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please can someone help,i have to get away from my bully controlling partner.i am now so miserable and depressed,i really dont want to go on.i need to get as far away as possible before 1 more punch kills me.i need to change my name by deed poll an be able to afford to rent somewhere in another part of the country
i just need that one oppertunity of a bit of help.he gives me just enough money for the bills an shopping an i have to produce reciepts,if i dont then i'm in for it big time.i have a secret paypal account that he dont know about,he thinks an tells me im dumb so i delete my history so he thinks i know nothing about computers.i am on my knee's begging help me make a new life

I have been having trouble finding a job becauase I think my clothing is old and employers think I am messy, but I'm not! I'm just really poor. I don't need Gucci just walmart or salvation army quality clothes would do. If you can send me clothes or donate anything I would greatly appreciate it. It would really make my miserable life easier.

This is not a beg, this is a cry for help. I am 23 years old, with no kids and no vehicle. I have a good paying job where I make over $30,000 dollars a year working with special needs adolescent. I am in a massive amount of debt that I honestly placed myself in trying to clean up a debt that I already had but was manageable. I took out about 6 pay day loans, not all at once to pay of a bill I was short on and it continued to collect interest and build up and pull money out of my account to a point where I was over drafting my account at the same time and collecting a ridiculous amount of overdraft fees. It took me a month to pay it off and literally the next day the payday loan company's continued to pull out and set me back into overdraft so I'm at an enormous amount of negative now and left my apartment to someone else because I cannot manage. I left my apartment with nowhere to go and not even a car to sleep in and I just want to get rid of these payday loan people but it's quite impossible when they pull out my money every two weeks and it's not there because my bank has eaten it in overdraft fees. I'm stranded I'm desperate I have been thinking I the impossible just to get my hand on $4,700 to clear my situation so I can go back to life. I have been gambling as a result of this because at this point I feel I have nothing to lose. All I am holding on to is my good job. Im miserable and facing all types of depression and stress. I have been biting my lip out of anxiety til it bleeds and I have no one to go to. My enormous pride has let up tremendously through this experience which might have been Gods lesson and I try to be more grateful for what I do have however it's not many more sleepovers I can disguise as I have no where to go.
Please find it in your heart to help me please! I will do any good for this help I am in desperate need of it. I can't promise you I can pay you back right away but I am willing to do anything to get me out of this finacial nightmare.

I was born with a rare syndrome called Dan-
dy-Walker syndrome. It is being born with-
out a cerebellum. This snydrome caused me
to involuntarily tilt my head from side-to-
side all my life. I am 40 years old and it
is still there,but not nearly as bad, in
fact,all during school,my nickname was"tilt
". My entire childhood was full of ridicule
embarrasement, friendless,and dateless. It
was like this for the first 20 years of my
life.I have lived my life one close to the
poverty level. I have not even started to
live life. I finally have a chance to own
a house and be among the normal person,but
I need the $15,000 for the down payment.I
will never have a normal life,but owning a
house would be huge in my miserable life.
PLEASE,PLEASE HELP!!

OF MONEY, RATS, MOSQUITO AND OCCASSIONALLY SNAKES....

I am a stay at home mom with 3 boys 9, 7 and 2. They are the only reason i am still going strong.

I live with my husband, 3 boys and my 2 elderly in laws. We live in a wooden and brick 50 year old house. Just a few months ago it was leaking in so many places untill the charity department replaced part of our roof. We have rats running around at night and mosquito all day and night. I am raising my children in this situation and it breaks my heart everyday. they are simply not safe!!!!

Disease is a huge concern... And occasionally snakes....

Anybody with a hammer can simply break the wooden walls. Easily...

And my husband has been laid off in 2008 without any given compensation. We are still claiming it in court. it was suppose to help us for the next few months or maybe start a small business of some sort. But on the last day of work they came and told us that they refuse to pay when they PROMISED to 2 months prior. We were utterly shocked and unprepared!!!!

We've always had a lot of money troubles but this still effect us to this very day.

My husband has been in and out of jobs since then....

Begging and borrowing, not paying our bills...

Our debt has grown to about $20,000usd.
We simply couldnt make ends meet for years...

We couldnt start anything new to make money...
There is none to spare.. no more to save..........

We couldnt move on... we couldnt do anything new... We are trapped.... stuck!

And i couldn't work.. I have to take care of my boys and my 2 elderly inlaws..

I have deppression. I have a memory of a sixty year old and i am only 36, and i am also a borderline agarophobic...

Its hard to get out of bed and do anything and i've been homebound for the last 10 years.. Most days i feel numb...

We are so miserable... My husband and i would fight a lot from money issues sorrounding our lives eventhough we love each other dearly...

A good amount to have a month is at least $800usd and we have never made that much.

Living expenses skyrocket day by day...

Everything seems so illusive..

What we need is to start a business of some sort to put together a better future..

Our children are growing up.. Today it takes about $70,000 usd per child to go to college.. I have 3...And it will surely be a lot more when they are going to college later..

I dont see how we are going to pull through if we dont find our way now....

