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First of all I am not asking help for myself but for a friend whom Ive never seen but know her through the Internet. She lives in an eastern European country and she is gay. By the time she came out she already was married and had two georgeous and smart kids. I can imagine how confused she must have been and how hard must have been the decision for her to pick up the courage and come out. Of course this meant a divorce and her ex- husband ( pride and ego bruised because wife left him not for another man but a woman ) is fighting custody for the kids - and not always fair. Also to put it bluntly - he has money and she doesent. She and her partner going through a rough patch - age even posted on her blog that they had to make a decision between to eat or pay the solicitor. Of course they choose the solicitor. Her heart is thorn between her love and her children - she is a mother and has to watch how her ex and his new partner poison her children's mind calling her a faggot/ queer infront of them, telling them she is an abomination and that she is not worth to be loved but she needs to be locked up. She would be able to fight for her children despite this but where she lives it is not accepted to be gay ( ohh not openly no ) and the last time the judge actually voiced her opinion that the children have the right to live in a family which consist of a man and a woman.
I would love to help her to get the funds needed but I'm off on sick leave and have problems on my own ( rent arreas, bad debts as sickness came unexpected and don't have any savings ) that's why I'm asking here whoever can help her please do ( through me or straight to her )
She could be contacted through this blog ( it is in her own language but I guess even through google translate you will get the jist of it )
Or if you think you could help me out as well I would be really grateful
Thank you
Her blog address is: http://andersenhalott.blogspot.co.uk

I am the eldest daughter of two ill parents. I have 2 siblings who have been the caregivers to my parents for several years now. It all started when my father got ill in 2007 with a need of open heart surgery. After that surgery he was never the same. He was a very successful emergency room physician and made very good money. However, he was off for several months from work due to his recovery period. Much of his savings/investments were depleted as he was the only bread winner in the family. My brother and sister had just gotten an apartment and were to start college when my father got ill. They withdrew from school just as quickly as we moved them into their apartment in order to help my mother take care of dad. My father attempted to return to work, but he was still having chest pain and major depression. In September of 2008 he was in the hospital again and needed heart stents to open up blockages. After that situation he physically could not go back to work. He was weak, depressed, and very withdrawn from life. My mother, bless her heart, tried to find ways to make some cash. She sold many pieces of her jewelry to try and pay bills. Regardless of what she profited, she was unable to fulfill the mounting medical bills, credit card bills, car payments, insurance bills, etc.
It wasn't long before she became gravely ill. In the summer of 2010 my mother had succumbed to kidney failure and had to be on kidney dialysis permanently. She had neglected to take care of herself while trying to take care of my father and their financial woes. Along with the financial woes, there were back taxes that were still owed and of course were impossible to pay, their house was falling apart--still is. By the end of Spring 2011, my mother got so ill and was on a ventilator at least 4 times in a 2 week period due to her lungs filling up with fluid. Finally it was discovered that she had endocarditis (infection in heart)that had ravaged one of her heart valves. This required open heart surgery and replacement of the defected valve. The endocarditis stemmed from an infected temporary dialysis catheter. She was in the hospital for over a month and a half or so. Needless to say she was confused, lost tons of weight, and lost the ability to walk or care for herself. She was placed in a nursing home for rehab, but several more stays in the hospital only made her fall several steps back on her rehab and she never has fully recovered. It was discovered that she also had a tumor on one of her kidneys and her kidney was removed in the Fall of 2011 and supposedly it was all contained and it was early stage renal (kidney) carcinoma (cancer). While my mother was in the hospital my father had trouble breathing and I took him to the hospital. It as discovered he was in kidney failure and they both ended up in the hospital at the same time. Now my father is on permanent kidney dialysis.
Now fast forward to present day April 6, 2012. My mother's dialysis shunt would not stop bleeding and she was taken to the emergency room. She also complained of right leg pain and ultimately she ended up with a CT angiogram. This test revealed she not only had some blockage in one of her arteries in her leg, but that she had metastatic cancer to her liver, lungs, and a site near her spleen. Of course we are devastated.
They have no money. The money they do get is always depleted as soon as they get it from Medicare. My mother's social security check went straight to the nursing home and still was not enough to cover her bill. My father would have to pay over $1,000 a month because Medicare would only pay for several weeks. Since she has been in the hospital now for almost 2 weeks, we have pulled her out of the nursing home because the expected us to pay over $180 A DAY to keep her spot at the nursing home.
Now we are faced with a surgery to fix her leg, a plan for cancer treatment, and no suitable place for my mother to live. Their current home is in shambles and I mean SHAMBLES. Roof leaks and is falling apart. I assume there is some black mold lingering. No central air or heat as their units are broke. Plus large amounts of stuff--my mother also was a hoarder. The house is disgusting and it has been hard to clean up with out major assistance and with constant trips to the hospital who has ample time (?). They live in a small town and it is very hard to simply get a dumpster to throw many items away. The house would have to be completely gutted and redone. The floors are sinking in and it is very dangerous. They don't have the funds to fix any of it and nor do I.
I have missed work several times over the last year and more with FMLA, but never have enough PTO to fully cover my own losses.
My siblings have yet to start their lives. They have been with my parents ever since 2007 to help them with everything. Even when my mother was in a nursing home my siblings and my dad would go see my mom every single day--we just didn't trust the care of the nursing home and rightly so because she developed a bed ulcer on her heel after the wound care nurse said it was getting better--not even close! And yes the blocked artery in her leg and her bed ulcer on her heel are related. The wound care nurse and the Dr. for the nursing home should have caught this medical issue.
So life has been tough, but reading about it doesn't even give it justice. We need financial assistance, a new home or help to fix it--we need a lot of help. I want my brother and sister to finally get on their own feet and do what they want to do. I feel bad for them because I was able to finish college and have a career, a husband, and a home. They have yet to accomplish their goals and it makes me sad and sick to see them so depressed. They are in their late 20s and my parents are both 65 y.o.
If anyone has a kind heart, I promise you I'm not lying. I have proof of all I have written about and I swear on everything--my family, my husband, etc. that this is all real. Thank you for your time and interest. If you can't help at least please pray for us.

