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To whom it may concern,

Stated Goal: $2,000.00 (by March 21st, 2012) for tuition, books and some new pants to get my academic career going... Breakdown of $1,288.33 for tuition/fees, approximately $400.00 in textbooks/supplies for the quarter, and the remainder for some pants and necessary travel expenditures for the first month of school.

I know you have many options with where your hard-earned money goes - some may make you feel GREAT about shedding a few pounds in the wallet, and others will leave you feeling downright dirty. I know this, because I was once in your shoes; money in my wallet, left only to my vices as to where to spend it. I never felt right about just handing it over to someone who, in my opinion, would merely go drink it away, drug it away, etc. It's funny how life throws these things all back into your face sometimes, and as such I find myself in need and hoping that the right person(s) will have the faith to invest in me - that's right, I said INVEST.

I don't believe in a handout, but I DO believe that sometimes we fall a bit harder than we are prepared to do and as such are put into situations that we neither expected nor are comfortable with. I opened a business that was going rather well for its first 7 months of operation. Then, through an anonymous post from someone online that "appeared" to be from my company, me and my business partner got black-balled from the industry (VERY political/bureaucratic in that particular industry). When this went under, though, it took me and everything I own with it - my vehicle, my home and much of my personal belongings. Prior to that, I spent 11 years on active duty military status in order to protect and serve this country. Yes, I've earned the G.I. Bill and fully intend to use it for its designed purpose. TheMy defining issue, however, is that the Bill pays for school on a month-to-month basis, at the END of each month of training. For example, my school begins this April 2nd so I cannot claim my benefits until the end of April, which will cause my first G.I. bill payment to get sent out in early May. The school, however, requires payment up-front and as explained above, I currently do not have the capital to get started. Once I've started, the Bill will sustain me, therefore I merely ask for assistance in getting the first quarter of classes paid, including books. I have a great academic history, and this is truly where I excel. My purpose is to some day acquire a PhD in pharmaceutics and do research to find new and improved medications for the benefit of the masses.

As for the pants, I have two pairs remaining and both have holes in the legs and crotch. While these DO technically work for all intents and purposes, it gets a bit breezy on these cold days and nights, and is probably unsightly (at best) to any of my would-be professors who may not appreciate an instructor's-eye-view of these things. As such, I figure I might like to buy a couple of pairs prior to matriculation.

Thank you, in advance, to any and all who assist me on this endeavor.

Family in need
For years now we have struggled to keep our children fed and clothed. Our
twin girls were born five weeks' early and spent weeks in NICU. Thank God
the girls are healthy now and doing well but the bills have mounted and we
live from pay check to pay check.
Our stove is old and has become a fire hazard. There's not any money to buy
the kids extra clothes so they wear the same outfit to church each Sunday.
Our shoes have holes but we can't afford new ones. The banker is constantly
calling and the utility bills are months past due.

My husband works long hours and I have to stay home with the girls because
of developmental issues. The economy has us on our knees. It's our prayer to
one day be a blessing to others in need.
Thank you

Family in need
For years now we have struggled to keep our children fed and clothed. Our
twin girls were born five weeks' early and spent weeks in NICU. Thank God
the girls are healthy now and doing well but the bills have mounted and we
live from pay check to pay check.
Our stove is old and has become a fire hazard. There's not any money to buy
the kids extra clothes so they wear the same outfit to church each Sunday.
Our shoes have holes but we can't afford new ones. The banker is constantly
calling and the utility bills are months past due.

My husband works long hours and I have to stay home with the girls because
of developmental issues. The economy has us on our knees. It's our prayer to
one day be a blessing to others in need.
Thank you

Family in need
For years now we have struggled to keep our children fed and clothed. Our
twin girls were born five weeks' early and spent weeks in NICU. Thank God
the girls are healthy now and doing well but the bills have mounted and we
live from pay check to pay check.
Our stove is old and has become a fire hazard. There's not any money to buy
the kids extra clothes so they wear the same outfit to church each Sunday.
Our shoes have holes but we can't afford new ones. The banker is constantly
calling and the utility bills are months past due.

My husband works long hours and I have to stay home with the girls because
of developmental issues. The economy has us on our knees. It's our prayer to
one day be a blessing to others in need.
Thank you

Family in need
For years now we have struggled to keep our children fed and clothed. Our
twin girls were born five weeks' early and spent weeks in NICU. Thank God
the girls are healthy now and doing well but the bills have mounted and we
live from pay check to pay check.
Our stove is old and has become a fire hazard. There's not any money to buy
the kids extra clothes so they wear the same outfit to church each Sunday.
Our shoes have holes but we can't afford new ones. The banker is constantly
calling and the utility bills are months past due.

