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worried about what the docs said... but i lost my insurance...

Posted by countryrae2001 on 2012-05-15 12:58:55

I recently lost all of my insurance due to being dropped as a dependent, which my dad is in the USMC. Before losing my insurance, I was being seen for pains in my stomach which have been progressively worsening over time. Right before my insurance was dropped, I had a visit to the ER and they found a hardening inside my intestines which looked like Inflammatory Bowel Disease, which leads to colon cancer. I have no money for insurance or treatment... any help would be greatly appreciated

Hopping for a better situation

Posted by Gr8tful4lyfe on 2012-05-09 10:58:43

 I am a 32 yr old mother of 3 who has never been in a situation of desperation such as the one I am about to present to you.  Early last year I worked at a job which paid more than enough money to take care of me and my children.  The problem was that the hours were from 3p-3a, which gave me no time to spend with my kids.  My oldest which is of school age only seen me on tue & Wed, which were my only days off, the rest of her time was spent with my sitter.  My job also had me work holidays and sad to say their birthdays as well.  Soon my daughters grades began to drop and my young children no longer wanted to spend time with me.  They cried for the babysitter and soon started calling me by my first name.  I went to my job and pleaded with them for a schedule change, they declined stating that my personal life wasnt their problem and they have 1000's of people who would love to take my place.  So I was forced to make a decision between money and my kids, I chose my kids.  I quit my job after saving enough money to pay the bills for a couple of months while I search for a job with earlier hours.  I felt this shouldn't be a problem due my previous work experience and my associates degree.  The 3 months I had given my self passed by very quickly without me finding new employment.  Because tax time was approaching and my lease was almost up I decided to use my tax money to find a much cheaper home (unfortunately in a much less appealing neighborhood) and use the rest of the money to pay for rent and utilities for another 3 months.  I have no family who can help me out and my kids father is nowhere around.  I have yet to find employment despite the many interviews and applications I have done.  A truck recently cracked the windshield on my car, my tires are bald, and the engine is going bad.  I cannot afford to fix these things and am now desperate to find a job before I lose my transportation. I would love for a great job lead or even an agency which can help me. A small donation would also help and if you send me your email address, as soon as I get on my feet I am willing to pay it back. For those who read this if u know of some job leads please forward it to me, thank you!!

Please help me LIVE a little bit longer.

Posted by SweetLittleDoll on 2012-04-18 01:58:02

Thank You so very much for your help. Heres my story. I am in my early 30s. I am a mother of two loving kids ages 4 and 9. My husband moved out a year ago after a bout of depression, stating "I love you thats why I cant stand to stay here n watch you die like this!" And it is true anyone who has watched a loved one waste away before thier eyes can tell you it eats your soul. In a way I cant blame him. I have hopes we will someday get our family back together. Untill then I am in this alone, and now find my self here asking you for help.
I have several cronic illnesses. Including scoliosis:Scoliosis is a sideways curvature of the spine that occurs most often during the growth spurt just before puberty. While scoliosis can be caused by conditions such as cerebral palsy and muscular dystrophy, the cause of most scoliosis is unknown. My scoliosis curve got worse, the spine rotated and twisted, in addition to curving side to side. This caused the ribs on one side of the body to stick out farther than on the other side. Severe scoliosis can caused back pain and difficulty breathing. In my case In severe scoliosis, the rib cage may press against the lungs and heart, making it more difficult to breathe and harder for the heart to pump.I also experience harsh neurological affects of Muscle weakness, Numbness and Abnormal reflexes. To save my life I had to have surgery.
Surgery involves correcting the curve (although not all the way) and fusing the bones in the curve together. The surgeon lays bone grafts across the exposed surface of each vertebra. These grafts will regenerate, grow into the bone, and fuse the vertebrae together. The bones are held in place with one or two metal rods held down with hooks and screws, helping to support the fusion of the vertebrae.I went through all this at age 13. But now with the onset of sevral more cronic illness complication from the surgery that once saved my life now slowly kill me.
Years later I began getting sicker and sicker by the time I was 20 my spine was degenerating causing horrible pain, I had to have my appendix removed, then gallblader went bad. We never dreamed these all had a common factor. Doctors just shook their head proclaiming :you are just so young for your body to be failing like this". Eventually it was discovered I have Lupus and severe arthritus. Lupus is an autoimmune disease, meaning that the body' s immune system mistakenly attacks healthy organs and tissue. Lupus can affect any part of the body, causing inflammation and damage in joints, skin, kidneys, heart, lungs, blood vessels, or the brain. More than 90% of people with lupus have skin rashes, often triggered by exposure to the sun, and about half have kidney and lung problems. Because lupus affects the joints, it is considered a rheumatic (arthritis) disease.
Upon this discovery things began to make sense. So doctors now knowing why began a body wide check up to see what all has been affected. One test was A bone mineral density (BMD) test measures how much calcium and other types of minerals are present in a section of your bone. Your health care provider uses this test, along with other risk factors, to predict your risk of bone fractures in the future and detect osteoporosis. Bone fracture risk is highest in people with osteoporosis. They found I indeed had osteoporosis at the age of 22. SO now My bones are weaking causing damage areas all over my body, but the most serious being in my spine. Now comes the arthritis/lupus, they see these damaged areas and my own imune system attacks. Eating at the damaged areas creating even more damage, which increases the area the lupus attacks. It is a vicious circle. I have now been treated with medication over 10 yrs. But they can only slow the illness there is no cure, and dure to my scoliosis and the metal rods in my back surgical treatment options are very limited.
The damage is so severe I was decared legally disabled by the age of 23. My only income is SSI. I have to support my children and I on 658.00 a month. Thank God the court issued my ex to pay my rent in lue of child support. I am asking for help to cover upcoming medical bills. In the last 14 months I have had 5 seperate kidney surgery. My right kidney is damaged and I will soon be having a 6th surgery. This one to remove damaged section of the tube that leads from the kidney to bladder. then they will reattach at a higher section of bladder. I will aslo be having several Jaw surgeries. Due to exposure to radiation, osteoperosis a excessive vomiting of stomache acid my teeth are breaking and falling out. The doctor needs to repair what they can and put in inplants for what they cant. This will slow the degineration of my jaw. Without this treatment my jaw is going to cave in. Currently I am only able to eat mushy foods. I have drastically lost weight and my body is stuggling to heal due to the stress, pain and infection. So I hunbly beg of you to help me 1.00 or 50.00 anything would help. These procedures will not only improve my quality of life but aslo help extend my time here on earth just a little ehile longer. I just want to be with my kids as long as I can.Whith each dollar you donate its like adding an hour to my life.....What would you give for a few more hours with the ones you love?

