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I am in need of a bone marrow transplant. My doctor who goes to our church says the entire procedure will cost about $700k but he will do the entire procedure for $525k since he won’t charge his fee. God bless this man. I have since been able to acquire $75k by placing my mother’s home on the market and have her move in with us. That was nine months ago and now my situation is getting worse. Dr. Grant says that I have almost 4 months left of life if this procedure is not performed and I am desperate. I am only 21 and I don’t have any kids, I don’t party, I am not promiscuous. What did I ever do to deserve this? My next birthday is in December and I may not live to see it. Don't know what else to say.

To all who donate, may God bless you.

Jane Nicholas
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Dear Sir/Madam
Greetings, Me and my family are farmers located in one of the most remote and rugged regions of Himalayas in India where there are no access to roads or transportations. Our home and fields are situated over the mountain approx. 3500 feet above sea level where the weather is unpredictable which makes farming very hard and life unbearable. All the farm work is done manually by hand by the members of my family. We normally grow garlic in small quantities which we sell to sustain the family for a whole year. As there are no access to roads we have to carry the loads on our backs at times 50 to 80 KG to access the nearest road which is couple of hours down the mountain and is a back breaking process. Even to get small food items we have to be going through this exercise everyday for our survival. Our everyday diet consist of five or six rotis (wheat flour and water mixed and roasted like a pancake) with mostly dal (gravy made out of pulse) with occasional rice two times a day. At times we collect wild vegetables from nearby forest to supplement our diet. Because of lack of nutrition our health conditions also suffer many times in a year. Here even today babies are born in the house. Birth is supervised by one of the older village woman as there are no doctors or any qualified medical people. In cases of emergency we have to carry the patient on our back to the road and any medical attention can be gotten 15 kms further down the road. This has resulted in many deaths in past years with young and old.
Since last two years due to changing weather conditions and untimely rainfall our fields could not yield crops properly. We are poor farmers just scrapping through life trying to stay alive. Added to these problems last year three of my family members one of whom is a six month old baby had deteriorating health conditions which needed hospitalisation and medicines which cost us major portion of the money we could earn by selling our crop. Normally we earn about 50,000 INR in a year by selling garlic and we grow small quantities of wheat and corn enough to keep the family through the year. Due to these sufferings and extra expenditure am now in great distress to be even able to buy seeds to grow crop in our field to sustain ourselves. To have one morsel of food has become a nightmare for all of us and we are nine members in the family with two small babies of 8 months and two years. The future of our survival looks very bleak given the conditions and lack of health and finance to tend the field.
I would be highly grateful if your goodselves would consider me and my family a worthy cause to extend your help to us with 5000 USD which I can use to buy necessary seeds for the crops, few essential medications, a mule for transportation, fix the leaking roof of our home, do little maintenance to our field for yielding more crop and get me, my family andour field back on track as our field is the only source of our survival. My family consist of myself, my sick wife, two sons and two daughters, 2 small babies and a daughter in law. I can provide you with my family snap, address and bank account details upon your heart permitting to help me as whatever I have stated above is genuine and true. Me and my family are seeking this help not because we are lazy but because of protracted and extreme conditions beyond our control which we have been facing since two years continuously under the circumstances outlined above. We need a helping hand to get back on our feet again as your generosity would go a long way in alleviating the sufferings of my family and bring life back into our lives.
Awaiting your kindness and response.
Warm Regards

Negi
ps : If this message is not meant for you plse pass it onto the concerned person. Respond to : pally_jones@yahoo.com

Hi there,
I'm a 22-year-old woman with a little nine month old baby boy. I'm getting my certification as a nurse's assistant so I can work in a nursing home. The elderly population is growing, and they need loving people to care for them and keep them company. Soon I will be able to do that. The only problem is the tuition is $950.

To learn how I got here, begging, read on..
A year and a half ago I got married to my love. He always treated me like an angel. We had a great life.
I got pregnant with our little baby boy and we'd never been happier.
Unfortunately,last June, before our son was born, he passed away.
I am being strong on the inside for my boy but I am still in love with my husband and I have nowhere else to turn.
I am a wonderful mom and I work very hard as a maid during the day and at night as a uncertified home health aide, but I'm not making enough money to pull us out of poverty.
Once I am certified, I can command a higher salary and move to a better neighborhood and save money for my son's future instead of living paycheck to paycheck.
Every dollar, I am closer to a brighter future.
Thank you for your time and may you be blessed.

