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When I purchased this home back in 2004 after finally getting away from an extremely abusive marriage, all I could see was that the price was right and that I would finally be safe - hundreds of miles away from my now ex-husband. As a single mother of 3 children on a limited income, I saw how I would be able to live completely mortgage and rent free. I didn't however see the major repairs that this house required - nor did I have the money to make such repairs. Over time, of course things got worse - and it brings me up to the point of where I am today.

The roof on this house is so badly deteriorated that it is leaking very badly in the downstairs bathroom, dining room, kitchen and front door areas. It has leaked so badly that now mold has started to form in the bathroom ceiling and the drywall has slowly been falling away on the one wall. The slightest wind and you will find shingles blown off and laying on the ground. The roof is so bad that I am fearful that even the boards underneath the shingles may need to be replaced.

Realize that this is my last resort in trying to come up with the funds required to get this new roof. I have tried applying to government grants for home improvement but unfortunately I do not qualify because 1. my property taxes are not paid up to date (I owe approximately $2000 just in property taxes), and 2. the size of the house is larger than the specified guideline parameters. Nor do I qualify for a loan of any sort as 1. I make a mere $200 a month working and 2. have bad past credit (being a single mom has taken some serious tolls on me - including financially!).

So the goal here is to get a new roof installed - and as soon as possible so that any further damage to the house is avoided. I also worry about the mold forming in the bathroom especially and one day the roof caving in in there. While my children have grown to teenagers now, I still have to worry about their health.

I have uploaded pictures and this story at Chip-In to show you the extent of the damage done especially in the bathroom area - and a view of the shingles as they are right now on the roof. Admittedly I realize that my house also needs some repair on the stucco, windows and such but right now my main concern is the roof. I'm surprised it hasn't caved in on me by now.

I thank everyone in advance for helping me with this. I do not normally like asking for help from anyone but at this point I am finding that I have no other alternative.

Please view photos of the damage, etc at my Chip-In page at http://escapetofreedom.chipin.com/imperative-home-repairs

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I am 28 years old student currently studying LLB Law. I never knew that there is such thing as a begging site. I am in a very critical situation right now. When I was 10 years old someone tried to rape me. Thus, every since then I suffered from anxiety and depression and I have been taking anti depression tablets. My depression has deteriorated as a result of not being able to pay my tuition fee!Whoever is willing to help me and change my life can ask for any medical prove or whatever they wish as an evidence that this beg is genuine and true. Please, please, please any help would mean so much to me. I want to be as the rest of my sisters and brothers. People in my family neglect and bully me and tell me that I am unable to do anything!!! I am not a good writer but your help will mean so much to me. I want to prove them wrong. I am young, I need a chance for a new life.

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My name is Fatbardha I am 28 years old currently studying a law degree. I suffer from anxiety and depression. This initially occurred when I was a child as there has been an attempt of rape when I was ten years old. Since then I have had a very ruff time and struggled to cope with day to day basis. I have also had a difficult time with relationships and had difficulties in being with someone for a longer period. I have been taking depression tablets since childhood, obviously there have been times when I have lived without them. I am currently experiencing a very difficult time as my depression and health condition has deteriorated due to the fact that I am not able to pay my tuition fee in university. I have been previously taking 20mg depression tablet, then it was increased to 50 and now I am taking depression tablet of 150mg. I have been looking for a job for a year and half and filled so many application forms but was never called for interview. I am now very disappointed, lost all my confidence and have been very down, exhausted, have so much pain on my body and I am unable to do anything. This is due to depression. Could you please donate to my however much money you would be willing to donate and assist me to pass my current crises. Your support would mean so much to me and would change my life. I really want to finish my degree and feel as anyone else. I feel very neglected and with no confidence. I want to be as all my sisters and brothers, I dont want to be an odd one. Your assistance would boost my confidence, get better, finish my degree and boost my confidence that I have lost for such a long time. You support would resuscitation my spirit. Finishing my degree my family would not tell me any more that I am incapable of doing anything and a dependent person. Your help would be a new life for me, a new person with no pain, anguish and regret of life. Please, please, please I beg for anyone to help me. I would appreciate any help.

