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I am about 8 thousand dollars in debt due to trying to start my own online business and giving money to these companies, what they didn't tell me is that they keep asking for money. I have 4 great kids that I live for and I don't expect to get 8 thousand dollars but every little bit helps so I can stop getting these calls. Its even hard for me to get a job because companies want to run a background check on you first before hiring you on. I want to work more than anything on God's green earth, But this debt is holding me back. If I could get some help anything will help me out!!!

http://youtu.be/eGJ6k00bUko

This about sums it up. We did great for years and have been kicked in the face repeatedly by life. I'm about to get it back together with a new job and 50,000 shares of a new tech company about to be publicly traded on pink sheets.

Unfortunately, that's not soon enough for our landlords and we have received a notice to pay or leave in 3 days (Wednesday, May 17 would be the date).

The video sums it up, as I said. We put love and light into the world. We don't sit around and soak up resources. This is really bad. We could lose everything we have, which isn't very damn much. We'd still have each other, but just a world of heartbreak.

This wouldn't have to be gifts; it could be a loan. Let me know the terms. Anything you send on PayPal will be sent directly to our landlord, and at this point anything might help.

I've busted my bum looking for jobs. What used to get me the interview every time gets me nothing but a letter saying they had over 100 or 1,000 applications. I step up my game and they ask me if I am committed to their job, given my background is in something else.

Any suggestions welcome. *I could pay the money back. Again, just let me know your terms!*

Volo ut sis! Be well.

Amykinsmdwest

I'm a single mother aged 35. I've lived in California for almost 14 years ( it will be 15 this year on memorial day weekend.)
I’m going to be a little blunt, because I'm tired and I want to give up so bad, but I can't. I'm better than that and my kids are my motivator. I wake up everyday and remind myself of 2 things :1) Faith is what you have when you all your beliefs are blown to hell. 2) What doesn't kill you makes you stronger -Nietzsche

I am a 35 year old educated, ambitious, head strong woman. I have owned my own business with my soon to be ex. I know what hard work and determination are. I went to private school and I am educated. I value my community and have always given back and will continue to do so. I also know that I have the drive and determination to get myself back on track. I'm not ASKING for a handout, I'm asking for help up! I also know what loss is. I don't have the business, a house or EVEN the car anymore. We lost everything. He bounced back , I didn’t. All I have is HOPE, that someone or some program can help me carve a path back to self sufficiency.
It's gone continually downhill.I am amazed at the allotment of programs for both housing and employment for all different walks of life. However, what about those that are just struggling. No hang ups, no record, just struggling and are LOW INCOME. I'm not writing this to make you feel sorry, I'm writing this because I have exhausted possibilities that I have researched both on my own or been given the information to do the work with.
There are people who struggle everyday through no fault of their own. They don't want a hand out, but help up would be a relief. Society doesn't need band-aids they need solutions.
Not every county, city or state program fits everyone's needs.
First of all Section 8 has been closed since BEFORE I left my marriage so that idea could never work. The list has been closed for years. Because I have limited time with my children, I do not qualify for CALWORKS. I have tried getting assistance in every way possible. I had very little unemployment left since I have been struggling to find work. I was delayed for about 3 months because they needed verification and I had to appeal and request a hearing. I have won my appeal but will only receive $91/week and for a short period of time.
I took a project management class through WIA in 2011, and I was able to get CTB benefits. I NEED HELP. I have hit the absolute worst point in my life and still refuse to give up. I have been looking for work and am now HOMELESS.I am in week 3 of staying in an extended stay hotel (paid for by my mother back east, who makes maybe $26,000/yr in PA) I recently sold my car because I needed to pay bills and rent. I have maybe $75 to my name.
The fact that they say there are services for low income/ homeless is frustrating. I say this because there is no category for me. I'm not a drug addict or in recovery. I don't have a mental illness. I wasn't in prison, I don’t' even have a RECORD. I can proudly say I've never been arrested or even in the back of a cop car. I'm not a victim of domestic violence and I do not beat my kids. Why aren't there programs in place for single parents struggling to make it? Everyday people that are responsible and respectable. I understand the need to assist those that may not have the capacity to take care of themselves. However, I have a huge problem with the fact that Santa Clara County & all programs (private, govt or state funded) will rehabilitate and reintroduced felons into the community, but if you're poor, homeless, no record, are looking for work, have high intelligence; sorry, you can't get help. This sounds extremely cynical and jaded, but I am a little after going through all I have.
I have been told constantly “I wish I could do something but we don't have any programs to help you.” My favorite reply is: "Yeah and you have done everything. I'm surprised you even knew about all the programs you did"
I have talked to employment counselors, program coordinators, program advocates and case managers, volunteers, just about anyone. The bankruptcy is hindering my chances of securing housing, even if I had employment.