I didnt know these type of websites existed until today. I'm not good at asking for help and to be honest, I don't really feel that great about doing this, but at this point, I don't really know what else to do. And now, my story: I am a thirty year old single mother of a nine year old little boy, who both works and goes to school full-time. Last semester I was denied financial aid due to the fact that my completion rate was not satisfactory. Taking a semester off was not going to do me any good, so I paid for my classes out of pocket. I knew it was going to be tough and thought that I would be ok. Well, I was very wrong. Life gets messy and complicated and never really works out the way we plan. My car needed work, my son needed glasses, he got pink eye and we both got strep throat. I also just started a new job and dont have insurance (I couldnt afford the $400.00/month COBRA payment from my previous employer). Everything just kind of seemed to happen at once and I fell behind in every financial aspect. In an attempt to recover from this, I reluctantly got a Payday Loan. Well..if any of you have ever done this, you know what a evil perputal cycle it becomes. I got loans to cover bills, and then got loans to cover loans..and now, I'm drowning in them! I have six at this moment all for varying amounts, my checking is negative and I am still behind on half of my bills. I dont feel like there is an end to this. I would get another job if I could, but with work, school and my son, I barely have time to sleep. I dont get child support as my sons father aquired a nasty meth addiction and ended up in prison and my family is struggling almost as badly as I am right now. I take responsibility for my bad choices and I'm not asking someone to completley bail me out. I won't even tell you how much my debt actually is. I just need a little help here..thats all. Thanks!

I am a single mother in need of help I am still recovering from the loss of everything I owned due to a personal tragedy .My mama and other other family members also could use some help .I am in bad health but am willing to work for any donations as much as I am physically able to.It would sure be a blessing to get some of the things we need to get ahead to the point where we could have a better quality of life.My child is about to have a birthday coming up and I would love to be able to give him something .I am also about to move into a new place cause I am staying with family and they are no longer going to be able to help me for they are very poor themselves ,so I will to move out and will need beds ,houshold items ,and many other things when I move . I will list below .I am first and foremost in need of food my ID expired and I have had difficuly getting up to the DMV to renew it so I am not going to be able to apply for food stamps until I can get up there and renew it problem is I dont have the money to renew it .I worked my whole life until now and hate to ask for help but my health and personal problems with being a victim of domestic violence and failing health has been a real set back .I know some will judge me and think I am a bad person for placing this ad but that is on them not me ,I am just simply trying to get some help for my family ,I am not asking for cash ,or anything elaborate just things my family needs .
Here are some things that would help us out alot ,I have listed things for other family members as well that are in need due to disability ,loss of employment ,a fire etc .
I appreciate any help ,we will pickup in all areas .May God Bless you
Things that would greatly help are in no certain order are the ones listed below..Please scroll down to bottom of ad for complete list.God Bless .



blinds
Childrens beds ,bed frames etc
Dressers all sizes including Children's dressers
A boys robe size 7,9,8,10
Childrens toys or other things to be used as entertainment
Information on where I can get an expensive childrens haircut
Volunteers to help with needs of family
Winter gloves all sizes
Winter hats all sizes
Childrens books
Mattress cover
Pet supplies food etc
A camper or RV we could live in real cheap or for free or even a trailor
Information on where I could get reduced cost dental work
Info . on a room to rent with a private enterance
info a Church that would give a family temporary shelter
information on local food banks that could help with food
Information on any local clothing closests
Information on anywhere in the area I could sleep for a few nights for very cheap
Information on a room that I can play a flat rate per month that alo
A inexpensive motel room I can rent by the week
white pain
rugs
something to treat rotted wood
glass frames for man extra large
Mens hats Extra large
small kitchen table
something that you can hang clothes on
photo frames
a vegetable tray
a hand-held vaccum cleaner
cups or glasess
ear mittens for kids
gloves for kids or adults










