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Hello BegsList. My name is Chris. I'm 19 years of age, and I live in Philadelphia. At the age of 18, I escaped an abusive household to enter the adult world. I am afflicted with autism and severe ADHD. I don't let those setbacks get to me though- I'm enterprising and constantly looking for employment. I finally had a good place- I found a well-paying position at Walgreens, and they transferred me into the Philadelphia market. Not three months after arriving, I was unexpectedly laid off. Due to some funky requirements in the rules, I was not able to draw unemployment. I have been diligently hunting for jobs ever since that fateful day, but unfortunately my efforts have proven fruitless. I have volunteered most of my time to a small non-profit when I'm not job searching. We're a small interfaith group that hits the streets with a message of love and peace for all, along with participating in several community service projects and education programs. We are currently experiencing a whole host of financial hardships as a whole. My beg is two pronged: On one hand, I am three months behind on my rent and on the verge of eviction. On the other hand, I am devoted to making my community better and making people a little happier through the non-profit. This is a last resort for me, as I've exhausted all other channels. Please help me out. Someone's gotta be out there. I thank you for taking the time to read this.

-Chris

I have always been told to think big and big things will happen. Give up and there is no hope. So here is goes...My mother recently has had a stroke. I have always rented and she has always dreamed of me owning my own home. This is what Mom has dreamed for me for many years. I would like to fulfill her wish especially after her recent stroke. Seems like I have always been stuck with low paying jobs or I had money saved up for a downpayment and something would happen I would have to use the money for something else. So, I know it's a big dream but I gotta take the chance anyway to find out. I know it's a bit crazy but I can't give up on Mom and I's dream.

Alright, its been a long hard road but Im finally starting to see the light. Long story short, IM IN A BIND! Im going crazy as to what to do. My mother passed away 2010 & I was no wheres near ready for her to leave me. So without a job, car or a completed education I took off on my own because she was all I had. I lived with friends while I tried to get my things together but there were some really bad, unsafe & unhealthy living situations so I bounced around alot & eventually wasnt able to get my diploma. I thought I finally caught a break, a girl said I could live with her rent free if I was her sitter 5 nights a week, that was quickly ended. After only 3 mths I find out the house was up for foreclosure & was going up for public sale within 3 wks. I finally found a more stable, long term place to stay a few mths ago, Ive looked into getting my GED & I start working in May for at&t customer service, then I can save up money for a car. I really want to get my CNAs but in order to do that I need my GED & the CNA course is $400 & the GED is $70. I would love to be able to take my GED next mth, the tests only come around every other mth & itll be available to take in early April & Id love to sign up for CNA courses after I pass the GED, my next steps after that is to start my at&t job, save up for a car, eventually get a CNA job then go to college while Im working CNA. Just right now Im in a bind, I cant seem to find a way to make money. Ive offered babysitting, pet sitting/grooming, housecleaning, lawn mowing, and no ones taken me up on my offers. $470 would change my life as silly as that sounds, but it would. Ive lost my mom, been homeless, ive been hungry for days, & Ive felt like I coulntor wouldnt make it, well thanks to some amazing people who are allowing me to stay here rent free until Im able to get on my feet I finally feel like things are starting to look up, I just need a littlr nudge in the right direction & financially Im unable to do it on my own. I hope someones willing to help me, help myself have a good life. Truth is Im terrified of doing it all alone, but I gotta make my momcproud & do whats best. Thanks everyone for reading :)

