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My family is on our way out of our apartment. My boyfriend has been unemployed for 2 years, depleted his unemployment account, and I now work 7 days a week and still only get 30 hours in. We are making no money, have 3 kids, one of which has a 9th birthday this month with no chance of getting a present. My bills are going unpaid which means eventually the electricity will be shut off as well as internet and then of course the rent. If someone out there in my area would just hire my boyfriend real soon we might stand a chance. I don't want to be on the streets with my kids and pets. I am just asking for temporary help or a job for my boyfriend. No one in my family has drug or alcohol issues. We are good people experiencing a streak of bad luck. I am exhausted from trying everything only to be rejected every time. But I will NOT give up. I do not have a PayPal account and do not know how this works but would love the help. Thank you.

Im searching for anyone who can help my disabled brother Doug Ramos who has been homeless for a year now. He's sold about everything he owned except for his van that he lives in, so he has nothing else to work with to get money to help himself. Im very saddened & stressed out over his situation & I can only do so much because I dont have any income, since Im disabled myself & am waiting on an approval for my SSI & Disability case. So I just came across this website & posted this to hopefully get him some help with money or shelter. My family has done all we can and unfortunetely my dad is still having to work 7 days a week because he cant afford to retire and he doesnt even have enough $ to pay all his bills, so he cant help Doug except for paying for his cell phone & my mom is totally crazy & Doug just finally broke all ties with her which is a blessing. If & when I get my SSI & Disability then I can help my brother more but in the mean time he needs all the help he can get. He bounced out of the back of a moving truck going 85 mph and he received a settlement, since he was badly injured mentally & physically. However, sadly it was stolen from him. He has been struggling to survive and is waiting to get disability as well. He's now staying in his van in Manteca, Calif, so if anyone nearby can help him with a place to stay or feed him that would be awesome & we would appreciate it immensely!!! Doug is a very decent & honest Christian man who has never been on drugs & doesnt even drink alcohol, which Im very proud of!!! If you can help him with donations or a place to stay call me (Tammy Ramos) at (209)481-4792 I live near where he's staying & so it wont be a problem taking any donations to him.I dont have a pay pal acct. but will set one up if necessary.I will also accept donations by mail with checks made out to Doug Ramos so call me & I will give you my address. Thank you & May God Bless You All!!!!!!!!!

I don't really know where to start without it sounding somewhat chat show like. I have no family as such none of whom actually talk with me. My grandparents pretty much raised me. My mother and both brothers left at a young age. Dad was an alcoholic due to his own loss and dealing with his own personal issues..a good man betrayed I guess. Either way I ended up living in hostels from the age of 12.. friends floors etc met a guy fell in''love'' or so I thought he was a drinker also I ended up pregnant alone and had a beautiful child who's now 10. I lost my world yet gained my own new world like we all do. Its been tough. Anyway I've had severe eating disorders from being a child which has been undealt with I need help' I'm in severe debts I'm struggling like crazy and my whole world is collapsing. I have noone. We are getting evicted in june we have food parcels kindly offered to us by the salvation army but we can't have anymore they've stopped all of our benefits which is going to an appeal also at the end of june. I can't get any kind of loan. And I cannot work due to mental health and very bad scholiosis. My son has been my rock throughout all of this I'm not a parasite on the community nor do I wish to be one I just need someone to offer me the opportunity to start laying down some kind of solid foundation to help become the person we all deserve to be. Please consider taking my hand for guidence? +e appreciate you taking you time to read this plea and also kindly wish any good karma from this back towards you good people or person three fold xxx

I am the custodial parent of 3 children, a daughter that's 17, and 2 boys, 14 and 9. I have been divorced for 3yrs. now, tending to the everyday needs, for my children and their school activities. My ex-wife had turned diabetic, from giving birth to the children and had fallen into a severe case of post-pardon depression, due to the diabetic condition that had worsened as the children were born, which turned her to alcohol. As most of us know, alcohol and diabetes do not mix, at first I was unaware, of how severe this can be, but as time progressed, we could see the roller-coaster personality shine through. After hearing from others about the way some things were being handled by her, such as pinning them down on the ground, to brush their teeth, or ripping a brush through my daughters hair in the morning before school, I needed to do something about it. This was hard to see at first, since I was at work everyday on a 45-50hr. work week. One particular event, that has been a soar spot with my daughter, was a few days before Christmas, when she was helping decorate the tree and had started to put the tinsel on before the ornaments. Her mom, was into about her 2nd drink, which had brought her sugar-level up, started screaming at her about putting the ornaments on first, and just about ripped her arms off, tearing the tinsel out of her hands!!! Last year, was the first year, after spending many hours with her, that she was brave enough to help decorate the tree.