Food items
Girls sizes baby(all sizes)
BABy boys clothing (all sizes
, Girls clothing ,,2t,3t 4t,5,6,7,8
Boys clothing all sizes
Teen boys clothing all sizes
Teen girls clothing all sizes
Clothing the boys wear sizes //four,five,six,seven,eight ,nine ,
Boys winter coats in sizes 6,7 ,8,9 ,10
Kids shoes boys and girls
Kids socks
Childrens toys
Any baby or Childrens items
Household items
Beds of any size
Towels
Silverware
bathroom caddys or shelfing
Curtains
A microwave
any furniture
clothing womens sizes Large ,XLarge ,and all sizes larger than those some of the women in my family wear very large sizes ,we really need 3x and 4x very badly
Vaccum cleaner
toilitries ,cleaning supplies ,baby wipes ,diapers etc,soaps ,shampoos etc
A TV
someone to give my uncle a good discount on repairing his floor
helmet
shoulder pads .knee,pads elbow pads for a boy to ensure safety when he rides his bike
A trey to eat on
Childrens beds ,bed frames etc
Dressers all sizes including Children's dressers
Childrens sunglasess
anything I can use to give the children as an Easter Basket or for Easter
Glass Frames for a man with a bigger head
any discounts on motel rooms








moving supplies
Birthday party supplies
Childs bookbag
Car seat for child under 50 pounds
prepaid cell phone
recliner
mini fridge
can opener
a Women's winter coat in size XL or larger
blankets
sleeping bag in case we cant find beds
futon
Womens ,mens ,and childrens socks,
plastic tubs in case we do not get a dresser
A room divider
Clothes hangers
over the counter medicines
Men's clothing XL,2xl,3xl,4xlt,5xlt,5xl,any pants over the size 50
Mens shoes sizes 12 e,12ee,12eee
Womens bras all sizes D cup and on up to much larger sizes
Anything that can be used for a birthday party as gifts ,decorations ,party favors entertainment etc
Bookbags
School supplies
coffee table
stroller
childrens cups or plates
envelopes
womens shoes size 8.5 /9
Many Many things one would need when moving into new place
Clothes hanger
Any big tall mens items
recliner
tuppaware containers
teddy bear net
any organizers or storage containers


cover ,sheets ,throws ,blankets
disability items walker ,wheelchair ,arthritus supplies ,diabetic supplies
Anything an elderly person could use








Childrens beds ,bed frames etc
Dressers all sizes including Children's dressers

Hi
My husband, who is a Vietnam vet, passed away recently (October 8th, 2011) from Bone and Lung Cancer at home. First of all, he wanted to spend the rest of his life home with me and our pets (three Mini Dachshunds and two kitties). Also, the VA wouldn't be able to control his pain enough so that he could enjoy the remainder of his life so he went under Hospice care. They strive for quality of life and they were amazing.

The problem with that was that when you die at home, the VA covers nothing at all. Had he died in the VA they would've covered his funeral expenses. We didn't have life insurance. He had started a policy, but the bill for the first payment came in on Monday, the 10th. He died Saturday the 8th.

He died here at home and then was placed in the funeral home morgue until we could come up with enough of a down payment for his funeral (I believe it was $2000.00) I still owe something around $5,000. He stayed in that morgue for around three weeks before we could gather up that money. Not a good way to treat a vet at all.

I had left my job to take care of and be with him until he died, this is what he wanted. We didn't have insurance or any kind of state medical help. We lived on his disability check that he received monthly. There are no survivor benefits, VA or Social Security I've been told either. We had only been married a year. We have been together since 2002, but got married Sept. 21, 2010. We had our first anniversary a couple weeks before he died. As far as I know, SS people have told me we must have been married for ten years in order to get any kind of survivor benefits.

We had sold our boat, truck, and spent any money that we had toward our living expenses and to help with down-payment on funeral.

Now, I'm back to work but it is part time, I make $7.50 per hour (sometimes as little as 20 hours every two weeks). Telephone survey taker. I don't qualify for state help other than food stamps.

I've been looking for work since he died and not getting any responses at all. I am on the Michworks website numerous times a day, every day besides checking the local papers, and any other things I can think of.

Right now as I write this, I am due to lose our home (we rented this for the last nine years). My rent was due on the first. I have borrowed money, sold household items, and gotten help from the area charity places that I could. Every month has been a struggle and every month I think "okay, I've gotten the rent paid this month and I SHOULD have a new job by the next time the rent is due", but sadly it is not working that way. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm beginning to lose faith. I absolutely cannot get rid of our pets either. I promised I would never let anything happen to them and I wont. Besides, they are our little ones, our family that we had together. They are also what is keeping me going. I cannot imagine life without them and him too.

I am at the end of my rope now. I didn't want to resort to this and it really is a blow but I don't know what else to do anymore.

I hope that there is someone out there that will read this and be able to help me somehow.