I am a single mother of a 3 yr old girl. One who just can't seem to get ahead. Or even even. Bills that are due, some being paid with what little I have are limited to the necessities. I am getting help from my state with food and healthcare and that is wonderful. But here is where my downside comes into play. On 1/28/12, due to (see subject title) I had to quit my job. A job in which I love, in a field that i love, that i still have (outstanding) school loans required for me to be licensed in the field. Hold on now, this does tie together...I quit drinking 3 years ago,(I am past my 20's if that means anything.) I found though, once I quit drinking, that I had been self- medicating for partially debilitating mental illnesses. Though I have been doing my part since quitting the drink (therapy, psychiatry,and just holding on for dear life), I cannot seem to get to where I need/want to be, to be able to continue to provide for my kiddo. My credit is shot, I wasn't approved for a car loan of ANY sort (CARHOP DENIED ME!)and my car is dying. The anxiety I feel every day when I wake up and find that I have to take 10 or so pills to make it through the day, and then still figure out how to pay for my car insurance. And rent and phone bills and electricity blah blah blah, you get the picture. My credit cards (in which I have to use to purchase clothing for myself and my daughter) are maxed. My little one bedroom apartment just doesn't accommodate for myself and my 3 year old. She has no place to play outside, except for a pavement parking lot, all the while trying to shield her from the illegal activities which take place around here. I am in the process of starting to apply for disability, because that is all i know to do for the time being. I will be applying for housing assistance, I gotta get out of this place.
I don't know whom may be out there, and whom may be reading this, I hope at least someone does. What I really hope, is that there may be some helpful, generous, kind and empathetic soul who might be able to help me with this huge anxiety ridden request for help. I have never done anything like this before, for the worst quality I possess is asking for help. Or lack of being able to do so. But, here goes nothin!

An American reject
Dear Sir or Madam,

I am writing because I have found an injustice that it seems no one else has noticed. I know that I am only one person, but they say one voice CAN make a difference.

I know many people who have made their share of mistakes  we all have sinned no one is perfect. Some just get caught up, can't afford a lawyer and   And want to confess, hoping there would be some type of leniency.  Considering they were young and didn't realize this would affect them the rest of their life. and i have tried to correct each mistake i  have made. The question I pose is how long is a person supposed to pay for those mistakes? Everyday I see people who are doing there best to clean up there life and get a job; but because they are felons/ or have a heinous misdemeanor as society feels that is a liability.  they are turned away from having a better life. That not only affects them and their families but it also affects society. If a man or woman is trying to lead an honest life and jobs are turning those individuals away what’s left? Go back to “the block”? If they get back in the streets they take the risk of losing there *freedom* but if they keep being turned away from jobs because of their past they risk losing there homes and families too. So what is a person to do after all we make mistakes.  Some are just smarter, or maybe they just know how to hold a lie like Casey anthony. But how is it fair for an employer to turn me away for being honest about my past. After all it was 13 years ago and did I ever really know how hard of a punishment and debt that I would half to pay to society as well to my unthought of family at the time.  My decision as a child is affecting my now 10 year old.  I made a mistake i feel like I would of been better off stoned to death I'n the center of the city.  Than to go on continue getting turned down left and right I don't know how long I can go on like this.  Where is the justice for me? Do I no longer have rights.  Am I considered a worthless piece of trash now that I have a conviction a black cloud holding over my head? From 13 years ago I was 18!!  How fair is that for my family NOW! Something needs to be done.  Justice for all!!! These employers shouldn't have the right to go as far back and discriminate. There should be a 7 year law.  After all there is a clean sleight after bankruptcy.  There able to wipe their debt clean as if they owed nothing.  Why can't we. Why is there some type of stigma.  For people that have been convicted and have never gotten convicted again.  That's showing you were trying to live as productive as we can I'n society.  But trying is the key word here because I feel I can't even get a chance!  

Despite what people may think, individuals who have records also have families they have to care for. Once a person has paid there debt to society for there crime and is making noticeable effort to clean up and live right they should have the opportunity to do just that, not be sentenced to a life of crime because there is no other way to survive. I’m sorry but McDonalds and Burger King just isn’t going to cut it with a 30 year old man or woman with 3 kids. This is supposed to be America, the land of opportunity and justice for all, but where is the justice for these people?

I feel very strongly about this and I would love to see justice made true. I plan to write every address and person I can find. I plan to be that one voice that is letting as many people know that this is wrong and unfair according to plain ethics and the so called American Dream.

I truly hope this reaches out to you and I hear back from you soon. I don’t know if a 32 year old female who is living a life like the one I explained above is going to make a difference but I can say at least I am trying make a difference.