My oldest son, now 14, has had some very bad experiences, that had put so much stress on him that he started pulling his hair out, until he was completely bald on top of his head !!! The stress was caused by being constantly screamed at for things, that he was even doing. The last thing that really broke the camels back was, when he was trying to restrain his mother during a delirious diabetic overload of sugar, which had skyrocketed, to over 600. She began kicking him, until she kicked him right down the steps and he had to come back up and body slam her down on the floor, we all saw the UGLIER side of diabetes that night !!!!! The E.R. was called in and they strapped her down on a stretcher, deemed her delusional, then rushed her off to the hospital. Their mother decided after that happened, that it would be a good idea to leave the family and doesn't have much contact with her children. I've spent a lot of time with them, working through some of the traumatic episodes, that they encountered and have lost a lot of time for employment. Now that I have been unemployed for quite sometime and being a man in this position, getting assistance or help is almost impossible. I get the feeling that men with children are discriminated, there are no programs in place by the government for men with children. I am now up against all odds, the roof on our house needs to be shingled, every time it rains we see piles of gravel on the ground and my vehicle is on it's last leg. The utilities are always in shut off status and I'm now falling into foreclosure, due to being behind on the house payments for heavens sake, let alone the kids being sick from time to time, because of the old and deteriorating carpet in our house, so I'm being told by the doctors.

PLEASE HELP ME SOMEBODY, I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO OR WHERE TO GET THE
MONEY TO MAKE THE LIVES OF MY CHILDREN ANY BETTER !!!

I need help, I cannot afford the medication I need. I work full time but my insuranse won't cover it. I live pay check to pay check. I won't die without it, I will just suffer. I do some charity work myself, but now I need the help. I'm a recovering alcoholic all I have is my shity apartment and my 2 cats, witch I'am desperately trying to keep. I need 158.00 for a 3 month supply of meds. I just can't do it. Thanks 4 looking even if you don't or can't help its more than most ppl do.

my mom has many racked up credit cards from when she was with my dad that he ran up he was an alcoholic and did it right before they split up now the credit cards are coming after her and she barley makes minimum wage trying to support me and they are going to start garnishing wages 200 dollars a week from her check so we wont be able to buy food i dont wanna see her struggle please help me please.

my mom has many racked up credit cards from when she was with my dad that he ran up he was an alcoholic and did it right before they split up now the credit cards are coming after her and she barley makes minimum wage trying to support me and they are going to start garnishing wages 200 dollars a week from her check so we wont be able to buy food i dont wanna see her struggle please help me please.

Hi, I'm Brittany, and I'd like to describe an unfortunate event that has recently befallen me.

Four months ago, during the holiday season I received a call from my mom who was facing some rather emotionally tumultuous times. She related to me that she felt like she just could not endure her life any longer and was considering ending it.

I was personally extremely concerned, as I have always highly valued and admired her. At her request, I quickly forsook all my current ambitions to come to her aid. I moved into her apartment with her and tried to soothe her with my company, and also advised her about healthy lifestyle choices that could help balance out her severe depression and alcoholism. I got a job and began helping her pay her bills when her boyfriend showed up. His first words to me were literally "I'm marrying your mother" not long after he began to command my mom to kick me out.

After many attempts to assure them I would surely save money to get my own apartment, I bought a truck to get worked on and began to save money for an apartment. At first I considered moving to stay with other family members, but eventually decided to stay in Sarasota and get my own apartment.

Without giving me any notice to find another place to live, my new "step father" stated that I would no longer be welcome there, although they knew I had no other options or any money to get an apartment.