The icing on the cake has to be with food stamps and General Assistance. I qualified for Cal-Fresh. However, at the time I had a car worth $2200. So I wasn't able to get General Assistance. Fast Forward a year later, I HAD to sell my car to pay bills. Now this month when I went for General Assistance, I qualify.

It's a never ending cycle, a constant push down. I can take public transportation to work, but to get around and see my boys and being able to transport them would be extremely difficult, not to mention financially stressing. I have scoured employment books, read articles, searched the library, spent hours online trying to find a job, program, a company, anybody who could be a resource whether for low income assistance or employment.
I can probably tell you about a plethora of services this county (Santa Clara) offers for both income assistance and job services.I am registered with CALJOBS; I know all the career sites and have my resume there. I get interviews, however I am starting to think the bankruptcy from loss of business is holding me back when employers do background check.
I also could teach the business writing class or the resume writing classes they offer at Work2Future, I practically did when I took them. I could do the same at Sacred Heart. I've been to InnVision and EHC. I’ve talked to Sunnyvale Community Services. Boy he was a treat he sounded older then my 80 yr old grandma. When I said I need housing and employment help, he gruffly told me to check the newspaper and hung up. I've called St Josephs in Gilroy. I've talked to a program coordinator at West Valley Community Services. I called the Sobrato Organization hoping they had ties to something and one the employees just by grace of god happened to pick up and take my call. I was able to talk to someone at HIF (they couldn't help)
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I am responsible, respectable and just want to work, have a place to live, and be able to have my children 50/50. I have no police record. I am not in recovery, nor have I ever had to be in a program
I want to work and am attaching a compilation of ALL my work skills. I would not send this out otherwise, I would tailor it specifically to the job I am applying for.

I used to volunteer as much as I could I like being active in my community and helping others. I'm still about that I believe in PAY IT FORWARD. I believe the good you do comes back to you tenfold and that no matter what is going wrong in your life, someone else is struggling just as much if not more; so be thankful for what you have.
I attend church and was a hospitality volunteer for that as well.
I just need help getting on my feet. I have no family, other than my children here in CA.
I do not want to move back east and be far away from them. I want to work, I want to live again. I want to smile and mean it.

I hate what my life has become and know that I am SO MUCH BETTER THEN THIS.
Please help me : money is fine, but it's only a temporary fix, please help me find a program that can assist me in getting on my feet, direct me to employment, and most of all afford me the opportunity to have my children much more consistently so I can be a mom again.
Thank you
Courtney DiMiceli

Background:

I was born in Argentina, but have lived in Texas since I was 5. I had no say in it; my parents decided that’s what was best for me since Buenos Aires was so crime-ridden. I graduated high school like normal kids, went to a community college right afterwards, and worked part time to cover its costs. I got an Associate’s in Science (Nursing) and then dropped out since I couldn't afford to attend a university nor decide on a major. My GPA was a 3.4 at the time.

I'm now 25, working full time (Geek Squad, can’t do much with an associate’s), studying electrical engineering, married to my high school sweetheart, and have my goals set! I just have one thing holding me back...MONEY. Since I backtracked when I changed majors, I had a few sophomore classes to take. I'm finishing them at the same community college, and I'm registered for the Fall semester at the University of Texas at Dallas (Junior level courses). I have gotten nothing but As since I've been back!



Why I Need Your Help:

Now, you may be wondering, why can't I use FAFSA? Well, I recently obtained my permanent residence. That was a big roadblock growing up. One of the agreements I had with our nation was that I would not use federal funds (welfare, food stamps, grants, FAFSA, etc) for the next 10 years. I work full time and attend as many classes as I can per semester; I have no time for lollygagging.

Sallie Mae can only loan me so much, and banks nowadays make it very difficult to borrow from for school. All the scholarships I’ve looked for require either citizenship or full time enrollment, neither of which I am. (Can’t enroll full time because I need to work full-time to make ends meet) My father is a construction worker and I don’t know my mom, she left us when I was 7. I just sold my laptop on eBay and made myself a cheap one from recycled parts. I've tried getting internships, but I'm not deep enough into my career to be eligible yet. Nearby family members don’t have any spare cash, and don’t make enough to co-sign a loan for me….So I’m here, hoping some kind strangers can help me out.

I am a hard working student, good Samaritan, bilingual, a jokester, drug-free, do calculus in my head, pay taxes, 740 credit score, and drive a broken down Pontiac. My only goal right now is to finish school with flying colors as soon as possible; just need this financial roadblock to meet a wrecking ball.

