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I've never done this before, and feel ashamed to do so, but here goes nothing. A little over a year ago I was diagnosed with PTSD due to extreme child abuse and torture at the hands of my mother and grandmother. It got so bad that I couldn't cope with anything anymore. My job was very unhelpful with assisting me on having lighter duty and they ended up firing me. This past July my partner of 6 years broke up with me because he no longer wanted to deal with the PTSD and we parted ways. I had to find an apartment that I could afford for me and my dog. I've been able to make rent and pay bills but things are getting tighter. I'm only eating once a day and having to ration my medications to keep afloat. I'm not asking anyone to support me, just a little help. Trying to live on $1,300 a month is virtually impossible and I need my dog to keep my mood up. Along with the PTSD I also have agorophobia and have a hard time just getting out. I still have to pay off my pet deposit also. Thank you.

I am a single mom with a 15 year old daughter that just started highschool, I work full-time and have been at my job for over 9 years.I have been financially struggling the past several months, no child support. My daughter is very bright, she's in the band, ROTC, Drama,Debate Team, and taking all honor classes...I am so proud of her and she deserves more and I don't have it to give to her because I am so behind on my bills by pushing things forward because of car problems and making sure that she has what she NEEDS first, most of the time I get food from my brother or go to the grocery store and know I don't have it but we have to eat.I have not finish paying band fees (still owe $285),rent behind, utilities late (paying half each time I get paid, $200), the only way that I can have a few dollars is pushing something forward....well I can't push anymore....just praying that it will get better. I have been in a very, very, depressed mood, living off overdraft and feel like I'm working for nothing. I don't want to go anywhere but to work and run my daughter back and forth to practice. If I could get help paying my rent which is $550 it will help me a whole. I get paid twice a month and sometimes once, If I could get the rent caught up I could get all my other bills back on schedule as my pay periods fall.I also have issues at work which does not make dealing with things any easier. If I could catch my rent up it will clear my mind tremendously and I can focus more on my daughter mentally instead of how am i going to pay this or that.The most important thing is I have noticed how distant I have been with her and she needs me mentally and physically, I want to be able to smile and joke around with here again instead of taking everything so personal...inwhich later i apologize to her and it is okay. I would like to thank you in advance and would appreciate whatever help we can get! Once I get back on my feet I would love to help someone else out....I really feel the pain.