And so i would like to request for another $20,000 usd plus the $20,000 to pay for our debt so that i can make it through all this and start a business to secure the future for my family....

Please please help us... You would help 7 souls... And you would make us very very happy for a long time to come...

Again i humbly ask for your help... Please help us by giving us a better chance for our future.... Please strongly consider my request... For the sake of our childrens future...


I desperately need your help...
Please help us....

Thank You Very Much.

I am a stay at home mom with 3 boys 9, 7 and 2. They are the only reason i am still going strong.

I live with my husband, 3 boys and my 2 elderly in laws. We live in a wooden and brick 50 year old house. Just a few months ago it was leaking in so many places untill the charity department replaced part of our roof. We have rats running around at night and mosquito all day and night. I am raising my children in this situation and it breaks my heart everyday. they are simply not safe!!!!

Disease is a huge concern... And occasionally snakes....

Anybody with a hammer can simply break the wooden walls. Easily...

And my husband has been laid off in 2008 without any given compensation. We are still claiming it in court. it was suppose to help us for the next few months or maybe start a small business of some sort. But on the last day of work they came and told us that they refuse to pay when they PROMISED to 2 months prior. We were utterly shocked and unprepared!!!!

We've always had a lot of money troubles but this still effect us to this very day.

My husband has been in and out of jobs since then....

Begging and borrowing, not paying our bills...

Our debt has grown to about $20,000usd.
We simply couldnt make ends meet for years...

We couldnt start anything new to make money...
There is none to spare.. no more to save..........

We couldnt move on... we couldnt do anything new... We are trapped.... stuck!

And i couldn't work.. I have to take care of my boys and my 2 elderly inlaws..

I have deppression. I have a memory of a sixty year old and i am only 36, and i am also a borderline agarophobic...

Its hard to get out of bed and do anything and i've been homebound for the last 10 years.. Most days i feel numb...

We are so miserable... My husband and i would fight a lot from money issues sorrounding our lives eventhough we love each other dearly...

A good amount to have a month is at least $800usd and we have never made that much.

Living expenses skyrocket day by day...

Everything seems so illusive..

What we need is to start a business of some sort to put together a better future..

Our children are growing up.. Today it takes about $70,000 usd per child to go to college.. I have 3...And it will surely be a lot more when they are going to college later..

I dont see how we are going to pull through if we dont find our way now....

And so i would like to request for another $20,000 usd plus the $20,000 to pay for our debt so that i can make it through all this and start a business to secure the future for my family....

Please please help us... You would help 7 souls... And you would make us very very happy for a long time to come...

Again i humbly ask for your help... Please help us by giving us a better chance for our future.... Please strongly consider my request... For the sake of our childrens future...


I desperately need your help...
Please help us....

Thank You Very Much.

Greetings,

My name is Stephanie. Following the death of both my parents in a car accident 5 years ago August my health has been in a steady decline. I suffer from neurological issues that will soon have me in a wheelchair, and advanced COPD that means I have to have Oxygen continuously. Yesterday I had to go the doctors in 85 degree heat without any air conditioning in my van. By the time I got to the medical center and tried to find this new doctors location I ended up collapsing twice between the walking and breathing. I weigh 83 pounds at 5'5" and I can't carry the oxygen with me when I have to exit the vehicle. Ultimately I ended up in the emergency room.

I live with my daughter and grandson of 6 years. My grandson was in the car when my parents were killed and suffered a major brain injury at 13 months. I'm happy to report though that after months of hospitalization he is right as rain and is mad at me currently ;o) because I'm on my computer which he adores playing with. My daughter suffers from PTSD since the accident my parents were killed in. She cannot drive without someone in the car and she was going to go with me yesterday but the heat was so bad that we were concerned about Gavin in the back in my black 1994 Ford Astro van. It was just way too hot for him and with her PTSD we HAVE to go through town to get anywhere or she will lose it so there would not have been any steady air flow.

It's been a long 5 years. My parents and I jointly owned a duplex. Their deaths were the beginning of the most miserable time of my life. When I divorced it was jointly decided that it would better if I lived in the upstairs apartment so they could be there for the kids while I worked. Over 16 years we became so close that their deaths nearly destroyed me. I paid for the last 15 years on the note of the house, my buy in and we all lived there incredibly content and happy. My parents were my best friends.

After their deaths during the mortgage meltdown, credit locks, and the economic fallout my career of 16 years was one of the first to go. I worked in the non-profit sector designing programming for inner-city communities with a specific focus on youth. So 8 months after their deaths the funding streams I used for the programming dried up and a job I loved disappeared.

Life insurance was enough to cover their debt with a little left over because they didn't carry much but in the end I lost my home of 16 years to the insurance company that covered my daughters son through work when they filed a $ 90,000.00 lien against my home. So 7 months after losing my job I also lost a home I loved. So I experienced 3 deaths within the span of a little over a year.

Because I was unemployed so long and had to use my cards to keep the lights on so to speak my credit is not good. So I can't borrow the funds or even charge a repair for the car.

I can no longer go to doctors visits alone. I'm too weak to walk very far without help and I can't carry the oxygen canister on my own. So I need my daughter for these visits.

