Humiliating Tags

The contents and purpose of this letter have caused any pride I might have had to disappear and the level of embarrassment and shame that I am feeling, even as I write this small introduction to grow beyond compare with something I NEVER want to feel again in my life.

I will make an honest attempt at keeping it quick and to the point, since you know how I can get to rambling on forever about nothing. I am going to start with the immediate and EXTREMELY URGENT situation at hand with prior situations that have created a situation that I cannot handle alone.

3 or so weeks ago….
I was pulled over for my front license plate and registration being expired (had only recent got the vehicle back) I was personally searched 3 times... my car was loaded to capacity, and I said I would rather them not search it, due to it contents and the time and energy spent loading it. He said he would call k-9. I had no problem with this. The dogs were 2 hrs away and apparently this cop was set on this, so he tells me, “im going to search your car” so the car was searched extensively and illegally by 3 officers while I was told I had to sit in the officers back seat, locked, of course.... as expected, there was nothing found anywhere in my car by 3 police over the course of a few hours.... Keep in mind, i was searched three times before being placed in his car.... wearing a bathing suit..

They let me go, and told me I could load my car back up.... then, for some reason....the initial officer removed the lower portion of his back seat???. Found something (controlled substance, less than a gram, schedule 1) that i have yet to be informed as to what it was…. Screamed to put my hands behind my back, confusing, arresting and humiliating me.

Have spent money that I could not spare to get out of jail, get my car back and wasted close to a week of my life.

One level 3 tampering with evidence… (Claiming that I put the controlled substance in the back seat)
$10,000 and 2-10
The other, possession of a controlled substance, less that a gram level 1….. is a state felony and brings similar time and money



There is a camera in the back of this officer’s car as well as one on the small building at which the incident happened…
Its all on video, and the lawyers i have talked to have assured me that this is an easy one, “wont be a problem” and it’s a “no brainer”.

But given the circumstances leading up to and surrounding these ridiculous legal charges I cannot obtain the services of these lawyers since I am unable to afford what they are asking. Was told if I could bond myself out, then I couldn’t have a public defender, and even if that isn’t true, I wouldn’t want one simply due to the fact that I am not prepared to settle or accept a plea bargain for something that is going to ruin me.

Court is TOMORROW, the 10TH

Like I said… this is the most embarrassing and shameful thing I have had to face.


Please help my family and i. This is injust, I am scared, don’t know what to do and I cannot take it.

They are asking for 8k, and 1/2 down...

Thursday, may 10... TOMORROW, i will go from a normal, once succesful person who fell on hard times to an animal in a prison cell.

Please please please. I will do whatever it takes to pay you back. Interest, labor, ANYTHING.. i will just need a bit of time to get through this situation and i will focus on repaying

Please email asap.

Thanks.

The contents and purpose of this letter have caused any pride I might have had to disappear and the level of embarrassment and shame that I am feeling, even as I write this small introduction to grow beyond compare with something I NEVER want to feel again in my life.

I will make an honest attempt at keeping it quick and to the point, since you know how I can get to rambling on forever about nothing. I am going to start with the immediate and EXTREMELY URGENT situation at hand with prior situations that have created a situation that I cannot handle alone.

3 or so weeks ago….
I was pulled over for my front license plate and registration being expired (had only recent got the vehicle back) I was personally searched 3 times... my car was loaded to capacity, and I said I would rather them not search it, due to it contents and the time and energy spent loading it. He said he would call k-9. I had no problem with this. The dogs were 2 hrs away and apparently this cop was set on this, so he tells me, “im going to search your car” so the car was searched extensively and illegally by 3 officers while I was told I had to sit in the officers back seat, locked, of course.... as expected, there was nothing found anywhere in my car by 3 police over the course of a few hours.... Keep in mind, i was searched three times before being placed in his car.... wearing a bathing suit..

They let me go, and told me I could load my car back up.... then, for some reason....the initial officer removed the lower portion of his back seat???. Found something (controlled substance, less than a gram, schedule 1) that i have yet to be informed as to what it was…. Screamed to put my hands behind my back, confusing, arresting and humiliating me.

Have spent money that I could not spare to get out of jail, get my car back and wasted close to a week of my life.

One level 3 tampering with evidence… (Claiming that I put the controlled substance in the back seat)
$10,000 and 2-10
The other, possession of a controlled substance, less that a gram level 1….. is a state felony and brings similar time and money



There is a camera in the back of this officer’s car as well as one on the small building at which the incident happened…
Its all on video, and the lawyers i have talked to have assured me that this is an easy one, “wont be a problem” and it’s a “no brainer”.

But given the circumstances leading up to and surrounding these ridiculous legal charges I cannot obtain the services of these lawyers since I am unable to afford what they are asking. Was told if I could bond myself out, then I couldn’t have a public defender, and even if that isn’t true, I wouldn’t want one simply due to the fact that I am not prepared to settle or accept a plea bargain for something that is going to ruin me.

Court is TOMORROW, the 10TH

Like I said… this is the most embarrassing and shameful thing I have had to face.


Please help my family and i. This is injust, I am scared, don’t know what to do and I cannot take it.

They are asking for 8k, and 1/2 down...

Thursday, may 10... TOMORROW, i will go from a normal, once succesful person who fell on hard times to an animal in a prison cell.

Please please please. I will do whatever it takes to pay you back. Interest, labor, ANYTHING.

Please email asap.

Thanks.

This is quite humiliating but I am desperate. I live with my two kids. I was downsized from my job. I have applied for about 30 jobs a day via monster,careerbuilder. I am the person usually helping homeless by asking for clothing donations, however I am now the one who needs help. I need help paying my rent for this month. I am very marketable and know I will get a job soon, but I am running out of time at my apartment complex. My one time rent is now at 913.00, because of late fees. I should be on my feet by next rent cycle. Just need a donation this one time. I can write a receipt, as a grant for any tax purposes as I think this would be tax deductible if you provide me the money. staci.hembrick@gmail

So May makes my second month of being behind in my rent. I was in this position last year when my business went under and I used my last funds to keep things going. Going to court is humiliating to say the least because I am not one who tries to game the system but works hard to try to earn a living. My fear is being in the street but I try to stay positive because I know there are still good people out there and I don't believe it is all lost for humanity. For those who help, I would like to offer repayment when I am on my feet because I am not one to be held down long. I keep pushing forward.