I am a fighter. My story is a long one with many trials and tribulations; perhaps not much different or worse than others, I am not sure. My name is Elizabeth Newton and I live in Loveland, Colorado; the Sweetheart City and Gateway to the Rockies. I was raised by both parents in a middle class environment. I am the oldest of four, in which, three are brothers. I was a creative child who staged puppet shows and created clubs in our neighborhood. I am not sure if you remember the fuzzy sticky feet, but I made my own with left over pieces of carpet and sold them to my friends.
Moving on, I really struggled in school and got into a lot trouble. I was reckless, promiscuous, used drugs and alcohol and was dangerous. To keep it short, I dropped out in my junior year. When I reflect on those years, I remember some of what I did but mostly I forgot. I guess I felt as though I was being pulled by the strings of a puppet master whose name I now know is Bipolar.
When I turned 18 I shared an apartment with a friend. We both worked for the same nursing home and later for the Bureau of Reclamation. In was at the former job, I received my GED. I was still behaving recklessly resulting in a lot of missed work. But I was having fun being independent, partying all night but slowly losing control of my life.
I became pregnant by my boyfriend and we married several months later. My daughter is a grown woman. I then had another child four years later. Money was also a struggle. My husband wanted me to work but it did not make sense financially. I paid more for daycare then I was paid. When I found a position over the weekends, my husband refused to watch the children. That being said, I was still reckless – the mood would not go away – still a slave of the puppet master. Eventually the relationship became abusive and my husband left leaving $200 on the kitchen table. I did not have a car so I borrowed my father’s truck. I drove my father’s truck with my two small children in back to a safe house. However, it was not so safe. My husband who insulated homes, worked on the safe house. He found the truck and wrote things, I cannot mention here, on the outside of the truck. He coerced my grandmother to call me; and she did! Having to deal with these distractions kept me from focusing on me.
Good news! I was able to move into low income housing. It was a struggle to get my possessions; I took what I could. My father out of the blue wanted his truck back. My mother headed him off at the pass. I think I remember that my life settled down a bit. I enrolled in college. I loved college. In spite of this, I quit school to work from my mother at her computer store. Did I mention my parents were divorced? I am not sure it matters at this point. About six months later, the puppet master caught me and off I was again.
I had a boyfriend – I was 32 years old – and pregnant again…..This relationship was worse that the first. It included drinking, drugs, sexual and physical abuse – oh my, sigh. In the course of it all, I secured a position for one of the largest companies in Loveland. I was thrilled. I had actually come a long way. I divorced my second husband and found my own apartment.
Wow – raising three children on my own was not easy. We got by – I was able to provide what we needed. I forgot to mention I shared custody of my third child and had to pay child support. I never complained; I met my responsibility. I was performing very well at work and procured a position of a trainer. WeeHee – my new position allowed me to travel the globe. Can you imagine, me, the girl from Loveland, Colorado? During this time, I encountered a lot of problems with my ex-husband. Once, he called me at work and said he had a brain tumor. It was a joke; I did not find it funny.
I was promoted again returned to school and bought a house!!! I cannot think of the words to describe these accomplishments. I transformed from the woman driving my father’s truck to a home owner; kind of like the Home Sweet Home book. I was still partying, drinking, but not like before. The puppet master must have been on holiday. I met the man of my dreams and we married in 1998 (I think). We are still together.
The puppet master had those strings a rolling. I could and did accomplish anything. I could see what others could not. I finished school with ease and received my BA in Organization Development in 2005. What year did my story start? We bought a new home in a nice neighborhood. It is a modest home but fits us very well. I was still partying but it was not disrupting my work and home responsibilities.
CRASH! He let go – how could he let go? A woman pulled in front of us and totaled our car. I realize this does not sound traumatic, does it? I really do not know anymore. What I do know is this rocked my world. More than any other event did – and there were many. I could not recover. My performance fell down the well. I could not sleep. I drank a lot. I would even get up at night to drink because I could not sleep. The unthinkable happened. My strings let me down. I swallowed a bottle of pills. I was so afraid. I spent three days in the psychiatric hospital and two months in intensive outpatient therapy. During this time I was on short term disability. I am a fighter; I have never let my circumstances stop me. I returned to work for about two months. Nevertheless, the strings dropped again, were they ever pulled, I am not sure; I spent eight days in hospital. I was out of work again. This time when I returned to work there was no position waiting for me. I was laid off the summer of 2009. I lost it all in one short year.
Remember I am a fighter. I returned to school in July 2009 to obtain a masters degree and I graduated in early 2011. The problem? I obtained a degree and I could not use without further education. I still do not say this out loud. During this time, I landed a part time job as an instructor for students seeking their AAS Human Resources degree. I make a third of the salary I previously did. I have performed this job since April 2010. It is hard. I forget – my memory is not that good. What you have reading are the highlights of my life.
Adult children and BABIES!! Not one baby; two and a one year old. My daughter was in a bad situation in Arizona. She was pregnant with twins, had a one year old daughter, had no car and was being evicted. The dad? Let’s say there is a lot to be desired. She packed as much as she could and moved in with us. Would anyone turn a loved one away in this situation? I could not. I was still drinking. As I write this, I now realize drinking was the one constant in my life. Sad. Her pregnancy had it challenges, but I think this is common. The first snowstorm of the year, December 30th, if you can believe that for Colorado, the babies had enough; my daughter was in labor. We called 911 since the roads were bad. Several hours later we welcomed two healthy baby girls! They will be one year old soon.
New Chapter. How many do we get? My daughter and 18 year old son live with us in our modest home. We clash, how we could not. I have been telling my doctor that I am depressed, damn strings. I can’t sleep and my body hurts so badly; especially when I lay down. Oh, I forgot to mention, no drinking! I quit over a year ago. Regrettably the depression and pain are driving my every moment. I think the puppet master is on vacation. There is no hope. I have been out of work too long. We are waiting for the repo man to get our car. We are barely holding on to the house. How can everything crash so fast and so hard? I am a fighter remember. My mind is full of hopelessness. I have a note that says “Please just let me go”. I am a fighter remember. I call the crisis line. They tell me to call 911. I don’t. I go to bed. Maybe it will be better tomorrow. Not a chance. The same message is repeating over and over in my head; “please let me go”. I tell my family I am driving to the hospital. I do not want anyone to come with me. I go alone.
Hospital