P.S I have posted a post earlier but was unable to log in because I forgot my username or password. My username on that post is Bardha.


Thank you so much everyone.

My name is Fatbardha I am 28 years old currently studying a law degree. I suffer from anxiety and depression. This initially occurred when I was a child as there has been an attempt of rape when I was ten years old. Since then I have had a very ruff time and struggled to cope with day to day basis. I have also had a difficult time with relationships and had difficulties in being with someone for a longer period. I have been taking depression tablets since childhood, obviously there have been times when I have lived without them. I am currently experiencing a very difficult time as my depression and health condition has deteriorated due to the fact that I am not able to pay my tuition fee in university. I have been previously taking 20mg depression tablet, then it was increased to 50 and now I am taking depression tablet of 150mg. I have been looking for a job for a year and half and filled so many application forms but was never called for interview. I am now very disappointed, lost all my confidence and have been very down, exhausted, have so much pain on my body and I am unable to do anything. This is due to depression. Could you please donate to my however much money you would be willing to donate and assist me to pass my current crises. Your support would mean so much to me and would change my life. I really want to finish my degree and feel as anyone else. I feel very neglected and with no confidence. I want to be as all my sisters and brothers, I dont want to be an odd one. Your assistance would boost my confidence, get better, finish my degree and boost my confidence that I have lost for such a long time. You support would resuscitation my spirit. Finishing my degree my family would not tell me any more that I am incapable of doing anything and a dependent person. Your help would be a new life for me, a new person with no pain, anguish and regret of life. Please, please, please I beg for anyone to help me. I would appreciate any help.

P.S I have posted a post earlier but was unable to log in because I forgot my username or password. My username on that post is Bardha.


Thank you so much everyone.

My name is Julie. I am writing in hopes of finding some help for my current financial situation. I sincerely hope that this is real and that someone can offer some help soon. I really do need some help and I am searching for some alternatives. I have applied for gov’t. help but have not found any hope so far.

I am currently unemployed and not quite sure what to do about it. Although I am looking for work I am not finding what I need. I truly believe that if I could just find a way to make it till the end of Oct, I can make things work out and be back on my feet financially.

I never felt like I needed a glamorous lifestyle, but I do need to survive. My youngest daughter is still living with me and my granddaughter (Rebecca) recently moved in also. She is ten and needed to get out of a negative environment. I am trying to help them, but the situation is taking a toll on my ability to keep up and accomplish what needs to be done.

Rebecca’s mom, my oldest daughter, was diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy (CP) at birth. Although she overcame many of the common symptoms of CP, her condition has deteriorated since she entered her twenties. Rebecca’s dad, we recently discovered, has long since suffered from severe mental illnesses. He was recently admitted to a psychiatric ward and later moved into long-term nursing care. Because of my daughters’ mental and physical handicaps she is not able to properly care for Rebecca by herself.

I was this family’s greatest advocate to keeping them together as a family unit and I hate that things have worked out the way they have. But I believe I am only beginning to understand the depth of the problems this way of life has had on Rebecca and how much she needs me.

She is a very smart 10 years old, but exhibits behaviors associated with mental disease. She has been labeled learning delayed and I am frustrated that her delay is caused by the learned behaviors of her parents and not because of her intelligence or ability to learn.

Although Rebecca is in a much better place now, I am struggling to make it financially. I have been working on some projects and am hopeful that with a bit more time, they will work out. Right now I am in danger of loosing our apartment and not having a place to live, as I have not been able to come up with all of the money for rent for September yet. I still need 425.00 for Sept rent, and 242.00 for the past due on the light bill. I have not given up and am continuing to find ways to make it all work out.

I figured up what I need to catch up the necessary bills and expenses through the end of October. I need to come up with $2,215 to make it to the end of October. I sincerely believe that I will be able to get things back on track by Nov, if there is any way I can find a way to catch up.

I feel that I should ask for what I need and be really grateful for any help that I receive. I have always tried to help others in their times of need and always encouraged the pay it forward process. I do hope that what goes around comes around for me this time.