It's verry hard for me. I can't find work. I have no health insurance. And recently I need work done on my mouth that I can't afford to pay for. I don't know where to turn. I can't afford a Christmas for my daughter. And if unemployment dint get passed for 2012 were screwed. There's been days of me going without to bed hungry so my daugter can eat. Sometimes I think of ending my life cuz I'm some useless pice of crap that can't make it I'n this word. But my daughter gives me strength and with god I know all this are possible. I won't give up, I'll keep fighting. It's just so hard. Abd it doesn't get any Easyer I'n this small town. If you know of anything that can help me and my child please feel free to call. 484-560-0090. Something's gotta give there's gotta be a way out... -Ceecee

Please remember Gods loves everyone and gave his life for EVERYONE to live even convicted misdemeanors.

Yours truly an American reject

I BECAME DISABLE 2 WEEKS AGO HAV A BAD FRACTURE ON MY KNEE GONA BE OUT WORK A LONG TIME
IM LIVNG IN A COLD FURNISHED ROOM IN NORTH BERGEN NJ IN A MAN HOUSE IN HIS FURNSHED RENTED ROOM THAT HE RENTED TO ME I CANNOT MAKE ENDS MEET WHAT I GET FROM DISABILTY THUR MY JOB AINT ENOUGH FOR RENT FOOD CABLE MEDS TRANSPORTATION CLOTHING THE ROOM IS COLD NO HEAT IM NOT ALLOWED TO COOK AND TO TOP IT OFF I WENT TO ALL GOVENMENT AGNCYS FOR HELP THEY ALL!!!REFUSED CAUSE LANLORD WILL NOT ALLOW ME TO GIV HIS NAME AND TEL FOR VERIFICATION SO I CAN GET THE HELP I RETURN TO WORK END JAN IN MEANTIME THE LANLORD THE MAN I RENT ROOM FROM HAS ASK ME TO LEAVE AND LIVE ELSEWERE CAUSE HE HAS TO FIX ROOM AND I CNT LIVE THERE ANYMORE IMAGINE HOW I FEEL I GOT NO CASH EHLP FROMA NYONE IM VERY ILL APART FROM MY KNEEES I HAV MANY HEALTH ISSUES I CANNOT GET SSI IT WAS TOLD TO ME BELIVE MEI TRY I CANT GET IT LONG STORY
I NEED SUMONE THAT CARES ENOUGH TO HELP ME GET INTO A APRTMENT I DO NOT WANT A ROOM SHARE THING I NEED APLACE WERE I CAN COOK MY MEALS AND RELAX IM AMTURE WOMAN ALOT HEALTH ISSUES I HAV AND CANNOT WORK ..SO IMA SKING YOU FOR THE LORD OF GOD PLEASE HELP ME WITH 1 MTS RENT AND SECURITY ILL TAKE CARE OF THE REST IF TIME COMES WHEN I GOTTA LEAVE I GOT NO PALCE TO GO AND IM NOT!!!!GOING TO NO SHELTERIWLL NOT SUBMIT TO THAT PLEASE PLEASE IM BEGGING U IVE ASK ALL FOLKS ONLY TO HEAR ''NO NO NO
I WNET TO GIOV OFFICES AND AGENCYUS THEY ALL DO SAY NO SO IM ASKIN 1 SPEACIAL PERSON TO PLEASE CARRY OUT MY WISH I CANNOT CONT TO LIV LIKE THIS THE ROOM IS COLD I CANT COOK AND IM SCARE DUED TO ALL HEALTH ISSUES TO GET VWERY SICK SO PLEASE HELP ALL I WANT IS 1 MT RENT N SECURITY GOD BLESS U

I'm 30-years old, married with two young children. Kindergarten is fast approaching and I cannot imagine juggling a full time job plus school schedules, sports, etc.

I always dream of winning the lotto... but, you gotta play to win, right?! Well, this is my 'lotto'... and I'm hoping to win.

