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Quiet giving means to help others without fanfare, without recognition. I've done this all my life. From buying school clothes for my childrens' friends, paying for glasses for the cashier at our local store, or paying an elderly stranger's grocery bill...God tells us to help each other, no matter how small. Now the shoe is on the other foot. I am in need. I am scared and now understand how it is to wake up every morning with fear and anxiety hanging over my head. I am a teacher who has been a victim of budget cuts 5 times in my career. It has taken me up to two years to find another full-time job each time it happened. I lived off of early withdrawals from my teaching retirement fund while I worked part-time jobs during those times. It is all gone now. I am single mother with two children, no alimony or child support. We have always struggled, but managed to make do with what we had. It wasn't easy, but we were able to keep our home for 16 years now. I have experienced a debilitating illness over the past year and will not be able to return to teaching. I never thought while I sat in college studying for my career, that I would one day be virtually penniless with no place to turn to. I have sold all valuables and now have nothing left to pay the bills or keep our home. I know God hears me, but perhaps the journey is one of empathy for others and of understanding true suffering. I am thankful for the journey, and the lesson is difficult. I have failed my children and myself. I was willing to accept my fate, until a friend told me about this website. If you find it in your heart to help me and my family, I assure you we will pay a portion back to others here in WV who are suffering as well. One day, when I am back on my feet, I would like to be a philanthropist, creating a non-profit organization using quiet giving. Thank you for listening, sometimes it helps just to get it out. Thank you also for your generosity and understanding. Even if you choose not to help my partiuclar family, please be aware of other hard-working families in your own community who may need your help too. Have a blessed day, Mrs. Birdlegs Please help, my family matters too.

Quiet giving means to help others without fanfare, without recognition. I've done this all my life. From buying school clothes for my childrens' friends, paying for glasses for the cashier at our local store, or paying an elderly stranger's grocery bill...God tells us to help each other, no matter how small. Now the shoe is on the other foot. I am in need. I am scared and now understand how it is to wake up every morning with fear and anxiety hanging over my head. I am a teacher who has been a victim of budget cuts 5 times in my career. It has taken me up to two years to find another full-time job each time it happened. I lived off of early withdrawals from my teaching retirement fund while I worked part-time jobs during those times. It is all gone now. I am single mother with two children, no alimony or child support. We have always struggled, but managed to make do with what we had. It wasn't easy, but we were able to keep our home for 16 years now. I have experienced a debilitating illness over the past year and will not be able to return to teaching. I never thought while I sat in college studying for my career, that I would one day be virtually penniless with no place to turn to. I have sold all valuables and now have nothing left to pay the bills or keep our home. I know God hears me, but perhaps the journey is one of empathy for others and of understanding true suffering. I am thankful for the journey, and the lesson is difficult. I have failed my children and myself. I was willing to accept my fate, until a friend told me about this website. If you find it in your heart to help me and my family, I assure you we will pay a portion back to others here in WV who are suffering as well. One day, when I am back on my feet, I would like to be a philanthropist, creating a non-profit organization using quiet giving. Thank you for listening, sometimes it helps just to get it out. Thank you also for your generosity and understanding. Even if you choose not to help my partiuclar family, please be aware of other hard-working families in your own community who may need your help too. Have a blessed day, Mrs. Birdlegs

Quiet giving means to help others without fanfare, without recognition. I've done this all my life. From buying school clothes for my childrens' friends, paying for glasses for the cashier at our local store, or paying an elderly stranger's grocery bill...God tells us to help each other, no matter how small. Now the shoe is on the other foot. I am in need. I am scared and now understand how it is to wake up every morning with fear and anxiety hanging over my head. I am a teacher who has been a victim of budget cuts 5 times in my career. It has taken me up to two years to find another full-time job each time it happened. I lived off of early withdrawals from my teaching retirement fund while I worked part-time jobs during those times. It is all gone now. I am single mother with two children, no alimony or child support. We have always struggled, but managed to make do with what we had. It wasn't easy, but we were able to keep our home for 16 years now. I have experienced a debilitating illness over the past year and will not be able to return to teaching. I never thought while I sat in college studying for my career, that I would one day be virtually penniless with no place to turn to. I have sold all valuables and now have nothing left to pay the bills or keep our home. I know God hears me, but perhaps the journey is one of empathy for others and of understanding true suffering. I am thankful for the journey, and the lesson is difficult. I have failed my children and myself. I was willing to accept my fate, until a friend told me about this website. If you find it in your heart to help me and my family, I assure you we will pay a portion back to others here in WV who are suffering as well. One day, when I am back on my feet, I would like to be a philanthropist, creating a non-profit organization using quiet giving. Thank you for listening, sometimes it helps just to get it out. Thank you also for your generosity and understanding. Even if you choose not to help my partiuclar family, please be aware of other hard-working families in your own community who may need your help too. Have a blessed day, Mrs. Birdlegs

