay the rent or utilities. Can't afford an attorney can't afford anything to be honest. I depend upon him for income. My list of health problems began at age 17 & have continued to compile since. Can not be treated for my medical conditions due to my hypersensitivity to prescription medications & allergies to opiates & codeine. My existence is utterly miserable!! I need a way out of this hell. Everyone deserves to be happy even me. I have to provide stability to my children so I live a lie day to day pretending to be his partner friend & lover. Honestly it is enough to make one have no desire to live. I am trapped in hell with 3 kids. I have been diagnosed with degenerative disc disease, fibromyalgia, restless leg syndrome, herniated T11-12, chronic tendinitis of the groin, eczema. I have very bad allergies with frequent allergic reactions to things in my environment and have no idea what they are. I will be allergy tested next week. The week after I start testing for lupus & kidney disease if nothing is found on scope test of my bladder. I stay sick get many things at one time & it takes me much longer to recover than normal people. There has to be a way out of this with some dignity. I was told by an SSI rep that I am one of those people that just falls through the cracks. There has to be hope for us down here for Christ sake there has to be

I am a 53-year-old divorced mom of two teenagers who is struggling to find work, keep my home, and pay my bills. 2010 has been the most difficult year of my life, as I have had to deal with three major sources of stress all at the same time. The first one (financial) actually began in April 2009 when I injured my right hand in a table saw accident which required hand surgery (almost $5000, which I am still paying off) and prevented me from being able to work for a couple of months. (I am self-employed and do minor home remodeling, as well as decluttering and organizing.) I got behind on all of my bills (two mortgages, medical bills and credit cards) and have been within days of my home being foreclosed upon on three different occasions since then. I have worked really hard to market myself and find enough work to get caught back up, working 10-12 hours a day six days a week when I had enough work to do so. This past May I finally managed to get completely caught up on all my bills, which was a tremendous relief.

Throughout this time, both of my teenagers were living with me and since January I had been doing everything I could to help my 19-year-old son get into the Marines, as I felt it was the only thing that could get him back on the right track in life. I knew he had been drinking, smoking pot and doing some drugs throughout his high school years, but had no idea at the time how bad it was, so I ended up wasting six months taking him to work out with the Marines at the recruiting office five days a week in addition to many other Marine-related things. The last week of June, about a week after he failed his drug test at his Marine physical, I discovered that he had stolen several hundred dollars from my bank account. The next five weeks were utter hell. I managed to get him to admit to me that he was addicted to heroin. We have a tremendous problem where we live with teenagers getting hooked on OxyContin and then switching to heroin (both opiates) because it is about 1/10th the cost of OxyContin. Thank God, my son is scared to death of needles and never injected it (he was smoking five balloons of black-tar heroin a day). If you have lived with a drug addict, you know how it affects every single aspect of your life. Drug addicts are liars, thieves and master manipulators. They can’t help it because their brains have been hijacked by the drug and it is as though they are possessed. The only thing they can think about is how to get more drugs. My sweet, sensitive, smart, funny, loving boy was gone. You cannot reason with an addict and you cannot trust anything they say or do. It is the most unbelievably stress-inducing experience you can imagine. Until his father and I managed to get him into an inpatient rehab facility at the end of July, I spent most of my time dealing with him and trying to keep him from stealing everything in my house so he could either pawn it to get money for drugs or give the items to his drug dealer in exchange for drugs. Among many other things (I could type pages about just those five weeks of all the hell we went through), I had to buy my iPod back from his drug dealer after I discovered it was missing. During those five weeks, my son overdosed once and ended up in the hospital (this happened about a week after I kicked him out of my house). He had no place to go and I was scared to death he would die living on the streets, so I let him sleep on the hammock in my back yard (after I went looking for him and found him stumbling down a sidewalk in a heroin stupor) until he went to rehab (which he had been adamantly fighting against for the prior month) four days later. Because I was only able to work a few days during this period of time and had to spend almost $800 on repairs to my 16-year-old car, I got behind on all my bills again. I have been able to find an average of about 20 hours of work a week since then, so have fallen even further behind. I have been looking for a “real job” for months, without success so far.

