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Hello, I am so uncomfortable doing this. I am a 42 year old woman with two wonderful toddler boys ages 3 and 2. My troubles started in 2010 during my pregnancy with my second child. I became very sick and the doctors were unable to find the cause. During the search for a cause I was diagnosed with Lymphoma, but the cause was finally identified when I gave birth two months prematurely. I will not go into graphic detail, but I came out of the hospital 7 weeks later,with shortbowel syndrome and other serious problems. My son thankfully was fine and is thriving. I worked for a government agency for 16 years, and suddenly found myself surviving on disability. I must add that my husband was not much of a help. We are currently seeking to get divorced after 5 years of marriage. Through my illnesess he has been verbally, emotionally and on occasion physically abusive. I prolonged the divorce due to my health conditions and he is a good father to our children. My, what I thought was an upstanding, husband lost his job in 2009 and has not worked since but some small jobs. Even though he has worked, he has barely contributed to supporting the family. I have managed to keep the family afloat by paying the critical bills. What I haven't been able to pay is:

*our monthly condo maintanence fee of $258.00 for the past 3 months.
*I have a $160.00 car insurance payment due on 6-10-12, this will keep my paid until 10-10-12.
*The divorce attorney is asking for a $2500.00 retainer.
*June health insurance of $555.00.
*The numerous unpaid medical expenses.

I make it happen with the rest of the things my boys and I need. In July of 2012 I will recieve Medicare, since I will then have been on disability for 2 years. I think that will make things somewhat easier on me. As a note, lymphoma is not being treated right now. Thank goodness the nodules have remained stable, though if there is any change I will probably have to start some sort of treatment.

Any kind of help would be greatly appreciated. Since almost dying in 2010, I have a renewed faith in God (though I have always been a believer). I know that God walks beside me and my children and the He watches over us. Prayers to all that are on this site, whether asking for help or giving it.

My kid brother is a 29 year old who is dieing from End Stage Kidney Decease. His Dr said the following:
that he is terminal, he needs help and I need help to provide for him as he has no income and can not work. He has been staying with me since just before Christmas(about three months after he was diagnosed), He spends most of his day dealing with hospitals and the nights going to dialysis treatments then back home. he is applying for SSI and SSD but still no word as of yet. In the mean time I need help to purchase the medical equipment his doctors have required him to have at home, also we need clothing for him as the last 3 clothing banks I have gone to near our home have had nothing his size. His diet is a dialectic renal diet and I can no longer afford to provide foods that meet it's stringent standards with out help. He dose not qualify for pre-SSI as he has no children. We have tried everything and now must resort to begging for help. We need a bed, bedding, a Fridge, clothing, activities(Batman themed), food, a new kidney would be nice. The list goes on, Please help If you can I can provide letters from his DR as proof.
This has put a strain on all of us both physically and emotionally But I love my kid brother our parents are dead so we have no one to turn to.

Email me @ angelswings2@yahoo.com
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Melissa

My kid brother is a 29 year old who is dieing from End Stage Kidney Decease. His Dr said the following:
that he is terminal, he needs help and I need help to provide for him as he has no income and can not work. He has been staying with me since just before Christmas(about three months after he was diagnosed), He spends most of his day dealing with hospitals and the nights going to dialysis treatments then back home. he is applying for SSI and SSD but still no word as of yet. In the mean time I need help to purchase the medical equipment his doctors have required him to have at home, also we need clothing for him as the last 3 clothing banks I have gone to near our home have had nothing his size. His diet is a dialectic renal diet and I can no longer afford to provide foods that meet it's stringent standards with out help. He dose not qualify for pre-SSI as he has no children. We have tried everything and now must resort to begging for help. We need a bed, bedding, a Fridge, clothing, activities(Batman themed), food, a new kidney would be nice. The list goes on, Please help If you can I can provide letters from his DR as proof.
This has put a strain on all of us both physically and emotionally But I love my kid brother our parents are dead so we have no one to turn to.

Email me @ angelswings2@yahoo.com
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Melissa

My kid brother is a 29 year old who is dieing from End Stage Kidney Decease. His Dr said the following:
that he is terminal, he needs help and I need help to provide for him as he has no income and can not work. He has been staying with me since just before Christmas(about three months after he was diagnosed), He spends most of his day dealing with hospitals and the nights going to dialysis treatments then back home. he is applying for SSI and SSD but still no word as of yet. In the mean time I need help to purchase the medical equipment his doctors have required him to have at home, also we need clothing for him as the last 3 clothing banks I have gone to near our home have had nothing his size. His diet is a dialectic renal diet and I can no longer afford to provide foods that meet it's stringent standards with out help. He dose not qualify for pre-SSI as he has no children. We have tried everything and now must resort to begging for help. We need a bed, bedding, a Fridge, clothing, activities(Batman themed), food, a new kidney would be nice. The list goes on, Please help If you can I can provide letters from his DR as proof.
This has put a strain on all of us both physically and emotionally But I love my kid brother our parents are dead so we have no one to turn to.

Email me @ angelswings2@yahoo.com
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Melissa

I need money for an apartment. I am currently living with my ex boyfriend because I would otherwise be homeless. He is emotionally and physically abusive and it is extremely difficult living with him. He wants me to move out as soon as possible, but no later than the end of July. I found an apartment for $700 a month, but need a few thousand to move in--deposit, furniture, two months rent.

