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I am on the very verge of losing my home and everything.I am struggling immensely, and have no money for food for our bare cupboards let alone all the people wanting money from me. I cant help but feel like Ive failed the children although the ex is to blame for most of the financial distress I am faced with now. Please have a heart and help me before I lose everything and we end up on the street fighting for survival!

Hello, my name is mollie,I am 19 years old. I moved abroad to try and better myself and run away from my family problems at home in the UK.

Unfortunately my inexperience in the big wide world has landed me in the mud...
I have no money to return home, although there i would still face problems.

I have just heard about this internet begging and have managed to use someones laptop at a wifi hotspot to put this ad up.
I really need some money for rent and food, I WANT to work for my money but as I have no home or funds I cant even afford to wash my clothes, therefore no one will hire me (and I can hardly blame them)
I hope and pray that someone will reach out to help me. I want to make this better but sometimes with the best will in the world, you just cant do it alone.
please help me. thank you for reading

Hello, my name is mollie, I am 19 years old.
I moved abroad to try and better myself and run away from my family problems at home in the UK.
Unfortunately my inexperience in the big wide world has landed me in the mud...

I have no money to return home, although there i would still face problems.
I have just heard about this internet begging and have managed to use someones laptop at a wifi hotspot to put this ad up.
I really need some money for rent and food, I WANT to work for my money but as I have no home or funds I cant even afford to wash my clothes, therefore no one will hire me (and I can hardly blame them)
I hope and pray that someone will reach out to help me. I want to make this better but sometimes with the best will in the world, you just cant do it alone.
please help me. thank you for reading

Hello, my name is mollie,I am 19 years old and I moved abroad to try and better myself and run away from my family problems at home in the UK.

Unfortunately my inexperience in the big wide world has landed me in the mud...
I have no money to return home, although there i would still face problems.
I have just heard about this internet begging and have managed to use someones laptop at a wifi hotspot to put this ad up.
I really need some money for rent and food, I want to work for my money but as I have no home or funds I cant even afford to wash my clothes, therefore no one will hire me (and I can hardly blame them)
I hope and pray that someone will reach out to help me. I want to make this better but sometimes with the best will in the world, you just cant do it alone.
please help me. thank you for reading

Thank you for taking your time to read my letter.

I know this my sound weird to you or it may come across as a scam, I
wouldn't blame you for feeling like that after reading my letter
because if I was in your shoes, I would also feel the same.

I am in a desperate financial situation, January this year I lost my
job due to retrenchment . I have 2 unemployed sisters , we sharing 2
bedroom flat together with my single mother who is also unemployed.
Losing my job has made things very difficult in the family since I was
the only bread winner, I am unable to support them financially ,let
alone keeping up with my rent which I am also 2 months behind. Being
the only man in the house , I decided to take an initiative to seek
financial help from anybody who is willing to learn a helping hand.

I cannot give you an exact figure on how much I need since I don't
know how long it will take for me to get myself a new job so that I
can provide for my family.

In essence , what I am asking from you is to help me with my family
with money to pay for my rent for a few months in advance and buy
enough groceries to last us for some time.

If I am unable to raise the money , my family will continue sleeping
with empty stomachs and it may lead to us  being evicted from the flat
due to none rental payment and we will end up on the street.

I will really appreciate it if you can consider learning a helping
hand , I will also understand if you unable to help.


Thank you so much for taking your time to read my letter.

Regards,

Hello, my name is mollie. I came abroad to run away from my problems and start a new life for myself. I have no real family back at home and nowhere to go. I tried to make the best of my situation by working hard, but I have been conned and have ended up with no money and nowhere to live. I have tried to get back on my feet so many times but with no money, no one wants you. I don't even have enough money to wash my clothes, and no one will hire me because of it (which I hardly blame them for) I have resorted to begging online as a cry for help because I see myself going nowhere in my life. If this carries on much longer I don't even know how long I'll be around. I am not a begger, I WANT to work for my money like a decent person, but sometimes life just stops you and you run out of options other than to hope and pray for the decency of other people. please help me, I would be so thankful and would try to repay you the kindness you would have given me one day and share the success of whatever I can achieve with you. I just need someone to believe in me. Thank you for reading.