Like anyone with severe health issues I'm buried in bills but what I really need help on is funds that will me to fix the air conditioning in my van which despite it's age runs like a champ. I have a physicians assistant who comes into my home to work with my but getting to the specialists has become real concern.

My daughter even with her PTSD has reached a point where she doesn't want me going alone. I was supposed to call her when I reached the doctors the other day when I collapsed the 2nd time and they took me to the specialists office I asked the receptionist to call my daughter. She didn't and she left my daughter terrified that something horrible had happened to me. I don't carry a cell I can't afford one. My daughter was getting better about both driving and me driving myself; because of this receptionist my daughter has now had a huge set back. I have to see that doctor again next week and I can't take them without air conditioning so what I'm going to have to do is make sure I find someone that sit with my daughter while I'm gone to help keep her anxiety level low. I don't have any choice I have to get there. I won't have anyone to carry my oxygen but I'm hoping I can in there.

Anything you can do would be greatly appreciated. I am more than happy to pay it forward as soon as I can. I have been a lifelong contributor to various causes and I know people are in dire straights right now. We all need help in one form or another. I would never ask if I could do this myself. Please forgive me.

If you would like to know more about the accident and my Grandson and his Grandmother who after losing her home and moving into a 3rd floor apartment made a terrible mistake in her depressed state go to http://ontheirway.vanderbiltchildrens.org/?article=7511 this a feature story Vanderbilt Children's Hospital did in their print and web magazine.

Hello, the fact that I am writing this is making me realise that this has been the worst day of my life.

For the past two years I have been in love. A whirlwind romance which gave me a release from my miserable abusive upbringing. I moved in with this beautiful, kind, intelligent girl who I had fallen for. My parents did not approve and they saw her loosen their iron grip on me, she gave me the confidence that I never had to stand up to them.

I had to decide between my parents who had habitually beaten me, put me down, turned me into a shell of a person. or the only person that ever has and probably ever will love me. I chose her, and I haven't seen or heard from my parents since, part of my believes it was a perfect excuse for them to rid me of the son who had only ever disappointed them.

I was in dreamland, I was invited into her home and from day one it felt more like home than the cold loveless one I was brought up in. Everything was great for a few months and then she left a highly flirtatious conversation up on facebook with a man in which she was bragging at how many other men she had slept with in the past year. My life turned on its head. I gave her another chance after weeks of pain, tears and excuses. She convinced me everything was going to change. Three months on to that day I hear through a friend that she with another man in a nightclub the other day.

I am lost, I am trapped. I have no money. My parents do not care about me and the one person that I have ever loved has betrayed me multiple times.

I feel humiliated, i feel physically sick, I am mentally and physically exhausted. I have nowhere to go, i need to escape. If I leave her then I am homeless if I stay with her then I am bound to being abused again, this time not physically as with my parents but mentally. My heart cannot take this torment anymore.

My mouse is hovering above booking a flight to Amsterdam tomorrow. I have chosen there because of the large UK community. I want a new environemnt, i need to meet people for the first time in my life. I want to live and work somewhere else but I just do not have the funds to do it. I have been reliant on people all my life and I just need a chance to completely start fresh and I cannot do this round here or in this country. I need to travel, i need to experience things which I have never experienced. I do not deserve any charity but I am desperate, so very desperate. I am literally begging for any help.

Thank you so much for reading

Hi.

Thanks for taking the time to read my request. I'm 30 years old, still in college and living with my parents. I've made a lot of great accomplishments in my life with far less support than most people who make it this far. Of course, with that said I've also made plenty of mistakes.

I grew up with a single parent, and another parent who visited annually just to stir up emotions and make my life miserable. When I was 18, I decided to work really hard to lose weight so that I could join the US Air Force. I had a strict plan that I was going to follow to succeed in life.

Unfortunately my superiors in the USAF would not accommodate that plan to independence as they forced me to find my own way from the barracks to work (a 40 mi drive), so I had to immediately struggle to get my drivers licence and I had to buy a car on an Airman's paygrade.

My income wasn't enough to afford the car and gas and other living needs that I was expected to pay, so eventually I had to leave the Air Force before my term was up (under honorable conditions). I tried to work as a civilian. The transfer was tough and I was vastly uninformed about what to do and what my options were. I'm the first first generation college student of my extended family.

After some petty jobs that would each take more than 10 years to be able to earn enough to live independently, I finally found a nice nighttime custodian job that was at least simple enough for that kind of pay. I was the night time custodian, but I was also a guy to have on call at this retirement home where I worked. If people's toilets flooded or a nearly deaf resident left their tv on past quiet hours (once I could hear one through 3 floors!) I was the guy to send up to fix it.

Having my first satisfying job as a civilian, I was able to investigate community college during the day, so eventually I enrolled and tried taking a few classes while working full-time. College was my saving grace. I never felt like I belonged anywhere until I first started to take college courses in math, science, and philosophy. I found the tutoring lounge on campus, made a lot of friends there, and I spent many hours cramming and helping those in need.

This soon led to me finding financial aid, making arrangements with my parents (my mom and my stepfather) to let me go to school full-time while I lived with them, and putting in my 2 weeks notice at work to focus exclusively on school.