They then went to a judge and filed a Marchment act to have me involuntarily placed in a detox facility where I was released under forty-eight hours later with negative results for all substances, including alcohol.

Now I am left on the streets with nowhere to go.

What I am asking of anyone who reads this, please assist me with any kind of resources that you know of, such as live-in maid employment, rooms for rent, a place to stay until I save money for an apartment or anything that will help me be independent again.

Just got out of a 3 year codependent relationship where alcohol was chosen over me when it came down to it.

I'm withdrawing from my addictions to alcohol and cigarette (two months and 3 weeks tomorrow!), and I have most of what I need.

My problem is that I came to Portland Oregon with a guitar that within a few days was broken and stolen in an act of betrayal.

It's been my dream to move to a city and make music for a long time, but this has been put on hold, and now it is harder to make money, and I can't work a conventional job right now because of my withdrawals.

Can you help me out? Anything would be good.

I have a son is very talented. He had been accepted to a great recording arts program but I'm afraid I'm gonna crush him when I tell him I can't afford it. I work 26 days a month but still live paycheck to paycheck even though we don't waste money. My ex-husband was an alcoholic so I left with 6 suitcases and never looked back. I had to start over with nothing but I have worked hard and never accepted any type of government assistance. It has been a hard 8 years but I am now swallowing my pride and begging that someone would help me get my son to college. He has never been in trouble and every teacher he has ever had has always says he is polite and works hard. We come from a small rural town and he would be the first in my entire family to attend a university. He even volunteers for several charity events every year. He is so deserving of this chance to live his dream so please help. Thank you for any consideration. Even small donations add up.

Hi all,
Like most twenty-something's in this day and age, I have credit card debt. Oh yes. You wouldn't have guessed it. And like most twenty-something year olds, I'm working full-time slogging my guts out for the little pay that makes being a bin man look worth it. They get paid more. Trust me, I've tried. They have an entrance exam for the local council. As daft as that sounds, I'm not joking.
I got done over by my ex who decided a "system" for roulette was a sure-fire way to make money had more alcohol in his veins than blood. Ditching the sucker was the best half hour conversation I've ever had with anyone in my life.
I moved back in with the parents, wished I'd never left, seriously regretted the tattoos and trying to get on with life but with this debt hanging around my neck like a noose, its exceedingly difficult to do anything else other than worry about the swinging axe over my head.
In the long run, I want to finish my part-time university course and move out of the house - hopefully near a white chocolate ski-slope but I'm not hopeful.
If any of you kind souls wish to help, I'm looking to pay off a chunk of the debt of £10,000. I'm trying every which was possible to save money and at the moment, 80% of my wage each month goes toward getting rid of this weight on my shoulders. 20% goes on Asda Price food stuffs like baked beans, cheap bread made of brick dust and cheese (or at least it resembles cheese).

Please help, it would seriously mean the world to me.

Hello, my name is Racheal. I am a sophomore in college studying theater arts. I want to help my dad save our house. Its facing foreclosure and we have no where to go. My mother is an alcoholic and lives in a 2 bedroom apartment with four other people. My dad was a victim of fraud and entered into a bad loan with country wide. I have two jobs and am a student, I have tried to help but it doesn't seem to do much. I am hoping that when you read this you are willing to give a donation, any amount helps and I will work in exchange for it if you would like. Thank you for time stranger.

I am the proud mother of 4 wonderful boys who is drowning in debt and is in danger of loosing the family home.
I work full time for a large Australian company and spend all my free time with my family.
Everyday at work I deal with people that are homeless and have drug & alcohol addictions, so I do know there are people worse off that me.
I just need some help to pay my debts and to secure the roof over my familys heads.
I appreciate any help you can give

Thank You

I know you don’t know me and have no reason to read this but I hope that you do. I am need of your help. I am 23 and in some dire straits.
About 7 months ago I lost my job. I used all my savings to try to keep my house but I lost that to. I am currently living in my car and to be honest I am not sure how much longer I will be able to keep that because I am behind two payments. I am NOT in this spot because I am a drug user or alcoholic. I might mention that I don’t drink use drugs or any sort of tobacco product at all. I’m just a girl who is down on her luck.
I have big plans for myself. I applied at one of the oldest Veterinary Technician schools in the country in Denver Colorado and I got accepted. The letter of acceptance came with great joy but also that of worry. I do not know how I am going to pay for school or even where I will get my next meal.
I know that I am capable of great things; I just need some help getting there. Even the smallest amount will be a great help to me. I thank you for giving me a moment of your time. I hope you can help me, THANK YOU!