You can contact me through email at jklmiester@gmail.com

Thank you for taking the time to consider this information and request, It is so hard to get the whole point across in just one page, but I did not want to take up too much of your time. I truly hope you can help us out.

Sincerely,
Julie Miester

I'm a 43 yr old disabled male who has a family to support. I have been disabled all my life and have always been independent and been able to take of myself and my family. Unfortunately my health has deteriorated in the last 2 and half years. I have been diagnosed with stage III colon cancer and it's been a struggle ever since keeping up with my every day expenses. I have a wife who is also disabled and is not able to work I also have a 7 yr old son that is not disabled and means everything to me and breaks my heart when he asks for something and I'm not able to provide it for him because I need to keep the lights on in the house. I have been out of work for the last two months due surgery and treatments and all of my bills are past due. I will be returning to work but will have to miss more time because I will be going through radiation treatments and I'm worried that my utilities will be shut off within a matter of time with the limited income that I will have. I would greatly appreciate any help that you can provide in helping me out. Thank you and God bless...

I'm a 43 yr old disabled male who has a family to support. I have been disabled all my life and have always been independent and been able to take of myself and my family. Unfortunately my health has deteriorated in the last 2 and half years. I have been diagnosed with stage III colon cancer and it's been a struggle ever since keeping up with my every day expenses. I have a wife who is also disabled and is not able to work I also have a 7 yr old son that is not disabled and means everything to me and breaks my heart when he asks for something and I'm not able to provide it for him because I need to keep the lights on in the house. I have been out of work for the last two months due surgery and treatments and all of my bills are past due. I will be returning to work but will have to miss more time because I will be going through radiation treatments and I'm worried that my utilities will be shut off within a matter of time with the limited income that I will have. I would greatly appreciate any help that you can provide in helping me out. Thank you and God bless...

I'm a 43 yr old disabled male who has a family to support. I have been disabled all my life and have always been independent and been able to take of myself and my family. Unfortunately my health has deteriorated in the last 2 and half years. I have been diagnosed with stage III colon cancer and it's been a struggle ever since keeping up with my every day expenses. I have a wife who is also disabled and is not able to work I also have a 7 yr old son that is not disabled and means everything to me and breaks my heart when he asks for something and I'm not able to provide it for him because I need to keep the lights on in the house. I have been out of work for the last two months due surgery and treatments and all of my bills are past due. I will be returning to work but will have to miss more time because I will be going through radiation treatments and I'm worried that my utilities will be shut off within a matter of time with the limited income that I will have. I would greatly appreciate any help that you can provide in helping me out. Thank you and God bless...

Hi, I am a former musical director who lost his full-time job due to younger generation moving in to replace me. I am 55 years old, in good shape and currently enrolled and have done very well in Voice Acting/Multi-Media/Film classes which are very expensive trade school type intense studies.

I am about half-way through the courses I need to launch my new career as a Multi-Media voice/music/acting/film/producer/director/advertiser. This will entail building a home studio, installing equipment and website/marketing costs. I am also playing in two bands and teaching guitar lessons trying to make up the lost income.

My motivation to ask for help financially is due to my hearing aids which are now very outdated. My right hearing aid has been repaired several times and no longer functions properly, I cannot use it to hear conversation. My left aid works but doesn't have the power I need to listen in class and hear what I need to excel. I use an outboard listening device right now but it is horrible quality. I am essentially rendered partially deaf because I cannot afford new hearing aids.

Our personal debt has been managed by my Wife's job but we cannot afford anymore credit card debt. What we bring in pays the bills, there's no more room for new hearing aids which cost $6500.00 for the quality I need. The top of the line aids are needed because of my new career, voice acting in a quiet studio, teaching guitar, live music performance, front of camera work. Contacting clients by phone and computer. All require a wide range of hearing.

My eyesight is now deteriorated where reading glasses don't handle my needs. I need either contacts or Lasik to go from reading copy, to front of camera to intense computer work.

I can offer, as a gift for your donation of $500 or more, a recording of a special instrumental song performed on my acoustic guitar. I can also offer voice-over work, custom made songs for your business for a generous donation.

