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Please help!
Posted by angel66 on 2012-05-21 12:58:44
need help
Posted by helpmeplease38 on 2012-05-13 17:58:30
mEDICAL HELP
Posted by mackDES on 2012-05-07 13:58:14
Donations can be sent to:
Reverend CONNIE MACK CRAWLEY
(DUAL ORDINATION BY THE UNIVERSAL LIFE CHURCH AND CHURCH OF SPIRITUAL HUMANISM 4 DEC 02)
3403 E Division Street
Mount Juliet, TN 37122I
mEDICAL
Posted by mackDES on 2012-05-07 13:58:12
Donations can be sent to:
Reverend CONNIE MACK CRAWLEY
(DUAL ORDINATION BY THE UNIVERSAL LIFE CHURCH AND CHURCH OF SPIRITUAL HUMANISM 4 DEC 02)
3403 E Division Street
Mount Juliet, TN 37122I
Student in need.
Posted by Shame on 2012-04-21 23:58:20
Helped My Parents, Now I Need Help Please!
Posted by HumblePie on 2012-04-11 19:58:26
To type it all out would be exhausting, depressing and most importantly, a total disregard of your time. I will try to keep this as short and to the point as possible.
Five years ago my stepfather and mother were forced out of the home they had rented for 15 years after the real estate market came to a halt. My stepfather had always been very successful in commercial real estate but unfortunately did not save or invest for the proverbial "Rainy Day".
Totally in the dark, my mom continued spending money on daily needs and wants unaware that the essentials such as utilities and rent were not being paid. After realizing that my stepfather had no monies coming in and facing eviction she called me asking if I could help out by loaning them enough money to pay back rent and past due utility bills. Yes, I realize what most of you are thinking and I wholeheartedly agree but I was assured that one of John's deals would be closing within the next couple of months at which time the money borrowed would be repaid.
Needless to say the deal fell through and my money has not been repaid and what started out as a $5,000 loan from credit cards has more than doubled when factoring in all of the payments I have made and continue to make plus the mounting interest charges. They are now in their seventies with health issues and living month to month on social security.
The reality is that I will never see my money and will probably be paying for a very long time. Some people I suppose would file a lawsuit which for me is simply out of the question for 2 reasons. (1.) I love my mom dearly and I try to look at it as payment for the years she spent raising, doctoring, feeding, clothing and housing me. The second reason is obvious. Blood cannot be extracted from a turnip.
I know that there are a lot of people in much worse shape than I am in right now and I am employed, however I am now 5 months behind on what is called an upside down mortgage which I am trying to hold onto at least until home values come back. I would be more than happy to sell it for what I owe but there are major repairs (the roof being top priority) which have to be made before I can even hope to sell.
My goal is to pay off the credit card debt and if Bank of America doesn't foreclose on my house I hope to make the need repairs so I can at least sell for what I owe and then rent a small affordable apartment or house. Please... Any help that you can give will be greatly appreciated. Thank You & God Bess!
Thanking You in Advance!
Posted by HumblePie on 2012-04-11 19:58:25
Five years ago my stepfather and mother were forced out of the home they had rented for 15 years after the real estate market came to a halt. My stepfather had always been very successful in commercial real estate but unfortunately did not save or invest for the proverbial "Rainy Day".
Totally in the dark, my mom continued spending money on daily needs and wants unaware that the essentials such as utilities and rent were not being paid. After realizing that my stepfather had no monies coming in and facing eviction she called me asking if I could help out by loaning them enough money to pay back rent and past due utility bills. Yes, I realize what most of you are thinking and I wholeheartedly agree but I was assured that one of John's deals would be closing within the next couple of months at which time the money borrowed would be repaid.
Needless to say the deal fell through and my money has not been repaid and what started out as a $5,000 loan from credit cards has more than doubled when factoring in all of the payments I have made and continue to make plus the mounting interest charges. They are now in their seventies with health issues and living month to month on social security.