Thank you for reading. I'm a 25 year old female looking for a little help from others towards rebuilding my life. A few months ago my fiance took his own life at our house while I was out of town visiting family. I still to this day have not been able to go back to our house to get any of my belongings. The police will not respond to e, neither will victims services. The estate and all of my belongings went to his parents, who blame me for his decision to end his life. It hurts because I was by his side trying to get him help. I was told that the parents discarded everything of mine to make it look like I had moved out so that I would not receive anything from the estate. I lost my car, clothes, personal belongings, furniture, memories of my fiance and all of my paperwork as well as my job, because I couldnt go back. I am asking for donations to help me with food, clothes, shelter, car for work, and to help hire a lawyer for losing everything that I owned. Not one lawyer will take my case for free. With this help I may be able to fight for compensation from the estate and with that money, will go back to school for councelling. I wish to help those who are contemplating suicide, and who are victims of it like me. Again, thank you for reading. This is 100% true story and Im still fighting with the police to this day, wondering why I was never given the option to go back to my home to get my things. Or why they didnt investigate as to what happened to them. Thanks.

Thank You so very much for your help. Heres my story. I am in my early 30s. I am a mother of two loving kids ages 4 and 9. My husband moved out a year ago after a bout of depression, stating "I love you thats why I cant stand to stay here n watch you die like this!" And it is true anyone who has watched a loved one waste away before thier eyes can tell you it eats your soul. In a way I cant blame him. I have hopes we will someday get our family back together. Untill then I am in this alone, and now find my self here asking you for help.
I have several cronic illnesses. Including scoliosis:Scoliosis is a sideways curvature of the spine that occurs most often during the growth spurt just before puberty. While scoliosis can be caused by conditions such as cerebral palsy and muscular dystrophy, the cause of most scoliosis is unknown. My scoliosis curve got worse, the spine rotated and twisted, in addition to curving side to side. This caused the ribs on one side of the body to stick out farther than on the other side. Severe scoliosis can caused back pain and difficulty breathing. In my case In severe scoliosis, the rib cage may press against the lungs and heart, making it more difficult to breathe and harder for the heart to pump.I also experience harsh neurological affects of Muscle weakness, Numbness and Abnormal reflexes. To save my life I had to have surgery.
Surgery involves correcting the curve (although not all the way) and fusing the bones in the curve together. The surgeon lays bone grafts across the exposed surface of each vertebra. These grafts will regenerate, grow into the bone, and fuse the vertebrae together. The bones are held in place with one or two metal rods held down with hooks and screws, helping to support the fusion of the vertebrae.I went through all this at age 13. But now with the onset of sevral more cronic illness complication from the surgery that once saved my life now slowly kill me.
Years later I began getting sicker and sicker by the time I was 20 my spine was degenerating causing horrible pain, I had to have my appendix removed, then gallblader went bad. We never dreamed these all had a common factor. Doctors just shook their head proclaiming :you are just so young for your body to be failing like this". Eventually it was discovered I have Lupus and severe arthritus. Lupus is an autoimmune disease, meaning that the body' s immune system mistakenly attacks healthy organs and tissue. Lupus can affect any part of the body, causing inflammation and damage in joints, skin, kidneys, heart, lungs, blood vessels, or the brain. More than 90% of people with lupus have skin rashes, often triggered by exposure to the sun, and about half have kidney and lung problems. Because lupus affects the joints, it is considered a rheumatic (arthritis) disease.
Upon this discovery things began to make sense. So doctors now knowing why began a body wide check up to see what all has been affected. One test was A bone mineral density (BMD) test measures how much calcium and other types of minerals are present in a section of your bone. Your health care provider uses this test, along with other risk factors, to predict your risk of bone fractures in the future and detect osteoporosis. Bone fracture risk is highest in people with osteoporosis. They found I indeed had osteoporosis at the age of 22. SO now My bones are weaking causing damage areas all over my body, but the most serious being in my spine. Now comes the arthritis/lupus, they see these damaged areas and my own imune system attacks. Eating at the damaged areas creating even more damage, which increases the area the lupus attacks. It is a vicious circle. I have now been treated with medication over 10 yrs. But they can only slow the illness there is no cure, and dure to my scoliosis and the metal rods in my back surgical treatment options are very limited.
The damage is so severe I was decared legally disabled by the age of 23. My only income is SSI. I have to support my children and I on 658.00 a month. Thank God the court issued my ex to pay my rent in lue of child support. I am asking for help to cover upcoming medical bills. In the last 14 months I have had 5 seperate kidney surgery. My right kidney is damaged and I will soon be having a 6th surgery. This one to remove damaged section of the tube that leads from the kidney to bladder. then they will reattach at a higher section of bladder. I will aslo be having several Jaw surgeries. Due to exposure to radiation, osteoperosis a excessive vomiting of stomache acid my teeth are breaking and falling out. The doctor needs to repair what they can and put in inplants for what they cant. This will slow the degineration of my jaw. Without this treatment my jaw is going to cave in. Currently I am only able to eat mushy foods. I have drastically lost weight and my body is stuggling to heal due to the stress, pain and infection. So I hunbly beg of you to help me 1.00 or 50.00 anything would help. These procedures will not only improve my quality of life but aslo help extend my time here on earth just a little ehile longer. I just want to be with my kids as long as I can.Whith each dollar you donate its like adding an hour to my life.....What would you give for a few more hours with the ones you love?

