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in a couple of weeks i will be homeless. after becoming unemployed two years ago i was living off money which i had from cashing in my retirement account. after taking a couple of months for leisure ( i hadn't had an actual vacation, aside from a long weekend here or there, for the past 12 years) i was in the beginning phase of starting a small business. then i had a heart attack. i had surgery to place a stent in one of my arteries. it seems that i was born with a twisted artery and had been living with it all my life suffering no ill effects. according to my doctor artery walls are fairly thin and pliable when one is young, but as a person ages the walls thicken and become less pliant. when you combine these two factors with the twist of the artery, the result is a cutoff of the flow of blood to the heart. my doctor said that had i waited another day to come into the hospital, i would have died. while the surgery left me weak, it was the anti-rejection medication that i was on which was the problem. it left me so tired and weak, that after a walk to and from the local bodega just two blocks from my apartment , after i walked in the door i had to lay the bags down and sit and rest for a half hour or more, before i could put groceries away or even thinking about standing up and preparing food. quite a change from when i was biking 5 miles a day/ five days a week and lifting weights several times a week. my bank account was swiftly drained due to the cost of the hospital stay/surgery, and to the cost of medications ($130/month).
once i was off the anti-rejection meds and feeling well enough to work, i began searching for a job seeing as my hope of starting a business drained away with the money in my bank account. but unfortunately, with the economy the way it is, i have been unsuccessful in my search. i am now virtually penniless and am being evicted from my apartment. i am have sold off what few possessions i have in order to have some cash to buy the things i need for living on the streets, but the accumulated amount came to less than $100.

monetary donations via paypal are more than welcome,
i have also created a wish list at amazon.com for certain things that will be very helpful for me to have while i am homeless, but which i can not in anyway afford.

http://amzn.com/w/298Q89SP8GLCZ

i have left comments next to each item to explain why i feel the need for it. e-giftcards from amazon would also be helpful.

Hello,

I've always done well in my life I guess, I have always given to charity, and I've always helped others when they've needed money and so forth, I truly believe there is no better satisfaction then being able to help someone through a tough time when they're in need. In fact there was a time last year when I was walking past a homeless man in the street, it was bitterly cold, I bought him lunch so he wouldn't go hungry for a day, just so he could have that few hours of not going hungry, I felt great in being able to genuinely help someone, especially a stranger.

My situation, I suffer from severe depression and an anxiety disorder, which has seen my mental health decline over the past year, I was forced to leave my job and have suffered a mental breakdown which saw me hospitalized for a few days earlier this year, I took an overdose of anti depressants and was seriously ill, I regret it, but we all have a period in our lives where things can get to tough. I've lived off what's left of my wages which has now ran out.

I have ran out of money, I know it takes a lot for someone to extend a hand of kindness in giving just a small amount, but I will be truly grateful to anyone who can extend a helping hand and donate a small bit of money to help me right now.

I can not afford to eat, and I can not afford to pay for my medical prescriptions which sees me not being able to take my medications, which can have quite a serious implication on my recovery and current state of mind, I've just completed several forms to be able to claim state benefit, however I have to wait for at least 6 weeks before seeing anything.

I can not pay housekeeping, which was essential as my mum doesn't earn a lot of money, so she appreciated the help I could give, and now we may face loosing the house.

I ask for who ever is reading this, to just extend a hand to me, and help me through this tough time, although words will never thank you for your sincere kindness, i will be eternally grateful for the support. please either donate or message me mcrdigitalretouch@gmail.com

many thanks.

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Please do not contact me if the purpose is for yourself gain and benefit. I had contacts from individuals who wanted to take advantage of my health and use my identity for fraudulent and illegal use and benefit for themselves. Please do not try to mess up my life, don't play with my health! May God Bless the ones who are ready to help from their free will with no intention and advantages!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Please do not contact me if the purpose is for yourself gain and benefit. I had contact from individuals who wanted to take advantage of my health and use my identity for fraudulent and illegal use. Please do not try to mess my life, don't play with my health! May God Bless the ones who are ready to health from their free will with no intention for self gain!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Please do not contact me if the purpose is for yourself gain and benefit. I had contact from individuals who wanted to take advantage of my health and use my identity for fraudulent and illegal use. Please do not try to mess my life, don't play with my health! May God Bless the ones who are ready to health from their free will with no intention for self gain!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Please do not contact me if the purpose is for yourself gain and benefit. I had contact from individuals who wanted to take advantage of my health and use my identity for fraudulent and illegal use. Please do not try to mess my life, don't play with my health! May God Bless the ones who are ready to health from their free will with no intention for self gain!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Please do not contact me if the purpose is for yourself gain and benefit. I had contact from individuals who wanted to take advantage of my health and use my identity for fraudulent and illegal use. Please do not try to mess my life, don't play with my health! May God Bless the ones who are ready to health from their free will with no intention for self gain!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Please do not contact me if the purpose is for yourself gain and benefit. I had contact from individuals who wanted to take advantage of my health and use my identity for fraudulent and illegal use. Please do not try to mess my life, don't play with my health! May God Bless the ones who are ready to health from their free will with no intention for self gain!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

