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Help me protect these children from future abuse!

Posted by justiceforamy on 2012-05-10 18:58:50

At the mother's written request, I am sheltering my daughter Amy, who has been brutalized, tortured and sexually abused in horrific ways for years by the psychotic child molester and fledgling killer, Dustin Rowe. You will read in this blog the words spoken by Dustin, who cuts the heads off of living animals because he loves death. He dreams about it, he draws about killing and when a fresh animal victim succumbs to his knife, he thinks it’s “cool to see the bodies wiggle around”. I am in fear for her life- we have no money and no way to keep a roof over our heads, let alone mount a legal defense. Please help us-any donation, however small is greatly appreciated!

http://justiceforamy.wordpress.com/about/
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rent money

Posted by jnelson1990 on 2012-05-08 09:58:45

i need rent money asap. i lost my job, child support is draining me dry, my bills are killing me. just need a little help. also have two children livin with me.

Lost hope new cancer health collapsing

Posted by Hoodoos on 2012-05-06 10:58:37

Former executive injured years ago, totally disabled trying to live on SSI. I was recently diagnosed with cancer. Gas prices killing me faster than health. Living in car. Need $1,000 for phone, car payment insurance, and food. Totally of $5,000 getsfor me hometo and assured future. Thanks for considering.

Homeless soon. Desperate single mother.

Posted by singlemom84 on 2012-05-04 13:58:13

I'm a 27 year old mother of two dealing with bipolar disorder and anxiety has kept me from working for years. My man was recently incarcerated, leaving me alone to raise our daughter with no income. Rent was due four days ago, the light bill soon. My son has been stuck in Australia for the last 3 years due to a passport issue and it's killing me that I can't afford to bring him home. I've been looking for help everywhere only to be turned down for lack of funding in my rural area. I found this site while searching for ways to make money online. If this is legit, please help us.

Help please

Posted by Mulz01 on 2012-05-03 18:58:15

Hello our there for anyone really reading this. I am a married 22 year old with a two year old. I could really use some help do to everything. I'm in and out of doctors office constistly do to my thyroid being so large and slowly killing me. Do to all of my do to all of my doctors visits has put us really behind on bills. Both me and my husband work over 40 hrs a week but it doesn't seem to be enough. No matter what we do we cant get caught up and on the verge of losing our house and car due to a title loan we got thinking it would help but it only helped for a min. Please anything would help us right now. My email is jrm.acm08@gmail.com for any farther info. Please and thank you

College kids with no insurance!

Posted by lnmodelski88 on 2012-05-01 22:58:26

My husband and I are in a bit of a bind. He has bad back troubles. We went to an urgent care and they said he probably has a slipped disk. No one can tell us for sure what is wrong unless he can get an MRI. We are both still in college and have no health insurance. He had to quit his job because it was killing his back. I currently have a part time job but of course that can't begin to cover all of our expenses. Any money donated will first go toward rent, if we get enough to cover that then rest will go toward saving up for his MRI. I promise that we are super cool people and any money donated will go to good use.

very sick need help now!

Posted by rebelwolf31 on 2012-04-23 20:58:27

My name is Gary Griffin , im a 32
year old man that used to be a very hard worker in the job force, in
2010 I became very ill and had to stop working , i tried to get social
security dissability and have been denied 2 times and now am having to
wait for a hearing infront of a judge, they keep giving me some excuse
that my age and ability to get retrained for other work is the reason
for denile. I have congestive heart failure, enlarged heart, and an
irregular heartbeat requiring a defibulator implant in my chest , and
now have type 2 diabeties on top of that, with my medical problems I
can no longer work, just living around my house seems like a full time
job now. I have exausted all available unemployment insurance. and now
have no way to pay my bills and support my family, bills are piling up
and ill be lucky to pay rent, ( having to borrow from my brother) . I
am lost and dont know what to do , i cant get a job but need money to
live on untill i go to court for ssd. do you have any suggestions I could really use some donations right now! sorry for the sob
story but I am going mental trying to figure this out ! I already get
food asistance but food stamps dont pay the bills lol. I really need
help , thanks for listening needed to get this off my chest . Just been put on medicine for diabeties supposed to take 2 pills a day checked price of meds cheapest for 60 is $470 thats rediculous! My health is getting worse and the stress of my financal situation is killing me I despratly need donations any thing will help! We have no one to go to for help as both my wife and I our parents have all past away no family to turn to ,my brother has over run his finances to help me and now he is having problems too! please help me with any donations any thing will help

IOU $10

Posted by Want2bdebtfree on 2012-04-12 09:58:13

We have fallen hard, hit rock bottom! Financially we are drowning with no sight of rescue. My husband and I have been paying of his debt which he incurred at a very young age. His father, who worked in finance GUIDED him into applying for ridiculous amounts of debt. And this in turn has meant that now 7 years later we are still paying off his debts. We have been blessed with three beautiful children but that's where our luck stops. My husband is one of four children all of which have received financial help from their families, my sister-in-law, my husbands younger sister and her fiancee live at home with her mother so they can save for their wedding and a house deposit. Yet here we are, drowning in debt and can not get any help from any of our families! It's very depressing to see family members achieve dreams because they are getting generous donations from their family and you're the only one missing out!!!
We are just needing a hand up not a hand out!
We only $20000 to go and after a lot of self sacrifice, juggling three jobs between us, studying, raising three very young children and moving out of Sydney, away from family and friends to save money, we still have a long way to go! And it's the interest that's killing us!
To make matters worse, at the beginning of the week I was involved in a car accident. A four car pile up, with my car being the third car and the only car to be so badly damaged that I now cannot drive it. I had no insurance, as when we were living in Sydney we truly could not afford it. So now we are left without a car and the added debt of having to pay fir the car in front of me to be repaired.
We have no luck and could really use a break and to live a simple, uncomplicated life.

