Determination Tags

I'm a single mother aged 35. I've lived in California for almost 14 years ( it will be 15 this year on memorial day weekend.)
I’m going to be a little blunt, because I'm tired and I want to give up so bad, but I can't. I'm better than that and my kids are my motivator. I wake up everyday and remind myself of 2 things :1) Faith is what you have when you all your beliefs are blown to hell. 2) What doesn't kill you makes you stronger -Nietzsche

I am a 35 year old educated, ambitious, head strong woman. I have owned my own business with my soon to be ex. I know what hard work and determination are. I went to private school and I am educated. I value my community and have always given back and will continue to do so. I also know that I have the drive and determination to get myself back on track. I'm not ASKING for a handout, I'm asking for help up! I also know what loss is. I don't have the business, a house or EVEN the car anymore. We lost everything. He bounced back , I didn’t. All I have is HOPE, that someone or some program can help me carve a path back to self sufficiency.
It's gone continually downhill.I am amazed at the allotment of programs for both housing and employment for all different walks of life. However, what about those that are just struggling. No hang ups, no record, just struggling and are LOW INCOME. I'm not writing this to make you feel sorry, I'm writing this because I have exhausted possibilities that I have researched both on my own or been given the information to do the work with.
There are people who struggle everyday through no fault of their own. They don't want a hand out, but help up would be a relief. Society doesn't need band-aids they need solutions.
Not every county, city or state program fits everyone's needs.
First of all Section 8 has been closed since BEFORE I left my marriage so that idea could never work. The list has been closed for years. Because I have limited time with my children, I do not qualify for CALWORKS. I have tried getting assistance in every way possible. I had very little unemployment left since I have been struggling to find work. I was delayed for about 3 months because they needed verification and I had to appeal and request a hearing. I have won my appeal but will only receive $91/week and for a short period of time.
I took a project management class through WIA in 2011, and I was able to get CTB benefits. I NEED HELP. I have hit the absolute worst point in my life and still refuse to give up. I have been looking for work and am now HOMELESS.I am in week 3 of staying in an extended stay hotel (paid for by my mother back east, who makes maybe $26,000/yr in PA) I recently sold my car because I needed to pay bills and rent. I have maybe $75 to my name.
The fact that they say there are services for low income/ homeless is frustrating. I say this because there is no category for me. I'm not a drug addict or in recovery. I don't have a mental illness. I wasn't in prison, I don’t' even have a RECORD. I can proudly say I've never been arrested or even in the back of a cop car. I'm not a victim of domestic violence and I do not beat my kids. Why aren't there programs in place for single parents struggling to make it? Everyday people that are responsible and respectable. I understand the need to assist those that may not have the capacity to take care of themselves. However, I have a huge problem with the fact that Santa Clara County & all programs (private, govt or state funded) will rehabilitate and reintroduced felons into the community, but if you're poor, homeless, no record, are looking for work, have high intelligence; sorry, you can't get help. This sounds extremely cynical and jaded, but I am a little after going through all I have.
I have been told constantly “I wish I could do something but we don't have any programs to help you.” My favorite reply is: "Yeah and you have done everything. I'm surprised you even knew about all the programs you did"
I have talked to employment counselors, program coordinators, program advocates and case managers, volunteers, just about anyone. The bankruptcy is hindering my chances of securing housing, even if I had employment.

The icing on the cake has to be with food stamps and General Assistance. I qualified for Cal-Fresh. However, at the time I had a car worth $2200. So I wasn't able to get General Assistance. Fast Forward a year later, I HAD to sell my car to pay bills. Now this month when I went for General Assistance, I qualify.

It's a never ending cycle, a constant push down. I can take public transportation to work, but to get around and see my boys and being able to transport them would be extremely difficult, not to mention financially stressing. I have scoured employment books, read articles, searched the library, spent hours online trying to find a job, program, a company, anybody who could be a resource whether for low income assistance or employment.
I can probably tell you about a plethora of services this county (Santa Clara) offers for both income assistance and job services.I am registered with CALJOBS; I know all the career sites and have my resume there. I get interviews, however I am starting to think the bankruptcy from loss of business is holding me back when employers do background check.
I also could teach the business writing class or the resume writing classes they offer at Work2Future, I practically did when I took them. I could do the same at Sacred Heart. I've been to InnVision and EHC. I’ve talked to Sunnyvale Community Services. Boy he was a treat he sounded older then my 80 yr old grandma. When I said I need housing and employment help, he gruffly told me to check the newspaper and hung up. I've called St Josephs in Gilroy. I've talked to a program coordinator at West Valley Community Services. I called the Sobrato Organization hoping they had ties to something and one the employees just by grace of god happened to pick up and take my call. I was able to talk to someone at HIF (they couldn't help)
.
I am responsible, respectable and just want to work, have a place to live, and be able to have my children 50/50. I have no police record. I am not in recovery, nor have I ever had to be in a program
I want to work and am attaching a compilation of ALL my work skills. I would not send this out otherwise, I would tailor it specifically to the job I am applying for.

I used to volunteer as much as I could I like being active in my community and helping others. I'm still about that I believe in PAY IT FORWARD. I believe the good you do comes back to you tenfold and that no matter what is going wrong in your life, someone else is struggling just as much if not more; so be thankful for what you have.
I attend church and was a hospitality volunteer for that as well.
I just need help getting on my feet. I have no family, other than my children here in CA.
I do not want to move back east and be far away from them. I want to work, I want to live again. I want to smile and mean it.

I hate what my life has become and know that I am SO MUCH BETTER THEN THIS.
Please help me : money is fine, but it's only a temporary fix, please help me find a program that can assist me in getting on my feet, direct me to employment, and most of all afford me the opportunity to have my children much more consistently so I can be a mom again.
Thank you
Courtney DiMiceli

Hi, I am aspiring to be a music producer. About two years ago I decided that this is what I want to do for the rest of my life, which is why I spend so much time practicing, every spare minute I have is spent learning new aspects of audio production. I'm so dedicated to this, all I wan't to do is produce music.