Whoever is willing to promise me that they will help and turn up to try and benefit for themselves please do not contact me! I would rather remain ill for the rest of my life then gain unclean money! I had contacts from people who were pretending to be somebody who they are really not, pretending to be organisations and trying to put me into something illegal for their own gain and trying to use my identity! Please if you are willing to do that please do not contact me. My life is a mess as it is I dont want to make it worst. I dont want something illegal. I want real, genuine people who they want to really help with no self advantage and with no illegal intentions and measures. Whoever want to help me please provide me with identifications and some genuine proof which would prove that you want to support me with nothing in return or reward or using my identification for their own gain! It is my health concerned do not make a laugh and play with it!!!!


Many thanks

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

Whoever is willing to promise me that they will help and turn up to try and benefit for themselves please do not contact me! I would rather remain ill for the rest of my life then gain unclean money! I had contacts from people who were pretending to be somebody who they are really not, pretending to be organisations and trying to put me into something illegal for their own gain and trying to use my identity! Please if you are willing to do that please do not contact me. My life is a mess as it is I dont want to make it worst. I dont want something illegal. I want real, genuine people who they want to really help with no self advantage and with no illegal intentions and measures. Whoever want to help me please provide me with identifications and some genuine proof which would prove that you want to support me with nothing in return or reward or using my identification for their own gain! It is my health concerned do not make a laugh and play with it!!!!


Many thanks

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

Whoever is willing to promise me that they will help and turn up to try and benefit for themselves please do not contact me! I would rather remain ill for the rest of my life then gain unclean money! I had contacts from people who were pretending to be somebody who they are really not, pretending to be organisations and trying to put me into something illegal for their own gain and trying to use my identity! Please if you are willing to do that please do not contact me. My life is a mess as it is I dont want to make it worst. I dont want something illegal. I want real, genuine people who they want to really help with no self advantage and with no illegal intentions and measures. Whoever want to help me please provide me with identifications and some genuine proof which would prove that you want to support me with nothing in return or reward or using my identification for their own gain! It is my health concerned do not make a laugh and play with it!!!!


Many thanks

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

Whoever is willing to promise me that they will help and turn up to try and benefit for themselves please do not contact me! I would rather remain ill for the rest of my life then gain unclean money! I had contacts from people who were pretending to be somebody who they are really not, pretending to be organisations and trying to put me into something illegal for their own gain and trying to use my identity! Please if you are willing to do that please do not contact me. My life is a mess as it is I dont want to make it worst. I dont want something illegal. I want real, genuine people who they want to really help with no self advantage and with no illegal intentions and measures. Whoever want to help me please provide me with identifications and some genuine proof which would prove that you want to support me with nothing in return or reward or using my identification for their own gain! It is my health concerned do not make a laugh and play with it!!!!


Many thanks

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

Whoever is willing to promise me that they will help and turn up to try and benefit for themselves please do not contact me! I had contacts from people who were pretending to be someone who they are really not, pretending to be organisations and trying to put me into something illegal or fraudulent! Please if you are willing to do that please do not contact me. My life is a mess as it is I dont want to make it worst. I dont want something illegal. I want real, genuine people who they want to really help with no advantage and with no illegal intentions and measures. Please whoever want to help me please provide me with identifications and some genuine proof which would prove that you want to support me with nothing in return or reward. I can not assist anyone, if I would I would of helped myself. It is my health concerned do not make a laugh and play with it!!!! I hate when people take advantage of us who are really in need. I dont have a life to waste!!!


Many thanks

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

Whoever is willing to promise me that they will help and turn up to try and benefit for themselves please do not contact me! I had contacts from people who were pretending to be someone who they are really not, pretending to be organisations and trying to put me into something illegal or fraudulent! Please if you are willing to do that please do not contact me. My life is a mess as it is I dont want to make it worst. I dont want something illegal. I want real, genuine people who they want to really help with no advantage and with no illegal intentions and measures.