Thank you so much.

I am 27 years old, and I am in a really bad situation. I am a mother of nine months years old boy. I have not been working since February, 2011. Till now I got some help from my relatives but they can not help me anymore. Please help with 500$ for my rent. THANK YOU

I am an unemployed mother of three children (ages 13, 9 and 6). I was laid off when the company I worked for closed due to foreign competition. We are struggling to make ends meet and now my unemployment benefits have ended (November 9, 2011). I have a nine year old son with special needs. I am fighting to get him disability; however, with no way to make doctor appointments it is becoming more difficult. Any help is greatly appreciated!

I lost my job and my unemployment ran out in November. Despite numerous applications and resumes sent out I am unable to find employment. I have a nine year old son who has special needs and I am fighting to get him disability but it is becoming harder and harder with no income and no way to get him to doctor appointments. Help in any way is appreciated.

Nine years ago my husband of 20 years left me, my 2 daughters and my newborn granddaughter to runaway with a woman he met online. He was a truck driver and the family breadwinner. Financially devastated I was forced to move to Georgia to my retired brother.My brother died from a sudden massive heart attack soon after my arrival. I've worked several minimum wage jobs over the last few years and I've finally managed to raise my children. I was living alone in a low income apartment when my place of employment suddenly went out of business. For the past year I have been collecting $100 a week unemployment and living from from one friend to another. I have some chronic medical ailments and no health insurance. I have mounting medical and dental expenses. Any amount donated will be greatly appreciated.

I am looking for work, I have worked hard since I was nine years old. I lost my job and am trying to support my daughter and aging mother with a severe lung disease. I do not gamble , drink alcohol or use drugs. I am baptized and try to be repectful to my elders. I am eating rice to save the little money I have. Please help.

hello my parents died of cancer nine months of the year interval of my eighteen years forcing me to stop my studies I wish I could keep them but I now have no money I appeal to your charity permetra me to continue my study of pharmacy
Give what you can
I pray God to bless you

Sunday at church I was overwhelmed with emotions and couldn’t control my tears as I heard the choir and sang along with them. I was hoping God would hear me because my husband, family, and I are in such a hopeless financial situation that there is nowhere to turn and we can’t live normal lives due to our debt.

We struggle to buy grocer everyday and keep our children in school. We don’t even have enough for the fees for them to start on august 1st. All fees must be paid by July 27th or they won’t be able to attend. This is a public school. My husband has always had a full time job and many times he’s had two jobs. I work part time when I can and home school my smaller children.

We only have one old van so I take everyone to school, work, etc. We have nine children. Two are on their own with families. Seven still live at home. Two of them have families. One son was laid off of his job last month and had to move back in with us. He has been desperately trying to find a job but nothing has come in yet. One our sons got into some trouble and we tried to help him but it’s escalated and he’s ended up in trouble with the law. My husband and I tried financially to help keep him afloat, including getting a car for him in our name. Our son lost his job because of all of the trouble and we were left paying his car until it was repossessed. Now we are paying for a car we don’t have. Paying lawyers, court fees, bonds, and so much more has drained us.

We started getting loans on our wedding rings and many items in our home. We couldn’t keep up with the interest due every month and normal bills. We took out payday loans. What a mistake! Our banks became horribly overdrawn. We filed a Chapter 13 in hope of saving ourselves. We had filed before when we were younger and first married. We didn’t know any better and made huge mistakes. Our 13 now has us paying such a huge amount of $1,200 a month that we fell behind immediately because of the other debt.

Our son’s troubles have kept us from paying our debt and just being able to live. Our son is innocent. That’s why we continue to stand by him, it breaks our heart to think of him going to jail for something he didn’t do. Our Chapter 13 is going to dismiss us if we can’s pay what we’re behind. It’s almost $5,000. Our Xcel bill is going to be turned off. We owe Xcel $4,000, and our water bill is $400 and ready to be turned off also. We will be behind $1,500 on our rent by this Friday. We’re being sued for almost a thousand dollars for a pizza check that was returned by our bank. We can’t buy groceries and gas for us to get to work. We’ve been getting small loans on our children’s items to help get small amounts of food.

We’re so embarrassed. We don’t have any family who can help and we haven’t kept in touch with friends. We’re always busy with our family so we don’t have time to socialize. We feel so sorry for our children. They had to be embarrasses all of last year at school because we stilled owed fees and they couldn’t participate in school activities. They are trying to work jobs while attending school but we are so far behind that we just can’t catch up.