I have a job but I barely make enough to pay my bills. I can't even buy myself groceries. I apply for other jobs every day and never get them. I am a college graduate and am intelligent and would appear to be pretty normal if you saw me at the store. But I have slept in my car when my ex boyfriend has kicked me out at times and I fear I will be living in it soon. It wouldn't be too bad, I guess, but I have cats and it's impossible for my cats to live in my car.

I am a good person and always try to help other people whenever I can. I just need a little help now. I have no friends or family anywhere in the area and I feel hopeless. I have had a hard life, from an abusive childhood to where I am today, but I am strong. I am positive about my future, if only someone would be willing to help me today.

Even a very small amount would be appreciated.

What do you say when you are entreating an entire world of strangers to come to your aid? How do you sound deserving of their help? How do you express, without writing a novel, why you are in need, how you came to be there, how you came to choose this way of seeking help, and how very afraid you feel.
First, the reason I chose this method. I was feeling frustrated one night after being asked to work another fund raiser. While there is no doubt that the family is very much in need their financial security was markedly better than my own. I was wondering why it seemed that it was always people who already had some means at their disposal who got that kind of sympathy and help. Obviously I was feeling self centered but still the thought remained, what kind of resources were there out there for people like me, people barely above poverty level and struggling to keep from going under. So...I started searching the internet and came across references to "begging" online. I was shocked, I was appalled...I was hopeful. The anonymity of it was a big plus.
Feeling so hopeless, and out of control is very frightening for me. I work with the public. The street people call me Smiley because I try to always stay upbeat while at work and they know that if I can I will always help them with a dollar or two when they need it. There are many people ( even those who are only a few years younger than my 55) who call me Mom and have come to me for assistance both emotionally and financially. I have two adult children of my own and many more that have come through my household and are a part of my family even though they are not related biologically. I send my own Mother money a couple times a month. She lives on a fixed income that doesn't even cover here cost of living. I can no longer afford these things but I don't know how to cut off the aid to others even though I, myself, am in need of aid.
My husband and I come from poor families and were determined to make a better life for our own children. Since we both only had high school educations neither one of us are in well paying jobs but we have always managed to survive and our children never had to worry about whether Mom and Dad were going to be able to feed and clothe them. But things have gotten progressively worse this year.
I tried to start a small business in order to provide my oldest grandchildren and one of my children with a secure job and something meaningful to do. Trying to keep them out of the "system" and teach them to have self respect, and trying to provide a means for them to have financial security. But the business never picked up and we were funneling money into it...my daughter lost her husband and we were also supporting her household. The financial strain has put us in debt that we cannot pay. Our cars have broken down, there are three running vehicles for six drivers to use getting to work and looking for work but no money to repair or replace them. My daughter and her children are living in my home, having lost theirs, and my husband and I are staying with my youngest and her family. Her husband was recently laid off and she is expecting her second child. My husband had to have surgery and that put him off work for six weeks, and now in order to keep his job we have to somehow pay for hearing aids ($3000 for the least expensive ones). Although it is hard we have stuck together and are helping each other as best we can.
The problem is that I see no end in sight. Just the electric bill is $6oo a month thru the winter months. Fuel is outrageous. Food for this many people (5 adults, 3 late teens, and 3 small children) is very expensive in this state. Mortgage payments, gas for cars, and phones...these are things everyone has to pay. I know there are many who are far worse off than I, at least we still have roofs over our heads. But the output is so much higher than the income and each month, each WEEK, sees me feeling a little more desperate. How will I, will we, end up? Will we all be living on the street next year? The interior of Alaska is no climate for the homeless. I don't know what it will take to make this better, to make my family secure but I hope there is help out there for us.

I am begging for my friend. Lisa is a wonderful mother of 4. She has had a tough life and had to overcome many hardships, one of the biggest was helping her 5 year old daughter battle leukemia. She is separated from her emotionally and physically abusive husband and raiding her two youngest children alone with no financial help. She was just diagnosed with an extremely rare form of uterine cancer and had to undergo two very major surgeries and is now recovering.
Lisa has done so much for her family and friends over the years, she deserves to have something given back. She is in very serious financial trouble right now and her utilities have been shut off. She has not been able to work and her ex is not helping. Any financial help would be appreciated. Her dream is to take her children on a vacation to Universal Studios in Florida. Her children have been so brave and supportive of her, she would like to give back to them.

Hi, I'm Brittany, and I'd like to describe an unfortunate event that has recently befallen me.

Four months ago, during the holiday season I received a call from my mom who was facing some rather emotionally tumultuous times. She related to me that she felt like she just could not endure her life any longer and was considering ending it.

I was personally extremely concerned, as I have always highly valued and admired her. At her request, I quickly forsook all my current ambitions to come to her aid. I moved into her apartment with her and tried to soothe her with my company, and also advised her about healthy lifestyle choices that could help balance out her severe depression and alcoholism. I got a job and began helping her pay her bills when her boyfriend showed up. His first words to me were literally "I'm marrying your mother" not long after he began to command my mom to kick me out.