Please help me LIVE a little bit longer.

Posted by SweetLittleDoll on 2012-04-18 01:58:01

Thank You so very much for your help. Heres my story. I am in my early 30s. I am a mother of two loving kids ages 4 and 9. My husband moved out a year ago after a bout of depression, stating "I love you thats why I cant stand to stay here n watch you die like this!" And it is true anyone who has watched a loved one waste away before thier eyes can tell you it eats your soul. In a way I cant blame him. I have hopes we will someday get our family back together. Untill then I am in this alone, and now find my self here asking you for help.
I have several cronic illnesses. Including scoliosis:Scoliosis is a sideways curvature of the spine that occurs most often during the growth spurt just before puberty. While scoliosis can be caused by conditions such as cerebral palsy and muscular dystrophy, the cause of most scoliosis is unknown. My scoliosis curve got worse, the spine rotated and twisted, in addition to curving side to side. This caused the ribs on one side of the body to stick out farther than on the other side. Severe scoliosis can caused back pain and difficulty breathing. In my case In severe scoliosis, the rib cage may press against the lungs and heart, making it more difficult to breathe and harder for the heart to pump.I also experience harsh neurological affects of Muscle weakness, Numbness and Abnormal reflexes. To save my life I had to have surgery.
Surgery involves correcting the curve (although not all the way) and fusing the bones in the curve together. The surgeon lays bone grafts across the exposed surface of each vertebra. These grafts will regenerate, grow into the bone, and fuse the vertebrae together. The bones are held in place with one or two metal rods held down with hooks and screws, helping to support the fusion of the vertebrae.I went through all this at age 13. But now with the onset of sevral more cronic illness complication from the surgery that once saved my life now slowly kill me.
Years later I began getting sicker and sicker by the time I was 20 my spine was degenerating causing horrible pain, I had to have my appendix removed, then gallblader went bad. We never dreamed these all had a common factor. Doctors just shook their head proclaiming :you are just so young for your body to be failing like this". Eventually it was discovered I have Lupus and severe arthritus. Lupus is an autoimmune disease, meaning that the body' s immune system mistakenly attacks healthy organs and tissue. Lupus can affect any part of the body, causing inflammation and damage in joints, skin, kidneys, heart, lungs, blood vessels, or the brain. More than 90% of people with lupus have skin rashes, often triggered by exposure to the sun, and about half have kidney and lung problems. Because lupus affects the joints, it is considered a rheumatic (arthritis) disease.
Upon this discovery things began to make sense. So doctors now knowing why began a body wide check up to see what all has been affected. One test was A bone mineral density (BMD) test measures how much calcium and other types of minerals are present in a section of your bone. Your health care provider uses this test, along with other risk factors, to predict your risk of bone fractures in the future and detect osteoporosis. Bone fracture risk is highest in people with osteoporosis. They found I indeed had osteoporosis at the age of 22. SO now My bones are weaking causing damage areas all over my body, but the most serious being in my spine. Now comes the arthritis/lupus, they see these damaged areas and my own imune system attacks. Eating at the damaged areas creating even more damage, which increases the area the lupus attacks. It is a vicious circle. I have now been treated with medication over 10 yrs. But they can only slow the illness there is no cure, and dure to my scoliosis and the metal rods in my back surgical treatment options are very limited.
The damage is so severe I was decared legally disabled by the age of 23. My only income is SSI. I have to support my children and I on 658.00 a month. Thank God the court issued my ex to pay my rent in lue of child support. I am asking for help to cover upcoming medical bills. In the last 14 months I have had 5 seperate kidney surgery. My right kidney is damaged and I will soon be having a 6th surgery. This one to remove damaged section of the tube that leads from the kidney to bladder. then they will reattach at a higher section of bladder. I will aslo be having several Jaw surgeries. Due to exposure to radiation, osteoperosis a excessive vomiting of stomache acid my teeth are breaking and falling out. The doctor needs to repair what they can and put in inplants for what they cant. This will slow the degineration of my jaw. Without this treatment my jaw is going to cave in. Currently I am only able to eat mushy foods. I have drastically lost weight and my body is stuggling to heal due to the stress, pain and infection. So I hunbly beg of you to help me 1.00 or 50.00 anything would help. These procedures will not only improve my quality of life but aslo help extend my time here on earth just a little ehile longer. I just want to be with my kids as long as I can.Whith each dollar you donate its like adding an hour to my life.....What would you give for a few more hours with the ones you love?
HEY!

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Im a single mom, and Im not begging because Im a single mom, but I am begging because I am a mom, Im begging because I have the drive that it takes to succeed and if you counted on me for this business to be successful, I would be able to make that promise!
I already started a FB group page and am advising everyone for the past month, we are seeing results, its just that in order to profit from this, I need to become a Coach an official Beach body coach...otherwise all of my leads get sent to the company and the company has plenty of money, i dont! lol
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Its going to be great! Also, in exchange I am willing to invest myself in YOU if you can donate and wish to have free coaching,nutritional,dieting advice and support via text, email, phone FB whatever you wish. I am here for you as well!!!
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Family crisis