My counselors advised that I pick where I want to transfer to and then figure out the details of how to get there after I got accepted. I think this was bad advice. While I ended up choosing to transfer to a university that had my desired major, Biophysics, it was 60 miles away from where my parents lived. My car that I had bought when I was in the Air Force also eventually broke down from not being able to afford maintenance while I worked, and was towed away for being in the public street for too long.

Finally, I got accepted to UC San Diego to work towards a degree in Physics with a specialty in Biophysics. When it came time to transfer, I got as involved as I could on how and when I was supposed to receive the financial aid so that I could go get an apartment and everything, and my school kept telling me, "you should get it tomorrow" until about 2 weeks into my first quarter when I finally got the support.

Despite this rocky start, I managed to get into a good shape for myself, making my way slowly but surely through school. Learning a great deal. Eventually when I felt the struggle was too difficult, I changed my major to Neuroscience before I began my upper division coursework.

So, as I settled into my schooling and struggled with maintaining financial independence on financial aid, I managed to get myself into maintaining a great aquarium hobby, owned two great little kittens from a street cat program, led as president of a student organization for one year, and eventually I got married. I also carefully learned about the stock market and managed to make some great gains with money that I had invested from financial aid savings.

In 2010, my gains were over 100%. That amounted to $2000 doubling itself, but still, that says a lot about me as a trader. However, 6 months into my marriage, she said she wanted out, grabbed the car that we both paid into (most of the money was mine from stocks; $5500 worth), and refused to pay her share of 2 months rent. That happened in December of the year of 2010.

2011 was a difficult year for me. I fought hard to maintain things, especially my head, but it was tough. I lost 45 lbs from exercising regularly, made lots of new friends, and I got some volunteer work experience in a Neuroscience lab. But I just couldn't focus well enough to maintain my finances and my grades, so I had to drop out and live back with my parents.

Despite how tough it's been, not finding work, struggling with the ins and outs of the VA, and just needing a professional therapist to talk to and help me keep my head straight but never being able to get one, I've managed to recuperate well enough and learn a lot more about this bottom floor of society that I've been so desperately trying to escape my whole life.

I've gone looking for opportunity in every direction. I've tried changing my career goals, collecting recyclables, writing online, trying any online scheme that didn't include me forking out money to get it, imagining what I could write as a novel, tried to make money through playing video games, making goal after goal after goal for myself, but still just not being able to get just the right amount of money to put me back on my feet.

I'll be going back to school in April at the risk of having to do it as a homeless person if the VA doesn't pull through for me. They recently approved my 10% service connected disability status and now I need to jump over a few more hurdles to get my more significant service connected disabilities recognized. I'm also seeing what the vocational rehab people can do for me despite the bureaucratic issues that are stopping them from helping me all the way.

BTW, this whole time that I've gone through life with common lower class difficulties, I've been disabled with a number of small conditions that all add up to a hard time. I have lower back issues that the military has yet to own up to. Community college found also that I have a learning disability which makes some intellectual tasks show up as lower than average ability for me while the rest of my intellect is high enough to expect that I could easily get a Masters Degree or a PhD. My biggest difficulty in school is that they don't give me enough time to show them what I know or what I'm capable of.

From working with special needs students as a tutor, I have proven to myself that there is a major problem in the education system. Most teachers never simplify the material into a clear picture of what they want to teach. If you want someone to learn something, the last thing you should be fuzzy on is what it is exactly that you want them to learn. We can't all work like intuitive Jedi or sophisticated parrots.

If you help me out, here is a list of the priorities of what your money will go towards, in order of their priority If you would like to request that I spend your donation on a specific cause, please let me know:

1. A working cheap economic vehicle.
I need something that I can sleep in and that will take me wherever I need to go. Preferably something that can stow quite a few recyclables as well to pay for gas, but not an SUV or truck or van (Unless that's all that is cheap of course. Not likely but you never know.).
I'll aim for great gas mileage, but I'm thinking that I should attend some police car auctions to see what the cheapest deal I can find is. This car would make a great shelter for me while I return to my far away school.

2. Investing on the stock market.
Trust me, I know how to fish. If you want to send me a request for proof I'd be glad to compose some evidence of my finest moments as well as my worst to show you that I can do well for myself on the stock market, even during the recession. What I could really use right now, is a little bait. Trading is good money for me, but to make enough to make gains worth more than the commission cost (about $10), you need about $300-1000 per investment. $300 is more for the high risk lottery plays on the market. I even made a blog about it if you would like to see:
http://www.squidoo.com/TheYoungidealistEconomyBlog
If you are willing, we can arrange something personal so that you wont need to worry about me putting the money you offer at high risk and blow it all. Might even be able to arrange something where I could make money for you to prove myself before accepting your donation. Whatever the case, I know we'd have to make it a personal arrangement to satisfy the current laws.

3. Working towards paying my debts to my friends.
My friends have been really supportive through these hard times, though they are starving students themselves. To keep up my morale they've bought me food, given me a place to crash when they could, and even paid to have me join them at fun local events. I have some money that I've promised them back, and I plan on making due on those promises as soon as possible.

