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Selah Beloved Citizens Of This Divinely Intelligent Universe!!

If like 1,000s of 1,000,000s of people in USA Territories YOU TOO are living in fear about your finances and what appears to be happening with the money system, I respectfully request that you take this Beggar Request very seriously and act, (not just read), if your heart resonates with my words and my promise.

WHY? Because I am not some crazy Beggar hoping people will send me some of their money. Formerly known as The Prophetess Of Destiny and countless other titles you can pull up on Google, I am a Servant Of The Light bearing gifts in exchange for PROOF that you will open up to RECEIVING BACK FROM THE UNIVERSE in exchange for gifting me with $11-Bucks or more. My labor is to enrich, uplift and enliven Humanity worldwide and Google yields plenty of evidence.

TITLES TO SEARCH:

Doc Vaj
Mystic Vajrayana
The HeartSeer
The Frequency Modulator
The Desire To Reality Confidante
The World's Only CartomancSeer
The ELF (Enlightened Life Facilitator)

Whatever you have asked, hoped, prayed, searched for that has not shown up yet is now within reach!!

CLARION CALL: Whomever you may be, no matter your current conditions or station in life, know that we are now in a time deemed by The Angelic Forces to be the most pivotal year (2k12) in Human history; yes, in Human history!! And because the fact that we are all connected is provable within our experiences, I ask you to allow your heart intelligence to help you discern why my request for your financial support is a win-win-win agenda designed to prove that choosing to gift other people (can) yield perpetually increasing $financial$ returns on investments (ROI) when you are aligned with a lead by example expert at Human Potential Optimization who is 100% committed to consistently exercising her responsibilities without delays and/or excuses.

You see, there is more to you than flesh and blood and more to life than here, and each of us is a unique expression of Divine Intelligence, no matter how we name it, for Human Beings actually are the eyes, ears, hands, feet, heart and voice of Spirit/God, operating in the Earth!! Even though billions of spiritually asleep people do not believe it or (consciously) know this as their personal truth, we all have personal Spiritual Inheritances, and when we purposefully explore, reach for and accept the possibility that this statement is correct, we position ourselves to prove it and thereby, remembering how to optimally exercise our Human birthrights can happen for us this lifetime. Unfortunately, without receiving our inheritances, life on Earth tends to remain a haphazard walk on the wild side.

You are a SOUL-GEM; a luminous magnetic Spiritual Being on a Soul Journey through the Human experience here on Planet Earth and GRATITUDE IS an interactive magnetic force field that gets added unto your personal energy stream. Gratitude is a self chosen (adopted) heartfelt attitude of thanksgiving for WHATEVER WE DO HAVE IN LIFE (at the moment), and it is therefore a higher mind set. And when you connect with your world while living in the energy of gratitude, every single time you give from your heart, you open a spiritual portal through which The Universe itself delivers good unto you, whether you are paying attention to it or not!!

THIS IS WHY: The spiritual Cycle Of Abundance looks like this. (A) Your GRATITUDE for whatsoever you do have underlies feelings of generosity, for when you look at this world system you easily see there are billions of others with far less than you. (B) Your GENEROSITY allows you to be see/feel the pain of other people and/or their need and you become inspired to give. (C) Your GIVING uplifts others, especially strangers who cannot return the favor and this selfless act of giving makes you feel good, raises your vibration and thereby aligns you with higher energies. (D) Your ALIGNING with higher energies attracts similar experiences into your life which also makes you feel good/better. (E) Your RECEIVING, (even if receiving is only a smile, a friendly hello, an offer to help you in some seemingly unimportant way), makes you feel connected to others which makes you feel grateful for the gesture. (F) Your GRATITUDE is then at the top of your mind and when it is, a brand new cycle begins for you again. The magical working of our connectedness in the Universe is what makes life worth living.

The Cycle Of Abundance is: Gratitude, Generosity, Giving, Aligning, Attracting, Receiving and Gratitude. As a 25(+) year seasoned Agent Of Light in service to Spiritually Awakening Humanity, I ask that you link your Light with mine and make a donation to my cause, for making higher truth known and available to the masses worldwide is my task at hand. I am an Elder known as The HeartSeer people are chatting with worldwide. I have a global radio broadcast and walk my talk making knowledge of who and what we are as Divine Beings, known to all in search of answers and ways through the challenges of life.

Today is Mothers Day, May 13, 2k12, and if you do not™ choose to gift me below, feel free to check out my Light Portal (website) so you can gain all the details your mind may require to stop shouting NO in your head. My site was created in a FireFox Browser and it is picture perfect in that browser only. So please, please, only use FireFox Browser because all other browsers yield ugliness. Use FULL SCREEN MODE because you can know the whole site is loaded when you see HEARTS around the (3) columns.

When you get there you will find (3) columns; the two outside columns are the same no matter what you click on and the middle column is where whatever you click on (pages and posts) will appear. See Vital Page in top left column (or) Blog Archives in top right column. Check out (Gifting To The HeartSeer) in either column; they are identical and provide all details: A video, two radio show archives, all details and a way to gift me. Then you can explore the rest of site, or do that first if you prefer.

My primary internet domains:

Http://DocVajsLight.BlogSpot.Com/

(HeartSeer Cosmic Intelligence University)
Http://HCIU-Global-Radio.Biz

Thank you for taking time to read this and please share because blessings and breakthroughs are guaranteed to all who dare to believe that everyone is not a criminal or a hustler out to get them. Now it can be your turn to begin wiping away whatsoever keeps you up at night biting your nails off and/or tearing your hair out, so if you have but a mustard seed worth of faith that there is A GOD, take several deep breaths and visit my light portal. Don't delay!!

Doc Vaj

**IMPORTANT** I know that a lot of people look at these and think that their donations won't do any good as the person posting will just get in trouble again eventually. This is NOT the case for me. Your donation of any size WILL help and I will MAKE it successful so you will never see me here again ;)
Please take a chance, knowing that what you give will have a real effect that will help me to help others!
THANK YOU!
They say these things should be short, but I will take a chance in giving you the whole picture. Thanks for reading!
In 2009, I was made homeless by Hurricane Ida in Virginia. That same year, I became disabled with COPD, sciatica and fibromyalgia. It has been a long, slow process of recovery,pain, poverty,and the accompanying humiliation. I have had to give up my car, my cottage, and my job.

However, thanks to the efforts of very dear friends and some self-made luck I finally have a stable living situation, and the strength to embark on a new career as a writer and self-publisher of Spiritual and New Age materials.
Writing is where I find my greatest joy, (followed closely by my painting) and my experiences have given me rewards of perspective that makes the challenges I still contend with somehow worth it. I'm looking to help others find the inner strength and hope that I found through my own crisis.
You can read some of my writing at my blog:
http://grace-in-search-of-grace.blogspot.com/

My computer, however, is almost 8 years old and between the "pages not responsive" and "Chrome has crashed", system crashes and stalls, etc it routinely takes me up to 3 hours to upload anything to the site. I have very limited energy, and this can take up an entire day.
The the age of the machine means that it is limited in terms of upgrades and networking.
I've learned and done all I can to keep it running this long, but now I need a new one if I am going to be able to do the kind of heavy-duty publishing and posting to make it in this field and become self-sufficient.
I am looking for $5,000+ to cover the following costs:
*computer
*printer/scanner/fax
*paper
*toner and ink
*website hosting for a year
*Domain Registration
*Non-profit status registration
*Dedicated phone line
*Art supplies for graphic design
*Photoshop software
*Print-on-demand membership for 1 year

Anything is greatly appreciated!