People who know us think we have no problems, especially financially, but we are so depressed and sad. We can’t sleep or function in our everyday lives. It has affected our whole family and it is tearing us apart. We have lost the respect of our older children because we couldn’t keep our selves together financially. Please, if you’re reading my letter, if you can help in any way, or know someone who can help, please help us. We’re good people who work hard but are guilty of having big hearts. We’ve been married for 32 years. We don’t drink, smoke, do drugs, go out, or party in any way. We believe in God and hope our prayers and faith will get us through this.

My family and I need help. We don’t know where to turn and the depression making us sick. Especially my husband. We’re going through the motions of living but were not. Please help us and our children so we can get our lives on track and start living and enjoying life. We will find a way to repay as much as possible as soon as we can.

Sincerely,
A person who is in need for her family.

I am a single woman who dropped out of college and moved back home after the sudden and untimely death of her father. I did this because I have a young sister, and my mother could not afford to keep up the bills on her income alone, and we also needed someone to help with childcare. I work full time in retail, and do most of the maintenance and upkeep of our home in the absence of my father.

My mother got very sick recently, and is not working full time right now due to her health issues. I took all my savings to help pay our bills, and my mom did the same, but after nearly nine months of not having my mother working full time we are struggling to make ends meet. Any help would be greatly appreciated by all of us. Thank you so very much!

My wife and I were doing fine up until 18 months ago when she was diagnosed with MS. Since then we have accumulated big debts, lost income, and we are falling further behind each month. My wife has lost the ability to work, and my income isn't enough to keep up.

We have nine children, and we never would have had this many children if we knew what the future held. We were doing fine until this string of bad luck. We have kids in college who are going to have to take a break until our family's finances recover.

We are in a spiral. If we don't get some help soon, we'll lose our house, our cars (which are old), and who knows what else. We have nowhere else to go and no one else to turn to...

Help!

please help me i am a male age sixty three i was married for thirty nine years and my wife wanted to get a divorce so she left i am drawing a small disability check every month. my expenses are exceeding my income by 479.00 a month i have been trying to keep up with the bills but now i am in trouble my property taxes are three years and i got a letter from their attorney . said they were going to sell my house for the back taxes they are about 6,000. for the three years. i am concerned as to where i will be living. if i don't find help soon. would you please help me it would be greatly appreciated.thank you so much

I usually don't like to do this, but I am in much need of help at this time. For years, I have tried in so many ways to get back on my feet & venture back out in the world again, but as of late, things haven't gone my way. I have been living at home for nearly nine years & now I feel that home is not where I should be & that I need to move on with my life & start over with a fresh, clean slate. I have been out of work for a long period of time & my career has been at a standstill & stalled due to the economy, & I cannnot handle living here at home anymore because I have been in such a dead end at the crossroads & I really need to change my life & soon. Your generous donations of either $1, $5, $10, $20, or more is greatly appreciative during my most time of need & I will be more glad to pay back when I'm able to get a solid footing on my life. Please donate to my PayPal account below to make a generous offering. Again, thank you & take care.

I'm a 27 year old single mom of there kids (nine year old twins and a five year old). In December of '10, their father left and filed for divorce, giving no reason as to why. I've had to take on a second job as a server at a local restaurant and with all the bills I've been left with, we've been just scraping by. There's absolutely no extra money to buy the kids clothes or shoes or to take them to do anything fun. We do well to keep enough groceries in the house. Unfortunately, a couple weeks ago, the refrigerator stopped working. What I'm asking for is at least some help to replace it. I know that's alot, but there's no way I could ever afford it on my own and the kids really need to have cold milk and fresh veggies. If you're interested in helping, but prefer not to send cash or use paypal, contact me at hrose1983@gmail.com and I'll give you an actual address you could send a gift card to. Thanks to all who find it in their hearts to help. --Heather

Nine years ago I was discharged from the military and rated disabled. Mental health issues contributed to bizarre behavior that earned "MISCONDUCT" declinations. Few employers will hire when that designation is made on a soldiers discharge papers.

My then wife announced an affair at roughly the same time. She intercepted and withdrew every cent of my final pay and caused the repossession of a brand new Kia Optima... with interest... Over ten thousand dollars and erasing any progress toward paying off the vehicle. Periodically the debt is sold from company to company. Harassment and threats and legal notices continue to this day. Interest accrues without limit.