Will you help me smash it down?

I have some problems with the bills at the moments. I am quite desperate because i arrived to a place where i can't do anything about it. I just need a loan, i could pay back (would take some time, but i can assure you i WILL pay back). I don't like to 'beg' for money, but that's my last option.

The sum isn't even that high.... I'm in need of 250 to 300 $... that way i would be able to get out of debt and pay for my bills. I would appreciate any kind of help... the amount of donated money would be a blessing for me. Even if it's less than what i need. Even as little as 10$ would help. I don't know what to do anymore.. this is my last option.

Background: i am a former student (i had to give up university because i didn't have enough money to pay for the annual fees).. lookig for a job at the moment (nothing yet) and i am not able to pay my bills.
That is why i am asking for a LOAN.. i WILL pay back!

Thank you in advance and God bless you!

I have some problems with the bills at the moments. I am quite desperate because i arrived to a place where i can't do anything about it. I just need a loan, i could pay back (would take some time, but i can assure you i WILL pay back). I don't like to 'beg' for money, but that's my last option.

The sum isn't even that high... I'm in need of 250 to 300 $... that way i would be able to get out of debt and pay for my bills. I would appreciate any kind of help... the amount of donated money would be a blessing for me. Even if it's less than what i need. Even as little as 10$ would help. I don't know what to do anymore.. this is my last option.

Background: i am a former student (i had to give up university because i didn't have enough money to pay for the annual fees).. lookig for a job at the moment (nothing yet) and i am not able to pay my bills.
That is why i am asking for a LOAN.. i WILL pay back!

Thank you in advance and God bless you!

I have some problems with the bills at the moments. I am quite desperate because i arrived to a place where i can't do anything about it. I just need a loan, i could pay back (would take some time, but i can assure you i WILL pay back). I don't like to 'beg' for money, but that's my last option.

The sum isn't even that high.... I'm in need of 250 to 300 $... that way i would be able to get out of debt and pay for my bills. I would appreciate any kind of help... the amount of donated money would be a blessing for me. Even if it's less than what i need. Even as little as 10$ would help. I don't know what to do anymore.. this is my last option.

Background: i am a former student (i had to give up university because i didn't have enough money to pay for the annual fees).. lookig for a job at the moment (nothing yet) and i am not able to pay my bills.
That is why i am asking for a LOAN.. i WILL pay back!

Thank you in advance and God bless you!

im a boy edged20 from zimbabwe grown up in a very disadvantaged background also take caren of old edge parents not employeed live with peace jobs i left school when i finish 'o'level i faile to pay fees for myself i just want to start a small business like to buy a miler for my parents and me to pay school fees start poetry keeping i just need something like $20000us please help me im struggling

I am a new mom of a wonderful 5 month old girl. Like many new parents all I want is to be sure my daughter grows up in a happy, healthy and loving family. I come from a very low income family who struggles to pay our bills every month and worries about our child financial well being. What I am looking for is a person who is well off enough to help me start my business of growing gourmet mushrooms.I have years of experience in gardening and have cultivated shiitake mushrooms for friends before and I know if I only had the money to do so I can be successful in supplying our community with gourmet mushrooms. I would like to be able to support my family and daughter without government assistance and save for her future. I have always had a strong desire and passion to help support local grown food. Coming from a culinary background I know the importance and impact that local sustainable food can have on a local economy. My plan is to start growing shiitake and oyster mushrooms to supply local restaurants and to sell at farmers markets.I already have the structure suitable for growing oyster mushrooms all I need is the money for a growers licence and supplies approximately 2000$. If you are interested in helping me get started in my endeavors or have any questions for me please feel free to send them to bessiedawning@yahoo.com. Thank you for your consideration.

Hello everyone I am very new to internet begging as they call it. A little background about me. I am a Paramedic working in a rural area in Michigan. I have been working in EMS for 6 years now. I love doing what I do everyday, saving people and helping them in thier time of need is very rewarding personally. Unfortunatly Being a Paramedic is not very rewarding finacially. I consistantly work 72 to 84 hours a week to try and make ends meet. These hours have been cut due to budgets being cut down to 48 a week. The overtime is just not there anymore. Without this overtime I am having a hard time making my car payment. I currently pay $300 a month in a car payment for my Jeep. I love my Jeep, anyone who has experince a rural MI winter knows that 4 wheel drive is a must have. However with rising gas prices and the high monthly payment I am having trouble paying it. I am asking for any help that you can donate to me to help alleviate my costs. I really do appreciate any and all. Thank you to anyone who donates! I truely am greatful!

i am undergraduate student.i am from a very poor background. my parents are dead.i am now finding it difficult and in hell for my education.i on depend on my friends for food and sometimes i have being humiliated and mock by my friends.i need money to pay my fees and buy food for my studies, and maybe also buy laptop for my course. please help me!