The reality is that I will never see my money and will probably be paying for a very long time. Some people I suppose would file a lawsuit which for me is simply out of the question for 2 reasons. (1.) I love my mom dearly and I try to look at it as payment for the years she spent raising, doctoring, feeding, clothing and housing me. The second reason is obvious. Blood cannot be extracted from a turnip.
I know that there are a lot of people in much worse shape than I am in right now and I am employed, however I am now 5 months behind on what is called an upside down mortgage which I am trying to hold onto at least until home values come back. I would be more than happy to sell it for what I owe but there are major repairs (the roof being top priority) which have to be made before I can even hope to sell.
My goal is to pay off the credit card debt and replace my roof. Any help that you can give will be greatly appreciated. Thank You & God Bess!
A family in turmoil.
Posted by elbeecee on 2012-04-06 04:58:09
It wasn't long before she became gravely ill. In the summer of 2010 my mother had succumbed to kidney failure and had to be on kidney dialysis permanently. She had neglected to take care of herself while trying to take care of my father and their financial woes. Along with the financial woes, there were back taxes that were still owed and of course were impossible to pay, their house was falling apart--still is. By the end of Spring 2011, my mother got so ill and was on a ventilator at least 4 times in a 2 week period due to her lungs filling up with fluid. Finally it was discovered that she had endocarditis (infection in heart)that had ravaged one of her heart valves. This required open heart surgery and replacement of the defected valve. The endocarditis stemmed from an infected temporary dialysis catheter. She was in the hospital for over a month and a half or so. Needless to say she was confused, lost tons of weight, and lost the ability to walk or care for herself. She was placed in a nursing home for rehab, but several more stays in the hospital only made her fall several steps back on her rehab and she never has fully recovered. It was discovered that she also had a tumor on one of her kidneys and her kidney was removed in the Fall of 2011 and supposedly it was all contained and it was early stage renal (kidney) carcinoma (cancer). While my mother was in the hospital my father had trouble breathing and I took him to the hospital. It as discovered he was in kidney failure and they both ended up in the hospital at the same time. Now my father is on permanent kidney dialysis.
Now fast forward to present day April 6, 2012. My mother's dialysis shunt would not stop bleeding and she was taken to the emergency room. She also complained of right leg pain and ultimately she ended up with a CT angiogram. This test revealed she not only had some blockage in one of her arteries in her leg, but that she had metastatic cancer to her liver, lungs, and a site near her spleen. Of course we are devastated.
They have no money. The money they do get is always depleted as soon as they get it from Medicare. My mother's social security check went straight to the nursing home and still was not enough to cover her bill. My father would have to pay over $1,000 a month because Medicare would only pay for several weeks. Since she has been in the hospital now for almost 2 weeks, we have pulled her out of the nursing home because the expected us to pay over $180 A DAY to keep her spot at the nursing home.
Now we are faced with a surgery to fix her leg, a plan for cancer treatment, and no suitable place for my mother to live. Their current home is in shambles and I mean SHAMBLES. Roof leaks and is falling apart. I assume there is some black mold lingering. No central air or heat as their units are broke. Plus large amounts of stuff--my mother also was a hoarder. The house is disgusting and it has been hard to clean up with out major assistance and with constant trips to the hospital who has ample time (?). They live in a small town and it is very hard to simply get a dumpster to throw many items away. The house would have to be completely gutted and redone. The floors are sinking in and it is very dangerous. They don't have the funds to fix any of it and nor do I.
I have missed work several times over the last year and more with FMLA, but never have enough PTO to fully cover my own losses.
My siblings have yet to start their lives. They have been with my parents ever since 2007 to help them with everything. Even when my mother was in a nursing home my siblings and my dad would go see my mom every single day--we just didn't trust the care of the nursing home and rightly so because she developed a bed ulcer on her heel after the wound care nurse said it was getting better--not even close! And yes the blocked artery in her leg and her bed ulcer on her heel are related. The wound care nurse and the Dr. for the nursing home should have caught this medical issue.