I'm trying this BegsList as desperation as I don't know what to do. My wish is to get them a nice clean place to live and live their last years worry free.

Hello,
My name is Sherron. I am a lesbian female who is currently a full-time student pursuing my B.A in Criminal Justice. Two months ago my partner proposed to me and what I thought was suppose to be the most beautiful day of my life is turning into a nightmare. I had to have surgery and didn't have the time off and ended up loosing my job. My partner is also a full time student and works full-time to support us. We are suppose to be getting married (AUGUST 4, 2012) and if I hadn't started the process and sent out invites I would just cancel until we can afford it. My parent were suppose to help but once they thought about me marrying a woman they quickly bagged out. My partners sister was going to help be then she was deployed to Afghanistan. Which left us stress and crying thinking maybe this is a sign. But I am a true believer that this is my soul mate and that we were brought together for greatness. I have cut back on my wedding sooooo much but still in the need of $5,000.00 I know that people can not give me all of it, but whatever anyone would help me with I will forever be thankful to you. Please help us, we are a young couple deeply in love trying to get our feet into the surface to be great advocates for this world.I thank you in advance for anything that you can give to help us.
Sherron
(A troubled confused bride)

Hello,
My name is Sherron. I am a lesbian female who is currently a full-time student pursuing my B.A in Criminal Justice. Two months ago my partner proposed to me and what I thought was suppose to be the most beautiful day of my life is turning into a nightmare. I had to have surgery and didn't have the time off and ended up loosing my job. My partner is also a full time student and works full-time to support us. We are suppose to be getting married (AUGUST 4, 2012) and if I hadn't started the process and sent out invites I would just cancel until we can afford it. My parent were suppose to help but once they thought about me marrying a woman they quickly bagged out. My partners sister was going to help be then she was deployed to Afghanistan. Which left us stress and crying thinking maybe this is a sign. But I am a true believer that this is my soul mate and that we were brought together for greatness. I have cut back on my wedding sooooo much but still in the need of $5,000.00 I know that people can not give me all of it, but whatever anyone would help me with I will forever be thankful to you. Please help us, we are a young couple deeply in love trying to get our feet into the surface to be great advocates for this world.I thank you in advance for anything that you can give to help us.
Sherron
(A troubled confused bride)

My name is Anthony, I am a head of a family with two daughters, my first child is in eighth grade of junior high school and my second child is in the kindergarten classes and the about to enter elementary school, my wife is a housewife and not working. I'm tangled in debt and confused how to pay it off. My income is only enough to feed and the school fees. I pledge my house to get a loan at the bank. I want to pay off all my debts at the bank. My debt is about $ 9,500. I knocked on the generous hearts to be able to provide assistance to me, so I can pay off my debts and the start a new life. Whatever your help is very meaningful to me. May God Bless you.