I will do my utmost to pay it forward to those who are also in need.
I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

**IMPORTANT** I know that a lot of people look at these and think that their donations won't do any good as the person posting will just get in trouble again eventually. This is NOT the case for me. Your donation of any size WILL help and I will MAKE it successful so you will never see me here again ;)
Please take a chance, knowing that what you give will have a real effect that will help me to help others!
THANK YOU!
They say these things should be short, but I will take a chance in giving you the whole picture. Thanks for reading!
In 2009, I was made homeless by Hurricane Ida in Virginia. That same year, I became disabled with COPD, sciatica and fibromyalgia. It has been a long, slow process of recovery,pain, poverty,and the accompanying humiliation. I have had to give up my car, my cottage, and my job.

However, thanks to the efforts of very dear friends and some self-made luck I finally have a stable living situation, and the strength to embark on a new career as a writer and self-publisher of Spiritual and New Age materials.
Writing is where I find my greatest joy, (followed closely by my painting) and my experiences have given me rewards of perspective that makes the challenges I still contend with somehow worth it. I'm looking to help others find the inner strength and hope that I found through my own crisis.
You can read some of my writing at my blog:
http://grace-in-search-of-grace.blogspot.com/

My computer, however, is almost 8 years old and between the "pages not responsive" and "Chrome has crashed", system crashes and stalls, etc it routinely takes me up to 3 hours to upload anything to the site. I have very limited energy, and this can take up an entire day.
The the age of the machine means that it is limited in terms of upgrades and networking.
I've learned and done all I can to keep it running this long, but now I need a new one if I am going to be able to do the kind of heavy-duty publishing and posting to make it in this field and become self-sufficient.
I am looking for $5,000+ to cover the following costs:
*computer
*printer/scanner/fax
*paper
*toner and ink
*website hosting for a year
*Domain Registration
*Non-profit status registration
*Dedicated phone line
*Art supplies for graphic design
*Photoshop software
*Print-on-demand membership for 1 year

Anything is greatly appreciated!

I will do my utmost to pay it forward to those who are also in need.
I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I’ve never asked for any kind of help before, and certainly not from people that I have never met! But my situation has become so desperate that I really do need help.
I have, for the last 15 years, struggled to make ends meet, following periods of ill-health, bad luck and catastrophic decision making. My circumstances are now very desperate indeed, and have even considered suicide.
In 1997 I suffered from a period of depression, that became so severe that I was forced to give up my job, and borrowed money to cover my mortgage and keep my house. Unfortunately the repayments on this ever increasing debt snowballed, and I found myself unable to meet my mortgage and household bills. I had ploughed my life savings into the home, and lost it all.
In 2006 I was approached by a friend, who was concerned for my financial circumstances, and suggested that we buy an old property, renovate it and sell it for a profit. I was desperate to make some money, and trusted my friend. I would refer you to full details of this in my Beg, as the project ended in complete failure having been ripped off by an unscrupulous builder. Work that should have taken 3 months took in excess of 9, and I ended up carrying out all the work myself. I regularly worked at the house from the early hours until well past midnight. The long hours left me exhausted, and in October 2008 I had a breakdown. I simply couldn’t carry on, and collapsed at work. My employer at the time was an unforgiving and vindictive man, and he said that I would be suspended if my work didn’t improve. I was afraid that I would lose my job, and under considerable psychological pressure from my employer I was forced to resign.
Following the failed business venture, which had plunged me into further debt, my breakdown and subsequent loss of my job, I simply couldn’t cope and pushed me into a long period of depression that became so severe that I planned to take my life. At the time I was so ill that I was unable to hold down a job, and this simply added to my woes - whilst out of work and undergoing intensive counselling I borrowed further. By the end of 2009 I was £15,000 ($23,250) in debt. I desperately want to rebuild my life now, but it is difficult to do so when I am saddled with a debt that is crippling me. Between 2009 and December 2010 my debt increased - there is no answer to it, and I will never ever me able to clear the £18,000 ($27,900) that I now owe. It is a debt that cripples me and prevents me from having a normal, happy life. I am 50 in February 2012, but have no future. I am tired of being worried, stressed, unable to sleep, and being depressed. Please, please help me start my life all over again. Please read my full story, and contact me if you have any questions. Thank you.

I Am seema 23, and am in desperate need of help. my parents left me at a very
young age and my grandmother took care of me and provided me with every
thing including medicine for my health troubled by asthma and education. But
she can no longer afford any of this.

i was hospitalized for many years because of the asthma, but was able to go
back to school and should be completing my diploma this June, but now i
can't even attend classes, i have no fees. I really want to complete my
education, i don't want every thing to end here.

I have overcome many challenges, i fight hard to provide myself with what i
need, but am stuck, i need help, i have real and big dream ahead of me. If
someone out there hears my cry for help, please give me a hand with my
school fees.

My name is Kacey and 2011 proved to be a bad year for me. I am a Freelance Media Consultant and was quite happy with what I was doing and achieved. Unfortunately due to severe stress (brought on by serious family situations and illness) I suffered a stroke the beginning of that year. I consider myself lucky because paralysis was only temporary and I'm back up and about walking around. I was only 44 years old when this happened and now registered with the hospital for the rest of my life. They even carried out a brain scan to make sure I didn't have a brain tumour. I was given the all clear with that. On top of that I also suffered a bout of colitis soon after. I've lived with the disease for ten years and manage it extremely well, I live with it and lead as happy and healthy life as I can. BUT it was the stroke that turned my life upside down and it has taken a while to get my head around it. I had no support from family but I thank goodness for close friends who have helped me through this health issue.

I now want to get back to my freelance work and during 2011 I continued helping out with a local community newspaper writing articles and taking photographs when I could. It was then I discovered that my hand writing had been affected by the stroke, but I'm getting there and my hand writing is getting better! I also found the quality of my photographs were also affected and not as good as before I had the stroke, they are not as clear and concise as they could be with a little digital camera I have. It has no anti shake. And yet my earlier photos are now attracting interest and people are now asking if I can be booked for taking photos for them. I'd love to do it and I'm just pleased that the community newspaper that I volunteer for have been supportive throughout. HOWEVER if I am going to add to my work experience and concentrate on my photography and writing I need to invest in some new photography equipment and a laptop to move onto new career challenges.

Effectively, after a year out I am starting out from the beginning again with being a Media Consultant and asking for help to achieve this. I have never asked for help before with my work, so hope that whoever is out there reading this can help towards achieving the camera equipment and laptop I need to progress into my photography sphere. I also plan to study at college a part-time photography course from September 2012. It'll last 3 years but it will be worth it and a qualification at the end of it. Just because I had a stroke does not mean the end. It just means adapting and getting the best out of life that I can. Anything is possible so don't write me off just yet!