My husband works long hours and I have to stay home with the girls because
of developmental issues. The economy has us on our knees. It's our prayer to
one day be a blessing to others in need.
Thank you

Hi , a few introduction about me ,my name is yazid and i am from malaysia ,married with 2 children. Past few years i has been in some troubled after being a guarontor for my friend with has coused me to fall into a debt holes , years after years still i cant recover from my financial crisis and it became more worst now unless i could settle the root of my debt wich is about MYR 50K. I still got a decent job but still cant cover the amount of the interest that about 9% monthly. What ripped my heart that i barelly seey family smiles , it became a stressfull day everydays. Please help me to bring those smiles back , it only you i could help me for those who are more luckier than me. Thank you

I have never done this before but when worse comes to worse I had no other choice. I am currently working but I have an unemployed mother, student loans, and some credit card bill that am paying through a program. I fell on hard times and is currently stuck in a rut. My federal student loan had just gone to collections and a private student loan that am fighting to pay. The private student loan is 350 a month and the federal is 200, the credit card program is 200. I am currently running on negative am starting to fall behind on i light bill and rent. I also have to go to the doctor but i cant afford it because there is on extra money and my job don't provide health insurance. I have holes in my tooth under the gum line and it cost too much allot of money i don't have. If any one can help please find it in your to help. Anything will help.

Thanks
Need55

Hi there,

I am a hardworking single parent of 2 children and ordinarily would not ask for help, however, I really don't know what else to do about my problem. Since my husband left 3 years ago I have struggled with money but due to Rheumatoid Arthritis, Fibromyalgia and various other painful ailments I have had to stop my second job and so my lack of money is a big issue. We get by and don't expect a lot i.e. no holidays in the sun or big TVs, however, I am now in a situation where I need money for medical treatment and have no savings.


When I was pregnant with my second son, who is now 10, I developed large cysts on my face which all burst and left scars and holes all over. As you can imagine these areterribly disfiguring. My self confidence is zero, especially when people stare and mention it. I do not want to go out of the house and I have stayed in the same job for 12 years as I am too uncomfortable to have an interview for another position. I have tried various things including strong chemical peels which have only made my skin worse. My doctor has told me that I can have treatment but it will cost a few thousand. Therefore, what I am asking for is help with not just making me look "normal" but about improving my life and that of my family. If I am fortunate enough to ever have treatment I would ideally like to find a better job and give my children the start they deserve. If you are able to help me I would be most thankful and forever grateful for your assistance.

We lost our 8 1/2 month old baby girl 2 weeks ago by SIDS. My heart is absolutely shattered, I miss her smell, her touch and caring for her.
I have 4 sons and our baby girl was the icing on the cake for the family! I am dearly wanting to fly to the US to have Gender Selection as I would love to have another baby Girl. I'm not wanting to replace our daughter but to fill that hole in my heart and to feel love again. I got a taste for what it was like to have a daughter, and it was absolutely wonderful.

roughly 6 months ago I lost my job and since then I’ve applied for at least a 1000 jobs , Stuff I’m qualified for , Stuff a monkey could do in his sleep and in them 1000 jobs I’ve had 3 interviews. Then I started having problems sleeping. So anyway I pop off to the doc’s, hoping that she will just inject me with some sort of horse tranquiliser but instead she prescribes me anti – depressant pills. So not only am I jobless, I’m also a mental case. Oh and to top it off I don’t qualify for any benefits, So the money I’ve worked so hard to save for the last few years is gradually disappearing paying my rent. So all in all – Good Times.


So I thought i'd try here as by the looks of it in a few month’s time me and my dog will be living on a high street near you. Me with holes in my shoes and him with a shoe string as a lead, Which by this time I would have got a taste for cheap cider and there will be no way back for me. I’ll earn my money by performing sexual favours for old men and eventually I will die of aids, Lonely, Ashamed And Full Of Aids.

So please help keep a roof over me and my dogs head.

Plus i dont like guys or cheap cider.So the whole outcome does nothing for me on a personal level.

So in the weak hope anyone can help keep a roof over my head for a little bit longer until , HOPEFULLY, I can find a job.

If not see you on a high street soon.