So life has been tough, but reading about it doesn't even give it justice. We need financial assistance, a new home or help to fix it--we need a lot of help. I want my brother and sister to finally get on their own feet and do what they want to do. I feel bad for them because I was able to finish college and have a career, a husband, and a home. They have yet to accomplish their goals and it makes me sad and sick to see them so depressed. They are in their late 20s and my parents are both 65 y.o.
If anyone has a kind heart, I promise you I'm not lying. I have proof of all I have written about and I swear on everything--my family, my husband, etc. that this is all real. Thank you for your time and interest. If you can't help at least please pray for us.
I'm trying this BegsList as desperation as I don't know what to do. My wish is to get them a nice clean place to live and live their last years worry free.
Have Heart Problem... Need Help Please!
Posted by Pottypot on 2012-04-02 12:58:33
University Undergrad needs help to finish school
Posted by engineeringstudent on 2012-02-29 12:58:23
I am student currently studying to become an engineer. The money is tight and I could use the help of an anonymous donor to pay some of my ever increasing bills. I live frugally and have very little free time to enjoy these days. My part time job only pays me enough to cover my food and part of my rent. Work now takes up most of my free time and I feel like the mounting stress is tearing me down. My degree will be a tool by which I can affect positive change to my community and nation. Anything to help would be incredible. Regards
Please help me save my home and pay my bills
Posted by santamonica99 on 2012-02-25 12:58:40
When I was 23, I graduated from medicine school, got involved with someone for 5 years then he left leaving me with nothing. I got my first loan and credit card which was my first mistake. I borrowed to pay for my mortgage and ended up having difficulty paying all my bills.
Over the years, I proceeded to act like an idiot â taking out new accounts and racking up the bills. I moved to Italy thinking a new start would be good, lived there for ten years but still could not earn enough to pay off my debts let alone live comfortably. Again, this is my fault, getting mixed up with people who took advantage of my generosity, I was left yet again with no money to support myself. My father passed away when I was 23 and my mother 10 years later, I am an only child. I have no idea what happened to all their property or money, so Iâve had to be independent and fend for myself.
I decided to return to England, but getting a job here was even more difficult than in Italy. No one wants to employ you if you are over 35yrs, Iâve been struggling for the last two years, sometimes going without eating for 5 days living on tea. I have sold just about everything I own. I was hoping to make a dent in the bills I had mounting, which had gotten out of hand. I was falling behind and couldnât make all the payments. Selling off all the stuff I bought seemed like a good start, but the bills keep coming.
I am asking for some help with these bills and rent so I can get my head above water. I have not taken out any loans and cancelled all my cards, Iâm in so much debt that I will be evicted from my flat if I donât come up with the rent by Monday.
I would humbly accept any help that someone is willing to offer me. I really want to live debt free for the first time since I left my parents home. I made a promise to myself that enough was enough, no more borrowing and if I got enough money to get me out of my black hole, I would help someone else who needs help just like me.
Financial desperation - I urgently need help please.
Posted by santamonica99 on 2012-02-24 20:58:14
When I was 23, I graduated from university, I studied medicine, got involved with someone for 5 years then he left leaving me with nothing. I got my first loan and credit card which was my first mistake. I borrowed to pay for my mortgage and ended up having difficulty paying all my bills.
Over the years, I proceeded to act like an idiot â taking out new accounts and racking up the bills. I moved to Italy thinking a new start would be good, lived there for ten years but still could not earn enough to pay off my debts let alone live comfortably. Again, this is my fault, getting mixed up with people who took advantage of my generosity, I was left yet again with no money to support myself. My father passed away when I was 23 and my mother 10 years later, I am an only child. I have no idea what happened to all their property or money, so Iâve had to be independent and fend for myself.
I decided to return to England, but getting a job here was even more difficult than in Italy. No one wants to employ you if you are over 35yrs, Iâve been struggling for the last two years, sometimes going without eating for 5 days living on tea. I have sold just about everything I own. I was hoping to make a dent in the bills I had mounting, which had gotten out of hand. I was falling behind and couldnât make all the payments. Selling off all the stuff I bought seemed like a good start, but the bills keep coming.