As 30% disabled I receive roughly one-third of my bass pay every month for the rest of my days... Sounds good right? What if I told you that came to 421 dollars a month. Social Security will not recognize the disability even with sensitive, very private documents from health professionals. That's fine. I don't want a free ride, but I can't support myself right now. Although I have remarried our joint income can't touch my past mistakes and transgressions.

I'm physically capable of working. I'm looking hard for work and the VA is helping with some schooling as well as job-fairs, interviews and introductions. But I've been hardly able to make a dent in the amount without steady employment.

If you would like to check out the original debt-holder, use any search engine to find SNCAA. Any help at all will ease the anxiety my heart's been packed in for the last several years. I'm serious: If you would like to donate even just a penny, at least to say you've had it hard too or that "you would if you could". In the end I think just knowing someone cared enough to gesture may be just as bolstering.

I've had a rough life from the beginning! I was an unwanted child of teen parents, so I got passed around a lot. I had traumatic childhood, being subject and witness to my mother's drunken escapades and those of her boyfriends. I've been on my own since I was 16, with no family help. Determined to graduate High School, I got a job and rented a room, then graduated nine months pregnant. I had my second child at 20, so I married their father. He shortly thereafter started cheating on me and became abusive. After watching my mother being abused as a child, I vowed to myself that I would never tolerate it, so I left him. He then stalked me and broke into my apartment and strangled me. I had a near death experience, but was lucky enough to come back to care for my children. By the time I was 26, I doubled my family, because I had twins. I thought their father was my soul mate, but low and behold, he cheated on me and then became abusive too. Originally, I took all four children with me and stayed in one room, but it was so tough on my twins, as they were only 3 and weren't allowed to play where we lived. Since their father stayed in the house we were buying, he talked me into letting them stay with him, but it was only supposed to be temporary. Truly, he didn't want to pay child support. He said since I had two children with me and he had two with him, nobody would have to worry about child support. What a joke! He ended up collecting welfare, so the DCSE started collecting child support from me, even after he got married. Here I am single mother, struggling to make ends meet, while he's married and getting child support from me. To make matters worse, my daughters' father didn't pay anything. He’s also remarried. I tried to take him to court, but can't do it, because it brings back PTSD from when he stalked strangled me. One year, my income was $300 too much to get the earned income tax credit, so now I owe IRS $2000. To top it off, I had been struggling at work, due to a neurological disorder and got laid off for a while. After several months, I found another job, but then suffered a closed-head injury and got laid off. I've been unemployed for 4 years now. The child support added up, so now I owe A LOT (like $10,000)! I applied for disability, but they denied me, so I've been trying to do work for myself, but just trying to pay bills to live and care for my daughters has taken all my money, so I've not been able to get the other stuff paid off. Due to my neurological disorder, I can't work in an office environment, as it makes me very ill and I can't function. I'm currently trying to build a marketing and design business, as well as a ministry for the homeless and battered women, but I really need help getting these bills paid down. I'm starting from scratch with my design biz, as my hard drive died and I lost all of my work. I am a very creative woman, with writing, painting, graphic design, marketing and more, and know once I get things off the ground I will really do well. I need assistance getting some of these bills paid down, so I can live my aspirations. I really want my daughters to go to college, but can't support them. I wish to get caught up, so I can be more supportive of my daughters than my family was of me (their support to me was nil!).

My name is Amy, I'm 30 years old, nine months pregnant and expecting my baby any day now.

2010 was the hardest year of my life. I contracted Haemolytic Uremic Syndrome in February 2010. Basically, I drank unhygenic water and unfortunately Ecoli bacteria got into my system. This led to kidney failure for which I had to undergo nine plasma transfusions and daily dialysis. It is only by the grace of God that I am alive today. I truly believe it was a miracle I survived.

However, God is good and has given my husband and I a beautiful child who I will name Charlotte Grace.

This has been a rough year for us, however I look forward with hope and wish to move on from this horrible sickness. It is my dream to start my own online clothing business, which I had been working towards before I became ill. I have finally found something I am passionate about and would love to have the opportunity to live out my dream. This is where your help comes in. I am asking for a small donation to support my dream of becoming an online retailer. I need $860 to have a website designed by a professional and a further $400 for buying in wholesale clothing items.

I know it is a big ask, but I am so passionate and desperate that I have decided to do this. If you could find it in your heart to support me and my family I would be so greatful.