So I propose to you that if there are 2000 who would be willing to LEND us $10, when the time comes and you need the $10 back we will return it! No loss to you but a great gift and help to us.
Please we could really

Elderly couple losing home after 36 years

Posted by ZIPPER on 2012-04-03 13:58:42

My parents are 77 years old, and they are the kindest, most giving, most loving people you will ever meet, but they are losing their home and everything because of me.

I have been disabled for 16 years and was diagnosed with Stage 3 breast cancer two years ago. Even at their age, they have given up everything they've needed, including food and medicine, to care for me. They are losing their home of 36 years and everything else they own. It's literally killing them to go through this; they have gone down so fast. They have nowhere to go and are too old to rough it like younger people might. I live with them and will not be able to get the care I need.

They never blame me, but I feel totally responsible and the guilt is killing me. I should be taking care of them during their golden years. I have to do something to save them. I hope you understand. Please help me.

Help me get married!

Posted by kendrashue on 2012-03-29 09:58:40

Hi, my name is Kendra Lynn S. I'm 22 and living in Kansas City, MO. I'm originally from Ashland, KY but I moved to Missouri in August of 2011 to live with my aunt and work for her husband. I needed a change and needed to get away from a life that was killing me in Kentucky. I miss it sometimes and I miss my friends, but I met an amazing man here who loves me with all his heart and I plan to marry him and spend forever with him. We don't have a lot of money but we are getting by, we're just happy to be together. I work 2 jobs and he works full time at a bank, but we're having trouble raising money for a huge step in our wedding planning: I have to declare chapter 7 bankruptcy.
I have $10,043 in medical bill debt from an accident in January 2010 where someone hit me with a 4-wheeler, putting me in a coma for 2 months and then physical therapy and rehab after that. The original bill was $200,000 for the medical costs, but I received a scholarship to cover 95% of the cost because I didn't have health insurance at the time. While I was in a coma, I lost my apartment, fell behind on payments on my school loans, and my bills were sent to collections. Ashland Kentucky is a small town, and we're kind of a small family so I didn't want to press charges on the person who hit me. But when I met my fiancé and we started talking about marriage, I discussed my situation with a lawyer to determine what I should do.
We want to be able to buy a house in the future, but with this debt the lawyer was afraid that my credit will hinder that. The lawyer was also afraid that since my bills are in collections that if I get married that the creditors would seize my fiancé’s assets. My fiancé doesn't have much, but we are sharing his truck since I lost my car and if the creditors took his truck we'd be out the $10,000 remaining on the truck loan and without a vehicle. I decided I would try to press charges just for the cost of filing bankruptcy, but the person who hit me was the sheriff’s son. No police report was ever filed. Small town politics are good in most situations. This is not one of them.
The lawyer tried to do what he could, but Kentucky’s statute of limitations for filing suit against someone is 1 year. By the time I decided I needed to sue, it was too late. So I’m stuck with a bill I can’t pay and it’s the only thing keeping me from marrying the man I love. My mother is a medical transcriptionist in West Virginia, and she’s barely making enough to support herself and her boyfriend so I can’t ask her for help. My father has been in prison my entire life so I don’t really have anyone to turn to for assistance with this. My fiancé’s parents have been very helpful, but they only have so much to help with and they can’t assist us with the bankruptcy.
Me and Trey (my fiancé) are paying for the wedding and the honeymoon entirely by ourselves, on top of keeping up with rent and truck payments and regular bills. Like I said, we’re happy and we’re doing okay living a humble lifestyle. Other people have it worse, I get that and I’m grateful for the love I’ve found and the life I get to spend with him. We wanted to get married in June, but at the rate we’re able to save towards the cost of filing bankruptcy, it could be next year before we could get married, and neither of us want to wait that long.
I already spoke to 1 lawyer and was quoted $1500, two payments of $750. Our finances are so carefully budgeted that and stretched so thin that we just can't do that. My fiancé has stopped eating breakfast and lunch to save money, started riding his bike to work and is doing everything he can to save money. We’ve set aside $300 towards the filing cost. It’s taken us 4 months to do that. We intended on using our tax returns to file, but mine was taken by the creditors and we used his to try to get ahead on our bills. So here’s what I’m asking: any donation towards the cost of filing my bankruptcy would be a huge blessing right now. Some members of our church have offered to assist us, and someone referred us to this site. I
think it’s a great thing that people are willing to help complete strangers out and I wish that I had the resources to help others at this time. We’ve already agreed that we will do whatever we can to help others in need on this site once we can start setting more money aside once we’re married. But right now, I need $1200 total to cover the cost of my bankruptcy, so any donation towards that would be a blessing. Thank you for taking the time to read my story, God Bless!

Shelter is my freedom, please help!