You who are genuine and want to really help may God always guide you and support you in every pathway in your life
Many thanks

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

Whoever is willing to promise me that they will help and turn up to try and benefit for themselves please do not contact me! I had contacts from people who were pretending to be someone who they are really not, pretending to be organisations and trying to put me into something illegal or fraudulent! Please if you are willing to do that please do not contact me. My life is a mess as it is I dont want to make it worst. I dont want something illegal. I want real, genuine people who they want to really help with no advantage and with no illegal intentions and measures.

You who are genuine and want to really help may God always guide you and support you in every pathway in your life
Many thanks

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk

Whoever is willing to promise me that they will help and turn up to try and benefit for themselves please do not contact me! I had contacts from people who were pretending to be someone who they are really not, pretending to be organisations and trying to put me into something illegal or fraudulent! Please if you are willing to do that please do not contact me. My life is a mess as it is I dont want to make it worst. I dont want something illegal. I want real, genuine people who they want to really help with no advantage and with no illegal intentions and measures. Please whoever want to help me please provide me with identifications and some genuine proof which would prove that you want to support me with nothing in return or reward. I can not assist anyone, if I would I would of helped myself. It is my health concerned do not make a laugh and play with it!!!! I hate when people take advantage of us who are really in need. I dont have a life to waste!!!


Many thanks

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk


Many thanks

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk


Many thanks

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk


Many thanks

I have had depression and trauma every since I was 10 years old. It initiated when a guy attempted to rape me. Ever since then my life has been a disaster. I am always on anti depression tablets. I dont have confidence, I am paranoid, scared, afraid. I have nightmares, feel guilty and I hate my character soooooooooo much. I go to doctors all the time but they do not do anything about it apart from repeating the same medication all the time. This doctors are from National Health Service which is free for every citizen of UK. If I had money I would of gonne to a private doctor so maybe they could really help me with some kind of rehabilitations or other measures that would really help me in a long term run and transform my attitude, the way of thinking or something that would rekindle my spirit and make me a normal human being as everyone else.

I have been in university for more then I was supposed to because the trauma and depression has affected me drastically. Now I had to leave university because I can not cope because of my health and I can not even afford to pay it. If I had the opportunity to cure then I would of been able to study aswell as work. I fighted so much in life trying to pretend that I can do things like anyone else and there is nothing wrong with me but in my heart there is sorrow and pain.

Please help, you would make a miracle in my life, it would mean the world to me!!!!!!

Whoever is willing to help me they can contact me on b.paloja@hotmail.co.uk


Many thanks

i was a full time carer for my mother in law who had alzhiemers disease.(mum passed away recently) i dedicated 8 years to look after her and loved every minute of it, myself and my husband even gave up our own home and moved in with her my son loved helping out with the caring role he loved his nan so much and misses her as we all do, we are all finding the loss of mum very hard to deal with we have been left with 3 big bills including a funeral to pay for my husband is on a low income and we are really struggling to pay the bills my husband has been put on anti depressants and isnt coping with his loss and the stress of it all just wish we could be nearly debt free then i could help others like me. My family mean the world to me and at the moment feel like we are drowning and there nothing i can do, i have been for 11 interviews but nothing has come of it my confidence is shattered. please help x