I am asking for some help with these bills and rent so I can get my head above water. I have not taken out any loans and cancelled all my cards, Iâm in so much debt that I will be evicted from my flat if I donât come up with the rent by Monday.
I would humbly accept any help that someone is willing to offer me. I really want to live debt free for the first time since I left my parents home. I made a promise to myself that enough was enough, no more borrowing and if I got enough money to get me out of my black hole, I would help someone else who needs help just like me.
PET RESCUER IN NEED OF SOME MONETARY HELP
Posted by petsaver on 2012-02-24 18:58:57
I've been rescuing animals that have been abused,neglected or thrown out for a number of years now. I'm beginning to feel the pinch financially, mainly with the mounting Veterinarian bills.
I can't imagine not being able to help these beautiful creatures but unfortunetly money plays a big part in the rescuing of animals.
If there are some generous people out there that care about the welfare of animals please help my cause in order for me to continue rescuing animals. I would so greatly appreciate it.
Thank you and God Bless!!!
Trapped Overseas
Posted by dennisnaomi2011 on 2012-02-17 15:58:20
Her payout for the property she has a contract on selling has been finalized, but she is unable to collect the needed paperwork her stupid lawyer gave to the hotel as a "payment guarantee". It sounds stupid, because it is stupid. I think this lawyer must have purchased his law degree from a "five and dime" establishment. Any of you out there who've had to deal with lawyers in foreign countries know exactly what I'm talking about here. They are sometimes not the sharpest knives in the drawers!!! And that's being polite!!!! Please help...contact me for more details on how you may do so, or just submit your paypal details here on the website, I guess. Not sure how this site works, unfortunately. Thanks for reading my plea.
My name is Dennis. In early December 2011, my fiance' traveled abroad to settle her late father's estate and to sell a large piece of property. When she went (at the insistence of her uncle), she was assured she would only gone for about 2 weeks because the property was supposedly a hot commodity. According to the family lawyer, who was acting as counsel for my fiance', the land would easily sell in 2 weeks. That was in early December. My fiance was sent overseas with very little clothing, very little money (the minimum to get by on for 2 short weeks) and she had no place to stay. She was not welcome to remain in the lawyer's home past a few days, since he had other relatives coming in for the Christmas holidays. She was basically forced into staying in a hotel which she did not have sufficient funding for. I have since tried to help but have completely hit the bottom of the barrel. I've sold anything and everything of value to try to keep up with the mounting hotel bills and her survival needs. Now the money has run out, I am unable to borrow any more. I have no family or friends I can count on to help and neither does my fiance'. The hotel manager has decidely made things much more difficult by seizing her passport and some important documentation and is holding her papers as hostage until she pays the bill. Until she gets paid for the property she is selling, which will be in the next 10 days, she cannot do anything but cry for help. (She is caught in a "catch-22) situation. She cannot sell the property without having her travel papers and the important documentation for the sale of her property. She can't get her papers back until she provides for payment to the hotel. She desperately needs a minimum of $1500.00 to settle the hotel bill and satisfy mounting living expenses. Please donate what you can. If you need to be repaid, she is willing to repay what she is loaned with some nominal interest applied. We will need to work that detail out later if required. Please, please, help. Thank you for whatever you can do.
Drowning In Debt, Please Help
Posted by XandraHM on 2012-02-17 03:58:00
Whoever you are, thanks for reading this post and if you choose to do so, your donation.
Let me just make my story short and simple. A few months ago, my parent's power was shut off due to a late paid electric bill. Wanting to help my parent's out I willingly shelled out the $1000. Unfortunately, I had an apartment contract that I was unable to cancel and it ironically was the same amount. Since I was unable to pay the apartment complex, I was turned over to a collection agency. Now the bill keeps mounting higher and higher and I'm looking for a job, but so far with no luck. I'm getting married in June and I don't want to burden my fiance with this debt; he really doesn't deserve it as it was my own fault for not paying off my own debt before paying someone else's.
I take full responsibility for the mess I've gotten myself into, but I know with your help I can overcome this and be back on my feet again.