To whom it may concern:

My name is Angela K. Baker. I live in Green Bay, Wisconsin and have been living with diagnosis of Systemic Lupus since I was fourteen years (I am now 34 DOB 06/16/1977). Although as a child, I knew there was something a little different about myself compared to my twin brother Johnathan. I could never run and play with the other children because my body just would not keep up with the other kids. It always felt like I had sandbags attached to me and I would pass out in the sunlight, I was always exhausted and my body cried out in pain. I just didn't know why. I can remember being like this all the way back to my kindergarten year. Not that my parents were bad people, it just seemed like they just didn't have anymore to give, there problems were so on the surface, (both of my parents are alcoholics, and my mother has had Multiple Sclerosis (MS) since I was born and as for my father, he spent a large part of my life locked away in the Wisconsin jail system (due to his own alcohol induced indescretions.) At fourteen I got a full-time job to pay for my medical bills and a part-time job working at a nursing home to help my family. I have always been stuborn and a fighter, but at this point in my life the fight has just about been exstinguished out of me and I have to admit that I need some help. Over the last twenty years I have been under anasthetic approximately 125 times. I am missing more parts than I have. I feel like an experiment gone wrong or a human pin coushon. I hope that at least some of my surgical suffering at least helped the surgeons learn something from my body...You see I have lived longer than anyone that they know of with this kind of Lupus. It usually manifesters in the late 30's or 40's not in children. My most recent operation was on June 9th 2011, to fix holes in my intestines that were accidentley left after my colon was removed (my colon exploded after it had been recected four times) Right now I have an Illyectomy system that does not work correctly, it leaks blood, bile, puss, fecal liquid ect. and the plastic appliances do not work on me because my skin is so sensative from the Lupus. My medical exspenses are so astronomical even with Medicare and I struggle every month to pay my basic needs (rent, public service water copays ect) I was forced to retire at 23 my body deceided it just couldn't do it anymore, even though I worked very hard to put myself through college so that I could have a decent job that I enjoyed. Thank God that it does not take much to feed me, because the state of WI says that I do not qualify for food stamps or medical assistance, I make $4.oo a month too much. I am not asking for large donations, I know the ecomomy is bad and we are all struggling. What I am asking that when you balance your checking account that you round up to the nearest dollar and please donate the change. My goal is to collect enough money to see a special surgeon at Freodert Hospital in Milwaukee Wisconsin. He would like to see if he can help me have some kind of quality of life and end some of the suffering that I have been enduring for a long time . I would be happy if I even received a little relief. I don't remember what it is like to feel healthy, everyone in this life deserves at least a shot at it... If I am given the help that I need, I fully intend to open my home again as a safe house ( I am not able to do that now because of the leaking illeostmy ) and I would love to a foster mom to any child who needs a good loving and stable home. The way I am right now is horrible ( I have not left my home in over six months excluding doctor appointments) I do realize that some people use these sites for frivilous things and for scamming people. All that that I can do is to give my word that I promise to pay it forward. In my life I have been through an extraordinary amount of human suffering and it is a miracle that I am alive still to tell my story, and for that I am truly greatful and I am here still for a reason. It is not so bad to live without certain basic human needs, it's the having too that is very heartbreaking.

Sincerely,

Angela K. Baker

To whom it may concern:

My name is Angela K. Baker. I live in Green Bay, Wisconsin and have been living with diagnosis of Systemic Lupus since I was fourteen years (I am now 34 DOB 06/16/1977). Although as a child, I knew there was something a little different about myself compared to my twin brother Johnathan. I could never run and play with the other children because my body just would not keep up with the other kids. It always felt like I had sandbags attached to me and I would pass out in the sunlight, I was always exhausted and my body cried out in pain. I just didn't know why. I can remember being like this all the way back to my kindergarten year. Not that my parents were bad people, it just seemed like they just didn't have anymore to give, there problems were so on the surface, (both of my parents are alcoholics, and my mother has had Multiple Sclerosis (MS) since I was born and as for my father, he spent a large part of my life locked away in the Wisconsin jail system (due to his own alcohol induced indescretions.) At fourteen I got a full-time job to pay for my medical bills and a part-time job working at a nursing home to help my family. I have always been stuborn and a fighter, but at this point in my life the fight has just about been exstinguished out of me and I have to admit that I need some help. Over the last twenty years I have been under anasthetic approximately 125 times. I am missing more parts than I have. I feel like an experiment gone wrong or a human pin coushon. I hope that at least some of my surgical suffering at least helped the surgeons learn something from my body...You see I have lived longer than anyone that they know of with this kind of Lupus. It usually manifesters in the late 30's or 40's not in children. My most recent operation was on June 9th 2011, to fix holes in my intestines that were accidentley left after my colon was removed (my colon exploded after it had been recected four times) Right now I have an Illyectomy system that does not work correctly, it leaks blood, bile, puss, fecal liquid ect. and the plastic appliances do not work on me because my skin is so sensative from the Lupus. My medical exspenses are so astronomical even with Medicare and I struggle every month to pay my basic needs (rent, public service water copays ect) I was forced to retire at 23 my body deceided it just couldn't do it anymore, even though I worked very hard to put myself through college so that I could have a decent job that I enjoyed. Thank God that it does not take much to feed me, because the state of WI says that I do not qualify for food stamps or medical assistance, I make $4.oo a month too much. I am not asking for large donations, I know the ecomomy is bad and we are all struggling. What I am asking that when you balance your checking account that you round up to the nearest dollar and please donate the change. My goal is to collect enough money to see a special surgeon at Freodert Hospital in Milwaukee Wisconsin. He would like to see if he can help me have some kind of quality of life and end some of the suffering that I have been enduring for a long time . I would be happy if I even received a little relief. I don't remember what it is like to feel healthy, everyone in this life deserves at least a shot at it... If I am given the help that I need, I fully intend to open my home again as a safe house ( I am not able to do that now because of the leaking illeostmy ) and I would love to a foster mom to any child who needs a good loving and stable home. The way I am right now is horrible ( I have not left my home in over six months excluding doctor appointments) I do realize that some people use these sites for frivilous things and for scamming people. All that that I can do is to give my word that I promise to pay it forward. In my life I have been through an extraordinary amount of human suffering and it is a miracle that I am alive still to tell my story, and for that I am truly greatful and I am here still for a reason. It is not so bad to live without certain basic human needs, it's the having too that is very heartbreaking.

Sincerely,

Angela K. Baker

I have never like to ask for money, but I can seem to figure out another way. I will start by telling you a little bit about what is going on. After my husband and I were married his health only allowed him to hold down a job for short periods of time. In 2004, he had to be off for 8 months with carpal tunnel surgery for both hands. Shortly after, he had to have a hernia surgery. In 2007, he had to have neck fusion. The doctors told him that he would be able to return to work in 2 months. The surgery didn't go right and he never recovered properly. It took two years before he evenually got his disablity. In 2009, he began having problems walking. In 2010, he was diagnosed with Gilleon Barre Syndrom. He was temporarily parilized. He spent several months in a wheel chair. He had almost recovered and had learned to walk again when in September 2011, he had a bad 4 wheeler wreck. It broke most of his ribs, both collar bones and both shoulder blades, fractured a bone in his neck, broke bones in his hand and punctured both lungs. He is doing okay now except for the pain that he has to live with. I work part time, because I have to help care for him also. We have over 20 different hospital bills that I have to make payments on each month. We are surviving thanks to God. But we live in a single wide 1976 modile trailer. It has holes all the way through the bottom in the corners of the bedrooms. The walls are rotten and the wiring is bad. There is a short in the outside porch light and one of the lights in the kitchen and the hall light. We have to get another place to live. There is no way we can do it with all of the hospital bills that we have. We are falling further behind every month. We each month. I don't want a huge home, just something that my son won't be ashamed to bring friends home to. Anything you could give would be greatly appreciated. It will take a long time to get as much as I need, but I will keep you posted. Thanks so much for any thing you can do.

Hi I'm 23, my boyfriend John's almost 25, and we have an 8-month-old daughter, Jade. We moved from Austin, Texas to Portland, Oregon and had planned to stay with my boyfriend's brother Freddy, his girlfriend LaWanda, and their 3-year-old son Jack, until John got a job so we could get our own place. Just a few days after arriving, LaWanda left with Jack and filed a restraining order saying falsely that Freddy had pushed her at a time when we and one of his friends were all there, and despite him having three witnesses and she having none as well as telling a slightly different story on the stand than what she filed on paper, it all came down to she's a black woman and he's a big white bearded tree-trimming MAN and she won, which meant he as well as we were forced out of the house and we spent ALL of our money on camping, hotels, food, and renter applications, until finally one reluctant property management agency allowed a jobless family to move in provided we pay a near $2,000 deposit + a month and 1/2's worth of rent which wiped us out down to little under 20 cents. John very quickly got his job and works as many shifts as he can, but he's partly here for school (which luckily his mother is paying for), so money is always tight, and this last week we had to survive off of his tips day to day.