I have been on disability for several years now, primarily for bipolar disorder, but also from back and neck injuries sustained from being hit by a drunk driver on new year's eve several years ago. I barely make enough to cover my bills and to buy food to eat, and there is never anything left over, and often there isn't enough, leaving me having to beg for money from friends or family members, who often don't have it and can't give anything. I have been stuck at home for years because I cannot even afford gas to go out in town unless I have to go to the doctor, grocery store, drug store, etc. I do not even want to think about trying to meet a person for a relationship because I feel like I have nothing to offer someone when I can barely take care of myself. Sometimes the despair makes me just want to lie in bed and never get up or swallow a bottle of pills so it will all be over. Living a lonely solitary life is killing me. I have a college degree in psychology and have worked my entire adult life trying to help adults, teenagers, and children to have better lives for themselves, and now I am stuck in the boat where many of them have been, where I feel like there's no hope. I had a lot of problems working also because I live in the southern US where not only racism is rampant (though I'm white), but they also treat people like me the same as they do blacks, and by that I mean people who are bisexual, or open-minded, or who people assume to be gay. I have been fired from jobs, harassed, threatened, passed over for jobs, etc., to the point that years ago I got sick of even trying to work in such a hostile environment when all I ever did was accept everyone and try to help anyone in need. I could never fathom why everybody hated me so much just from general assumptions that I "might" be gay, having never told anyone anything, though I have had relationships with men and women. People here are so anti-gay that it is downright dangerous to make yourself known. They will create vicious lies and rumors to try to destroy your life, will not hire you for jobs, will fire you, threaten and harass you. Further, ever since I was a young boy, I have also been physically abused because of this. White trash rednecks love to do this, and it has been done to me many times-they will kidnap you, drag you off into the woods, tie you to a tree or down in the back of a truck or string you up between two trees, or even act like they're going to hang you, and then they gang rape you, and then they threaten to kill you and your family if you ever tell on them. And you can't go to the police because they're usually there raping you too. I've had to call in the FBI on them several times, and the National Guard has even had to show its presence in our town before because these vigilante KKK rednecks are so threatening towards anybody who isn't a redneck. They think there's only 2 kinds of people, rednecks and queers. Or whites and blacks. I'm white but they label me a queer, and to them, that's just as bad as being black. So therefore, they beat me and rape me. My mother taught me at a young age to play dead, and I had to do it several times growing up. I also had to play like Brer Rabbit and tell them to please not leave me in the woods or I might die, but it's what I wanted because I was a boy scout and I knew I could survive if they'd just leave me alone and let me live. They even had a hand in killing my mother many years ago, and they also kill anyone who gets close to trying to expose them. You learn to stay away from them and to keep your mouth shut and maybe they'll let you live and find somebody else to rape and abuse. By the way, I'm in southern Alabama, in Washington County, and in surrounding counties it's the same. Besides wanting to be able to have a decent life, I want to get out of this area and be free for the first time in my life. Even while in college and working as an adult, I've encountered more redneck KKK vigilantes, both male and female, always hellbent on killing queers, as they say