Because I believe in the power of prayer & the kindness of my fellow man, I've decided to swallow my pride & ask for help. This is not an action I am at all familiar with but am grasping at every straw to attempt to keep a roof over my family's head. We live in a modest house that we've called home for the past 20+ years.

I am a single mother who's been truly blessed with 4, beautiful, healthy children; 3 biological & a foster son that joined our family when he was 12…..he is now 23. My kids are the reason I continue to battle through what has been the most challenging, darkest phase of my 50 years on this Earth.

In the summer of 2011, life, as my family knew it, was forever changed. My son got off the school bus & proceeded to enter a crime scene upon opening the front door of the house we call home. It was immediately clear that we were victims of a daytime home invasion and robbery. A trail of splinters led straight to my bedroom door, which had been demolished in the process of gaining entrance & access to my personal belongings. Robbers took my box of trash bags & proceeded to fill them with anything that could be sold or traded. I came home to find that they had stolen everything of value that I had worked for in my 50 years of existence & everything of value that my kids cherished as well.

It didn't happen often, but on the occasion that I had a few extra dollars to spend on myself, I found pleasure in buying nice jewelry. Through the years, I had managed to accumulate a nice collection. Also, as a child, my father & I shared an interest in coin collecting. I had managed to hold on to several interesting coins my dad & I found. Weekly, he also, gave me & my brothers our allowance of a fifty cent piece each. I had somehow managed to hold on to many of these as well. I stored my coin collection in the bottom portion of my large armoire. This area is what my family referred to as "the safe." Anything of value, particularly sentimental, was given to me to be protected in the safe. A couple good examples are my, then, 10 year old son's game ball for hitting the Championship game winning grand slam home run & my daughter's horse riding medals, show jewelry & accessories, as well as a silver handled knife & sheath…….the only personal possession my foster son owned from his childhood. I carry a tremendous amount of guilt for not doing a better job of safe guarding my family's precious & dear possessions.

In addition to the lingering guilt, the robbery also resulted in life altering psychological effects to me & my family. I continue to wonder if & when I will ever fully recover & be the secure, self confident person I was before the robbery. Immediately following the break-in, I was consumed by finding out who was responsible & ways of obtaining this information…..I could think of nothing else. After several weeks of frantic guessing & running wild goose chases, I started to realize that regaining possession of my property was less likely as each day went by. I could feel myself falling into a dark, lonely place with deep despair…..& unfortunately, I was content to be there. For the next several months, I could not work, did not eat or sleep & rarely came out of my bedroom. There was a film in my head that ran & reran the events leading up to & immediately following the robbery…..filled with the "I should've"s, "I could've"s and "what ifs." I am plagued with distrust & no longer find interest in much of anything. I was robbed of far more than just pieces of property…..they stole my trust in mankind, my desire to thrive, my faith in the world & my sanity.

I have worked as a medical school curriculum manager for 21 years. As a result of my mental decline, I was unable to work for over three months which, consequentially, made it difficult to pay all of the bills. I managed to rob Peter to pay Paul for several months & kept up with everything except for my house payment. It is now in arrears nearly $5,000.00 & I am out of resources. For the first time in my life, I am facing foreclosure. It is embarrassing & humiliating & I don't know how to tell my kids that they are likely to have no place to call home in the very near future. I feel like such a failure! Even though I've been an exemplary employee for many years, as a consequence of the self doubting & tremendous stress, I am now faced with the strong potential of losing my job due to my inability to focus & my lack of desire to face each day, As if this wasn't enough for one person to handle, I am also witnessing the daily decline of my father & my hero due to end stage Parkinson's & Alzheimer's.

I'm not sure how this begging website works but if there is someone out there that is willing to make me a loan & work out a payment arrangement, I promise not to let you down.....you will be repaid! I am working hard to battle the persisting PTSD symptoms that continue to plague me. I just worry that facing homelessness may be more than I can handle. Lord, I hand it over to You coz I come to You a broken, wounded angel. I thank you for any consideration and appreciate all prayers. May God bless you many times & in many ways for your generosity & kindness!

Because I believe in the power of prayer & the kindness of my fellow man, I've decided to swallow my pride & ask for help. This is not an action I am at all familiar with but am grasping at every straw to attempt to keep a roof over my family's head. We live in a modest house that we've called home for the past 25 years.

I am a single mother who's been truly blessed with 4, beautiful, healthy children; 3 biological & a foster son that joined our family when he was 12…..he is now 23. My kids are the reason I continue to battle through what has been the most challenging, darkest phase of my 50 years on this Earth.

In the summer of 2011, life, as my family knew it, was forever changed. My son got off the school bus & proceeded to enter a crime scene upon opening the front door of the house we call home. It was immediately clear that we were victims of a daytime home invasion and robbery. A trail of splinters led straight to my bedroom door, which had been demolished in the process of gaining entrance & access to my personal belongings. Robbers took my box of trash bags & proceeded to fill them with anything that could be sold or traded. I came home to find that they had stolen everything of value that I had worked for in my 50 years of existence & everything of value that my kids cherished as well.

It didn't happen often, but on the occasion that I had a few extra dollars to spend on myself, I found pleasure in buying nice jewelry. Through the years, I had managed to accumulate a nice collection. Also, as a child, my father & I shared an interest in coin collecting. I had managed to hold on to several interesting coins my dad & I found. Weekly, he also, gave me & my brothers our allowance of a fifty cent piece each. I had somehow managed to hold on to many of these as well. I stored my coin collection in the bottom portion of my large armoire. This area is what my family referred to as "the safe." Anything of value, particularly sentimental, was given to me to be protected in the safe. A couple good examples are my, then, 10 year old son's game ball for hitting the Championship game winning grand slam home run & my daughter's horse riding medals, show jewelry & accessories, as well as a silver handled knife & sheath…….the only personal possession my foster son owned from his childhood. I carry a tremendous amount of guilt for not doing a better job of safe guarding my family's precious & dear possessions.