Posted by ForMyBaby on 2012-03-23 01:58:29

Please help me! I am married for a year and since then I owe money to many people (even to the shop owners). My husband doesn't work at all, what he does he plays gamblings all the time. He is not a bad person but he says that one day he'll win a jackpot and will put end to our problems.... But he doesn't understand that this is not the right path to go!
3 months ago God gave us a gift - our child. Now she is almost 4 months old. Her cries are killing me!!!!! I can't feed her enough because I don't have enough milk and I don't get milk because I don't eat enough....
The worst part is that we don't have a shelter! We live in 2 room appartment with his parents, my husband’s brother and wife and their baby, and also his sister with her 2 children...... They don't allow me to work because in their family women do not work! The way they treat me is something like Cinderella’s story, if only not worse!
My parents are giving me some money, but they can't do this all the time. Please, help me although to rent an appartment for some time!!!!! This way we could move and I will try to get a job!!!
Thank you for reading and your well wished contributions to lift my life.
I believe in god and the humanity.
Please reply me
Thanks and My best regards

Shelter is my freedom, please help!

Posted by ForMyBaby on 2012-03-23 01:58:28

Please help me! I am married for a year and since then I owe money to many people (even to the shop owners). My husband doesn't work at all, what he does he plays gamblings all the time. He is not a bad person but he says that one day he'll win a jackpot and will put end to our problems.... But he doesn't understand that this is not the right path to go!
3 months ago God gave us a gift - our child. Now she is almost 4 months old. Her cries are killing me!!!!! I can't feed her enough because I don't have enough milk and I don't get milk because I don't eat enough....
The worst part is that we don't have a shelter! We live in 2 room appartment with his parents, my husband’s brother and wife and their baby, and also his sister with her 2 children...... They don't allow me to work because in their family women do not work! The way they treat me is something like Cinderella’s story, if only not worse!
My parents are giving me some money, but they can't do this all the time. Please, help me although to rent an appartment for some time!!!!! This way we could move and I will try to get a job!!!
Thank you for reading and your well wished contributions to lift my life.
I believe in god and the humanity.
Please reply me
Thanks and My best regards

SERIOUS WE NEED HELP-PEOPLE ARE DYING

Posted by christsouls on 2012-03-14 20:58:31

THERE IS A EPIDEMIC IN DETROIT-U SEE THE NEWS,KILLING AND MURDER OF CHILDREN AND ELDERLY,HOMELESS,SENIORS WITHOUT FOOD THE CITY IS GOING TO HELL,WITH YOUR DONATION YOU CAN SAVE A FEW.WE GIVE TO THESE INDIVIUALS PERSONLY EVERY SUNDAY.............SOULS FOR CHRIST OUTREACH++++ MAKE A DIFFERENCE..PLEASE HELP WHAT EVER YOU CAN GIVE

Drowning in Despair and Desperation

Posted by Revan on 2012-03-05 00:58:30

I'm a 23 year old man barely making ends meet. I am thousands of dollars in debt. I can't pay my rent or my credit card and car loan payments, or any of my utilities really. In a moment of weakness I've taken payday loans online to try and get by. Suffice it to say, the payments are killing me. Ever since I've pretty much given all of my money to someone I cared deeply for, I've been in a downward spiral. I've never even considered begging before. My pride simply would not allow it. I thought things would get better, but I simply can't do this anymore. I need some kind of relief. I've made foolish mistakes and I'm paying dearly for them. I just want to be able to live without worrying about losing everything.

Sallie Mae is killing me!

Posted by 6ewApp on 2012-03-04 18:58:22

I have over $50,000 in student loan debt, mostly from Grad school (Masters degree is required in my profession.) I have faithfully made payments on my loans ever since the in-college deferment wore off. But paying $500 a month on my loans is killing me. I am a single professional adult who is just trying to be a positive member of society. I have not and will not file for bankruptcy (my mother would disown me), I do not use any government subsidies, and I am drug free (my mom would kill me then disown me at the funeral/prison).

I recently went through a natural disaster and lost everything I own. I have gotten my house back to livable, but can't afford to save money for more improvements because of these horrendous payments!

I'm drowning in debt and unless someone helps me, I'll be drowning for 18 more years!

Desperate to Get Out of Debt!

Posted by Ursula74 on 2012-02-28 09:58:45

My family of seven is desperate to get out of debt. Between two junky cars and two personal loans we owe a little over $15,000. We are paying out about $500 a month on these. We both work full time and make less than $50,000 a year. The bills are killing us. If we could just get rid of these debts, we could make ends meet. We so want to be debt free and be done. Cash only! That's what were hoping for. To be able to save up to buy things and pay for things. It seems like we can't save because we're always trying to pay off. We have five children, which of course means glasses, dentist visits, school fees, activities. We do a ton of work in our church and are always giving our time. That's all we have to give. We would welcome and be grateful for any help anybody would like to give us to help us reach our goal of being debt free and having a little serenity when it comes to bills. Thanks and God Bless.

I need Help paying off a Loan

Posted by synyster3177 on 2012-02-26 13:58:54

I need help paying off a $15,000.00 loan that has a very bad interest rate. $15,000.000 is the principle to be paid off but out of the monthly payment, not alot of it goes to the principle. I got the loan to save some family owned land that was going to be lost. Now the payment is killing me and keeping me from saving money and having extra money for financial security for Me and My 3 year old son. I make enough to pay evryday bills plus the loan, but other than that, I have nothing.