it. I want to be able to afford to move somewhere else, preferably to Florida or to California, to a place where nobody knows me and maybe I can hide out and start over, and also where people are more accepting of people who choose to not be a redneck. I am tired of being hated for being a perfectly normal human being. I know from college that we are all bisexual creatures and that there is nothing wrong with me. Hell, these rednecks are raping young boys, so they're the queers and child molesters, so why the hell would they be threatening me? The answer is because they want to be free to rape and molest whoever they want and they always get away with it, because this area is full of corrupt police and sheriffs and politicians and wealthy townfolk who can get away with murder repeatedly. I just want out, so please help me to be able to move to a safer environment so that I might live a decent and normal life one day, and so I might also can bring myself out of depression and learn to walk in the sun again and hopefully also find love like I want and not be afraid to feel and express my emotions. I cannot believe that in 2012 they have such control over everyone in the redneck south to the point that people are afraid to live normal lives. And yes, every single word of this is true, so please help. At the rate I'm going, I'll never be able to afford to move elsewhere and to get away from this hellhole called southern Alabama. Even in the last several years, I was near our local river at the boat landing parking lot talking to a friend when the police showed up and started to harass us and called us queers for being two men talking in a parking lot. He then made us stay there and called two friends of his to come there, and while the policeman held a gun on us, they raped me and made me give the two redneck men blow jobs and kept slamming the truck door on my head and punching and kicking me. I did successfully get that policeman moved to another town after I went to the hospital after I was raped, but he wasn't fired. The other two men were never tried for their crimes, but someone did end up murdering one of them. This place is awful, you just have no idea. Another incident I'll tell you about before I end this is one weekend I was working a new part time job on top of my full time job at a maximum security mental hospital. My boss at work, a nurse, had a brother who owned a lake, and he needed someone to take care of general maintenance and help out guests and such. Well to try to me out, they had me stay there one weekend, in my own cabin, with just one guest on the lake, and he was in a cabin down the hill. Well, I found out during the course of this weekend that the nurse and her brother were in the KKK and this man staying at the lake had paid them to be able to hunt him a real life queer at the lake. So he kept harassing me and threatening me and coming to my cabin at night with his guns and even one time chased me down the pier and I had to jump into the lake fully clothed, wallet, shoes, jeans, and all, swimming as deep as I could and moving side to side and spinning underwater because this psycho man was shooting bullets at me! I felt like I was in a movie, and I thankfully didn't get hit but several bullets whizzed by me underwater, and I held my breath and swam clear across the lake underwater and only came up when I had to because I had no breath left, and I had to spend the entire night hiding among the lilypads with my head barely sticking out of the water, for fear that he might see me, even though I was across the lake and there wasn't enough moonlight for him to see me from that far away. I was freezing and sick by the next morning, not to mention having a nervous breakdown after being hunted. My brother and his fiance' got me a lawyer and we were advised by him not to pursue it or they would murder us all. The nurse even admitted to the setup at work the next week, and was surprised that I had shown back up, because she figured I'd have been bagged by the hunter.