Thank you for your help!
Please help me make it possible for my 7 year old to walk
Posted by all4my4kids on 2012-02-10 12:58:16
My youngest (of 4) daughter Isabella was born in 12/17/2004 with Osteogenesis Imperfecta. OI in short is brittle bone disease and Bella was born with 12 fractures. The doctors gave Isabella 48 hour to live and told me that there was nothing they could do for her. After 12 weeks of fighting for her life and begging the doctors to help her and no success I demanded the doctors to release her and on BLIND FAITH we loaded our 4 children ages 7-12 weeks old and everything that would fit into our 2 trucks and with $4000 we set out from dallas to the tampa shriners hospital for childrens for medical care.
In the first year of Isabellas life she was life flighted 5 times over a 6 month period, spent spent 80% of the year living in ICU, was vented 2x and spent 28 days in a coma.
We quit counting Isabellas fractures at 50 and by the grace of God last december Isabella turned 7. She is currently 20.9 pounds and 29 inches. She is a smart happy well adjusted 1st grader with a sunshine yellow wheelchair and a 1 on 1 para in a regular classroom. She is funny and the glue that binds our family together.
We have been ok with Isabellas medical care for the last 7 years and Shriners is amazing and does the best for her that they can but in this economy we find that they are more reactive than proactive. I have been researching around for state of the art medical care for kids with OI and I have found it in Omaha NE. We have contacted the doctor and have been accepted as a paitent as soon as we can raise the nearly $10,000 we will need to relocate our family to Omaha.
With that said and Isabellas mounting unpaid medical bills we are buried with nothing in savings. We are in search of someone or many someons who would be willing to help us raise the funds to move this amazing child as her dream is to be rodded and stand (a very reall possibility in Omaha)!
We would be willing to accept any reasonable loan offered and would be blessed with any donation (big or small)
Thank you again for taking the time to read my post and for any help financial or emotional that you may be able to afford us.
God bless you!
Lorraine
help pay bills
Posted by mum101 on 2012-01-29 13:58:41
Wishing for a few extra pennies....
Posted by studenthez on 2012-01-25 15:58:37
However, costs are mounting up around me and I so want to continue with my studies to build a better life for me and my family........every penny counts
thanks for reading
need help paying bills
Posted by sjc33 on 2012-01-24 15:58:21
Medical Mayhem
Posted by rebar57 on 2012-01-22 21:58:26
unbreak my heart....
Posted by brokenhearted on 2012-01-20 17:58:04
I'm raising funds for ICD replacement surgery, to go see a HOCM specialist (Dr. Craig Asher) at Cleveland Clinic in S. Florida and to have advanced testing through Vanderbilt Autonomic Center in Tennessee.
I don't want to admit I need help; I've always been a strong, independent person who took care of everything and everyone. In August 2009, my whole world changed. After my procedure, I applied for disability and was turned down twice and had to hire an attorney. I went from being "super" mom, wife & friend and care taker of an Autistic son to being the one who had to be taken care of.
So how did I get to the point I have to ask others for help? Shortly before Father's Day 2009, I fell and broke my foot. When it didn't heal, I went to my primary with a broken foot and came out with a broken heart. After the shock wore off from the doctor telling me that I was going to die if I didn't have valve surgery; I started asking questions.
I didn't quite believe him and thought he was over reacting when he told me I was going to die because I walked and ran 3-5 times weekly and even did strenuous yard work. I felt fine and have 4 children aged 9-26 and kept up with them and stayed very active in things they did; but I was a ticking time bomb just waiting for the right time for my heart to stop.
He sent me to several specialists who said I had nothing really wrong, just some mild valve problems associated with aging; which was a huge relief. Everything seemed normal except my EKG's; they showed I had a huge amount of PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) roughly 50,000 âextraâ heartbeats daily.
My heart didn't really beat fully; it only quivered like a bowl of jello day in day out. The problem with it beating like this is, the heart becomes very ineffective at pumping and your cardiac output drops and heart muscle damage can occur.