After many attempts to assure them I would surely save money to get my own apartment, I bought a truck to get worked on and began to save money for an apartment. At first I considered moving to stay with other family members, but eventually decided to stay in Sarasota and get my own apartment.

Without giving me any notice to find another place to live, my new "step father" stated that I would no longer be welcome there, although they knew I had no other options or any money to get an apartment.

They then went to a judge and filed a Marchment act to have me involuntarily placed in a detox facility where I was released under forty-eight hours later with negative results for all substances, including alcohol.

Now I am left on the streets with nowhere to go.

What I am asking of anyone who reads this, please assist me with any kind of resources that you know of, such as live-in maid employment, rooms for rent, a place to stay until I save money for an apartment or anything that will help me be independent again.

I'm a teacher's aide in a non public school for emotionally disturbed kids so needless to say I don't make much and I'm off work in summers. I make enough to get by with my fiance's help but he was just locked up due to his friend leaving a pipe in the car. We both don't use and were just getting where we wanted to be when this happened. Rent is due next week, it's $950, if I don't pay I'll lose my house and my daughter since I have nowhere to live so her dad would get custody. Please anything can help, I don't want to lose my daughter and be living in my car. God bless

My name is Christine and three months ago my father passed away. He was the only person in my life who I had finically and emotionally!! Due to the funeral costs I went they my life savings lost my job because of my depression and lost my car!! I need help ASAP please!!

Hi - I know this is probably going to sound ridiculous, but I really have nowhere else to go at this point. I am 22 years old, and I just moved out of my mom's house. Well, "escaped" would probably be a better term for it - my mom is very emotionally, psychologically, and verbally abusive, and she used a lot of things of that nature against me to keep me from leaving her. For the longest time, I thought my life was normal, but when I became 20, I realized that things in my life were far from that. I have been planning this jump for years, and I finally managed to do it. I literally had to wait until she was at work before I could get my things and move in with my friend. As of now, I am seeking employment of my own (I worked with my mother before, which is obviously out of the question now), and I am struggling with a lot of different financial situations. My vehicle is very old and the license plates are expired, and I have no money to update or repair them. I have two traffic tickets due for them by the end of April, and I am very worried about it. I am also wishing to go to school, but I seriously doubt that is going to happen at any point soon because of my situation. Things just seem to be getting worse and worse the more that I think about them, but anything is better than being under my mom. So please, if you have a heart and can understand my situation, I would ask that you donate whatever you wish to help a young woman out on her own. Thank you very much for your consideration, and may you be blessed.

Hi - I know this is probably going to sound ridiculous, but I really have nowhere else to go at this point. I am 22 years old, and I just moved out of my mom's house. Well, "escaped" would probably be a better term for it - my mom is very emotionally, psychologically, and verbally abusive, and she used a lot of things of that nature against me to keep me from leaving her. For the longest time, I thought my life was normal, but when I became 20, I realized that things in my life were far from that. I have been planning this jump for years, and I finally managed to do it. I literally had to wait until she was at work before I could get my things and move in with my friend. As of now, I am seeking employment of my own (I worked with my mother before, which is obviously out of the question now), and I am struggling with a lot of different financial situations. My vehicle is very old and the license plates are expired, and I have no money to update or repair them. I have two traffic tickets due for them by the end of April, and I am very worried about it. I am also wishing to go to school, but I seriously doubt that is going to happen at any point soon because of my situation. Things just seem to be getting worse and worse the more that I think about them, but anything is better than being under my mom. So please, if you have a heart and can understand my situation, I would ask that you donate whatever you wish to help a young woman out on her own. Thank you very much for your consideration, and may you be blessed.

My name is Jamie. I'm a 24 year old disabled college student ( I have celebral palsey ) studying to be a LCSW . A few years ago, I lost my Daddy to diabetes and with his death, I lost the only person who ever believed in me.

My mother is abusive both physically and emotionally. Because of this, I chose to be homeless instead of going back to live with her. I was homeless for almost a year and never panhandled . I just went without and lost a great deal of weight -- getting very sick.

I was diagnosed with PTSD while my father was alive because of my past and it only got worst after he died . Still , I pushed on. I got a little apartment and got myself back in school.

This year, I lost my grant because one of my prof failed EVERYONE in that class and it affected my others as well. Because of this, I had to pay for classes myself and have been pretty much broke ever since.

I never begged while homeless , but I'm doing so now.

I should also mention that I let someone stay with me for a while and she took full advantage of me and put me futhur into debt-- but I refused to let her be on the streets in the cold because I remembered what that felt like.


Everything that could go wrong this year has but I refuse to give up.

I need money for food as my food stamps have run out this month. My phone and cable are about ready to get shut off as well and I need both for school.


I'm just as poor college student doing my best to get by. Please help me.

Cable: 53.00 needed by the first
Phone: 60.00 - ASAP

Food: Any amount.

Thanks again.

Hi,

(Note: You may see this same post on beggingmoney.com)

My name is Eliabe. I am an 18-year-old guy from Brazil and I need your donation because I need to move away but I can't afford it.
Let me tell you why.