Thank you for reading this true life whoever you may be.

My name is Kacey and 2011 proved to be a bad year for me. I am a Freelance Media Consultant and was quite happy with what I was doing and achieved. Unfortunately due to severe stress (brought on by serious family situations and illness) I suffered a stroke the beginning of that year. I consider myself lucky because paralysis was only temporary and I'm back up and about walking around. I was only 44 years old when this happened and now registered with the hospital for the rest of my life. They even carried out a brain scan to make sure I didn't have a brain tumour. I was given the all clear with that. On top of that I also suffered a bout of colitis soon after. I've lived with the disease for ten years and manage it extremely well, I live with it and lead as happy and healthy life as I can. BUT it was the stroke that turned my life upside down and it has taken a while to get my head around it. I had no support from family but I thank goodness for close friends who have helped me through this health issue.

I now want to get back to my freelance work and during 2011 I continued helping out with a local community newspaper writing articles and taking photographs when I could. It was then I discovered that my hand writing had been affected by the stroke, but I'm getting there and my hand writing is getting better! I also found the quality of my photographs were also affected and not as good as before I had the stroke, they are not as clear and concise as they could be with a little digital camera I have. It has no anti shake. And yet my earlier photos are now attracting interest and people are now asking if I can be booked for taking photos for them. I'd love to do it and I'm just pleased that the community newspaper that I volunteer for have been supportive throughout. HOWEVER if I am going to add to my work experience and concentrate on my photography and writing I need to invest in some new photography equipment and a laptop to move onto new career challenges.

Effectively, after a year out I am starting out from the beginning again with being a Media Consultant and asking for help to achieve this. I have never asked for help before with my work, so hope that whoever is out there reading this can help towards achieving the camera equipment and laptop I need to progress into my photography sphere. I also plan to study at college a part-time photography course from September 2012. It'll last 3 years but it will be worth it and a qualification at the end of it. Just because I had a stroke does not mean the end. It just means adapting and getting the best out of life that I can. Anything is possible so don't write me off just yet!

Thank you for reading this true life whoever you may be.

I am a fighter. My story is a long one with many trials and tribulations; perhaps not much different or worse than others, I am not sure. My name is Elizabeth Newton and I live in Loveland, Colorado; the Sweetheart City and Gateway to the Rockies. I was raised by both parents in a middle class environment. I am the oldest of four, in which, three are brothers. I was a creative child who staged puppet shows and created clubs in our neighborhood. I am not sure if you remember the fuzzy sticky feet, but I made my own with left over pieces of carpet and sold them to my friends.
Moving on, I really struggled in school and got into a lot trouble. I was reckless, promiscuous, used drugs and alcohol and was dangerous. To keep it short, I dropped out in my junior year. When I reflect on those years, I remember some of what I did but mostly I forgot. I guess I felt as though I was being pulled by the strings of a puppet master whose name I now know is Bipolar.
When I turned 18 I shared an apartment with a friend. We both worked for the same nursing home and later for the Bureau of Reclamation. In was at the former job, I received my GED. I was still behaving recklessly resulting in a lot of missed work. But I was having fun being independent, partying all night but slowly losing control of my life.
I became pregnant by my boyfriend and we married several months later. My daughter is a grown woman. I then had another child four years later. Money was also a struggle. My husband wanted me to work but it did not make sense financially. I paid more for daycare then I was paid. When I found a position over the weekends, my husband refused to watch the children. That being said, I was still reckless – the mood would not go away – still a slave of the puppet master. Eventually the relationship became abusive and my husband left leaving $200 on the kitchen table. I did not have a car so I borrowed my father’s truck. I drove my father’s truck with my two small children in back to a safe house. However, it was not so safe. My husband who insulated homes, worked on the safe house. He found the truck and wrote things, I cannot mention here, on the outside of the truck. He coerced my grandmother to call me; and she did! Having to deal with these distractions kept me from focusing on me.
Good news! I was able to move into low income housing. It was a struggle to get my possessions; I took what I could. My father out of the blue wanted his truck back. My mother headed him off at the pass. I think I remember that my life settled down a bit. I enrolled in college. I loved college. In spite of this, I quit school to work from my mother at her computer store. Did I mention my parents were divorced? I am not sure it matters at this point. About six months later, the puppet master caught me and off I was again.
I had a boyfriend – I was 32 years old – and pregnant again…..This relationship was worse that the first. It included drinking, drugs, sexual and physical abuse – oh my, sigh. In the course of it all, I secured a position for one of the largest companies in Loveland. I was thrilled. I had actually come a long way. I divorced my second husband and found my own apartment.
Wow – raising three children on my own was not easy. We got by – I was able to provide what we needed. I forgot to mention I shared custody of my third child and had to pay child support. I never complained; I met my responsibility. I was performing very well at work and procured a position of a trainer. WeeHee – my new position allowed me to travel the globe. Can you imagine, me, the girl from Loveland, Colorado? During this time, I encountered a lot of problems with my ex-husband. Once, he called me at work and said he had a brain tumor. It was a joke; I did not find it funny.
I was promoted again returned to school and bought a house!!! I cannot think of the words to describe these accomplishments. I transformed from the woman driving my father’s truck to a home owner; kind of like the Home Sweet Home book. I was still partying, drinking, but not like before. The puppet master must have been on holiday. I met the man of my dreams and we married in 1998 (I think). We are still together.
The puppet master had those strings a rolling. I could and did accomplish anything. I could see what others could not. I finished school with ease and received my BA in Organization Development in 2005. What year did my story start? We bought a new home in a nice neighborhood. It is a modest home but fits us very well. I was still partying but it was not disrupting my work and home responsibilities.
CRASH! He let go – how could he let go? A woman pulled in front of us and totaled our car. I realize this does not sound traumatic, does it? I really do not know anymore. What I do know is this rocked my world. More than any other event did – and there were many. I could not recover. My performance fell down the well. I could not sleep. I drank a lot. I would even get up at night to drink because I could not sleep. The unthinkable happened. My strings let me down. I swallowed a bottle of pills. I was so afraid. I spent three days in the psychiatric hospital and two months in intensive outpatient therapy. During this time I was on short term disability. I am a fighter; I have never let my circumstances stop me. I returned to work for about two months. Nevertheless, the strings dropped again, were they ever pulled, I am not sure; I spent eight days in hospital. I was out of work again. This time when I returned to work there was no position waiting for me. I was laid off the summer of 2009. I lost it all in one short year.
Remember I am a fighter. I returned to school in July 2009 to obtain a masters degree and I graduated in early 2011. The problem? I obtained a degree and I could not use without further education. I still do not say this out loud. During this time, I landed a part time job as an instructor for students seeking their AAS Human Resources degree. I make a third of the salary I previously did. I have performed this job since April 2010. It is hard. I forget – my memory is not that good. What you have reading are the highlights of my life.
Adult children and BABIES!! Not one baby; two and a one year old. My daughter was in a bad situation in Arizona. She was pregnant with twins, had a one year old daughter, had no car and was being evicted. The dad? Let’s say there is a lot to be desired. She packed as much as she could and moved in with us. Would anyone turn a loved one away in this situation? I could not. I was still drinking. As I write this, I now realize drinking was the one constant in my life. Sad. Her pregnancy had it challenges, but I think this is common. The first snowstorm of the year, December 30th, if you can believe that for Colorado, the babies had enough; my daughter was in labor. We called 911 since the roads were bad. Several hours later we welcomed two healthy baby girls! They will be one year old soon.
New Chapter. How many do we get? My daughter and 18 year old son live with us in our modest home. We clash, how we could not. I have been telling my doctor that I am depressed, damn strings. I can’t sleep and my body hurts so badly; especially when I lay down. Oh, I forgot to mention, no drinking! I quit over a year ago. Regrettably the depression and pain are driving my every moment. I think the puppet master is on vacation. There is no hope. I have been out of work too long. We are waiting for the repo man to get our car. We are barely holding on to the house. How can everything crash so fast and so hard? I am a fighter remember. My mind is full of hopelessness. I have a note that says “Please just let me go”. I am a fighter remember. I call the crisis line. They tell me to call 911. I don’t. I go to bed. Maybe it will be better tomorrow. Not a chance. The same message is repeating over and over in my head; “please let me go”. I tell my family I am driving to the hospital. I do not want anyone to come with me. I go alone.
Hospital