Hi! I am currently a single mother of 2 preschool children. I left their father after 5 years of abuse. He was an alcoholic and had become addicted to meth. He signed our children away to his mother. My children were returned to me and I left state to be with my family. My family was unable to help me and sent me to a 3rd state shelter. That shelter was unable to help me due to such extreme needs. My 2 year old has special needs such as celiac disease, hearing impairment, developmental delays, and possible down syndrome. This adds to my stress greatly. I am currently attending school for my Bachelors in Science in Information Technology with a concentration Network Management. I am trying to get on my feet and keep getting knocked down. I need a car, home, and job. If you know of any city or town that would be able to help me get on my feet, please post here.

Ok just to start I would like to say that I don't have a sibling with a cripling degenerate disease, or lost my parents in a freak skiing accident (both are living happily in France)and I am not trying to send a football team of disadvantaged kids to an unbelievably expensive disney themed resort.
All these are worthy of donations and if I were able to I would donate to them myself, however I am not and have instead found myself having to sign up to a web site basically begging for kind strangers to donate, even the smallest of change, to be able to turn my life back around.

I won't bore you with the details of my long struggles as im sure we have all been there at some point (long and drawn out 'woe-is-me' emails written on request) however, what i will say is that after throwing myself into the world of work at 16 I gained as much life experience and qualifications as I possibly could and worked my little toosh off all the way.
After educating myself as a Photographer and Lithographer throught the RAF (leaving to get married and have a child) I then went on to realise that living with an alcoholic was not so good 4 either my baby or I, so took the brave steps to leave.
I then put myself thought an apprentiship as a mechanic and loved it! However I found it very difficult to spend quality time with my child during the holidays so managed to get a job in a school, which was perfect, then when an abusive relationship led 2 my son and I becoming homeless I had to do what was best for my child and let him go to live with his reformed dad 200 miles away :(
I then went back to what I love, mechanics, as I tried to get my life back on track however work has dried up and just after xmas I was laid off so here I sit as a single 30 yr old with qualifications galore, unemployed!
Ok depressing prologue over and i will cut straight to it.
I am now trying to make a future that will make my life and my contact with my son (every third weekend and all holidays) easier, I am trying to re train as a mechanics teacher, however the hurdle I have come accross (I really should apply to the olympics with all this hurdle trainging I've had) is that the course is going to cost £6,000 and I will only get help towards half, now this is a little bit of an issue as I dont know anyone that could manage to find £3000 in change down the side of their sofa, so I am apllying to the masses, I am just asking for a whole lot of people to donate just a little bit so I could get sorted please.
I may not be the most in need and I may not have a heart wrenching story but I am honest and I am a nice person who is sick of those that dont have any morals always coming out on top, just for once I'd like the good person to win (more specifically me really lol) so if you could spare anything I would truly be so very grateful :) Thank you if you made it this far :) xx

Ok just to start I would like to say that I don't have a sibling with a cripling degenerate disease, or lost my parents in a freak skiing accident (both are living happily in France)and I am not trying to send a football team of disadvantaged kids to an unbelievably expensive disney themed resort.
All these are worthy of donations and if I were able to I would donate to them myself, however I am not and have instead found myself, after a very long series of misfortunate events (mainly starting with stupidly marrying an alcoholic, thank heavens for divorce), having to sign up to a web site basically begging for kind strangers to donate, even the smallest of change, to be able to turn my life back around.

