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I have tried and tried I no longer know what to do. I received sun burns on both arms and had tried to protect us. I am going through major heat stroke and trying to care for my family. Please help! This is a broken down list of what I need help with.

$140.00 Rent
$ 67.67 Power
$ 61.50 Cell phone
$100.00 for laundry
$400.00 Personal care for 5 people/Can accept things in care package email for a list of things.
$150.00-$200.00 for fans
$200.00 for food would be awesome
$300.00 for my brothers food(renal diet)/ Can be sent in a care package (email for list of foods that are OK)

Even care packages sent by mail would be appreciated. I have a child who is turning 6 in a week and He knows I am trying my best but have nothing for him, I would like to change that with help.

I have 8 children all together and can admit that with pride.
2 from my first marriage, both boys teenagers 15-16.
5 from my late boyfriend, 3 girls 2 boys 12-6. Their dad died on May 23, 2007
1 from a friend, small male child 20 months.

I love all my kids but not all currently live with me due to finances right now. And yes I am going to pay the price for the emotional part that will effect them due to this economy and my having to send them away.
I try my hardest but I can not support them the way I used to and it breaks my heart.
I would have been out pan handling today but with heat stroke they want me to stay home and rest.

Please help as I am now physically exhausted and spiritually drained.

email for any questions you may have. angelswings2@yahoo.com
Melissa

I have tried and tried I no longer know what to do. I received sun burns on both arms and had tried to protect us. I am going through major heat stroke and trying to care for my family. Please help! This is a broken down list of what I need help with.

$140.00 Rent
$ 67.67 Power
$ 61.50 Cell phone
$100.00 for laundry
$400.00 Personal care for 5 people/Can accept things in care package email for a list of things.
$150.00-$200.00 for fans
$200.00 for food would be awesome
$300.00 for my brothers food(renal diet)/ Can be sent in a care package (email for list of foods that are OK)

Even care packages sent by mail would be appreciated. I have a child who is turning 6 in a week and He knows I am trying my best but have nothing for him, I would like to change that with help.

I have 8 children all together and can admit that with pride.
2 from my first marriage, both boys teenagers 15-16.
5 from my late boyfriend, 3 girls 2 boys 12-6. Their dad died on May 23, 2007
1 from a friend, small male child 20 months.

I love all my kids but not all currently live with me due to finances right now. And yes I am going to pay the price for the emotional part that will effect them due to this economy and my having to send them away.
I try my hardest but I can not support them the way I used to and it breaks my heart.
I would have been out pan handling today but with heat stroke they want me to stay home and rest.

Please help as I am now physically exhausted and spiritually drained.

email for any questions you may have. angelswings2@yahoo.com
Melissa

I come from a low class family with no way to pay for college. I have applied for fafsa and scholarships but as you know scholarships are not guaranteed and federal grants are continually getting smaller.

I love America and the smell of freedom and I want to help others in need, that's why I aspire to be a certified registered nurse anesthesiologist. I admit I am not the best student but I am hardworking and I promise your contribution to my education will not go to waste !!!

I ask for money to further my education even if it's a penny I am truly grateful for it ! I Thank You in advance and may you be blessed in return !

I have tried and tried I no longer know what to do. I received sun burns on both arms and had tried to protect us. I am going through major heat stroke and trying to care for my family. Please help! This is a broken down list of what I need help with.

$140.00 Rent
$ 67.67 Power
$ 61.50 Cell phone
$100.00 for laundry
$400.00 Personal care for 5 people/Can accept things in care package email for a list of things.
$150.00-$200.00 for fans
$200.00 for food would be awesome
$300.00 for my brothers food(renal diet)/ Can be sent in a care package (email for list of foods that are OK)

Even care packages sent by mail would be appreciated. I have a child who is turning 6 in a week and He knows I am trying my best but have nothing for him, I would like to change that with help.

I have 8 children all together and can admit that with pride.
2 from my first marriage, both boys teenagers 15-16.
5 from my late boyfriend, 3 girls 2 boys 12-6. Their dad died on May 23, 2007
1 from a friend, small male child 20 months.

I love all my kids but not all currently live with me due to finances right now. And yes I am going to pay the price for the emotional part that will effect them due to this economy and my having to send them away.
I try my hardest but I can not support them the way I used to and it breaks my heart.
I would have been out pan handling today but with heat stroke they want me to stay home and rest.

Please help as I am now physically exhausted and spiritually drained.

email for any questions you may have. angelswings2@yahoo.com
Melissa

Hello,
I am at the point of almost giving up. I admit that over the years I have always made sure every one had what they wanted and didn't look at priorities but I always paid my bills. I recently resigned from a great paying job so that I could be home with my family and help my kids out with babysitting. I admit that again I wasn't looking at priorities but again I am watching out for family. I have recently picked up 2 part time jobs and am also beginning to clean houses. I am in need of help right now so that I can help with a wedding and a new baby and also to help my brother keep his home. I know I have a bad credit score but I ALWAYS pay off what I owe just may be later than it should be causing a bad score but always pay it off. Because of this I can't get a personal loan. Please help me in any way you can. I PROMISE I will continue to help people every chance I get too. I have paid for peoples gas when I walked in to pay for mine and they didn't have enough money, I tip people well, I would like to ask for help in the way that I try to help others Please I am on my knees begging for help. any help will be appreciated and thank you and God Bless

I am a recent Volunteer At saint Joseph Hospice in Rawalpindi,Pakistan and a member of Pakistan Red Crescent Society.I am Regular Blood Donor For The last 1 year.The hospice is located in the heart of Westridge but my home is somewhat around 35 km away ,i admit that i belong to a middle class family but due to some family health problems i am now being told that we cannot afford your travel expenses which is 5000-6000 Pkr plus i have to got PCRS on several times a week.

There are only 3 three volunteers excluding me and we have to attend couple of depressed people (suicidal s) , handicapped and bed sores patients and at the play with some orphans as well ,total beds are about 60.Sisters are highly corporative and there staff as well but still being a 18 years old teenagers the fun is still better then the aged ones.
Please Please Please help (donate) me to be a better person and a great friend. donation of any number will be helpful but still if you have some questions regarding my activities please call me at 923085555940 .Paypal doesn't work in Pakistan but Western union or money gram are available in Pakistan.
You may also email me at Hamzaqaseem92@yahoo.com

I am a recent Volunteer At saint Joseph Hospice in Rawalpindi,Pakistan and a member of Pakistan Red Crescent Society.I am Regular Blood Donor For The last 1 year.The hospice is located in the heart of Westridge but my home is somewhat around 35 km away ,i admit that i belong to a middle class family but due to some family health problems i am now being told that we cannot afford your travel expenses which is 5000-6000 Pkr plus i have to got PCRS on several times a week.