Posted by Chaware on 2012-02-22 11:58:31

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I NEED MONEY DESPERATELY PRETTY PLEASE
BECAUSE IT MOST CERTAINLY DOES NOT GROW ON TREES
MY SITUATION IS IN EVERY WHICH WAY IS SO VERY BAD
I AM MOST FRUSTRATED, DEPRESSED, LONELY AND SAD
MY HEALTH HAS RECENTLY TAKEN A TURN FOR THE WORSE
I NEED TO SEE MANY A SPECIALIST, DOCTOR AND NURSE
I STRUGGLE AND STRUGGLE EACH AND EVERY DAY
WITH SO MANY MANY BILLS TO PAY, PAY AND PAY
THE ECONOMY HAS HIT HARD, I MAY LOSE MY HOUSE
THEN I'D BE HOMELESS LIKE A LOST COUNTRY MOUSE
MY FUTURE IS TOTALLY BLEAK INDEED
WITH SO LITTLE FUNDS FOR BILLS OR FEED
IT IS NOT EASY FOR ME TO MAKE THIS REQUEST
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I HOPE YOU CAN DONATE TO HELP ME RIGHT NOW, I PRAY
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Please help me fulfil his dream......

Posted by kcee77 on 2012-02-18 16:58:09

My story is simple....i need cash to pay for a gift to how the man i love how much he means to me. Since my fiance and i got together in 2009 things have gone from bad to awful for him. He ha lost 3 jobs, lost 2 pets, had to sell his home in a divorce settlement and worst of all found his elder brother deceased on his sofa, he had passed away while my fince when i in hospital for 11 days and had been housesitting for him. His dream since then has been to go to anfield, the home of liverpool fc and sing 'you'll never walk alone' in the kop end with his brothers liverpool shirt as a final and fitting tribute and goodbye. They shared a love for liverpool fc since a very young age. My dilema is this....we get married in 13 weeks, we are having a small non-extravagent wedding which is all pid for. However i am struggling to get together the money for a gift for my fiance...this is where my beg leads. Please donate to help me give him this small meaningful gift xxxx

School fee assistance

Posted by Onewish16 on 2012-02-13 17:58:13

I am an aspiring information technology student in kenya but unfortunately cannot raise my fee which is 900 dollars a semester considering the jobs i am able to do. Which leads me to appeal to anyone out there reading this and has something small to spare i will highly appreciate. Any kind guesture will be recieved greatfully.

Need help making ends meet

Posted by hmarmstrong316 on 2012-02-11 21:58:17

I had surgery on January 16th and it went bad, I stopped breathing, I woke up 3 days later on ventilator and strapped to the bed. I was in the hospital for 3 weeks. I am home now, and my husband can't work because he has to take care of me. My Short Term Disability from work is only 50% of my base pay and I am not getting my monthly bonuses. Frankly, it's nowhere near enough to pay my bills. We have pushed out all of our bills and gotten extensions but those are about to run out.

I am asking for whatever God leads you to donate. This is the first time I have ever done anything like this, but I have 2 children at home and I do not want to lose everything. Once I get back to work, we'll be fine.

Please Help me with a Job lead

Posted by Looking4Hope on 2012-01-27 12:58:47

I have been looking for a job for over 6 months since my husband abandoned me and my 3 children. I need money to take care of them, and right now i am living off of 600$ a month trying to pay rent and all of my bills. I have an associates degree, and Im working towards my bachelors in Psychology. I have been out of the work force for a while and just need a break to prove that I am an asset to any team given the chance. Please...any leads and/or help that anyone can provide will be greatly appreciated. Thank You and God Bless You

Need rent

Posted by worklesswitch on 2012-01-25 13:58:42

I have taken pride in being able t pay my own bills and always saw to it my rent and all was paid first out of my paychecks.
On December 23 201l, I went to work as usual on ly to leave work that day without a job. Everyone fears this.
I am now 5 weeks behind in rent and am about to be thrown on the street. I go out every day seeking work but there just does not seem to be anything out there. I have applied for shipping and receiving jobs for which I have experience, but apparently 10 years is not enough experience.
I would much rather be working so any job leads would be greatly appreciated. I have to prioritize and keeping a roof over my head is also a high priority. I will even consider some type of work that I can do at home without a computer if necessary. I need to get the rent paid and get a steady income. There are jobs that I could do but could not apply for because I don't have the years of experience the employer wants. I realize that there are many people in need. I don't have family or friends to fall back on like most people. I have been pretty much a loner.
$525.00 would pay the back rent and help me keep my place. I tried to go to Family Independent Agency but they won't help until I can get a job. My past employer is fighting my unemployment and it is now in the protest stage. I had hoped to have it by now.

NEED A JOB

Posted by worklesswitch on 2012-01-25 13:58:17

I have worked for the most part since the age of fifteen. My first job I mopped floors in a small bake shop. One week I would mop the front, and the next week I would mop both the from and the back. I would make $1.00 the first week and $1.50 the next week. Back then that would go quite a ways. I have worked in food service but am looking and willing to learn new areas. I have bakery experience and stocking and receiving experience. I however am unable to drive a forklift. I am unable to drive as a result of almost dieing when I was six months old. Am looking for work in The Muskegon Michigan area, or something that I can do at home without any cold calling or having to have someone call you. Any leads would be greatly appreciated. Entry level positions where no or little experience is required would be a big help..