We have no bed. We have to watch how much water and heat we use. We're hungry a lot, I'm rapidly losing weight due to not eating enough and breastfeeding, and most of my clothes are too big for me now. No pants in Portland at this time of year sucks horribly, even my belts won't fit and I've driven new holes in them and everything. My mind is suffering, I'm forgetting what I'm saying a lot. Food stamps help but John still has to use his money to make ends meet, and too often we have to choose between milk and toilet paper. I can't work because I have a child and the best I can do to make money is waitress anyway, so if I worked, the money would just swing right around into child care and I'm not going to work so someone else can raise my kid. Even strip clubs out here are barren, so it's not about what I'm not willing to do for my daughter, I'm really stuck. We're stuck. Relatives are oblivious to how hard things are for us and only send clothes and toys for our daughter, but nothing we actually need. One of my aunts did send a $50 gift card for one of the most expensive grocery stores in town, which was nice, but at the same time, not very helpful. I could have made it go further elsewhere and I still need clothes. I have no pants that fit me now, too many sun dresses and short skirts for this season and two light jackets. What? I'm from Texas, it never gets cold there. Please, please, please help me!

To whom it may concern:

My name is Angela K. Baker. I live in Green Bay, Wisconsin and have been living with diagnosis of Systemic Lupus since I was fourteen years (I am now 34 DOB 06/16/1977). Although as a child, I knew there was something a little different about myself compared to my twin brother Johnathan. I could never run and play with the other children because my body just would not keep up with the other kids. It always felt like I had sandbags attached to me and I would pass out in the sunlight, I was always exhausted and my body cried out in pain. I just didn't know why. I can remember being like this all the way back to my kindergarten year. Not that my parents were bad people, it just seemed like they just didn't have anymore to give, there problems were so on the surface, (both of my parents are alcoholics, and my mother has had Multiple Sclerosis (MS) since I was born and as for my father, he spent a large part of my life locked away in the Wisconsin jail system (due to his own alcohol induced indescretions.) At fourteen I got a full-time job to pay for my medical bills and a part-time job working at a nursing home to help my family. I have always been stuborn and a fighter, but at this point in my life the fight has just about been exstinguished out of me and I have to admit that I need some help. Over the last twenty years I have been under anasthetic approximately 125 times. I am missing more parts than I have. I feel like an experiment gone wrong or a human pin coushon. I hope that at least some of my surgical suffering at least helped the surgeons learn something from my body...You see I have lived longer than anyone that they know of with this kind of Lupus. It usually manifesters in the late 30's or 40's not in children. My most recent operation was on June 9th 2011, to fix holes in my intestines that were accidentley left after my colon was removed (my colon exploded after it had been recected four times) Right now I have an Illyectomy system that does not work correctly, it leaks blood, bile, puss, fecal liquid ect. and the plastic appliances do not work on me because my skin is so sensative from the Lupus. My medical exspenses are so astronomical even with Medicare and I struggle every month to pay my basic needs (rent, public service water copays ect) I was forced to retire at 23 my body deceided it just couldn't do it anymore, even though I worked very hard to put myself through college so that I could have a decent job that I enjoyed. Thank God that it does not take much to feed me, because the state of WI says that I do not qualify for food stamps or medical assistance, I make $4.oo a month too much. I am not asking for large donations, I know the ecomomy is bad and we are all struggling. What I am asking that when you balance your checking account that you round up to the nearest dollar and please donate the change. My goal is to collect enough money to see a special surgeon at Freodert Hospital in Milwaukee Wisconsin. He would like to see if he can help me have some kind of quality of life and end some of the suffering that I have been enduring for a long time . I would be happy if I even received a little relief. I don't remember what it is like to feel healthy, everyone in this life deserves at least a shot at it... If I am given the help that I need, I fully intend to open my home again as a safe house ( I am not able to do that now because of the leaking illeostmy ) and I would love to a foster mom to any child who needs a good loving and stable home. The way I am right now is horrible ( I have not left my home in over six months excluding doctor appointments) I do realize that some people use these sites for frivilous things and for scamming people. All that that I can do is to give my word that I promise to pay it forward. In my life I have been through an extraordinary amount of human suffering and it is a miracle that I am alive still to tell my story, and for that I am truly greatful and I am here still for a reason. It is not so bad to live without certain basic human needs, it's the having too that is very heartbreaking.

Sincerely,

Angela K. Baker

Hi everyone. If you're reading this, thank you. Let me say upfront, I'm not asking specifically for money. I'm just going to spill my guts about this hand I was dealt.