There are only 3 three volunteers excluding me and we have to attend couple of depressed people (suicidal s) , handicapped and bed sores patients and at the play with some orphans as well ,total beds are about 60.Sisters are highly corporative and there staff as well but still being a 18 years old teenagers the fun is still better then the aged ones.
Please Please Please help (donate) me to be a better person and a great friend. donation of any number will be helpful but still if you have some questions regarding my activities please call me at 923085555940 .Paypal doesn't work in Pakistan but Western union or money gram are available in Pakistan.
You may also email me at Hamzaqaseem92@yahoo.com

I had a really good job about six months ago working as an independent contractor from home. I had a point in my work where things were going pretty well. I had saved up enough to take an extended vacation to spend time with all of my family members, since I was planning on going back to school this coming fall. I took a leave from work for a while thinking I could jump right back into it when I needed to. About a month ago I went back to my job to start saving up money so I could get back home. But everything had changed. Somehow I was spending more time than before but making a lot less money. I have about two weeks to get back home to get settled and prepare for school. I have things like travel expenses, rent and deposit on an apartment. Right now I am about $1,000 dollars short to make it happen. I would be asking my family for help but for me it is hard to admit failure since they are so proud of me for being successful in my work. I am absolutely not the type to beg for money but at this point I have exhausted all of my options and I know that if I can just get past this roadblock I can succeed. I am asking for your help in whatever way you can help me. I would even be willing to take a personal loan and pay you back because I know once I can get past this, money will not be a problem. I appreciate your time and consideration and hope that you can help me out in my time of need.

I've decided to try and get help through donations http://www.giveforward.com/unbreakmyheart and funding http://unbreakmyheart2011.blogspot.com/from outside sources since every doctor I've seen in 2 years agree that I need the leads to my ICD (defibrillator) replaced; but shuffle me back to the original doctor and wash their hands of me.

I'm raising funds for ICD replacement surgery, to go see a HOCM specialist (Dr. Craig Asher) at Cleveland Clinic in S. Florida and to have advanced testing through Vanderbilt Autonomic Center in Tennessee.

I don't want to admit I need help; I've always been a strong, independent person who took care of everything and everyone. In August 2009, my whole world changed. After my procedure, I applied for disability and was turned down twice and had to hire an attorney. I went from being "super" mom, wife & friend and care taker of an Autistic son to being the one who had to be taken care of.

So how did I get to the point I have to ask others for help? Shortly before Father's Day 2009, I fell and broke my foot. When it didn't heal, I went to my primary with a broken foot and came out with a broken heart. After the shock wore off from the doctor telling me that I was going to die if I didn't have valve surgery; I started asking questions.

I didn't quite believe him and thought he was over reacting when he told me I was going to die because I walked and ran 3-5 times weekly and even did strenuous yard work. I felt fine and have 4 children aged 9-26 and kept up with them and stayed very active in things they did; but I was a ticking time bomb just waiting for the right time for my heart to stop.

He sent me to several specialists who said I had nothing really wrong, just some mild valve problems associated with aging; which was a huge relief. Everything seemed normal except my EKG's; they showed I had a huge amount of PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) roughly 50,000 “extra” heartbeats daily.

My heart didn't really beat fully; it only quivered like a bowl of jello day in day out. The problem with it beating like this is, the heart becomes very ineffective at pumping and your cardiac output drops and heart muscle damage can occur.

The cardiologist and electrophysiologist I saw did extensive testing and recommended more testing in the hospital. I went in for a sleep study, Tilt table test and EP Study with Ablation. The sleep study revealed I had moderately severe sleep apnea and my oxygen goes from 99% down to 73% at night making it very dangerous for me when I sleep.

The tilt table test was the first inkling that something dangerous was going on inside. I fainted and had no palpable pulse; which is a very rare thing to happen. I was diagnosed with Dysautonomia - Neurocardiogenic Syncope and Orthostatic Intolerance.
I then had an ablation to burn the extra pathways in my heart and get rid of the pvc's I was living with daily. I was told this would be a relatively easy process and given a 95% success rate to get rid of the extra beats completely but it never crossed my mind that anything would happen.

What preliminary tests failed to show, is the pattern and origin of my arrhythmias were in a very dangerous spot to ablate - the RV Apex – in the bottom thin underside of the heart.

During the EP Study, I went into cardiac arrest and my heart stopped completely with no rhythm they could shock (Asystole), some how it started again for a few minutes but then stopped again. They were able to shock me back to normal sinus rhythm and luckily, the third time it stopped; it restarted on it's own so I didn't have to be shocked again.

I was diagnosed with Polymorphic Ventricular Tachycardia; a very dangerous, life threatening arrhythmia. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days trying to find a cause and to be prepped for an ICD (implantable cardiac defibrillator).

It took a cardiac catherization to finally find the problem and to show I had HOCM (obstructive Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy) and internal high pressures in my valves.

My regular EP had to go out of town after the first procedure, so his partner had to do the implant; he wasn't as skilled as my regular dr and botched the lead implants.

When they checked the leads the next day before releasing me, they found a problem with the lead placement but the dr said it was "ok" and sent me home. Since then, I've had nothing but problems with the unit and been told by several other EP's I need to have the leads replaced and the ICD could be causing part of my problems.

Doctors think my other problems are related to HOCM (obstructive hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) and Autonomic nervous system failure and when I faint, my heart stops briefly causing damage each time this happens.

After the procedure, my body started failing from the damage it sustained the 4 times my heart stopped. My original cardiologist told me I would be in a wheel chair and totally dependent on others for everything by the time I'm 50; which is daunting because in March I'll be 45 and I can't deny the facts - my body is failing.

I was put on 10,000g sodium daily, water/fluid loading, Midodrine (insurance won't cover it $312 - 30 day supply), Propanolol, Pantoprazole, pain meds, suppression hose and binders as well as having to stay supine the majority of the day - which caused my heart failure to worsen and my EF (ejection fraction) to go down.