In addition to the lingering guilt, the robbery also resulted in other life altering psychological effects to me & my family. I continue to wonder if & when I will ever fully recover & be the secure, self confident person I was before the robbery. Immediately following the break-in, I was consumed by finding out who was responsible & ways of obtaining this information…..I could think of nothing else. After several weeks of frantic guessing & running wild goose chases, I started to realize that regaining possession of my property was less likely as each day went by. I could feel myself falling into a dark, lonely place accompanied by deep despair…..& unfortunately, I was content to be there. For the next several months, I could not work, did not eat or sleep & rarely came out of my bedroom. There was a film in my head that ran & reran the events leading up to & immediately following the robbery…..filled with the "I should've"s, "I could've"s and "what ifs." I am plagued with distrust & no longer find interest in much of anything. I was robbed of far more than just pieces of property…..they stole my trust in mankind, my desire to thrive, my faith in the world & my sanity.

I have worked as a medical school curriculum manager for 21 years. As a result of my mental decline, I was unable to work for over three months which, consequentially, made it difficult to pay all of the bills. I managed to rob Peter to pay Paul for several months & kept up with everything except for my house payment. It is now in arrears nearly $5,000.00 & I am out of resources. For the first time in my life, I am facing foreclosure. It is embarrassing & humiliating & I don't know how to tell my kids that they are likely to have no place to call home in the very near future. I feel like such a failure! Even though I've been an exemplary employee for many years, as a consequence of the self doubting & tremendous stress, I am now faced with the strong potential of losing my job due to my inability to focus & my lack of desire to face each day. As if this wasn't enough for one person to handle, I am also witnessing the daily decline of my father & my hero due to end stage Parkinson's & Alzheimer's.

I'm not sure how this begging website works but if there is someone out there that is willing to believe in me & offer me a loan & payment arrangements, I promise not to let you down.....you will be repaid! I am working hard to battle the persisting PTSD that continues to plague me. I just worry that facing homelessness may be more than I can handle. Lord, I hand it over to You coz I come to You a broken, wounded angel. I thank you for any consideration and appreciate all prayers. May God bless you many times & in many ways for your generosity & kindness!

I have worked all my life and never asked for any help. I raised three children and never got food stamps, medicaid, etc. I am now physically unable to continue to work due to health issues. I know I am near the point of being terminated as I have to take medications that cause me to "nod" off or keep me in a fog. If I don't take the meds then the pain is unbearable. I owe $38,000 on a little house I bought. I was homeless for 2 1/2 years due to a layoff and I lost everything including my home. I don't have family or friends to help me. I am 60 years old and started working when I was 10. Lazy is not a part of my makeup. I don't know how long it will take to get SSD approval and I am scared to be homeless again. I don't have any savings or other resources to fall back on. I live on only the necessary requirements (no phone, no cable, no expensive foods, etc). I am missing too much work but the lawyer says I have to be totally off work before applying for SSD. I don't know how I can pay bills, not lose the home, etc if I am not working at all. I just need some help not to lose the house (it is not much but it is a home). The house will get me through as long as I will need it. I am just terrified of being homeless again. I have COPD, excessive narrowing of the spine, degenerative disk that are rapidly becoming worse (more than normal for my age), lose my balance, can't stand up straight, can't sit for long period of time, can't stand more than three minutes, neurological disorder that is causing me to "lose time" (can't find the answer to that one), need to stop driving as I don't know what happens during the losing time periods, episodes of slurred speach, numbness in my arms, hands, legs and feet. This is humiliating as I have always paid my own way and now I am facing this at my age. I need help and have nobody to turn to. I don't know if I wrote this correctly, begging is not an easy task. If there are people out there that really do help others in need then please read this with the understanding of what it is like to be alone in the world, facing being homeless again at my age. I need help with the house, utilities and just survival needs until I can get the SSD going. Thank you for your time.

Hello everyone,

I have been suffering from a recurrent depressive disorder for about four years - with no hope for recovery by means of the conventional medicine. I know a trustful and proven healer who can - and almost certainly WILL - bring me health (and there are many non-medical reasons why I'd like to contact him regardless of anything). Although he expects a rather symbolic fee, I can't afford his help as I'm unable to take up a job (despite of that I have no legal right to receive any kind of social support, what is extremely humiliating for me - I'm tightly tied to my family and this situation resembles an incapacitation).

That's why I would like to ask for a relatively SMALL and ONE-TIME financial help from anyone that can offer it.

I am not asking for a lot of money or help – just enough to allow me to stay on the road to recovery. [about 300$ just for healing with travel costs included - although this amount should be sufficient, I have absolutely no self-earned money - so no donation is redundant!!!]

This request for a humble donation is my *ONLY* way to stay on the road to recovery and, at least, a partial independence. I have absolutely no things which I could sell.

I am willing and able to provide any proof you may need of my health and financial condition.

I know there are plenty of scam artists out there, but I can prove to you that I am not one of them.

My story is not that of someone that most people would be sympathetic to, but I'm as honest as possible.

NO "AMERICAN DREAMS". NO CRAVINGS. NO PARASITISM. NO FOOLISHNESS. I HAVE BEEN ALWAYS HELPING OTHERS AT MY OWN EXPENSE [AND I FEEL I WAS CREATED TO HELP OTHERS AS WELL], SO I'M GRANTING MYSELF THE RIGHT TO ASK FOR HELP (AND TO GET IT) FROM OTHER PEOPLE AT LEAST *ONCE* IN MY LIFE. THIS IS MY FIRST AND PROBABLY THE LAST ACT OF BEGGING.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart!!!

In November my wonderful, pregnant fiancé was suspended from her job as a lecturer and escorted from the building in humiliating fashion. She hadn't done anything to deserve this and after all this time and many, many letters later the college has provided no explanations, allegations, or testimonies to support their accusations.