I have been on disability for several years now, primarily for bipolar disorder, but also from back and neck injuries sustained from being hit by a drunk driver on new year's eve several years ago. I barely make enough to cover my bills and to buy food to eat, and there is never anything left over, and often there isn't enough, leaving me having to beg for money from friends or family members, who often don't have it and can't give anything. I have been stuck at home for years because I cannot even afford gas to go out in town unless I have to go to the doctor, grocery store, drug store, etc. I do not even want to think about trying to meet a person for a relationship because I feel like I have nothing to offer someone when I can barely take care of myself. Sometimes the despair makes me just want to lie in bed and never get up or swallow a bottle of pills so it will all be over. Living a lonely solitary life is killing me. I have a college degree in psychology and have worked my entire adult life trying to help adults, teenagers, and children to have better lives for themselves, and now I am stuck in the boat where many of them have been, where I feel like there's no hope. I had a lot of problems working also because I live in the southern US where not only racism is rampant (though I'm white), but they also treat people like me the same as they do blacks, and by that I mean people who are bisexual, or open-minded, or who people assume to be gay. I have been fired from jobs, harassed, threatened, passed over for jobs, etc., to the point that years ago I got sick of even trying to work in such a hostile environment when all I ever did was accept everyone and try to help anyone in need. I could never fathom why everybody hated me so much just from general assumptions that I "might" be gay, having never told anyone anything, though I have had relationships with men and women. People here are so anti-gay that it is downright dangerous to make yourself known. They will create vicious lies and rumors to try to destroy your life, will not hire you for jobs, will fire you, threaten and harass you. Further, ever since I was a young boy, I have also been physically abused because of this. White trash rednecks love to do this, and it has been done to me many times-they will kidnap you, drag you off into the woods, tie you to a tree or down in the back of a truck or string you up between two trees, or even act like they're going to hang you, and then they gang rape you, and then they threaten to kill you and your family if you ever tell on them. And you can't go to the police because they're usually there raping you too. I've had to call in the FBI on them several times, and the National Guard has even had to show its presence in our town before because these vigilante KKK rednecks are so threatening towards anybody who isn't a redneck. They think there's only 2 kinds of people, rednecks and queers. Or whites and blacks. I'm white but they label me a queer, and to them, that's just as bad as being black. So therefore, they beat me and rape me. My mother taught me at a young age to play dead, and I had to do it several times growing up. I also had to play like Brer Rabbit and tell them to please not leave me in the woods or I might die, but it's what I wanted because I was a boy scout and I knew I could survive if they'd just leave me alone and let me live. They even had a hand in killing my mother many years ago, and they also kill anyone who gets close to trying to expose them. You learn to stay away from them and to keep your mouth shut and maybe they'll let you live and find somebody else to rape and abuse. By the way, I'm in southern Alabama, in Washington County, and in surrounding counties it's the same. Besides wanting to be able to have a decent life, I want to get out of this area and be free for the first time in my life. Even while in college and working as an adult, I've encountered more redneck KKK vigilantes, both male and female, always hellbent on killing queers, as they say it. I want to be able to afford to move somewhere else, preferably to Florida or to California, to a place where nobody knows me and maybe I can hide out and start over, and also where people are more accepting of people who choose to not be a redneck. I am tired of being hated for being a perfectly normal human being. I know from college that we are all bisexual creatures and that there is nothing wrong with me. Hell, these rednecks are raping young boys, so they're the queers and child molesters, so why the hell would they be threatening me? The answer is because they want to be free to rape and molest whoever they want and they always get away with it, because this area is full of corrupt police and sheriffs and politicians and wealthy townfolk who can get away with murder repeatedly. I just want out, so please help me to be able to move to a safer environment so that I might live a decent and normal life one day, and so I might also can bring myself out of depression and learn to walk in the sun again and hopefully also find love like I want and not be afraid to feel and express my emotions. I cannot believe that in 2012 they have such control over everyone in the redneck south to the point that people are afraid to live normal lives. And yes, every single word of this is true, so please help. At the rate I'm going, I'll never be able to afford to move elsewhere and to get away from this hellhole called southern Alabama. Even in the last several years, I was near our local river at the boat landing parking lot talking to a friend when the police showed up and started to harass us and called us queers for being two men talking in a parking lot. He then made us stay there and called two friends of his to come there, and while the policeman held a gun on us, they raped me and made me give the two redneck men blow jobs and kept slamming the truck door on my head and punching and kicking me. I did successfully get that policeman moved to another town after I went to the hospital after I was raped, but he wasn't fired. The other two men were never tried for their crimes, but someone did end up murdering one of them. This place is awful, you just have no idea. Another incident I'll tell you about before I end this is one weekend I was working a new part time job on top of my full time job at a maximum security mental hospital. My boss at work, a nurse, had a brother who owned a lake, and he needed someone to take care of general maintenance and help out guests and such. Well to try to me out, they had me stay there one weekend, in my own cabin, with just one guest on the lake, and he was in a cabin down the hill. Well, I found out during the course of this weekend that the nurse and her brother were in the KKK and this man staying at the lake had paid them to be able to hunt him a real life queer at the lake. So he kept harassing me and threatening me and coming to my cabin at night with his guns and even one time chased me down the pier and I had to jump into the lake fully clothed, wallet, shoes, jeans, and all, swimming as deep as I could and moving side to side and spinning underwater because this psycho man was shooting bullets at me! I felt like I was in a movie, and I thankfully didn't get hit but several bullets whizzed by me underwater, and I held my breath and swam clear across the lake underwater and only came up when I had to because I had no breath left, and I had to spend the entire night hiding among the lilypads with my head barely sticking out of the water, for fear that he might see me, even though I was across the lake and there wasn't enough moonlight for him to see me from that far away. I was freezing and sick by the next morning, not to mention having a nervous breakdown after being hunted. My brother and his fiance' got me a lawyer and we were advised by him not to pursue it or they would murder us all. The nurse even admitted to the setup at work the next week, and was surprised that I had shown back up, because she figured I'd have been bagged by the hunter.