I speak and write well. I just need help to hear and see better so I can continue to carry on toward my career goals. However, if you have the financial ability to truly help me, getting completely out of debt and purchasing the ear and eye assistance I need would cost about $25,000.

Seems like a lot but every penny helps and that would launch me into a great new career and take the pressure off my hard-working wife. I have a 15 year old Daughter and a 19 year old Son, both of whom I will hire to work for me, they are gifted and creative kids. Eventually, I will hire some of my fellow students for ad work, voice overs etc. This isn't just for me, it will benefit many.

Ask questions, I have nothing to hide except the fact I am "begging" online. I do not consider this begging however, since I am offering something in return to generous donations and I will benefit Society in general.

Thank you for reading, "my story". I hope to hear from you soon.

I'm a 43 yr old disabled male who has a family to support. I have been disabled all my life and have always been independent and been able to take of myself and my family. Unfortunately my health has deteriorated in the last 2 and half years. I have been diagnosed with stage III colon cancer and it's been a struggle ever since keeping up with my every day expenses. I have a wife who is also disabled and is not able to work I also have a 7 yr old son that is not disabled and means everything to me and breaks my heart when he asks for something and I'm not able to provide it for him because I need to keep the lights on in the house. I have been out of work for the last two months due surgery and treatments and all of my bills are past due. I will be returning to work but will have to miss more time because I will be going through radiation treatments and I'm worried that my utilities will be shut off within a matter of time with the limited income that I will have. I would greatly appreciate any help that you can provide in helping me out. Thank you and God bless...

I'm a 43 yr old disabled male who has a family to support. I have been disabled all my life and have always been independent and been able to take of myself and my family. Unfortunately my health has deteriorated in the last 2 and half years. I have been diagnosed with stage III colon cancer and it's been a struggle ever since keeping up with my every day expenses. I have a wife who is also disabled and is not able to work I also have a 7 yr old son that is not disabled and means everything to me and breaks my heart when he asks for something and I'm not able to provide it for him because I need to keep the lights on in the house. I have been out of work for the last two months due surgery and treatments and all of my bills are past due. I will be returning to work but will have to miss more time because I will be going through radiation treatments and I'm worried that my utilities will be shut off within a matter of time with the limited income that I will have. I would greatly appreciate any help that you can provide in helping me out. Thank you and God bless...

I'm a 43 yr old disabled male who has a family to support. I have been disabled all my life and have always been independent and been able to take of myself and my family. Unfortunately my health has deteriorated in the last 2 and half years. I have been diagnosed with stage III colon cancer and it's been a struggle ever since keeping up with my every day expenses. I have a wife who is also disabled and is not able to work I also have a 7 yr old son that is not disabled and means everything to me and breaks my heart when he asks for something and I'm not able to provide it for him because I need to keep the lights on in the house. I have been out of work for the last two months due surgery and treatments and all of my bills are past due. I will be returning to work but will have to miss more time because I will be going through radiation treatments and I'm worried that my utilities will be shut off within a matter of time with the limited income that I will have. I would greatly appreciate any help that you can provide in helping me out. Thank you and God bless...

I'm a 43 yr old disabled male who has a family to support. I have been disabled all my life and have always been independent and been able to take of myself and my family. Unfortunately my health has deteriorated in the last 2 and half years. I have been diagnosed with stage III colon cancer and it's been a struggle ever since keeping up with my every day expenses. I have a wife who is also disabled and is not able to work I also have a 7 yr old son that is not disabled and means everything to me and breaks my heart when he asks for something and I'm not able to provide it for him because I need to keep the lights on in the house. I have been out of work for the last two months due surgery and treatments and all of my bills are past due. I will be returning to work but will have to miss more time because I will be going through radiation treatments and I'm worried that my utilities will be shut off within a matter of time with the limited income that I will have. I would greatly appreciate any help that you can provide in helping me out. Thank you and God bless...