Quiet giving means to help others without fanfare, without recognition. I've done this all my life. From buying school clothes for my childrens' friends, paying for glasses for the cashier at our local store, or paying an elderly stranger's grocery bill...God tells us to help each other, no matter how small. Now the shoe is on the other foot. I am in need. I am scared and now understand how it is to wake up every morning with fear and anxiety hanging over my head. I am a teacher who has been a victim of budget cuts 5 times in my career. It has taken me up to two years to find another full-time job each time it happened. I lived off of early withdrawals from my teaching retirement fund while I worked part-time jobs during those times. It is all gone now. I am single mother with two children, no alimony or child support. We have always struggled, but managed to make do with what we had. It wasn't easy, but we were able to keep our home for 16 years now. I have experienced a debilitating illness over the past year and will not be able to return to teaching. I never thought while I sat in college studying for my career, that I would one day be virtually penniless with no place to turn to. I have sold all valuables and now have nothing left to pay the bills or keep our home. I know God hears me, but perhaps the journey is one of empathy for others and of understanding true suffering. I am thankful for the journey, and the lesson is difficult. I have failed my children and myself. I was willing to accept my fate, until a friend told me about this website. If you find it in your heart to help me and my family, I assure you we will pay a portion back to others here in WV who are suffering as well. One day, when I am back on my feet, I would like to be a philanthropist, creating a non-profit organization using quiet giving. Thank you for listening, sometimes it helps just to get it out. Thank you also for your generosity and understanding. Even if you choose not to help my partiuclar family, please be aware of other hard-working families in your own community who may need your help too. Have a blessed day, Mrs. Birdlegs

This is not a beg, this is a cry for help. I am 23 years old, with no kids and no vehicle. I have a good paying job where I make over $30,000 dollars a year working with special needs adolescent. I am in a massive amount of debt that I honestly placed myself in trying to clean up a debt that I already had but was manageable. I took out about 6 pay day loans, not all at once to pay of a bill I was short on and it continued to collect interest and build up and pull money out of my account to a point where I was over drafting my account at the same time and collecting a ridiculous amount of overdraft fees. It took me a month to pay it off and literally the next day the payday loan company's continued to pull out and set me back into overdraft so I'm at an enormous amount of negative now and left my apartment to someone else because I cannot manage. I left my apartment with nowhere to go and not even a car to sleep in and I just want to get rid of these payday loan people but it's quite impossible when they pull out my money every two weeks and it's not there because my bank has eaten it in overdraft fees. I'm stranded I'm desperate I have been thinking I the impossible just to get my hand on $4,700 to clear my situation so I can go back to life. I have been gambling as a result of this because at this point I feel I have nothing to lose. All I am holding on to is my good job. Im miserable and facing all types of depression and stress. I have been biting my lip out of anxiety til it bleeds and I have no one to go to. My enormous pride has let up tremendously through this experience which might have been Gods lesson and I try to be more grateful for what I do have however it's not many more sleepovers I can disguise as I have no where to go.
Please find it in your heart to help me please! I will do any good for this help I am in desperate need of it. I can't promise you I can pay you back right away but I am willing to do anything to get me out of this finacial nightmare.

This is very new to me. Doubt anyone actually reads these, but I am desperate. I have 5 children and recently took in another. We cannot afford daycare for all of our children so I work while my spouse stays home to care for the kids. There are somedays where we are flipping couch cushions to find change for milk or diapers. We live paycheck to paycheck and rarely have any extra for even school activities. I spent a year racking up credit card debt just to get by. Now I am in deeper than ever. I no longer have credit cards and will never get one again. I want to pay off my car, student loans and other debt so I can provide fully for my family. I know I screwed up and have learned my lesson. Now I am begging for help! Please; anything will help.