I'm just a simple girl with a simple dream. Anything will help - ANYTHING.

i have hiv, fibromyalgia and other medical problem that make it hard for me to survive i work part time none the less and try to survive i am trying to get a place to live permenantly and will use any donation to that end and appreciate everyone rather they help or not just for taking a look.i could never thank you enough for what you do but will always try and appreciate everything that i recieve. life maybe tough but it gotta get better and i determine to make it so. it hard not having any family to turn to and ask question but somehow i seem to barely make it and will never give up and always fight for the thing i wish to achieve even if it seem impossible. If your willing to help there a donation bottom or link to paypal so you can send me money safely thank you again. and remember anything helps.
sincerly
christopher shortis

Please...if you can help. I lost my job due to my company losing a government contract. It was to my understanding that I would start with the other company but someone higher up in the company decided not to keep me. I was let go unexpectedly. What a shock. I need about $1,100 to cover my bills for the next 3 weeks. I'm actively looking for work and I have requested unemployment. I'm optimistic that everything will be okay. Gotta have hope. Please send donate money. It would be greatly appreciated! Thanks for your generosity!

I am in desperate need to find a lender or donations to save our home. Long story, my husband and children live here along with my parents. And my sister. We all pitch in to help. My parents moved here after a flood took their home. Our home burned a few years back, then 6 months later my husbands business partners voted to sell our business. We tried to do a new business which failed. Left us with more debt. Business partners from that business filed bankruptcy on us and didnt tell us untill we got a lein placed against our home. This forced our bank to want payment in full or forclose. Our credit is now not good enough to refinance and our credit cards were maxed trying to make a go at business. We have been trying to sell some land and trying to go thru a private investor to refinance for us which we gave been working with for 10 months. We are scared, dont now whete to turn. We could manage if we could get caught up. But we cant pay leins, or debts now. 3 families will lose their homes. Donations, large ones unfortunately. Or someone who can afford to be a personal banker. Fast, .we keep in conract with our bank which could not help us, but a lady that works there is great and is worried for us. She said dont give up. The lady that appraises for the sherriffs office, is going slow as possible. If we dont get help, my families christmas will be losing our home. And ive been homeless before. It school my family lived in small tents during hurricaine hugo in florida. I xan go without, we are not spoiled, but i gotta try everything to nake this work. Im sincerely greatful for any help.

Thank you,
God bless

Hello, I never ask him for anything for himself, even about myself today is no different. Unfortunately I lost my job due to global crisis, is facing a difficult decision. I have a great Saint. Bernard dog Baryk Name 7 point. My pet weighs only 80 kg of food it costs 20 dollars a day, which I now can not afford. So I decided together to take this opportunity to ask all the good people every post on my Baryk.
The situation is as follows:
1st I Gotta Eat Baryk.
2nd Baryk eat me (metaphorically speaking) financially.
3rd find someone who will help me Baryk live until I am able to find work.
Thank you in advance for any help
Have a nice day
Sorry my English is not my native language

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Thank you for supporting me as I raise money and awareness for the THOUSANDS of children in central Africa who have been abducted by Joseph Kony and his rebel army. The money I raise will fund The Invisible Children Protection Plan -- a strategy to protect innocent people from the brutal violence of the LRA.

I will be participating in Invisible Children's national awareness event called 25, on April 25th. Thousands around the world will be silent, using our voices (by not using them) to speak out against this 25-year-long war.

Please donate and tell others about my page any way you can: Facebook, Twitter... or even word of mouth (you remember what that is, right? Phone calls. Knocking on doors. Whatever you've gotta do.)

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Together we can help these innocent children and their families not have to live in fear. Any donation will help. Living by my favorite quote "Be the change you wish to see in the world." i know i am making a diffrence and you will be too!
Namaste

Please read and donate to my fundraising page http://www.stayclassy.org/member/ic-fundraising?fcid=9192
Anything will help! Please sign up for this event and join me for the 25 hours of silence

Thank you for supporting me as I raise money and awareness for the THOUSANDS of children in central Africa who have been abducted by Joseph Kony and his rebel army. The money I raise will fund The Invisible Children Protection Plan -- a strategy to protect innocent people from the brutal violence of the LRA.

I will be participating in Invisible Children's national awareness event called 25, on April 25th. Thousands around the world will be silent, using our voices (by not using them) to speak out against this 25-year-long war.

Please donate and tell others about my page any way you can: Facebook, Twitter... or even word of mouth (you remember what that is, right? Phone calls. Knocking on doors. Whatever you've gotta do.)