I grew up being abused by my dad -- emotionally and sexually. I did not realize what was happening until recently. I still have to deal with the consequences. I became social phobic, anxious and depressed. I am still afraid, disgusted of and uncomfortable with touch and closeness, yet I am dying for it. An African therapist agreed to help me for free, so I am getting better but only very recently am I making progress.

Three, almost four, years ago (2008), my family rejected me over religious issues. I wanted to join this Sabbatarian Christian religious association (this particular sect is a minority in Brazil and honestly everywhere else but they're more present in the US and England) and my family rejected me and reproached me so severely that it radically changed my personality. They wanted to throw me away. I was only 15. I had nowhere to go. I was deeply shocked and shaken on the inside. I never knew I could feel so hurt! I had never expected such sudden rejection from them. My mom said I was a disappointment to her and that I would not stay under the same ceiling as hers if I wanted to keep my faith. My siblings made fun of me and my new beliefs. My father demonized me and said he'd take me to their religious authorities to “straighten me out.” They accused me of bringing a curse into our lives and treated me as a shame to the family ("What will others think?" they wondered). My relatives (uncles, aunts, cousins -- I have a big family) were all against me too. I did not tell my friends because they belonged to the same religion as my parents. I started isolating from everybody. I became very deeply depressed. I would sleep just not to have to be awake and suffering.

It was really overwhelming to me. I had nowhere to go, no one to turn to. The congregation was out of town. So I decided to give up on joining that group. However, I did not stop believing in them but I had to pretend to be in my parents' religion on the outside.

But then my life became a nightmare. I had bad dreams at night. I became paranoid. Every time I was outside, I would walk around the house many times before taking the courage to go in. My heart would pound every time the phone or doorbell rang or someone called my name or asked about my religion. I would feel sick and go pale every time someone initiated a conversation about religion with me. I was traumatized. I am only getting better now. I fainted many times as I got weak because my mom refused to cook clean kosher dishes for me. I can’t even begin to describe all the sacrifices and pains I had to go through not to lose my identity. I can’t, for example, go out on a date or have a serious friendship because I am hiding the most important part of myself. Try to have a relationship where you do things you can’t explain the other party. Do you think it can ever work? My friendships are all shallow because of that.

I am a recent high school graduate. I took a basic course on administrative services and telemarketing last year, paid by the government as part of a program in Brazil called “Jovem Aprendiz” (“Young Apprentice” in English). As part of that course, I am working part-time, supposedly to acquire experience in the field, though I actually work as a warehousing assistant in the company (completely unrelated to administrative services). As I only work part-time (4 hours a day), I only receive HALF the minimum wage, which means I earn about $2 per hour. Yes, I could save that money to achieve my goals. It would take over two years but it would be possible. But I can't at the moment because I have to support my parents and siblings. My brother also works and my dad has recently found a job after three years of unemployment but I still have to give them a significant part of my salary or else we will starve. Also, even if I could, I’d still be desperate because I have been suffering for almost FOUR YEARS!

So I want to move away because I want to be free to convert and live my life, have friends, a girlfriend and a normal life. I got a passport and contacts in the United States. They can help me once I am there but they can’t buy my plane tickets as they cost over $800! There are also additional costs as I need a visa. I am currently looking for a job there. There have been people who want to hire me but they stopped contacting me after learning of the costs they would have to pay.
So please help me. It is the ONLY way for me to be happy again! It doesn’t matter how much you donate. It will make a HUGE difference.

Thank you very much. God bless you!