I still feel that my skills are lacking in a few different areas, so last year I started sending out applications to studio's around the UK, the replies that I got stated that I need a degree in Audio Production to be able to work in a recording studio. So since last year I have been searching for an institute to study at and found an amazing place to study called SAE Institute in Liverpool. The course is a 2 year BA/BSc (Hons) Degree in Audio Production, and after the course ends you are prepared for work in any sector of the audio production industry, from music production to live sound and broadcast, post production for film, video and TV. So there are many different roots I would be able to go down if I was lucky enough study there.

I have managed to save £4000 up to now, however, the fee's and living expenses amount to around £29,000, (this is a link to view the living expensis http://www.saeuk.com/downloads/FeeSchedule(Combined)Liverpool.pdf) Unfortunately, I cannot get funding for the course and a bank loan is not available to me but by the time the course starts on 07/10/2012 I will hopefully have saved around another £4000.

After looking for ways to generate the funds I need to be able to study at SAE I came across this website, I think it's an amazing way to help someone out who is in need. I'm just really hopefull that there will be someone out there who has been in the same situation as I am now, who know's how it feels to wan't something so bad that it hurts. I really feel I have the drive and determination to succeed in reaching my goals of becoming a music producer and any donation that you make, big or small, will have helped me get a step closer to fulfilling my dreams. I appreciate you taking the time to read this, and if you are kind enough to donate and help me, I will be forever in you debt. Thankyou.

Beglist, after much pursuing and determination I have finally found a good job. It is with a government company, and as such, I do not get paid until the 15th of the month. I have maxed out my cards to pay for gas to get to work, I just need maybe $10-$20 to help me until payday. I have NO money, if I spend anything at the pump I'll start getting charged fees for not maintaining a minimum balance. I just need a LITTLE bit to help me get by!

I honestly don't know if this will ever find anyone who may help but I'm being optimistic despite the odds. I honestly don't know how to truly explain my situation but to say that I've just been "stuck in a rut" for, let's be honest, over a decade. I don't regret my life, for I know that I've lived it the best way I knew how & with the limited resources that I had available. I also don't regret it because my experiences have made me the person that I am today. I have done everything possible to make sure that my family is safe & healthy. Ultimately, they come first! However all I can say is that I've just been wrapped up in so many unfortunate circumstances that have had many factors that were out of my control, that basically one can conclude that I'm just NOT a lucky person!

Here's some history: Basically when I started college my family lost our home due to my mother's gambling problem. This lead to my father's infidelity which ultimately lead to their divorce (which both my parents made me decide if they were to separate or not). Several months later I found myself pregnant & kicked out of both my parents apartments. During that time I still tried to keep things together by working as many shifts as I could & by going to school during the day. It was hard because I was like a nomad, moving from one friend's house to another. At times I even slept in my car. But then there came a point where my pregnancy became too complicated and I ended up living in the hospital for 2 months before my child was born at 7.5 months. Due to his pre-maturity and the many complications that ensued I decided devoted my life to taking care of him. It worked to some point, where I was able to drop my 3 jobs and obtained a stable one. I was also able to obtain a certificate from university. However, when my father died. I felt the obligation to take on the responsibility of honoring his last wishes. In a sense it aided me to find a type of closure yet in another way it had opened Pandora's box. It was not easy grieving and dealing with my father's side of the family, my mother's side & to add more, my father's girlfriend's side. The funeral, the back taxes owed by my father, my husband loosing his job & my son constantly getting sick... All expenses were on me. To add more "injury" within the span of 9 months I was in a total car wreck, I gave birth to my second child & then I was in a horseback riding accident, that almost paralyzed me. Honestly, what are the chances of going horseback riding for the first time, loosing control & getting thrown off?!

I've really tried my best to deal with things one day at a time & also do it with a smile. But now I find myself dealing with arthritis, kidney problems, crazy medical fees, no job (since the company closed), and bills now reaching almost $60,000. Even as I look at that number now, I honestly feel a sense of nausea...

The only thing I do know is that, I still have a lot in me to give and I've tried, despite it all, to give it back by going back to school to become a licensed nursing practitioner. It may sound crazy & it comes at a very inopportune time (considering that I'm drowning in debt!) but by doing this course, it helps me in so many ways. It calms me... It gives me a sense of purpose, knowing that I may alleviate a person's pain, even in the slightest, which in turn somewhat alleviates mine as well. It also gives me confidence knowing that all the teachers that I have encountered during this course say that they believe in me, in my determination & in my will power to survive & conquer.

So ultimately, I'm asking you this... For your help, to help me help others. Even if you could spare $1.00. One small step, is still a step forward for me. And like I said in the title, despite all the things that I've gone through, I'm still optimistic & I still have a little fight left in me. So please help me fight!