I feel very ashamed of myself having to resort to this, but I am desperate to get back on my feet and take care of my son the way he deserves.
I had to leave my job due to a pesky pulmonary nodule causing breathing problems and causing me to pass out at work. I started working in a MLM type of company as an independent contractor, but first our car broke down, then we fixed it; but then I lost car insurance and registration due to expiration (no money to pay for it). I have had to borrow and repay money for rent three months in a row and my car is starting to go AGAIN...it is a 1999 Cadillac Deville with 134,000 miles, so I guess I can't complain. In the past 4 weeks, I went from a healthy 137lbs to 119lbs of skin and bones; I refuse to eat unless my son has healthy food to eat, but I am starting to feel tired and confused due to malnutrition. I don't need hundreds of thousands of dollars; I just want to get ahead. I am fortunate that my son, his father and I are able to move with friends next month, but I still have $1290 to pay on December 5th for rent so as not to lose security deposit. I need the money to get caught up on general bills, totaling approximately $3300 as well as groceries for December $400-500. I am also in need of my bipolar medication that I have not been able to aquire in 6 months when my financial situation started to decline due to poor health, car troubles, loss of tuiton money and general misfortune. I can pay out of pocket for school; I lost financial aid because I had to withdrawal for health and family reasons-2 semesters in a row of withdrawals or poor grades cause the financial aid dept to drop you. I am not a bad student and I was even inducted into Phi Theta Kappa in October 2008 for academic excellence. To sum it up; I just want to be on my feet again. I hate that my son sees mommy and daddy cry every night, because we don't know from one day to the next...will the electric get shut off next? How will we get food? Thankfully our rent will be severely reduced starting January 1st, but I just want..NEED to get ahead for once. I have sold everything I own...including my $2500 engagement ring, which I sold for a whole $145 for groceries. I do have three designer bags I haven't sold yet; I was planning to sell for Christmas money for my son, but anyone who donates and is interested, can have them. I will be eternally grateful for anyone to be kind enough to donate! If I could just receive a total of at least $5000 for bills, rent and groceries, I will be the happiest woman alive. I am not too concerned with my medication, because it is $140 per month that CAN wait, if need be. My son's well-being and future means more to me than anything. I am sorry if this is a jumbled mess; I am extremely worn out and I cannot seem to muster the thoughts to put with the emotions I am feeling right now. Thank you for any generosity and I hope that without the premium Beglist account, my story is able to find anyone willing to help a family in need.

I’m really confused. I’ve always worked hard, I once had a nice job, haven’t been paid really well, but was able to save some money each month. Then I made some mistakes. I moved together with my girlfriend 6 years ago. She just started going to college at that time. She never had enough money and so whenever she needed something, I paid for it. For her car, for her clothes, for other bills. I know that was stupid, but I thought our love would last forever, and she always said that she will give it all back to me as soon as she finished college and found a good job. Then I lost my job 3 years ago when the company had to close down. Since that time I’ve been able to find only low paid jobs and it was impossible to pay all the bills with that little money. So I had to spend all my savings for us. Then 6 month ago my girlfriend broke up with me and moved out. Now I’m the one who would need her help, but she still can’t pay anything back or maybe also doesn’t want to.
Two month ago I also lost my last job because the company had to lay off some workers. All my money is gone and now I don’t know how to pay the rent or to pay the bill for repairing my car. I have no one to turn to and I already sold all I could on ebay. I don’t know how to go on. I feel so depressed and confused and I wouldn’t do this here if I had another chance. I don’t want much, just a little to get on my feet again. Thank you so much for any help!

All I have is God and myself to turn to. I have battled depression to this extreme before, but the last time I recall feeling this dreadful was when I was 21 years old. This is probably a lot of recent stresses, and built up stresses all crashing down on a traumatic event that occurred when I was 21. I realize that only I can change this perspective, but I everything, and I mean EVERYTHING to change for the better. All I do is make things worse for myself. I have gotten to the point where I get home from work and cry my living heart out for hours, I don't cry so much in front of people, because I am ashamed at my weakness, but I just can't do this much longer. I need help. I don't want to learn the hard way anymore! Im losing my job, no going homeless, no more.... I just want to be a happy person, and I have been battling a rapidly growing depression in the last few months. I know that I am the only one to blame for it all, and I have the power to change it... yet, somehow, I have begun seriously wondering if I can do this much longer. I don't want to hit rock bottom... but rock bottom for my emotions may have passed up a long time ago... I just don't know what to do anymore. I have no vehicle or insurance, or money, or time... so I'm in a last minute search for some help... coping mechanisms that I can live by... I just need prayers... I need so much more too... I need to stop feeling like this! I can't even type up a random forum topic without crying b/c I sound just as confused as I am. Just help me!