The college has, however, made numerous unlawful actions since then regarding her status - for example, they have provided a risk assessment to prove they have accommodated her needs whilst pregnant except it's signed by everyone apart from my fiancé who has never seen it before in her life.

The final straw was this morning when her employers paid everyone except my fiancé and now we are left to pay all the bills and the mortgage with my low salary; I simply don't earn enough. Not to mention we are expecting our first child in March and whilst this is supposed to be such a happy time for us, it has been the most stressful. Neither of us can sleep properly and it's affecting my performance at work.

We fully intend to take the college to tribunal but that won't happen until the Summer and that's assuming we can afford to pay for a solicitor to take our case on.
We desperately need money to stay afloat or we will lose everything. Anything you can give, even if it's only one pound, will help. Please let me say a heartfelt thank you if you choose to donate.

Hi, Im Rosa. Im 32, I work full time and live at home so that I can take care of my elderly parents. I have 2 jobs, 1 fulltime (as a secretary) and 1 part-time afterhours work cleaning offices. I believe that we are all responsible for taking care of ourselves and our families. Ive never done this before.

I am raising funds for a human hair natural wig specifically made for Alopecia sufferers. Its a specialty product and very expensive ($700-$900 start price). I am going for the graduated chin length bob style as the longer styles are so expensive.

Every dollar will go towards this, and every dollar counts, please dont feel your contribution wont matter. As someone who budgets my wage down to the last $25 dollars each week, every dollar counts.

I suffer from Alopecia which is unexplained hair loss. I have had this condition for 5 years and it has gradually gotten worse. I have cut my hair very short to minimise fallout, and been to countless doctors and tried every drug and product on the market – all without success. In fact I am paying off a $3000 credit card bill which I spent seeing every specialist I could.

I find going bald at my age humiliating and embarrassing. I work fulltime so its important that I look my best, but thats very hard when you have lost over 45% hair mass. Its inevitable that I will be completely bald except for the back zone which I will probably shave to wear the wig.

Please help me if you can. I sincerely appreciated it.

Rosa

well, IF they approve it, have to survive for 2 years of processing to find out if I even get it!


Hi, and thank you for reading my plea :)

Last year I was declared permanently disabled by my doctor. ( I was on short term disability before that at work but they cut me off at 4 months instead of the year my seniority had earned). This sudden cutoff started my financial downfall into a spin. My job didn't "fire" me or "let me go", they just kept me active (out for medical issues), until I was no longer able to qualify for unemployment. If I had quit, then I would not have received any medical benefits any longer! In the mean time, I started the Social Security process, (which also does not allow unemployment claims) well. it takes 2 years to even see a judge, but somehow I am supposed to survive with no income until then! Ahhh but you are not allowed to work because then the judge feels you shouldn't be filing....( I mean, I am willing to lick stamps or something!) but strangely enough - I would be allowed (if doctor permitted something) AFTER I am approved, up to a certain amount of money. Whacked, right? So, here I am. I am supposed to see the doctor at least once a month for court purposes, but they don't really say how you are supposed to be able to afford to see him, if you can't have any income! My family has been so awesome helping me the best they can, but my parents are in a fixed income and elderly...my sisters have full families and their own struggles. I am so frustrated, I am not used to feeling like I can't take care of myself! I am sure you realize what kind of financial things I need help with..basic living. I am allowed to have food stamps - so thank goodness for that. I need assistance please with things like electricity, water, garbage, doctor, medication and gas for my car occasionally to get to the Dr...I do not have TV (about 1 1/2 years now) as it is a luxury, my parents offered to pay for my internet connection, which I am extremely grateful for...this is how I am able to post to all of you. I feel so weird posting this, and yes it is a bit humiliating. But I cannot stand to see my family go down the tubes because of what happened to me! Please consider helping me in anyway that you can. I have always helped others my entire life and I promise i will continue to do so as I can, can't help it - it is in my bones! LOL

Please help! 37 year old mother of a 5 yr old and a 12 yr old is getting a divorce from my habitual liar husband. I thought I married the man I would spend the rest of my life with, I had planned on only doing it once. I do not work right now. I was doing hair when we met and he wanted me to quit and stay home with our son until he started school. I saw that our relationship was heading downhill and not getting any better and decided I need to go back to school to finish my Bachelor degree in Business Management. I am hoping to finish up by July or October of next year, 2012. I want to open my own business so I can support my wonderful children and give them the things they need and some of the things they want. My 2 children and I, along with our 2 small dogs, had to move in with my mother, uncle, grandmother, and brother. We have been here for a year on Dec 10th and have been separated from my husband that long. He has given me very little money for support in the past year, spent all the tax return, took out a loan on my previously paid off vehicle and spent that money, and ended up getting me in trouble with a bad check to our previous landlord. We had a 2007 Dodge Ram Quad cab, I was primary on the loan, he was secondary, and he said he was trading it in for a Chevy Equinox, better gas mileage and cheaper payments. this was 3 months ago. I am now realizing, how can you trade in a vehicle when the other person on the loan never signed the papers? So now I have people calling me saying they are coming after me for the Dodge truck. I have no clue what I'm going to have to or be able to do on that.

He put a bunch of our stuff in storage when we separated, we moved to Missouri with my mom and he moved in with a friend in Iowa and then LOST it, so I don't have a lot of stuff I've worked for and had before we even met. The list of stuff he lost...5 seat sectional with chaise lounger, 37" flat screen tv, PS2 and about 12 games, Wii and 2 games, new surround sound, 5 disc stereo system, new bluray player, box of my season dvds like Smallville, Friends, One Tree Hill and ER, a huge box of my Disney VHS that I had been collecting since high school, nice new short entertainment center, 2 end tables, 2 lamps, washer and dryer, refrigerator, tall dining table with chairs, vacuum, electric can opener, butcher block knife set, corelware dishes, stainless steel pots and pan set, toaster, king bed, bookcase, desk, riding lawnmower, 2 weed eaters, etc. I probably could keep going.