I won't bore you with the details of my long struggles as im sure we have all been there at some point (long and drawn out 'woe-is-me' emails written on request) however, what i will say is that after throwing myself into the world of work at 16 I gained as much life experience and qualifications as I possibly could and worked my little toosh off all the way.
I come from a family of workers and it is in my blood, however, after educating myself as a Photographer and Lithographer throught the RAF (leaving to get married and have a child) I then went on to realise that living with an alcoholic was not so good 4 either my baby or I, so took the brave steps to leave.
Setting myself and my child up on our own, I then went and re trained putting myself through an apprentiship as a mechanic and loved it! However I found it very difficult to spend quality time with my child during the holidays so managed to get a job in a school, which was perfect, then when an abusive relationship led 2 my son and I becoming homeless I had to do what was best for my child (and most definately not best for me)I let him go to live with his reformed dad 200 miles away :(
I then went back to what I love, mechanics, as I tried to get my life back on track however work has dried up and just after xmas I was laid off so here I sit as a single 30 yr old with qualifications galore, unemployed!
Ok depressing prologue over and i will cut straight to it.
I am now trying to make a future that will make my life and my contact with my son (every third weekend and all holidays) easier, I am trying to re train as a mechanics teacher, however the hurdle I have come accross (I really should apply to the olympics with all this hurdle trainging I've had) is that the course is going to cost £6,000 and I will only get help towards half, now this is a little bit of an issue as I dont know anyone that could manage to find £3000 in change down the side of their sofa, so I am apllying to the masses, I am just asking for a whole lot of people to donate just a little bit so I could get sorted please.
I may not be the most in need and I may not have a heart wrenching story but I am honest and I am a nice person who is sick of those that dont have any morals always coming out on top, just for once I'd like the good person to win (more specifically me really lol) so if you could spare anything I would truly be so very grateful :) Thank you if you made it this far :) xx

Can maybe get Social Security in 5 months but need help living till then.
Dire Straits. noun. a bad or difficult situation or state of affairs, (not just the name of a band).
Up front, I take full responsibility for my current condition/situation, no other person place or thing is responsible for bad decisions I have made. And I have made quite a few.
That being stated, here are the facts;
Currently living in a car(read that homeless).
Unemployed, not unemployable but a very poor job history.
Stuck in a place where the weather is nice, but I really do not want to be here.
So if you have guessed that this is a plee for help, you are correct.
How did I get here? Years of practice.
I recently spoke with a professional, not in his professional settings, but of subjet matter that is discussed in his professional settings.
After some communications between us his opinion is that quite probably I am suffering from PTSD (Post Tramatic Stress Disorder). Something I aquired at the age of 17. 45 years ago I was involved in an automobile accident that resulted in both deaths, yes plural, and permanent disability to persons other than myself. Although due to circumstances beyond my control I was never charged with any crime, and there are no wants or warrants now, I believe the accident was my fault. I am willing to discuss the details in private as posting them on the internet could possibly bring painful memories to any living family members involved.
So for 45 years I have practiced the symptoms of PTSD so well that I have slipped through undetected. Probably in part due to the fact that although I am of the typical age of a Vietnam Vet, I never served in that arena, as I ran away from home just after the accident, because I was afraid of going to jail, that any draft papers never caught up with me. I was not afraid of going to jail because of being locked behind bars, I was afraid of suffering more sexual abuse at the hands of older inmates like I had already received from my sick alcoholic father.
So not being a vet and not discussing the accident no one ever considered PTSD, and they now know that severe trama of any sort can cause it, not just the theatre of the battlefield. Couple that to me not staying in one spot long enough for anyone to really know me. I have been successfully hiding in my head. As long as I don't get too close too intimate it won't hurt when I run away and lose you.
Severe trama it is now believed to stunt emotional growth. If the trama is severe enough emotional growth can in fact be locked in to the time of the tramatic event. So imagine being a teenager in a 61 year old body, thats me. Married 4 times afraid to have children. I heard on a radio talk show when I was very young that "The sins of the fathers where passed to their offsprings" and made a decision to never have children because no way was I going to do what was done to me to some helpless trusting child. This is one of the few things that I have been successful at.
The professional says I must discuss these matters, that is part of the healing process. So I am jumping in off the deep end, going online with my story in hopes that it will benefit myself and any other poor sod that happens to be in a similar situation.
Yes I am asking for help, financial help. Here with the help of the professional is what I am thinking, If I can find a few thousand lucky individuals that are housed and employed to give one dollar then I can purchase a used motorhome, put it in an inexpensive rv park so that I can have a base of operations from which to take showers on a daily basis, eat hot food and have an address to put on job applications. I could find some form of professional assistance either city/state/federal to deal with the PTSD for the long term.
There is help available.
And just to ease the voices in your head, I have not had a drink of alcohol or any hard drugs since 1982. I have used marijuana on a irregular basis off and on my whole life, I'll see what the PTSD treatment brings regarding that issue.
Honesty, what a concept.
Well if you have read this far, please, if you can afford it, click the paypal button and just one dollar is all I ask.
Thank You,
Joe