Devastating Accident almost done us in anything would help

Posted by Livingonfaith on 2012-01-24 04:58:45

In July 2007 my husband was a passenger in a co-workers car; the co-worker turned left in front of a pickup and the car was T-boned directly on his side. The co-workers car was an older model with no airbags; the doctor said that if he hadn’t put his arm & hand up to shield his face than it would have been fatal. The subsequent and enduring “care” he has received via workers compensation (WC), for the grave injuries he sustained, has been appalling at best. This is just my personal opinion, based solely on our experiences since the accident, but I have concluded that workers compensation (that was put in place to protect the workers), is nothing less than an unethical, disingenuous corrupt system. They end up sending you to a doctor of there choosing and these doctors (who have "gone over to the dark side")cater to the insurance companies by writing lengthy reports downplaying any injuries (goal of saving insurance company money with zero regard for the patients well being) in exchange for more patients sent to them and guaranteed, probably higher than usual, reimbursements. All too often it seems like WC caters to those who abuse the system and discriminate against those who really are in need. The “timely” medical care my husband has actually been able to procure through this government supported system is a travesty leaving him with irreparable spinal damage and a life of pain to look forward to. The malevolent truth is, had this system acted in a timely fashion, equivalent to the expedient care that ANYONE else not on WC would receive, then something could have been done to improve his quality of life. Unfortunately, as it stands, due to the guileful delay tactics used by WC, it is too late to do much of anything to repair the injuries causing him pain. Clearly supported medically necessary needs have either gone unapproved or purposely neglected for months all the while he continues to suffer with intractable pain. It is just beyond my comprehension as to how these people can feel no remorse for leaving another human being in such agony. Due to WC neglecting to approve certain items we have had to outlay a significant amount of our funds for medically necessary items\services to help him do tasks that he could previously do unassisted.
Today he suffers unrelenting pain as a result of permanent whiplash, 8 herniated discs, and unacknowledged(despite films clearly showing injuries) unaddressed broken tailbone, ribs and pelvis. Nerve damage from the spinal injury has resulted in numbness in his extremities, frequent weakening of his legs and embarrassing incontinence among numerous other concerns - had these been addressed in a timely manner (much like they would have been if not WC injury) his suffering could have been decreased significantly thereby improving his quality of life. The most serious injury he suffered was the hip break (acetabuler break) the worse break possible - it was broken in four places. As alluded to previously, an injury this severe should have been stabilized by surgery - allowing it to heal properly and not leave him suffering in chronic pain. WC puts such demands on providers to cut corners in order to save money that, in my husbands case, his doctor decided to do absolutely nothing but send him home instructing him to stay in a wheelchair 100 % of the time for several months. This doctor did not follow up with an exam or x-rays to make sure everything had healed properly. When my husband tried to explain to him the degree of pain he was still in the Dr said hmmm that shouldn’t be and then said “I can’t do anything else for you…”. This Dr. was so engrossed with saving WC some money that he disregarded his patients plea for help- how dispassionate and cold. The way this physician treated my husband goes against almost every part of the hippocratic oath which he swore to uphold upon graduation.
After being in pain for years, with no help from WC when it came to pinpointing its primary source, we paid out of pocket for a film that revealed his pelvis had been broken in the accident. This was never discovered previously by the orthopedist, again, due to cutting corners to save WC money they didn't take the necessary films to do a thorough job. We have a hearing with WC before a judge in March to request approval of a doctor who can address his broken tailbone - regardless of the fact that he can hardly sit without being in excruciating pain WC has denied him access to a doctor to treat it.
Immediately after the accident WC paid for home care for my husband and I was his caretaker when they were not here. Once they stopped providing this in home care I had to take over caring for him in addition to taking care of our then one year old daughter. I soon realized that I could not work and take care of both of them so I had to leave my job to stay home. As a result of my loss of income we have used up every penny of savings and 401 K, that we worked so hard to earn. We had to purchase anything medically necessary for Randall that WC was denying or losing track of. In addition to all this bad news, he has had to go out on disability (10/10) due to the deterioration of his condition and as a result our income has been cut substantially. This leaves us struggling to survive with no savings and significant decrease in income. I am the primary caregiver of both my husband and 5 year old daughter and all I able to contribute financially is what I can find the time to sell on eBay and needless to say we are coming up short.
All of our credit cards have been turned over to collections and our house note is in default and I am terrified. My heart breaks for my only child my daughter who is just 5 years old - I want her to remember more than this devastating situation about her dad and what undeserved hard times we are facing. You can ask anyone who knows my husband and they will all say the same that he is one of the kindest, caring, and conscientious people they know. I know that he doesn’t deserve the heartache he is having to endure. He has worked hard his entire life, since the age of 15, up until he could no longer because of his injuries; and I know that prior to this accident he had saved and saved and was looking so forward to retiring and having fun times as a family. He hasn’t lost sight of those dreams but the money he had saved to fund them is all gone. Despite everything somehow he still maintains a positive outlook on life which makes him a much stronger person than I.
We all have faith that God will see us through this one way or the other but some days it is just so hard to maintain a positive outlook. We would be truly grateful for any help - do only as your heart leads you to do!
God Bless

unbreak my heart....

Posted by brokenhearted on 2012-01-20 17:58:04

I've decided to try and get help through donations http://www.giveforward.com/unbreakmyheart and funding http://unbreakmyheart2011.blogspot.com/from outside sources since every doctor I've seen in 2 years agree that I need the leads to my ICD (defibrillator) replaced; but shuffle me back to the original doctor and wash their hands of me.

I'm raising funds for ICD replacement surgery, to go see a HOCM specialist (Dr. Craig Asher) at Cleveland Clinic in S. Florida and to have advanced testing through Vanderbilt Autonomic Center in Tennessee.

I don't want to admit I need help; I've always been a strong, independent person who took care of everything and everyone. In August 2009, my whole world changed. After my procedure, I applied for disability and was turned down twice and had to hire an attorney. I went from being "super" mom, wife & friend and care taker of an Autistic son to being the one who had to be taken care of.

So how did I get to the point I have to ask others for help? Shortly before Father's Day 2009, I fell and broke my foot. When it didn't heal, I went to my primary with a broken foot and came out with a broken heart. After the shock wore off from the doctor telling me that I was going to die if I didn't have valve surgery; I started asking questions.

I didn't quite believe him and thought he was over reacting when he told me I was going to die because I walked and ran 3-5 times weekly and even did strenuous yard work. I felt fine and have 4 children aged 9-26 and kept up with them and stayed very active in things they did; but I was a ticking time bomb just waiting for the right time for my heart to stop.

He sent me to several specialists who said I had nothing really wrong, just some mild valve problems associated with aging; which was a huge relief. Everything seemed normal except my EKG's; they showed I had a huge amount of PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) roughly 50,000 “extra” heartbeats daily.