And join me on April 25th, wherever you are, in staying silent for 25 hours. Together, we will put an end to 25 years of war. Sign up at www.invisiblechildren.com


Together we can help these innocent children and their families not have to live in fear. Any donation will help. Living by my favorite quote "Be the change you wish to see in the world." i know i am making a diffrence and you will be too!
Namaste

Please read and donate to my fundraising page http://www.stayclassy.org/member/ic-fundraising?fcid=9192
Anything will help! Please sign up for this event and join me for the 25 hours of silence

Thank you for supporting me as I raise money and awareness for the THOUSANDS of children in central Africa who have been abducted by Joseph Kony and his rebel army. The money I raise will fund The Invisible Children Protection Plan -- a strategy to protect innocent people from the brutal violence of the LRA.

I will be participating in Invisible Children's national awareness event called 25, on April 25th. Thousands around the world will be silent, using our voices (by not using them) to speak out against this 25-year-long war.

Please donate and tell others about my page any way you can: Facebook, Twitter... or even word of mouth (you remember what that is, right? Phone calls. Knocking on doors. Whatever you've gotta do.)

And join me on April 25th, wherever you are, in staying silent for 25 hours. Together, we will put an end to 25 years of war. Sign up at www.invisiblechildren.com


Together we can help these innocent children and their families not have to live in fear. Any donation will help. Living by my favorite quote "Be the change you wish to see in the world." i know i am making a diffrence and you will be too!
Namaste

Please read and donate to my fundraising page http://www.stayclassy.org/member/ic-fundraising?fcid=9192
Anything will help! Please sign up for this event and join me for the 25 hours of silence

Thank you for supporting me as I raise money and awareness for the THOUSANDS of children in central Africa who have been abducted by Joseph Kony and his rebel army. The money I raise will fund The Invisible Children Protection Plan -- a strategy to protect innocent people from the brutal violence of the LRA.

I will be participating in Invisible Children's national awareness event called 25, on April 25th. Thousands around the world will be silent, using our voices (by not using them) to speak out against this 25-year-long war.

Please donate and tell others about my page any way you can: Facebook, Twitter... or even word of mouth (you remember what that is, right? Phone calls. Knocking on doors. Whatever you've gotta do.)

And join me on April 25th, wherever you are, in staying silent for 25 hours. Together, we will put an end to 25 years of war. Sign up at www.invisiblechildren.com


Together we can help these innocent children and their families not have to live in fear. Any donation will help. Living by my favorite quote "Be the change you wish to see in the world." i know i am making a diffrence and you will be too!
Namaste

Please read and donate to my fundraising page http://www.stayclassy.org/member/ic-fundraising?fcid=9192
Anything will help! Please sign up for this event and join me for the 25 hours of silence

Thank you for supporting me as I raise money and awareness for the THOUSANDS of children in central Africa who have been abducted by Joseph Kony and his rebel army. The money I raise will fund The Invisible Children Protection Plan -- a strategy to protect innocent people from the brutal violence of the LRA.

I will be participating in Invisible Children's national awareness event called 25, on April 25th. Thousands around the world will be silent, using our voices (by not using them) to speak out against this 25-year-long war.

Please donate and tell others about my page any way you can: Facebook, Twitter... or even word of mouth (you remember what that is, right? Phone calls. Knocking on doors. Whatever you've gotta do.)

And join me on April 25th, wherever you are, in staying silent for 25 hours. Together, we will put an end to 25 years of war. Sign up at www.invisiblechildren.com


Together we can help these innocent children and their families not have to live in fear. Any donation will help. Living by my favorite quote "Be the change you wish to see in the world." i know i am making a diffrence and you will be too!
Namaste

Please read and donate to my fundraising page http://www.stayclassy.org/member/ic-fundraising?fcid=9192
Anything will help! Please sign up for this event and join me for the 25 hours of silence

Thank you for supporting me as I raise money and awareness for the THOUSANDS of children in central Africa who have been abducted by Joseph Kony and his rebel army. The money I raise will fund The Invisible Children Protection Plan -- a strategy to protect innocent people from the brutal violence of the LRA.