This is very new to me. Doubt anyone actually reads these, but I am desperate. I have 5 children and recently took in another. We cannot afford daycare for all of our children so I work while my spouse stays home to care for the kids. There are somedays where we are flipping couch cushions to find change for milk or diapers. We live paycheck to paycheck and rarely have any extra for even school activities. I spent a year racking up credit card debt just to get by. Now I am in deeper than ever. I no longer have credit cards and will never get one again. I want to pay off my car, student loans and other debt so I can provide fully for my family. I know I screwed up and have learned my lesson. Now I am begging for help! Please; anything will help.

I'm the girl who would give anyone the shirt off my back. Unfortunately, this has left me standing here needing my shirt back.

I'm single. I don't have any children. No one to support but myself. I'm educated. I'm not an addict or a gambler. My parents gave me all the tools I needed to be a successful contributor to society. So I should be able to handle this, right?

The hard lesson I've learned is that you can't give what you don't have. And sometimes, it needs to be okay to say no. A dollar here and there to the Ronald McDonald House, March of Dimes, Easter Seals, etc. = a good way to give to several worthy causes. A hundred dollars here and there to a friend in need, to the church, to the poor or other worthy cause = still doable. A thousand dollars (x4) to the jerk who broke my heart = big, huge mistake.

There are millions who deserve your compassion more than I do and I would encourage you to help them first. If after that, you have a little left over and can relate to the jam I've gotten myself into, I would appreciate any support you can lend.

I am swallowing every ounce of pride that I have in doing this. And I'm fairly certain it won't amount to anything but I feel I have run out of options. I just need to get my head above water and move forward.

And, though I've learned my lesson, I will make a promise to pay it forward (WITHOUT getting myself into the same situation again).

Thank you for your time!
Lisa

Haven't been very smart in life. I've made some very bad mistakes and foolish decisions that I'm now having to pay for. Just found out my fiance is pregnant and have a lot to get straightened out in a hurry. I know I'm not the type of person who people usually like to help but please keep my girl and baby in mind. With all my fees and surcharges combined, I owe a total of $3,854.50. This will allow me to get back and forth to work everyday without fear of not making it back home to her. Please help me out, I beg you. Believe me I've learned my lesson. Just need some help to make a second start.

Haven't been very smart in life. I've made some very bad mistakes and foolish decisions that I'm now having to pay for. Just found out my fiance is pregnant and have a lot to get straightened out in a hurry. I know I'm not the type of person who people usually like to help but please keep my girl and baby in mind. With all my fees and surcharges combined, I owe a total of $3,854.50. This will allow me to get back and forth to work everyday without fear of not making it back home to her. Please help me out, I beg you. Believe me I've learned my lesson. Just need some help to make a second start.

Haven't been very smart in life. I've made some very bad mistakes and foolish decisions that I'm now having to pay for. Just found out my fiance is pregnant and have a lot to get straightened out in a hurry. I know I'm not the type of person who people usually like to help but please keep my girl and baby in mind. With all my fees and surcharges combined, I owe a total of $3,854.50. This will allow me to get back and forth to work everyday without fear of not making it back home to her. Please help me out, I beg you. Believe me I've learned my lesson. Just need some help to make a second start.

Haven't been very smart in life. I've made some very bad mistakes and foolish decisions that I'm now having to pay for. Just found out my fiance is pregnant and have a lot to get straightened out in a hurry. I know I'm not the type of person who people usually like to help but please keep my girl and baby in mind. With all my fees and surcharges combined, I owe a total of $3,854.50. This will allow me to get back and forth to work everyday without fear of not making it back home to her. Please help me out, I beg you. Believe me I've learned my lesson. Just need some help to make a second start.

Haven't been very smart in life. I've made some very bad mistakes and foolish decisions that I'm now having to pay for. Just found out my fiance is pregnant and have a lot to get straightened out in a hurry. I know I'm not the type of person who people usually like to help but please keep my girl and baby in mind. With all my fees and surcharges combined, I owe a total of $3,854.50. This will allow me to get back and forth to work everyday without fear of not making it back home to her. Please help me out, I beg you. Believe me I've learned my lesson. Just need some help to make a second start.