Nothing the doctor's have tried has helped, I still faint and my heart stops on a daily basis and I never know from one day to the next if something is going to trigger fluid build up and I have an acute attack.

In June 2011 I fainted falling into the side of my tiled tub, lacerating the side of my head in the process, severely sprained my neck and suffered a concussion. After that episode, I became a bit more cautious with every move I make because the dr found declining neurological functioning and mild brain damage; he said any more falls could lead to permanent major brain damage.

With so many previous medical bills and co-pays, I can't afford the 20% co-insurance to have my ICD replaced and Mayo Clinic wants a $5,000 deposit up front even with insurance. My ICD alone is $125,000, leads another $30,000 and then there's the doctor and hospital fees; which I won't know the cost until the procedure is done.

Each heart rhythm specialist and cardiologist I see tell me there is nothing more they can do after going over my history and treatments; I have a long hard fight to go and I have to just be thankful each day I'm alive. Some days I'm really glad I made it through, other days when the problems and pain take over; I wish the dr's had let me die.

I developed PTSD after the procedure, panic disorder and extreme agoraphobia. I went into such a deep depression over my health issues, I was afraid I would never see the lighter side of things again. I finally went to see a psychologist who prescribed Lamictal and diagnosed me with Bi-Polar disorder which has helped greatly but I still struggle on a daily basis.

One day we were just the “normal” every day family and the toughest thing we had to deal with is a child with Autism. Then; our whole lives changed in an instant we were dealing with mounting medical bills, expensive prescriptions, tests, appointments, loss of income and dealing with the possibility of death on a daily basis.

You just never know what the day may bring, so keep those you love close to you and never take one second for granted.
From the bottom of my heart thank you - even if it's support to say hey; I'm here if you need to talk or I know how you're feeling.

I've decided to try and get help through donations http://www.giveforward.com/unbreakmyheart and funding http://unbreakmyheart2011.blogspot.com/from outside sources since every doctor I've seen in 2 years agree that I need the leads to my ICD (defibrillator) replaced; but shuffle me back to the original doctor and wash their hands of me.

I'm raising funds for ICD replacement surgery, to go see a HOCM specialist (Dr. Craig Asher) at Cleveland Clinic in S. Florida and to have advanced testing through Vanderbilt Autonomic Center in Tennessee.

I don't want to admit I need help; I've always been a strong, independent person who took care of everything and everyone. In August 2009, my whole world changed. After my procedure, I applied for disability and was turned down twice and had to hire an attorney. I went from being "super" mom, wife & friend and care taker of an Autistic son to being the one who had to be taken care of.

So how did I get to the point I have to ask others for help? Shortly before Father's Day 2009, I fell and broke my foot. When it didn't heal, I went to my primary with a broken foot and came out with a broken heart. After the shock wore off from the doctor telling me that I was going to die if I didn't have valve surgery; I started asking questions.

I didn't quite believe him and thought he was over reacting when he told me I was going to die because I walked and ran 3-5 times weekly and even did strenuous yard work. I felt fine and have 4 children aged 9-26 and kept up with them and stayed very active in things they did; but I was a ticking time bomb just waiting for the right time for my heart to stop.

He sent me to several specialists who said I had nothing really wrong, just some mild valve problems associated with aging; which was a huge relief. Everything seemed normal except my EKG's; they showed I had a huge amount of PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) roughly 50,000 “extra” heartbeats daily.

My heart didn't really beat fully; it only quivered like a bowl of jello day in day out. The problem with it beating like this is, the heart becomes very ineffective at pumping and your cardiac output drops and heart muscle damage can occur.

The cardiologist and electrophysiologist I saw did extensive testing and recommended more testing in the hospital. I went in for a sleep study, Tilt table test and EP Study with Ablation. The sleep study revealed I had moderately severe sleep apnea and my oxygen goes from 99% down to 73% at night making it very dangerous for me when I sleep.

The tilt table test was the first inkling that something dangerous was going on inside. I fainted and had no palpable pulse; which is a very rare thing to happen. I was diagnosed with Dysautonomia - Neurocardiogenic Syncope and Orthostatic Intolerance.
I then had an ablation to burn the extra pathways in my heart and get rid of the pvc's I was living with daily. I was told this would be a relatively easy process and given a 95% success rate to get rid of the extra beats completely but it never crossed my mind that anything would happen.

What preliminary tests failed to show, is the pattern and origin of my arrhythmias were in a very dangerous spot to ablate - the RV Apex – in the bottom thin underside of the heart.

During the EP Study, I went into cardiac arrest and my heart stopped completely with no rhythm they could shock (Asystole), some how it started again for a few minutes but then stopped again. They were able to shock me back to normal sinus rhythm and luckily, the third time it stopped; it restarted on it's own so I didn't have to be shocked again.

I was diagnosed with Polymorphic Ventricular Tachycardia; a very dangerous, life threatening arrhythmia. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days trying to find a cause and to be prepped for an ICD (implantable cardiac defibrillator).

It took a cardiac catherization to finally find the problem and to show I had HOCM (obstructive Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy) and internal high pressures in my valves.

My regular EP had to go out of town after the first procedure, so his partner had to do the implant; he wasn't as skilled as my regular dr and botched the lead implants.

When they checked the leads the next day before releasing me, they found a problem with the lead placement but the dr said it was "ok" and sent me home. Since then, I've had nothing but problems with the unit and been told by several other EP's I need to have the leads replaced and the ICD could be causing part of my problems.

Doctors think my other problems are related to HOCM (obstructive hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) and Autonomic nervous system failure and when I faint, my heart stops briefly causing damage each time this happens.

After the procedure, my body started failing from the damage it sustained the 4 times my heart stopped. My original cardiologist told me I would be in a wheel chair and totally dependent on others for everything by the time I'm 50; which is daunting because in March I'll be 45 and I can't deny the facts - my body is failing.

I was put on 10,000g sodium daily, water/fluid loading, Midodrine (insurance won't cover it $312 - 30 day supply), Propanolol, Pantoprazole, pain meds, suppression hose and binders as well as having to stay supine the majority of the day - which caused my heart failure to worsen and my EF (ejection fraction) to go down.

Nothing the doctor's have tried has helped, I still faint and my heart stops on a daily basis and I never know from one day to the next if something is going to trigger fluid build up and I have an acute attack.