I'm a teen mother of a wonderful 2 year old. However about a month ago my life has flipped upside down. I'm in a predicament I can't get out of on my own. I'm going to lose my daughter, my home and everything else. I don't know where else to turn. I'm lost and confused and I've been doing everything I can to get help. Unfortunately my own efforts are falling extremely short. Any help would be greatly appreciated.

Hi, my name is Angel and I am a 50 year old female with an autoimmune disease which means that my immune system is confused and attacks my body as if it where disease. The result is severe pain, weakness, memory problems and much more. I am on disability, I get $500. a month, my husband works 40 hours a week at wal-mart but the pay is not great. We don’t have much but we do get by, or we did till a few months ago we had a family emergency, my husband was hurt and we had medical bills (no insurance for him) and he was out of work for 3 weeks. That put us in big trouble. We are now about to lose our home and are behind on bills. I hate to ask for help but I don’t know what else to do. We just need to get back on our feet again. Any help you can give will be wonderful. Thank you for reading and for helping if you can. Any help is welcome.

Hi, my name is April May Johnson, As I have located this site, I can validate all information that I am submitting here is true honest information, along with my lawyers contact name and info.I am a single mother of my son who is 11 years old for four years now, with a boyfirend I have had for 10 months now who is deployed here in the south for the oil spill serving his time to give us a cleaner gulf and make our waters cleaner and safer. Both of us chrisitans have big hearts and accepted people in our lifes that have done nothing but stole from us and even let there envy tear us apart. My nightmare started the day after my birthday when my sister and my babysitter changed my whole life and took everything from me. I was sleeping upstairs when the law came and arrested me and I was totally oblivious. My babysitter whom was downstairs on my computer messaging my sister, had woke me up crying saying we were going to jail I totally confused just waking up walked downstairs immediately to my open door and walked outside to five guns pointed at me and telling me I was under arrest. I had never been in trouble my entire life, I have and now had a perfect record, and never would hurt anyone, everyone in my community knows me and knows that i would give the shirt off my back. Well 'i was arrested and charged with distribution of drugs and put in jail with a 100000 bond, I still confused after six days of being in local jail had finally gotten bailed out and found out that when my babysitter, which had kept my son the night prior nat my apartment because it was my birthday and me and my boyfriend had rented a suite to have a nice relaxing night for my birthday, had been making drugs and had all this hidden in the attic of my home. Totallu unaware I walked out of my home with five guns half asleep when my 11 year old son watched these cops throw me around on the concrete like a rag doll, scraped my skin all up, and slammed me head first into the ground screaming and fighting these cops to quit hurting his mommy. Totally unaware of what this girl had in my attic I was telling hese cops to search my home I had nothing to hide while they were being cruel and jerking me all around in hang cuffs. It was trultuey the worst day of my life. Helpless and handcuffed, crying, hurting and wanting nothing more than to comfort my confused son, I laid there helpless trying to figure out what was going on. The babysitter soon had came out of my apartment behind me with her hands up stating that there was stuff in my attic and stating also to the cops it was all mine. I was flabbergasted, freaked out, and speechless. I didnt have a ground to stand on.The apartment was in my name and she blamed everything that was in my attic she had been doing the night before the arrest on myself. So hours later I am taking to jail when much to my knowledge I was notified in jail that they released the babysitter, which was a third time felon in drug court, and on parole which i was unaware of. So six days had past and i was stuck in jail crying, in vigorous pain from the freezing cold temperatures and from sleeping on the concrete cause there was no bed in the holding cell i was locked up in with 11 other girls. It was six days later my parents were finally able to bail me out and my father had to put up his week vacation and sale things to be able to do. I came home and was notified that the very next day after my arrest my apartment was broken into and robbed of everything me, my son, and my boyfriend had owned. Down to our clothes, we had lost everything. After a few days things started to surface, i was completely positive that I was clean, had passed the drug test and prayed that God would bring to the surface any proof to prove that I had been set up. Well my parents which are christians had had my son the day prior to me getting out of jail and they had questioned him about what the babysitter was doing while she babysat him the night before the arrest. He simply replied and without knowing that everything that was found in my apartment was in the attic, he had told my parents she was in the attic and when she was questioned by him she simply replied checking it out and told him to get to bed. Thats when things started to slowly make since. My boyfriend the day after my arrest had came to the apartment and had picked up a few things during the day before the aprtment had been robbed that night and had picked up my two laptops and his also. Much to my surprise he had brought them to my parents where i am now living and I signed on to it like normal and went to check my facebook where when I had typed in facebook.com it came up on the babysitters facebook still signed in and we were able to see the email and text messages prior to the day of my arrest when she was babysitting texting friends inviting them to my home and using code talk stating she had some candy and they should chill. I was again speechless. Now due to all this and the chrges I am facing I am looking at 2-5 years if I dont get a lawyer and fight for my future, and with the proof I have i can have justice served, I have been in college three years with one year left, my boyfriend whom is governement in the military has been ordered by his supervisor to stay away till my court dates are over and prove i am innocent cant even help me and my family have and know i am innocent. i have lost custody of my son, and live with him and my parents and my whole life due to this girl is in shambles. After several lawyer consultations, I have been billed 5000 for my lawyer and due to jail time I lost my job. I am in desperate need of financial help to protect my future and the future of my son. i am already in debt to my parents who are both diabetics, and both have high blood pressure for 2600.00 which they didnt have, and now they are hurting for money. I am a very honest hard working person and I have never been in a situation my whole life where I asked for help from anyone. I am not asking for anyone to give me this but I am asking that if you would read this, and again I can prove anything you need, to give me work, help me raise the money to protect my future cause i am truly innocent and without a job i do not have the funds to pay for this lawyer, I would even agree on terms of a loan. God knows I would be more than greatful and assure you that my 11 year old son would be the happiest kid in the world to keep his mother with him where she has always been and loving him like she should be. please help us....We would be more than greatful and God Bless You All