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I am sorry to bother you but i have exausted all avenues i dont know who else i can go to for help.I will try keep this brief as possible as i dont want to bore you but will need to explain a few things for you to understand. I am 28 years old male i came out as Gay to my ex-partner on the 9th of May 2011 who i had been with for 11 years we had a joint tenancy and have a 6 year old son together. My ex partner knew that she could not make me leave our property with the housing assosiation so on the 31st of May she came home and started laughing telling me i would be leaving that night with what she had planned to do me being nieve thought she was mouthing off at 9pm that evening she called the police pretending to cry and scream telling them i was head butting her and trying to attack her and she felt in threat of her life which was a lie as i wasnt even in the same room as her i even made a point of walking into the room and calmly saying why are you lying for , anyway to cut long story bit shorter she had police make me pack my belongings that evening and leave in which my mum said i could temp stay at her house. She stopped me seeing my son even on his 6th birthday she tormented me with saying if i wished to see him i could drive down to the flat sit outside and look at him by window which i did and destroyed me. I had to take time off work as i became in very deep depression and intotal was off work for 4 months was seeing doctor and still am for my depression. On the 9th of May police came to my mums and arrested me which again destroyed me as i have never been in trouble with the law and to be honist am scared of police i spent 12 hours in a cell then was interviewed and given no furthur action as even the police officer said looks like she is playing the system, but even with getting no furthur action i was told i could not return back to the property and that if i did i could be arrested so i was forced out my home which she didnt allow me to have any of my belongings. She is very clever playing system as she is currently still making out she is unfit to work for the hurt ive caused being gay and saying i have emotionally destroyed her. I have been to Greenwich council as well as my local housing assosiation i done a housing application on the 19th May 2011 but was told i am not priority and would be waiting years. I can not afford to go private letting i can not get that kind of money together and am not entitled to any benifit help. My dad found out im Gay and wants me out of there house now i am being cursed every day by family "whens the poof going" , "wont have gay boy in my home" it is destroying me if it was not for my son i would rather die than live this so called life. I went back on numerous occassions to greenwich council and continuiously bid on propertys every week but am told i have a long wait and they will not even help me with tempoary accomadation my expartner allowed me to see son every other weekend but now she has fallen out with my mum she will not let me see my son until i have my own place for him to come , what am i meant to do. My parents want me out , i cant see son yet no one will help me with housing , I am seeing a Gay councilling service to help me deal with coming out and what comes with that but they can not help me with housing this is my biggest problem of them all as without me having my on fixed secure property i will not be able to see son and my emotional state will never improve and this scares the hell out of me. My dad is telling me i have till end of january and he is kicking me out and then what??? i have no where to go no friends or family to go to i even looked into letting rooms and then ex partner said she will not allow me to see child as its not secure for him.I AM TIRED AND EXAUSTED and in all honisty would rather be dead then alive but cant because cant do that to my son. I really need someone to help me even if it is with a tempoary accommadtion whilst i am bidding for a permant council place i have again been to greenwich council and was rudly told by a member of staff "well you should of thought about that when you decided toi tell your expartner you were gay" and told "your old enought to take care of yourself sleep in a car if you have to" i am horrified and disgusted that my own local council can treat someone in this way and again is this because im GAY . I only have one option after fighting all avenues and thats to try rase £1000 to put down as a deposit on a place i am homeless with nowhere to go have been sleeping in car and at work place i am having to resort to asking peoples good nature to donate what ever they can to help me this would be more than greatfully appricated and i make a promise that when back on my feet all money raised i will match that value and donate to charity one being young people that are homeless and mcmillian cancer. I am very sorry for having to ask strangers for help but this is my final last resort. Many Kind Regards

I am 24 year old mother to a 5 year old girl. I recieve no help from her father wh is absent in her life. I am employed nd work hard, things are just finacialy hard for me. i had another child who passed away 5 months ago which not only hurt me emotionally but finacially to. my 5 year old and myself need counsling to deal with the matters and money plays a big part of the process. like i said i do work and always have but for the first time i really need help. any contrubution will help and be fully appreciated. Thank-you for reading!

Dear friend,
I've spent the last 6 years paying my own way through school but now, nearing the end of my first year of graduate school, I have fallen upon tough times. The money I receive is not enough to pay my rent or bills or put food in the fridge (I get about 190$ every two weeks). The stress of not knowing how I'm going to pay my expenses while I write my thesis is taking a serious toll both emotionally and physically. I'm constantly depressed and suffering from stress headaches. I'm afraid this will affect my academic work which will in turn have serious consequences on my future. I don't need much, maybe 1000$? Just enough to get me through the next couple months after which I will hopefully have figured something out. Please help. I'm desperate :(

After 19+ years of marriage, I divorced just over 1 year ago. My ex-husband & I have 2 children; a high school senior & a college sophomore. During our kids' early years, my ex-husband's salary allowed me to be a stay-at-home mom, which I loved. His employment involved extensive travel & many moves; 8 moves in 19 years. I supported the moves & the job changes, including a failed franchise in which we lost over $150,000. I earn $25,000/year; he earns approximately 6 times more; however, the divorce settlement saddled me with $60,000 of credit card & loan debt. I was emotionally drained, out of money & agreed to the terms. He is 16 years my senior & near retirement. A prenuptial agreement bars me from any of his retirement. He earned the money, and I am not bitter about the retirement aspect. I have stopped paying the credit card & loan payments as rent & car payment are more important. His girlfriend is a wealthy widow with 3 homes & a Lexus. I don't want to file bankruptcy, but I believe that's my only option. I do not have a college degree. I have a good job with good health benefits. I work for the state of WI, have not had a raise in 3+ years and do not see a raise in the near future. I have taken on a 2nd job. I have no need for vacations or material possessions; I do want is to live a life where I am not afraid to answer the phone for fear that caller is a creditor. I would also like to contribute to our children’s college education. I sincerely thank you for your time.

Hello,

I'm in a desperate need for ANY donation and prayer. I need to leave the house where I am staying at as I'm not being treated welcomed...and am so afraid to be homeless living in the street. I have a small older dog that is practically blind, so moving to a shelter is not an option for me as I would never leave my "best-friend" behind.

I've always worked, been independent and loved giving when I was in the position to do so. I'm currently unemployed and am no longer receiving benefits. The worst part is that I don't have a car and that makes my job search more difficult as I reside in Texas. Ideally, I would love to relocate to another state as I am so emotionally hurt by the cold treatment of family members.

Any donation would be appreciated even if it is a dollar or less. And if you can’t donate, please just pray for me as that would mean so much to me. If you have any questions please feel free to ask.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my post and God Bless.

I'm a 31 year old male, oh and my 4 year old kitty. Life has not been easy but I always did my best to keep moving forward. From dealing with childhood abuse to climbing the corporate/social latter and falling.. I've always tried to "handle it" and do everything the right way, all on my own and helping everyone I could in anyway I could along the way.