I thank anyone who whould like to help.

I need money to pay my debts

Posted by Lily on 2012-02-15 20:58:46

I am a 28 years old married woman having 2 kids.
I’m writing this to you seeking a help from your side. I was desperately cheated by one
of my relative
with a sum of $30,000 without my husband’s knowledge.
Because of this debt I’m not able to lead a happy life with my family. Neither concentrate on my kids.
I tried in several banks, money lenders, etc but could not find a solution for this. Instead my debt is increasing day by day my debt is increasing.

Please help me by lending this amount. Please I beg you. I’m helpless.
By doing this you give life to 3 people.
I’m in such a situation that from past two days I’m feeling like killing myself.
But I’m alive only for my two kids.

This money helps to clear all my debt. And I can lead a happy and successful life in future.

Again I BEG you for the sake of my kids.
Please understand my situation.
Awaiting a positive response soon.

i hate to have to beg..

Posted by sgk1000 on 2012-02-15 10:58:06

It's killing me to do this but my fiance and I are in debt and out of money.

With the wedding fast approaching we are realizing that we will not have enough money by the day to take our honeymoon or even to finish paying off all of our vendors.

He studies full time and i've been working multiple jobs to support us for years, but it seems to have finally caved in.

Please help give us a positive start to our future together..

Money to see my fiance

Posted by Auroria on 2012-02-14 13:58:06

My fiance lives in America and lost his job so can't help me pay my travel expenses to visit, I haven't seen him in person for almost a year because of this and I don't have enough money to pay my bills and travel, please help! I truly love him and have been with him for 5 years and this is killing us both :(