Ok so my friend was arrested in a case of mistaken identity where they have confused him with his cousin and they arrested him for a crime that his cousin committed. Unfortunately we still are forced to go through a trial even if his cousin was willing to stand up and say it was him! The problem is his bond was set at $5000.00 and I was able to come up with a little less than half but I'm having an extremely difficult time coming up with the rest. His sons 6th birthday is coming up on June 21st and he wants nothing but to have his daddy so I have made it my goal to come up with the rest of the money so that this little boy can have his daddy which he loves soooooo much be there for his birthday. Now I can understand why people would be hesitant to give money for this cause because its jail, and if he had actually committed the crime I would agree but knowing that he is not the one who committed the crime I hate that he has to be punished for it but even worse this little boy must also be punished. I am not asking you to actually give me money for me to keep, anyone who is able to help me will be paid back once the trial is over what I need is $3000 so if 3000 people could give up $1 or even 300 people give up $10 to make this happen for this little boy I would be forever greatful. Thank you for your time

Natalie

Hi,I'm a mother of four little girls who is in desperate need of HELP. I escaped a troubled and abusive marriage a year ago. One night after being abused one to many times I packed the trunk of my car with my daughter's clothes and a few toys and drove 13 hours back home with my father. I thank God every day for the strength he has given me and for my loving father that helped me out. My father was my only supporter, my best friend and my faith that life could get better. My father resently passed away leaving my heartbroken, confused and alone. I know I must go on, for the sake and future of my daughters. I struggle every day without him, but his strength still lives on. I know there are people that are as kind as he was. And here is where i beg for help. So that I can continue school and still put food on the table. I'm currently working part-time and need help financially to continue to pay for school, rent, daycare and food. Every little bit will help us. So if anyone can find it in their hearts to help us out and help me fullfill my dream my father started I will be forever greatfull. Thank you in advance and may God Bless you all.

I have NEVER EVER done this before but I ran across this site and figured I have nothing to loose trying. "Where there is a will there is a way!" Where to start? Sighhh...
I am the sweetest, sensitive, charitable, loving, giving, God Fearing, non judgemental, lover, encourager lady.. Many of my closest friends and family call me an "Angel on earth"... But even Angels need help once in a while.. I'm usually the helper so asking for help is new and a bit hard for me to chew..