I've worked very hard and instead of being out there in the world stealing or making babies I can't afford I got a good job, car, and bought my first home at age 20. I'm the kinda friend you know has his own issues and he don't wanna bum you out with them but you can say "Hey James, I can't make my rent, can I borrow this.." or "James my house burned down can I come live wit you?" or "my boyfriend is about to be deported can you buy his old car so we can afford the lawyers?" and my answers are as follows; How much you need?, how long Can you stay + here's $2000 come buy a co-op in my building I'll put in a good word for you, and will it pass inspection?? All this before I was even 25 and these people were older than me! Grown men coming up to my desk at work tell me "I'm hungry" or even just a simple "Feed me" while perched atop my cubicle like a starving pigeon and we'd laugh and joke and sure enough I would buy or bring in something good to eat. I'm the kind of friend that for your birthday from me your most likely to get something we saw in a store window months ago, just to surprise you and make you happy cause it was meaningful to you. Also very kind to those I don't know who seem to be in need, even when we didn't speak the same language, they were drunk and I didn't know if I was walking into trouble.

Somewhere between then and now my life has turned completely upside down. The weight of what I had previously survived (praise God) and what I am now going through don't balance anymore. I lost that home and car and job due to a disability and even though by now you must think me a generally upbeat, diligent, resourceful, praise his name in wrong or right soul I'm lost and I need to rebuild. My entire support system was slowly picked off by my family and close friends life circumstances. I hate telling people how it all happened because to me it sounds like I'm saying I'm cursed and horrible things just keep happening to me. I accept my responsibility for my end and do self checks constantly. Even when thrown into situations far beyond my years, or no one should expect and try to deal with careful thought, civility and grace.

The one last thing I had to hold on to, that was keeping me strong and helping me grow as a person was the love I thought I had but apparently I did not. Lying, fear, cheating, HIV, emotional abuse, sneakiness, poverty, hurt, uncertainty, finding out the person who was the love of your life gave him HIV on purpose but still didn't want him!, cancer and treatments, severely persistent and mental illnesses, self-centeredness, the loss of friends and family acting shady and all that was just my relationship with my EX! So of course me being me for the most part stowed my problems.. "as usual" even if it left me in a bad spot financially, emotionally or physically and I was there! Loving and Supportive even after I was almost attacked. It's a fine line between being a damn fool and doing the right thing, I know but now I'm all on my own. I'm on medicare but the co-pays and deductible are killing me, I can't stay where I am, I'm fat, unhappy and depressed but still thanking God for all the blessing, some time's I feel like asking for more would be an exercise in futility But I'm here. I recently learned that it's ok for me to ask for help. What I'm begging for is to please, please, say a prayer for one another and me! be good to one another and if you could please help me reach my $2,000 goal to a new begining of self sufficiency so I can stop being a broken person and go back to helping others, me and kitty would be forever in your debt and pray for you as well. Amen

I am going through a really rough patch right now. I am afraid I will lose my home if I do not find work ASAP. I have been searching and still keep coming up with nothing. I learn quickly, however, and will do ANYTHING.

If I lose my home, I lose everything, including my 2 cats. It would be devastating to me if i lost them.

I have appled for unemployment. Unfortunately, I was out of work for quite some time since I was only going to school and before that I was living at home as a stay-at-home dad/brother/son. So basically, I do not qualify since I haven’t accumulated the ammount of hours I need. Also, in my past, I was into drugs and have a felony drug possession which bars me from so many opportunities. It was almost 6 years ago and I’ve changed a lot since then but it still haunts me. I’m starting to feel like I want to give up on life altogether. I started going back to church and cleaned my life up since then…

A few months ago, I got a job at 7-Eleven and was using that to survive on. About a month into my job, my boss called me and told me I can’t work there anymore because of my background check. Basicly got fired for the crimes I mentioned above. This crushed me. Then I found work at a restaurant and lasted there for another month. I lost that job as well because of a false accusation I had nothing to do with. I tried to speak on my defense but my boss wouldn’t hear it. This crushed me too. So, out of desperation, I looked for work again and fell into Kirby… If anyone knows what this is, they can understand I was completely scammed. They made promises of $1850/month salary. I needed to make a quota of sales to earn that. Well…. they made it impossible for me to achieve that goal by the way the company is ran. I was working 80+ hours a week. In that time, I got very sick, broke my glassses, couldn’t make it to church or my community group and everything was going down hill fast. I sold 3 Kirbys in that time and my boss says I will make a measly $75 commission total off those. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained because of this…

My rent was due on the 5th and I don’t have a penny to show for it. I am on bad terms with my landlord now and have no idea what to do. I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m only spinning my wheels getting nowhere.What can I do?! If I lose my home, I lose EVERYTHING, including my 2 cats which I love more than anything... I worked so hard for Kirby and got nothing but a few bucks coming to me. All my time was wasted.

What can I do? I need a “3 day pay or vacate” notice to receive any kind of rent assistance from an agency. All I want to do is to work and make money like everyone else but everything I do fails… I can’t get work that requires a background check and have no transportation or money for a bus. My home has no food either and I’m about to lose my mind.

I don’t know what else to do but BEG on this website and pray someone is generous enough to help. I know after working 80+ hours a week in Kirby in the worst conditions that I have the drive and strength to work hard. All I need is some time to find work again.