6 months ago we responded to an ad on Craigslist. It was for property managers in Fl. We accepted the position sight unseen and in good faith. With my wifes health getting worse and having a hard time working. This seemed like a good thing. We took our savings and left for Florida. Well when we got there it turned out to be a scam. Lesson very well learned! We ended up in south Ga with her sister. I recently started a job that requires travel. our car is up for repossession due to our payments falling behind. I have tried to make payments when I started working and they said it was to late so I am using the car till they come and take it. We have financed 2 other cars with them and always on time. I wonder if the people that work in those places ever fell on hard times. I am not sure if that is the right thing but I honestly did try to catch up. When they take my car I will not be able to travel. This job is not very steady but it is work till I find another. I am looking for work in the Albany Ga area. If anyone from this area reads please consider me. I have a good work history and can provide a resume. I have posted many resumes and have responses from many scammers. I have learned there are very few ads on craigslist that are not scams. Also if anyone knows of a cheap car around this area please let me know You can contact me at ludavis1956@gmail.com. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

I would like to start out by saying, "this was/is my last resort". I never
looked down on others that ask for help because most of the time I was the
helper. However, now I am sitting behind this smoke screen in desperation. I
am a single mother of an 8 year old growing boy and currently working two
jobs to make ends meet. A few years ago I made a purchase on a vehicle that
was a big bad mistake and definetly a life lesson after reading Dave
Ramsey's book. My payment, fuel and insurance is 33% of my monthly income. I
am upside down in my payments along with trying to keep up with student

loans and other monthly expenses. I would be the first to admit I made a
dumb choice and I am trying to dig myself out of this deep financial hole. I
am not one to take without giving something in return. I will defenitely pay
it forward in some way to others by doing a good deed for someone else. It
saddens me to have to come to this but this is my cry out for help. Thank
you so much for taking time to read my message. Soldier iN Need of a little
help!

I am really struggling to make ends meat right now. I had £10,000 of Credit Card debt run up just paying bills and a few years of stupidity spending beyond my means.I have been slowly getting myself back on my feet. I have managed to get this debt down to £4600 as of 4th Dec 2012 by living on the bread line but I am really struggling to keep a roof over my head. I work full time and overtime to get by and really must remove this debt from my head to allow me to restart my life. I have fell upon some extremely difficult financial times from being stupid. Nothing more nothing less and its a life lesson learned. I am not one to EVER ask for help but I guess there is a first for everything.

I have come up with an idea that means you don`t have to donate to me to actually donate to me. How you may ask ? By using the auction site ebay. Everyone at one point of another buys from this site. Below is a link that if you copy and paste it in your browser will mean that if you buy something or anything from ebay I would receive a tiny percent of their profits via a cash back scheme. Its only pennies but every little will go a long way.

Its not much but its a start. Millions of people worldwide are using this site and if a few people used this link before purchase it would track the purchase and the percentage ebay take for their fees would give me a little cut and in no way affect your purchase. Please please if using ebay give this link a copy and paste and through time may an internet giant clear my feet. As soon as everything is paid off I will remove this link.

If this seems like too much effort a small donation would certainly help.

Below is the link, please copy and paste whole thing to your address bar and it will link purchase to my cashback. Please help and tell a friend who uses ebay. Anything at this time is worth a shot :(

www.topcashback.co.uk/redirect.aspx?mpurl=ebay&instant=False&url=http://rover.ebay.com/rover/1/710-53481-19255-0/1?customid=313871&type=1&campid=5335816978&toolid=10001

or try clicking the blue text below.



If you so wish to use this site yourself you can also sign up at http://www.topcashback.co.uk/ref/bangeruk and I would get a little fee for introducing you.