Well, where to begin. First let me say that I lost my job abut a year ago and I don't qualify for benefits because the company I worked for never paid my Social security or disability or unemployment insurance to the government. Now I am screwed ... I am in such a deep depression and I find myself falling deeper into a hole as the days go by. I got myself into some legal problems about 12 years ago when my daughter was born and now even that is haunting me right now. I can't get a job because it seems that every place I apply is doing a background check ... I don't want a top government clearance, I just want a damn job. Anyway, I don't want to tell every single thing that's going wrong right now, that's what I need therapy for ..lol. My health is declining, I'm losing weight, even my teeth are starting to decay to the point where very expensive surgery is needed. PLEASE, and I GOD FEARINGLY mean PLEASE, Can someone please help me with a few dollars to help me out of this financial hole I am in. I am not even able to help my children and that is gonna be the death of me. I have a total of three daughter that I need to help. I live in Westchester county in NY and I don't have a car to get around. Everything is dependent on buses and trains and I can't pay for either right now. I tried to get out of this mess with credit but now I owe the credit card companies ... I'm sinking deeper and deeper every day. Please help ... I don't want to die. I just want to be happy and proud of myself. It is so demeaning to ask strangers for help. I could never beg in the streets so I've turned to the cowards way out ... Just Please ... If you can ... Help me.

Im trying to raise money so I can go to Australia-no I dont want to go Australia for a Holiday, but so I can earn my own way. I am british and live in the UK, and even for a hard working graduate of two degrees, job prospects have been dismal here ;-( Whereas in Australia, prospects are really good. Even if I fail to land a professional job in Australia, Id be willing to do anything to earn a wage. I have everything planned to go to Australia-will require a work/holiday visa, etc-apart from the finances. But I stress I do not plan to travel whilst I am there, I just want to start working ASAP, earn some money and get myself out of debt.
Background on me: 26, single male, UK. I like to think Im a really, honest nice guy-even when I have a little money I tend to share it with people around me. I'd actually given up on life a month back, and was close to ending it on several occassions. But am trying to turn it round. I suffer from depression, which is a big obstacle at moment.
Im hopeful I can pay back all the money I receive from donators in the long run. I dont want to put pressure on anybody, so please only donate if you are willing and able to do so. Im also willing to update/reespond to any further questions. Thanks

Hello I'm posting here because I don't know where else to turn and there is little hope. I guess a quick background I was divorced and left with all of the debt. A few years later I met a girl who like me was abandoned by her ex but only she had a an infant. We fell in love and became a family. She was riddled with debt a well. I am trying to support this family while paying off a $30,000 debt at the same time. $5,000 of which is owed to the IRS by 4/15. I am starting to lose hope but I am trying to stay strong for this little girl. I dream everyday of being able to overcome and provide a safe place for us to call home permanently; but right now it looks like I could lose everything. I am asking for any kind of help, even prayers not just money. To everybody in he same shoe as I am, I will give my prayers as well and if I should ever overcome....I give my word to come back and help. Thank you for your time.

Hello I'm posting here because I don't know where else to turn and there is little hope. I guess a quick background I was divorced and left with all of the debt. A few years later I met a girl who like me was abandoned by her ex but only she had a an infant. We fell in love and became a family. She was riddled with debt a well. I am trying to support this family while paying off a $30,000 debt at the same time. $5,000 of which is owed to the IRS by 4/15. I am starting to lose hope but I am trying to stay strong for this little girl. I dream everyday of being able to overcome and provide a safe place for us to call home permanently; but right now it looks like I could lose everything. I am asking for any kind of help, even prayers not just money. To everybody in he same shoe as I am, I will give my prayers as well and if I should ever overcome....I give my word to come back and help. Thank you for your time.

and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.

and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.

and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.
My paypal account is added, maybe you can spare a few pence to help