Thanks so much for reading my story and thank you even more for donating. I hope this is the door God has opened for me to make that miracle.

I am going through a really rough patch right now. I am afraid I will lose my home if I do not find work ASAP. I have been searching and still keep coming up with nothing. I learn quickly, however, and will do ANYTHING.

If I lose my home, I lose everything, including my 2 cats. It would be devastating to me if i lost them.

I have appled for unemployment. Unfortunately, I was out of work for quite some time since I was only going to school and before that I was living at home as a stay-at-home dad/brother/son. So basically, I do not qualify since I haven’t accumulated the ammount of hours I need. Also, in my past, I was into drugs and have a felony drug possession which bars me from so many opportunities. It was almost 6 years ago and I’ve changed a lot since then but it still haunts me. I’m starting to feel like I want to give up on life altogether. I started going back to church and cleaned my life up since then…

A few months ago, I got a job at 7-Eleven and was using that to survive on. About a month into my job, my boss called me and told me I can’t work there anymore because of my background check. Basicly got fired for the crimes I mentioned above. This crushed me. Then I found work at a restaurant and lasted there for another month. I lost that job as well because of a false accusation I had nothing to do with. I tried to speak on my defense but my boss wouldn’t hear it. This crushed me too. So, out of desperation, I looked for work again and fell into Kirby… If anyone knows what this is, they can understand I was completely scammed. They made promises of $1850/month salary. I needed to make a quota of sales to earn that. Well…. they made it impossible for me to achieve that goal by the way the company is ran. I was working 80+ hours a week. In that time, I got very sick, broke my glassses, couldn’t make it to church or my community group and everything was going down hill fast. I sold 3 Kirbys in that time and my boss says I will make a measly $75 commission total off those. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained because of this…

My rent was due on the 5th and I don’t have a penny to show for it. I am on bad terms with my landlord now and have no idea what to do. I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m only spinning my wheels getting nowhere.What can I do?! If I lose my home, I lose EVERYTHING, including my 2 cats which I love more than anything... I worked so hard for Kirby and got nothing but a few bucks coming to me. All my time was wasted.

What can I do? I need a “3 day pay or vacate” notice to receive any kind of rent assistance from an agency. All I want to do is to work and make money like everyone else but everything I do fails… I can’t get work that requires a background check and have no transportation or money for a bus. My home has no food either and I’m about to lose my mind.

I don’t know what else to do but BEG on this website and pray someone is generous enough to help. I know after working 80+ hours a week in Kirby in the worst conditions that I have the drive and strength to work hard. All I need is some time to find work again.

Thanks so much for reading my story and thank you even more for donating. I hope this is the door God has opened for me to make that miracle.

I am going through a really rough patch right now. I am afraid I will lose my home if I do not find work ASAP. I have been searching and still keep coming up with nothing. I learn quickly, however, and will do ANYTHING.

If I lose my home, I lose everything, including my 2 cats. It would be devastating to me if i lost them.

I have appled for unemployment. Unfortunately, I was out of work for quite some time since I was only going to school and before that I was living at home as a stay-at-home dad/brother/son. So basically, I do not qualify since I haven’t accumulated the ammount of hours I need. Also, in my past, I was into drugs and have a felony drug possession which bars me from so many opportunities. It was almost 6 years ago and I’ve changed a lot since then but it still haunts me. I’m starting to feel like I want to give up on life altogether. I started going back to church and cleaned my life up since then…

A few months ago, I got a job at 7-Eleven and was using that to survive on. About a month into my job, my boss called me and told me I can’t work there anymore because of my background check. Basicly got fired for the crimes I mentioned above. This crushed me. Then I found work at a restaurant and lasted there for another month. I lost that job as well because of a false accusation I had nothing to do with. I tried to speak on my defense but my boss wouldn’t hear it. This crushed me too. So, out of desperation, I looked for work again and fell into Kirby… If anyone knows what this is, they can understand I was completely scammed. They made promises of $1850/month salary. I needed to make a quota of sales to earn that. Well…. they made it impossible for me to achieve that goal by the way the company is ran. I was working 80+ hours a week. In that time, I got very sick, broke my glassses, couldn’t make it to church or my community group and everything was going down hill fast. I sold 3 Kirbys in that time and my boss says I will make a measly $75 commission total off those. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained because of this…

My rent was due on the 5th and I don’t have a penny to show for it. I am on bad terms with my landlord now and have no idea what to do. I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m only spinning my wheels getting nowhere.What can I do?! If I lose my home, I lose EVERYTHING, including my 2 cats which I love more than anything... I worked so hard for Kirby and got nothing but a few bucks coming to me. All my time was wasted.

What can I do? I need a “3 day pay or vacate” notice to receive any kind of rent assistance from an agency. All I want to do is to work and make money like everyone else but everything I do fails… I can’t get work that requires a background check and have no transportation or money for a bus. My home has no food either and I’m about to lose my mind.

I don’t know what else to do but BEG on this website and pray someone is generous enough to help. I know after working 80+ hours a week in Kirby in the worst conditions that I have the drive and strength to work hard. All I need is some time to find work again.