I have been on disability for several years now, primarily for bipolar disorder, but also from back and neck injuries sustained from being hit by a drunk driver on new year's eve several years ago. I barely make enough to cover my bills and to buy food to eat, and there is never anything left over, and often there isn't enough, leaving me having to beg for money from friends or family members, who often don't have it and can't give anything. I have been stuck at home for years because I cannot even afford gas to go out in town unless I have to go to the doctor, grocery store, drug store, etc. I do not even want to think about trying to meet a person for a relationship because I feel like I have nothing to offer someone when I can barely take care of myself. Sometimes the despair makes me just want to lie in bed and never get up or swallow a bottle of pills so it will all be over. Living a lonely solitary life is killing me. I have a college degree in psychology and have worked my entire adult life trying to help adults, teenagers, and children to have better lives for themselves, and now I am stuck in the boat where many of them have been, where I feel like there's no hope. I had a lot of problems working also because I live in the southern US where not only racism is rampant (though I'm white), but they also treat people like me the same as they do blacks, and by that I mean people who are bisexual, or open-minded, or who people assume to be gay. I have been fired from jobs, harassed, threatened, passed over for jobs, etc., to the point that years ago I got sick of even trying to work in such a hostile environment when all I ever did was accept everyone and try to help anyone in need. I could never fathom why everybody hated me so much just from general assumptions that I "might" be gay, having never told anyone anything, though I have had relationships with men and women. People here are so anti-gay that it is downright dangerous to make yourself known. They will create vicious lies and rumors to try to destroy your life, will not hire you for jobs, will fire you, threaten and harass you. Further, ever since I was a young boy, I have also been physically abused because of this. White trash rednecks love to do this, and it has been done to me many times-they will kidnap you, drag you off into the woods, tie you to a tree or down in the back of a truck or string you up between two trees, or even act like they're going to hang you, and then they gang rape you, and then they threaten to kill you and your family if you ever tell on them. And you can't go to the police because they're usually there raping you too. I've had to call in the FBI on them several times, and the National Guard has even had to show its presence in our town before because these vigilante KKK rednecks are so threatening towards anybody who isn't a redneck. They think there's only 2 kinds of people, rednecks and queers. Or whites and blacks. I'm white but they label me a queer, and to them, that's just as bad as being black. So therefore, they beat me and rape me. My mother taught me at a young age to play dead, and I had to do it several times growing up. I also had to play like Brer Rabbit and tell them to please not leave me in the woods or I might die, but it's what I wanted because I was a boy scout and I knew I could survive if they'd just leave me alone and let me live. They even had a hand in killing my mother many years ago, and they also kill anyone who gets close to trying to expose them. You learn to stay away from them and to keep your mouth shut and maybe they'll let you live and find somebody else to rape and abuse. By the way, I'm in southern Alabama, in Washington County, and in surrounding counties it's the same. Besides wanting to be able to have a decent life, I want to get out of this area and be free for the first time in my life. Even while in college and working as an adult, I've encountered more redneck KKK vigilantes, both male and female, always hellbent on killing queers, as they say it. I want to be able to afford to move somewhere else, preferably to Florida or to California, to a place where nobody knows me and maybe I can hide out and start over, and also where people are more accepting of people who choose to not be a redneck. I am tired of being hated for being a perfectly normal human being. I know from college that we are all bisexual creatures and that there is nothing wrong with me. Hell, these rednecks are raping young boys, so they're the queers and child molesters, so why the hell would they be threatening me? The answer is because they want to be free to rape and molest whoever they want and they always get away with it, because this area is full of corrupt police and sheriffs and politicians and wealthy townfolk who can get away with murder repeatedly. I just want out, so please help me to be able to move to a safer environment so that I might live a decent and normal life one day, and so I might also can bring myself out of depression and learn to walk in the sun again and hopefully also find love like I want and not be afraid to feel and express my emotions. I cannot believe that in 2012 they have such control over everyone in the redneck south to the point that people are afraid to live normal lives. And yes, every single word of this is true, so please help. At the rate I'm going, I'll never be able to afford to move elsewhere and to get away from this hellhole called southern Alabama. Even in the last several years, I was near our local river at the boat landing parking lot talking to a friend when the police showed up and started to harass us and called us queers for being two men talking in a parking lot. He then made us stay there and called two friends of his to come there, and while the policeman held a gun on us, they raped me and made me give the two redneck men blow jobs and kept slamming the truck door on my head and punching and kicking me. I did successfully get that policeman moved to another town after I went to the hospital after I was raped, but he wasn't fired. The other two men were never tried for their crimes, but someone did end up murdering one of them. This place is awful, you just have no idea. Another incident I'll tell you about before I end this is one weekend I was working a new part time job on top of my full time job at a maximum security mental hospital. My boss at work, a nurse, had a brother who owned a lake, and he needed someone to take care of general maintenance and help out guests and such. Well to try to me out, they had me stay there one weekend, in my own cabin, with just one guest on the lake, and he was in a cabin down the hill. Well, I found out during the course of this weekend that the nurse and her brother were in the KKK and this man staying at the lake had paid them to be able to hunt him a real life queer at the lake. So he kept harassing me and threatening me and coming to my cabin at night with his guns and even one time chased me down the pier and I had to jump into the lake fully clothed, wallet, shoes, jeans, and all, swimming as deep as I could and moving side to side and spinning underwater because this psycho man was shooting bullets at me! I felt like I was in a movie, and I thankfully didn't get hit but several bullets whizzed by me underwater, and I held my breath and swam clear across the lake underwater and only came up when I had to because I had no breath left, and I had to spend the entire night hiding among the lilypads with my head barely sticking out of the water, for fear that he might see me, even though I was across the lake and there wasn't enough moonlight for him to see me from that far away. I was freezing and sick by the next morning, not to mention having a nervous breakdown after being hunted. My brother and his fiance' got me a lawyer and we were advised by him not to pursue it or they would murder us all. The nurse even admitted to the setup at work the next week, and was surprised that I had shown back up, because she figured I'd have been bagged by the hunter.