Thank you all for your help

I am not the daughter referred to in the title of my post. She is much too proud to beg for anything. I am her boyfriend and I am the one she talks to every night as she cries herself to sleep. I do not wish to be overdramatic in attempts to get money but this is truly what happens each night and it breaks my heart to see her in such pain, what is worse is that I can do nothing to help her accept provide her with comfort.
Her name is Lindsey Hill and all she wants to do is go to college and leave her parent's nest. Her parents have told her that God has told them that she shouldn't be leaving home. They want her to remain in her hometown and go to the local JC. She has lived in her hometown for the last 18 years of her life. Everyone she knew has moved on with their lives and moved out. She was very depressed while living in her home town and does not want to return to live under her parent’s roof where they set strict rules and regulations on everything she does and everywhere she goes.
Because her parents have decreed that their intentions are the will of God they see what they want as absolute truth, therefore they have begun sabotaging every aspect of her financial life in order to prove themselves, and their ultimatums, right and just and get her back home. They have stopped paying for everything. Insurance, phone bills, living expenses, everything. She is 18 and away from home for the first time in her life in a big city and is completely and utterly financially independent. She has worked hard to keep her head above water since she has moved. She even moved down before she could get a job lined up which was a necessity and almost put her on the streets. She is barely getting enough hours at her job to keep a roof over her head. She rents a small bedroom and her dream of going to college to pursue higher education is completely out of the question for her financially.
Her parents say that she has to choose between living a life of sin and labor without education where she is at, or listening to God and coming back to the light. They want her to live with them and go to the local JC or else, they threaten, she will become just like her "messed up" sister who moved out a few years earlier and is now underemployed with no hope of going to school. Her sister left because she couldn't handle living under her parent's insane household. She is a beautiful and brilliant girl but is stuck in a rut in her life due to a lack of support from her parents. She makes enough money to live in a small home and has no intentions of being able to pay for college. Lindsey loves her sister but has big dreams and an amazing head on her shoulders; she does not want her lifestyle to end up like her sister’s.
Her parents will continue to do whatever they can to get their daughter on the streets including guilt tripping her for not visiting but refusing to help her pay for the $200 gas bill that it takes for her to make the trip.
I am not saying that religious people are all crazy. I, myself, am a Christian who studies his bible weekly and is often at church. That is actually how Lindsey and I met. We both try to live Christian lifestyles and we often encourage each other in our faith.
She is a brilliant girl. Only 18 and is exceedingly bright, fiercely compassionate, and a relentlessly hard worker. She is already getting raises at her competitive job but hates it there with a searing passion. She wants to go to school and have a better future but she cannot find any support from her parents. God is telling them to tear her down and bring her back to the nest by any means necessary (of course this is not how they see things) All I know is that these folks desperately need to learn a lesson or they will lead very bitter lives without the company of their amazing daughter. I don’t want that future for any of them!
I do not claim to know the will of God but the one thing he tells me in my heart as I pray is that what Lindsey's parents are doing to her is wrong. Please help me to provide a better future for my beautiful Lindsey. I feel powerless and I want to give her the world. Her parents believe that their will matches Gods and is absolute truth and I need anyone's help to counter this ignorant assault on the future of an amazing woman who is just trying to live her life after spending 18 years in a town she hates with people she is finding it increasingly hard to appreciate. Please help Lindsey go to college.

email me at DerikmSmith@gmail.com if you are interested at all in helping out. Anything will help.

PLEASE HELP ME, I KNOW I AM BEING POISONED. I have a very strong reason to believe I am being poisoned by the tenants or staff I the government owned apartment building I'm living in, based on the behavior of the building staff and tenants as well as the severe fatigue and decline I feel during and after every shower I take, cup of the tap I drink, or food I eat from preparation in my kitchen using the water. I need $750 to have the samples I have already collected on video, confirmed by a lab giving me an substance identification, I then can begin taking the appropriate legal action being that I can already prove beyond a reasonable doubt with videos I already have posted on youtube. Any amount you can spare, even if it's just a penny will eventually make a world of difference. The only thing that has delayed me getting justice on this matter for this long is my lack of funding. My paypal.com account email is: ernestbolds@netscape.net if you do not see the paypal donate button below. PLEASE Help me teach these cowards a lesson that will inspire others to seek justice for themselves.

HERE IS ONE OF THE THIRTY VIDEOS I MADE OF ME RECORDING THE BELIEVE TOXIC FLOWING FROM BY FAUCET AND COLLECTING IT IN A VIAL MADE ON JANUARY 22, 2011: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Scekt7p1ZRo

I am posting to ask for help with my debt. My debt started when I was let go during a lay off and has, unfortunately continued until now. I am in school working on a teaching certification to help me become more attractive to potential employers. I have learned that my former degree was not doing the job. I have one big credit card bill of $4000 that seems to never go down. I can handle my other bills if I could get rid of this bill. Please help in any way you could. I try to do my part and volunteer and give back as much as I can so the goodwill will be appreciated and paid forward. I also understand that credit card bills are not very sympathy inducing, but trust me I have learned my lesson and have not used a single credit card in almost a year.