I've had a hard life. My mother passed away when I was 12, and my father passed away at 20. He left me a lot of debt and a house to maintain.

The stress of all this has given me problems. I started having panic attacks and was hospitalized for a cardiac arrhythmia. Recently, I developed optic neuritis. I'm working on getting Medicaid to cover some of my costs but right now I'm in debt about #1000.

There is one blessing in my life, a relative who pays my internet and utilities. He also helps me with food. But that's all he can do. He goes without to provide me with that. Otherwise I'd be homeless, hungry, and who knows where.

So I'm blessed to have the basics in life. But there's so many things that I need that I have to beg other people for. My family is...not so supportive. All I have left are aunts and uncles, all except one on my mom's side. My mom's side of the family pretty much abandoned me when she died. They put me though shame and humiliation when I ask for help.

I want a job, but I live in a very rural area. I've applied s o many places up to an hour away but I don't hear anything back. Recently I applied for some state jobs which I'm hoping might come through.

These are the things I need and things I want, so you know what my intentions are.

Need:
Toilet paper.... :( The way I've been getting it now is to go into public restrooms and putting some in my purse. I feel wrong about this. But what can I say, it's a necessity?

Personal items...I won't go into detail but I'm talking about um, feminine ones. I get the Dollar Store brand kind, but even then it's too much. I've had to go without it which is very hard.

Hygiene items...I stopped using soap and shampoo conditioner. I would love to...I feel dirty honestly. But I can't afford anything. I only use deodorant every few days because the bottle is running low and I'm trying to make it last.

House items...I need dish washing soap. I can't afford paper plates and am just washing dishes with hot water now. Sometimes I cant' clean it all the way through that way, but I just have to forget it. I also need laundry detergent. I'm almost out of a huge bottle that I have made last over a year. It was Sun brand from the dollar store, and I loved it. I'm all about generic.

Gas money...My car is an old SUV, and it takes a fair amount of gas. I try to limit when I drive. But it's a necessity since I live alone and in a rural area. I have to drive to run errands, go see the doctor, go to job interviews. I usually beg for this the most cause this is one of the things I can't do without.

Medication...I'm on two heart medications because of my arrhythmia. It's important I take them. I tried taking them twice per day instead of three, and I had horrible palpitations. So this is kind of my priority. As I'm still uninsured, both medications cost about 12 dollars a month.

Okay those are all things that I feel I need. Now, what I "want".

Clothes...I haven't bought new clothes since 2007. That's when my dad got diagnosed with cancer. My shirts have holes in them, so do my jeans. I got them from Goodwill originally most likely, I like to be frugal. The only person I have is made of linen and has a hole so things fall out of it! I've lost weight and I have had my jeans fall down in public. It's bad. I only have one bra and it's way past it's prime. I would love a little money to buy some basic things. Jeans that fit, some cotton T-shirts, a purse. Maybe even something for job interviews? I think part of the reason I get denied is because I show up in jeans and a T and flip flips. But that's all I have.

Beauty stuff...Okay, this stuff is totally not worth your money, I get it. But I just thought I'd list everything. It sucks being a young woman who can't feel pretty. I'm unwashed, my clothes make me feel like a hobo. I see other girls my age in class (I attend college part time thanks to financial aid) looking and smelling beautiful. I mean...

I just want a hair cut. Recently, I hacked about 6 inches off myself with scissors. It's not pretty. I just want a little powder and some lip gloss to not feel so plain. I just want a spritz of perfume so that there's something beautiful in my senses. I daydream about when I used to wear cute clothes, go to a salon. Wear mascara and paint my names. Ahh...But this is just a dream. I don't expect anyone to help me with things like that.

A new laptop/tablet...The one I have now is really old and really slow. Don't expect anyone to get me one. If it happened, I would probably assume I'm dead and in some sort of heavenly afterlife. Then I might pass out from shock.

So this my friends, is my general beg for help. I'm a 23 year old girl without much family. My basics are covered, but that leaves a lot for someone who is broke. I'm actively searching for employment. I've applied from Dr.'s offices to bars. I'm part time in college, and I'm not sure what I want to study yet.

I don't drink, if I had the money for beer I'd buy TP instead. I don't smoke or do any illegal drugs. I'm not a criminal.

I am not someone who wants to just take money. If you are down on your luck too, please don't send me anything. Put it in savings. Give it to some of these people who are about to lose their homes if you must. They're deserving.