I'm a 43 yr old disabled male who has a family to support. I have been disabled all my life and have always been independent and been able to take of myself and my family. Unfortunately my health has deteriorated in the last 2 and half years. I have been diagnosed with stage III colon cancer and it's been a struggle ever since keeping up with my every day expenses. I have a wife who is also disabled and is not able to work I also have a 7 yr old son that is not disabled and means everything to me and breaks my heart when he asks for something and I'm not able to provide it for him because I need to keep the lights on in the house. I have been out of work for the last two months due surgery and treatments and all of my bills are past due. I will be returning to work but will have to miss more time because I will be going through radiation treatments and I'm worried that my utilities will be shut off within a matter of time with the limited income that I will have. I would greatly appreciate any help that you can provide in helping me out. Thank you and God bless...

I'm a 43 yr old disabled male who has a family to support. I have been disabled all my life and have always been independent and been able to take of myself and my family. Unfortunately my health has deteriorated in the last 2 and half years. I have been diagnosed with stage III colon cancer and it's been a struggle ever since keeping up with my every day expenses. I have a wife who is also disabled and is not able to work I also have a 7 yr old son that is not disabled and means everything to me and breaks my heart when he asks for something and I'm not able to provide it for him because I need to keep the lights on in the house. I have been out of work for the last two months due surgery and treatments and all of my bills are past due. I will be returning to work but will have to miss more time because I will be going through radiation treatments and I'm worried that my utilities will be shut off within a matter of time with the limited income that I will have. I would greatly appreciate any help that you can provide in helping me out. Thank you and God bless...

I'm a 43 yr old disabled male who has a family to support. I have been disabled all my life and have always been independent and been able to take of myself and my family. Unfortunately my health has deteriorated in the last 2 and half years. I have been diagnosed with stage III colon cancer and it's been a struggle ever since keeping up with my every day expenses. I have a wife who is also disabled and is not able to work I also have a 7 yr old son that is not disabled and means everything to me and breaks my heart when he asks for something and I'm not able to provide it for him because I need to keep the lights on in the house. I have been out of work for the last two months due surgery and treatments and all of my bills are past due. I will be returning to work but will have to miss more time because I will be going through radiation treatments and I'm worried that my utilities will be shut off within a matter of time with the limited income that I will have. I would greatly appreciate any help that you can provide in helping me out. Thank you and God bless...

Hi i am Sean Boyd not your typical beggar one of the very proud men, but how things have changed. I will not waste anyones time just let me say that i have always been there to help others and would absolutely go way out of my way to help people with any problem they had. Well today i need that help and there is basically no one i can turn to. I have tried the lotto no luck, i have tried praying, lord how i tried praying still waiting for the answer. My marriage has basically deteriorated to continuous fights and i can actually feel my head dropping lower and lower. I struggle to speak to my two fantastic boys one aged 16 and the other 12 i think i feel that i am not worthy after hearing it so many times from my wife. As i sit here typing my bond is behind about $10.000 my credit cards which i used to keep my family alive for the past 6 months are now maxed out to the tune of $25.000. With no job in sight i feel that the only solution would be this that i am doing now or divorcing my wife of 20 years sending the kids with her and taking the financial burden on my shoulders, so i regrettably have to ask you to please if you could help i would appreciate it very much as i do not think life is very fair considering.
I am looking to start a little business that could fix my situation in the long run but right now i am lost.