I'm in desperate need of help. Four years ago, I graduated into recession, I got temp job but I needed reliable transportation. So, I got 2004 Chrysler Sebring, it was practical car that took care of me and I was able to take care of the payments.
Consequently, my life went downhill because after February 2009, I got laid off and I got hurt and had to get on disability for a year. When I got healed, I look very hard for employment with determination and persistence I found a part time job at Denny’s in August 2011. I was happy about it because my unemployment exhausted in July of 2011 so it was blessing. But until then I was able to take care of my car payment because unemployment gave me enough to take care all of my bills.
Sadly, I work 8 hours a week for $ 8. So, I’m only receiving $200 a month to pay for all my bills which is impossible. As you can see even with this job I'm in jeopardy of losing my car I have 25 more days until they repossess my car. I pleading for you to help me because I cannot lose my car I still it need to look for more employment and to take of business errands. I already paid 16,280 I have another 9,000 to go. I tried refinancing, trading it in, or giving it to someone else but my efforts fail due to my bad credit and low income. I'm very depressed and upset that I can't take care of this car loan. I been trying so hard to keep this car and don't want to let it go. Please help me you are my only hope in keeping my car. Please respond as soon as possible before its too late. Thank you for your time and patience.
Sincerely,
Shakia

Hello, my name is Scott and I am here asking for help because I... have run out of every alternative to get my life and my project studio business off the ground. It's at a dead stop. I was laid off in March 2011 due to company downsizing, could not qualify for unemployment because the previous employers "claimed" I'd quit. Job hunted on foot in Chicago from March to August filling out 4-9 applications a day, 5 days a week without a single call from anyone. Exhausted all of my bank accounts, can not get a load due to not owning a car or home, had to sell my car just to pay off debts, lost my apartment because ex-roommate thought it was better to steal from me and lie about having a job than telling the truth. My parents are in the hospital, so they are in no shape to help me.

The only way I have been able to contact people is by relying on my girlfriend's Internet, electricity, helping her cook and clean while "guest staying" at her apartment but know this won't last. I ask too much of her help to watch my cat while I continue to look online.




All I ask is for someone, anyone who can help. My goal is simple: I need to raise enough money to start a art design, publishing studio which would bring in clients who need visionaries to help make their designs, commercials, products, books, ebooks, animation using the next wave of 3D technology, FX special effects for student filmmakers in Chicago colleges, to help bring in interns and show them the pros and cons to hone their skills, and finally bring together Chicago artists who wish to have their talents and skills to create extraordinary work for any and all who wish to see it.

Bottom line, I need help. Financial help. I don't know what else to do. I can't get a job, for whatever reason, I'm flat broke, exhausted from sleeplessness and stress. All I own is a laptop, some clothes, my wonderful artistic skills, (my undying determination, good sense of right and wrong, knowledge of computer programs, business sense, sharp humor and a kind heart to make my dream a reality. I really don't want to live under a expressway but if things don't change, it looks like my next post just might be my last.

For those of you who have read this and given some thought, please help by donating. Who knows, you might be lending out to the future "Industrial light and Magic" of the 21st century?






This is for more that just myself, this is for a cause that needs help. Help from people like you who know the value of the human heart. This is to help create a studio designed to welcome those who wish to create, strive, teach, animate, and pioneer. Imagination is the last, boundless frontier, let's be a part of that journey by helping one another dream it to fruition.

No dream ever truly dies, we just let them fade away.



Help me change that. Any help will do.






Thank you for reading.

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Like many wide eyed young students, I was under the impression that getting a 4 year degree would help me snag a pretty sweet job. Likewise, like many graduates, I have come to the realization that this promise is a tall tale spun by universities and lenders trying to leach off my future living funds. If I take the suggested route to pay back these student loans I will, in fact, be paying a total of $182,00 after interest attacks.

To help combat this large sum of debt (and this extra $82,000 I didn't even spend on anything) I have decided to take every possible route I can to ensure that my parents can live life knowing their daughter can afford to eat.

My first steps: I am moving to a state where I can make more money (alone and scared, but ready to pay these suckers off). I am also giving up any luxuries I once afforded myself (Ramen noodles are quickly becoming my best friend) and (as you can see) begging for money. Just $1 from 100,0000 people could knock this debt out. I am relying on my own determination as well as on the kindness of strangers.

I am also toying with the ideas of 1. faking my own death and building a raft to float to another country, 2. joining the Peace Corps, because I heard they might pay off some of your debt, or 3. becoming a stripper, because the jobs I have found so far afford less money than my last resort (which is number 3, so you know).

So, in summation, I would like to ask all you strangers out there to donate even a penny to my sad circumstance. In return for a larger sum I could draw or paint someone a pretty picture and update them as my situation progresses. I also make a wonderful pen pal. All you have to do is check out my PayPal. For a dollar a month you could help me meet the basic necessities of life (such as food and not faking my own death).

Thank you for your time.

Hello, my name is Michelle Madruga and I am a teacher at a middle school at an inner city school. Most of the students at the school are low performing, come from poverty, and crime infested areas. I am asking for donations to earn money for different items. I would like to take my AVID (Advancement via Individual Determination) students on college field trips that will show them a different life and see that their dreams can truly become a reality. I would also like to earn money for AVID T-shirts so that when we do team building activities and visit colleges, my students can feel like a united academic team (much like many of the other schools we see. Finally, I would like to allow my students to earn incentives for their hard work. I am a teacher with a limited salary and children of my own to support, but I also want to give these kids a positive educational experience that will give them the motivation to keep striving for more. When we invest in the lives of kids, we (the people of these societies and world) only benefit. Thank you so much for your time and efforts towards this cause. Your donations are much appreciated.