Finally – the third source of major stress in my life this year. The love of my life, whom I had been with for 6+ years, ended our relationship in January. We grew up in the same town, went to jr. high and high school together, and I was head-over-heels over him then. We dated after high school, but he was too shy at the time to ask me to marry him, which I later found out he had wanted to do. After 25 years of not having any contact with each other, we reconnected almost seven years ago and it was as though we had never been apart. We were unable to marry at that time because we live in neighboring states and my two children were 11 and 12 then and my ex would not agree to me moving to Colorado and he was unable to move to my state because of his business. I have virtually put my life on hold career-wise for the past seven years, knowing that when my youngest turned 18, I would be moving to Colorado, and so I could have the flexibility in my schedule to make trips to see him every one to two months. Four months before her 18th birthday, he ended our relationship (which was a complete shock; I thought everything was great between us). Needless to say, on top of everything else, this has been very devastating and I am just now beginning to come to terms with the fact that my future with him that I had been working towards and looking forward to all this time is gone, besides dealing with the immense pain of a broken heart. I have felt utterly lost and alone, and very very sad. My wonderful 18-year-old daughter moved out of the house almost three months ago, so it has been kind of hard being in an empty house since then and not having my best friend to talk to every day on the phone like I had done for six years.

I have recently been working for a married mom of four boys, decluttering and organizing her house. Two days ago she called to tell me she had broken her foot and has to keep it elevated for two weeks, so she wants me to wait until after that before coming back to work. I currently have no other job prospects, am desperately looking for work, and worrying about the fact that I have to make two mortgage payments before the end of this month in order to keep from being over 60 days past due, in addition to being at least that far behind on my other bills. I have about $40 in cash, a quarter-tank of gas in my car, and my bank account is upside down.

I have always been a strong person and a survivor (having grown up with an angry alcoholic father). I have never sought any type of government assistance and never will. I have taken care of myself since age 17 and am a hard worker, so it is very difficult for me to ask for help and I apologize for doing so. I assure you that any money you choose to donate to me will only be used to pay bills, put gas in my car, buy groceries, or other similarly legitimate expenses. Thank you so much for helping me out (if you choose to do so). I am humbly grateful.

I'm 43 yrs. old and cannot walk without the use of two canes. I have suffered damage to my knees and lower legs due to venous insufficiency caused by complications from a severe staph infection I contracted about three years ago.
During this same period I caught my wife cheating on me which led to a divorce and the loss of my job. I spiraled into a deep depression, became addicted to opiates, nicotine and food. I gained a lot of weight which severely complicated my illness and all aspects of my health.
I am finally slowly digging my way out of this deep hole. In the last year I have quit smoking, conquered my drug addiction, have healed about 95% from the staph infection and have made great strides in battling depression and losing weight. However, I am still currently disabled and subsisting on the meager $700/month our fine government believes is more than enough live on. I have been a musician most of my life and I'm now physically up to using that skill again to earn some extra money, but because of my illness I was forced to sell every last bit of my equipment and instruments to pay for my medical bills. I am asking not only for cash donations but I would also love to receive any donations of old guitars electric or acoustic, amplifiers, bass guitars (acoustic, electric or upright), mandolins, fiddles, harmonicas, keyboards, microphones, PA equipment, speakers, power amps, cables, eq's, compressors etc., mic stands, recording software, computers, anything I could use to play out or record a demo to get gigs. Of course cash is always best. At the moment I don't have a PayPal account, but I will remedy that shortly. Thank you for your consideration and prayers.

I'm 43 yrs. old and cannot walk without the use of two canes. I have suffered damage to my knees and lower legs due to venous insufficiency caused by complications from a severe staph infection I contracted about three years ago.
During this same period I caught my wife cheating on me which led to a divorce and the loss of my job. I spiraled into a deep depression, became addicted to opiates, nicotine and food. I gained a lot of weight which severely complicated my illness and all aspects of my health.
I am finally slowly digging my way out of this deep hole. In the last year I have quit smoking, conquered my drug addiction, have healed about 95% from the staph infection and have made great strides in battling depression and losing weight. However, I am still currently disabled and subsisting on the meager $700/month our fine government believes is more than enough live on. I have been a musician most of my life and I'm now physically up to using that skill again to earn some extra money, but because of my illness I was forced to sell every last bit of my equipment and instruments to pay for my medical bills. I am asking not only for cash donations but I would also love to receive any donations of old guitars electric or acoustic, amplifiers, bass guitars (acoustic, electric or upright), mandolins, fiddles, harmonicas, keyboards, microphones, PA equipment, speakers, power amps, cables, eq's, compressors etc., mic stands, recording software, computers, anything I could use to play out or record a demo to get gigs. Of course cash is always best. At the moment I don't have a PayPal account, but I will remedy that shortly. Thank you for your consideration and prayers.