I'm living on the good will and love my family offers and my small student loan refunds. I get NO child support. I am looking to pay off $15,000 in student loans, the $6200 loan on my Tahoe, the $1100 bad check and a couple hundred in lawyer fees, and the $1,400 Target Visa he ran up and let go bad. I need 4 new tires, an alignment, and a new windshield on the Tahoe. I would like to build my children and I a house in the next 3-4 years.

My goals...
~ Finish my BSBA in Management, end of 2012.
~ Thinking about getting my MBA.
~ Open my business, if you are interested I can tell you about it. Looking for potential investors. Working toward fall of 2012, may have to be fall of 2013.
~ Build my kids and I a house, which my mother will eventually come live with us. Right now she is taking care of my grandmother. If my business takes off like I foresee, I would like to build as I have the money so I don't have a mortgage, or put 50% down and get a loan for the rest.
~Be happy in life!

I am an honest Christian woman and I believe that the bills should be paid first BEFORE you go out and blow any money on luxuries such as eating out. He eats out a lot!

If you find it in your heart to help me out, please send me a note with how you would like for me to use the money, 3 choices as there will hopefully be others who can help me, and I can send you proof that that bill was paid. This is new to me and my first attempt at "cyberbegging", which has taken all I have. I am proud and have done many things on my own, so it is very humiliating for me to have to take this route.

I would assume your donation is tax deductible, but you will have to check on that.

If this works for me, I will give back and help out others who need it.

God Bless you and your family. Happy Holidays!

Please help! 37 year old mother of a 5 yr old and a 12 yr old is getting a divorce from my habitual liar husband. I thought I married the man I would spend the rest of my life with, I had planned on only doing it once. I do not work right now. I was doing hair when we met and he wanted me to quit and stay home with our son until he started school. I saw that our relationship was heading downhill and not getting any better and decided I need to go back to school to finish my Bachelor degree in Business Management. I am hoping to finish up by July or October of next year, 2012. I want to open my own business so I can support my wonderful children and give them the things they need and some of the things they want. My 2 children and I, along with our 2 small dogs, had to move in with my mother, uncle, grandmother, and brother. We have been here for a year on Dec 10th and have been separated from my husband that long. He has given me very little money for support in the past year, spent all the tax return, took out a loan on my previously paid off vehicle and spent that money, and ended up getting me in trouble with a bad check to our previous landlord. We had a 2007 Dodge Ram Quad cab, I was primary on the loan, he was secondary, and he said he was trading it in for a Chevy Equinox, better gas mileage and cheaper payments. this was 3 months ago. I am now realizing, how can you trade in a vehicle when the other person on the loan never signed the papers? So now I have people calling me saying they are coming after me for the Dodge truck. I have no clue what I'm going to have to or be able to do on that.

He put a bunch of our stuff in storage when we separated, we moved to Missouri with my mom and he moved in with a friend in Iowa and then LOST it, so I don't have a lot of stuff I've worked for and had before we even met. The list of stuff he lost...5 seat sectional with chaise lounger, 37" flat screen tv, PS2 and about 12 games, Wii and 2 games, new surround sound, 5 disc stereo system, new bluray player, box of my season dvds like Smallville, Friends, One Tree Hill and ER, a huge box of my Disney VHS that I had been collecting since high school, nice new short entertainment center, 2 end tables, 2 lamps, washer and dryer, refrigerator, tall dining table with chairs, vacuum, electric can opener, butcher block knife set, corelware dishes, stainless steel pots and pan set, toaster, king bed, bookcase, desk, riding lawnmower, 2 weed eaters, etc. I probably could keep going.

I'm living on the good will and love my family offers and my small student loan refunds. I get NO child support. I am looking to pay off $15,000 in student loans, the $6200 loan on my Tahoe, the $1100 bad check and a couple hundred in lawyer fees, and the $1,400 Target Visa he ran up and let go bad. I need 4 new tires, an alignment, and a new windshield on the Tahoe. I would like to build my children and I a house in the next 3-4 years.

My goals...
~ Finish my BSBA in Management, end of 2012.
~ Thinking about getting my MBA.
~ Open my business, if you are interested I can tell you about it. Looking for potential investors. Working toward fall of 2012, may have to be fall of 2013.
~ Build my kids and I a house, which my mother will eventually come live with us. Right now she is taking care of my grandmother. If my business takes off like I foresee, I would like to build as I have the money so I don't have a mortgage, or put 50% down and get a loan for the rest.
~Be happy in life!

I am an honest Christian woman and I believe that the bills should be paid first BEFORE you go out and blow any money on luxuries such as eating out. He eats out a lot!

If you find it in your heart to help me out, please send me a note with how you would like for me to use the money, 3 choices as there will hopefully be others who can help me, and I can send you proof that that bill was paid. This is new to me and my first attempt at "cyberbegging", which has taken all I have. I am proud and have done many things on my own, so it is very humiliating for me to have to take this route.

I would assume your donation is tax deductible, but you will have to check on that.

If this works for me, I will give back and help out others who need it.

God Bless you and your family. Happy Holidays!

I started at a four year university this fall, the first in my family to ever do so. I am a highly independent person and don't feel comfortable begging for money, but I don't know what else to do.
I have been blacklisted and unable to find work, meanwhile I'm unable to pay my rent, buy groceries or school supplies, not even basic toiletries; I have been without toothpaste and toilet paper for 3 weeks. I have no friends that can help, they all either have children or are unemployed and unable to spare any money for me. I don't qualify for any county aid because I made too much money earlier this year, so I have zero help for my medical bills that are now surmounting $15K, my car is going to be repossessed, I'm on the verge of eviction and half starving. My parents cannot help me because they are not in much better financial shape than me, I have not grandparents left and no valid cosigner to acquire an extra student loan. All of this while attending college for nursing, taking a 15 credit course load.
My savings are gone, my bank account is -$483.93 and counting, my landlord is evicting me in December if I can't come up with this month's and December's rent by the first of December. I am reusing everything I can, but am at this point only able to allow myself on very small meal per day or I will have NO food in one week. My cat is starving with me, and we have less than one weeks' food supply left and the food shelf here is so limited I'm on a waiting list. I have no cash, my fiancee's family won't help because they hate me and my fiancee is living two hours away from me, barely getting by as well.