The cardiologist and electrophysiologist I saw did extensive testing and recommended more testing in the hospital. I went in for a sleep study, Tilt table test and EP Study with Ablation. The sleep study revealed I had moderately severe sleep apnea and my oxygen goes from 99% down to 73% at night making it very dangerous for me when I sleep.
The tilt table test was the first inkling that something dangerous was going on inside. I fainted and had no palpable pulse; which is a very rare thing to happen. I was diagnosed with Dysautonomia - Neurocardiogenic Syncope and Orthostatic Intolerance.
I then had an ablation to burn the extra pathways in my heart and get rid of the pvc's I was living with daily. I was told this would be a relatively easy process and given a 95% success rate to get rid of the extra beats completely but it never crossed my mind that anything would happen.
What preliminary tests failed to show, is the pattern and origin of my arrhythmias were in a very dangerous spot to ablate - the RV Apex â in the bottom thin underside of the heart.
During the EP Study, I went into cardiac arrest and my heart stopped completely with no rhythm they could shock (Asystole), some how it started again for a few minutes but then stopped again. They were able to shock me back to normal sinus rhythm and luckily, the third time it stopped; it restarted on it's own so I didn't have to be shocked again.
I was diagnosed with Polymorphic Ventricular Tachycardia; a very dangerous, life threatening arrhythmia. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days trying to find a cause and to be prepped for an ICD (implantable cardiac defibrillator).
It took a cardiac catherization to finally find the problem and to show I had HOCM (obstructive Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy) and internal high pressures in my valves.
My regular EP had to go out of town after the first procedure, so his partner had to do the implant; he wasn't as skilled as my regular dr and botched the lead implants.
When they checked the leads the next day before releasing me, they found a problem with the lead placement but the dr said it was "ok" and sent me home. Since then, I've had nothing but problems with the unit and been told by several other EP's I need to have the leads replaced and the ICD could be causing part of my problems.
Doctors think my other problems are related to HOCM (obstructive hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) and Autonomic nervous system failure and when I faint, my heart stops briefly causing damage each time this happens.
After the procedure, my body started failing from the damage it sustained the 4 times my heart stopped. My original cardiologist told me I would be in a wheel chair and totally dependent on others for everything by the time I'm 50; which is daunting because in March I'll be 45 and I can't deny the facts - my body is failing.
I was put on 10,000g sodium daily, water/fluid loading, Midodrine (insurance won't cover it $312 - 30 day supply), Propanolol, Pantoprazole, pain meds, suppression hose and binders as well as having to stay supine the majority of the day - which caused my heart failure to worsen and my EF (ejection fraction) to go down.
Nothing the doctor's have tried has helped, I still faint and my heart stops on a daily basis and I never know from one day to the next if something is going to trigger fluid build up and I have an acute attack.
In June 2011 I fainted falling into the side of my tiled tub, lacerating the side of my head in the process, severely sprained my neck and suffered a concussion. After that episode, I became a bit more cautious with every move I make because the dr found declining neurological functioning and mild brain damage; he said any more falls could lead to permanent major brain damage.
With so many previous medical bills and co-pays, I can't afford the 20% co-insurance to have my ICD replaced and Mayo Clinic wants a $5,000 deposit up front even with insurance. My ICD alone is $125,000, leads another $30,000 and then there's the doctor and hospital fees; which I won't know the cost until the procedure is done.
Each heart rhythm specialist and cardiologist I see tell me there is nothing more they can do after going over my history and treatments; I have a long hard fight to go and I have to just be thankful each day I'm alive. Some days I'm really glad I made it through, other days when the problems and pain take over; I wish the dr's had let me die.
I developed PTSD after the procedure, panic disorder and extreme agoraphobia. I went into such a deep depression over my health issues, I was afraid I would never see the lighter side of things again. I finally went to see a psychologist who prescribed Lamictal and diagnosed me with Bi-Polar disorder which has helped greatly but I still struggle on a daily basis.