I will be participating in Invisible Children's national awareness event called 25, on April 25th. Thousands around the world will be silent, using our voices (by not using them) to speak out against this 25-year-long war.

Please donate and tell others about my page any way you can: Facebook, Twitter... or even word of mouth (you remember what that is, right? Phone calls. Knocking on doors. Whatever you've gotta do.)

And join me on April 25th, wherever you are, in staying silent for 25 hours. Together, we will put an end to 25 years of war. Sign up at www.invisiblechildren.com


Together we can help these innocent children and their families not have to live in fear. Any donation will help. Living by my favorite quote "Be the change you wish to see in the world." i know i am making a diffrence and you will be too!
Namaste

Hi

I'm a 41 year old guy and I used to be a laborer and a DJ but became sick and unable to work. I am back at college learning Music Promotion to try and get back into work eventually but it is costing me several thousands of bucks to do so in the form of a loan that I gotta pay back.

I want to become an online broadcaster but it costs $499 a year for the server package that I need and I don't have it. It's not a lot of money to most people but seems a massive amount to me as I only get around $400 a month to see me through college. If you can help me I will be eternally grateful and I will even return the money one day when I am financially secure.

I have NEVER EVER done this before but I ran across this site and figured I have nothing to loose trying. "Where there is a will there is a way!" Where to start? Sighhh...
I am the sweetest, sensitive, charitable, loving, giving, God Fearing, non judgemental, lover, encourager lady.. Many of my closest friends and family call me an "Angel on earth"... But even Angels need help once in a while.. I'm usually the helper so asking for help is new and a bit hard for me to chew..

First let's start with: My name is Crystal H.. I am a 32 year old caucasion lady that lives in Colorado.. Native to Colorado. Growing up I excelled in school thus earning 4.0 average and constant Honor Roll. I did have College opportunities ect. but at that time I met a young man in college, football player and fell in love. I had a good paying job as an office manager and thought all was good.. It was for several years anyway..We married and At 23yrs. I gave birth to my miriacle baby whom was premature and weighed 2 lbs. 11oz. I was very ill at the end of pregnancy due to acute Eclampsia so she was born early emergency c-cection, flight for lifed to Childrens Hospital in Denver and I stayed in ICU for the first week.. Keep in mind due to circumstances I never was able to see or touch my daughter before they airlifted her to Denver.. Finally one week later my doctor gave me a two hour pass to beable to go to Denver and meet my new daughter for the very first time.. Words can't tell what I felt and the emotions I was feeling.. I still tear up recounting the events.. But yes after many tears, fear of touching or holding her due to her size and all that was hooked up to her I did finally get courageous enough to hold my new born daughter after a week for the first time.. Love at first sight! Chills are still going through my body as I write this.. Anyway's over time she improved and became much stronger. She was small but mighty. I was finally released from the hospital myself and spent all my time with her at Childrens Hospital until release day.. Brought her home at 3 lbs. 12 oz and had the ultimate baby learning/motherly instincts. With 4 yrs. of twice weekly physical therapy she grew out of her challenges, and has grown into an way above average intellence, beautiful nine yr. old.. Thank you God!!!

My next challenges were none to fun at all! My marriage became rocky.. He became abusive physically, emotionally and mentally.. After about the last 3 yrs. becoming so bad and scary I could not deal with his abuse or allow my daughter seeing such activity. So with that said I asked him to leave our home. He would not leave without a police escort, but finally was gone nonetheless.. I am NOT pro divorce at all so after the initial anger callmed down I did go to him asking him to please do counceling with me and let's really try to work this all out. He REFUSED! So after being with my ex husband twelve years we finally did divorce.. =(

Right after the divorce at the age of 30, I was rushed to the ER and diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure. I was in ICU for over one week and spent several months at home on oxygen. But now since the divorce I was dropped from his insurance so I am unable to have the cardiovascular care needed and a heart valve repaired.. But I have faith one day I will beable to have this delt with.. Gotta believe!