Desperately Need Financial Help for my elderly parents

Posted by spanner on 2012-02-09 08:58:44

My parents, both just retired, have been ripped off by their tenant who has stripped out and gutted their shop premises and moved on. The court fees are killing us and they have no income until they sell the shop which at the moment nobody wants due to its state. At the moment I pay for them ,their mortgage,bills etc as well as my own mortgage,bills for me and my wife and children. I have maxed out all my cards, have two loans and am surviving day to day on pennies as my salary has been eaten away with bills. I need help. Any donations would be gratefully received.
I have been on disability for several years now, primarily for bipolar disorder, but also from back and neck injuries sustained from being hit by a drunk driver on new year's eve several years ago. I barely make enough to cover my bills and to buy food to eat, and there is never anything left over, and often there isn't enough, leaving me having to beg for money from friends or family members, who often don't have it and can't give anything. I have been stuck at home for years because I cannot even afford gas to go out in town unless I have to go to the doctor, grocery store, drug store, etc. I do not even want to think about trying to meet a person for a relationship because I feel like I have nothing to offer someone when I can barely take care of myself. Sometimes the despair makes me just want to lie in bed and never get up or swallow a bottle of pills so it will all be over. Living a lonely solitary life is killing me. I have a college degree in psychology and have worked my entire adult life trying to help adults, teenagers, and children to have better lives for themselves, and now I am stuck in the boat where many of them have been, where I feel like there's no hope. I had a lot of problems working also because I live in the southern US where not only racism is rampant (though I'm white), but they also treat people like me the same as they do blacks, and by that I mean people who are bisexual, or open-minded, or who people assume to be gay. I have been fired from jobs, harassed, threatened, passed over for jobs, etc., to the point that years ago I got sick of even trying to work in such a hostile environment when all I ever did was accept everyone and try to help anyone in need. I could never fathom why everybody hated me so much just from general assumptions that I "might" be gay, having never told anyone anything, though I have had relationships with men and women. People here are so anti-gay that it is downright dangerous to make yourself known. They will create vicious lies and rumors to try to destroy your life, will not hire you for jobs, will fire you, threaten and harass you. Further, ever since I was a young boy, I have also been physically abused because of this. White trash rednecks love to do this, and it has been done to me many times-they will kidnap you, drag you off into the woods, tie you to a tree or down in the back of a truck or string you up between two trees, or even act like they're going to hang you, and then they gang rape you, and then they threaten to kill you and your family if you ever tell on them. And you can't go to the police because they're usually there raping you too. I've had to call in the FBI on them several times, and the National Guard has even had to show its presence in our town before because these vigilante KKK rednecks are so threatening towards anybody who isn't a redneck. They think there's only 2 kinds of people, rednecks and queers. Or whites and blacks. I'm white but they label me a queer, and to them, that's just as bad as being black. So therefore, they beat me and rape me. My mother taught me at a young age to play dead, and I had to do it several times growing up. I also had to play like Brer Rabbit and tell them to please not leave me in the woods or I might die, but it's what I wanted because I was a boy scout and I knew I could survive if they'd just leave me alone and let me live. They even had a hand in killing my mother many years ago, and they also kill anyone who gets close to trying to expose them. You learn to stay away from them and to keep your mouth shut and maybe they'll let you live and find somebody else to rape and abuse. By the way, I'm in southern Alabama, in Washington County, and in surrounding counties it's the same. Besides wanting to be able to have a decent life, I want to get out of this area and be free for the first time in my life. Even while in college and working as an adult, I've encountered more redneck KKK vigilantes, both male and female, always hellbent on killing queers, as they say it. I want to be able to afford to move somewhere else, preferably to Florida or to California, to a place where nobody knows me and maybe I can hide out and start over, and also where people are more accepting of people who choose to not be a redneck. I am tired of being hated for being a perfectly normal human being. I know from college that we are all bisexual creatures and that there is nothing wrong with me. Hell, these rednecks are raping young boys, so they're the queers and child molesters, so why the hell would they be threatening me? The answer is because they want to be free to rape and molest whoever they want and they always get away with it, because this area is full of corrupt police and sheriffs and politicians and wealthy townfolk who can get away with murder repeatedly. I just want out, so please help me to be able to move to a safer environment so that I might live a decent and normal life one day, and so I might also can bring myself out of depression and learn to walk in the sun again and hopefully also find love like I want and not be afraid to feel and express my emotions. I cannot believe that in 2012 they have such control over everyone in the redneck south to the point that people are afraid to live normal lives. And yes, every single word of this is true, so please help. At the rate I'm going, I'll never be able to afford to move elsewhere and to get away from this hellhole called southern Alabama. Even in the last several years, I was near our local river at the boat landing parking lot talking to a friend when the police showed up and started to harass us and called us queers for being two men talking in a parking lot. He then made us stay there and called two friends of his to come there, and while the policeman held a gun on us, they raped me and made me give the two redneck men blow jobs and kept slamming the truck door on my head and punching and kicking me. I did successfully get that policeman moved to another town after I went to the hospital after I was raped, but he wasn't fired. The other two men were never tried for their crimes, but someone did end up murdering one of them. This place is awful, you just have no idea. Another incident I'll tell you about before I end this is one weekend I was working a new part time job on top of my full time job at a maximum security mental hospital. My boss at work, a nurse, had a brother who owned a lake, and he needed someone to take care of general maintenance and help out guests and such. Well to try to me out, they had me stay there one weekend, in my own cabin, with just one guest on the lake, and he was in a cabin down the hill. Well, I found out during the course of this weekend that the nurse and her brother were in the KKK and this man staying at the lake had paid them to be able to hunt him a real life queer at the lake. So he kept harassing me and threatening me and coming to my cabin at night with his guns and even one time chased me down the pier and I had to jump into the lake fully clothed, wallet, shoes, jeans, and all, swimming as deep as I could and moving side to side and spinning underwater because this psycho man was shooting bullets at me! I felt like I was in a movie, and I thankfully didn't get hit but several bullets whizzed by me underwater, and I held my breath and swam clear across the lake underwater and only came up when I had to because I had no breath left, and I had to spend the entire night hiding among the lilypads with my head barely sticking out of the water, for fear that he might see me, even though I was across the lake and there wasn't enough moonlight for him to see me from that far away. I was freezing and sick by the next morning, not to mention having a nervous breakdown after being hunted. My brother and his fiance' got me a lawyer and we were advised by him not to pursue it or they would murder us all. The nurse even admitted to the setup at work the next week, and was surprised that I had shown back up, because she figured I'd have been bagged by the hunter.