In June 2011 I fainted falling into the side of my tiled tub, lacerating the side of my head in the process, severely sprained my neck and suffered a concussion. After that episode, I became a bit more cautious with every move I make because the dr found declining neurological functioning and mild brain damage; he said any more falls could lead to permanent major brain damage.

With so many previous medical bills and co-pays, I can't afford the 20% co-insurance to have my ICD replaced and Mayo Clinic wants a $5,000 deposit up front even with insurance. My ICD alone is $125,000, leads another $30,000 and then there's the doctor and hospital fees; which I won't know the cost until the procedure is done.

Each heart rhythm specialist and cardiologist I see tell me there is nothing more they can do after going over my history and treatments; I have a long hard fight to go and I have to just be thankful each day I'm alive. Some days I'm really glad I made it through, other days when the problems and pain take over; I wish the dr's had let me die.

I developed PTSD after the procedure, panic disorder and extreme agoraphobia. I went into such a deep depression over my health issues, I was afraid I would never see the lighter side of things again. I finally went to see a psychologist who prescribed Lamictal and diagnosed me with Bi-Polar disorder which has helped greatly but I still struggle on a daily basis.

One day we were just the “normal” every day family and the toughest thing we had to deal with is a child with Autism. Then; our whole lives changed in an instant we were dealing with mounting medical bills, expensive prescriptions, tests, appointments, loss of income and dealing with the possibility of death on a daily basis.

You just never know what the day may bring, so keep those you love close to you and never take one second for granted.

From the bottom of my heart thank you - even if it's support to say hey; I'm here if you need to talk or I know how you're feeling.

I'm normally to proud, but I'm asking for help. I have got myself in some trouble which i will admit is my fault but I would say most of you would do the same.

So here's the story, My father passed away a while back, I was appointed Executor of the Estate, well I got layed off and didn't have enough to pay my bills, Rather than starve my family out, I used money out of the Estate. I've been trying to put it back for months, but I can seem to work enough hours to save that much. I've tried the bank but I can't get the money. I know if I don't get all the $5000 back in before I have to finalize the estate, I'll probably goto prison. I've never been in any trouble before but it looks like I'm really in it now.

I'm sure there are other people worse off than me, If so help them instead of me.

I could use some help if you think I deserve it but I'm prepared to suffer the consequences of my actions.

I'm normally to proud, but I'm asking for help. I have got myself in some trouble which i will admit is my fault but I would say most of you would do the same.

So here's the story, My father passed away a while back, I was appointed Executor of the Estate, well I got layed off and didn't have enough to pay my bills, Rather than starve my family out, I used money out of the Estate. I've been trying to put it back for months, but I can seem to work enough hours to save that much. I've tried the bank but I can't get the money. I know if I don't get all the $5000 back in before I have to finalize the estate, I'll probably goto prison. I've never been in any trouble before but it looks like I'm really in it now.

I'm sure there are other people worse off than me, If so help them instead of me.

I could use some help if you think I deserve it but I'm prepared to suffer the consequences of my actions.

To whom it may concern:

My name is Angela K. Baker. I live in Green Bay, Wisconsin and have been living with diagnosis of Systemic Lupus since I was fourteen years (I am now 34 DOB 06/16/1977). Although as a child, I knew there was something a little different about myself compared to my twin brother Johnathan. I could never run and play with the other children because my body just would not keep up with the other kids. It always felt like I had sandbags attached to me and I would pass out in the sunlight, I was always exhausted and my body cried out in pain. I just didn't know why. I can remember being like this all the way back to my kindergarten year. Not that my parents were bad people, it just seemed like they just didn't have anymore to give, there problems were so on the surface, (both of my parents are alcoholics, and my mother has had Multiple Sclerosis (MS) since I was born and as for my father, he spent a large part of my life locked away in the Wisconsin jail system (due to his own alcohol induced indescretions.) At fourteen I got a full-time job to pay for my medical bills and a part-time job working at a nursing home to help my family. I have always been stuborn and a fighter, but at this point in my life the fight has just about been exstinguished out of me and I have to admit that I need some help. Over the last twenty years I have been under anasthetic approximately 125 times. I am missing more parts than I have. I feel like an experiment gone wrong or a human pin coushon. I hope that at least some of my surgical suffering at least helped the surgeons learn something from my body...You see I have lived longer than anyone that they know of with this kind of Lupus. It usually manifesters in the late 30's or 40's not in children. My most recent operation was on June 9th 2011, to fix holes in my intestines that were accidentley left after my colon was removed (my colon exploded after it had been recected four times) Right now I have an Illyectomy system that does not work correctly, it leaks blood, bile, puss, fecal liquid ect. and the plastic appliances do not work on me because my skin is so sensative from the Lupus. My medical exspenses are so astronomical even with Medicare and I struggle every month to pay my basic needs (rent, public service water copays ect) I was forced to retire at 23 my body deceided it just couldn't do it anymore, even though I worked very hard to put myself through college so that I could have a decent job that I enjoyed. Thank God that it does not take much to feed me, because the state of WI says that I do not qualify for food stamps or medical assistance, I make $4.oo a month too much. I am not asking for large donations, I know the ecomomy is bad and we are all struggling. What I am asking that when you balance your checking account that you round up to the nearest dollar and please donate the change. My goal is to collect enough money to see a special surgeon at Freodert Hospital in Milwaukee Wisconsin. He would like to see if he can help me have some kind of quality of life and end some of the suffering that I have been enduring for a long time . I would be happy if I even received a little relief. I don't remember what it is like to feel healthy, everyone in this life deserves at least a shot at it... If I am given the help that I need, I fully intend to open my home again as a safe house ( I am not able to do that now because of the leaking illeostmy ) and I would love to a foster mom to any child who needs a good loving and stable home. The way I am right now is horrible ( I have not left my home in over six months excluding doctor appointments) I do realize that some people use these sites for frivilous things and for scamming people. All that that I can do is to give my word that I promise to pay it forward. In my life I have been through an extraordinary amount of human suffering and it is a miracle that I am alive still to tell my story, and for that I am truly greatful and I am here still for a reason. It is not so bad to live without certain basic human needs, it's the having too that is very heartbreaking.