I've been off work since Oct 2011 and will return next weekend because of severe complications (infections and open wound) following a hysterectomy. I've finally healed, but because of how the pay periods fall I will not receive a whole paycheck until 3/16/12. This will only give me about half of my $800 rent for March.

I've exhausted all my family and friend resources. There is no rental assistance in my county any longer until the renter has a court-ordered eviction notice in hand. That usually takes 60 days. By then I will have worked enough to have caught up.

I have plenty of food, some food stamps and (fortunately) cheap public transportation.

I got this apartment through the kindness of my landlord - my credit is bad - and I know that she struggles to make ends meet too.

I don't know what I might be able to do for people here once I get back to work again, but I will be back, and do what I can.

About me: Single, never married, childless, recovering alcoholic (9 years), I work as a residential assistant in a group home (9 years).

Any help is greatly appreciated.

Hey guys,
I know that by the title, I might sound like a stereotypical student who wastes a ton of money on alcohol and didn't save anything up ready for this problem. I worked all summer in preparation for uni and managed to save a fair amount which I have been using to live on for the past few months. As that money is nearly gone, I have found rather a big issue when looking for a house for next year.

After I was given my loan from Student Finance, I found that most of that money paid off my accommodation for this year with only a very little towards my actual food and living money. My mum is a single parent since my dad died when I was 11 (Nope, I'm not going for the sympathy vote, no worries, just want you to know the full picture!) and she can barely send me money as it is and I don't like to ask her as she has to support my brother already.
I've now found out I need to put down a £360 deposit on a house that I do not have and do not know how I will get it. The money needs to be paid in May and whilst I have sent out a ton of CVs, there seems to be nothing. I'd do anything for a job but as I cannot find one and I do not want to ask my mum for even more money, I'd love it if you could donate, even just a little bit, so I do not end up homeless come September. I know it's a lot of money to ask for but anything would honestly help me out and I would thank you for every single penny.
Hope you can help :) Hana

Hi I am a student studying fulltime at college working towards a degree in admin/office tech, currently I live with my partner in a local authority rented flat. The government decided that £3995 was how much our household was entitled to claim and that was mostly a student loan and small bursary. We have applied for many other grants and been refused. We are now in debt with our rent, gas and currently feel like we are both going hungry too much. The government are more than happy to pay for anything for you if you are a heroin addict or alcoholic or have 6 children but someone who wants to better themselves by studying to earn a living has very little help. Its no wonder the uk is in such a state with unemployment when people are encouraged to become mothers to get benefits and houses, or encouraged to be a junkie. PLEASE if anyone out there can help in any way please donate and help me to stay in education and get the career I deserve.

Recently, my 80 year old grandfather had become a victim of domestic violence/elder abuse. His bipolar, alcoholic wife of 22 years began abusing him. She has been criminally charged and is awaiting trial. In the mean time, she has filed for divorce and is asking for spousal support/alimony and much more. Being 80 years old, he is on a limited income and cannot afford a divorce attorney to represent him. He doesn't have much, but what he does have, he worked hard for and I don't feel that she is entitled to anything due to the abuse. Help me, help him. I am only looking for attorney fees, any amount received above that will be donated to veterans charities as they have done a lot for my grandfather. Any help would be greatly appreciated.