Thank You so very much for your help. Heres my story. I am in my early 30s. I am a mother of two loving kids ages 4 and 9. My husband moved out a year ago after a bout of depression, stating "I love you thats why I cant stand to stay here n watch you die like this!" And it is true anyone who has watched a loved one waste away before thier eyes can tell you it eats your soul. In a way I cant blame him. I have hopes we will someday get our family back together. Untill then I am in this alone, and now find my self here asking you for help.
I have several cronic illnesses. Including scoliosis:Scoliosis is a sideways curvature of the spine that occurs most often during the growth spurt just before puberty. While scoliosis can be caused by conditions such as cerebral palsy and muscular dystrophy, the cause of most scoliosis is unknown. My scoliosis curve got worse, the spine rotated and twisted, in addition to curving side to side. This caused the ribs on one side of the body to stick out farther than on the other side. Severe scoliosis can caused back pain and difficulty breathing. In my case In severe scoliosis, the rib cage may press against the lungs and heart, making it more difficult to breathe and harder for the heart to pump.I also experience harsh neurological affects of Muscle weakness, Numbness and Abnormal reflexes. To save my life I had to have surgery.
Surgery involves correcting the curve (although not all the way) and fusing the bones in the curve together. The surgeon lays bone grafts across the exposed surface of each vertebra. These grafts will regenerate, grow into the bone, and fuse the vertebrae together. The bones are held in place with one or two metal rods held down with hooks and screws, helping to support the fusion of the vertebrae.I went through all this at age 13. But now with the onset of sevral more cronic illness complication from the surgery that once saved my life now slowly kill me.
Years later I began getting sicker and sicker by the time I was 20 my spine was degenerating causing horrible pain, I had to have my appendix removed, then gallblader went bad. We never dreamed these all had a common factor. Doctors just shook their head proclaiming :you are just so young for your body to be failing like this". Eventually it was discovered I have Lupus and severe arthritus. Lupus is an autoimmune disease, meaning that the body' s immune system mistakenly attacks healthy organs and tissue. Lupus can affect any part of the body, causing inflammation and damage in joints, skin, kidneys, heart, lungs, blood vessels, or the brain. More than 90% of people with lupus have skin rashes, often triggered by exposure to the sun, and about half have kidney and lung problems. Because lupus affects the joints, it is considered a rheumatic (arthritis) disease.
Upon this discovery things began to make sense. So doctors now knowing why began a body wide check up to see what all has been affected. One test was A bone mineral density (BMD) test measures how much calcium and other types of minerals are present in a section of your bone. Your health care provider uses this test, along with other risk factors, to predict your risk of bone fractures in the future and detect osteoporosis. Bone fracture risk is highest in people with osteoporosis. They found I indeed had osteoporosis at the age of 22. SO now My bones are weaking causing damage areas all over my body, but the most serious being in my spine. Now comes the arthritis/lupus, they see these damaged areas and my own imune system attacks. Eating at the damaged areas creating even more damage, which increases the area the lupus attacks. It is a vicious circle. I have now been treated with medication over 10 yrs. But they can only slow the illness there is no cure, and dure to my scoliosis and the metal rods in my back surgical treatment options are very limited.
The damage is so severe I was decared legally disabled by the age of 23. My only income is SSI. I have to support my children and I on 658.00 a month. Thank God the court issued my ex to pay my rent in lue of child support. I am asking for help to cover upcoming medical bills. In the last 14 months I have had 5 seperate kidney surgery. My right kidney is damaged and I will soon be having a 6th surgery. This one to remove damaged section of the tube that leads from the kidney to bladder. then they will reattach at a higher section of bladder. I will aslo be having several Jaw surgeries. Due to exposure to radiation, osteoperosis a excessive vomiting of stomache acid my teeth are breaking and falling out. The doctor needs to repair what they can and put in inplants for what they cant. This will slow the degineration of my jaw. Without this treatment my jaw is going to cave in. Currently I am only able to eat mushy foods. I have drastically lost weight and my body is stuggling to heal due to the stress, pain and infection. So I hunbly beg of you to help me 1.00 or 50.00 anything would help. These procedures will not only improve my quality of life but aslo help extend my time here on earth just a little ehile longer. I just want to be with my kids as long as I can.Whith each dollar you donate its like adding an hour to my life.....What would you give for a few more hours with the ones you love?

My parents are 77 years old, and they are the kindest, most giving, most loving people you will ever meet, but they are losing their home and everything because of me.