Thanks so much for reading my story and thank you even more for donating. I hope this is the door God has opened for me to make that miracle.

I am going through a really rough patch right now. I am afraid I will lose my home if I do not find work ASAP. I have been searching and still keep coming up with nothing. I learn quickly, however, and will do ANYTHING.

If I lose my home, I lose everything, including my 2 cats. It would be devastating to me if i lost them.

I have appled for unemployment. Unfortunately, I was out of work for quite some time since I was only going to school and before that I was living at home as a stay-at-home dad/brother/son. So basically, I do not qualify since I haven’t accumulated the ammount of hours I need. Also, in my past, I was into drugs and have a felony drug possession which bars me from so many opportunities. It was almost 6 years ago and I’ve changed a lot since then but it still haunts me. I’m starting to feel like I want to give up on life altogether. I started going back to church and cleaned my life up since then…

A few months ago, I got a job at 7-Eleven and was using that to survive on. About a month into my job, my boss called me and told me I can’t work there anymore because of my background check. Basicly got fired for the crimes I mentioned above. This crushed me. Then I found work at a restaurant and lasted there for another month. I lost that job as well because of a false accusation I had nothing to do with. I tried to speak on my defense but my boss wouldn’t hear it. This crushed me too. So, out of desperation, I looked for work again and fell into Kirby… If anyone knows what this is, they can understand I was completely scammed. They made promises of $1850/month salary. I needed to make a quota of sales to earn that. Well…. they made it impossible for me to achieve that goal by the way the company is ran. I was working 80+ hours a week. In that time, I got very sick, broke my glassses, couldn’t make it to church or my community group and everything was going down hill fast. I sold 3 Kirbys in that time and my boss says I will make a measly $75 commission total off those. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained because of this…

My rent was due on the 5th and I don’t have a penny to show for it. I am on bad terms with my landlord now and have no idea what to do. I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m only spinning my wheels getting nowhere.What can I do?! If I lose my home, I lose EVERYTHING, including my 2 cats which I love more than anything... I worked so hard for Kirby and got nothing but a few bucks coming to me. All my time was wasted.

What can I do? I need a “3 day pay or vacate” notice to receive any kind of rent assistance from an agency. All I want to do is to work and make money like everyone else but everything I do fails… I can’t get work that requires a background check and have no transportation or money for a bus. My home has no food either and I’m about to lose my mind.

I don’t know what else to do but BEG on this website and pray someone is generous enough to help. I know after working 80+ hours a week in Kirby in the worst conditions that I have the drive and strength to work hard. All I need is some time to find work again.

Thanks so much for reading my story and thank you even more for donating. I hope this is the door God has opened for me to make that miracle.

I am going through a really rough patch right now. I am afraid I will lose my home if I do not find work ASAP. I have been searching and still keep coming up with nothing. I learn quickly, however, and will do ANYTHING.

If I lose my home, I lose everything, including my 2 cats. It would be devastating to me if i lost them.

I have appled for unemployment. Unfortunately, I was out of work for quite some time since I was only going to school and before that I was living at home as a stay-at-home dad/brother/son. So basically, I do not qualify since I haven’t accumulated the ammount of hours I need. Also, in my past, I was into drugs and have a felony drug possession which bars me from so many opportunities. It was almost 6 years ago and I’ve changed a lot since then but it still haunts me. I’m starting to feel like I want to give up on life altogether. I started going back to church and cleaned my life up since then…

A few months ago, I got a job at 7-Eleven and was using that to survive on. About a month into my job, my boss called me and told me I can’t work there anymore because of my background check. Basicly got fired for the crimes I mentioned above. This crushed me. Then I found work at a restaurant and lasted there for another month. I lost that job as well because of a false accusation I had nothing to do with. I tried to speak on my defense but my boss wouldn’t hear it. This crushed me too. So, out of desperation, I looked for work again and fell into Kirby… If anyone knows what this is, they can understand I was completely scammed. They made promises of $1850/month salary. I needed to make a quota of sales to earn that. Well…. they made it impossible for me to achieve that goal by the way the company is ran. I was working 80+ hours a week. In that time, I got very sick, broke my glassses, couldn’t make it to church or my community group and everything was going down hill fast. I sold 3 Kirbys in that time and my boss says I will make a measly $75 commission total off those. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained because of this…

My rent was due on the 5th and I don’t have a penny to show for it. I am on bad terms with my landlord now and have no idea what to do. I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m only spinning my wheels getting nowhere.What can I do?! If I lose my home, I lose EVERYTHING, including my 2 cats which I love more than anything... I worked so hard for Kirby and got nothing but a few bucks coming to me. All my time was wasted.

What can I do? I need a “3 day pay or vacate” notice to receive any kind of rent assistance from an agency. All I want to do is to work and make money like everyone else but everything I do fails… I can’t get work that requires a background check and have no transportation or money for a bus. My home has no food either and I’m about to lose my mind.

I don’t know what else to do but BEG on this website and pray someone is generous enough to help. I know after working 80+ hours a week in Kirby in the worst conditions that I have the drive and strength to work hard. All I need is some time to find work again.

Thanks so much for reading my story and thank you even more for donating. I hope this is the door God has opened for me to make that miracle.