I would like to tell you a story that relates to why I am asking for help.
My father was a Vietnam vet who proudly enlisted into the army to serve his country. After willingly serving two tours of duty, he came home and married my mother (his high school sweetheart) and started a family consisting of me and my two older sisters.
When I was four, my father began experiencing difficulties with his legs and feet. After many unsuccessful operations, it was determined that he was losing the bone density in his legs and he was put in a wheelchair.
My father was an amazing man; he never let his being in a wheelchair keep him down. He climbed Pike's Peak twice and Mount Evans once in his wheelchair, one of his climbs was filmed by a local TV show in Colorado called P.M. Magazine. We have the video footage on beta and are trying to find a way to convert it to DVD. I would love to share his story with anyone wanting to watch it. It shows what a courageous man he was. It was a heartbreaking climb over rough terrain and sometimes he had to strap his wheelchair to his ankles and drag it while he scooted up steep inclines on his backside. It never deterred him. He had more strength and determination than any man I have ever met in my life. He also ran marathons in his wheelchair and spoke to other handicapped and disabled individuals to help them realize that although someone may be hindered, it just means that they learn to function differently. "I may be in a wheelchair, but the wheelchair isn't in me," he used to say.
In 1987, when I was 12, the harsh weather conditions of Colorado became unbearable for my father and we moved to Las Cruces, New Mexico.
My father was never granted disability in Colorado or New Mexico and while he fought for 30 years for his pension from the Army, he never received that either (the common story of we can't seem to find your files even though my father repeatedly submitted his paperwork to show his contribution to our country). As a result, my mother found herself working 2 full time jobs just to support us and we still barely made ends meet.
We grew up poor our entire lives, but we understood what it was like to be rich in other ways. Our family was close and we knew that, no matter how rough things could be at times, that we really did have each other. My sisters and I grew very close over the time when we had no electricity and only had each other to listen to because we didn't have the power for television and radio. We are still very close to this day. I will never regret how we grew up, even with the struggles, because it was the foundation of who we are today. We all learned how to be kind and unselfish and value each other. Both my sisters and I all have our own children and work hard to instill the same values in them.
In 2000, my father was diagnosed with lung cancer as a result of being subjected to Agent Orange while in Vietnam. The tumors were visible in both lungs and nothing could be done. He passed away one week after the diagnosis. We had no time to prepare and certainly no time to say goodbye.

My mother now lives in PA in a cute little Amish town. She has since remarried a wonderful man named Jack. He is also a Vietnam veteran.

My sisters and I still live in New Mexico with our families, although my heart is definitely on the east coast with my mother.
A short time after my mother moved to PA, she got a
job as a nurse. She loved helping other people as she had done all her life. Unfortunately, she suffered a fall that left her with permanent neck and spinal injuries. After going through her own numerous surgeries, she was unable to continue the work that she loved so much. The tables have turned from when we were growing up where she was the only source of income and Jack has been the sole provider for the last several years.
Recently, Jack began to feel very ill and it looks like the effects of Agent Orange have done their damage once again. He is suffering from skin cancer and stage 4 prostate cancer and after going through a series of tests, the probability of also having lymphoma is very high. My mother is going through the same horror once again and while my sisters and I are grown, losing a father to Agent Orange for the second time isn't easy on the heart.
A few years ago, my mother lost both parents and her only sibling, a brother, in the span of four months. She has nobody and I can't bear to leave her alone while she suffers physically and emotionally.
Unfortunately, I lost my job a couple months ago due to layoffs and have had extreme difficulty finding another source of income. Las Cruces is a small city with very limited opportunity. While I worked in the same profession for the past 11 years, I have applied for any and every type of job I could find.
We are struggling to find a way to move close to my mother so that I can take care of her and so she won't be alone if she loses Jack. My sisters and I are the only family she has left and I want nothing more than to be there for her.

I am hoping to find a job there very quickly and I would also love to attend schooling and get my degree in forensics. It has been a dream of mine to be able to assist in solving crime related cases. I firmly believe that I can accomplish my career goals and help my mother if I were in a state with far more job opportunities.
We have never been comfortable financially and my 2 teenage boys understand what it is like to do without the things they want in exchange for just the things they need, much like my sisters and I when we were growing up. I have always wanted more for my kids than to see them grow up here in a high poverty state. I believe the job opportunities and schooling for them will be equally beneficial. They both already have career minded goals that will take them farther in a bigger state.

It has been 4 years since I've seen my mother as neither of us can afford the expense of a trip.

All I am requesting is enough assistance to be able to move my family closer to my mother and locate a house to rent while I search for a job. I am only asking for short term support as I know that I am capable of supporting my own family and I am certain that I will be able to find gainful employment in a short time.

I would like to tell you a story that relates to why I am asking for help.
My father was a Vietnam vet who proudly enlisted into the army to serve his country. After willingly serving two tours of duty, he came home and married my mother (his high school sweetheart) and started a family consisting of me and my two older sisters.
When I was four, my father began experiencing difficulties with his legs and feet. After many unsuccessful operations, it was determined that he was losing the bone density in his legs and he was put in a wheelchair.
My father was an amazing man; he never let his being in a wheelchair keep him down. He climbed Pike's Peak twice and Mount Evans once in his wheelchair, one of his climbs was filmed by a local TV show in Colorado called P.M. Magazine. We have the video footage on beta and are trying to find a way to convert it to DVD. I would love to share his story with anyone wanting to watch it. It shows what a courageous man he was. It was a heartbreaking climb over rough terrain and sometimes he had to strap his wheelchair to his ankles and drag it while he scooted up steep inclines on his backside. It never deterred him. He had more strength and determination than any man I have ever met in my life. He also ran marathons in his wheelchair and spoke to other handicapped and disabled individuals to help them realize that although someone may be hindered, it just means that they learn to function differently. "I may be in a wheelchair, but the wheelchair isn't in me," he used to say.
In 1987, when I was 12, the harsh weather conditions of Colorado became unbearable for my father and we moved to Las Cruces, New Mexico.
My father was never granted disability in Colorado or New Mexico and while he fought for 30 years for his pension from the Army, he never received that either (the common story of we can't seem to find your files even though my father repeatedly submitted his paperwork to show his contribution to our country). As a result, my mother found herself working 2 full time jobs just to support us and we still barely made ends meet.
We grew up poor our entire lives, but we understood what it was like to be rich in other ways. Our family was close and we knew that, no matter how rough things could be at times, that we really did have each other. My sisters and I grew very close over the time when we had no electricity and only had each other to listen to because we didn't have the power for television and radio. We are still very close to this day. I will never regret how we grew up, even with the struggles, because it was the foundation of who we are today. We all learned how to be kind and unselfish and value each other. Both my sisters and I all have our own children and work hard to instill the same values in them.
In 2000, my father was diagnosed with lung cancer as a result of being subjected to Agent Orange while in Vietnam. The tumors were visible in both lungs and nothing could be done. He passed away one week after the diagnosis. We had no time to prepare and certainly no time to say goodbye.