I have been disabled for 16 years and was diagnosed with Stage 3 breast cancer two years ago. Even at their age, they have given up everything they've needed, including food and medicine, to care for me. They are losing their home of 36 years and everything else they own. It's literally killing them to go through this; they have gone down so fast. They have nowhere to go and are too old to rough it like younger people might. I live with them and will not be able to get the care I need.

They never blame me, but I feel totally responsible and the guilt is killing me. I should be taking care of them during their golden years. I have to do something to save them. I hope you understand. Please help me.

21 years and have two years I owe about 1,500 reais (Brazilian money) and do not know who recorer not put the blame on her but I had a girlfriend who was with me when I still worked and could buy anything she wanted, was when she made a purchase of 1,500 reais and I lost my job and could not pay the debt, then she dumped me and end my girlfriend and I ran with that debt. Please if you can help me just want to get 1,500 and will donate more than that too ... thank you!

Hi there...
The whole idea of asking for money makes me sick to my stomach. I have never been a beggar or a person who wanted charity. But I honestly have no other choice anymore.
My story starts in 2009 with my ex girlfriend, whom would turn out to be the worst thing that ever happened to me. I'm not going to play the blame game, because I have forgiven her since. However I am left with the lasting damage of that relationship.
We had dated when we were young, she had cheated with a friend and I had left her, but i always loved her most of all and was eventually able to forgive her later. I was a fool for love. This is where the trouble starts, we had begun to talk again in early 2009, and soon a relationship developed between us once again. By this time she had a daughter who was 7 years old. I moved to another state to be with her and her daughter, after awhile I loved her daughter as my own child. I took her fishing with me every chance I had. I did not realize it before I had went down there, but her family was a real problem. They took to controlling every aspect of her life, even going as far as taking her mail out of her mail box and reading it. From the very start I has hated, I could not be controlled or told what to do, though they tried. Later in the year I was working and I thought things had improved, they grudgingly accepted me.

I am not a cruel or an evil person, I am always firm but loving when it comes to discipline. There had started to be problems at school and home, with tantrums, and destructive behavior. My ex and I talked about it and we tried everything, nothing seemed to work save simple old fashioned spanking. When she threw a tantrum one day and wrote that she hated us and left it on a note where we would surely find it, and broke her own window in her room. I knew something had to be done, this was totally unacceptable. So I spanked her, not hard or vicious like i got when i was a boy. But just my hand. I left a red mark, not welts or bruises a red mark. Of course being a little girl, she tended to talk and tell everyone EVERYTHING. She told her grandmother about it, and that was it for me, suddenly i was this horrible terrible person. My ex and I quarreled about it a great deal and I left for awhile just to get my head around things and see if it was worth saving.

I decided to leave, and I went home back to indiana where i was from, I left with a broken heart, but i knew the situation couldn't be fixed.
There were other things going on at the time I did not become aware of until later, one was that my ex was pregnant. She later admitted to me that she had been smoking while pregnant, drinking, taking more and more prescriptions, and when she finally told me about it she told me she was glad she had miscarried.
I have never forgotten that statment.
Now here is where the real trouble begins and why I am in such desperate need.
The child told her teacher, and child services became involved, as they always do and will for any reason.
Eventually it got turned over to the sheriff's office to see what they wanted to do with it. Now enters the grandparents into the equation.
The pushed it hard even against my ex's wishes, and managed to get them to file charges for child abuse and issue a warrant. A warrant I didnt even know i had until christmas time 2010. I was picked up and detained for extradition over it. The following monday I was released, I was informed that they didnt want to come get me. I called my ex, and she told me that she had told them to drop it, we talked and talked, she begged me to forgive her for all that happened, and eventually i did, for some reason I still felt like i couldnt live without her. So we continued to talk up until july of 2010. When something happened, grandmother got curious wondering what these numbers were on the cell phone bill. She confronted my ex and she told her that she had talked to me. Ever since that point I have this "open case" listed publically on my record. After about 10 interviews I discovered that was the reason I couldn't have a job. Who would want to hire a "child abuser" anyway? Here it is febuary its been about 8 months without work. I lost my place, and nearly everything i own, I even lost the will to live. I live with my parents now, and I know im a burden to them. I'm thinking about it everyday. It is tax refund time now, and I have half of what I need for my lawyer to try and fix this horrible mess. He is of the almost certain opinion this will be completely dropped, and I can have a job again, and recover somewhat of a life. If you can help please help, I am a desperate man, and I want my life back, I need it back, I cant take not being able to work, and being a burden to my parents who are dirt poor!

Hi,

Gosh, not really sure what to put here. Where to start. Ok, I made some really bad life choices as a teenager and ended up in a long term mentally abusive relationship and I've ended up with a pile of debt. My ex was an alcoholic who used to spend, pretty much any money he could get his hands on, on alcohol. And me being brainwashed/in love, used to give him money from my credit cards to buy him it. Along with two overdrafts which I ended up with to try and keep on top of our mortgage payments.