Hello everyone. I am an active duty Army Soldier. Recently, I was looking for a loan to pay off all debt, go back to school to get my teaching certification and put a little aside into savings. Unfortunately, I have credit problems from college that still haunt me and hinder me from getting a regular bank loan. Long story short, I researched bad credit loans online, found a company which looked great, got approved, and got scammed out of a large amount of money I did not have. I took out many small local, finance loans to secure this one bogus loan and now I am paying on these six high interest finance company loans. I'm not making excuses. I was gullible, made a bad decision and am now learning a very expensive lesson.

I have a one year old and it breaks my heart when on the first of the month I only have $90 left before gas and groceries are purchased. On the 15th I only have $70 before gas and groceries. It kills me that I can't provide for my son the way I would like. I want him to have the world, and I can barely keep him diapered and fed.

I would appreciate any and all assistance that anyone can offer. Thank you for your time and God bless.

This mother is a 28 year old mother of a 6 year old who is in desperate need of help. I am currently living with my patentls helping them with their bills as well as trying to pay on my bills. Soon after, in trying to help my parents pay for bills, I went to finance company stores to get money to pay for expenses that I have. Now I cannot pay these loan companies and my daughter is in constant need of things like food and clothing that I have to scrape by or choose not to pay a bill due to the needs of myself and daughter. I am always helping others and I never seem to get the help in return. I have considered doing the wrong things to get out of my financial situation because it's just that bad. I've contemplated suicide but I know that woulnt do a benefit to myself or family. Due to the fact that those bills would still need to be paid. It feels like I've been swimming an keeping my neck above the deep end but the waves of the water keep pushing me down. My bank account is always over drawn it's embarrassing that I cannot provide for anyone... Not even myself. I have truly learned my lesson about the finance companies and will never use then again! So please if anyone is out here reading this any donation will be helpful for this is legit and going for a useful cause. Thank you and God bless!!

Hi there. My boyfriend of 11 years and I are struggling more than we ever have. We have a 1 year old daughter that is the light of our life and about the only thing keeping us going at the moment. My boyfriend lost his job in May. I am only working about 20 hours per week. We haven't been able to pay our rent since June and the bank called our landlord threatening foreclosure. The last rent payment we made we had to write a bad check and now the checking account will be closed on the 15th. This month, I has to take out a title loan on my car just to pay the electric bill and get some groceries. I'm considering applying for food stamps but have always been too proud. I'm a college grad and still cannot find a full time job. Our credit is completely ruined from when we were younger and we have unfortunately learned our lesson the hard way. If anyone could help it would be sooo greatly appreciated. If anyone has any ideas that would help us that would be amazing as well. Thanks a bunch!

Well I'm a 19 year old Marine who made a mistake of buying a first car without any help. I purchased the car without thinking of other bills I have. And now I am negative in my checking. I had to do a thousand dollar down payment in order to get the car and now I am getting ready to deploy and it will be even harder to deal with this in Afghanistan. Once I get this down payment out of the way I will be on my feet again. I learned my lesson and definitely will never make this avoidable mistake ever again.

So, I guess this is where I tell my story and list my reasons for needing assistance. This isn't so much begging as a loan request because I do intend to repay every cent to anyone who feels inclined to help.

Basically, I grew up in and out of group/foster homes because both of my parents were heroin addicts. Before I was taken away from them at age four we lived in junky squat motels where my father would boost and my mother would prostitute to support their habit. Eventually they were both arrested for crimes committed to support their habit and that's when I was made a ward of the state.

For a brief period my father got out of prison, cleaned up, and I lived with him from when I was about 8 to 11. He got me out of the foster home I was living in, met a woman at the church he started attending and got a job as a truck driver. While he was gone at work she would beat me continuing the abuse I endured previously in the foster homes I was shuffled through. It didn't take long until he started using again, and we found out that he had contracted AIDS from sharing dirty needles while he was in prison. During the time he was sick I ended up having to take care of him every day after I got home from school because my abusive stepmother was either at work or would have nothing to do with him when she wasn't. Of course, he got progressively worse and my step-mom decided she no longer wanted to support either of us, so she stuck him in a hospice. I came home from school one day and the paramedics were loading him into the back of an ambulance. For the next month she would not tell me where he was or let me contact him. At the end of that month, she left me on the doorstep of my grandmother's house (mom's mom) and was gone.