First let's start with: My name is Crystal H.. I am a 32 year old caucasion lady that lives in Colorado.. Native to Colorado. Growing up I excelled in school thus earning 4.0 average and constant Honor Roll. I did have College opportunities ect. but at that time I met a young man in college, football player and fell in love. I had a good paying job as an office manager and thought all was good.. It was for several years anyway..We married and At 23yrs. I gave birth to my miriacle baby whom was premature and weighed 2 lbs. 11oz. I was very ill at the end of pregnancy due to acute Eclampsia so she was born early emergency c-cection, flight for lifed to Childrens Hospital in Denver and I stayed in ICU for the first week.. Keep in mind due to circumstances I never was able to see or touch my daughter before they airlifted her to Denver.. Finally one week later my doctor gave me a two hour pass to beable to go to Denver and meet my new daughter for the very first time.. Words can't tell what I felt and the emotions I was feeling.. I still tear up recounting the events.. But yes after many tears, fear of touching or holding her due to her size and all that was hooked up to her I did finally get courageous enough to hold my new born daughter after a week for the first time.. Love at first sight! Chills are still going through my body as I write this.. Anyway's over time she improved and became much stronger. She was small but mighty. I was finally released from the hospital myself and spent all my time with her at Childrens Hospital until release day.. Brought her home at 3 lbs. 12 oz and had the ultimate baby learning/motherly instincts. With 4 yrs. of twice weekly physical therapy she grew out of her challenges, and has grown into an way above average intellence, beautiful nine yr. old.. Thank you God!!!

My next challenges were none to fun at all! My marriage became rocky.. He became abusive physically, emotionally and mentally.. After about the last 3 yrs. becoming so bad and scary I could not deal with his abuse or allow my daughter seeing such activity. So with that said I asked him to leave our home. He would not leave without a police escort, but finally was gone nonetheless.. I am NOT pro divorce at all so after the initial anger callmed down I did go to him asking him to please do counceling with me and let's really try to work this all out. He REFUSED! So after being with my ex husband twelve years we finally did divorce.. =(

Right after the divorce at the age of 30, I was rushed to the ER and diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure. I was in ICU for over one week and spent several months at home on oxygen. But now since the divorce I was dropped from his insurance so I am unable to have the cardiovascular care needed and a heart valve repaired.. But I have faith one day I will beable to have this delt with.. Gotta believe!

Next was really NOT PLANNED or wanted but happened. I finally met a young man whom I started spending much time with. Due to my heart and lack of insurance I was not on birth control but did use condoms with him. Unfortunately a condom did break and yes I did become pregnant.. Three day's before Christmas last year I misscarried the baby and spent two day's in hospital due to D&C and my heart. I was released at Christmas and had a hard time dealing with the hormones, lack of support from the young man, failure in my parents eyes ect.. Just plain and simple was a hard time for me emotionally but I NEVER once let my daughter know of this and still have not to this day. She does not need to be scared any further than what she has already in life.