My mother now lives in PA in a cute little Amish town. She has since remarried a wonderful man named Jack. He is also a Vietnam veteran.

My sisters and I still live in New Mexico with our families, although my heart is definitely on the east coast with my mother.
A short time after my mother moved to PA, she got a
job as a nurse. She loved helping other people as she had done all her life. Unfortunately, she suffered a fall that left her with permanent neck and spinal injuries. After going through her own numerous surgeries, she was unable to continue the work that she loved so much. The tables have turned from when we were growing up where she was the only source of income and Jack has been the sole provider for the last several years.
Recently, Jack began to feel very ill and it looks like the effects of Agent Orange have done their damage once again. He is suffering from skin cancer and stage 4 prostate cancer and after going through a series of tests, the probability of also having lymphoma is very high. My mother is going through the same horror once again and while my sisters and I are grown, losing a father to Agent Orange for the second time isn't easy on the heart.
A few years ago, my mother lost both parents and her only sibling, a brother, in the span of four months. She has nobody and I can't bear to leave her alone while she suffers physically and emotionally.
Unfortunately, I lost my job a couple months ago due to layoffs and have had extreme difficulty finding another source of income. Las Cruces is a small city with very limited opportunity. While I worked in the same profession for the past 11 years, I have applied for any and every type of job I could find.
We are struggling to find a way to move close to my mother so that I can take care of her and so she won't be alone if she loses Jack. My sisters and I are the only family she has left and I want nothing more than to be there for her.

I am hoping to find a job there very quickly and I would also love to attend schooling and get my degree in forensics. It has been a dream of mine to be able to assist in solving crime related cases. I firmly believe that I can accomplish my career goals and help my mother if I were in a state with far more job opportunities.
We have never been comfortable financially and my 2 teenage boys understand what it is like to do without the things they want in exchange for just the things they need, much like my sisters and I when we were growing up. I have always wanted more for my kids than to see them grow up here in a high poverty state. I believe the job opportunities and schooling for them will be equally beneficial. They both already have career minded goals that will take them farther in a bigger state.

It has been 4 years since I've seen my mother as neither of us can afford the expense of a trip.

All I am requesting is enough assistance to be able to move my family closer to my mother and locate a house to rent while I search for a job. I am only asking for short term support as I know that I am capable of supporting my own family and I am certain that I will be able to find gainful employment in a short time.

After leaving catering college at the age of just 20, I embarked on my career, but it was taken away along with my life just a few months later, ( im now 55 ) during college my dad died of cancer, it had been my turn to watch over him that night, I was just 15 years old, and I awoke to find that he had died during the night, his hand had locked on to mine whelst I had been a sleep, and I had to have it removed by my big sister, I cannot forget this it broke my heart,my dad was just 47 when he died, it affected me for the rest of my life.

It also profundley changed my mothers demeaner, it changed her, and I was last to leave the family home, and it was so hard.

To make matters worse only a few years ago my mother passed on, and I was away dealing with my own medical problem at the time and missed her passing on, I wanted to say goodbye, it haunts me to this day, that my parents left this world in such a manner.

I am in my late 50s now, back in the early 70s, I was a passenger in a friends car, he pulled out into the path of another car, onto a fast piece of road, and our car was hit at over 90 miles an hour. My seat belt broke with the impact, and I was thrown through the cars windscreen. I, landed on the tarmac and next the car I had been in was bulldozed over my body.

It bulldozed the other car on to my neck and chest, trapping me under it. My arms were pinned to my chest by the cars sill, and my neck was bent up against a cold granite wall, my right leg was wrapped around the back axle. I was ready to die, but held on to life with every passing breath, god must have been watching over me that night.

It took the fire crew an hour to cut me out, then it was off to the hospital, on arrival all my clothes were cut from my body, on examination it was found that my right leg was near on severed from the knee, and was hanging on by a thread of my skin.

In addition I had 4 broken ribs, severe cuts and bruises everywhere and a small spilt in my skull, this skull spilt was not significant at the time, but would go on to ruin my entire life. My mouth was full of broken windscreen glass and I was vomiting blood because of it. Back in the 70s there was no MRI scanner so I was just given an X ray of my head.

Because my leg was the main problem the little split in my skull was just left then as being nothing, but it would play a big part in my life. After being cleaned up and admitted to the ward, I settled back to a 12 week stay, and Around the 3 week mark of being in hospital, the surgeon said there was now no chance of me being able to walk again on my right leg.

I broke down in tears, cried a river and could not understand why me. During my stay in hospital my boss came in and told me he could no longer keep my position open for me. This was devastating for me, I had worked so hard at college to be a chef, and had climbed my way up the ranks to be a chef in charge.

And was now at the age of just 20 cooking in a world famous Hotel, and it was my life, I had left school only 5 years beofre the accident, and had studied at college to be a chef, now because of this crash my career was finished in one hit, my employer had spoken to the drs, who had said working in a kitchen enviroment would be to dangerous for me, so my career was over right there right then.

I now lay in the bed stunned and deeply hurt that because of this accident, I had now lost everything at the age of just twenty!. Then one day I noticed some feeling in my right legs big toe, I screamed for the nurse, and she brought along a Dr.
Over the coming weeks I fully regained the use of my right leg. Of course I thought everything was going to be alright, but from the day I left hospital some 35 years ago now to this day, I have suffered so much.