Sincerely,

Angela K. Baker

To whom it may concern:

My name is Angela K. Baker. I live in Green Bay, Wisconsin and have been living with diagnosis of Systemic Lupus since I was fourteen years (I am now 34 DOB 06/16/1977). Although as a child, I knew there was something a little different about myself compared to my twin brother Johnathan. I could never run and play with the other children because my body just would not keep up with the other kids. It always felt like I had sandbags attached to me and I would pass out in the sunlight, I was always exhausted and my body cried out in pain. I just didn't know why. I can remember being like this all the way back to my kindergarten year. Not that my parents were bad people, it just seemed like they just didn't have anymore to give, there problems were so on the surface, (both of my parents are alcoholics, and my mother has had Multiple Sclerosis (MS) since I was born and as for my father, he spent a large part of my life locked away in the Wisconsin jail system (due to his own alcohol induced indescretions.) At fourteen I got a full-time job to pay for my medical bills and a part-time job working at a nursing home to help my family. I have always been stuborn and a fighter, but at this point in my life the fight has just about been exstinguished out of me and I have to admit that I need some help. Over the last twenty years I have been under anasthetic approximately 125 times. I am missing more parts than I have. I feel like an experiment gone wrong or a human pin coushon. I hope that at least some of my surgical suffering at least helped the surgeons learn something from my body...You see I have lived longer than anyone that they know of with this kind of Lupus. It usually manifesters in the late 30's or 40's not in children. My most recent operation was on June 9th 2011, to fix holes in my intestines that were accidentley left after my colon was removed (my colon exploded after it had been recected four times) Right now I have an Illyectomy system that does not work correctly, it leaks blood, bile, puss, fecal liquid ect. and the plastic appliances do not work on me because my skin is so sensative from the Lupus. My medical exspenses are so astronomical even with Medicare and I struggle every month to pay my basic needs (rent, public service water copays ect) I was forced to retire at 23 my body deceided it just couldn't do it anymore, even though I worked very hard to put myself through college so that I could have a decent job that I enjoyed. Thank God that it does not take much to feed me, because the state of WI says that I do not qualify for food stamps or medical assistance, I make $4.oo a month too much. I am not asking for large donations, I know the ecomomy is bad and we are all struggling. What I am asking that when you balance your checking account that you round up to the nearest dollar and please donate the change. My goal is to collect enough money to see a special surgeon at Freodert Hospital in Milwaukee Wisconsin. He would like to see if he can help me have some kind of quality of life and end some of the suffering that I have been enduring for a long time . I would be happy if I even received a little relief. I don't remember what it is like to feel healthy, everyone in this life deserves at least a shot at it... If I am given the help that I need, I fully intend to open my home again as a safe house ( I am not able to do that now because of the leaking illeostmy ) and I would love to a foster mom to any child who needs a good loving and stable home. The way I am right now is horrible ( I have not left my home in over six months excluding doctor appointments) I do realize that some people use these sites for frivilous things and for scamming people. All that that I can do is to give my word that I promise to pay it forward. In my life I have been through an extraordinary amount of human suffering and it is a miracle that I am alive still to tell my story, and for that I am truly greatful and I am here still for a reason. It is not so bad to live without certain basic human needs, it's the having too that is very heartbreaking.

Sincerely,

Angela K. Baker

I am a 38 years old men from Hungary. I had been married for 10 years and I was absolutely satisfied with my life. I loved my wife very much. We had a child, a little sweet boy and we were living in a small apartment. I was never rich, but I was happy.

But in a "nice" spring day a got an unwanted phone call. A women - who has not revealed her name - told me that my wife had a lover and wanted to leave me. And - as it turned out - it was true. To the top of that it also turned out, that my wife was already pregnant from her lover. My whole world collapsed.

I loved my wife very much, I forgave her everything and asked her to remain with me. I promised her that I will accept her baby as my baby. After lengthy inner debate she decided to remain with me. A few months later her baby was born. I loved her little girl, because she was completely innocent. How could I hate her?

As time went by her baby got stronger. I hoped that things would get better. "Time heals all wounds" - as they say. But once, when I got home from work I found an absolutely empty apartment! She moved to her lover and she took my son with her! There was no word to describe my chagrin! I lost my wife, I lost my son, I lost my whole life just one day.

When I recovered myself I started to beg her to come back to me, because I was unable to process the events. A few months later my wife quarreled with her lover and to my greatest surprise she told me that she wanted to come back. I was very-very happy! I felt that I got back my life!

After she moved back with my son I started to look for a bigger apartment, because our old apartment became a bit small to our increased family. I found one which was large enough, but I had to ask for a huge loan from a bank to buy it. After we bought the new big apartment we all moved there and I thought that the dark period of my life was over. I thought that the moving and the nice new apartment will help my wife to distract her thoughts from her swirling and unstable feelings. This was a big mistake. One year later my wife left me again. She came together with her lover again and she moved to him. Fortunately she didn't take my son with her. This was the only consolation for me.

At last - three years ago - we got divorced. Since then my life is very hard. Due to all these events my financial situation is terrible. We are living from only one income. I am raising my son completely alone, no childcare, no family, no friends that can help me. It is not to easy for a men. I have to pay the high cost of the big flat and I have to pay an installment every month to the bank. I have a mortgage on my apartment. If I won't be able to pay the installment we will loose our home! My ex-wife doesn't even want to know about my awful situation although she was the one who caused the problems. I try to struggle out of this situation but I can't. I really work hard as a software developer but my salary in not enough for me to pay all our bills. I can't sell my apartment because of the economic crisis. Now my debt is much more higher than the value of my apartment.

I am not proud of my story. I admit that I was very-very naive. Maybe I should not have to stick to my wife for so long but I really very loved her. Now I am in a big trouble. If anyone could help me I would be grateful!