I'm 43 yrs. old and cannot walk without the use of two canes. I have suffered damage to my knees and lower legs due to venous insufficiency caused by complications from a severe staph infection I contracted about three years ago.
During this same period I caught my wife cheating on me which led to a divorce and the loss of my job. I spiraled into a deep depression, became addicted to opiates, nicotine and food. I gained a lot of weight which severely complicated my illness and all aspects of my health.
I am finally slowly digging my way out of this deep hole. In the last year I have quit smoking, conquered my drug addiction, have healed about 95% from the staph infection and have made great strides in battling depression and losing weight. However, I am still currently disabled and subsisting on the meager $700/month our fine government believes is more than enough live on. I have been a musician most of my life and I'm now physically up to using that skill again to earn some extra money, but because of my illness I was forced to sell every last bit of my equipment and instruments to pay for my medical bills. I am asking not only for cash donations but I would also love to receive any donations of old guitars electric or acoustic, amplifiers, bass guitars (acoustic, electric or upright), mandolins, fiddles, harmonicas, keyboards, microphones, PA equipment, speakers, power amps, cables, eq's, compressors etc., mic stands, recording software, computers, anything I could use to play out or record a demo to get gigs. Of course cash is always best. At the moment I don't have a PayPal account, but I will remedy that shortly. Thank you for your consideration and prayers.

I'm 43 yrs. old and cannot walk without the use of two canes. I have suffered damage to my knees and lower legs due to venous insufficiency caused by complications from a severe staph infection I contracted about three years ago.
During this same period I caught my wife cheating on me which led to a divorce and the loss of my job. I spiraled into a deep depression, became addicted to opiates, nicotine and food. I gained a lot of weight which severely complicated my illness and all aspects of my health.
I am finally slowly digging my way out of this deep hole. In the last year I have quit smoking, conquered my drug addiction, have healed about 95% from the staph infection and have made great strides in battling depression and losing weight. However, I am still currently disabled and subsisting on the meager $700/month our fine government believes is more than enough live on. I have been a musician most of my life and I'm now physically up to using that skill again to earn some extra money, but because of my illness I was forced to sell every last bit of my equipment and instruments to pay for my medical bills. I am asking not only for cash donations but I would also love to receive any donations of old guitars electric or acoustic, amplifiers, bass guitars (acoustic, electric or upright), mandolins, fiddles, harmonicas, keyboards, microphones, PA equipment, speakers, power amps, cables, eq's, compressors etc., mic stands, recording software, computers, anything I could use to play out or record a demo to get gigs. Of course cash is always best. At the moment I don't have a PayPal account, but I will remedy that shortly. Thank you for your consideration and prayers.

I'm 43 yrs. old and cannot walk without the use of two canes. I have suffered damage to my knees and lower legs due to venous insufficiency caused by complications from a severe staph infection I contracted about three years ago.
During this same period I caught my wife cheating on me which led to a divorce and the loss of my job. I spiraled into a deep depression, became addicted to opiates, nicotine and food. I gained a lot of weight which severely complicated my illness and all aspects of my health.
I am finally slowly digging my way out of this deep hole. In the last year I have quit smoking, conquered my drug addiction, have healed about 95% from the staph infection and have made great strides in battling depression and losing weight. However, I am still currently disabled and subsisting on the meager $700/month our fine government believes is more than enough live on. I have been a musician most of my life and I'm now physically up to using that skill again to earn some extra money, but because of my illness I was forced to sell every last bit of my equipment and instruments to pay for my medical bills. I am asking not only for cash donations but I would also love to receive any donations of old guitars electric or acoustic, amplifiers, bass guitars (acoustic, electric or upright), mandolins, fiddles, harmonicas, keyboards, microphones, PA equipment, speakers, power amps, cables, eq's, compressors etc., mic stands, recording software, computers, anything I could use to play out or record a demo to get gigs. Of course cash is always best. At the moment I don't have a PayPal account, but I will remedy that shortly. Thank you for your consideration and prayers.