My heart didn't really beat fully; it only quivered like a bowl of jello day in day out. The problem with it beating like this is, the heart becomes very ineffective at pumping and your cardiac output drops and heart muscle damage can occur.

The cardiologist and electrophysiologist I saw did extensive testing and recommended more testing in the hospital. I went in for a sleep study, Tilt table test and EP Study with Ablation. The sleep study revealed I had moderately severe sleep apnea and my oxygen goes from 99% down to 73% at night making it very dangerous for me when I sleep.

The tilt table test was the first inkling that something dangerous was going on inside. I fainted and had no palpable pulse; which is a very rare thing to happen. I was diagnosed with Dysautonomia - Neurocardiogenic Syncope and Orthostatic Intolerance.
I then had an ablation to burn the extra pathways in my heart and get rid of the pvc's I was living with daily. I was told this would be a relatively easy process and given a 95% success rate to get rid of the extra beats completely but it never crossed my mind that anything would happen.

What preliminary tests failed to show, is the pattern and origin of my arrhythmias were in a very dangerous spot to ablate - the RV Apex – in the bottom thin underside of the heart.

During the EP Study, I went into cardiac arrest and my heart stopped completely with no rhythm they could shock (Asystole), some how it started again for a few minutes but then stopped again. They were able to shock me back to normal sinus rhythm and luckily, the third time it stopped; it restarted on it's own so I didn't have to be shocked again.

I was diagnosed with Polymorphic Ventricular Tachycardia; a very dangerous, life threatening arrhythmia. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days trying to find a cause and to be prepped for an ICD (implantable cardiac defibrillator).

It took a cardiac catherization to finally find the problem and to show I had HOCM (obstructive Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy) and internal high pressures in my valves.

My regular EP had to go out of town after the first procedure, so his partner had to do the implant; he wasn't as skilled as my regular dr and botched the lead implants.

When they checked the leads the next day before releasing me, they found a problem with the lead placement but the dr said it was "ok" and sent me home. Since then, I've had nothing but problems with the unit and been told by several other EP's I need to have the leads replaced and the ICD could be causing part of my problems.

Doctors think my other problems are related to HOCM (obstructive hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) and Autonomic nervous system failure and when I faint, my heart stops briefly causing damage each time this happens.

After the procedure, my body started failing from the damage it sustained the 4 times my heart stopped. My original cardiologist told me I would be in a wheel chair and totally dependent on others for everything by the time I'm 50; which is daunting because in March I'll be 45 and I can't deny the facts - my body is failing.

I was put on 10,000g sodium daily, water/fluid loading, Midodrine (insurance won't cover it $312 - 30 day supply), Propanolol, Pantoprazole, pain meds, suppression hose and binders as well as having to stay supine the majority of the day - which caused my heart failure to worsen and my EF (ejection fraction) to go down.

Nothing the doctor's have tried has helped, I still faint and my heart stops on a daily basis and I never know from one day to the next if something is going to trigger fluid build up and I have an acute attack.

In June 2011 I fainted falling into the side of my tiled tub, lacerating the side of my head in the process, severely sprained my neck and suffered a concussion. After that episode, I became a bit more cautious with every move I make because the dr found declining neurological functioning and mild brain damage; he said any more falls could lead to permanent major brain damage.

With so many previous medical bills and co-pays, I can't afford the 20% co-insurance to have my ICD replaced and Mayo Clinic wants a $5,000 deposit up front even with insurance. My ICD alone is $125,000, leads another $30,000 and then there's the doctor and hospital fees; which I won't know the cost until the procedure is done.

Each heart rhythm specialist and cardiologist I see tell me there is nothing more they can do after going over my history and treatments; I have a long hard fight to go and I have to just be thankful each day I'm alive. Some days I'm really glad I made it through, other days when the problems and pain take over; I wish the dr's had let me die.

I developed PTSD after the procedure, panic disorder and extreme agoraphobia. I went into such a deep depression over my health issues, I was afraid I would never see the lighter side of things again. I finally went to see a psychologist who prescribed Lamictal and diagnosed me with Bi-Polar disorder which has helped greatly but I still struggle on a daily basis.

One day we were just the “normal” every day family and the toughest thing we had to deal with is a child with Autism. Then; our whole lives changed in an instant we were dealing with mounting medical bills, expensive prescriptions, tests, appointments, loss of income and dealing with the possibility of death on a daily basis.

You just never know what the day may bring, so keep those you love close to you and never take one second for granted.
From the bottom of my heart thank you - even if it's support to say hey; I'm here if you need to talk or I know how you're feeling.

unbreak my heart....

Posted by brokenhearted on 2012-01-20 16:58:37

I've decided to try and get help through donations http://www.giveforward.com/unbreakmyheart and funding http://unbreakmyheart2011.blogspot.com/from outside sources since every doctor I've seen in 2 years agree that I need the leads to my ICD (defibrillator) replaced; but shuffle me back to the original doctor and wash their hands of me.

I'm raising funds for ICD replacement surgery, to go see a HOCM specialist (Dr. Craig Asher) at Cleveland Clinic in S. Florida and to have advanced testing through Vanderbilt Autonomic Center in Tennessee.

I don't want to admit I need help; I've always been a strong, independent person who took care of everything and everyone. In August 2009, my whole world changed. After my procedure, I applied for disability and was turned down twice and had to hire an attorney. I went from being "super" mom, wife & friend and care taker of an Autistic son to being the one who had to be taken care of.

So how did I get to the point I have to ask others for help? Shortly before Father's Day 2009, I fell and broke my foot. When it didn't heal, I went to my primary with a broken foot and came out with a broken heart. After the shock wore off from the doctor telling me that I was going to die if I didn't have valve surgery; I started asking questions.

I didn't quite believe him and thought he was over reacting when he told me I was going to die because I walked and ran 3-5 times weekly and even did strenuous yard work. I felt fine and have 4 children aged 9-26 and kept up with them and stayed very active in things they did; but I was a ticking time bomb just waiting for the right time for my heart to stop.