To whom it may concern:

My name is Angela K. Baker. I live in Green Bay, Wisconsin and have been living with diagnosis of Systemic Lupus since I was fourteen years (I am now 34 DOB 06/16/1977). Although as a child, I knew there was something a little different about myself compared to my twin brother Johnathan. I could never run and play with the other children because my body just would not keep up with the other kids. It always felt like I had sandbags attached to me and I would pass out in the sunlight, I was always exhausted and my body cried out in pain. I just didn't know why. I can remember being like this all the way back to my kindergarten year. Not that my parents were bad people, it just seemed like they just didn't have anymore to give, there problems were so on the surface, (both of my parents are alcoholics, and my mother has had Multiple Sclerosis (MS) since I was born and as for my father, he spent a large part of my life locked away in the Wisconsin jail system (due to his own alcohol induced indescretions.) At fourteen I got a full-time job to pay for my medical bills and a part-time job working at a nursing home to help my family. I have always been stuborn and a fighter, but at this point in my life the fight has just about been exstinguished out of me and I have to admit that I need some help. Over the last twenty years I have been under anasthetic approximately 125 times. I am missing more parts than I have. I feel like an experiment gone wrong or a human pin coushon. I hope that at least some of my surgical suffering at least helped the surgeons learn something from my body...You see I have lived longer than anyone that they know of with this kind of Lupus. It usually manifesters in the late 30's or 40's not in children. My most recent operation was on June 9th 2011, to fix holes in my intestines that were accidentley left after my colon was removed (my colon exploded after it had been recected four times) Right now I have an Illyectomy system that does not work correctly, it leaks blood, bile, puss, fecal liquid ect. and the plastic appliances do not work on me because my skin is so sensative from the Lupus. My medical exspenses are so astronomical even with Medicare and I struggle every month to pay my basic needs (rent, public service water copays ect) I was forced to retire at 23 my body deceided it just couldn't do it anymore, even though I worked very hard to put myself through college so that I could have a decent job that I enjoyed. Thank God that it does not take much to feed me, because the state of WI says that I do not qualify for food stamps or medical assistance, I make $4.oo a month too much. I am not asking for large donations, I know the ecomomy is bad and we are all struggling. What I am asking that when you balance your checking account that you round up to the nearest dollar and please donate the change. My goal is to collect enough money to see a special surgeon at Freodert Hospital in Milwaukee Wisconsin. He would like to see if he can help me have some kind of quality of life and end some of the suffering that I have been enduring for a long time . I would be happy if I even received a little relief. I don't remember what it is like to feel healthy, everyone in this life deserves at least a shot at it... If I am given the help that I need, I fully intend to open my home again as a safe house ( I am not able to do that now because of the leaking illeostmy ) and I would love to a foster mom to any child who needs a good loving and stable home. The way I am right now is horrible ( I have not left my home in over six months excluding doctor appointments) I do realize that some people use these sites for frivilous things and for scamming people. All that that I can do is to give my word that I promise to pay it forward. In my life I have been through an extraordinary amount of human suffering and it is a miracle that I am alive still to tell my story, and for that I am truly greatful and I am here still for a reason. It is not so bad to live without certain basic human needs, it's the having too that is very heartbreaking.

Sincerely,

Angela K. Baker

I would like to start out by saying, "this was/is my last resort". I never
looked down on others that ask for help because most of the time I was the
helper. However, now I am sitting behind this smoke screen in desperation. I
am a single mother of an 8 year old growing boy and currently working two
jobs to make ends meet. A few years ago I made a purchase on a vehicle that
was a big bad mistake and definetly a life lesson after reading Dave
Ramsey's book. My payment, fuel and insurance is 33% of my monthly income. I
am upside down in my payments along with trying to keep up with student

loans and other monthly expenses. I would be the first to admit I made a
dumb choice and I am trying to dig myself out of this deep financial hole. I
am not one to take without giving something in return. I will defenitely pay
it forward in some way to others by doing a good deed for someone else. It
saddens me to have to come to this but this is my cry out for help. Thank
you so much for taking time to read my message. Soldier iN Need of a little
help!

Hello fellow BegsList users, I have to admit that I know that I am not a person fully in need (compared to the hungry). I have donated, I have persuaded, I have scarified. Now I need your help to get every cent I can so that I can save up for a Christmas holiday. The one time in the year when I allow my self to really explore the world. Every cent will help. And every donation is considered a powerful and meaningful gift.
-ineedtotravel2011

I don't really know how to start this. It's such a different concept. I guess I'll just get to the nitty gritty of our situation...

My soon-to-be ex-husband cheated on me for 3 years at least 9 different times. At first I was in denial about his double life, but eventually I came to terms with it and just decided to try to stick it out a bit longer for the sake of my stepkids. They moved here from England in 2007 and I've been raising them since then. They're 17 and 19, and I was trying to wait till they both graduated high school before filing for divorce. I also have a 2 year old with him. I kept his infidelity a secret and carried the burden on my own, not even telling my family, until...the kids found texts in his phone last June to the woman who is now his fiance. In June I had to call the police because he nearly got into a fistfight with my stepson and physically got into my face as well, plus he told all of us that he was going to kill himself, but this has become a frequent ploy for manipulation by him. I have been primarily a stay-at-home mom the past 2 years bringing in only a few hundred a month. He was the primary breadwinner bringing home $4000-5000 a month. He moved out and moved in with this woman a block away from us, has not spent more than 5 hours with any of the kids since June, and refuses to provide any child support for any of the kids aside from paying the health insurance (which his work pays for), paying his car insurance, and only recently giving his 17 year old a few hundred dollars a month which she has to save for her bills too. I have been forced to figure out how to make ends meet and raise and support the kids on my own. I love my stepkids and happily will continue raising them and figuring it all out, working what I can and taking loans from whoever is willing to help. It's just really stressful and really tough right now.

I knew I was headed to a divorce, but I had no idea he would just abandon all of us completely like he has. And to top it all off, he has become very psychologically and emotionally abusive towards me and even sometimes towards the kids. Oh yeah, he also had no sense of self-control as far as spending goes, and he ballooned our debt up to almost $50,000, though some of that is medical debt as well. I'm facing divorce and bankruptcy on my own with 3 kids. As I type this I don't even know how I hold it together, but I've managed to. I'm healing and getting stronger and more able to put the pieces back together for the kids and I, but this is a BIG hole we're in, trying to escape, and it may be embarrassing to admit as an educated individual who never thought I'd be in these shoes, but I need help. If you are willing to help us, we would really appreciate it and it would truly make a huge difference in our lives. This feels so bizarre asking for help online like this, but I think it's an awesome way to really be able to help those in need. I'm glad I found it so that we too will be able to help others who need it most. In the meantime, thank you again for all your help at this extremely difficult, stressful and emotionally taxing time. You have no idea how much it helps knowing that people you don't even know care about if you and your kids are going to be okay. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

Hi, guys!