If you're apprehensive about giving money but still want to help, you totally can. A package filled with toilet paper, tampons, shampoo...that would be like Christmas morning to me, I swear.

I'm not sure what I'm going to get out of this. Writing this was therapeutic though. If you're on this site, you're already a nice person. I bet 90 percent of the traffic is people who want something, like me. People who go on here to help someone is probably such a rare thing.

Thanks for reading.

Is there anyone out there that can give me a donation to fix my teeth i'm only 21 and, a few months ago portions of my teeth just started coming out now its produced a holes in my teeth now my side tooth has chipped its decaying also. i'cant even take pictures it's embarrassing please help this would make my christmas my year my life thank you in advance great people

My almost 19 year old son, who is autistic and nonverbal, and is not potty trained, needs a full size mattress terribly. He is not toilet trained, and has wet the bed so often I cannot clean it anymore. He has broken the box springs and frame compelty,but my husband has fashioned a frame out of 2 x 4's. His disability causes him to have extreme agression, and he continually breaks windows, makes holes in walls, tears up his clothing, unravels carpet, tore up laminate flooring,so many things. In one week he tore up 5 pair of shorts and 6 shirts, and 6 pair of socks. He even does it at school. He tore up 3 sets of sheets just last month. He wears adult diapers, which cost a lot. The state does give him medicaid, but they only pay for about 1/2 the diapers he uses a month. I am at my wits end trying to keep up with it. Currently there are 6 fairly large holes in the hallway, three in his bedroom, 2 in the dining room, we keep patching them but he keeps making them. I was laid off my job as a special ed aide in 2008, and then I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I am currently in remission, but the medical bills are staggering and we are two months behind in rent. We owe $297 to the electric bill and only have 5 days to pay it. My husband has been looking for a second job, but he works long and odd hours and it is hard. I have tried everything to get caught up, but everything keeps happening, car repairs on our 2000 impala cost over $400, we can't get it registered because it won't pass emissions, besides our disabled son we also have a 13 year old. I don't know where else to turn.I need $1500 for rent, $300 for the electric bill, and am desperate for a new mattress or bed for my son. If anyone can help, I would be so thankful, and be sure to pass on the blessings to someone else whenever I get the chance. Thank you so much.

I have been out of work and, I am currently in the need need or twin fitted sheets, all but one have large holes or runs in them. We have also been having a lot of brown/black outs, do to construction got to love caltrain (calfornia transportation and highway department) at work. The black outs last anywhere from a few minutes to over an entire day. We do have flashlights but not really the money to change the batteries when needed (AA and C's).

As far as the sheet(s) go I don't care if they are used, stained, bleach spotted just as long as there are no major runs or rips that I can not sew myself.

As far as the candles go, I don’t really care they can be anything at all and I would love them no matter the fragrance.

I recently saw this posted on some shitty website i dont care to disclose. not because i dont like the website, i just really dont give a fuck.

"Force people to feel your pain, put it on them. Show them how this world can create someone like you. Remind them that the state of the world we are in will continue to bring about people like us, the unloved, un-noticed, under-appreciated."