Any amount that you could give me would be appreciated. We are not a wealthy family and like many struggle to pay bills, especially now with a baby on the way.

Thanks so much for taking the time to read my story. Many blessings and thank you once again. God bless.

I would appretiate help to go see my boyfriend for a week befor he deploys this feb to afghanistan for nine months. I havent seen him in a few months so his would be my last opportunity. I have been trying to find a job but they are very scarce, every little bit will help.thankyou so much.

Just celetrated nine months of sobriety on Chritmas Day! Really need a job the most. Problems getting job because of lovely parting gifts from alcoholism - horrible credit, gap on resume, no drivers license, criminal background (DUIs and alcohol related shenanigans no felonies or violence). Organization or person with the wisdom to hire me gets a highly intelligent, personable, gifted, energetic employee with tons of attributes to help bring solid value to operations. Culinary grad with some college.
Live in a sober house with other women in recovery. Also need help to pay rent to Little Creek Oxford House til I get on my feet.
MUCH GRATITUDE to anyone who can help.

I have NEVER EVER done this before but I ran across this site and figured I have nothing to loose trying. "Where there is a will there is a way!" Where to start? Sighhh...
I am the sweetest, sensitive, charitable, loving, giving, God Fearing, non judgemental, lover, encourager lady.. Many of my closest friends and family call me an "Angel on earth"... But even Angels need help once in a while.. I'm usually the helper so asking for help is new and a bit hard for me to chew..

First let's start with: My name is Crystal H.. I am a 32 year old caucasion lady that lives in Colorado.. Native to Colorado. Growing up I excelled in school thus earning 4.0 average and constant Honor Roll. I did have College opportunities ect. but at that time I met a young man in college, football player and fell in love. I had a good paying job as an office manager and thought all was good.. It was for several years anyway..We married and At 23yrs. I gave birth to my miriacle baby whom was premature and weighed 2 lbs. 11oz. I was very ill at the end of pregnancy due to acute Eclampsia so she was born early emergency c-cection, flight for lifed to Childrens Hospital in Denver and I stayed in ICU for the first week.. Keep in mind due to circumstances I never was able to see or touch my daughter before they airlifted her to Denver.. Finally one week later my doctor gave me a two hour pass to beable to go to Denver and meet my new daughter for the very first time.. Words can't tell what I felt and the emotions I was feeling.. I still tear up recounting the events.. But yes after many tears, fear of touching or holding her due to her size and all that was hooked up to her I did finally get courageous enough to hold my new born daughter after a week for the first time.. Love at first sight! Chills are still going through my body as I write this.. Anyway's over time she improved and became much stronger. She was small but mighty. I was finally released from the hospital myself and spent all my time with her at Childrens Hospital until release day.. Brought her home at 3 lbs. 12 oz and had the ultimate baby learning/motherly instincts. With 4 yrs. of twice weekly physical therapy she grew out of her challenges, and has grown into an way above average intellence, beautiful nine yr. old.. Thank you God!!!

My next challenges were none to fun at all! My marriage became rocky.. He became abusive physically, emotionally and mentally.. After about the last 3 yrs. becoming so bad and scary I could not deal with his abuse or allow my daughter seeing such activity. So with that said I asked him to leave our home. He would not leave without a police escort, but finally was gone nonetheless.. I am NOT pro divorce at all so after the initial anger callmed down I did go to him asking him to please do counceling with me and let's really try to work this all out. He REFUSED! So after being with my ex husband twelve years we finally did divorce.. =(

Right after the divorce at the age of 30, I was rushed to the ER and diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure. I was in ICU for over one week and spent several months at home on oxygen. But now since the divorce I was dropped from his insurance so I am unable to have the cardiovascular care needed and a heart valve repaired.. But I have faith one day I will beable to have this delt with.. Gotta believe!

Next was really NOT PLANNED or wanted but happened. I finally met a young man whom I started spending much time with. Due to my heart and lack of insurance I was not on birth control but did use condoms with him. Unfortunately a condom did break and yes I did become pregnant.. Three day's before Christmas last year I misscarried the baby and spent two day's in hospital due to D&C and my heart. I was released at Christmas and had a hard time dealing with the hormones, lack of support from the young man, failure in my parents eyes ect.. Just plain and simple was a hard time for me emotionally but I NEVER once let my daughter know of this and still have not to this day. She does not need to be scared any further than what she has already in life.