4. Paying off my debts with companies.
I've had times where I couldn't afford to pay for rent and had to leave, like when my wife left me to live with her parents. These issues follow me on my credit score and I would like to work towards removing them so that I can turn my life around.

5. Getting a good start towards paying off my student loans.
I know I won't be able to pay them off before I find a good career with my degree. I would just like to have something to start making some automatic payments with and put that part of my bad credit score behind me as well.

6. Buying a home.
My mom never owned a home. No offense meant to land lords out there, but I really think the rental system is way out of line. My mom was always a hard worker. Way better than me, yet she could never own a home because she didn't have the money. Meanwhile, people with money could live in great big houses for less than she even had to pay.
I want a house to own. Probably start with a condo and seek ways to improve it and flip a profit out of it. Then I want to keep building up money from housing until I can manage to build an apartment building.
If I could, I'd like to make an apartment building near a university that offers cheap housing using the Japanese capsule model or something even more economic and more comfortable.

7. Making an online tutoring site meant to offer free tutoring and tutoring for tips. Imagine a site (I have yet to know of one) where people can collect their resources on a class, much like they collect info on ratemyprofessor.com, but also seek help from others who are taking the class or who have taken the class. Donors like you can offer money to tutors who post their notes and stories on the site, alongside ratings from other students that they helped.
Some tutors can offer their rates for help, sell their notes online for cheap, or just offer their help whenever they can and ask to be tipped through paypal if someone likes their work. My hope is that such a site could help to put an end to sophistry in the college system once and for all, making education easy and affordable for everyone.

8. After I have everything I'm hoping for above, the sky is the limit. But I would prefer to put the extra money that I don't need to good uses. I would spread a little philanthropy around, give to others in need on this site and through other resources.
I'd also look to teach others how to fish. I think a great way for the economy to be fixed would be if philanthropists made some really good employee owned companies. Make the place pay for itself, skim a little off the top, and walk away knowing that you really were a job creator.
I think that everyone who is capable of work and who chooses to work deserves to have their own independent living situation. I know that we are a long way from that, but I tend to be an optimist. I would like to try and make the world a better place, if nothing else.

Aside form financial help, I'm interested in anything else that I could get that's useful. Advice, Neuroscience Career connections, work, hobby or volunteer work that can easily become lucrative, I'm really all ears. Thanks again for taking the time to read my request. I hope you find it in you to help me out, even get to know me if you'd like. Bet you $5000 I can make you laugh. Did I win? >;) it was worth a try anyway.

I have been fostering feral cats in my rented home for about a year. They are desperately hungry pitiful creatures and I provide them with food, beds, blankets and shelters on the property. Now my landlord has decided he wants to sell the home and refuses to renew the lease. We are hoping to raise enough money to be able to buy the house and stay in the home. If we have to leave the property then these poor creatures will be lost and abandoned once again. We have been able to bring in some of the kittens but most of them are ferals and they are not adoptable. Their only hope for survival is to continue to come to us for food and shelter. We spend all the spare money we have to feed them and we just do not have the funds to put a down payment on the house. These cats have come to view the home as a place to eat and sleep and feel safe. So much so that one of them was out and got hit by a car. In the middle of the night with a broken hip she managed to crawl her way back to our house where we are currently nursing her back to health. We feel so guilty abandoning them since they have come to depend on our sanctury and wil be lost and miserable if we move. Please please I appeal to all you animal lovers to help us raise enough money to buy the home and take care of these precious creatures who have been completely abandoned to the world. We are their only salvation. Please help our time is very limited.

When you were younger, did you ever dream about how life would be when you got older, that moment when you would finally be independent? My dream is to make the most out of my 21st birthday and to make up for the 21st birthday party my boyfriend never had.

In America, 21 is a magical number for us miserable youngsters who have not yet reached it. We live our lives waiting to get to that number because, when we reach it, we know that no one can stop us from doing anything. When I reach 21, I know I will be unstoppable. And what place on earth says unstoppable better than Las Vegas?

Of course, there is one problem: I am a broke college student and my boyfriend is a broke college graduate. . .With the high prices of hotels, flights, and, of course, Vegas gambling, it is nearly impossible for a college student on financial aid and a recent grad in today's job market to enjoy Las Vegas on their own pockets.

That is where, hopefully, you come in. Dreams do cost money. After creating a budget, I have calculated that, in order to fulfill my dream, I will have to raise around $2500.

This site is for anyone who has ever had a dream. Please donate today, and help me to fulfill mine

This is why I'm posting here:

I am 25 and for my entire life, I have been fat. I don't mean this as in, a little on the chubby side; but obese. I can remember being in 5th grade, when our class had to get weighed and measured at the nurses office. The sinking feeling in my gut that came up when I weighed almost 200 lbs at the age of 10 is something that I don't think I will entirely forget.