Have you ever been so overloaded with the stresses and challenges of life that you just want to kill your self? Well that was me a couple of years ago, I walkedinto my local ER and indicated I wanted to kill my self. After 3 days in the hospital, I left there feeling there was a reason for me to be here. Still today, I'm still a struggling widow, at 54, lost home ownership, overextended in cascading bills, and don't have more than 2.00 in my purse right now. The good news is, I'm not giving up, I mailed my grandaughters Christmas box, God loves me, I gave next to my last in Church on Sunday, I searched all the bad ways to make money on the internet, now I'm trying the good way. I could use 1000.00 for bills and groceries, or whatever the right hand wants to give without the left hand knowing. God Bless you.

Need $143 to help keep car insured and internet and phone working for job search. Even a few dollars will help. Policy and utilities are at risk of being canceled. Any amount received over the requested amount will go for other utilities. There is no one else in this household and no strong support network or agency that can help. Also facing medical challenges. If four people donate, that would be only $36 apiece.

Thank you.

Hi there, I recently lost my job just adding to the last 2 years of pure hell. I have 16 month old twins and we are facing eviction. I was unable to pay October rent and now its almost Nov. I have lost 2 family members over the last 2 years, along with another being dianosed with terminal cancer this year. My significant other has been trying for 2 years to renew her VISA/citizenship status and that has not happened yet. The cost for that is remarkably high. I have been able to provide for my family until now. This is not something I had ever thought I'd need to do but facing todays challenges I have no other options. I am patiently waiting to recieve a check from a 401k plan that is minimal but will help but even that has been a challenge. Well with all said I guess what I am asking for is any type of help, rent, food, utility bill help ....anything

I have been a single mom for all of my adult daughter's life, she has mental challenges, and we have tried for Social Security for years. She has a daughter who is 9, and they live with me, if they didn't they would be homeless. We worked hard to get vocational rehab to get her trained for a job, after 7 years and going from supervisor to supervisor, we got her a job as a daycare worker. The program she's in pays her salary for six weeks, and she needs to be hooked up with a daycare center to get certification. Well the first week, they didn't pay her, because they had to see if she was a fit. She got 30 hours for 3 weeks, and downhill after that. The daycare got reimbursed for her paycheck, and now she isn't getting more than 4 hours a week. I live on Social Security, and I have had to take care of everyone for going on 7 years with no help. I needed new tires, and because I thought my kid was working, I borrowed money to get those tires. Now I can't pay the loan, and we could lose our place to live. It's hard enough to live close to the bone, but the promise of a good job, and have it yanked out from under you, is tragic. I don't know what to do, so I thought I would try this. I pray so hard for help, but God helps those who help themselves. My kids deserve better, we live in a travel trailer in a campground, and the rent is cheap, but no money no place to live. HELP

Hi. I cant believe I;m begging online. I expect no response to this, but view it as a place to vent. Good things just haven't happened to me for a long time. Here I go anyway... I am writing because I am in desperate need for help. I am a 35 year old single dad with a 9 year old daughter. Let me begin by explaining my situation. My former employer, in the building supply industry, went out of business a few years ago. The economy has not rebounded making building industry jobs scarce. I have since then put myself through schooling to become an emergency medical technician as I stand a chance at getting hired by my local fire department if the economy improves. I am aiming for a career change to get back into the work force. I had to change careers for economic as well as health reasons. Shortly after my company went out of business, I was diagnosed with Crohn’s disease, a debilitating disease affecting the digestive tract. The disease caused me to lose 75 lbs (30% of my body mass) in 8 months. I have been proactive in drastically changing my diet and getting the proper medical care and medicine (Thank God for Medicaid).
Even with medical care, I am still sick every day but I am making the disease more manageable. I applied for disability and received a response back that my condition is indeed disabling, preventing me from working, but would resolve in a year. Hopefully it does, but it is classified as an incurable disease that leads to repeated surgeries in 75% of the patients diagnosed with the disease. On the flip side of that statistic is a growing hope that alternative therapies may work… but take time to custom tailor to the individual. They are also expensive and not covered by Medicaid or private sector insurance. I have spoken to a disability attorney who is ready to represent me if necessary. I am only seeking disability as my “Plan B” if all else fails. I want to become a productive member of society again. I do have a “Plan A”, but I have a LOT of obstacles ahead of me.
This has all had a devastating effect on my finances. Last summer my gas was turned off the day after my daughter’s heart surgery. The gas was turned back on based on medical necessity. As of this week, my gas is turned off again and LIHEAP cannot assist me. I can’t seem to ever have the “Timing” right to get assistance. My electric is also on the verge of being shut off. My home is in foreclosure but the bank has agreed to work with me if I can find employment fast. I have just received a job offer that I graciously accepted. I start in a week. Just before receiving the job offer, while biking with my daughter, I had a mini stroke which caused me to go unconscious while riding. I crashed, broke my ribs, clavicle, hurt my spine, bruised my brain and lung, received several stitches, etc.. I pray that my health stabilizes to allow me to work. My daughter lives with me in this house. I would like to save it from foreclosure mainly for her sake. It’s where she has grown up. It’s a few blocks from her school where I want to keep her. My adopted 9 year old daughter, who I love a lot, has a very difficult speech impediment and learning disability. She already has special education and speech therapy in place with professionals that have worked with her for many years and know her needs. It would be very difficult to have to move away and have to make her start over in another school. I love my daughter a lot and will do anything to provide for her a life that she deserves… with my own limited resources. I say all that to illustrate “in short” that I need help. I have asked relatives and friends for help throughout the year and they are “Tapped”. My church is also in the same situation. I have sold most of my possessions to afford my phone bill, auto insurance, and auto fuel. My daughter and I currently have Medicaid and SNAP food assistance.
My goals are to:
1) I need to rebuild my professional wardrobe. I have lost a lot of weight and consequently have been working on buying dress clothes for my new job. I am to wear solid black suits. I am a 44L with a 38” Waist and 34” Inseam. Size 14 Black oxford shoes. I will graciously accept presentable used items. I can buy 3 inexpensive nice black suits for $80 each. $50 for shoes.
2) I have to keep going to my doctors and maintain and improve my health. I have just been referred off for advanced level care. The travel expenses are going to be very high. I will have to stay overnight in a hotel somehow for some procedures.
3) I will have to afford to drive to work. I will have to keep myself insured and afford the initial cash outset for my first 2-3 weeks of work. I am traveling far to work and it will cost me about $125 a week in fuel. $60/ month in insurance.
4) I have to get my gas turned back on. I am looking at having to come up with an impossible $5000 to get it turned back on.
5) I just bought and installed an used electric water heater and dryer. I have no way as of yet to heat my house this winter.
6) I have to catch up on my $1500 electric bill. Hopefully I can do so or I will have to abandon my house and give up hope. I may have to move to a different state with different utility companies.
7) If I can accomplish the above goals in a short amount of time, I stand a very strong chance at getting my mortgage modified and staying in my home. I can then only have to worry about the basics of life in addition to my health and my daughter’s heart and special needs.
I am facing some tough challenges. I cannot do it on my own. I have nowhere to turn. I would appreciate any assistance or advice on where to go for assistance.
Thank you for taking the time to read this letter. I appreciate your help.