Hi and thanks for reading this,that in itself is appreciated, I am not really sure how this works but a friend told me about this after reading about it in a magazine article.
Well let me start at the begining, for the last 20 years I have worked for the same company and never had a days sickness, yes not one single day, in October 2011 I went to work one day and just quit felling I had just had enough, I did not tell them I was feeling depressed & suicidal and sick, I just said I no longer want to work here and I left that day.
As I was depressed and on the verge of killing myself, something I had actually felt for many years, I spent the next three days at home not washing,cleaning or speaking to anyone, I looked on the internet and searched "The best way to commit suicide" I was that low, I had no money and in fact had huge debts, to my friends and family I was always the strong one always the one person they could rely on,but reality was I was a broken man my spirit my soul was empty I wanted to die.
After those three days of no sleep and thoughts of how I would die I took a shower, whilst in the shower I just completely broke down I just lay on the floor in uncontrolable crying I just lay there for about an hour, and suddenly it came to me that I needed to speak to some one and quick.
Enter my Sister, since childhood my Sister has been like a mother to me(My own mother left when I was 3) she is truly a beautiful person a wonderful role model and just the most fantastic spirited person I know. Why I had not just told her how I felt at the start I just dont know, because we talk about everything, maybe its the depression and anxiety of it all, I dont know.
I called her in tears and told her I need her to come over, she was here within half an hour, we spent the day crying she more than me, I was kinda cried out, she had never seen me cry since I was probably ten years old, that is probably a sadness in itself.
She did everything for me in those early days, took me to my Doctors a Doctors I had not been to in 10 years, it had been that long that when we booked the appointment I was informed my Doctor died 4 years ago. Anyway I was put under a mental health program and prescribed Anti-depressants and also some sleeping tablets(these killed me my spirit and thoughts were numbed). my sister has been my Angel my saviour, there is no doubt in my mind I would be dead now if it was not for my sister, thinks are still bad, very bad at times, but I see my sister every day she comes around cooks,talks does coffee and is constantly on the phone(sometimes this does my head in) but I understand that she is scared that I may harm myself,she has come to the doctors and psychiatrist with my giving me huge support and a hand to hold that I needed, I cant tell you in words how special she is to me, I am not actually suicidal at the moment although I still think if I got a terminal illness this would be ideal, mad I know but I am being honest, I have huge debts and on sick benefit but this is not enough to live on or enough to pay debts. I actually owe £50,000 and I know this will never be paid so I will lose my home and everything else that goes with bankruptcy, but I will always have my sister their supporting me, she has helped me financially for three months but I dont want this to continue its wrong.
Well now to my BEG, well I dont want money for my debts I understand they are way too much to ever believe I can pay them back, no the reason I want help is because later this year my sister is 50 yes the big Five O and for the last three years she has been kinda planning what she will do and where she will go, she has decided that she wants to rent a Villa in Spain and have all her friends & family come for one week, when we discussed this last year obviuosly I was always included in this week, but I do not want her paying for me its Her birthday after all, I will not be able to pay my own way and I will not be working in the next few months as I am soon to under go councilling, the truth is I dont really want to go as I am actually feeling stressed about it all, hoping it goes away, but at the same time I understand how much it means to her to have me there, I know she wont take no for an answer and will want to pay for me.
All I ask is that if anyone on here could donate so I can at least pay some part in some way to my own way.She is not going until August or September and I think it will cost around £300 as a guess maybe slightly more.
If just a little from a lot of people then I can make some head way, or if you just want to mail me if you have similar problems as I have learned that talking problems through does help.
I know its a long beg but I want you to know the background.
Thanks for reading and hopefully you can help in some small way.

I am going through a really rough patch right now. I am afraid I will lose my home if I do not find work ASAP. I have been searching and still keep coming up with nothing. I learn quickly, however, and will do ANYTHING.

If I lose my home, I lose everything, including my 2 cats. It would be devastating to me if i lost them.

I have appled for unemployment. Unfortunately, I was out of work for quite some time since I was only going to school and before that I was living at home as a stay-at-home dad/brother/son. So basically, I do not qualify since I haven’t accumulated the ammount of hours I need. Also, in my past, I was into drugs and have a felony drug possession which bars me from so many opportunities. It was almost 6 years ago and I’ve changed a lot since then but it still haunts me. I’m starting to feel like I want to give up on life altogether. I started going back to church and cleaned my life up since then…

A few months ago, I got a job at 7-Eleven and was using that to survive on. About a month into my job, my boss called me and told me I can’t work there anymore because of my background check. Basicly got fired for the crimes I mentioned above. This crushed me. Then I found work at a restaurant and lasted there for another month. I lost that job as well because of a false accusation I had nothing to do with. I tried to speak on my defense but my boss wouldn’t hear it. This crushed me too. So, out of desperation, I looked for work again and fell into Kirby… If anyone knows what this is, they can understand I was completely scammed. They made promises of $1850/month salary. I needed to make a quota of sales to earn that. Well…. they made it impossible for me to achieve that goal by the way the company is ran. I was working 80+ hours a week. In that time, I got very sick, broke my glassses, couldn’t make it to church or my community group and everything was going down hill fast. I sold 3 Kirbys in that time and my boss says I will make a measly $75 commission total off those. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained because of this…

My rent was due on the 5th and I don’t have a penny to show for it. I am on bad terms with my landlord now and have no idea what to do. I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m only spinning my wheels getting nowhere.What can I do?! If I lose my home, I lose EVERYTHING, including my 2 cats which I love more than anything... I worked so hard for Kirby and got nothing but a few bucks coming to me. All my time was wasted.