Please, anyone who will listen I am forced onto the streets in danger of rape and murder, because I am not safe in my 20 foot 1977 broken down Dodge motor home. I can't go to WEAVE, because they won't allow all my pets, my family will not take me in with them either, and any friends I had are too scared of the guy I'm running from to help me, or they have left me, because they could no longer watch me being destroyed by this person. I love my animal friends and am willing to crawl through the mud with them because they are all I have left in the world and the only ones who always love me, although I can see their sadness and disappointment every day. Please before it is too late for us all. I am Misty, they are Angel, Kona, Rover, Chunky, Mama, Buckwheat, and Baby the newest stray I could not find a home for and could not stand to let them be put down. I have even been willing to be admitted to a mental facility or thought about getting myself arrested by the police just to have a moments peace. I am going through physical, psychological, emotional,financial,abuse and sensory deprivation. I eat 15 days out of the month at the most every month, for 12 years now, to make sure my critters always have what they need first. I am in a dangerous neighborhood with no transportation, and my health has deteriorated to the point where constant pain is here, and death feels around the corner for me. I had a collapsed lung,from pollups,during my last job while simply walking to the restroom on my break, chest pains, constant head aches, asthma, allergies, panic attacks and clinical depression, I have applied for SSI, and SSA to get benefits but it is a slow, repeated process that is very difficult to get if you are 37 years old and appear okay to someone who isn't really looking or looking deep enough. I have no medical, or dental, and need both critically. I also need flea, ear mite, and tapeworm medication for my pets. I just need a boost to get away, and start the healing process for us all. I'm not looking to be rich, or greedy just out of this very toxic, and destructive environment, and want very much to build a life for us all by getting healthy, possibly going back to school and definitely, work. I do have dreams, goals , and invention ideas, but no opportunity in this captive, unhealthy, oppressive situation. I wish to be a mom (to humans)if still possible, and truly in love someday, and desire mostly to be a good, kind person to others. I am willing to show our (critters and my) progress to whoever willing to help so you know helping me is not in vain or a waste, to your mental and emotional satisfaction. And will hopefully be able to eventually give back in return someday, the sooner the better. This help would save our lives, salvage our love and health , future and happiness, and the love and appreciation, I can already pay you back for right now. Honorably and respectively, and non-shamefully that is, or I would have tried less dignified things by now. I grew up with an alcoholic step dad, which, possibly, set me up, unknowingly, for the situation I am in now. This is not an excuse, but it is the truth, that I, apparently, was not strong or smart enough, or had opportunity, to overcome the result of that. Regardless, of fault, I feel guilty and regretful, and so so sorry for not. Please give me a chance, and WHEN successful, very hopefully, I will spend my whole life giving others a chance at a good life, as well. Thank You, so much for taking the time even to just care enough to read this. Please, please, PLEASE? And, HOPEFULLY, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!! Love always, Misty and furry family. (They're not human, but they are important. You never know they could save the planet somehow, someway, someday. Or maybe just you, same difference, all ='s 1 and 1 ='s all)WE LOVE YOU, WE LOVE YOU, WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! I SAVE AND SPEND EVERY PENNY, SO ANY PENNY WOULD HELP. I'M TRYING TO STAY HOPEFUL, WHEN ALL SEEMS OR MAY BE HOPELESS. a KIND WORD MAY EVEN MAKE OUR WORLD GO ROUND. I DON'T TAKE ANYTHING FOR GRANTED. IT MAY BE ALL I EVER NEEDED. I have no bank account so please email me at mrainbowfright@gmail.com for forwarding info. Sorry for the inconvenience, but if I have nothing to put in it, then whats the point?