Hi potential donors,
Am in dire need of cash of up to $1000. my challenges are that in 2009 i left my small business which was giving me atleast $166/month in a low cost kenyan town to the capital nairobi for a proffessional job which came with a package of $245 net/month with a six months probation after which i was to get an addition to $500. Now 2 years later am still earning $245. the cost of life has tripled and i now also support my younger sister who has a small baby girl but has lost her job. My younger brother whom i left to run the business run it down. Now i need to start a business that can get me out of these pressures maybe into other pressures of management but not financial. If i get the donation, i will open up my business and with time am sure i will be able to open another business for my sister so that she gives me space to carry on with my developments while she is also able to support her daughter. Please note that am note dying of hunger, Am under immense pressure, at 27 am late with my planned progress in life, you can get me back on track. Am an electronic technician meaning that my investment will only require minimal capital which are Capital for the workshop premise, city licenses, copyright for music, furniture and a few start up stock. I already have all the required tools.Contact: 2000kenyans@gmail.com
Kind regards.

Hello! I am 18 years old and just graduated and, although it is a milestone, I know it is only the beginning of my life. To prepare myself for all of the new challenges and tribulations I will have as an adult, I have choose to go a different path then most of my classmates. Instead of going to college right away or taking a year off, I have decided to do a BDTS (Backpackers Discipleship Training School) in New Zealand.


DTS is the training program for Youth With A Mission (YWAM). YWAM is a world-wide, youth based missionary organization whose motto is "to know God and to make him known." Each DTS starts with a 3 month lecture faze meant for me to "know God." During this time i will be stationed in New Zealand studying various topics and learning from multiple speakers. On the weekends me and my team will make trips to Christchurch as well as adventurous outdoor trips. After that, the next faze is the outreach to "make him known." This is the part where i will be backpacking around New Zealand with my team spreading the word of God. After that i graduate from the program and am able to become a part of the organization's staff.

I am so excited to do this training. This Training is just what I need to set a good foundation with Christ in my life before being thrown into the college life to become a nurse.

Of course, there are also large obstacles set in front of me that, if it were not for God, I would see as without a solution.

This specific backpacking DTS is offered only once every few years and costs $11,000. That is including the $3000 plane ticket, backpacking gear, food, tuition, traveling within NZ and health insurance. I have raised, thanks to the help of my family, friends and my church, $8,600. This leaves me with about $2500 left to raise by September 28th of 2011 (just a few months away now).

I KNOW that with the help my friends, family, my two jobs, God and you, it WILL happen. I know this because God wants me to go. Simple as that. And when God wants something, he makes it happen as long as you cooperate and trust in him. And that, I do.

If donating is something you feel you are be able to do I would be so very thankful. And I remind you that anything helps. Being a waitress, I know that even small quantities add up to a large sum.

For information on YWAM and DTS please visit ywam.org/training and for information on my specific DTS go to ywamoxford.org/backpackers

Hello! I am 18 years old and just graduated and, although it is a milestone, I know it is only the beginning of my life. To prepare myself for all of the new challenges and tribulations I will have as an adult, I have choose to go a different path then most of my classmates. Instead of going to college right away or taking a year off, I have decided to do a BDTS (Backpackers Discipleship Training School) in New Zealand.


DTS is the training program for Youth With A Mission (YWAM). YWAM is a world-wide, youth based missionary organization whose motto is "to know God and to make him known." Each DTS starts with a 3 month lecture faze meant for me to "know God." During this time i will be stationed in New Zealand studying various topics and learning from multiple speakers. On the weekends me and my team will make trips to Christchurch as well as adventurous outdoor trips. After that, the next faze is the outreach to "make him known." This is the part where i will be backpacking around New Zealand with my team spreading the word of God. After that i graduate from the program and am able to become a part of the organization's staff.

I am so excited to do this training. This Training is just what I need to set a good foundation with Christ in my life before being thrown into the college life to become a nurse.

Of course, there are also large obstacles set in front of me that, if it were not for God, I would see as without a solution.

This specific backpacking DTS is offered only once every few years and costs $11,000. That is including the $3000 plane ticket, backpacking gear, food, tuition, traveling within NZ and health insurance. I have raised, thanks to the help of my family, friends and my church, $8,600. This leaves me with about $2500 left to raise by September 28th of 2011 (just a few months away now).

I KNOW that with the help my friends, family, my two jobs, God and you, it WILL happen. I know this because God wants me to go. Simple as that. And when God wants something, he makes it happen as long as you cooperate and trust in him. And that, I do.

If donating is something you feel you are be able to do I would be so very thankful. And I remind you that anything helps. Being a waitress, I know that even small quantities add up to a large sum.

For information on YWAM and DTS please visit ywam.org/training and for information on my specific DTS go to ywamoxford.org/backpackers

Hello! I am 18 years old and just graduated and, although it is a milestone, I know it is only the beginning of my life. To prepare myself for all of the new challenges and tribulations I will have as an adult, I have choose to go a different path then most of my classmates. Instead of going to college right away or taking a year off, I have decided to do a BDTS (Backpackers Discipleship Training School) in New Zealand.


DTS is the training program for Youth With A Mission (YWAM). YWAM is a world-wide, youth based missionary organization whose motto is "to know God and to make him known." Each DTS starts with a 3 month lecture faze meant for me to "know God." During this time i will be stationed in New Zealand studying various topics and learning from multiple speakers. On the weekends me and my team will make trips to Christchurch as well as adventurous outdoor trips. After that, the next faze is the outreach to "make him known." This is the part where i will be backpacking around New Zealand with my team spreading the word of God. After that i graduate from the program and am able to become a part of the organization's staff.

I am so excited to do this training. This Training is just what I need to set a good foundation with Christ in my life before being thrown into the college life to become a nurse.

Of course, there are also large obstacles set in front of me that, if it were not for God, I would see as without a solution.