I'm crying my eyes out in the school library typing this. It's the most humiliating and pitiful thing I've done in my life so far but I have no idea what else to do. Please help me. I've asked for help everywhere I should be able to find it but this is my last ditch effort. If this doesn't work, I don't know what I'll do. Please, anyone, anywhere, anything, help me. Anything would be greatly appreciated, even a few cents. I know I'm not going to get out of the situation that I'm in by using this site but all I could hope for was a little relief. Any help and I will consider you my saving grace and do my best to pay it forward when I get done with Medical School, if I make it that far. Please and Thank You for reading my story.

If you want the details of my life came to this, here you go...
I quit my great paying job of three years to concentrate on school more closely in June.
Since school started in August I have had the following happen:
A nervous breakdown caused by an imbalance of hormones from ovarian cysts that I had to seek medical attention for and cost me my job in absences.
Got engaged to the love of my life, and we suffered the loss of a child by ectopic pregnancy on September 9. I had to have emergency surgery as the ER dept. here did not figure out that was the problem until I was nearly dying. They had to remove the fetus, 15% of my left fallopian tube and had to perform a D & C of my uterus. All of this without medical insurance.
Finally got a new job at a local bar waiting tables and was promised 4 days per week after a one month training/probationary period. After a month, my shifts didn't go up but I wasn't contacted about my performance until my boss TEXTED me to have a meeting with him, where he fired me for being "too professional" and refused to elaborate, also informed me that he "extended the training period by two weeks" because he "wasn't sure about my performance" and decided since I was still on probation the last two weeks that he didn't have to pay me for it and never filled my tax information so there is no record of me ever working for him, other than whenever I try to get another job in town I am told that I lied about my work history because I didn't include the job on the list because I didn't exist but when I do, they call and he tell them one of two things: either that I never worked for him and I must be lying and delusional or that I didn't "work" for him, I just trained and wasn't a good "fit" so I shouldn't have put the bar for previous work experience. Keep in mind, this is a small town with a State University in it, and my old boss owns nearly 1/3 of the property and is very well known in the area, therefor: I somehow need to overcome his poor reference to get a job which is proving impossible.

If anyone out there can find it in their heart to help me with money to complete my degree. I began attending part time for my BBA in 2006 in order to be promoted with my company - I lost my job in 2008 and my house immediately following. Its been tough trying to get on my feet and find steady employment. After losing my job I was told by the University that I ran out of financial aid with less than 20 credit hours to complete. Not only was this humiliating - but it has now hindered my job search efforts and keeping me from finding stable employment. I am a mature minority female - looking for the opportunity to give back by moving forward. I thank you in advance for your consideration. Peace!

I've been out of work since the 3rd wk of march 2007. I have a wife and 3 kids ages 12-14-15 {boy-girl-boy} theres no work in extreme N.GA at all and i have had my life threatened and dodged beer bottles on several accounts while holding an aweful humiliating sign ! Lost truck to title pawn, filed for disability, behind on rent, bills, kids need winter clothes and i really legitimately need help. I used to run a small corp. for the people that owned it and we went under with the construction crash. I been hanging in there for a long time with help and faith in the good lord. Its no picnic holding a will work for food sign in the heart of "REDNECK U.S.A" Just use your imagination and you will come close to understanding what i mean ! I'm afraid that our family bonds with one another are getting strained to the limits unless something happens soon. If this site works at all and there is anyone out there that can help at all in any way, please have a heart, thank you and god bless !!!

Three years ago, I managed to get back in school to work towards a BS in software engineering after being on dialysis for 15 years. I'm also finally on the transplant list and should have that occurring within the next two to three years. Waiting to get on the list was necessary because I needed the immunosuppressant drug regiment to advance by two generations before I could be sure that the side effects would not outweigh the benefits. Prednisone alone left me weighing 120 lbs (I should weight at least 170 lbs) during my first go-around with loss of kidney function.

I've had some medical speed-bumps while enrolled that arose from the complications of having both kidneys removed (they found a tumor) that cost me dearly in terms of being able to finish my classes successfully. The result has been the loss of $10491.30 of my financial aid (6 classes worth of tuition at $1748.55 a class). I've already paid $3497.10 out of pocket without going into debt beyond my school loan, but need $6994.20 to finish.

I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, watch TV, or anything else that doesn't contribute to who I am as a person in a positive manner. I mostly read books for entertainment.

Posting here is humiliating and hurts like hell, but I don't see any alternatives. I need to get moving forward so I can nail this degree down before transplant. All I want is to be a productive citizen with as close to a normal life as possible--getting my degree is a big piece of that.

Thank you for at least taking the time to read this.

Hello...

This has got to be the most humbling, humiliating experience ever. I just spent days creating a free website, not even knowing a site like this existed...Arrgghh!!!! Story of my life! Anyways, if you want the full gist of our story, please go to http://payitforwardtoday.webs.com. I'll try to be brief here. I figure if I'm going to ask total strangers for help, they have a right to know a little (or a lot!) about who they are helping. We are a family of 4 (plus our little Mini Daschund, who we'll call "Puppers" for the sake of privacy!) that have fallen on really hard times. We are not looking for hand outs; we are looking for a hand up! If you think it's not seriously earth shattering to realize that the best and only hope you have left is to air your dirty laundry to the world, and hope someone shows up with some detergent, then I really hope you never go through anything like this. I wouldn't wish our situation on my worst enemy on their worst day. It is truly soul crushing.

I am a wife and mother of 2 children, ages 9 and 21. Long and short of it, my oldest struggled A LOT. He was expelled from his school, and I forced him into the only other school that would take him, made him go every day until the time he got arrested. I picked up his diploma for him at his school, as he was in jail and couldn't go get it, but I am, to this day, glad that he has that diploma, and now, 4 years later, so is he. He was diagnosed as Bi-Polar while incarcerated, and mental can be so much tougher to deal with than physical. I'll always wish I had known the exact right point where his road changed to the one he travelled, and stopped it before it started. Now he is going to be a father himself, and all I can do is believe things will be ok (and wait anxiously to kiss all over my new Grandchild!!!!)