I am a 50 year old single mom with a 15 year old daughter that just started highschool, I work full-time and have been at my job for over 9 years.I have been financially struggling the past several months, no child support. My daughter is very bright, she's in the band, ROTC, Drama,Debate Team, and taking all honor classes...I am so proud of her and she deserves more and I don't have it to give to her because I am so behind on my bills by pushing things forward because of car problems and making sure that she has what she NEEDS first, most of the time I get food from my brother or go to the grocery store and know I don't have it but we have to eat.I have not finish paying band fees (still owe $285),rent behind, utilities late (paying half each time I get paid, $200), the only way that I can have a few dollars is pushing something forward....well I can't push anymore....just praying that it will get better. I have been in a very, very, depressed mood, living off overdraft and feel like I'm working for nothing. I don't want to go anywhere but to work and run my daughter back and forth to practice. If I could get help paying my rent which is $550 it will help me a whole. I get paid twice a month and sometimes once, If I could get the rent caught up I could get all my other bills back on schedule as my pay periods fall.I also have issues at work which does not make dealing with things any easier. If I could catch my rent up it will clear my mind tremendously and I can focus more on my daughter mentally instead of how am i going to pay this or that.The most important thing is I have noticed how distant I have been with her and she needs me mentally and physically, I want to be able to smile and joke around with here again instead of taking everything so personal...inwhich later i apologize to her and it is okay. I would like to thank you in advance and would appreciate whatever help we can get! Once I get back on my feet I would love to help someone else out....I really feel the pain.

Hi I am writing today for some financial help. I hope someone out there anywhere is wanting to help someone out. I am trying very hard to get the peices of the puzzle together and hopefully someone out there is in a giving, helpful mood. Lord knows if I had it to give I would. There are so many people on here that need help why me? Well I am not downgrading anyones needs, I wish whomevers reading this could help us all out, because we probably wouldn't even be attempting this if we didn't have to. I need help. I need help with rent, electric, phone, car payment. We are very low on groceries. Toiletries have became extinct. I bet no one ever thought of toilet paper to be a luxury, huh? So with me and my three beautiful children, now all we need is some favor. I know people may think this is sad or pitiful even but I know someone is going to help. Whatever you may give, I am thankful. I am not giving a dollar amount because anything helps, and well... I feel that will make you fear helping us. ANYTHING helps! Thank you and God Bless!

Hello,

I have been out of a full time job for the last 2 1/2 yrs living at home with my dad which has been a total wreck. I moved in with him after I lost my job working for Pepsi back in June of 2008. I did end up going back to school for computer networking & I am currently A+ certified as a computer technician. I have managed to get short term contracts to pay the small bills that I have but nothing has come through that will allow me to get my own place. Living in his place has been a total disaster...he suffers from a crack cocaine addiction so that means he is constantly going through mood changes that I suffer from, he is constantly begging, I don't have much privacy & he is all around rude. I don't leave out of my room unless im eating, going to the bathroom, or leaving out of the front door. I have 2 sons's 15yrs old and 6yrs old and I don't want my kids here because I stay confined to my room & don't want my kids to feel confined. I often come home to the smell of crack being smoked throughout the house & it makes my stomach turn. I would like to purchase a foreclosed home for me & my kids that I can call my own. Everything here that I speak of can be confirmed.... I am asking everyone who reads this & cares or who can even relate to this situation please donate what you can. Even if I can't buy a home from the donations recieved I will get my own place and pay the rent up for at least a year & will have a nest egg to keep me going until I find another job. This is not for paying of credit cards, to make a million bucks, or for that luxuary vacation....This is to put me in my own home and for me to have a piece of mind. Please donate $5, $10, $20, $50, $100 or whatever you can.
I am trying to raise approximatley $50,000 this is lower and more reasonable for ths who are interested in helping me. The picture listed is not the picture of the property. If you are a business and you donate I will promote your business and if your on ebay I will promote your auction.


List Price:
$50,000
(Bedrooms)
3
Bathrooms:
2
Property type:
—
Size:
1200 sqft
Year built:
1986


Thank you in advance.


Snail mail donations can be mailed to

KM
6917 S Sangamon
Chicago, IL 60621

My name is Kristi I am the mother of two children a boy 9 girl 10. I am divorced from their father after 10 years of marriage. My x won residential custody of my kids now i get them wed nights and every other weekend. I have exuasted my resorces fighting him in court. And i dont want to stop fighting him in court for my children. I am on ssi and only receive 600.00 a month on ssi. because i have a disibility,aka a mood disorder whith i have had all my life my x got custody by lieing. my x was verbally abusive while i was married to him. stole money from my fathers business and also hit me. my children have suffered from all of this. I was honest in court and lost now forced to pay 300 dollers a month in child support. get this he doesnt even watch his kids he works grave yards. the women one of many he cheated on me for is watching my kids at night. I am asking for any donations to help me fight in court and get my kids home. please i beg as a christian look into your hearts and help. or even if your an attourny and can do probono work i love my kids and they need to be with me thanks for reading my story.