Because of my horrible diet as a child (McDonalds, soda, you name it), I have spent my entire young life coping with being overweight and all of the horrible things that go with it: wondering if I'll fit in a seatbelt, wondering if I would break a friends bed or chair if I sat on it, or never being able to find a cute outfit to wear like all the other girls. When I was about 14, I was diagnosed with PCOS, which is cysts on my ovaries (contributing to my obesity, or as a result of, but they worked in tandem to make my life miserable). Without health insurance, I was never able to get this issue resolved, and with my poor diet, my weight increased. PCOS symptoms also include abnormal facial and body hair, which was (and to a degree still is) the bane of mine and any woman's existence. A woman should never have to feel so ashamed of her own body, and yet that is exactly how I've felt for as long as I've realized that I was different, and that looks mattered.

My highest weight as of 4 months ago topped out at 324 (thought I had reached 340 a year earlier but had lost some weight over a long period of time). Recently I began taking HCG (a hormone that helps regulate fertility and also helps with weight loss), and am amazed to report that for the first time in my adult life, I am 270 lbs. While this still is a lot, for me it is an incredible number to be at. Never in my life have I felt the fear of dying at 30 begin to be lifted, though I still have a long way to go.

So the point of my request: there are a lot of dreams I have that I feel like I am within reach of grasping. Some of them have already been fulfilled: I have been able to travel with my family, and this past year my parents helped me to finance a jeep. This is a huge one...I live on the west coast and have always wanted to live a surfer/beach lifestyle.

But how could a fat girl ever be a surfer? It's been my dream for the past 10 summers to learn to surf, with beaches only 15 minutes away. But every year, the fear stopped me, my weight stopped me, my inability stopped me.

I want this year to be the last year fear gets in the way.

With my weight going down, I've been trying to exercise. I've been attempting a modified version of P90X, and have been eating healthy and avoiding all the foods that got me where I am today. The problem is that financially, while I do work full time, I barely make enough to cover my bills (gas, car insurance, car payment, cell phone), and am not even able to help my hard working parents pay rent. So money for extras this summer is not really possible, but I CAN'T let another year go by without accomplishing this task.

I want to attend a surf camp this summer in San Diego, called Surf Divas. The problem? Surf lessons are expensive. I think to get me on the right path, I'd need at least 10 hours of lessons. At $82 an hour, thats $820.

The reason I want to fulfill this dream is to prove to myself and others that no matter where you've been, or how far your body is from being in shape, that the human body is remarkably capable of change. I would want to encourage anyone who doesn't think they are the right "type" to surf or do a sport that they can push their bodies to do things they never thought possible. And I sincerely believe that learning to surf will help me pursue my health and fitness goals long term, as well as truly set free the earth-and-sea-loving hippie that I keep snug and close to my soul. I live for summer and the ocean...and being able to ride a way would be life changing for me.

If anyone is able to donate or help support me in taking charge of my health and fitness...there would be no adequate way to thank you. I will send you a picture of me riding my very first wave as a token of gratitude, with a friendship bracelet made by me with a few shells from the beach strung on it. My way to say thank you for helping me to live a healthy life.

I'm a giver who rarely gets, but if you could change that, I would be most grateful.

<3

I am 38 yr old mother of 3 married for 17 yrs. Been with spouse 19 yrs total. Spouse is an alcoholic. I'm a disabled high school drop out with a GED. This past year spouse destroyed our marriage yet I'm stuck in this hell with no way out. I can't get disability or SSI. I have no income, savings or any way to support my kids. When I told spouse I wanted a divorce he was going to walk away & leave me with no way to pay the rent or utilities. Can't afford an attorney can't afford anything to be honest. I depend upon him for income. My list of health problems began at age 17 & have continued to compile since. Can not be treated for my medical conditions due to my hypersensitivity to prescription medications & allergies to opiates & codeine. My existence is utterly miserable!! I need a way out of this hell. Everyone deserves to be happy even me. I have to provide stability to my children so I live a lie day to day pretending to be his partner friend & lover. Honestly it is enough to make one have no desire to live. I am trapped in hell with 3 kids. I have been diagnosed with degenerative disc disease, fibromyalgia, restless leg syndrome, herniated T11-12, chronic tendinitis of the groin, eczema. I have very bad allergies with frequent allergic reactions to things in my environment and have no idea what they are. I will be allergy tested next week. The week after I start testing for lupus & kidney disease if nothing is found on scope test of my bladder. I stay sick get many things at one time & it takes me much longer to recover than normal people. There has to be a way out of this with some dignity. I was told by an SSI rep that I am one of those people that just falls through the cracks. There has to be hope for us down here for Christ sake there has to be

I can't believe I'm doing this but I really need help. I really screwed up earlier in my life and I am trying to fix all the mistakes I have made. I really don't know how to say everything.
I'm not gonna tell you some sad story about my life and that I work three jobs and I'm miserable because that's not true.
I have 3 wonderful kids that are my world and that makes my life happy and everything I do, I do for them.
But,
It takes every cent I make just to pay my rent and then I juggle with the utilities. I always said if I have kids I wanted to give them the life I never had and it hurts so much that I can't do that because of the debt I have. I would just really appreciate any amount that you can give to help bring down the burden.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
God bless