What can I do? I need a “3 day pay or vacate” notice to receive any kind of rent assistance from an agency. All I want to do is to work and make money like everyone else but everything I do fails… I can’t get work that requires a background check and have no transportation or money for a bus. My home has no food either and I’m about to lose my mind.

I don’t know what else to do but BEG on this website and pray someone is generous enough to help. I know after working 80+ hours a week in Kirby in the worst conditions that I have the drive and strength to work hard. All I need is some time to find work again.

Thanks so much for reading my story and thank you even more for donating. I hope this is the door God has opened for me to make that miracle.

I am going through a really rough patch right now. I am afraid I will lose my home if I do not find work ASAP. I have been searching and still keep coming up with nothing. I learn quickly, however, and will do ANYTHING.

If I lose my home, I lose everything, including my 2 cats. It would be devastating to me if i lost them.

I have appled for unemployment. Unfortunately, I was out of work for quite some time since I was only going to school and before that I was living at home as a stay-at-home dad/brother/son. So basically, I do not qualify since I haven’t accumulated the ammount of hours I need. Also, in my past, I was into drugs and have a felony drug possession which bars me from so many opportunities. It was almost 6 years ago and I’ve changed a lot since then but it still haunts me. I’m starting to feel like I want to give up on life altogether. I started going back to church and cleaned my life up since then…

A few months ago, I got a job at 7-Eleven and was using that to survive on. About a month into my job, my boss called me and told me I can’t work there anymore because of my background check. Basicly got fired for the crimes I mentioned above. This crushed me. Then I found work at a restaurant and lasted there for another month. I lost that job as well because of a false accusation I had nothing to do with. I tried to speak on my defense but my boss wouldn’t hear it. This crushed me too. So, out of desperation, I looked for work again and fell into Kirby… If anyone knows what this is, they can understand I was completely scammed. They made promises of $1850/month salary. I needed to make a quota of sales to earn that. Well…. they made it impossible for me to achieve that goal by the way the company is ran. I was working 80+ hours a week. In that time, I got very sick, broke my glassses, couldn’t make it to church or my community group and everything was going down hill fast. I sold 3 Kirbys in that time and my boss says I will make a measly $75 commission total off those. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained because of this…

My rent was due on the 5th and I don’t have a penny to show for it. I am on bad terms with my landlord now and have no idea what to do. I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m only spinning my wheels getting nowhere.What can I do?! If I lose my home, I lose EVERYTHING, including my 2 cats which I love more than anything... I worked so hard for Kirby and got nothing but a few bucks coming to me. All my time was wasted.

What can I do? I need a “3 day pay or vacate” notice to receive any kind of rent assistance from an agency. All I want to do is to work and make money like everyone else but everything I do fails… I can’t get work that requires a background check and have no transportation or money for a bus. My home has no food either and I’m about to lose my mind.

I don’t know what else to do but BEG on this website and pray someone is generous enough to help. I know after working 80+ hours a week in Kirby in the worst conditions that I have the drive and strength to work hard. All I need is some time to find work again.

Thanks so much for reading my story and thank you even more for donating. I hope this is the door God has opened for me to make that miracle.

I am going through a really rough patch right now. I am afraid I will lose my home if I do not find work ASAP. I have been searching and still keep coming up with nothing. I learn quickly, however, and will do ANYTHING.

If I lose my home, I lose everything, including my 2 cats. It would be devastating to me if i lost them.

I have appled for unemployment. Unfortunately, I was out of work for quite some time since I was only going to school and before that I was living at home as a stay-at-home dad/brother/son. So basically, I do not qualify since I haven’t accumulated the ammount of hours I need. Also, in my past, I was into drugs and have a felony drug possession which bars me from so many opportunities. It was almost 6 years ago and I’ve changed a lot since then but it still haunts me. I’m starting to feel like I want to give up on life altogether. I started going back to church and cleaned my life up since then…