One day we were just the ânormalâ every day family and the toughest thing we had to deal with is a child with Autism. Then; our whole lives changed in an instant we were dealing with mounting medical bills, expensive prescriptions, tests, appointments, loss of income and dealing with the possibility of death on a daily basis.
You just never know what the day may bring, so keep those you love close to you and never take one second for granted.
From the bottom of my heart thank you - even if it's support to say hey; I'm here if you need to talk or I know how you're feeling.
unbreak my heart....
Posted by brokenhearted on 2012-01-20 16:58:37
I'm raising funds for ICD replacement surgery, to go see a HOCM specialist (Dr. Craig Asher) at Cleveland Clinic in S. Florida and to have advanced testing through Vanderbilt Autonomic Center in Tennessee.
I don't want to admit I need help; I've always been a strong, independent person who took care of everything and everyone. In August 2009, my whole world changed. After my procedure, I applied for disability and was turned down twice and had to hire an attorney. I went from being "super" mom, wife & friend and care taker of an Autistic son to being the one who had to be taken care of.
So how did I get to the point I have to ask others for help? Shortly before Father's Day 2009, I fell and broke my foot. When it didn't heal, I went to my primary with a broken foot and came out with a broken heart. After the shock wore off from the doctor telling me that I was going to die if I didn't have valve surgery; I started asking questions.
I didn't quite believe him and thought he was over reacting when he told me I was going to die because I walked and ran 3-5 times weekly and even did strenuous yard work. I felt fine and have 4 children aged 9-26 and kept up with them and stayed very active in things they did; but I was a ticking time bomb just waiting for the right time for my heart to stop.
He sent me to several specialists who said I had nothing really wrong, just some mild valve problems associated with aging; which was a huge relief. Everything seemed normal except my EKG's; they showed I had a huge amount of PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) roughly 50,000 âextraâ heartbeats daily.
My heart didn't really beat fully; it only quivered like a bowl of jello day in day out. The problem with it beating like this is, the heart becomes very ineffective at pumping and your cardiac output drops and heart muscle damage can occur.
The cardiologist and electrophysiologist I saw did extensive testing and recommended more testing in the hospital. I went in for a sleep study, Tilt table test and EP Study with Ablation. The sleep study revealed I had moderately severe sleep apnea and my oxygen goes from 99% down to 73% at night making it very dangerous for me when I sleep.
The tilt table test was the first inkling that something dangerous was going on inside. I fainted and had no palpable pulse; which is a very rare thing to happen. I was diagnosed with Dysautonomia - Neurocardiogenic Syncope and Orthostatic Intolerance.
I then had an ablation to burn the extra pathways in my heart and get rid of the pvc's I was living with daily. I was told this would be a relatively easy process and given a 95% success rate to get rid of the extra beats completely but it never crossed my mind that anything would happen.
What preliminary tests failed to show, is the pattern and origin of my arrhythmias were in a very dangerous spot to ablate - the RV Apex â in the bottom thin underside of the heart.
During the EP Study, I went into cardiac arrest and my heart stopped completely with no rhythm they could shock (Asystole), some how it started again for a few minutes but then stopped again. They were able to shock me back to normal sinus rhythm and luckily, the third time it stopped; it restarted on it's own so I didn't have to be shocked again.
I was diagnosed with Polymorphic Ventricular Tachycardia; a very dangerous, life threatening arrhythmia. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days trying to find a cause and to be prepped for an ICD (implantable cardiac defibrillator).
It took a cardiac catherization to finally find the problem and to show I had HOCM (obstructive Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy) and internal high pressures in my valves.
My regular EP had to go out of town after the first procedure, so his partner had to do the implant; he wasn't as skilled as my regular dr and botched the lead implants.
When they checked the leads the next day before releasing me, they found a problem with the lead placement but the dr said it was "ok" and sent me home. Since then, I've had nothing but problems with the unit and been told by several other EP's I need to have the leads replaced and the ICD could be causing part of my problems.
Doctors think my other problems are related to HOCM (obstructive hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) and Autonomic nervous system failure and when I faint, my heart stops briefly causing damage each time this happens.