Eventually, I plucked up the courage to leave him. Granted it was 6 years later than it should have been. I ended up unable to work for 3 years due to major depression, which I'm still being treated for now, so bills mounted up. Alongside a reposession on our house.

I honestly have noone to blame but myself, and I'm not crying about it all anymore. Just trying to do my best to pay off my debt and make a fresh start.

I do have a new partner now, who is lovely, and a new full-time job. I dont earn loads, but I cover the bills and I pay my way. I'm just struggling to pay back the money I owed from the past. I pay what I can to it every month, but between interest and fines, its not making much of a difference.

I did have around £10,000 on various cards/loans/overdrafts to pay off, but I'm down to about £8,000 at the moment. So I'm not ignoring it, I do want it gone. But its taken me 4 years to pay back £2,000 and I just cant see a light at the end of the tunnel.

Anything anyone can give would be much appreciated. 1p - £1. It all adds up.

Even if you cant help me, I'm just grateful you have managed to read all of this. Feel a bit embarassed writing all this down, if I'm honest!

Thanks everyone, and good luck with lifes journey :)

I am wife and mother of four. I have cancer and my husband who is working cannot make enough for my medical help and our home. We are four months behind and our home is going into foreclosure. I blame myself. If I only would not have gotten sick! My family is going to be out on the street because we have no family. Please help me. My email is krissy2tina@yahoo.com and I will take even 1 dollar to put towards my mortgage. Please, please help me!

To the kind people of the world,
I am writing this to you as a last effort to aid in my families dire situation. 4 years ago I was diagnosed with Spondylolisthesis, A chronic and crippling disease of the spine. As a father of a 3 year old, this disease renders me unable to do a lot with my son. Social Security Disability has denied me, and to add to it, we have no health insurance.
I find it hard to work due to the constant pain of my disease. I cannot afford treatment, nor am I able to keep up with my current bills. (which is not "out side my means of living", but are basic needs. Electricity, HEAT (in these very frigid times in upstate NY). We had 2 phones given to us last year from medicaid, all which are exhausted of minutes from calling looking for work.
My fiance Has finished school leaving her with student loans to be paid back in an ever so declining job market. This does not help our situation. We are very capable of working with in our means, but to no avail.
This will be my sons first Christmas where he actually knows something is going on. We have unfortunately had to cancel all lay a ways, and events we had planned for this holiday season. Our thanksgiving consisted of canned soup and baked beans. (not to sound materialistic) but it was heart wrenching to me, thinking to myself, " I cannot provide for my family"
Then, with all these situations plaguing us, our car becomes in operable. With more repairs than the car is worth. We are now left, in danger of not only having our heat and electricity shut off, but we face eviction unless we can come up with back rent owed of 4 months. We do not blame this on our landlord, as she lives in the same times as us. Her hand will be forced to evict us.
I have never brought myself to do such a thing like this, asking for money. But I guess I am hoping that there are still caring individuals in this world that can extend a hand to a fellow human being. So with the greatest humility I ask of you to donate what you can. This is not a long term goal to just see how much I can "panhandle". I am a 29 year old man, sitting typing in tears, at a public library. This is my last hope. We have sold everything we owned in order to keep our heads above water.
Please, I can not stand to look at the wonderful smile on my 3 year old son, and know inside that I am running out of options.
The most important of all is our back rent though at 350 a month times 4 gives me an outstanding balance of 1400

I've not been the best when it comes to finance though I rarely buy anything extravagant, I don't entirely understand it. I've just made lots of bad decisions and I'd love a chance to start afresh without letting my parents know how much debt I've racked up as I know they will never trust me again if they do and we already don't have the best relationship.
My main dilemma started about 2 years ago when I was in my last semester in college and I did not pay for my tuition that semester. I have not received my degree as a result and charges have been added to what I owed since then and finally my University sent the debt to the state's revenue department for collection and they've added their own fees. Things have really come to a head now because I am actually an international student and after spending the past couple years in mostly unpaid internships because I have no certificate to show employers and being unable to work other jobs that do not require a degree because it's illegal with my status, my visa has expired and I have to leave the country in a couple weeks and I don't have the degree I came to the US to get.
With the little payments I've been able to make subtracted, I now owe $11633. I know that that is a great deal of money especially as I've racked up other debts that takes the money I'll need to truly get out of all trouble to about $15000. But I really have nothing at all right now and any amount of money at all will help, $5, $100, anything.
And though I know paying back $15000 will take years for me to do if anyone has that to spare, I would want to do that for my own peace of mind. But it's obvious that anyone willing to lend me that with no security and just my intention to finally get out of this rut, get a good job and pay back over a period that will hopefully not exceed 5 years will probably be someone who can comfortably give away that amount but respects my need to eventually pay it all back through paypal probably from another part of the world.
I know I am completely to blame for all the stress in my life today and this is no sob story but my problems are very real and you will be bringing great relief to someone in trouble who has not been able to think about anything else for a long time. Thank you.