This specific backpacking DTS is offered only once every few years and costs $11,000. That is including the $3000 plane ticket, backpacking gear, food, tuition, traveling within NZ and health insurance. I have raised, thanks to the help of my family, friends and my church, $8,600. This leaves me with about $2500 left to raise by September 28th of 2011 (just a few months away now).

I KNOW that with the help my friends, family, my two jobs, God and you, it WILL happen. I know this because God wants me to go. Simple as that. And when God wants something, he makes it happen as long as you cooperate and trust in him. And that, I do.

If donating is something you feel you are be able to do I would be so very thankful. And I remind you that anything helps. Being a waitress, I know that even small quantities add up to a large sum.

For information on YWAM and DTS please visit ywam.org/training and for information on my specific DTS go to ywamoxford.org/backpackers

Hi Everyone, I'm 50 y/o and I have never thought of begging until now. Over the past few weeks I kept praying and asking God to help me, saying repeatedly, "Lord, there must be a way that I can ask people for help...I'm at my wits end". I started searching putting in phrases asking for help and discovered this site. All I can say is that so much is happening at once...I have faith, but it's really hard.

I suffer with bouts of hemorrhage which impede my ability to maintain a steady job because when it happens I'm absent from work almost two weeks. When it happens I lie in bed and wonder/pray Lord will I live or die? Do I need a transfusion? I'm about two points from a transfusion now. I need to purchase medical insurance so I can see a doctor and take care of this one way or another. Hospital bills are about 20,000 now. I need money for medical insurance and also to have dental work done. My teeth hurt. I need about several thousand dollars of dental work done. One dentist's attorney is threatening to seize my car. I owe him $6000.00. I had paid him $3000.00 already, but he raised it back up as if I had paid nothing. I couldn't make it to court because of hemorrhage and the judge put the judgment through.

Even worse, I have a son whom I love very much, living with his dad. David is 18 now with prior developmental challenges. His father made repeated threats on my life if I didn't transfer custody. How I mourn that I gave in. I owe back child support because I haven't been able to work steadily. I do whatever I can with dignity. I do private caregiving, clean houses, some occasional paralegal contract work, sew-make native coats and sew clothes in general--all when I'm able, feeling strong. When I'm not well with the hemorrhage I'm on bed rest. My earnings are not even enough to pay my bills...not to mention child support. I presented proof of hemorrhage to a semijudge(mediator etc.)in court and she rejected it and computed a monthly amount of $400.00 based on my ability to earn money because of my educational background. She didn't compute it based on facts. Anyway, I have to appear in court on May 2 for another violation of nonpayment not because I don't want to pay, but because I can't afford it. They're saying that in total I owe $26,000.00. There is a chance that they'll incarcerate me on 5/2/11 for nonpayment of child support. God says do not be afraid, but this is alot, more than I can bear alone.

Please, I am begging, pleading for help, for compassion with tears in my eyes and my heart just wants to burst. I feel so alone with these problems. No one really knows how badly I feel. I love life and I love people, and I do whatever I can to love my neighbor as myself and to love God with all my heart mind and soul, but this just seems to much to bear.

All I can offer is my love and friendship, appreciation if you will be so kind and compassionate as to donate to my cause. I will be forever grateful and I will pray that you have stored up treasures in heaven with Almighty God. I will pray for you and your loved ones. If you are ill or suffering with illness or addiction of some sort I will pray with you. I could meet with you in NYC or you could join me in the mid hudson valley, brunch, walk and talk when I'm able. I just mean to say that this is the truth. I need desperate help before May 2 and ongoing. I need an attorney as well as money. Please help me to turn this around. I'd have a hysterectomy if I could afford it. Leave your number or mailing address and I'll be glad to personally thank you. Money is a tool and I need the help now more than ever. Please help me. Thank you and God bless you.
Cristi

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Hi Everyone, I'm 50 y/o and I have never thought of begging until now. Over the past few weeks I kept praying and asking God to help me, saying repeatedly, "Lord, there must be a way that I can ask people for help...I'm at my wits end". I started searching putting in phrases asking for help and discovered this site. All I can say is that so much is happening at once...I have faith, but it's really hard.

I suffer with bouts of hemorrhage which impede my ability to maintain a steady job because when it happens I'm absent from work almost two weeks. When it happens I lie in bed and wonder/pray Lord will I live or die? Do I need a transfusion? I'm about two points from a transfusion now. I need to purchase medical insurance so I can see a doctor and take care of this one way or another. Hospital bills are about 20,000 now. I need money for medical insurance and also to have dental work done. My teeth hurt. I need about several thousand dollars of dental work done. One dentist's attorney is threatening to seize my car. I owe him $6000.00. I had paid him $3000.00 already, but he raised it back up as if I had paid nothing. I couldn't make it to court because of hemorrhage and the judge put the judgment through.

Even worse, I have a son whom I love very much, living with his dad. David is 18 now with prior developmental challenges. His father made repeated threats on my life if I didn't transfer custody. How I mourn that I gave in. I owe back child support because I haven't been able to work steadily. I do whatever I can with dignity. I do private caregiving, clean houses, some occasional paralegal contract work, sew-make native coats and sew clothes in general--all when I'm able, feeling strong. When I'm not well with the hemorrhage I'm on bed rest. My earnings are not even enough to pay my bills...not to mention child support. I presented proof of hemorrhage to a semijudge(mediator etc.)in court and she rejected it and computed a monthly amount of $400.00 based on my ability to earn money because of my educational background. She didn't compute it based on facts. Anyway, I have to appear in court on May 2 for another violation of nonpayment not because I don't want to pay, but because I can't afford it. They're saying that in total I owe $26,000.00. There is a chance that they'll incarcerate me on 5/2/11 for nonpayment of child support. God says do not be afraid, but this is alot, more than I can bear alone.

Please, I am begging, pleading for help, for compassion with tears in my eyes and my heart just wants to burst. I feel so alone with these problems. No one really knows how badly I feel. I love life and I love people, and I do whatever I can to love my neighbor as myself and to love God with all my heart mind and soul, but this just seems to much to bear.

All I can offer is my love and friendship, appreciation if you will be so kind and compassionate as to donate to my cause. I will be forever grateful and I will pray that you have stored up treasures in heaven with Almighty God. I will pray for you and your loved ones. If you are ill or suffering with illness or addiction of some sort I will pray with you. I could meet with you in NYC or you could join me in the mid hudson valley, brunch, walk and talk when I'm able. I just mean to say that this is the truth. I need desperate help before May 2 and ongoing. I need an attorney as well as money. Please help me to turn this around. I'd have a hysterectomy if I could afford it. Leave your number or mailing address and I'll be glad to personally thank you. Money is a tool and I need the help now more than ever. Please help me. Thank you and God bless you.
Cristi

Hi Everyone, I'm 50 y/o and I have never thought of begging until now. Over the past few weeks I kept praying and asking God to help me, saying repeatedly, "Lord, there must be a way that I can ask people for help...I'm at my wits end". I started searching putting in phrases asking for help and discovered this site. All I can say is that so much is happening at once...I have faith, but it's really hard.