Straight said, I am feeling that with those words, my last chance to save my worlds is slipping between my fingers. And I tremble, because the feeling is so crushing. I am a fan of the positive thinking, I think that all can get better If you are positive, but don’t know if this time the things will work out so easily. I am almost 21 years old, and I had my good and my bad moments. I have a great brother btw, a really great brother, who unfortunately used to spare the bad moments, regardless my wish to be otherwise. I also have great parents, really good people with only desire to live normal life, and to give both me and my brother some good start in life. Unfortunately not every plan and dream in this world is as easy to accomplish as it is to be said. My mother and my father risked much, to start a new business when the whole country was in poor situation. And this business wasted for 20 years, until now. We have a farm and cows, not the prettiest business out there, but it is our and we love it the way it is. We are town people, but that doesn’t matter, because my parents really knows much about how to breed cows, and they give their best when it comes to that. We help them as we can, I’ve tried my best to make this business better, and easier for my parents. But what can I say, there are times in life, when your endless hard work doesn’t matter in the end, when the luck abandons you, when the faith is difficult to oppose to. And that time is now, in the second half of 2011 I am sure that If I don’t make any wonder, we may lose our business, our home, and most troubling – we may lose our happiness, even if it’s uncommon these days one family to be united and happy.

As I said – my parents made hard decision, to risk and work hard in order to rise us well, instead to work for someone else and barely survive. But this kind of things requires finances, and the only finances were credits from banks. They’ve pledged our possessions and our home, to guarantee the credits and with pain, and unsatisfying feeling in my heart I must admit that we are about to lose our home and our way of life, if I don’t work out something, very, very quickly.

I am working now, on two jobs, and if I am lucky enough, I work only 12-14 hours per day, six-seven days per week. Not the best thing in the world, you can be sure in that, but I feel that I must do my best to save our home. And still, with two works, with my parents working too in what remained from our business, I am still 800$ monthly behind my credit bills. Not the best situation to be in… but… I still keep fighting, as do my parents too. And I need to do that for six months more, because after that I will have a chance, and a good one, to keep my home after all. And still that are six months in which I am 800$ behind the bills, and that means that I could lost my hope in only month time from now. Most people in my place would assume that they lost what they’ve had, that they’ve lost their home, that they’ve lost every hope. I am not such kind of guy. I may not the greatest man in the planet, true, but I don’t intend to surrender until the surest end.

The only thing that can save me and my family now is I to find more money to pay in time every month. With all the shame in the world, I must ask for those money from you. I know that most of you would have problems in you lives, some will be similar to mine. I’ve been generous in all my 21 years of life, I’ve made my best to help the others, to make the world better. Now I need the help of others, to help me to rebuild my life again, and save my family from the disaster that this thing could turn if I don’t find a solution. So I ask you, with all my heart, and all my shame, please help me with some money. They could be even only 1$ from person, they may be 5$ or 10$, no matter how much, but if enough people spare from their hearts and help me with that, maybe I will succeed and fulfill my most sacred dream – to save my family and my home. And don’t ask God for fame, for glory, for mountains of money. I ask him, and you, to help me, for I cannot help myself now. I know the price of my happiness – it’s 4800$. That’s the amount that I’ll need to find, to save my world. I know this is a long post, I know that you maybe heard hundreds, if not thousands, similar stories for people struggles in life. And this story is one of them I think, but in same time is different – different because I still can make something for things to get normal, somehow. And I need you and your kindness. So, please, I beg you – help me. I beg you with last of my hope, you are my last chance to survive this.

I am 62 years old. An auditor by trade but would do any kind of PT/FT work except there seems to be no work. Ads read if unemployed do not apply. What! Are you kidding me? Used up retirement by year 2 in 2009. Lost our home, cars, money, credit, credit rating, self esteem but I still have God in my life. The fire of hope is still burning but I must admit it is more like smoldering coals. My wife has polysistic kidney disease & there is no cure. I hate asking for help because I know there are thousands just like me and some worse off than me but here goes, if you can assist please help. There is no help for those like me from the government other than a little medical help. I have retired on SS and now I earn too much for any help. Go figure. I am not looking for money, although I would take any help, I am looking for WORK. The government has no idea how many people are really unemployed or under-employed.

I am often afraid to admit when I have lost all hope and am embarrassed to ask for help. I have weighed all my options and done all that I can do, including: taking out a payday advance loan (which I now can not pay), rolling loose change ($6.32), earning small amounts of money online doing surveys (please contact me if you need help doing this), browsing craigslist for any job opportunity (no legitimate responses), and happened to stumble upon this site.

I am a single college student, living alone and paying all of my own bills. I have been supporting myself (and sometimes others) since I was 18. Although I don't have money to give, I always allow any friends or family members to stay with me when times get tough and do not ask for anything in return. I have found ways to save, spend, and earn using coupons, working extra hours, and stretching every last penny I have for bills, food, or gas. I have simply reached the breaking point. I have found myself months behind on my utilities, an empty pantry, and barely enough money to get back and forth to work and school. My tuition bill is increasing and I can only defer the payment for so long before I am unenrolled from the school and gain an even bigger debt. I don't have parents to rely on when I am in a bind, and I am falling further and further behind.

In addition to running out of money, food, and hope... I have not been able to purchase any new pants, belt, or shoes for work and without these items I will not be able to continue. My current items are falling apart. I typically buy these things for $5-$6 a piece at my local goodwill, but even that has become a hardship. As far as buying clothes for myself for everyday wear, that has been out of the question for close to 2 years. I can't enjoy my life because I am so stressed and I am working to not even completely pay my bills.

I do not want anyone to feel scammed or mislead and I am supplying my email address(iamafishie@hotmail.com), which is also my paypal address, for anyone that has any questions or concerns.

If I can help ANYONE, even if it is just talking with you and being a support system, please contact me. If you are also in need and looking to earn or save, please contact me as well and I will give you the resources I have used for years, they may help you or sustain you for a few more weeks or months.

I have been financially responsible my whole life, and I believe in karma. I donated my last $1 in my paypal account to this website, because I am truly grateful that something like this exist. I hope karma is pleased. I am willing to do anything to help others. I have always done everything possible to help others, and now I truly need help.

I am not asking for a specific amount and I don't expect anyone to pay my bills, but if you'd like to contribute, please do so via paypal(iamafishie@hotmail.com).

Thank you for your time.