I have been on disability for several years now, primarily for bipolar disorder, but also from back and neck injuries sustained from being hit by a drunk driver on new year's eve several years ago. I barely make enough to cover my bills and to buy food to eat, and there is never anything left over, and often there isn't enough, leaving me having to beg for money from friends or family members, who often don't have it and can't give anything. I have been stuck at home for years because I cannot even afford gas to go out in town unless I have to go to the doctor, grocery store, drug store, etc. I do not even want to think about trying to meet a person for a relationship because I feel like I have nothing to offer someone when I can barely take care of myself. Sometimes the despair makes me just want to lie in bed and never get up or swallow a bottle of pills so it will all be over. Living a lonely solitary life is killing me. I have a college degree in psychology and have worked my entire adult life trying to help adults, teenagers, and children to have better lives for themselves, and now I am stuck in the boat where many of them have been, where I feel like there's no hope. I had a lot of problems working also because I live in the southern US where not only racism is rampant (though I'm white), but they also treat people like me the same as they do blacks, and by that I mean people who are bisexual, or open-minded, or who people assume to be gay. I have been fired from jobs, harassed, threatened, passed over for jobs, etc., to the point that years ago I got sick of even trying to work in such a hostile environment when all I ever did was accept everyone and try to help anyone in need. I could never fathom why everybody hated me so much just from general assumptions that I "might" be gay, having never told anyone anything, though I have had relationships with men and women. People here are so anti-gay that it is downright dangerous to make yourself known. They will create vicious lies and rumors to try to destroy your life, will not hire you for jobs, will fire you, threaten and harass you. Further, ever since I was a young boy, I have also been physically abused because of this. White trash rednecks love to do this, and it has been done to me many times-they will kidnap you, drag you off into the woods, tie you to a tree or down in the back of a truck or string you up between two trees, or even act like they're going to hang you, and then they gang rape you, and then they threaten to kill you and your family if you ever tell on them. And you can't go to the police because they're usually there raping you too. I've had to call in the FBI on them several times, and the National Guard has even had to show its presence in our town before because these vigilante KKK rednecks are so threatening towards anybody who isn't a redneck. They think there's only 2 kinds of people, rednecks and queers. Or whites and blacks. I'm white but they label me a queer, and to them, that's just as bad as being black. So therefore, they beat me and rape me. My mother taught me at a young age to play dead, and I had to do it several times growing up. I also had to play like Brer Rabbit and tell them to please not leave me in the woods or I might die, but it's what I wanted because I was a boy scout and I knew I could survive if they'd just leave me alone and let me live. They even had a hand in killing my mother many years ago, and they also kill anyone who gets close to trying to expose them. You learn to stay away from them and to keep your mouth shut and maybe they'll let you live and find somebody else to rape and abuse. By the way, I'm in southern Alabama, in Washington County, and in surrounding counties it's the same. Besides wanting to be able to have a decent life, I want to get out of this area and be free for the first time in my life. Even while in college and working as an adult, I've encountered more redneck KKK vigilantes, both male and female, always hellbent on killing queers, as they say it. I want to be able to afford to move somewhere else, preferably to Florida or to California, to a place where nobody knows me and maybe I can hide out and start over, and also where people are more accepting of people who choose to not be a redneck. I am tired of being hated for being a perfectly normal human being. I know from college that we are all bisexual creatures and that there is nothing wrong with me. Hell, these rednecks are raping young boys, so they're the queers and child molesters, so why the hell would they be threatening me? The answer is because they want to be free to rape and molest whoever they want and they always get away with it, because this area is full of corrupt police and sheriffs and politicians and wealthy townfolk who can get away with murder repeatedly. I just want out, so please help me to be able to move to a safer environment so that I might live a decent and normal life one day, and so I might also can bring myself out of depression and learn to walk in the sun again and hopefully also find love like I want and not be afraid to feel and express my emotions. I cannot believe that in 2012 they have such control over everyone in the redneck south to the point that people are afraid to live normal lives. And yes, every single word of this is true, so please help. At the rate I'm going, I'll never be able to afford to move elsewhere and to get away from this hellhole called southern Alabama. Even in the last several years, I was near our local river at the boat landing parking lot talking to a friend when the police showed up and started to harass us and called us queers for being two men talking in a parking lot. He then made us stay there and called two friends of his to come there, and while the policeman held a gun on us, they raped me and made me give the two redneck men blow jobs and kept slamming the truck door on my head and punching and kicking me. I did successfully get that policeman moved to another town after I went to the hospital after I was raped, but he wasn't fired. The other two men were never tried for their crimes, but someone did end up murdering one of them. This place is awful, you just have no idea. Another incident I'll tell you about before I end this is one weekend I was working a new part time job on top of my full time job at a maximum security mental hospital. My boss at work, a nurse, had a brother who owned a lake, and he needed someone to take care of general maintenance and help out guests and such. Well to try to me out, they had me stay there one weekend, in my own cabin, with just one guest on the lake, and he was in a cabin down the hill. Well, I found out during the course of this weekend that the nurse and her brother were in the KKK and this man staying at the lake had paid them to be able to hunt him a real life queer at the lake. So he kept harassing me and threatening me and coming to my cabin at night with his guns and even one time chased me down the pier and I had to jump into the lake fully clothed, wallet, shoes, jeans, and all, swimming as deep as I could and moving side to side and spinning underwater because this psycho man was shooting bullets at me! I felt like I was in a movie, and I thankfully didn't get hit but several bullets whizzed by me underwater, and I held my breath and swam clear across the lake underwater and only came up when I had to because I had no breath left, and I had to spend the entire night hiding among the lilypads with my head barely sticking out of the water, for fear that he might see me, even though I was across the lake and there wasn't enough moonlight for him to see me from that far away. I was freezing and sick by the next morning, not to mention having a nervous breakdown after being hunted. My brother and his fiance' got me a lawyer and we were advised by him not to pursue it or they would murder us all. The nurse even admitted to the setup at work the next week, and was surprised that I had shown back up, because she figured I'd have been bagged by the hunter.