I've not been the best when it comes to finance though I rarely buy anything extravagant, I don't entirely understand it. I've just made lots of bad decisions and I'd love a chance to start afresh without letting my parents know how much debt I've racked up as I know they will never trust me again if they do and we already don't have the best relationship.
My main dilemma started about 2 years ago when I was in my last semester in college and I did not pay for my tuition that semester. I have not received my degree as a result and charges have been added to what I owed since then and finally my University sent the debt to the state's revenue department for collection and they've added their own fees. Things have really come to a head now because I am actually an international student and after spending the past couple years in mostly unpaid internships because I have no certificate to show employers and being unable to work other jobs that do not require a degree because it's illegal with my status, my visa has expired and I have to leave the country in a couple weeks and I don't have the degree I came to the US to get.
With the little payments I've been able to make subtracted, I now owe $11633. I know that that is a great deal of money especially as I've racked up other debts that takes the money I'll need to truly get out of all trouble to about $15000. But I really have nothing at all right now and any amount of money at all will help, $5, $100, anything.
And though I know paying back $15000 will take years for me to do if anyone has that to spare, I would want to do that for my own peace of mind. But it's obvious that anyone willing to lend me that with no security and just my intention to finally get out of this rut, get a good job and pay back over a period that will hopefully not exceed 5 years will probably be someone who can comfortably give away that amount but respects my need to eventually pay it all back through paypal probably from another part of the world.
I know I am completely to blame for all the stress in my life today and this is no sob story but my problems are very real and you will be bringing great relief to someone in trouble who has not been able to think about anything else for a long time. Thank you.

All I have is God and myself to turn to. I have battled depression to this extreme before, but the last time I recall feeling this dreadful was when I was 21 years old. This is probably a lot of recent stresses, and built up stresses all crashing down on a traumatic event that occurred when I was 21. I realize that only I can change this perspective, but I everything, and I mean EVERYTHING to change for the better. All I do is make things worse for myself. I have gotten to the point where I get home from work and cry my living heart out for hours, I don't cry so much in front of people, because I am ashamed at my weakness, but I just can't do this much longer. I need help. I don't want to learn the hard way anymore! Im losing my job, no going homeless, no more.... I just want to be a happy person, and I have been battling a rapidly growing depression in the last few months. I know that I am the only one to blame for it all, and I have the power to change it... yet, somehow, I have begun seriously wondering if I can do this much longer. I don't want to hit rock bottom... but rock bottom for my emotions may have passed up a long time ago... I just don't know what to do anymore. I have no vehicle or insurance, or money, or time... so I'm in a last minute search for some help... coping mechanisms that I can live by... I just need prayers... I need so much more too... I need to stop feeling like this! I can't even type up a random forum topic without crying b/c I sound just as confused as I am. Just help me!

I've not been the best when it comes to finance though I rarely buy anything extravagant, I don't entirely understand it. I've just made lots of bad decisions and I'd love a chance to start afresh without letting my parents know how much debt I've racked up as I know they will never trust me again if they do and we already don't have the best relationship.
My main dilemma started about 2 years ago when I was in my last semester in college and I did not pay for my tuition that semester. I have not received my degree as a result and charges have been added to what I owed since then and finally my University sent the debt to the state's revenue department for collection and they've added their own fees. Things have really come to a head now because I am actually an international student and after spending the past couple years in mostly unpaid internships because I have no certificate to show employers and being unable to work other jobs that do not require a degree because it's illegal with my status, my visa has expired and I have to leave the country in a couple weeks and I don't have the degree I came to the US to get.
With the little payments I've been able to make subtracted, I now owe $11633. I know that that is a great deal of money especially as I've racked up other debts that takes the money I'll need to truly get out of all trouble to about $15000. But I really have nothing at all right now and any amount of money at all will help, $5, $100, anything.
And though I know paying back $15000 will take years for me to do if anyone has that to spare, I would want to do that for my own peace of mind. But it's obvious that anyone willing to lend me that with no security and just my intention to finally get out of this rut, get a good job and pay back over a period that will hopefully not exceed 5 years will probably be someone who can comfortably give away that amount but respects my need to eventually pay it all back through paypal probably from another part of the world.
I know I am completely to blame for all the stress in my life today and this is no sob story but my problems are very real and you will be bringing great relief to someone in trouble who has not been able to think about anything else for a long time. Thank you.