Now we come to current events.. Swear I have let my life become a soap opera and should right a what not to do and how to survive book for women.. sighhhhh.... Anyways. After being single for nearly a year and of course wishing I could meet a nice (preferably) Christian boy to date and enter into a relationship with a man whom I have known for several years who was a family friend while I was married came back into my life. This time he showed strong romantic gestures and over time did finally earn some trust n love with me. We entered into a relationship and it felt safe and comfortable since I'd known him so long, family new him and my daughter new him well already too..
I finally started becoming happier and was slowly gaining a little self confidence, and believing that things will end up working out finally afterall.. (Keep in mind due to lack of insurance and Heart Failure I was still not allowed on birth control pills like I wanted) we of course used protection always. But two times the condom came off in me.. I hoped all would be fine and I would not become pregnant, not at all wanting to repeat my first ordeal I had with my daughter plus now with my Congestive Heart Failure on top of it all pregnancy would NOT be good! I went to a local clinic and talked to a female doctor there and begged her if there would be anyway I could qualify for any free birth control that would not hinder my CHF.. Finally I had good news.. =) She said she would see if I could qualify for the low hormone Miranna and if I did she would implant it in my uterous for free.. This was to last for five years.. Yes one positive answered prayer. I went to my doctors oppt. as sheduled, they had me do an UA to make sure I was not pregnant before insertion and preped me for the procedure. Right before the Doctor was to do procedure the nurse came into the room and notified both of us that indeed I was pregnant.. My head swirled with confusion, fear, stress ect.. After talking to my doctor briefly about it, my history ect. I left the office and proceeded to go to my boyfriend to update him of the current events.. At the very beginning he sounded happy and positive, even eased my mind a little but about two day's later he up and left me. I have had my first ultrasound and as of yet the baby is alive and well. Strong heart beat. I am nearly two months pregnant, doctor took me off all my heart meds. due to baby. Still no insurance, applied for Medicade which really saddened me that I was at a point I had to do this.. Very humbling to say the least, and am alone, confused, many urging me to abort the baby but remember I am Christian and this is a hard concept for me to accept.. Currently unemployed, single mother, pregnant, no father support, lonely, desperate and really beginning to feel hopeless.. There is a high probability that the acute Eclampsia could repeat itself again as it did with my daughter and now I'm older than before. Not 23 anymore now I'm 32 with Congestive Heart Failure and Hypertension. Trying to support my nine year old the best I can and now so worried and fearful of what is to come.. Christmas just happened and it so did not feel like Christmas to me. Not much I could do for my daughter or my loved ones. I'm so scared of what the near future holds and how I will beable to deal with it, and be healthy enough to continue taking care of my nine yr. old. Need a good job but kinda feel it would be hard since I am so high risk I have MANY constant dr. visits. Neonatal parnatologist, my OB, and supposed to find a cadiologist as well to monitor me.. Medicade pending but no answer if they would accept me yet, bills piling up, and feeling out of control totally of my life right now.. Sad and confused that bf left me too.. I'm praying sooooo hard daily, nightly, looking on internet for at home jobs I could do but most end up seeming like scams, keep going to church in order to help try to keep me grounded and keep the faith that somehow it will all work out.. I sure hope I have not bored you to death, some may be pretty disgusted by my mistakes and situation, but I do hope nonetheless that maybe even just one person actually found this post, read it through, and maybe just maybe is in a posistion of life that they could and would be willing to help me out a little.. The whole "Pay it forward" campaign.. I fully believe in that and fully believe what goeas around comes around.. Regardless of the outcome I wan't to take a moment to wish everyone that took the time to read my post all the best to you and yours, full love and ENDLESS BLESSINGS to all!

With love and true sencerity,
Crystal H...¢¾


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I am sitting here wondering how would I repay someone who would be kind enough to give me a helping hand. I have been on a downhill slide,not knowing how I will keep a roof over my head after losing my job back in June. That's too long without income. They terminated me without warning because my vehicle broke down on the way to work. So, I was late. But, I told them I was sorry.
I have worked all my life and am fighting to get my unemployment. If I do get it, it will be another month. Yipes!
I need help now. When I got hurt on the job, they refused me Workers Comp. Now, I'm in trouble and still in pain.
What can I do? I'm confused, but I am looking for employment. That's going to be tough for me. I've just hit 60 and I'm falling apart like an old piece of machinery. Am I supposed to just die? I don't know?
I would find some way to repay anyone who would help me.
Help me, somebody?

Well this is my story, It all started 2 Weeks ago. I got loaned 20 dollars by some guy. Well I thought i'd be fine. But it turns out this guy is no regular guy. He ended up being connected to the mafia, two days after he loaned me the money. I was walking to the gas station to pick up some smokes, and a black SUV pulled up beside me. When the driver who was dressed in a black three piece suit signaled me over I figured he just wanted directions, I was wrong a paper bag was thrown over my head. And I was taken to an abandoned pet store. On the way there in the SUV I was cussed at multiple of times. I had no clue what was going on till after I was taken inside. And sat down in a chair. I realized I was surrounded by 8 guy's, 1 girl, and 3 ferocious looking kittens. I was confused, I asked the guy wasn't this an abandonded pet store, he didn't sound happy about that, I guess he figured it was a smart comment. Either way, after he cussed at me more, he demanded I pay him all the money I had, so I pulled out the nickel and 3 pennies I had in pocket and offered it but that just made him more aggravated. Finally I promised i'd get him the twenty, and he gave me couple of weeks. Well unfortunatly yesterday my friend was kidnapped by the same guy, I was called up on my friends phone number. Turn's out there holding him for ransom of 20 dollars, and if I don't get the money within in the next few day's there gonna cut off his pinky toe with a pair of plastic scissors, I told em good luck on that but he didn't find that very amusing. And that's what happened. So please, help my friend anything will help.