After the procedure, my body started failing from the damage it sustained the 4 times my heart stopped. My original cardiologist told me I would be in a wheel chair and totally dependent on others for everything by the time I'm 50; which is daunting because in March I'll be 45 and I can't deny the facts - my body is failing.
I was put on 10,000g sodium daily, water/fluid loading, Midodrine (insurance won't cover it $312 - 30 day supply), Propanolol, Pantoprazole, pain meds, suppression hose and binders as well as having to stay supine the majority of the day - which caused my heart failure to worsen and my EF (ejection fraction) to go down.
Nothing the doctor's have tried has helped, I still faint and my heart stops on a daily basis and I never know from one day to the next if something is going to trigger fluid build up and I have an acute attack.
In June 2011 I fainted falling into the side of my tiled tub, lacerating the side of my head in the process, severely sprained my neck and suffered a concussion. After that episode, I became a bit more cautious with every move I make because the dr found declining neurological functioning and mild brain damage; he said any more falls could lead to permanent major brain damage.
With so many previous medical bills and co-pays, I can't afford the 20% co-insurance to have my ICD replaced and Mayo Clinic wants a $5,000 deposit up front even with insurance. My ICD alone is $125,000, leads another $30,000 and then there's the doctor and hospital fees; which I won't know the cost until the procedure is done.
Each heart rhythm specialist and cardiologist I see tell me there is nothing more they can do after going over my history and treatments; I have a long hard fight to go and I have to just be thankful each day I'm alive. Some days I'm really glad I made it through, other days when the problems and pain take over; I wish the dr's had let me die.
I developed PTSD after the procedure, panic disorder and extreme agoraphobia. I went into such a deep depression over my health issues, I was afraid I would never see the lighter side of things again. I finally went to see a psychologist who prescribed Lamictal and diagnosed me with Bi-Polar disorder which has helped greatly but I still struggle on a daily basis.
One day we were just the ânormalâ every day family and the toughest thing we had to deal with is a child with Autism. Then; our whole lives changed in an instant we were dealing with mounting medical bills, expensive prescriptions, tests, appointments, loss of income and dealing with the possibility of death on a daily basis.
You just never know what the day may bring, so keep those you love close to you and never take one second for granted.
From the bottom of my heart thank you - even if it's support to say hey; I'm here if you need to talk or I know how you're feeling.
funerel costs
Posted by jackthelad84 on 2012-01-04 13:58:54
Custody battle and school debt has destroyed my finances
Posted by CDinNeed04 on 2011-12-21 15:58:52
That was a mistake......
The mother of my child only wanted to take care of him after we ended our relationship....and she realized that I could pay her child support. For the last 6 years I have fought in court and finally have reached the point of having him a full 50%.
The problem is that the legal bills for the last 6 years for my attorney and 2 GALs were thousands of dollars. To keep up the payments for my fight, all other bills had to be charged, and my college tuition all went on school loans. Those loans were put on forebearance and the interest has piled up. In addition, I am allergic to just about everything except food and have had to have treatments to keep my allergy attacks under control. I also suffer from sleep apnea and have a costly machine and more medical bills from that.
After never missing a bill or paying late in my entire life, I finally missed payments early this year and declared bankruptcy in mid-year.
However, my mounting school debt is still there, plus the attorney fees from both the custody battle and the bankruptcy. I still have to pay child support, even though my son lives with me 1/2 time, because I can't afford to pay my attorney to fight it.
I have two mortgages on my home, (which has lost value) and can barely make the payments. Every month I am on the edge of not being able to pay all of my bills.
At my current employer, there are many jobs that I can not apply for per company policy. I work long hours and have nearly an hour commute each day, plus an extra 1/2 hour to get my child to school on days I have him. So my working hours outside of my first job are limited. No one seems willing to hire me for a second job due to this.
I would love to be able to pay all of my bills each month, without having to worry if the check will clear, or if I can buy gas today.
Any amount would help and would be greatly appreciated.
**** In desparate need of a kind heart ****
Posted by eskl1978 on 2011-12-19 10:58:23