I got into trouble by with the IRS by filing taxes with my ex-husband for a couple of years. I didn't know any better, and though we were only married for a few years, and eventually had to part ways, his neglect to file or claim anything has haunted me for years. As I continued to work legitimately, his interest and penalties grew, and since the debt was considered uncollectible from him, the IRS opted to come after me. I was a single mother, unable to get child support, and losing my tax refunds to the IRS. When I reached 30, I met my current husband.

My husband has always been a hard worker, but he too has had his share of bad luck. He is a recovering alcoholic with 11 years of sobriety under his belt. His favorite catch phrase is "I'm the hardest working broke guy I know!", and it's so true. He is CONSTANTLY going; making phone calls, doing estimates, meeting with people to try to network and pick up more business. He does great work, and has had to really struggle to get his licenses, and maintain the insurances required to operate his business. He is in construction, and has had his own business (along with his partner) for about 5 years now. The past year has shown devastating loss. Basically, 9 out of 10 jobs have paid just enough to pay his 4 employees, and he and his partner end up taking home less than their employees. They are also having a hard time competing with "fly by night" construction companies who come in, promise the world for pennies on the dollar, and when they have problems a year later, the company is nowhere to be found. It's a constant battle to convince people that your workmanship and the warranty that backs it up, in addition to being a local contractor for 25+ years with a stellar reputation is worth it's weight in gold.

I am working at a really decent company now, and was thrilled to get my foot in the door. I wasn't there a month before the IRS decided to garnish my wages. Now, instead of the $500+ I would be taking home each week, I am bringing home a meager $123 per week. This has been our sole income for many weeks now, and after reviewing all of my paperwork, it appears the IRS feels I owe them in excess of $50,000!!!! This does NOT include the state taxes, which haven't caught up with me yet, but I'm sure they will. So, I have decided to stay working, even though unemployment would pay me more, because jobs are tough to come by. However, it's impossible trying to run a family by borrowing money from everyone we know, and no way to pay it back, because the money we bring in doesn't even pay the bills, the rent...it barely covers the groceries.

Can I add one more thing here? My husband, who's job is primarily getting up on a roof every day, was recently diagnosed with Vertigo. He can't drive right now, and even if jobs come in, he can't get on a roof anytime soon either. Reading through what I've written, I'm thinking to myself "I would SO think this is fake if I were reading it". I assure you, it's not. I'm not looking to bilk money from anyone, and I'm not promising anything to you in return. The only thing I AM promising is that you would honestly be helping a family in need. I know there are people worse off than us, and I thank GOD every day that I got to wake up in the morning, and that I have a family to love, and that loves me. I hope you never know how painful it is to tell your daughter that she can't go to gymnastics this time around because we don't have the money. I hope you never have to sleep on someones' couch with your child because your electricity is off, and you can't find anything valuable enough to pawn so you can pay it. I hope you never have to look in your husbands' eyes and see the pain and humiliation there because he feels he has failed your family. None of these things are things we asked to happen, but they all did. Could we have done anything differently? Sure. But who out there reading this right now has always chosen the right path? Who has NOT made errors along the way?

We are not looking to get rich. We are looking for a helping hand. We have always helped others when we have been able to, and are hoping there are others like us out there that feel the same. My primary goal is to collect enough to retain a tax attorney to help negotiate a settlement for me, so that I can finally contribute to my family, and take some pressure off of my husband. I am also hoping to pay off some utility bills we still owe, and March and Aprils' rent. That's it. Just looking to keep the little roof we rent over our heads. If we are able to get back on our feet, we'd like to pay it forward ourselves...one person, one family at a time.

Thanks for listening to the story of a stranger, and if you've got even a dollar or 2 to spare, we'd be really grateful. I'm sorry this is all over the map, but I'm not a writer, nor even a college grad. I'm a regular person fallen on hard times, and doing anything I can to get some help for my family.

Peace.

I've been on here for a while now and I'm so ashamed to resort to this. I've contacted two people on here posting offers to help and turns out they just wanted my bank details (to try and use them I'm now assuming as contact ceased once they got them)

Luckily or unluckily there actually isn't a single penny in my bank. I have a massive cavity in one of my molars (literally half my tooth is missing and I haven't been able to afford to get it fixed) and I'm in agony. It hurts to eat, it keeps me awake, it makes me cry.

I also can't afford the prescription cost for my anti depressants, so am suffering withdrawals. I'm crying, hypersensitive, having stomach aches, headaches, disorientation etc.. I'm truly miserable and back to feeling suicidal. I'm in about 700 pounds worth of debt. I can't cope. And I can't deal with another BASTARD trying to scam me for my bank details to try and take the last of my money. Good luck you swine, I don't have a single penny.

I sound self pitying, I know. I may even sound to some of you like I'm making it up. Or that my problems are lesser to yours. And for all of that I'm sorry. If I had the money to help you rather than be here humiliating myself by begging I would.

Please, help me. I will even repay in the future when I'm out of this financial rut. Or pay it forward if needs be.

If you've taken the time to read this thanks.

the_pain_and_promises@hotmail.com

I work so hard for school and for my job. That doesnot pay enought to keep food in my fridge and pay my rent, student loans so i may keep going to school so one day I wont be hungry. I can not believe I am having to ask for help from starngers. It been making me cry all day. I have no family here, just a elderly mom in utah. I can not ask her. shell go with out. she's 68.I have no one elts, its just her and I .I want to get my degree and star work with a practice so I may always return the favor in some way.. I am only 29.Putting myself through school. I am a UCD davis student living in woodland,ca. Dental M.D. is my major.I realy do not have any food , or cannot afford food . My friend gave me top-ramen tonight, I ate it so fast ,but for tomarrow I have nothing. To beg aroung my school is far more humiliating. I get made fun of by the more able students.I gt one more year of my 6 yrs of school. I need to make it. I am praying for anything , from anyone who understands my position of giving it all for school.So I will never be hungry or embarressed again...I will take anything, food exspecialy. but I will be blessed by any kindness you offer.. Dawn leger 645 2nd st #32 woodland , ca 95695

I AM A MARRIED MOTHER OF THREE WHO IS FIGHTING CANCER FOR THE SECOND TIME. MY ORIGINAL DIAGNOSIS WAS UTERINE LEIOMYOSARCOMA. I RECENTLY HAD MY LEFT LUNG REMOVED DUE TO METASTASIS.