I have been on disability for several years now, primarily for bipolar disorder, but also from back and neck injuries sustained from being hit by a drunk driver on new year's eve several years ago. I barely make enough to cover my bills and to buy food to eat, and there is never anything left over, and often there isn't enough, leaving me having to beg for money from friends or family members, who often don't have it and can't give anything. I have been stuck at home for years because I cannot even afford gas to go out in town unless I have to go to the doctor, grocery store, drug store, etc. I do not even want to think about trying to meet a person for a relationship because I feel like I have nothing to offer someone when I can barely take care of myself. Sometimes the despair makes me just want to lie in bed and never get up or swallow a bottle of pills so it will all be over. Living a lonely solitary life is killing me. I have a college degree in psychology and have worked my entire adult life trying to help adults, teenagers, and children to have better lives for themselves, and now I am stuck in the boat where many of them have been, where I feel like there's no hope. I had a lot of problems working also because I live in the southern US where not only racism is rampant (though I'm white), but they also treat people like me the same as they do blacks, and by that I mean people who are bisexual, or open-minded, or who people assume to be gay. I have been fired from jobs, harassed, threatened, passed over for jobs, etc., to the point that years ago I got sick of even trying to work in such a hostile environment when all I ever did was accept everyone and try to help anyone in need. I could never fathom why everybody hated me so much just from general assumptions that I "might" be gay, having never told anyone anything, though I have had relationships with men and women. People here are so anti-gay that it is downright dangerous to make yourself known. They will create vicious lies and rumors to try to destroy your life, will not hire you for jobs, will fire you, threaten and harass you. Further, ever since I was a young boy, I have also been physically abused because of this. White trash rednecks love to do this, and it has been done to me many times-they will kidnap you, drag you off into the woods, tie you to a tree or down in the back of a truck or string you up between two trees, or even act like they're going to hang you, and then they gang rape you, and then they threaten to kill you and your family if you ever tell on them. And you can't go to the police because they're usually there raping you too. I've had to call in the FBI on them several times, and the National Guard has even had to show its presence in our town before because these vigilante KKK rednecks are so threatening towards anybody who isn't a redneck. They think there's only 2 kinds of people, rednecks and queers. Or whites and blacks. I'm white but they label me a queer, and to them, that's just as bad as being black. So therefore, they beat me and rape me. My mother taught me at a young age to play dead, and I had to do it several times growing up. I also had to play like Brer Rabbit and tell them to please not leave me in the woods or I might die, but it's what I wanted because I was a boy scout and I knew I could survive if they'd just leave me alone and let me live. They even had a hand in killing my mother many years ago, and they also kill anyone who gets close to trying to expose them. You learn to stay away from them and to keep your mouth shut and maybe they'll let you live and find somebody else to rape and abuse. By the way, I'm in southern Alabama, in Washington County, and in surrounding counties it's the same. Besides wanting to be able to have a decent life, I want to get out of this area and be free for the first time in my life. Even while in college and working as an adult, I've encountered more redneck KKK vigilantes, both male and female, always hellbent on killing queers, as they say it. I want to be able to afford to move somewhere else, preferably to Florida or to California, to a place where nobody knows me and maybe I can hide out and start over, and also where people are more accepting of people who choose to not be a redneck. I am tired of being hated for being a perfectly normal human being. I know from college that we are all bisexual creatures and that there is nothing wrong with me. Hell, these rednecks are raping young boys, so they're the queers and child molesters, so why the hell would they be threatening me? The answer is because they want to be free to rape and molest whoever they want and they always get away with it, because this area is full of corrupt police and sheriffs and politicians and wealthy townfolk who can get away with murder repeatedly. I just want out, so please help me to be able to move to a safer environment so that I might live a decent and normal life one day, and so I might also can bring myself out of depression and learn to walk in the sun again and hopefully also find love like I want and not be afraid to feel and express my emotions. I cannot believe that in 2012 they have such control over everyone in the redneck south to the point that people are afraid to live normal lives. And yes, every single word of this is true, so please help. At the rate I'm going, I'll never be able to afford to move elsewhere and to get away from this hellhole called southern Alabama. Even in the last several years, I was near our local river at the boat landing parking lot talking to a friend when the police showed up and started to harass us and called us queers for being two men talking in a parking lot. He then made us stay there and called two friends of his to come there, and while the policeman held a gun on us, they raped me and made me give the two redneck men blow jobs and kept slamming the truck door on my head and punching and kicking me. I did successfully get that policeman moved to another town after I went to the hospital after I was raped, but he wasn't fired. The other two men were never tried for their crimes, but someone did end up murdering one of them. This place is awful, you just have no idea. Another incident I'll tell you about before I end this is one weekend I was working a new part time job on top of my full time job at a maximum security mental hospital. My boss at work, a nurse, had a brother who owned a lake, and he needed someone to take care of general maintenance and help out guests and such. Well to try to me out, they had me stay there one weekend, in my own cabin, with just one guest on the lake, and he was in a cabin down the hill. Well, I found out during the course of this weekend that the nurse and her brother were in the KKK and this man staying at the lake had paid them to be able to hunt him a real life queer at the lake. So he kept harassing me and threatening me and coming to my cabin at night with his guns and even one time chased me down the pier and I had to jump into the lake fully clothed, wallet, shoes, jeans, and all, swimming as deep as I could and moving side to side and spinning underwater because this psycho man was shooting bullets at me! I felt like I was in a movie, and I thankfully didn't get hit but several bullets whizzed by me underwater, and I held my breath and swam clear across the lake underwater and only came up when I had to because I had no breath left, and I had to spend the entire night hiding among the lilypads with my head barely sticking out of the water, for fear that he might see me, even though I was across the lake and there wasn't enough moonlight for him to see me from that far away. I was freezing and sick by the next morning, not to mention having a nervous breakdown after being hunted. My brother and his fiance' got me a lawyer and we were advised by him not to pursue it or they would murder us all. The nurse even admitted to the setup at work the next week, and was surprised that I had shown back up, because she figured I'd have been bagged by the hunter.