I am a mother of 4 sons who desperately needs to get out of my marriage. My husband is abusive, controlling and lacks the ability to be emotionally supportive. My youngest son is only six weeks old. 2 weeks after he was born I was diagnosed with postpartum depression. That same day, my husband threw me on the ground and choked me because he said he was tired of me being "crabby". I went to an attorney to file for divorce, but she wanted a $3,500 retainer. I am on maternity leave from work still and we just don't have the money to afford that fee. I didn't tell my husband that I went and don't plan to. I would like to be able to come up with the money somehow because he likes to throw it in my face that I don't have any. It would be so nice to be able to completely blindside him when he is served with divorce papers. I am a kind and caring woman who loves her children more than life. I have tried to be the very best wife I can be and I know that I deserve to be treasured. I just had a baby and my husband will not speak to me or show an ounce of support. I am so sad and miserable and just want to leave him. The only thing keeping me here is the fact that I cannot afford to leave him. It would mean the world to me if you could help me at all. I found the courage to leave, now I just need to find the money. Thank you.

im a 20year old female.ive been doing all i can to make the most out of my life. im tired and depressed and exhausted. i didnt finish my highschool education even though i should have pushed my self. but i never had any support from anyone. my parents divorced and my father was never around during my infancy. my sisters failed at there lifes as well. one raped and left pregnant at 16 and my other had drug problems and was literally at deaths doorstep at least twice as a teen.i haven't seen her in over 6 years. i experienced everything they went though and our family struggled so much. my mother was never around she only cared for her well being.left the family to find a man with money at one point to come back as a broken down women with no dignity. i dropped out of highschool at 12th grade and have been trying to get my ged but with how much it has been going up in cost its really hard to afford. i work two cities away with minimum waged job and live in a shitty apartment taking care of my brother and mother. barely make ends meat and im just frustrated with my how hard things have become. i want to higher my education to at least get a decent job that would improve my self esteem and also to give my brother the life he deserves. the life my parents never gave me. he is still young and doesn't understand most of whats going on.the worst part about the ged is that i live so far from the testing facilities so i try my hardest to find a center but transportation is a pain when most places are far away and i always have to take care of my brother whenever he is not in school. i need a car and just this test so i can at least have one chance to make things well, at for just this once i want to be able to not feel like an incompetent miserable fool.

My mother has end stage kidney disease and we are really worried about her, and would like to make her last days comfortable, she was living with her son and his family. They have made her miserable with fighting and arguments all the time. We would like her to move some place else and enjoy her last days with people who love her. We would like her to visit her few remaining relatives and spend quality time with the rest of the family, if anyone can help out with any amount that would be great. God willing, we would also help people in the future when circumstances are better. Praying for her good health and life.

My name is Angelica I finished college in September and since then I'm
really struggling with lots of debt, I must owe over $40,000 =[. Anyways
I'm looking for a job but it's not as easy as I thought, I studied
History and would love to work in a museum but owing so much money means
I've had to move back in with my parents and I can't afford to go out
and do things with my friends, this is getting me down and making me miserable!
If anyone is feeling kind a donation of any amount would help and be really
appreciated, I plan to save up and get an apartment with my best friend PLUS
eventually find a job.
Much love and thanks in advance
Angelica

I'm not asking for needless luxury or anything in vain, I've never asked for anything in my life from anybody.... I'm in a situation where I need to leave my hometown to evade an ex partner who has made my life nothing but miserable. I left him 4 years ago after 7 years of domestic violence. I went to stay in a women's refuge facility with my 4 children and as a payback he took out 11 grand of debt in my name. I've been working ever since to try to clear those debts. I'm not asking for help to pay those debts but just enough to secure me a bond for a new home to rent and removals. This man still harasses and intimidates me and I need to move away and get the fresh start I should of got 4 years ago! Please if someone can help me then I will be forever grateful, thankyou for reading this. X

im looking for financial support i need money for studies
this year i enrolled at pharmacy university in slovakia my studies begin on october and i must till september pay school payments it cost 700 euros for 1 year studying then i need bit of amount for books laboratory supplies and other necessary things for school
i live alone without family support they never take care about me therefore i left them when i was 18 years old since then i try to live in rent flat but it isnt easy for me because rent cost 400 euros monthly and my salary isnt enough for that
u know slovakia is small country with very bad economics due to politics scammers in parliament
without good connections i couldnt get good job and earn enough money for life i lead miserable life and feel deep sorrow of that
hope u will be willing to help me
my website www.cutetatana.yolasite.com
i send u my account if u want to next comunication and arrange our real meeting u must put bit of amount for me direct to my account in bank
please help me

my debts amount 9000 euros

im looking for financial support i need money for studies
this year i enrolled at pharmacy university in slovakia my studies begin on october and i must till september pay school payments it cost 700 euros for 1 year studying then i need bit of amount for books laboratory supplies and other necessary things for school
i live alone without family support they never take care about me therefore i left them when i was 18 years old since then i try to live in rent flat but it isnt easy for me because rent cost 400 euros monthly and my salary isnt enough for that
u know slovakia is small country with very bad economics due to politics scammers in parliament
without good connections i couldnt get good job and earn enough money for life i lead miserable life and feel deep sorrow of that
hope u will be willing to help me
my website www.cutetatana.yolasite.com
i send u my account if u want to next comunication and arrange our real meeting u must put bit of amount for me direct to my account in bank
please help me