Please, anyone who will listen I am forced onto the streets in danger of rape and murder, because I am not safe in my 20 foot 1977 broken down Dodge motor home. I can't go to WEAVE, because they won't allow all my pets, my family will not take me in with them either, and any friends I had are too scared of the guy I'm running from to help me, or they have left me, because they could no longer watch me being destroyed by this person. I love my animal friends and am willing to crawl through the mud with them because they are all I have left in the world and the only ones who always love me, although I can see their sadness and disappointment every day. Please before it is too late for us all. I am Misty, they are Angel, Kona, Rover, Chunky, Mama, Buckwheat, and Baby the newest stray I could not find a home for and could not stand to let them be put down. I have even been willing to be admitted to a mental facility or thought about getting myself arrested by the police just to have a moments peace. I am going through physical, psychological, emotional,financial,abuse and sensory deprivation. I eat 15 days out of the month at the most every month, for 12 years now, to make sure my critters always have what they need first. I am in a dangerous neighborhood with no transportation, and my health has deteriorated to the point where constant pain is here, and death feels around the corner for me. I had a collapsed lung,from pollups,during my last job while simply walking to the restroom on my break, chest pains, constant head aches, asthma, allergies, panic attacks and clinical depression, I have applied for SSI, and SSA to get benefits but it is a slow, repeated process that is very difficult to get if you are 37 years old and appear okay to someone who isn't really looking or looking deep enough. I have no medical, or dental, and need both critically. I also need flea, ear mite, and tapeworm medication for my pets. I just need a boost to get away, and start the healing process for us all. I'm not looking to be rich, or greedy just out of this very toxic, and destructive environment, and want very much to build a life for us all by getting healthy, possibly going back to school and definitely, work. I do have dreams, goals , and invention ideas, but no opportunity in this captive, unhealthy, oppressive situation. I wish to be a mom (to humans)if still possible, and truly in love someday, and desire mostly to be a good, kind person to others. I am willing to show our (critters and my) progress to whoever willing to help so you know helping me is not in vain or a waste, to your mental and emotional satisfaction. And will hopefully be able to eventually give back in return someday, the sooner the better. This help would save our lives, salvage our love and health , future and happiness, and the love and appreciation, I can already pay you back for right now. Honorably and respectively, and non-shamefully that is, or I would have tried less dignified things by now. I grew up with an alcoholic step dad, which, possibly, set me up, unknowingly, for the situation I am in now. This is not an excuse, but it is the truth, that I, apparently, was not strong or smart enough, or had opportunity, to overcome the result of that. Regardless, of fault, I feel guilty and regretful, and so so sorry for not. Please give me a chance, and WHEN successful, very hopefully, I will spend my whole life giving others a chance at a good life, as well. Thank You, so much for taking the time even to just care enough to read this. Please, please, PLEASE? And, HOPEFULLY, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!! Love always, Misty and furry family. (They're not human, but they are important. You never know they could save the planet somehow, someway, someday. Or maybe just you, same difference, all ='s 1 and 1 ='s all)WE LOVE YOU, WE LOVE YOU, WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! I SAVE AND SPEND EVERY PENNY, SO ANY PENNY WOULD HELP. I'M TRYING TO STAY HOPEFUL, WHEN ALL SEEMS OR MAY BE HOPELESS. a KIND WORD MAY EVEN MAKE OUR WORLD GO ROUND. I DON'T TAKE ANYTHING FOR GRANTED. IT MAY BE ALL I EVER NEEDED.

Hello. My name is Richard Butler. I live in Knoxville, TN. I spent 6 years in the military including a deploymemnt to Iraq (2004-2005). After I returned home from Iraq, my wife left me and my mental health deteriorated. I began a downward spiral that cause a lot of problems with hospitaliztion for mental health issues and being out of work. It's hard enough to find a good job these days without having to explain that you were hospitalized for long gaps. I've managed thus far, kept some food in my stomach and whatnot. All the while my mortgage has been on the brink, my utilities are consistantly passed-due, and life is just a struggle to survive. But I have been doing it by the skinof my teeth.

And then... it got worse.

I provided my full name and location here. Go ahead and google me. There were 612 news articles about it last time I checked. I met an amazing woman and fell head over heels in love with her. Things started to look up. We combined household and expenses and resources and we became a team. I had my best friend in the world to come home to every night and a light at the end of the tunnel for getting to a survivable place as far as bills. I planned to make her my wife. Then on June 4th, with a ring in my pocket, minutes away from reaching the place I hoped to propose, she was struck by lightning. You can read the tribute to her which I maintain at bethanybutler.wordpress.com. I have not solicited money there because it is a place to honor her. But as it is now I have to do it somewhere. Our dog needs to go to the vet, I need flea medicine, I'm tired of ramen noodles, my utilities are 2 months late, my house is in danger of being forclosed on, and the new job I started has given me a total of 5 and a half hours next week. I NEED A HAND just to get to a stable point. I just want the chance to start at zero, but I don't see how to get there. I'm so tired of trying to play catch up. I feel like I am drowning. PLEASE... I hate asking this but I am in a lot of trouble here. Please... anything you can do to help would be so greatly appreciated. I don't even have an account anymore to set up paypal so I'm flying blind here. I don't even know how this is going to work. I guess you can email me at rabutler77@comcast.net. Thank you.