He sent me to several specialists who said I had nothing really wrong, just some mild valve problems associated with aging; which was a huge relief. Everything seemed normal except my EKG's; they showed I had a huge amount of PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) roughly 50,000 “extra” heartbeats daily.

My heart didn't really beat fully; it only quivered like a bowl of jello day in day out. The problem with it beating like this is, the heart becomes very ineffective at pumping and your cardiac output drops and heart muscle damage can occur.

The cardiologist and electrophysiologist I saw did extensive testing and recommended more testing in the hospital. I went in for a sleep study, Tilt table test and EP Study with Ablation. The sleep study revealed I had moderately severe sleep apnea and my oxygen goes from 99% down to 73% at night making it very dangerous for me when I sleep.

The tilt table test was the first inkling that something dangerous was going on inside. I fainted and had no palpable pulse; which is a very rare thing to happen. I was diagnosed with Dysautonomia - Neurocardiogenic Syncope and Orthostatic Intolerance.
I then had an ablation to burn the extra pathways in my heart and get rid of the pvc's I was living with daily. I was told this would be a relatively easy process and given a 95% success rate to get rid of the extra beats completely but it never crossed my mind that anything would happen.

What preliminary tests failed to show, is the pattern and origin of my arrhythmias were in a very dangerous spot to ablate - the RV Apex – in the bottom thin underside of the heart.

During the EP Study, I went into cardiac arrest and my heart stopped completely with no rhythm they could shock (Asystole), some how it started again for a few minutes but then stopped again. They were able to shock me back to normal sinus rhythm and luckily, the third time it stopped; it restarted on it's own so I didn't have to be shocked again.

I was diagnosed with Polymorphic Ventricular Tachycardia; a very dangerous, life threatening arrhythmia. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days trying to find a cause and to be prepped for an ICD (implantable cardiac defibrillator).

It took a cardiac catherization to finally find the problem and to show I had HOCM (obstructive Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy) and internal high pressures in my valves.

My regular EP had to go out of town after the first procedure, so his partner had to do the implant; he wasn't as skilled as my regular dr and botched the lead implants.

When they checked the leads the next day before releasing me, they found a problem with the lead placement but the dr said it was "ok" and sent me home. Since then, I've had nothing but problems with the unit and been told by several other EP's I need to have the leads replaced and the ICD could be causing part of my problems.

Doctors think my other problems are related to HOCM (obstructive hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) and Autonomic nervous system failure and when I faint, my heart stops briefly causing damage each time this happens.

After the procedure, my body started failing from the damage it sustained the 4 times my heart stopped. My original cardiologist told me I would be in a wheel chair and totally dependent on others for everything by the time I'm 50; which is daunting because in March I'll be 45 and I can't deny the facts - my body is failing.

I was put on 10,000g sodium daily, water/fluid loading, Midodrine (insurance won't cover it $312 - 30 day supply), Propanolol, Pantoprazole, pain meds, suppression hose and binders as well as having to stay supine the majority of the day - which caused my heart failure to worsen and my EF (ejection fraction) to go down.

Nothing the doctor's have tried has helped, I still faint and my heart stops on a daily basis and I never know from one day to the next if something is going to trigger fluid build up and I have an acute attack.

In June 2011 I fainted falling into the side of my tiled tub, lacerating the side of my head in the process, severely sprained my neck and suffered a concussion. After that episode, I became a bit more cautious with every move I make because the dr found declining neurological functioning and mild brain damage; he said any more falls could lead to permanent major brain damage.

With so many previous medical bills and co-pays, I can't afford the 20% co-insurance to have my ICD replaced and Mayo Clinic wants a $5,000 deposit up front even with insurance. My ICD alone is $125,000, leads another $30,000 and then there's the doctor and hospital fees; which I won't know the cost until the procedure is done.

Each heart rhythm specialist and cardiologist I see tell me there is nothing more they can do after going over my history and treatments; I have a long hard fight to go and I have to just be thankful each day I'm alive. Some days I'm really glad I made it through, other days when the problems and pain take over; I wish the dr's had let me die.

I developed PTSD after the procedure, panic disorder and extreme agoraphobia. I went into such a deep depression over my health issues, I was afraid I would never see the lighter side of things again. I finally went to see a psychologist who prescribed Lamictal and diagnosed me with Bi-Polar disorder which has helped greatly but I still struggle on a daily basis.

One day we were just the “normal” every day family and the toughest thing we had to deal with is a child with Autism. Then; our whole lives changed in an instant we were dealing with mounting medical bills, expensive prescriptions, tests, appointments, loss of income and dealing with the possibility of death on a daily basis.

You just never know what the day may bring, so keep those you love close to you and never take one second for granted.

From the bottom of my heart thank you - even if it's support to say hey; I'm here if you need to talk or I know how you're feeling.

Short Term and Long Term Help.

Posted by justneedtheboots on 2011-12-09 17:58:03

Hello all ladies and gentlemen. I am in need of whatever kind of help I can get. I am a young full-time college student, and I'm trying to pull myself up by my own bootstraps so to speak. I grew up in a crowded house with my mom, grandma, great-grandma, uncle, and little sister. I didn't grow up with much money, but I always had what I needed. As I got older my family's financial worsen as the adults started dying off. All of the adults contributed to this pot, and when we lost an adult we lost contributions that were detrimental to our livelihood. Meanwhile I was a stellar student and had aspirations outside of my living conditions. This sometimes didn't float well with my family, and it showed in their actions often. I realize now, that they probably didn't want me to discover how disappointing it is when you hit and miss. I feel like that happened to them often.
I realize this is a long story, but maybe this background information can help you understand why I am asking for what I am asking. I think I am from the first (or one of the first) generations where college was thrown down everyone's throats. We're the classic Barney, Arthur, and Sesame Street kids. I don't know if the Baby Boomers were as forced as we are. After all, this is suppose to lead to upward mobility. I was fed that if I did not take this route, then I would be destined to poverty and an uncertain future. I realize now this future is even more uncertain than what I was expecting it to be. I've learned that a college degree doesn't guarantee certainty, and that you actually need quite a bit of help just to get through.
I am and have been own my own since I started college 3 years ago. Forget not having the extra money when I need at times. I don't have a strong support system, and my house at home is almost unlivable now. I do not have my license or a car because no one practiced driving with me, and I can't afford to pay for driving school, the car, and the insurance to get me started. I got tired of having to leave campus and figuring out where I was going next and how I was going to get there, so I found a student friendly apartment. It's nice to not have to move because I usually don't have help, but I am struggling to keep it. I am desperately seeking work in whatever kind of way I can have it. I get full financial aid, but it's hard to stretch 2 refund checks over an entire year.
I'm finally getting to the point. I currently live and study in Greensboro, NC. I am a dean's list engineering student. I learn most things quickly, and I am not afraid of real work. I need a full-time job or a part-time one that will give me 20 hours + a week. I would prefer 2nd or 3rd shift, but if I have to take a break from school to get myself together I will. I will take any resources that can give me some good leads on scholarships, internships, fellowships, and co-ops. Lastly I will take any financial help I can get while I'm waiting on the others. I feel like all of these things will help me get to a more manageable point in my life. Any help will be appreciated. Thank you in advance.