A few months ago, I got a job at 7-Eleven and was using that to survive on. About a month into my job, my boss called me and told me I can’t work there anymore because of my background check. Basicly got fired for the crimes I mentioned above. This crushed me. Then I found work at a restaurant and lasted there for another month. I lost that job as well because of a false accusation I had nothing to do with. I tried to speak on my defense but my boss wouldn’t hear it. This crushed me too. So, out of desperation, I looked for work again and fell into Kirby… If anyone knows what this is, they can understand I was completely scammed. They made promises of $1850/month salary. I needed to make a quota of sales to earn that. Well…. they made it impossible for me to achieve that goal by the way the company is ran. I was working 80+ hours a week. In that time, I got very sick, broke my glassses, couldn’t make it to church or my community group and everything was going down hill fast. I sold 3 Kirbys in that time and my boss says I will make a measly $75 commission total off those. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained because of this…

My rent was due on the 5th and I don’t have a penny to show for it. I am on bad terms with my landlord now and have no idea what to do. I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m only spinning my wheels getting nowhere.What can I do?! If I lose my home, I lose EVERYTHING, including my 2 cats which I love more than anything... I worked so hard for Kirby and got nothing but a few bucks coming to me. All my time was wasted.

What can I do? I need a “3 day pay or vacate” notice to receive any kind of rent assistance from an agency. All I want to do is to work and make money like everyone else but everything I do fails… I can’t get work that requires a background check and have no transportation or money for a bus. My home has no food either and I’m about to lose my mind.

I don’t know what else to do but BEG on this website and pray someone is generous enough to help. I know after working 80+ hours a week in Kirby in the worst conditions that I have the drive and strength to work hard. All I need is some time to find work again.

Thanks so much for reading my story and thank you even more for donating. I hope this is the door God has opened for me to make that miracle.

I am going through a really rough patch right now. I am afraid I will lose my home if I do not find work ASAP. I have been searching and still keep coming up with nothing. I learn quickly, however, and will do ANYTHING.

If I lose my home, I lose everything, including my 2 cats. It would be devastating to me if i lost them.

I have appled for unemployment. Unfortunately, I was out of work for quite some time since I was only going to school and before that I was living at home as a stay-at-home dad/brother/son. So basically, I do not qualify since I haven’t accumulated the ammount of hours I need. Also, in my past, I was into drugs and have a felony drug possession which bars me from so many opportunities. It was almost 6 years ago and I’ve changed a lot since then but it still haunts me. I’m starting to feel like I want to give up on life altogether. I started going back to church and cleaned my life up since then…

A few months ago, I got a job at 7-Eleven and was using that to survive on. About a month into my job, my boss called me and told me I can’t work there anymore because of my background check. Basicly got fired for the crimes I mentioned above. This crushed me. Then I found work at a restaurant and lasted there for another month. I lost that job as well because of a false accusation I had nothing to do with. I tried to speak on my defense but my boss wouldn’t hear it. This crushed me too. So, out of desperation, I looked for work again and fell into Kirby… If anyone knows what this is, they can understand I was completely scammed. They made promises of $1850/month salary. I needed to make a quota of sales to earn that. Well…. they made it impossible for me to achieve that goal by the way the company is ran. I was working 80+ hours a week. In that time, I got very sick, broke my glassses, couldn’t make it to church or my community group and everything was going down hill fast. I sold 3 Kirbys in that time and my boss says I will make a measly $75 commission total off those. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained because of this…

My rent was due on the 5th and I don’t have a penny to show for it. I am on bad terms with my landlord now and have no idea what to do. I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m only spinning my wheels getting nowhere.What can I do?! If I lose my home, I lose EVERYTHING, including my 2 cats which I love more than anything... I worked so hard for Kirby and got nothing but a few bucks coming to me. All my time was wasted.

What can I do? I need a “3 day pay or vacate” notice to receive any kind of rent assistance from an agency. All I want to do is to work and make money like everyone else but everything I do fails… I can’t get work that requires a background check and have no transportation or money for a bus. My home has no food either and I’m about to lose my mind.

I don’t know what else to do but BEG on this website and pray someone is generous enough to help. I know after working 80+ hours a week in Kirby in the worst conditions that I have the drive and strength to work hard. All I need is some time to find work again.

Thanks so much for reading my story and thank you even more for donating. I hope this is the door God has opened for me to make that miracle.

I am going through a really rough patch right now. I am afraid I will lose my home if I do not find work ASAP. I have been searching and still keep coming up with nothing. I learn quickly, however, and will do ANYTHING.

If I lose my home, I lose everything, including my 2 cats. It would be devastating to me if i lost them.