I've not been the best when it comes to finance though I rarely buy anything extravagant, I don't entirely understand it. I've just made lots of bad decisions and I'd love a chance to start afresh without letting my parents know how much debt I've racked up as I know they will never trust me again if they do and we already don't have the best relationship.
My main dilemma started about 2 years ago when I was in my last semester in college and I did not pay for my tuition that semester. I have not received my degree as a result and charges have been added to what I owed since then and finally my University sent the debt to the state's revenue department for collection and they've added their own fees. Things have really come to a head now because I am actually an international student and after spending the past couple years in mostly unpaid internships because I have no certificate to show employers and being unable to work other jobs that do not require a degree because it's illegal with my status, my visa has expired and I have to leave the country in a couple weeks and I don't have the degree I came to the US to get.
With the little payments I've been able to make subtracted, I now owe $11633. I know that that is a great deal of money especially as I've racked up other debts that takes the money I'll need to truly get out of all trouble to about $15000. But I really have nothing at all right now and any amount of money at all will help, $5, $100, anything.
And though I know paying back $15000 will take years for me to do if anyone has that to spare, I would want to do that for my own peace of mind. But it's obvious that anyone willing to lend me that with no security and just my intention to finally get out of this rut, get a good job and pay back over a period that will hopefully not exceed 5 years will probably be someone who can comfortably give away that amount but respects my need to eventually pay it all back through paypal probably from another part of the world.
I know I am completely to blame for all the stress in my life today and this is no sob story but my problems are very real and you will be bringing great relief to someone in trouble who has not been able to think about anything else for a long time. Thank you.

My daughter is Shimonè, and is very talented and gifted in playing piano and saxophone. She would like to go to university next year, but unfortunately my application for a loan failed and therefor she won`t be able to fullfill her dream in becoming a professional musician. I did not tell of the rejected application yet, as it will make her very sad in knowing that she won`t be able to attend university.

This is a situation I did not expect, and I know further that I cannot blame other people for my problems, but please, help getting my child to university. Any donation will help.

Thank you very much.

Hello. My name is Caleb. I'm 21 years old, have severe anxiety and depression, and my only income is SSI. On march 1st of this year (2011) I moved into my first apartment ever with 2 room-mates. As strange as it may sound, one of the room-mates was my own mother(Donna), the other was her abusive ex-girlfriend(Shaw). I signed as the head of household and shaw and my mom were put downa "Household members" on the lease.

Before all 3 of us had moved into this residence the 3 of us had made an agreement that all the expenses would be split into thirds, there was one exception to this agreement however. My mother was not making enough income at the time to fully cover her third, so her ex girlfriend, shaw agreed to pay my mom's third temporarily until my mom could get a job that would supply her with enough income to do so. There were no misunderstandings, all 3 of us had understood the agreement BEFORE moving in.

That first month that we moved in, I ended up splitting HALF the expenses with shaw. This means I paid for my third PLUS half of my mom's third. Shaw had done so also... This was not what had been agreed to however. In fact, I don't know why I ever even let it slip by me. I must have not been thinking straight just because I was stressed out and desperately just wanted to get into the apartment.

The next month (April) I pointed out the mistake to both shaw and my mother, and told them that while I'm willing to let the first time slip, I wasn't willing to pay more than my share again.

The reaction shaw had wasn't good. She started making threats that if I didn't continue to pay the way I did the first month, that she would just leave, and that she just didn't give a dam. Oddly enough, my mom seemed to agree with her, and said she would leave with shaw also. Because I REALLY REALLY didn't want to get into the struggle at the time.. I just went along with it and paid for half the expenses again.. Shaw had basically said to me "So whats it gonna be, Either pay half, or we leave and you deal with the apartment on your own. We don't need to stay here. We can find somewhere else"...She said it in a very rude, obnoxious, loud tone of voice.

Eventually...May came around, and on the morning of the first day of the month I immediately brought the issue up again to mom and shaw.. and again, the same threats were made...and ALSO again...I paid half the expenses out of pressure.

In the middle of may I had found out some information that I thought would have been beneficial to me. I had found out that shaw had an arrest warrant on her for assault and battery. The reason I found this beneficial, was because of the fact that I wasn't able to take neither shaw or my mom off the lease, so If I wanted to kick shaw out. I could simply make a phone call to the police and they would take her out of there...Just as a note that I should have mentioned earlier... Shaw has a huge history of drug abuse, and violence.. and she had abused my mother a lot during there time together. That was probably how the warrant resulted.

Anyways, back on topic... In the middle of the night on may 18th, I told my mother that I wanted to speak to her in private. We went out to her car, and I told my mother that I'm completely fine with her(my mom) staying, but if shaw did not do her part, and pay the extra third like she agreed to when she moved in, I was gonna have her(shaw) removed from the residence.