Next was really NOT PLANNED or wanted but happened. I finally met a young man whom I started spending much time with. Due to my heart and lack of insurance I was not on birth control but did use condoms with him. Unfortunately a condom did break and yes I did become pregnant.. Three day's before Christmas last year I misscarried the baby and spent two day's in hospital due to D&C and my heart. I was released at Christmas and had a hard time dealing with the hormones, lack of support from the young man, failure in my parents eyes ect.. Just plain and simple was a hard time for me emotionally but I NEVER once let my daughter know of this and still have not to this day. She does not need to be scared any further than what she has already in life.

Now we come to current events.. Swear I have let my life become a soap opera and should right a what not to do and how to survive book for women.. sighhhhh.... Anyways. After being single for nearly a year and of course wishing I could meet a nice (preferably) Christian boy to date and enter into a relationship with a man whom I have known for several years who was a family friend while I was married came back into my life. This time he showed strong romantic gestures and over time did finally earn some trust n love with me. We entered into a relationship and it felt safe and comfortable since I'd known him so long, family new him and my daughter new him well already too..
I finally started becoming happier and was slowly gaining a little self confidence, and believing that things will end up working out finally afterall.. (Keep in mind due to lack of insurance and Heart Failure I was still not allowed on birth control pills like I wanted) we of course used protection always. But two times the condom came off in me.. I hoped all would be fine and I would not become pregnant, not at all wanting to repeat my first ordeal I had with my daughter plus now with my Congestive Heart Failure on top of it all pregnancy would NOT be good! I went to a local clinic and talked to a female doctor there and begged her if there would be anyway I could qualify for any free birth control that would not hinder my CHF.. Finally I had good news.. =) She said she would see if I could qualify for the low hormone Miranna and if I did she would implant it in my uterous for free.. This was to last for five years.. Yes one positive answered prayer. I went to my doctors oppt. as sheduled, they had me do an UA to make sure I was not pregnant before insertion and preped me for the procedure. Right before the Doctor was to do procedure the nurse came into the room and notified both of us that indeed I was pregnant.. My head swirled with confusion, fear, stress ect.. After talking to my doctor briefly about it, my history ect. I left the office and proceeded to go to my boyfriend to update him of the current events.. At the very beginning he sounded happy and positive, even eased my mind a little but about two day's later he up and left me. I have had my first ultrasound and as of yet the baby is alive and well. Strong heart beat. I am nearly two months pregnant, doctor took me off all my heart meds. due to baby. Still no insurance, applied for Medicade which really saddened me that I was at a point I had to do this.. Very humbling to say the least, and am alone, confused, many urging me to abort the baby but remember I am Christian and this is a hard concept for me to accept.. Currently unemployed, single mother, pregnant, no father support, lonely, desperate and really beginning to feel hopeless.. There is a high probability that the acute Eclampsia could repeat itself again as it did with my daughter and now I'm older than before. Not 23 anymore now I'm 32 with Congestive Heart Failure and Hypertension. Trying to support my nine year old the best I can and now so worried and fearful of what is to come.. Christmas just happened and it so did not feel like Christmas to me. Not much I could do for my daughter or my loved ones. I'm so scared of what the near future holds and how I will beable to deal with it, and be healthy enough to continue taking care of my nine yr. old. Need a good job but kinda feel it would be hard since I am so high risk I have MANY constant dr. visits. Neonatal parnatologist, my OB, and supposed to find a cadiologist as well to monitor me.. Medicade pending but no answer if they would accept me yet, bills piling up, and feeling out of control totally of my life right now.. Sad and confused that bf left me too.. I'm praying sooooo hard daily, nightly, looking on internet for at home jobs I could do but most end up seeming like scams, keep going to church in order to help try to keep me grounded and keep the faith that somehow it will all work out.. I sure hope I have not bored you to death, some may be pretty disgusted by my mistakes and situation, but I do hope nonetheless that maybe even just one person actually found this post, read it through, and maybe just maybe is in a posistion of life that they could and would be willing to help me out a little.. The whole "Pay it forward" campaign.. I fully believe in that and fully believe what goeas around comes around.. Regardless of the outcome I wan't to take a moment to wish everyone that took the time to read my post all the best to you and yours, full love and ENDLESS BLESSINGS to all!

With love and true sencerity,
Crystal H...¢¾


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