I am often afraid to admit when I have lost all hope and am embarrassed to ask for help. I have weighed all my options and done all that I can do, including: taking out a payday advance loan (which I now can not pay), rolling loose change ($6.32), earning small amounts of money online doing surveys (please contact me if you need help doing this), browsing craigslist for any job opportunity (no legitimate responses), and happened to stumble upon this site.

I am a single college student, living alone and paying all of my own bills. I have been supporting myself (and sometimes others) since I was 18. Although I don't have money to give, I always allow any friends or family members to stay with me when times get tough and do not ask for anything in return. I have found ways to save, spend, and earn using coupons, working extra hours, and stretching every last penny I have for bills, food, or gas. I have simply reached the breaking point. I have found myself months behind on my utilities, an empty pantry, and barely enough money to get back and forth to work and school. My tuition bill is increasing and I can only defer the payment for so long before I am unenrolled from the school and gain an even bigger debt. I don't have parents to rely on when I am in a bind, and I am falling further and further behind.

In addition to running out of money, food, and hope... I have not been able to purchase any new pants, belt, or shoes for work and without these items I will not be able to continue. My current items are falling apart. I typically buy these things for $5-$6 a piece at my local goodwill, but even that has become a hardship. As far as buying clothes for myself for everyday wear, that has been out of the question for close to 2 years. I can't enjoy my life because I am so stressed and I am working to not even completely pay my bills.

I do not want anyone to feel scammed or mislead and I am supplying my email address(iamafishie@hotmail.com), which is also my paypal address, for anyone that has any questions or concerns.

If I can help ANYONE, even if it is just talking with you and being a support system, please contact me. If you are also in need and looking to earn or save, please contact me as well and I will give you the resources I have used for years, they may help you or sustain you for a few more weeks or months.

I have been financially responsible my whole life, and I believe in karma. I donated my last $1 in my paypal account to this website, because I am truly grateful that something like this exist. I hope karma is pleased. I am willing to do anything to help others. I have always done everything possible to help others, and now I truly need help.

I am not asking for a specific amount and I don't expect anyone to pay my bills, but if you'd like to contribute, please do so via paypal(iamafishie@hotmail.com).

Thank you for your time.

I am often afraid to admit when I have lost all hope and am embarrassed to ask for help. I have weighed all my options and done all that I can do, including: taking out a payday advance loan (which I now can not pay), rolling loose change ($6.32), earning small amounts of money online doing surveys (please contact me if you need help doing this), browsing craigslist for any job opportunity (no legitimate responses), and happened to stumble upon this site.

I am a single college student, living alone and paying all of my own bills. I have been supporting myself (and sometimes others) since I was 18. Although I don't have money to give, I always allow any friends or family members to stay with me when times get tough and do not ask for anything in return. I have found ways to save, spend, and earn using coupons, working extra hours, and stretching every last penny I have for bills, food, or gas. I have simply reached the breaking point. I have found myself months behind on my utilities, an empty pantry, and barely enough money to get back and forth to work and school. My tuition bill is increasing and I can only defer the payment for so long before I am unenrolled from the school and gain an even bigger debt. I don't have parents to rely on when I am in a bind, and I am falling further and further behind.

In addition to running out of money, food, and hope... I have not been able to purchase any new pants, belt, or shoes for work and without these items I will not be able to continue. My current items are falling apart. I typically buy these things for $5-$6 a piece at my local goodwill, but even that has become a hardship. As far as buying clothes for myself for everyday wear, that has been out of the question for close to 2 years. I can't enjoy my life because I am so stressed and I am working to not even completely pay my bills.

I do not want anyone to feel scammed or mislead and I am supplying my email address(iamafishie@hotmail.com), which is also my paypal address, for anyone that has any questions or concerns.

If I can help ANYONE, even if it is just talking with you and being a support system, please contact me. If you are also in need and looking to earn or save, please contact me as well and I will give you the resources I have used for years, they may help you or sustain you for a few more weeks or months.

I have been financially responsible my whole life, and I believe in karma. I donated my last $1 in my paypal account to this website, because I am truly grateful that something like this exist. I hope karma is pleased. I am willing to do anything to help others. I have always done everything possible to help others, and now I truly need help.

I am not asking for a specific amount and I don't expect anyone to pay my bills, but if you'd like to contribute, please do so via paypal(iamafishie@hotmail.com).

Thank you for your time.

I am often afraid to admit when I have lost all hope and am embarrassed to ask for help. I have weighed all my options and done all that I can do, including: taking out a payday advance loan (which I now can not pay), rolling loose change ($6.32), earning small amounts of money online doing surveys (please contact me if you need help doing this), browsing craigslist for any job opportunity (no legitimate responses), and happened to stumble upon this site.

I am a single college student, living alone and paying all of my own bills. I have been supporting myself (and sometimes others) since I was 18. Although I don't have money to give, I always allow any friends or family members to stay with me when times get tough and do not ask for anything in return. I have found ways to save, spend, and earn using coupons, working extra hours, and stretching every last penny I have for bills, food, or gas. I have simply reached the breaking point. I have found myself months behind on my utilities, an empty pantry, and barely enough money to get back and forth to work and school. My tuition bill is increasing and I can only defer the payment for so long before I am unenrolled from the school and gain an even bigger debt. I don't have parents to rely on when I am in a bind, and I am falling further and further behind.

In addition to running out of money, food, and hope... I have not been able to purchase any new pants, belt, or shoes for work and without these items I will not be able to continue. My current items are falling apart. I typically buy these things for $5-$6 a piece at my local goodwill, but even that has become a hardship. As far as buying clothes for myself for everyday wear, that has been out of the question for close to 2 years. I can't enjoy my life because I am so stressed and I am working to not even completely pay my bills.

I do not want anyone to feel scammed or mislead and I am supplying my email address(iamafishie@hotmail.com), which is also my paypal address, for anyone that has any questions or concerns.

If I can help ANYONE, even if it is just talking with you and being a support system, please contact me. If you are also in need and looking to earn or save, please contact me as well and I will give you the resources I have used for years, they may help you or sustain you for a few more weeks or months.

I have been financially responsible my whole life, and I believe in karma. I donated my last $1 in my paypal account to this website, because I am truly grateful that something like this exist. I hope karma is pleased. I am willing to do anything to help others. I have always done everything possible to help others, and now I truly need help.

I am not asking for a specific amount and I don't expect anyone to pay my bills, but if you'd like to contribute, please do so via paypal(iamafishie@hotmail.com).

Thank you for your time.