And it made me think, wow thats a fucking GREAT idea!!, what a wonderful way to make yourself feel better, why did i never think of that before? Well it seems like everybody else is doing it so why not? the worlds already fucked up so lets just add to all the bullshit and drama of life and see just how bad we can make it for others, after all wont we then realize just how good we've got it? even when you think you have nothing at all, if you think about children that are kidnapped, taken to a place their not familiar with, repeatedly raped by ass holes who would rather pay somebody to fuck a kid than find a real woman, beaten, held down and forced to develop an awful drug addiction that will keep them in a lifestyle of tragedy for the rest of their lives. Do we really have it bad? I want to kick myself in the ass sometimes for pitying myself and wishing i had it better. but then again is it really so bad to want the finer things in life? i mean it seems hope is what drives most people in life, without it where would we be? if we didnt have any hope at all why get out of bed in the morning? we do it for various reasons but mainly because we hope to achieve some kind of goal whether it be to see whats going on in the world around us, complain about it, to suppress that feeling of hunger, to use the bathroom instead of shitting or pissing on yourself, go to work or whatever. im tired of hearing about people being depressed because there is no hope in their life. the only people that really have no hope at all are already dead. Show yourself no mercy, make life what you want it to be, after all life really is whatever you make it. You can have nothing at all and not have eaten in days and still be a happy fucking go lucky numb skull without a care in the world if you pity not yourself but everyone else. I served a few months in jail this past year and found that i was really fucking HAPPY! I know what your thinking, what kind of brain dead fucking idiot could be happy to be in jail? i was not happy to be in jail but happy that i had a roof over my head, a mat to sleep on, a blanket to stay warm, 2 meals a day i mean what else could you ask for? all of your basic needs are met. Do you really deserve to have anything more than anybody else? when there are people out there that die all the time because they CANT get those basic needs fulfilled why in the hell are we driving brand new cars or even cars at all, living in homes made of enough aluminum, brick, wood and other materials to feed someone enough to keep them alive for a good part of their life. Doesnt it seem to you that if people really gave a shit about themselves or anybody else they would be more than grateful to be able to give up material possessions to give someone else a chance to live a life at all? The truth is we are all stuck up pricks that dont give a shit about anything but satisfying our own lust of pleasure. I will say there are a "few" good people out there but if your sitting there reading this on a computer and you think youve got it bad, your a stuck up peice of shit too. After all you can afford to spend money on electricity but you cant afford to feed someone, even if you do donate to charities are you really doing enough? No because your still on the computer wasting money that you could be using to feed a kid somewhere out there that otherwise will starve to death. Thats just the way it is and we've been doing it our whole lives. If you dont like the thought of being a selfish peice of shit, youve got 2 choices. Either get over it and accept the fact that your just as bad as the shit heads that flew their planes into the twin towers and killed all those people, or give up everything you have and help somebody out, stop wanting, start giving. Which will you do? If you want to change your ways you can start by donating a few dollars to help keep food in my stomach and a warm place to sleep. We'll see just how many "good" people are out there, i doubt many of you are. - Gabriel Turner You can email me at damaster406@gmail.com or send money to that email address using paypal at http://www.paypal.com

Hi my husband 2 young girls (1 and 3) and I live on a small farm. We only have this small farm for our income and for 3 years we have been living off of the 1000 dollars a year that this small farm makes and that before bills. anyway this year with gas prices it is just not enough to keep us going. so I am asking for help on here. Even a buck would help. We want to expand our farm and add pigs and maybe dairy cattle but we don't have the money for it. We would love to buy the house next door and get out of the house we are in. It is about 150 years old and the kitchen floor has holes in it and there is no insulation in the walls. I hope some one out there can help us please.

Me my husband and our to small kids live in a 150 year old house he kitchen has holes in the floor, there is very little insulation in the walls and the floor boards bend when you walk thru the living room. we live in it rent free though because we only made $1000 this year so far and we wont make much more if any. what we want as a family is to buy the neighbors farm but that would take more that $500,000 to get it fixed up and buy animals. but we will never have the money for that. but now I need money for my bills I hope someone out there can help us.

Hello and thank you for reading my post and hopefully considering helping.
I am not asking for help for myself but rather for my daughter and her family.
My daughter is a single mother of 5(Two are her sisters but...) and helps take care of her disabled sister who suffers from frequent grand mal seisures. She also cares for her 9 yr. old Autistic son. She is unable to work because she is the sole care giver to her sister and Autistic son.
Problem: She and her family live in a 1970s dilapidated 3 bdrm mobile home. "The home has holes in the walls, the front and back door seals are bad so when it rains it as if it's raining inside! There is no insulation and due to electrical socket overload? She can only plug in one electric space heater to warm the home.
Please, I am not asking for myself and would not make this post if all other avenues had not been exausted. I am just trying to come up with enough money to help her get into a house that is in better shape. Her sisters',her sons' and her income is enough that they could pay $700.00 a month for rent as well as utilities. She currently pays: $650.00,Ren,$426.00 Electric, $70.00 water & trash/sewage, Cable & Internet through Cox is 160.00, household cleaning supplies and personal hygeine needs run about 70.00 per month for a total of $1436.00 (Not including Food). Her household Income is $1898.00
Sorry for being long winded but wanted to explain as fully as possible.
Thanks and God bless

hi i am a single working mom with four kids,i am living in a house that is filling with black mold,the house's sewage keeps backing up into my sons room flooding it out, i had to remove the carpet because of the stench,now it is cement, all winter long i had squirrels eating holes through my ceilings trying to come into my bathrrom, and kitchen,from the attic were they have been living,long story short, my landlord is a slumlord and is taking forever to fix it, i havent paid the rent and am NOT paying it because i REALLY NEED to move , i need 2 months security on a place that i found, i really need help, i have no one on this earth other then my kids, social services said i make $67.00 to much for them to help me..

My kids go back to school next week, They have to wear ragedy school uniforms with stains and holes in them because food was more important.