Desperately in Need

Posted by HopeUcanHelp231 on 2011-10-17 22:58:18

I hope you could find it in your hearts to help me. I have no family alive that can help me. I'm a 36 year old man who's been having a hard few years which leads me here.

In the past few years I have lost my home, my life savings (which wasn't much) I lost my Father in 09. I took care of my Grandmother who had terminal cancer , because she didn't nor did I want to put her in a home. I had just found a job after being laid off for almost 9 mos, two weeks later I found out she had cancer I worked and took care of her, my younger brother who is 21 came to help me after she was bed ridden, She passed away mid may. Since then the hours at my job have been cut, and seems I will be getting laid off within the next few weeks. I have a 1998 Blazer which is falling apart, and which I commute 70 miles a day to and from work. I'm behind on my bills and I'm scared of losing the rental we are in. A lot of my income goes to fuel cost while I still try to find a job closer it looks pretty bleak. I have no medical insurance and have over 4,000 in medical bills. We've been mowing lawns for my landlord to help out a little with the rent, but my options have become exhausted.My brother is looking for work as well, but we are limited due to we only have one car. Me and my brother could really use any help you may be able to give. I never thought I'd be in this position and can only say that when I am in a better position someday I will repay it. ANY HELP at all would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you,

Desperately, in need.

Antiquity Calais Ascending Olympus

Posted by JimHenryAuthor on 2011-10-09 08:58:33

This is the second book in the Universal Life Force Series. The first book is titled Antiquity Calais Standing at Armageddon. Both are available through Amazon.com. I do not presently have any copies of this book on hand, so any orders would have to go through Amazon.

I have a special needs child in my care, and I am struggling to make ends meet, as I lost my job a month and a half ago. We are trying to stay out of a shelter, because he would likely spiral out of control in that environment. I have some promising leads for employment, but the likelihood is that I will run out of resources before any of them come to fruition. We are presently living in a motel, and landlords are understandably hesitant to rent to a tenant with shaky employment.

If you would like to read this book, it could help keep us out of a shelter. Here's the link:

http://www.amazon.com/Antiquity-Calais-Ascending-Olympus-Henry/dp/1453706453

Thanks in advance!

Help Keep Us out of a Shelter

Posted by JimHenryAuthor on 2011-10-09 08:58:18

A month and a half ago, I lost my job. The amount I am collecting on unemployment is about $100 a week less than my housing costs to stay in a motel. I am trying to find permanent housing that would be more affordable, but landlords are justifiably hesitant to rent to a tenant without solid employment. I have some promising leads for work, but they are unlikely to happen before I run out of resources. My son has Asperger's Syndrome, and he would likely spiral out of control if we end up in a shelter. Any help you can provide would be greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance.
Hi. I cant believe I;m begging online. I expect no response to this, but view it as a place to vent. Good things just haven't happened to me for a long time. Here I go anyway... I am writing because I am in desperate need for help. I am a 35 year old single dad with a 9 year old daughter. Let me begin by explaining my situation. My former employer, in the building supply industry, went out of business a few years ago. The economy has not rebounded making building industry jobs scarce. I have since then put myself through schooling to become an emergency medical technician as I stand a chance at getting hired by my local fire department if the economy improves. I am aiming for a career change to get back into the work force. I had to change careers for economic as well as health reasons. Shortly after my company went out of business, I was diagnosed with Crohn’s disease, a debilitating disease affecting the digestive tract. The disease caused me to lose 75 lbs (30% of my body mass) in 8 months. I have been proactive in drastically changing my diet and getting the proper medical care and medicine (Thank God for Medicaid).
Even with medical care, I am still sick every day but I am making the disease more manageable. I applied for disability and received a response back that my condition is indeed disabling, preventing me from working, but would resolve in a year. Hopefully it does, but it is classified as an incurable disease that leads to repeated surgeries in 75% of the patients diagnosed with the disease. On the flip side of that statistic is a growing hope that alternative therapies may work… but take time to custom tailor to the individual. They are also expensive and not covered by Medicaid or private sector insurance. I have spoken to a disability attorney who is ready to represent me if necessary. I am only seeking disability as my “Plan B” if all else fails. I want to become a productive member of society again. I do have a “Plan A”, but I have a LOT of obstacles ahead of me.
This has all had a devastating effect on my finances. Last summer my gas was turned off the day after my daughter’s heart surgery. The gas was turned back on based on medical necessity. As of this week, my gas is turned off again and LIHEAP cannot assist me. I can’t seem to ever have the “Timing” right to get assistance. My electric is also on the verge of being shut off. My home is in foreclosure but the bank has agreed to work with me if I can find employment fast. I have just received a job offer that I graciously accepted. I start in a week. Just before receiving the job offer, while biking with my daughter, I had a mini stroke which caused me to go unconscious while riding. I crashed, broke my ribs, clavicle, hurt my spine, bruised my brain and lung, received several stitches, etc.. I pray that my health stabilizes to allow me to work. My daughter lives with me in this house. I would like to save it from foreclosure mainly for her sake. It’s where she has grown up. It’s a few blocks from her school where I want to keep her. My adopted 9 year old daughter, who I love a lot, has a very difficult speech impediment and learning disability. She already has special education and speech therapy in place with professionals that have worked with her for many years and know her needs. It would be very difficult to have to move away and have to make her start over in another school. I love my daughter a lot and will do anything to provide for her a life that she deserves… with my own limited resources. I say all that to illustrate “in short” that I need help. I have asked relatives and friends for help throughout the year and they are “Tapped”. My church is also in the same situation. I have sold most of my possessions to afford my phone bill, auto insurance, and auto fuel. My daughter and I currently have Medicaid and SNAP food assistance.
My goals are to:
1) I need to rebuild my professional wardrobe. I have lost a lot of weight and consequently have been working on buying dress clothes for my new job. I am to wear solid black suits. I am a 44L with a 38” Waist and 34” Inseam. Size 14 Black oxford shoes. I will graciously accept presentable used items. I can buy 3 inexpensive nice black suits for $80 each. $50 for shoes.
2) I have to keep going to my doctors and maintain and improve my health. I have just been referred off for advanced level care. The travel expenses are going to be very high. I will have to stay overnight in a hotel somehow for some procedures.
3) I will have to afford to drive to work. I will have to keep myself insured and afford the initial cash outset for my first 2-3 weeks of work. I am traveling far to work and it will cost me about $125 a week in fuel. $60/ month in insurance.
4) I have to get my gas turned back on. I am looking at having to come up with an impossible $5000 to get it turned back on.
5) I just bought and installed an used electric water heater and dryer. I have no way as of yet to heat my house this winter.
6) I have to catch up on my $1500 electric bill. Hopefully I can do so or I will have to abandon my house and give up hope. I may have to move to a different state with different utility companies.
7) If I can accomplish the above goals in a short amount of time, I stand a very strong chance at getting my mortgage modified and staying in my home. I can then only have to worry about the basics of life in addition to my health and my daughter’s heart and special needs.
I am facing some tough challenges. I cannot do it on my own. I have nowhere to turn. I would appreciate any assistance or advice on where to go for assistance.
Thank you for taking the time to read this letter. I appreciate your help.