My father died about 3 weeks after that, but because my biological mother was living at my grandmother's as well we did make daily trips to see him those last weeks. A small mercy being able to spend some time with him before he died. My biological mother had gotten out of prison after my father had and had moved in with my grandmother because she was trying to get clean, but that did not last long and while we would go visit my father she would cop dope and fix up my dying father in front of me, as well as use herself. A couple weeks after my father died she split back out onto the streets leaving me in the care of my grandmother.

Needless to say with so much turmoil in my life I freaked out at this point. My grandmother couldn't handle her newly teenage grandson with so many emotional problems and kicked me out because I was so unruly. I lived on the streets, in and out of group homes until I was about 16 where finally I landed in a well run group home with staff that actually cared about the kids that lived there until I graduated high school. I re-established contact with my grandmother and mother who was once again trying to get clean. That didn't last and when she was out on the streets this time caught a lengthy prison sentence.

When I turned 18 I had to leave the group home so I stayed with friends and lived on the streets for a while again, but eventually ended moving back in with my grandmother. Not long after that she ended up being diagnosed with lung cancer. I spent the next few years nursing her, taking her back and forth to chemo and radiation treatments everyday after working the night shift as a waiter. During that time my mother got out of prison, but could no longer run the streets because now she was diagnosed with emphysema.

My grandmother did have a brief remission, but finally did succumb to her disease. After that, my mother's disease started getting progressively worse and worse. To top it all off after that she herself was also diagnosed with lung cancer. Thankfully during that time I did have some help taking care of her because I found a wonderful woman who became my fiancée. We took turns taking my mother to her chemo and radiation treatments.

Now, there is a lot more detail to this story with many more ins and outs, but that is the general outline. I guess you're probably wondering where the begging comes in and what I need it for?

Ok, here goes:

During that time my fiancée's horse riding lesson business tanked, and because of the nature of my mother's disease someone always had to be home with her because she would fall asleep sitting up and choke her self to death so someone always had to be home with her precluding at least one of us from having a regular job. We got a small stipend from the state for taking care of her in home, and she would do web design and find odd jobs off of craigslist/the internet and that's how we'd survive every month.

Unfortunately it ended up not being enough to survive or get my mother to her treatments every day. She was on medicare and the closest hospital that would accept her insurance was 40 miles each way. So, she ended up shoplifting groceries for us and got caught. I bailed her out and we took care of her case, or at least we thought we had. Cut to 2 days ago, my fiancée and I are awoken by bounty hunters stating that she missed a court date and they had to take her in. Her bail is $20,000 because now she has a failure to appear, and since my mother died about 6 months ago she's been taking care of me and has been the sole bread winner like I was when her business was tanking.

Our rent was due 3 days ago and the manager of the extended stay hotel place we live at told me we needed to be out by yesterday. I have about $10 to my name and if I don't have $600 to him in the next day or two I am sure his patience is going to run out and me, and my two dogs are going to be out on the streets, my fiancée will not have a home to come back to when she gets out of jail, and we will lose all of our stuff. If any of these details are unclear of if you have any questions about my situation please do not hesitate to ask.

If there is anyone out there that is inclined to help us in any way our gratitude would be eternal. As I said, this would be a loan. We would both work to pay you back as quickly as possible and I am not opposed to working for it now if someone has work for me to do. Also, if anyone would be inclined to help bail her out we could pay you back even more quickly. Neither of us has any family to fall back on or ask for help so this is the last thing I could think to do.

Feel free to contact me any time, and I will get back to you as soon as I can! Thank you for reading this, and considering to help. My gratitude is immense and eternal.

-Jason

I have a talent that I don't have the money to make it all the way. My dream is to become a recording artist and own my own record company. I have recorded two cd by myself but they never went anywhere because after I have paid for everything I dont have much left over . Well with you help I can pay to have these song put on the radio . Once they are on the radio I know I'm on my way. The cost is 5,000 for the song to play every 45 minutes. for 3 months. And to maintain my vocal I will need lesson every month for 60.00 a month. If I make it to the radio I will in turn grant 5 people on this site a donation. See I will make your 5 donation become a bigger donation. I can sing Jazz, Hip Hop but my love is R and B check out my site before you donate at www.Jarwalker.com or go to www.tunecore.com/jarwalker

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