I suffer with bouts of hemorrhage which impede my ability to maintain a steady job because when it happens I'm absent from work almost two weeks. When it happens I lie in bed and wonder/pray Lord will I live or die? Do I need a transfusion? I'm about two points from a transfusion now. I need to purchase medical insurance so I can see a doctor and take care of this one way or another. Hospital bills are about 20,000 now. I need money for medical insurance and also to have dental work done. My teeth hurt. I need about several thousand dollars of dental work done. One dentist's attorney is threatening to seize my car. I owe him $6000.00. I had paid him $3000.00 already, but he raised it back up as if I had paid nothing. I couldn't make it to court because of hemorrhage and the judge put the judgment through.

Even worse, I have a son whom I love very much, living with his dad. David is 18 now with prior developmental challenges. His father made repeated threats on my life if I didn't transfer custody. How I mourn that I gave in. I owe back child support because I haven't been able to work steadily. I do whatever I can with dignity. I do private caregiving, clean houses, some occasional paralegal contract work, sew-make native coats and sew clothes in general--all when I'm able, feeling strong. When I'm not well with the hemorrhage I'm on bed rest. My earnings are not even enough to pay my bills...not to mention child support. I presented proof of hemorrhage to a semijudge(mediator etc.)in court and she rejected it and computed a monthly amount of $400.00 based on my ability to earn money because of my educational background. She didn't compute it based on facts. Anyway, I have to appear in court on May 2 for another violation of nonpayment not because I don't want to pay, but because I can't afford it. They're saying that in total I owe $26,000.00. There is a chance that they'll incarcerate me on 5/2/11 for nonpayment of child support. God says do not be afraid, but this is alot, more than I can bear alone.

Please, I am begging, pleading for help, for compassion with tears in my eyes and my heart just wants to burst. I feel so alone with these problems. No one really knows how badly I feel. I love life and I love people, and I do whatever I can to love my neighbor as myself and to love God with all my heart mind and soul, but this just seems to much to bear.

All I can offer is my love and friendship, appreciation if you will be so kind and compassionate as to donate to my cause. I will be forever grateful and I will pray that you have stored up treasures in heaven with Almighty God. I will pray for you and your loved ones. If you are ill or suffering with illness or addiction of some sort I will pray with you. I could meet with you in NYC or you could join me in the mid hudson valley, brunch, walk and talk when I'm able. I just mean to say that this is the truth. I need desperate help before May 2 and ongoing. I need an attorney as well as money. Please help me to turn this around. I'd have a hysterectomy if I could afford it. Leave your number or mailing address and I'll be glad to personally thank you. Money is a tool and I need the help now more than ever. Please help me. Thank you and God bless you.
Cristi

Hello everyone,
I am a young man aged 25yrs,living with parents or rather at their mercy.I completed my education by securing a Master's Diploma in Advanced Biotechnology and was previously employed as a Business Development officer with a Pharmaceutical concern.But things had never been easy with me.

The company I worked used to exploit my abilities vastly and I was paid only USD 1800 a year.They also delayed every incentives that was earned by me,eventually this led to a aversion for the job and the company I worked for and I did Quit it a couple of months ago.They are yet to pay me my dues........

I always had a dream to become a big entrepreneur someday and always had thought I would develop and venture the family business into new arenas where there would be lots of revenue.But my Dad never consents to my ideas and treats me as if I am a retard.He always challenges me to begin a business on my own and generate revenues greater than him in order to prove myself.

Hence my financial freedom is at great stake now........even after being educated and having been honest in the way I lead my life I have lost the basic essence of living a life being separated from my financial freedom,career and the Entrepreneurial dream which is now desperately begging your help.

My idea of Business: my nation of stay is a large agro-based economy.The major percentage of its revenue comes from agriculture.The most needed product in the agriculture industry is Fertiliser.But the Government is now encouraging the use of Biofertlisers more.Many big corporate houses has already ventured into this market and earning the profits.But as is the way,in the very competitive market of our country two things say the final word : Money and Hard Work.......the market demands and the supplier has to deliver,quality and high price doesn't finds the buyer nor does smart ideas.

Now for such an Industry,money is needed of all things even to step out a little and so long I have found no concerns that is ready to lend money without some conditions like:
1. Mortgage of Property:I don't have any,I am a little more than a slave for my parents.
2. Credentials form a past Business: If I really had a Business of my own,I wouldn't have went to ask money from a lender.
3. Smart Business plan: I have made many plans but none of them seem to satisfy any investors who always looks for whats in it for them........I am tired convincing them honestly and I have no money to build a flawless project report from experienced consultants.

Hence,my last resort is here,to grab a pan and beg a fortune.Gentlemen,I know the amount I ask for might be enormous except for the lucky millionaires and billionaires who spends such an amount overnight partying or buying an expensive vehicle for their near and dear ones........but it is also true that this amount can change an unlucky man's life forever.

I am not the kind of person who would login every other day and spam the net with heart breaking stories and ask someone else to pay my bills for eternity.........

I am someone who wants to take control of his own life that had been massacred by misfortune.

For that,I need your help now.........any benevolent person who had been blessed with wealth and opulence please help me take control of my life.For me it would be a miracle and as my last resort,I would be convinced that there are kind souls still on earth for whom money is not everything but greatness is.

I have no Paypal account as of now,please find me at this email address here : don2028@gmail.com,if you think you can help this beggar here.

May the Almighty bless you with all luck and prosperity,

Regards,
Unlucky1.

I have NEVER EVER done this before but I ran across this site and figured I have nothing to loose trying. "Where there is a will there is a way!" Where to start? Sighhh...
I am the sweetest, sensitive, charitable, loving, giving, God Fearing, non judgemental, lover, encourager lady.. Many of my closest friends and family call me an "Angel on earth"... But even Angels need help once in a while.. I'm usually the helper so asking for help is new and a bit hard for me to chew..

First let's start with: My name is Crystal H.. I am a 32 year old caucasion lady that lives in Colorado.. Native to Colorado. Growing up I excelled in school thus earning 4.0 average and constant Honor Roll. I did have College opportunities ect. but at that time I met a young man in college, football player and fell in love. I had a good paying job as an office manager and thought all was good.. It was for several years anyway..We married and At 23yrs. I gave birth to my miriacle baby whom was premature and weighed 2 lbs. 11oz. I was very ill at the end of pregnancy due to acute Eclampsia so she was born early emergency c-cection, flight for lifed to Childrens Hospital in Denver and I stayed in ICU for the first week.. Keep in mind due to circumstances I never was able to see or touch my daughter before they airlifted her to Denver.. Finally one week later my doctor gave me a two hour pass to beable to go to Denver and meet my new daughter for the very first time.. Words can't tell what I felt and the emotions I was feeling.. I still tear up recounting the events.. But yes after many tears, fear of touching or holding her due to her size and all that was hooked up to her I did finally get courageous enough to hold my new born daughter after a week for the first time.. Love at first sight! Chills are still going through my body as I write this.. Anyway's over time she improved and became much stronger. She was small but mighty. I was finally released from the hospital myself and spent all my time with her at Childrens Hospital until release day.. Brought her home at 3 lbs. 12 oz and had the ultimate baby learning/motherly instincts. With 4 yrs. of twice weekly physical therapy she grew out of her challenges, and has grown into an way above average intellence, beautiful nine yr. old.. Thank you God!!!