Teacher Laid off and American Dream now Nightmare

Posted by broketeacher on 2011-08-25 20:58:23

Hello,

I felt the calling to go into teaching so I went back to school. I found a position teaching 4th grade while I finished my last year in school. I got laid off b/c I wasn't fully certified and I wasn't tenured. Luckily, I had unemployment benefits while I finished my program or at least enough to get my certification. But more teachers were getting laid off in the meantime and now it nearly impossible to get a position in the town I live in. I can't even substitute because there are too many teachers already on the waiting list.
So now I don't have unemployment anymore and I'm taking babysitting jobs that gives me about 50 bucks per week. My student loans are due and my mortgage has not been paid in months.I don't want to go on welfare, I want to work but school has started and the odds are stacked against me. I really need help, a job and some hope for my future.
I will gladly take donations and jobs leads in the Atlanta area. No I wasn't teaching in APS, not a part of that scandal.

stuck in a moment I can't get out of

Posted by carlessrealtor on 2011-08-11 17:58:09

I'm a brand new realtor who just finished university. While struggling to pay off student loans, brokerage fees and marketing costs with odd jobs while working in real estate, everything hit rock bottom when my car stopped working. It's an older car so the repairs would cost more than the car itself. Now I'm just starting to get my business off the ground and am beginning to see some action, however, because I don't have a car I can't even follow up on those leads. To make matters worse, the bills are starting to pile up and I can't even get to my jobs (which are at night) or interviews because I don't have transportation. Please, please help me in any way you can, it would greatly be appreciated!

DONATIONS To Help Save Our Home & The American Dream

Posted by rlseac on 2011-08-11 12:58:53

Hello everyone! My husband and I have never done this and this is something we really don't want to do but we have ran out of options so this is why we are turning to you beautiful people.

My husband and I were able to buy our dream home 5 years ago after working so hard for 8 years to get where we are today. I lost my job of 6 years last July (2010) making decent money; money good enough to land us our dream home. Ever since losing my job, we are living off my husbands income which isn't much at all, certainly not enough to keep paying our overly high mortgage payment and underwater house. We have been fighting to save our home and the job market isn't helping much with hiring the unemployed people out there. I have been applying endlessly to jobs with no luck so far. It's getting to the point that we both have lost all hope. There are months, weeks and even days we wonder if we can even eat or feed our family pets. We are so stressed out that we don't even recognize one another sometimes anymore as we are usually happy, outgoing and full of life type of people.

We don't want to say this is begging and I don't want to think of it as that but simply asking for honest help. We aren't picky and don't have a figure in mind as we are grateful for what you can help donate to us with.

God Bless you all and Thank you in advance for the donations!

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Ready to work asap

Posted by LNJ501 on 2011-07-26 11:58:52

I am really in need of a job, Im 22 years old and have been independent for sometime, i lost my FT job in May after being there for 3 yrs. I am really not used to not being stable, I have bills, rent due and no kind of income right now. I'm scared. I've been applying to so many jobs a day and with little response. My email is muddyplanet@aim.com for those who may have any job leads. Thanx

Wanting to Start A Home Group Daycare

Posted by nolka on 2011-07-13 13:58:41

My friend and I are both newly separated from our husbands. We had to leave everything we had behind, take our children and start over. We are both well-educated, motivated, self-starters... but are finding out how incredibly difficult it is to leave a marriage. We have come up with a business plan to help ourselves and our children. We will be opening a registered home daycare/preschool. (We are both former school teachers) The problem is that as of now we are sleeping on couches just trying to get our resources together to get back on our feet. We are hoping for either donations toward our cause... any leads on landlords who might offer us a lease in good faith... or programs to help single mothers with housing.