I have appled for unemployment. Unfortunately, I was out of work for quite some time since I was only going to school and before that I was living at home as a stay-at-home dad/brother/son. So basically, I do not qualify since I haven’t accumulated the ammount of hours I need. Also, in my past, I was into drugs and have a felony drug possession which bars me from so many opportunities. It was almost 6 years ago and I’ve changed a lot since then but it still haunts me. I’m starting to feel like I want to give up on life altogether. I started going back to church and cleaned my life up since then…

A few months ago, I got a job at 7-Eleven and was using that to survive on. About a month into my job, my boss called me and told me I can’t work there anymore because of my background check. Basicly got fired for the crimes I mentioned above. This crushed me. Then I found work at a restaurant and lasted there for another month. I lost that job as well because of a false accusation I had nothing to do with. I tried to speak on my defense but my boss wouldn’t hear it. This crushed me too. So, out of desperation, I looked for work again and fell into Kirby… If anyone knows what this is, they can understand I was completely scammed. They made promises of $1850/month salary. I needed to make a quota of sales to earn that. Well…. they made it impossible for me to achieve that goal by the way the company is ran. I was working 80+ hours a week. In that time, I got very sick, broke my glassses, couldn’t make it to church or my community group and everything was going down hill fast. I sold 3 Kirbys in that time and my boss says I will make a measly $75 commission total off those. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained because of this…

My rent was due on the 5th and I don’t have a penny to show for it. I am on bad terms with my landlord now and have no idea what to do. I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m only spinning my wheels getting nowhere.What can I do?! If I lose my home, I lose EVERYTHING, including my 2 cats which I love more than anything... I worked so hard for Kirby and got nothing but a few bucks coming to me. All my time was wasted.

What can I do? I need a “3 day pay or vacate” notice to receive any kind of rent assistance from an agency. All I want to do is to work and make money like everyone else but everything I do fails… I can’t get work that requires a background check and have no transportation or money for a bus. My home has no food either and I’m about to lose my mind.

I don’t know what else to do but BEG on this website and pray someone is generous enough to help. I know after working 80+ hours a week in Kirby in the worst conditions that I have the drive and strength to work hard. All I need is some time to find work again.

Thanks so much for reading my story and thank you even more for donating. I hope this is the door God has opened for me to make that miracle.

I am going through a really rough patch right now. I am afraid I will lose my home if I do not find work ASAP. I have been searching and still keep coming up with nothing. I learn quickly, however, and will do ANYTHING.

If I lose my home, I lose everything, including my 2 cats. It would be devastating to me if i lost them.

I have appled for unemployment. Unfortunately, I was out of work for quite some time since I was only going to school and before that I was living at home as a stay-at-home dad/brother/son. So basically, I do not qualify since I haven’t accumulated the ammount of hours I need. Also, in my past, I was into drugs and have a felony drug possession which bars me from so many opportunities. It was almost 6 years ago and I’ve changed a lot since then but it still haunts me. I’m starting to feel like I want to give up on life altogether. I started going back to church and cleaned my life up since then…

A few months ago, I got a job at 7-Eleven and was using that to survive on. About a month into my job, my boss called me and told me I can’t work there anymore because of my background check. Basicly got fired for the crimes I mentioned above. This crushed me. Then I found work at a restaurant and lasted there for another month. I lost that job as well because of a false accusation I had nothing to do with. I tried to speak on my defense but my boss wouldn’t hear it. This crushed me too. So, out of desperation, I looked for work again and fell into Kirby… If anyone knows what this is, they can understand I was completely scammed. They made promises of $1850/month salary. I needed to make a quota of sales to earn that. Well…. they made it impossible for me to achieve that goal by the way the company is ran. I was working 80+ hours a week. In that time, I got very sick, broke my glassses, couldn’t make it to church or my community group and everything was going down hill fast. I sold 3 Kirbys in that time and my boss says I will make a measly $75 commission total off those. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained because of this…

My rent was due on the 5th and I don’t have a penny to show for it. I am on bad terms with my landlord now and have no idea what to do. I’m struggling so much and feel like I’m only spinning my wheels getting nowhere.What can I do?! If I lose my home, I lose EVERYTHING, including my 2 cats which I love more than anything... I worked so hard for Kirby and got nothing but a few bucks coming to me. All my time was wasted.

What can I do? I need a “3 day pay or vacate” notice to receive any kind of rent assistance from an agency. All I want to do is to work and make money like everyone else but everything I do fails… I can’t get work that requires a background check and have no transportation or money for a bus. My home has no food either and I’m about to lose my mind.

I don’t know what else to do but BEG on this website and pray someone is generous enough to help. I know after working 80+ hours a week in Kirby in the worst conditions that I have the drive and strength to work hard. All I need is some time to find work again.

Thanks so much for reading my story and thank you even more for donating. I hope this is the door God has opened for me to make that miracle.