Hello,

I was going to ask for help with my rent originally but for some reason this project seems more important to me right now!

And I realize there are many much more worthy causes on here but if you are in a very giving mood maybe you'll have room for me too...

The project is called Positive Post-its (http://fb.com/positivepostits) and as the name suggests it's basically a social/art experiment involving the spreading of joy/love/hope/positivity etc via the very humble Post-it note!

I was so bogged down last year with personal and financial issues and realized that so many people around me were facing the same negative distractions day in day out too so I decided to start leaving these cheery messages/drawings around the place. I soon noticed that it really helped lift my mood and it made some random strangers pretty happy too!

I'd love to be able to keep this project going and set up a decent online home for it with a domain and hosting and maybe even pay for some advertising but unfortunately I've been out of work for a while now and I hope to return to art college so the prospects for cash that I can put towards this are pretty dismal.

If you like the idea or need a pick me up then maybe you might like to join us on Facebook and get involved.

In terms of money, it wouldn't take much and if it wouldn't mean a sacrifice on your part I would be over the moon with any donations you might consider!

Our motto: "The best way to cheer yourself up is to cheer somebody else up." - Mark Twain.

ANY donation would cheer me up like there's no tomorrow!

I heart your face! xoxo

Thank you for taking the time to read this too! You're pretty amazing aren't you...I can tell :D

P.S. Thank you, thank you, thank you! I'm so so so grateful! You should definitely feel confident in the fact that you've made my day! My Paypal Account is : aoife.dwyer@gmail.com

Hello,

I was going to ask for help with my rent originally but for some reason this project seems more important to me right now!

And I realize there are many much more worthy causes on here but if you are in a very giving mood maybe you'll have room for me too...

The project is called Positive Post-its (http://fb.com/positivepostits) and as the name suggests it's basically a social/art experiment involving the spreading of joy/love/hope/positivity etc via the very humble Post-it note!

I was so bogged down last year with personal and financial issues and realized that so many people around me were facing the same negative distractions day in day out too so I decided to start leaving these cheery messages/drawings around the place. I soon noticed that it really helped lift my mood and it made some random strangers pretty happy too!

I'd love to be able to keep this project going and set up a decent online home for it with a domain and hosting and maybe even pay for some advertising but unfortunately I've been out of work for a while now and I hope to return to art college so the prospects for cash that I can put towards this are pretty dismal.

If you like the idea or need a pick me up then maybe you might like to join us on Facebook and get involved.

In terms of money, it wouldn't take much and if it wouldn't mean a sacrifice on your part I would be over the moon with any donations you might consider!

Our motto: "The best way to cheer yourself up is to cheer somebody else up." - Mark Twain.

ANY donation would cheer me up like there's no tomorrow!

I heart your face! xoxo

Thank you for taking the time to read this too! You're pretty amazing aren't you...I can tell :D

P.S. Thank you, thank you, thank you! I'm so so so grateful! You should definitely feel confident in the fact that you've made my day! My Paypal Account is : aoife.dwyer@gmail.com

Hello,

I was going to ask for help with my rent originally but for some reason this project seems more important to me right now!

And I realize there are many much more worthy causes on here but if you are in a very giving mood maybe you'll have room for me too...

The project is called Positive Post-its (http://fb.com/positivepostits) and as the name suggests it's basically a social/art experiment involving the spreading of joy/love/hope/positivity etc via the very humble Post-it note!

I was so bogged down last year with personal and financial issues and realized that so many people around me were facing the same negative distractions day in day out too so I decided to start leaving these cheery messages/drawings around the place. I soon noticed that it really helped lift my mood and it made some random strangers pretty happy too!

I'd love to be able to keep this project going and set up a decent online home for it with a domain and hosting and maybe even pay for some advertising but unfortunately I've been out of work for a while now and I hope to return to art college so the prospects for cash that I can put towards this are pretty dismal.

If you like the idea or need a pick me up then maybe you might like to join us on Facebook and get involved.

In terms of money, it wouldn't take much and if it wouldn't mean a sacrifice on your part I would be over the moon with any donations you might consider!

Our motto: "The best way to cheer yourself up is to cheer somebody else up." - Mark Twain.

ANY donation would cheer me up like there's no tomorrow!

I heart your face! xoxo

Thank you for taking the time to read this too! You're pretty amazing aren't you...I can tell :D

P.S. Thank you, thank you, thank you! I'm so so so grateful! You should definitely feel confident in the fact that you've made my day! My Paypal Account is : aoife.dwyer@gmail.com

Hello,

I was going to ask for help with my rent originally but for some reason this project seems more important to me right now!