You see the knock on the head I had during the car crash, damaged the cerebellum part of my brain, a part called the cerebellum tonsil. The severe knock to my head caused the tonsil, to drop out of the cerebellum part of my brain a few mm. And for the last 35 years this part of my brain as been dropping slowley a few mm each year towards my brain stem.

The affect it as is to disturb the cerebral spinal fluid that goes around my brain. The tonsil dangles into a space where it should not be, disrupting the flow of csf, which in turns gives me a wide range of medical disorders.

I suffer with ringing sounds in both my ears every day, 7 days a week, I have headaches daily, coupled with dizziness sickness, and pain in spine and neck, some days i cant feel my legs or walk on them, some days my arms dont work, my balance is hopeless, I cant sleep for severe pain, I cry all the time in private because of the situation I have been in these last 35 years.

To look at me I look like any normal kinda guy but life as been so tough these last 35 years.
The brain surgeons that I have seen have told me that to operate as a 75% chance of death for me, so they prefer me to live with the disabilities until such a time when I become in risk of death, and then they will operate on me seeing theres no other option, this means I live with countless medical conditions all of which I have had to live with for 35 years.

These medical conditions have made my life a living hell, for 35 years ive been dizzy off balance, severe headaces, and forced to go to bed every night knowing that I could die at any given time.
I lay in bed with symptoms of my brain damage rushing all over my body, trying to think positive for 35 years, im now 55, and wish so very very much that I could have given my wife and children a proper home to live in, one we owned, in a nice area, and not to have had to rely on handouts from the goverment merely to excist.

I cry, ive cried oceans of tears in despair in private, while Ive tried to work a way out of this hell for my family and me,but of course my disabilies dont allow me to get a break, so just had to live it for 35 years, ive never stopped trying, but ive made my illness well worse, and just cant do it anymore.

I was a young man of just 20 years old, and my whole life and anyone who would be with me, had changed in the blink of an eye. We got no compensation back when I was 20, and I was a passenger!!! I got shafted by the insurance company, with no dad, and mum still grieving his death, I got ripped off by the othersides insurers. If I was able to just change one thing in my past, it would be to not except that lift in my friends car.

The worst thing about all of what happened to me is, that for the first 12 years after my accident none of the medical people we went to see knew what could be making me so very very ill, so it was hard to get any help at all, after 12 years of seeing hundreds of doctors, one of them finally!!! decided to allow me to have a full brain and spine MRI, but this same doctor had been writing in my medical records that I was a waste of time and that nothing would be found wrong with my brain.

He, had written in my medical notes that there would be no scan because it would be a waste of time, He then reluctently gave me a brain scan, and reported it has normal to my family doctor.
My wife then ordered up copies of my medical records from that doctors hospital, and we found that he had lied about my brain scan, the brain scan records stated that I had a very rare brain damage that would be caused by a trauma such as a car crash.

We can only think like our family doctor does, that the dr who had written my brain scan results to be normal, was trying to cover him self after years of writing in my medical record rubbish about me, and now seeing that I had a rare brain damage had tried to cover it up"!!!!.
I was so angry after the last 12 years of hell, and to now see that this showed that my brain had been damaged severely all those years before, and that I had been made to live in terror all those years that had just passed.

My family said we should get a solicitor to champion our case, and we did, but the one we chose was a bad one, who during our legal case was struck off for mishandling another bigger case, it was in all the newspapers, and when that solicitor was barred from practising, our case was left in such a state that no other solicitor would touch it.
We took my case to 3 other solicitors, all of which said that the 1st soliictor had ruined of chance of winning, and we were left to suffer.

All of these things have mede me so very very tired, plus heavy debt, all my medical symptoms to cope with, and tring to live on pennies, the goverment gives very small amounts to live on, it just about covers food rent and some of the other costs of life. My life, and others with me as been so hard since 20 years old, thes last 35 years feel like 200 years to my body and soul.

So many horrable things have happend to me, my whole life as been blighted from such a young age, ive tried, ive tried so hard, im tired now so very very tired,
As I write this, I find it hard to think, motavation is so hard, each day is full with pain, grief, despair, money truly is the only way we can feel a little better, but we cant get any, so its bills bills bills, we live, but we dont do any more than that.

Now its just me and my wife, who means everything to me, I want holidays and nice things in our home, but we live on pennies and are feeling the affects of what happened to myself 35 years ago. I want my wife to enjoy life the way we were ment too.

My wife helped me through every year and we have 3 wonderful children, these days its been tough trying to make a living owing to my disablement, in the early days of my children growing up, I tried with every part of my determination to make a good home for them, but we could only ever live in social housing, and it was so so hard growing up in some of the areas we had to live in.
As my health as gotten worse we took on debt to keep above water so to speak, benefits were no where enough to live on. my wife and I now owe £50,000 in loans and credit cards, all of which over the last 35 years as built up just to roof and feed our family, and pay ever increasingley high water electric and gas bills.

I have had my dignity taken at the age of just 20, 35 years ago, and have lived a hellish life of pain, and tearful memories of what I use to be. none of what happened to me was my doing, just a passenger in a car.
Any help that anyone out their can afford will help us to live a little bit better. Thanks in anticapation of anything you can afford to give, it will be used to make a better life for me and my wife thanks and good bless.

I'm the personifacation of wasted potential. I'm a very smart person who has never been able to live life because life keeps happening to me. I was a teen father, a soilder, a police officer, a up and coming finance guy a business owner, a landlord, a supervisor, a manager, a regional manager, and now a begger. I wish I could say that I knew what happend and could blame it on one thing, but I can't. Had a kid at 19 left school to feed him and joined service, got hurt in trainning and discharged w/o benifits, became a cop but only made 24,000 yr left got into finance was laid off after 9/11. to every odd job debt collector, waiter, pizza delivery you name it i did it but still lost my house. and am about $300,000.00 in the whole. I dont want fish I know how to fish at on time I had several rental properties, but sold them to open a restaurant i'd hope'd to make a chain, but it failed in 2 years.