my debts amount 9000 euros

now i send u my personal account in slovakian bank

Vseobecna uverova banka
Mlynske nivy 1
829 90 Bratislava 25
SWIFT Code: SUBASKBX
IBAN: SK82 0200 0000 0017 6825 0853
number 1768250853/0200
code of bank 0200

imediatelly i received ur help fee i let u know

best wishes
tanya

im looking for financial support i need money for studies
this year i enrolled at pharmacy university in slovakia my studies begin on october and i must till september pay school payments it cost 700 euros for 1 year studying then i need bit of amount for books laboratory supplies and other necessary things for school
i live alone without family support they never take care about me therefore i left them when i was 18 years old since then i try to live in rent flat but it isnt easy for me because rent cost 400 euros monthly and my salary isnt enough for that
u know slovakia is small country with very bad economics due to politics scammers in parliament
without good connections i couldnt get good job and earn enough money for life i lead miserable life and feel deep sorrow of that
hope u will be willing to help me
my website www.cutetatana.yolasite.com
i send u my account if u want to next comunication and arrange our real meeting u must put bit of amount for me direct to my account in bank
please help me

my debts amount 9000 euros

now i send u my personal account in slovakian bank


Vseobecna uverova banka
Mlynske nivy 1
829 90 Bratislava 25
SWIFT Code: SUBASKBX
IBAN: SK82 0200 0000 0017 6825 0853
number 1768250853/0200
code of bank 0200

imediatelly i received ur help fee i let u know

best wishes
tanya

im looking for financial support i need money for studies
this year i enrolled at pharmacy university in slovakia my studies begin on october and i must till september pay school payments it cost 700 euros for 1 year studying then i need bit of amount for books laboratory supplies and other necessary things for school
i live alone without family support they never take care about me therefore i left them when i was 18 years old since then i try to live in rent flat but it isnt easy for me because rent cost 400 euros monthly and my salary isnt enough for that
u know slovakia is small country with very bad economics due to politics scammers in parliament
without good connections i couldnt get good job and earn enough money for life i lead miserable life and feel deep sorrow of that
hope u will be willing to help me
my website www.cutetatana.yolasite.com
i send u my account if u want to next comunication and arrange our real meeting u must put bit of amount for me direct to my account in bank
please help me

my debts amount 9000 euros

now i send u my personal account in slovakian bank

Vseobecna uverova banka
Mlynske nivy 1
829 90 Bratislava 25
SWIFT Code: SUBASKBX
IBAN: SK82 0200 0000 0017 6825 0853
number 1768250853/0200
code of bank 0200

imediatelly i received ur help fee i let u know

best wishes
tanya

im looking for financial support i need money for studies
this year i enrolled at pharmacy university in slovakia my studies begin on october and i must till september pay school payments it cost 700 euros for 1 year studying then i need bit of amount for books laboratory supplies and other necessary things for school
i live alone without family support they never take care about me therefore i left them when i was 18 years old since then i try to live in rent flat but it isnt easy for me because rent cost 400 euros monthly and my salary isnt enough for that
u know slovakia is small country with very bad economics due to politics scammers in parliament
without good connections i couldnt get good job and earn enough money for life i lead miserable life and feel deep sorrow of that
hope u will be willing to help me
my website www.cutetatana.yolasite.com
i send u my account if u want to next comunication and arrange our real meeting u must put bit of amount for me direct to my account in bank
please help me

my debts amount 9000 euros

now i send u my personal account in slovakian bank


Vseobecna uverova banka
Mlynske nivy 1
829 90 Bratislava 25
SWIFT Code: SUBASKBX
IBAN: SK82 0200 0000 0017 6825 0853
number 1768250853/0200
code of bank 0200

imediatelly i received ur help fee i let u know

best wishes
tanya

im looking for financial support i need money for studies
this year i enrolled at pharmacy university in slovakia my studies begin on october and i must till september pay school payments it cost 700 euros for 1 year studying then i need bit of amount for books laboratory supplies and other necessary things for school
i live alone without family support they never take care about me therefore i left them when i was 18 years old since then i try to live in rent flat but it isnt easy for me because rent cost 400 euros monthly and my salary isnt enough for that
u know slovakia is small country with very bad economics due to politics scammers in parliament
without good connections i couldnt get good job and earn enough money for life i lead miserable life and feel deep sorrow of that
hope u will be willing to help me
my website www.cutetatana.yolasite.com
i send u my account if u want to next comunication and arrange our real meeting u must put bit of amount for me direct to my account in bank
please help me

my debts amount 9000 euros

now i send u my personal account in slovakian bank


Vseobecna uverova banka
Mlynske nivy 1
829 90 Bratislava 25
SWIFT Code: SUBASKBX
IBAN: SK82 0200 0000 0017 6825 0853
number 1768250853/0200
code of bank 0200

imediatelly i received ur help fee i let u know

best wishes
tanya