My mom immediately went into a panic... She rushed back into the house to tell shaw everything that I had just told her... I went back into the house also... Later that night, they packed up most of there things (They didn't have much there) and bolted off...never returning...leaving me with ALL the expenses.

Remember, I only get SSI for income. To be more specific, $704.00 per month. The rent was 730.00, let alone other bills such as electricity, gas, and my own personal bills such as my cellphone, etc. There was no way I could pay the rent.

So as time went on... all the eviction stuff happened. I got the 14 day notice to pay rent or quit, then the letter with their intention to take me to court, then the actual offical court letter with the court date on it. On the court document..only my name was listed as a tenant..as if my mother and shaw were not on the lease, even though they were. All the blame was put onto me by these selfish real estate property owners.

ONLY I was taken to court. And from there I was told that they would give me 14 days to find another place and then after that if I was not gone a sheriff would come to the residence to physically remove me and all my belongings...

I rushed to find a place to stay...it was very difficult and distressing, but fortunately one of my friends has been willing to let me stay with them...I had to pay somebody $40.00 just to help me move my stuff to a storage facility.....

As the current situation stands... I am homeless. Still trying very hard to get a place, but cannot find a place that I can afford with my income. There have been some studio apartments for around $500.00 per month, but most of them require first, second, and last months rent to move in...

This is not the first time in my life that my mom has betrayed me.. She had left me, my brother, and my dad when I was six years old too.. She was not a part of raising me for most of my life. Then I decided I want to disregard the past,and get to know her for the person she is now, and let her redeem herself. This is what she did with that opportunity.

It was stressful and agonizing to even type all this up...because there are so many details involved... and my mind is tired..I'm very stressed physically and mentally.

I really need help. My money is just being drained and leeched from me. And staying at my friend's house has been very uncomfortable. I cannot do it much longer

ANY AMOUNT that you can donate I will be HIGHLY grateful and appreciative of. Even if everybody would just donate 1 dollar! A dollar bill in huge numbers is a lot of money.

Please.. 50 cents, $1, $5 , $10, or $20....Whatever amount you want.... Just please help. Its all I ask....I'm very stressed...

Whatever you can give is appreciated...and helps me greatly...

Thank you all very much... and god bless whoever is reading this.

- Caleb S.

My email for contact and for paypal : theyazuken@gmail.com

hi

i would like your help with debts and would like to be in a postion to start a new business so that i can help things i am passionate about like animals.


need a helping hand
fallen on hard times
feel like i have myself to blame
so its times to make a change

Thank you so much for any amount you are able to contribute, hope your kindness rewards you.

This is a not a request for help to just travel the country and sight see or go on a cruise. I lost my job in November of last year. My Mother passed away from breast cancer and heart complications, I had to take sick days to see to her care and then for the final move to hospice. The company I worked for had strict attendance policies which I of course cannot blame them for or everyone would take advantage of it. I have been unable to find work since and not for lack of trying. I have finally had a job offer but as I live on the East Coast and the job is in the Pacific Northwest, I do not have the money to make a move like this in my current financial situation. I also need a little help to get a (cheap) truck so I can get there with my belongings. The job is on a horse farm and my "horse stuff" will not fit in my car, neither would my car make it that far (1991 Grand Marquis). My home is now in foreclosure and I just spent the last of my money to pay my electric bill.
I never thought I would have to resort to this type of desperate measure just to survive. I have the chance to start over with a great job, I just need to get there.
Any help would be greatly appreciated. Any help I receive will be payed forward as my situation improves.
Upon request to those who have donated I will supply copies of all expenses incurred, i.e; gas, food, and lodging.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

This is a not a request for help to just travel the country and sight see or go on a cruise. I lost my job in November of last year. My Mother passed away from breast cancer and heart complications, I had to take sick days to see to her care and then for the final move to hospice. The company I worked for had strict attendance policies which I of course cannot blame them for or everyone would take advantage of it. I have been unable to find work since and not for lack of trying. I have finally had a job offer but as I live on the East Coast and the job is in the Pacific Northwest, I do not have the money to make a move like this in my current financial situation. I also need a little help to get a (cheap) truck so I can get there with my belongings. The job is on a horse farm and my "horse stuff" will not fit in my car, neither would my car make it that far (1991 Grand Marquis). My home is now in foreclosure and I just spent the last of my money to pay my electric bill.
I never thought I would have to resort to this type of desperate measure just to survive. I have the chance to start over with a great job, I just need to get there.
Any help would be greatly appreciated. Any help I receive will be payed forward as my situation improves.
Upon request to those who have donated I will supply copies of all expenses incurred, i.e; gas, food, and lodging.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.