I have no legacy to pass on to my kids only pride and determination. But I need your help to get back on my feet. I want to fish, not be given fish. I want to restart my realestate business but give back to the community by providing low income housing and shelter for battered and abused woman and children. I need to clear my debt and raise 50,000.00 seed money to do it that will get me into my first property and all i have to do from there is what i did the first time to get multible properties. but this time I will keep them and add value to the community and my family.

I ask you to give what you would waste, a pack of smokes, a drink a dinner out a movie, miss one and you will make countless lives better through me. This I promise and I've lived and served long and hard enough to know not to squander what I get and to build on your kindness and generosity. I've never asked for help before but I've grown to understand what no man is an island means. Please help me and I will help others by helping myself.

Thank you in advance for your time and consideration in this matter.

I remain your humble servant in waiting.

I'm the personifacation of wasted potential. I'm a very smart person who has never been able to live life because life keeps happening to me. I was a teen father, a soilder, a police officer, a up and coming finance guy a business owner, a landlord, a supervisor, a manager, a regional manager, and now a begger. I wish I could say that I knew what happend and could blame it on one thing, but I can't. Had a kid at 19 left school to feed him and joined service, got hurt in trainning and discharged w/o benifits, became a cop but only made 24,000 yr left got into finance was laid off after 9/11. to every odd job debt collector, waiter, pizza delivery you name it i did it but still lost my house. and am about $300,000.00 in the whole. I dont want fish I know how to fish at on time I had several rental properties, but sold them to open a restaurant i'd hope'd to make a chain, but it failed in 2 years.

I have no legacy to pass on to my kids only pride and determination. But I need your help to get back on my feet. I want to fish, not be given fish. I want to restart my realestate business but give back to the community by providing low income housing and shelter for battered and abused woman and children. I need to clear my debt and raise 50,000.00 seed money to do it that will get me into my first property and all i have to do from there is what i did the first time to get multible properties. but this time I will keep them and add value to the community and my family.

I ask you to give what you would waste, a pack of smokes, a drink a dinner out a movie, miss one and you will make countless lives better through me. This I promise and I've lived and served long and hard enough to know not to squander what I get and to build on your kindness and generosity. I've never asked for help before but I've grown to understand what no man is an island means. Please help me and I will help others by helping myself.

Thank you in advance for your time and consideration in this matter.

I remain your humble servant in waiting.

Ladies and Gentlemen: I would like to build several alpine shelters for tourists. Also, I would like to set-up small water captions - somewhere in the mountains from my country.

There are many mineral springs in the area where I live. Most of them have proven therapeutic properties. Unfortunately, they have been abandoned by the local authorities.

I cured myself from a stomach disease after I sistematically drunk water from such a spring! I would like to help others to become healthy, too.

The problem is that the springs are located in remote, difficult to reach areas. I need money to clean up the mountain paths, to pay the construction materials, to transport them up on the mountains, to pay my co-workers, to pay the tools, plus the shelters' endowment, and to acquit countless other smaller expenses.

If I want the job to be done properly, I would have to spend tenths of thousands of dollars. Unfortunately, I do not have such an amount. But I have the will to work hard; and the determination to live in harsh conditions, for several months, in order to materialise my dream.

Any amount you can offer me, it would be welcomed.

At the donor's express wish, I can inlay his/her name on a stainless steel plate, accompanied by the following words: "Spring caption made with the invaluable help of Mr/Mrs [your name]. Please say a small prayer, for your benefactor, before drinking from this water."

I thank you for your generosity.-

Hello. I had a pretty good job at one time. I still have the job actually, but it's not that "good" anymore. It's a salary plus commission job. Since the economy tanked, my take-home went down significantly. Like around $300 or more a week. We did a foolish thing. We amassed credit card accounts that were affordable at the time. But now, with 50K in credit card debt and only able to barely make minimum payments, and quickly falling behind, we have found ourselves close to $1000 a month in the red. My wife is totally disabled, so her income is limited. She feels pretty bad about not being able to contribute more. And I feel really bad that I've failed her, when once I took care of her and of us pretty well. Now I just lay awake at night worrying about when we're going to lose our home (condo actually) and how worthless this has made me feel. I love her deeply and I want to take care of her. I've been looking for a second job, but to be honest, although I haven't found one yet, I've mixed feeling about physically doing this with the additional work and time, (I'm 57 years old and have pretty serious arthritus issues. I'm completely exhausted at the end of the day now because I work like a dog yet there haven't been any return for it as far as increasing my income, due to the business economy. But I will do what I have to, yet it likely won't be enough. If there's anyone out there who has lived this nightmare and can identify with it, yet is now in a place such that he or she has an enormous surplus of money and would like to help us pay these credit accounts so that we can close them and never fall into this trap again, we would be grateful beyond belief. Yes, I'm begging essentially. I went on line in complete desperation hoping to find an easy way out of this. I understand there is no magic. No easy answer and that hard work and determination is luck. My father once said, "The harder I work, the luckier I get". And I know this is true. I worked hard. And I work hard now, but it's not helping us. I made some foolish decisions, mistakes. I hope to find someone who is compelled to help us to have a second chance. I'm sorry that I'm begging. But doing it this way, through a site, makes it a little easier and costs nothing to try, except my pride.