I have been on disability for several years now, primarily for bipolar disorder, but also from back and neck injuries sustained from being hit by a drunk driver on new year's eve several years ago. I barely make enough to cover my bills and to buy food to eat, and there is never anything left over, and often there isn't enough, leaving me having to beg for money from friends or family members, who often don't have it and can't give anything. I have been stuck at home for years because I cannot even afford gas to go out in town unless I have to go to the doctor, grocery store, drug store, etc. I do not even want to think about trying to meet a person for a relationship because I feel like I have nothing to offer someone when I can barely take care of myself. Sometimes the despair makes me just want to lie in bed and never get up or swallow a bottle of pills so it will all be over. Living a lonely solitary life is killing me. I have a college degree in psychology and have worked my entire adult life trying to help adults, teenagers, and children to have better lives for themselves, and now I am stuck in the boat where many of them have been, where I feel like there's no hope. I had a lot of problems working also because I live in the southern US where not only racism is rampant (though I'm white), but they also treat people like me the same as they do blacks, and by that I mean people who are bisexual, or open-minded, or who people assume to be gay. I have been fired from jobs, harassed, threatened, passed over for jobs, etc., to the point that years ago I got sick of even trying to work in such a hostile environment when all I ever did was accept everyone and try to help anyone in need. I could never fathom why everybody hated me so much just from general assumptions that I "might" be gay, having never told anyone anything, though I have had relationships with men and women. People here are so anti-gay that it is downright dangerous to make yourself known. They will create vicious lies and rumors to try to destroy your life, will not hire you for jobs, will fire you, threaten and harass you. Further, ever since I was a young boy, I have also been physically abused because of this. White trash rednecks love to do this, and it has been done to me many times-they will kidnap you, drag you off into the woods, tie you to a tree or down in the back of a truck or string you up between two trees, or even act like they're going to hang you, and then they gang rape you, and then they threaten to kill you and your family if you ever tell on them. And you can't go to the police because they're usually there raping you too. I've had to call in the FBI on them several times, and the National Guard has even had to show its presence in our town before because these vigilante KKK rednecks are so threatening towards anybody who isn't a redneck. They think there's only 2 kinds of people, rednecks and queers. Or whites and blacks. I'm white but they label me a queer, and to them, that's just as bad as being black. So therefore, they beat me and rape me. My mother taught me at a young age to play dead, and I had to do it several times growing up. I also had to play like Brer Rabbit and tell them to please not leave me in the woods or I might die, but it's what I wanted because I was a boy scout and I knew I could survive if they'd just leave me alone and let me live. They even had a hand in killing my mother many years ago, and they also kill anyone who gets close to trying to expose them. You learn to stay away from them and to keep your mouth shut and maybe they'll let you live and find somebody else to rape and abuse. By the way, I'm in southern Alabama, in Washington County, and in surrounding counties it's the same. Besides wanting to be able to have a decent life, I want to get out of this area and be free for the first time in my life. Even while in college and working as an adult, I've encountered more redneck KKK vigilantes, both male and female, always hellbent on killing queers, as they say it. I want to be able to afford to move somewhere else, preferably to Florida or to California, to a place where nobody knows me and maybe I can hide out and start over, and also where people are more accepting of people who choose to not be a redneck. I am tired of being hated for being a perfectly normal human being. I know from college that we are all bisexual creatures and that there is nothing wrong with me. Hell, these rednecks are raping young boys, so they're the queers and child molesters, so why the hell would they be threatening me? The answer is because they want to be free to rape and molest whoever they want and they always get away with it, because this area is full of corrupt police and sheriffs and politicians and wealthy townfolk who can get away with murder repeatedly. I just want out, so please help me to be able to move to a safer environment so that I might live a decent and normal life one day, and so I might also can bring myself out of depression and learn to walk in the sun again and hopefully also find love like I want and not be afraid to feel and express my emotions. I cannot believe that in 2012 they have such control over everyone in the redneck south to the point that people are afraid to live normal lives. And yes, every single word of this is true, so please help. At the rate I'm going, I'll never be able to afford to move elsewhere and to get away from this hellhole called southern Alabama. Even in the last several years, I was near our local river at the boat landing parking lot talking to a friend when the police showed up and started to harass us and called us queers for being two men talking in a parking lot. He then made us stay there and called two friends of his to come there, and while the policeman held a gun on us, they raped me and made me give the two redneck men blow jobs and kept slamming the truck door on my head and punching and kicking me. I did successfully get that policeman moved to another town after I went to the hospital after I was raped, but he wasn't fired. The other two men were never tried for their crimes, but someone did end up murdering one of them. This place is awful, you just have no idea. Another incident I'll tell you about before I end this is one weekend I was working a new part time job on top of my full time job at a maximum security mental hospital. My boss at work, a nurse, had a brother who owned a lake, and he needed someone to take care of general maintenance and help out guests and such. Well to try to me out, they had me stay there one weekend, in my own cabin, with just one guest on the lake, and he was in a cabin down the hill. Well, I found out during the course of this weekend that the nurse and her brother were in the KKK and this man staying at the lake had paid them to be able to hunt him a real life queer at the lake. So he kept harassing me and threatening me and coming to my cabin at night with his guns and even one time chased me down the pier and I had to jump into the lake fully clothed, wallet, shoes, jeans, and all, swimming as deep as I could and moving side to side and spinning underwater because this psycho man was shooting bullets at me! I felt like I was in a movie, and I thankfully didn't get hit but several bullets whizzed by me underwater, and I held my breath and swam clear across the lake underwater and only came up when I had to because I had no breath left, and I had to spend the entire night hiding among the lilypads with my head barely sticking out of the water, for fear that he might see me, even though I was across the lake and there wasn't enough moonlight for him to see me from that far away. I was freezing and sick by the next morning, not to mention having a nervous breakdown after being hunted. My brother and his fiance' got me a lawyer and we were advised by him not to pursue it or they would murder us all. The nurse even admitted to the setup at work the next week, and was surprised that I had shown back up, because she figured I'd have been bagged by the hunter.