Now we come to current events.. Swear I have let my life become a soap opera and should right a what not to do and how to survive book for women.. sighhhhh.... Anyways. After being single for nearly a year and of course wishing I could meet a nice (preferably) Christian boy to date and enter into a relationship with a man whom I have known for several years who was a family friend while I was married came back into my life. This time he showed strong romantic gestures and over time did finally earn some trust n love with me. We entered into a relationship and it felt safe and comfortable since I'd known him so long, family new him and my daughter new him well already too..
I finally started becoming happier and was slowly gaining a little self confidence, and believing that things will end up working out finally afterall.. (Keep in mind due to lack of insurance and Heart Failure I was still not allowed on birth control pills like I wanted) we of course used protection always. But two times the condom came off in me.. I hoped all would be fine and I would not become pregnant, not at all wanting to repeat my first ordeal I had with my daughter plus now with my Congestive Heart Failure on top of it all pregnancy would NOT be good! I went to a local clinic and talked to a female doctor there and begged her if there would be anyway I could qualify for any free birth control that would not hinder my CHF.. Finally I had good news.. =) She said she would see if I could qualify for the low hormone Miranna and if I did she would implant it in my uterous for free.. This was to last for five years.. Yes one positive answered prayer. I went to my doctors oppt. as sheduled, they had me do an UA to make sure I was not pregnant before insertion and preped me for the procedure. Right before the Doctor was to do procedure the nurse came into the room and notified both of us that indeed I was pregnant.. My head swirled with confusion, fear, stress ect.. After talking to my doctor briefly about it, my history ect. I left the office and proceeded to go to my boyfriend to update him of the current events.. At the very beginning he sounded happy and positive, even eased my mind a little but about two day's later he up and left me. I have had my first ultrasound and as of yet the baby is alive and well. Strong heart beat. I am nearly two months pregnant, doctor took me off all my heart meds. due to baby. Still no insurance, applied for Medicade which really saddened me that I was at a point I had to do this.. Very humbling to say the least, and am alone, confused, many urging me to abort the baby but remember I am Christian and this is a hard concept for me to accept.. Currently unemployed, single mother, pregnant, no father support, lonely, desperate and really beginning to feel hopeless.. There is a high probability that the acute Eclampsia could repeat itself again as it did with my daughter and now I'm older than before. Not 23 anymore now I'm 32 with Congestive Heart Failure and Hypertension. Trying to support my nine year old the best I can and now so worried and fearful of what is to come.. Christmas just happened and it so did not feel like Christmas to me. Not much I could do for my daughter or my loved ones. I'm so scared of what the near future holds and how I will beable to deal with it, and be healthy enough to continue taking care of my nine yr. old. Need a good job but kinda feel it would be hard since I am so high risk I have MANY constant dr. visits. Neonatal parnatologist, my OB, and supposed to find a cadiologist as well to monitor me.. Medicade pending but no answer if they would accept me yet, bills piling up, and feeling out of control totally of my life right now.. Sad and confused that bf left me too.. I'm praying sooooo hard daily, nightly, looking on internet for at home jobs I could do but most end up seeming like scams, keep going to church in order to help try to keep me grounded and keep the faith that somehow it will all work out.. I sure hope I have not bored you to death, some may be pretty disgusted by my mistakes and situation, but I do hope nonetheless that maybe even just one person actually found this post, read it through, and maybe just maybe is in a posistion of life that they could and would be willing to help me out a little.. The whole "Pay it forward" campaign.. I fully believe in that and fully believe what goeas around comes around.. Regardless of the outcome I wan't to take a moment to wish everyone that took the time to read my post all the best to you and yours, full love and ENDLESS BLESSINGS to all!

With love and true sencerity,
Crystal H...¢¾


P.S. I don't have a paypal acct. sorry.. If you would like to contact me you may please do so via email at:
chedenskog@yahoo.com Please let me know you are from this site in the subject line so I do not assume you are spam.. Thank you and God Bless...¢¾

I bought a van with my loan money and it does not work. I have two daughters ages nine and ten.. their dad works part time and I am a full time student I have been looking for work but am restricted on finding a job without a car. Bought this van now it will not run. It is gonna cost me around $2,000 to get it fixed which there is no way I can do it. If you want to help me my email is below and also I can send my address via email if you want to help me too

gigsneed09@yahoo.com

Thanks for looking and God bless you..