I CARRY THE HEALTH INSURANCE FOR OUR FAMILY, BUT, AM NOT ABLE TO WORK DUE TO TREATMENT. COBRA PAYMENTS FOR MY FAMILY WILL BE $1700.00 PER MONTH. WE DESPERATLY NEED HELP WITH MORTGAGE AND HEALTH INSURANCE PAYMENTS.

PLEASE KNOW ASKING FOR FUNDS IN THIS MANNER IS HUMILIATING FOR ME, BUT, WE ARE IN DIRE NEED. THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONSIDERATION.

i need 2000.00 u.s. dollars, to get me yet another month into the madness that has become my existence. money is gone. help through family has run out. social service agencies are helping as best they can. my disability is very complex and difficult. traumatic brain injuries are far more misunderstood and under-estimated than, multiple fractures,lacerations and nerve damage to the human body combined. i personally know this as fact. i lived through being hit head on by a tractor trailor. that was six long gruelling years ago. ive tried very very hard for as long as possible, to carry on with my life since. i have not much more stamina left. im tired. ive filed for disability. and of course. its going to be another battle to survive. i have no health care. no income. and certainly cannot afford to see the doctors that i need to further prove my case. ive seen their doctors, who did not dispute my conditions. yet lawyers cannot use their doctors against them. so im stuck trying to find a free clinical psychologist to help. i havent found one yet. and lutheran social services will not write a report to the social security administation for disability determination. i cant even get state medicaid without one. im doing everything im told to do. and its just taking to long. the things i need are not free at the walk in clinic. the person responsible for causing the mishap i was involved in, died and had no insurance. the small settlement i recieved came from workmans compensation. i was driving a company vehicle and on the clock. so at least my bills got paid. but they dont pay out large awards, and a good deal of what i did get was lost in 07 when the stock market tumbled badly and my managed investment account bellied up. im divorced,single, and 53 years old. i see no light at the end of this tunnel. i am, or was a good carpenter. the tools of my trade are in different pawn shops in this city. its been my poor mans bank, trying to get by and through this. they are all i have left of all the years ive worked. id love to get them back and not lose yet more of my livelyhood. 2000.00 dollars would bring my tools home, pay a couple utility bills and get me some food for my parrot[macaw] and some new socks and cleaning products. i really am broke. my kids help me as much as they can. thats very humiliating to me. i just want what ive paid into. its not my fault, or wish to get it this soon. theres so much more to this story. someone post back to me. i can show proof of everything ive stated. im not a scammer,derelict or otherwise dishonest. im begining to think ive been to damn honest. i need immediate help. i dont have a paypal account. yet my son does. god bless anyone who reads this, and at least thinks of learning more. i died and was revived, with not much chance of survival. but i made it. sometimes i wonder why.

This is so embarrassing and humiliating but I have no other options...

My name is Cory. I'm 30 and am a personal care assistant for the Capital Area Intermediate Unit (CAIU) , which deals with children with multiple disabilities, specializing in Autism support,in Harrisburg, PA. I have massive school debt and am having a very hard time paying my school loans and other various essential bills. My career pays very little and I'm trying my hardest to make ends meet but I just can't. My credit has suffered horribly and I'm soon to be homeless if I can't soon pay my bills. I need at least $25,000 and I'm free of my debt and I can start paying it forward. I know it's impossible to trust anybody these days, biting you contact me I will give you any info you need to help you make a decision. I'm mortified to have to do this...please help me.

I am a 32yr old mother of 3yr old triplet boys and a 1 yr old girl. I was married to my first husband 10 years, lost two babies, and finally had my boys. It seems it was more stress to have triplets than he could bare. He left me for some girl he met at work when the boys were 10 months old. My current husband works hard to support us but only makes $8.25 hr. I am currently going back to school to get a nursing degree and I work 3 days a week as a caregiver to the elderly making $150.00 a week. I pay most all of that to a babysitter. I get food stamps but it is not enough. The most humiliating thing I have ever done is ask for help this way. My husband adopted the boys so there is no child support (not that he was paying any in the first place). I love my husband and would never want him to feel like he was not doing enough, so I am writing this in secret. We desperately need help and have no where else to turn. I struggle to pay every bill, and I mean the basics. We are only about $3,500 in credit card debt, but I can only pay the minimum on that. I am asking anyone who has even a little to spare to please take us into consideration. Thank you for reading this and God bless you.

I am going to be honest by first telling you how truly humiliating this is. I am sure there are a million people on here who are trying to get your attention with their stories about horrific accidents and medical bills. How do you know if they are telling the truth? you don't, you have to rely on your gut...I am asking you to please open your heart and walk a month in my shoes.

My husband lost his job, and I am a stay at home mother to our 10 month old daughter. We earn $500 a month which is my baby bonus.

this $500 has to last us the whole month. We always make sure that our daughter comes before us. She always has food, clothes and diapers. After we buy these for her we are not left with much money.

Right now in my kitchen I have pasta with no sauce, peanut butter, bread, milk. That's it.

My daughter is in need of some new toys, she seems to be getting bored of her toys, which is making her really grumpy.


I am not a greedy person, When I was working and had money I was always generous, and I am begging for your help.

I really don't expect anyone to hand me $10 or $20 of their hard earned money. So I am hoping that everyone who reads this will offer me their spare change. pennies, dimes, quarters, etc. I am in need of anything.