i need 2000.00 u.s. dollars, to get me yet another month into the madness that has become my existence. money is gone. help through family has run out. social service agencies are helping as best they can. my disability is very complex and difficult. traumatic brain injuries are far more misunderstood and under-estimated than, multiple fractures,lacerations and nerve damage to the human body combined. i personally know this as fact. i lived through being hit head on by a tractor trailor. that was six long gruelling years ago. ive tried very very hard for as long as possible, to carry on with my life since. i have not much more stamina left. im tired. ive filed for disability. and of course. its going to be another battle to survive. i have no health care. no income. and certainly cannot afford to see the doctors that i need to further prove my case. ive seen their doctors, who did not dispute my conditions. yet lawyers cannot use their doctors against them. so im stuck trying to find a free clinical psychologist to help. i havent found one yet. and lutheran social services will not write a report to the social security administation for disability determination. i cant even get state medicaid without one. im doing everything im told to do. and its just taking to long. the things i need are not free at the walk in clinic. the person responsible for causing the mishap i was involved in, died and had no insurance. the small settlement i recieved came from workmans compensation. i was driving a company vehicle and on the clock. so at least my bills got paid. but they dont pay out large awards, and a good deal of what i did get was lost in 07 when the stock market tumbled badly and my managed investment account bellied up. im divorced,single, and 53 years old. i see no light at the end of this tunnel. i am, or was a good carpenter. the tools of my trade are in different pawn shops in this city. its been my poor mans bank, trying to get by and through this. they are all i have left of all the years ive worked. id love to get them back and not lose yet more of my livelyhood. 2000.00 dollars would bring my tools home, pay a couple utility bills and get me some food for my parrot[macaw] and some new socks and cleaning products. i really am broke. my kids help me as much as they can. thats very humiliating to me. i just want what ive paid into. its not my fault, or wish to get it this soon. theres so much more to this story. someone post back to me. i can show proof of everything ive stated. im not a scammer,derelict or otherwise dishonest. im begining to think ive been to damn honest. i need immediate help. i dont have a paypal account. yet my son does. god bless anyone who reads this, and at least thinks of learning more. i died and was revived, with not much chance of survival. but i made it. sometimes i wonder why.

I was in a bad accident and ended up in the hospital for 2 months. I broke my back, 5 ribs, my pelvis, punctured and collapsed a lung, ruptured my spleen, damaged my spinal cord. First I was not supposed to live, then I was supposed to come home a paraplegic, but my spinal cord healed up close to normal and with determination and a baby at home I fought back. I came home with a walker, in a body cast with a fused spine and metal rods in my back. I was that way for a year, then the day I went back into the hospital to get my rods out my 10 year old broke his arm in two places. He was traumatized when I went away the first time then again with him being in so much pain I had to leave him again. Finally got the rods removed with another week in the hospital, and came home again in a body cast for another year.
At the time I had a 9 month old baby to take care of and my 10 year old son. My husband stayed a year after it happened and finally left because he couldn't deal with it, I haven't seen him since. We had a rocky 14 year marriage anyway, but the accident was the breaking point. My 10 year old son took on so much responsibility after the accident and my baby barely had a mommy.
I have been trying to recover financially since this all happened. I have always held on to two jobs. I was delivering newspapers at night and restocking magazines in the grocery store during the day and delivering flowers part time. I was just starting to get my life back together. I got a credit card and financed a used car. I had lost most of my teeth due to being sick a lot from the migraines I have, so I had the rest of my teeth removed because of the pain. I was starting the process of getting a new set of teeth with implants to hold them in place.
Then last year I lost two jobs within a month of each other. It's hard to find jobs with the physical restrictions I have and now, it's hard to get a prospective employer to hire me. With the way I look with no teeth, just makes it harder. As if things can't get worse my doctor told me I have liver disease from the transfusions I received in my operations on my back.
My boys are so great. The oldest went from high school right to massage therapy school so he could make a living while going to the university. He graduated from the university and now is applying to medical school. It costs so much money just trying to get in. The application fees, the airfare to the interviews. I wish I could help him. My youngest is going to a culinary high school and wants to be a musician. If there is anything positive in my life it's them and the hope that they won't be like me and they will have a better life.
I filed for disability 5 times since the accident and finally last year I qualified to receive $795 a month and food stamps. I am looking for a legitimate on line income but it's hard to distinguish the scams.
I am trying to get a concession trailer so I can have a job again and get back on my feet. I ran an ice cream truck for 11 years so I have experience in running a concession business. I figured if I can't find a job, I'll make a job. I bought an old trailer for $600 and I am slowly re-building it. I just don't have enough money to get the rest of the equipment to finish it.
I need money for getting teeth so I can eat right to keep my health, and look better to find a job. I need money to finish the trailer so I can support my family again.
Please, if you can help with anything at all, it would help so much.
Thank You

I'm not a starving artist. I have a job, I pay my bills I simply know in my heart that I am to write and let others enjoy what I've done. My goal is to have writing pay for itself and for me so I won't need to work jobs I'm not suited for. Till then I plug on and do the best I can. I don't believe in something for nothing so I offer this original poem for you to enjoy. Should you like it please donate anything you like. I thank you in advance.

I am an artist tried and true I love to write all day.
It is a passion that I must do I’m simply wired that way.
I work and live and eat and sleep I have no real complaint.
Except there is not time you see to write with no restraint.
My favorite is poetry its pace, meter and rhyme,
But fiction has also woven its way into this heart of mine.
I will finish the things I write, somehow it will work out.
Determination and hard work will see me through no doubt.
If you’d like to have a hand at setting an artist free,
I’ll reach my goals much faster then my hero you will be.
Thank you for taking the time to read my short request.
I must go now and work some more my muse shall never rest.

I am a disabled dad of 2 children which their mother abandoned them years ago. I have worked for 27 years full time but recently became disabled. Awaiting for a determination and the first SSDI check i have run out of savings and maxed out my credit cards which are in default now. I do not wish to become homeless, please help if you can.