My next challenges were none to fun at all! My marriage became rocky.. He became abusive physically, emotionally and mentally.. After about the last 3 yrs. becoming so bad and scary I could not deal with his abuse or allow my daughter seeing such activity. So with that said I asked him to leave our home. He would not leave without a police escort, but finally was gone nonetheless.. I am NOT pro divorce at all so after the initial anger callmed down I did go to him asking him to please do counceling with me and let's really try to work this all out. He REFUSED! So after being with my ex husband twelve years we finally did divorce.. =(

Right after the divorce at the age of 30, I was rushed to the ER and diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure. I was in ICU for over one week and spent several months at home on oxygen. But now since the divorce I was dropped from his insurance so I am unable to have the cardiovascular care needed and a heart valve repaired.. But I have faith one day I will beable to have this delt with.. Gotta believe!

Next was really NOT PLANNED or wanted but happened. I finally met a young man whom I started spending much time with. Due to my heart and lack of insurance I was not on birth control but did use condoms with him. Unfortunately a condom did break and yes I did become pregnant.. Three day's before Christmas last year I misscarried the baby and spent two day's in hospital due to D&C and my heart. I was released at Christmas and had a hard time dealing with the hormones, lack of support from the young man, failure in my parents eyes ect.. Just plain and simple was a hard time for me emotionally but I NEVER once let my daughter know of this and still have not to this day. She does not need to be scared any further than what she has already in life.

Now we come to current events.. Swear I have let my life become a soap opera and should right a what not to do and how to survive book for women.. sighhhhh.... Anyways. After being single for nearly a year and of course wishing I could meet a nice (preferably) Christian boy to date and enter into a relationship with a man whom I have known for several years who was a family friend while I was married came back into my life. This time he showed strong romantic gestures and over time did finally earn some trust n love with me. We entered into a relationship and it felt safe and comfortable since I'd known him so long, family new him and my daughter new him well already too..
I finally started becoming happier and was slowly gaining a little self confidence, and believing that things will end up working out finally afterall.. (Keep in mind due to lack of insurance and Heart Failure I was still not allowed on birth control pills like I wanted) we of course used protection always. But two times the condom came off in me.. I hoped all would be fine and I would not become pregnant, not at all wanting to repeat my first ordeal I had with my daughter plus now with my Congestive Heart Failure on top of it all pregnancy would NOT be good! I went to a local clinic and talked to a female doctor there and begged her if there would be anyway I could qualify for any free birth control that would not hinder my CHF.. Finally I had good news.. =) She said she would see if I could qualify for the low hormone Miranna and if I did she would implant it in my uterous for free.. This was to last for five years.. Yes one positive answered prayer. I went to my doctors oppt. as sheduled, they had me do an UA to make sure I was not pregnant before insertion and preped me for the procedure. Right before the Doctor was to do procedure the nurse came into the room and notified both of us that indeed I was pregnant.. My head swirled with confusion, fear, stress ect.. After talking to my doctor briefly about it, my history ect. I left the office and proceeded to go to my boyfriend to update him of the current events.. At the very beginning he sounded happy and positive, even eased my mind a little but about two day's later he up and left me. I have had my first ultrasound and as of yet the baby is alive and well. Strong heart beat. I am nearly two months pregnant, doctor took me off all my heart meds. due to baby. Still no insurance, applied for Medicade which really saddened me that I was at a point I had to do this.. Very humbling to say the least, and am alone, confused, many urging me to abort the baby but remember I am Christian and this is a hard concept for me to accept.. Currently unemployed, single mother, pregnant, no father support, lonely, desperate and really beginning to feel hopeless.. There is a high probability that the acute Eclampsia could repeat itself again as it did with my daughter and now I'm older than before. Not 23 anymore now I'm 32 with Congestive Heart Failure and Hypertension. Trying to support my nine year old the best I can and now so worried and fearful of what is to come.. Christmas just happened and it so did not feel like Christmas to me. Not much I could do for my daughter or my loved ones. I'm so scared of what the near future holds and how I will beable to deal with it, and be healthy enough to continue taking care of my nine yr. old. Need a good job but kinda feel it would be hard since I am so high risk I have MANY constant dr. visits. Neonatal parnatologist, my OB, and supposed to find a cadiologist as well to monitor me.. Medicade pending but no answer if they would accept me yet, bills piling up, and feeling out of control totally of my life right now.. Sad and confused that bf left me too.. I'm praying sooooo hard daily, nightly, looking on internet for at home jobs I could do but most end up seeming like scams, keep going to church in order to help try to keep me grounded and keep the faith that somehow it will all work out.. I sure hope I have not bored you to death, some may be pretty disgusted by my mistakes and situation, but I do hope nonetheless that maybe even just one person actually found this post, read it through, and maybe just maybe is in a posistion of life that they could and would be willing to help me out a little.. The whole "Pay it forward" campaign.. I fully believe in that and fully believe what goeas around comes around.. Regardless of the outcome I wan't to take a moment to wish everyone that took the time to read my post all the best to you and yours, full love and ENDLESS BLESSINGS to all!

With love and true sencerity,
Crystal H...¢¾


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I know there are others in great need and I encourage you to evaluate those needs first before me. Having said that, I still need help with resources. I am 50 yr. old who has spent his life raising his kids with his lovely wife. Unfortunately, there are needs now that cannot be met and I have nothing for their future. We have a nice home, we pay our mortgage and meet our financial challenges on a daily basis. Needless to say, we are paycheck to paycheck and no savings.
Now for the future. Our dream is to find the resource to procure the attached property around us and develop a campground. In turn, we should be able to offer summer work for some of the local kids creating a few jobs. Though I do have degenerative disc disease compounded with two bulging discs and the arthritis that comes along with it, I remain very active and can develop this property pretty much myself with clean up and improvements. I need a total of $100k to obtain the land and cover expense for some needed equipment. Big request, I know, but I grew up with nothing and I don't want this same struggle for my kids. Thank you so much for your consideration.

I know there are others in great need and I encourage to you evaluate those needs first before me. Having said that, I still need help with resources. I am 50 yr. old whose spent his life raising his kids with his lovely wife. Unfortunately, there are needs now that cannot be met and I have nothing for their future. We have a nice home, we pay our mortgage and meet our financial challenges on a daily basis. Needless to say, we are paycheck to paycheck and no savings.
Now for the future. Our dream is to find the resource to procure the attached property around us and develop a campground. In turn, we should be able to offer summer work for some of the local kids creating a few jobs. Though I do have degenerative disc disease compounded with two bulging discs and the arthritis that comes along with it, I remain very active and can develop this property pretty much myself with clean up and improvements. I need a total of $100k to obtain the land and cover expense in some needed equipment. Big request, I know, but I grew up with nothing and I don't want this same struggle for my kids. Thank you so much for your consideration.

I teach at a university and my husband has been unemployed for more than a year now. With three small children we have been met with some challenges. I need $5000 to keep afloat until September when my husband goes back to work. I will gladly pay back the money. My family is unable to help due to their current circumstances. Any help would be greatly appreciated! Thank you for your kindness!