Hi,

Gosh, not really sure what to put here. Where to start. Ok, I made some really bad life choices as a teenager and ended up in a long term mentally abusive relationship and I've ended up with a pile of debt. My ex was an alcoholic who used to spend, pretty much any money he could get his hands on, on alcohol. And me being brainwashed/in love, used to give him money from my credit cards to buy him it. Along with two overdrafts which I ended up with to try and keep on top of our mortgage payments.

Eventually, I plucked up the courage to leave him. Granted it was 6 years later than it should have been. I ended up unable to work for 3 years due to major depression, which I'm still being treated for now, so bills mounted up. Alongside a reposession on our house.

I honestly have noone to blame but myself, and I'm not crying about it all anymore. Just trying to do my best to pay off my debt and make a fresh start.

I do have a new partner now, who is lovely, and a new full-time job. I dont earn loads, but I cover the bills and I pay my way. I'm just struggling to pay back the money I owed from the past. I pay what I can to it every month, but between interest and fines, its not making much of a difference.

I did have around £10,000 on various cards/loans/overdrafts to pay off, but I'm down to about £8,000 at the moment. So I'm not ignoring it, I do want it gone. But its taken me 4 years to pay back £2,000 and I just cant see a light at the end of the tunnel.

Anything anyone can give would be much appreciated. 1p - £1. It all adds up.

Even if you cant help me, I'm just grateful you have managed to read all of this. Feel a bit embarassed writing all this down, if I'm honest!

Thanks everyone, and good luck with lifes journey :)

Hello, my name is John, I am 52 yrs old partially disabled man who is at the end of my rope. Once upon a time I was pretty established yet psychiatric issues have plagued me my whole life. I have just completed another 20 day treatment which makes 4 this yr for major severe chronic depression and social phobias / anxiety along with suicidal thoughts and plans. I am a recovering alcoholic 24 yrs now and thats all I have left, being sober. Six yrs ago I was diagnosed with Lymes arthritis, a rare one along with fibro mialgia symptoms. It has now been diagnosed as Rheumatoid arthritis, my medications for meds alone are over 1.200.00 a month which the state is paying, but the ins will run out soon. The ins co will not pay for an operation I need on my back. I am in severe chronic pain, emotional, physical, mental, all day every day and I am close to my end. For the past 8 yrs I owned a small garden center, and I cannot afford to re open this spring for we had a terrible yr with 2 storms wiping us out and the economy. I owe vendors who are taking me to court, owe sales tax, and am just doomed it seems. Before I was a alcohol and drug couselor, and a good one at that and saved hundreds of lives. After 16 yrs I burned out and had a breakdown. I now live with my mother temp, I cannot find work and feel like such a burden and a loser. She is such a love, the only thing holding me back from harming myself is her. Four weeks ago, my 32 yr old nephew and my beloved dog passed away. I raised my nephew like my son and I have no children, I am grieving terribly. I have a very hard time asking for help much less begging or pand handling. Everything is crashing down on me and I am single, alone and suffering . I am a good man that some how didnt make it in life.Every day I fight depression and suicidal thoughts, I am sceduled for elctric shock therapy in 2 weeks for severe depression, have never known what it feels like not to be depressed. I look back when there were days I'd pay for a strangers meals, sponsored children and animals. Is it really true that nice guys end up last? Anything would help, thanks for listening.I have no money for a paypal account nor have a checking account, my number is 203-264-8907 Love and light,
John

A few years ago, I was a few thousand dollars in debt but it was a more manageable debt then, but a family friend got us into a pyramid scheme. Having been inexperienced and her having a business degree and owned a business herself, I trusted her and went along. I ended up maxing out my credit cards and my line of credit due to this scam/motivational organisation/juice company, and being pressured to stay in to "become successful". For the past 2 years I organised a tight budget, and have been steadily paying down the principle of my debt each month (with the exception of a month here and there). Problem is, I'm on disability income assistance and my husband works only part time, and have 2 children. The amount of time which will take me to pay it down to a reasonable amount will still in the long run cost me more thousands of dollars. I don't buy alcohol or cigarettes, makeup, jewellery, new clothing, or any extra luxury like that. I'm at my wit's end. I just need a boost to get my debt down and hopefully cut down the interest a bit as well.