And I realize there are many much more worthy causes on here but if you are in a very giving mood maybe you'll have room for me too...

The project is called Positive Post-its (http://fb.com/positivepostits) and as the name suggests it's basically a social/art experiment involving the spreading of joy/love/hope/positivity etc via the very humble Post-it note!

I was so bogged down last year with personal and financial issues and realized that so many people around me were facing the same negative distractions day in day out too so I decided to start leaving these cheery messages/drawings around the place. I soon noticed that it really helped lift my mood and it made some random strangers pretty happy too!

I'd love to be able to keep this project going and set up a decent online home for it with a domain and hosting and maybe even pay for some advertising but unfortunately I've been out of work for a while now and I hope to return to art college so the prospects for cash that I can put towards this are pretty dismal.

If you like the idea or need a pick me up then maybe you might like to join us on Facebook and get involved.

In terms of money, it wouldn't take much and if it wouldn't mean a sacrifice on your part I would be over the moon with any donations you might consider!

Our motto: "The best way to cheer yourself up is to cheer somebody else up." - Mark Twain.

ANY donation would cheer me up like there's no tomorrow!

I heart your face! xoxo

Thank you for taking the time to read this too! You're pretty amazing aren't you...I can tell :D

P.S. Thank you, thank you, thank you! I'm so so so grateful! You should definitely feel confident in the fact that you've made my day! My Paypal Account is : aoife.dwyer@gmail.com

I live in the country where there are no sidewalks, so if you want to go somewhere you need a car. I go to a community college that is 45 minutes away from my house. I am struggling to get to school because I have no vehicle. I usually hitch a ride off of my sister, but she has decided to stop. This morning she woke up late and was in a bad mood. I waited for her to get ready for school and we would be on our way just like every other day. We stopped at my mother's house to say goodbye before heading off to school. While we were there my sister stepped in animal poop and had a nasty attitude from then until it was time for us to leave. We were already late for school and she decided to tell me that she was going to drink a cup of coffee with my mom and that I needed to drive her car because she didn't feel like going to school. I don't like driving her car because it isn't legal and I am not on the insurance. Also the car needs an alignment so the car is very hard to keep going straight. I had to drive it any way’s because college is the only hope I have for moving out of my house that I share with my sister. I am 18 years old and have big plans for my life. I want to be more successful than my mother and sister. I want to prove that I was put on Earth to serve people as a private investigator. I plan to go to community college for 2 years and transfer to a bigger college to get my Bachelor's Degree in Criminal Justice. I have tried getting other's that are close to me to help, but they have just enough to get by themselves. I feel stuck...like there is no way out. I don't want to live with my sister for the rest of eternity, so I need to find a way out! I want to get a job and I want to save money to be able to rent my own house. I really need a vehicle to prepare for my future. I get $80 a month from my mother for doing basic chores. That is only enough to get the essential things I need. Any amount of money would really help me! I would appreciate any donation to my cause.

No Hard Luck Story Here - I Just Need The Money! Yup, I got my pride. I survive off of a job in which I only work two days a week. No frills in my life, actually my life is pretty boring. I just want extra money to start enjoying life, maybe travel, or whatever. So if the mood takes you, please contribute. Thanks, Paul

I have never done anything like this before and I'm not expecting much of an outcome but here it is...

I am a 25 year old college student living at home with my parents to save some money. I am doing my best to stay ahead of the game as I continue working towards my degree in nursing. I also earn money and pay my own bills..

My mother suffers daily from bipolar disorder but refuses to seek help. I do my best to deal with her frequent mood swings by avoiding her at all costs but it's hard when you live with her. Everyday I am subjected to mental abuse calling me fat (which I'm not), lazy (I do all the household chores while she lays in bed all day)..At some points she has even thrown things at me or hit. One minute she is crying, then she may turn happy.. One night she was laughing and talking to me and within 20 minutes she started screaming and throwing things and calling me names again. Her moods are THAT unpredictable. I physically and mentally cannot do it anymore. My father turns the other cheek and does his best to ignore her but I can't. As of lately, I suffering from constant anxiety, headaches, and stomach pain. Miraculously, as soon as she isn't around, the symptoms alleviate themselves! I have a limited income as I finish up my degree but it's starting to cause my own depression feeling like there's no way out. I stay with friends as much as possible but there is only so much they are willing to do. I am a good person - hardworking, smart, and I know I have a lot going for me, but hearing these insults everyday.. I do not ask for much and anything you can spare is GREATLY appreciated. Please email me if you need more info :-) hellokitty5247@gmail.com God Bless!

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