I have been on disability for several years now, primarily for bipolar disorder, but also from back and neck injuries sustained from being hit by a drunk driver on new year's eve several years ago. I barely make enough to cover my bills and to buy food to eat, and there is never anything left over, and often there isn't enough, leaving me having to beg for money from friends or family members, who often don't have it and can't give anything. I have been stuck at home for years because I cannot even afford gas to go out in town unless I have to go to the doctor, grocery store, drug store, etc. I do not even want to think about trying to meet a person for a relationship because I feel like I have nothing to offer someone when I can barely take care of myself. Sometimes the despair makes me just want to lie in bed and never get up or swallow a bottle of pills so it will all be over. Living a lonely solitary life is killing me. I have a college degree in psychology and have worked my entire adult life trying to help adults, teenagers, and children to have better lives for themselves, and now I am stuck in the boat where many of them have been, where I feel like there's no hope. I had a lot of problems working also because I live in the southern US where not only racism is rampant (though I'm white), but they also treat people like me the same as they do blacks, and by that I mean people who are bisexual, or open-minded, or who people assume to be gay. I have been fired from jobs, harassed, threatened, passed over for jobs, etc., to the point that years ago I got sick of even trying to work in such a hostile environment when all I ever did was accept everyone and try to help anyone in need. I could never fathom why everybody hated me so much just from general assumptions that I "might" be gay, having never told anyone anything, though I have had relationships with men and women. People here are so anti-gay that it is downright dangerous to make yourself known. They will create vicious lies and rumors to try to destroy your life, will not hire you for jobs, will fire you, threaten and harass you. Further, ever since I was a young boy, I have also been physically abused because of this. White trash rednecks love to do this, and it has been done to me many times-they will kidnap you, drag you off into the woods, tie you to a tree or down in the back of a truck or string you up between two trees, or even act like they're going to hang you, and then they gang rape you, and then they threaten to kill you and your family if you ever tell on them. And you can't go to the police because they're usually there raping you too. I've had to call in the FBI on them several times, and the National Guard has even had to show its presence in our town before because these vigilante KKK rednecks are so threatening towards anybody who isn't a redneck. They think there's only 2 kinds of people, rednecks and queers. Or whites and blacks. I'm white but they label me a queer, and to them, that's just as bad as being black. So therefore, they beat me and rape me. My mother taught me at a young age to play dead, and I had to do it several times growing up. I also had to play like Brer Rabbit and tell them to please not leave me in the woods or I might die, but it's what I wanted because I was a boy scout and I knew I could survive if they'd just leave me alone and let me live. They even had a hand in killing my mother many years ago, and they also kill anyone who gets close to trying to expose them. You learn to stay away from them and to keep your mouth shut and maybe they'll let you live and find somebody else to rape and abuse. By the way, I'm in southern Alabama, in Washington County, and in surrounding counties it's the same. Besides wanting to be able to have a decent life, I want to get out of this area and be free for the first time in my life. Even while in college and working as an adult, I've encountered more redneck KKK vigilantes, both male and female, always hellbent on killing queers, as they say it. I want to be able to afford to move somewhere else, preferably to Florida or to California, to a place where nobody knows me and maybe I can hide out and start over, and also where people are more accepting of people who choose to not be a redneck. I am tired of being hated for being a perfectly normal human being. I know from college that we are all bisexual creatures and that there is nothing wrong with me. Hell, these rednecks are raping young boys, so they're the queers and child molesters, so why the hell would they be threatening me? The answer is because they want to be free to rape and molest whoever they want and they always get away with it, because this area is full of corrupt police and sheriffs and politicians and wealthy townfolk who can get away with murder repeatedly. I just want out, so please help me to be able to move to a safer environment so that I might live a decent and normal life one day, and so I might also can bring myself out of depression and learn to walk in the sun again and hopefully also find love like I want and not be afraid to feel and express my emotions. I cannot believe that in 2012 they have such control over everyone in the redneck south to the point that people are afraid to live normal lives. And yes, every single word of this is true, so please help. At the rate I'm going, I'll never be able to afford to move elsewhere and to get away from this hellhole called southern Alabama. Even in the last several years, I was near our local river at the boat landing parking lot talking to a friend when the police showed up and started to harass us and called us queers for being two men talking in a parking lot. He then made us stay there and called two friends of his to come there, and while the policeman held a gun on us, they raped me and made me give the two redneck men blow jobs and kept slamming the truck door on my head and punching and kicking me. I did successfully get that policeman moved to another town after I went to the hospital after I was raped, but he wasn't fired. The other two men were never tried for their crimes, but someone did end up murdering one of them. This place is awful, you just have no idea. Another incident I'll tell you about before I end this is one weekend I was working a new part time job on top of my full time job at a maximum security mental hospital. My boss at work, a nurse, had a brother who owned a lake, and he needed someone to take care of general maintenance and help out guests and such. Well to try to me out, they had me stay there one weekend, in my own cabin, with just one guest on the lake, and he was in a cabin down the hill. Well, I found out during the course of this weekend that the nurse and her brother were in the KKK and this man staying at the lake had paid them to be able to hunt him a real life queer at the lake. So he kept harassing me and threatening me and coming to my cabin at night with his guns and even one time chased me down the pier and I had to jump into the lake fully clothed, wallet, shoes, jeans, and all, swimming as deep as I could and moving side to side and spinning underwater because this psycho man was shooting bullets at me! I felt like I was in a movie, and I thankfully didn't get hit but several bullets whizzed by me underwater, and I held my breath and swam clear across the lake underwater and only came up when I had to because I had no breath left, and I had to spend the entire night hiding among the lilypads with my head barely sticking out of the water, for fear that he might see me, even though I was across the lake and there wasn't enough moonlight for him to see me from that far away. I was freezing and sick by the next morning, not to mention having a nervous breakdown after being hunted. My brother and his fiance' got me a lawyer and we were advised by him not to pursue it or they would murder us all. The nurse even admitted to the setup at work the next week, and was surprised that I had shown back up, because she figured I'd have been bagged by the hunter.