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Greetings,

My fiancee and I have been trying to plan our wedding for two months. During these two months I have had my employer threaten to terminate me (as my future husband is from Turkey, and they assumed I was going to visit there), my brother=who is struggling with drug addiction- steal $2000.00 we had saved from us, and we found out that the 2 family home we live in that belongs to my mother is teetering on the edge of foreclosure. So every extra penny we have is going towards helping her since she lost most of her income when my father passed away unexpectedly from heart failure. All my fiancee and I want to do is get married very simply with my immediate family present as his family cannot afford to make the trip from Turkey. We do not need much but every little bit would be greatly appreciated.

I didnt know these type of websites existed until today. I'm not good at asking for help and to be honest, I don't really feel that great about doing this, but at this point, I don't really know what else to do. And now, my story: I am a thirty year old single mother of a nine year old little boy, who both works and goes to school full-time. Last semester I was denied financial aid due to the fact that my completion rate was not satisfactory. Taking a semester off was not going to do me any good, so I paid for my classes out of pocket. I knew it was going to be tough and thought that I would be ok. Well, I was very wrong. Life gets messy and complicated and never really works out the way we plan. My car needed work, my son needed glasses, he got pink eye and we both got strep throat. I also just started a new job and dont have insurance (I couldnt afford the $400.00/month COBRA payment from my previous employer). Everything just kind of seemed to happen at once and I fell behind in every financial aspect. In an attempt to recover from this, I reluctantly got a Payday Loan. Well..if any of you have ever done this, you know what a evil perputal cycle it becomes. I got loans to cover bills, and then got loans to cover loans..and now, I'm drowning in them! I have six at this moment all for varying amounts, my checking is negative and I am still behind on half of my bills. I dont feel like there is an end to this. I would get another job if I could, but with work, school and my son, I barely have time to sleep. I dont get child support as my sons father aquired a nasty meth addiction and ended up in prison and my family is struggling almost as badly as I am right now. I take responsibility for my bad choices and I'm not asking someone to completley bail me out. I won't even tell you how much my debt actually is. I just need a little help here..thats all. Thanks!

In 2008 I got in a car accident in Texas. It was my fault but there were no serious injuries and I had insurance, but I received several tickets. Like not yielding to the right of way, expired license, no inspection, no registration and no seatbelt. A month later my brother committed suicide after long and hard battle against drug addiction. Then another month later my Father past away from a drug related illness. Then two months later I was laid off from my job. Then that same month my car cracked a head. That year was the lowest I have ever been in my life. I just wanted to disappear. I tried to end it but just couldn’t go through with it. So instead of that and instead of facing everything I just ran. Not the smartest thing I know, but I had just lost it. I left my family and friends and I'm not really sure why. I ended up in a small farming town in Arkansas. It was long and hard but I turned my life around. Meet a great guy and got a pretty good job too. It does not pay much but I have enough to pay my bills. Last week I was driving home from work when a state Arkansas trooper pulled me over. I found out my license was suspended in Texas. I called to find out how I could take care of it and I found it was not that big of a deal if I had over $2000.00. I really need some help. It might as well be $2,000,000.00. I don’t have that kind of money. Yes I can set up a payment plan but by the time I’m done paying it off I will have lost my job, because the county it’s in will not lift the hold on my license till its paid in full. Can anyone help me? Please……………..

I don't really like asking others for help because I have always thought I could do things on my own. I learned that this is just not true, at least for myself. I learned this by fighting my addiction to pain medications. I tried to quit countless times with out help and was unsuccessful. Close to death I went to treatment for my addiction in May of 2010. I stayed the recomended 90 days and chose to stay an additional 5 months. The good news is that I was able to do it with help. I just had to be willing to ask for it. I am now trying to get back to my job in the pharmacy feild. As you may guess, there are a lot of hurdles to jump with my situation and feild of my profession, but I truly enjoy it and think I am good at it. Hopefully I will be able to go back to work within the next year. Until I do, I could greatly use any support and prayers I could get. Thank you

I am staying in a Hotel for thanksgiving, which is tomorrow. I have sold what little valubles I have left to pay for my room, and tomorrow is my last night here. I was staying with my boyfriend for awhile but he left me about a week ago due to a drug addiction that was unknown to his family and I. When he left he took just about everything I owned including my clothing, shoes, coat, anything to make a quick buck. My wallet also was taken, so I have no sort of Identifcation to get any help from shelters or churchs or governemt funded foundations, I have three dollars to my name that will be spent on food for thanksgiving. All I am asking is for someone to help me pay for a room, or food, or even a warm outfit w/ boots and shoes. I am very thankful for what I do still have but sometimes a person needs a little help now and then. I have always put others before myself and tried my best to give them what they want and or need, but in my time of need my friends or people whom I thought were my friends are nowhere to be found. I am not from denver, so the few people that are there for me cannot do much more than they already have. I am not a greedy person and I will not give up hope or lose faith that there are still good in people and in todays society. I would be forever greatful for all the help I could get. Thank you and Have a wonderful thanksgiving.

I am asking for help for my son and his family. They are struggling in so many ways. Neither one has been able to get a job. They have 2 small children. They are dealing with a drug addiction which they are seeking help for. They have made many mistakes and bad choices but are wanting to make a better life for their children. The children are outgrowing their clothes. Their car needs new tires and a good tuneup. They are driving back & forth to a drug Rehab. All costs money and my 2 daughters & I have been paying for as much of it as we can. But the biggest problem facing them right now is huge fines from traffic tickets that did not get paid. If they are not paid in the next 3 or 4 weeks my son could go to jail for a good while. With everything that's happened in the last 2 years we just don't have the money to clear him up. I know that my son messed up and we have been trying so hard to get him free of these things, to give another chance. I just can not bare the thought of him going to jail for traffic tickets!
I know that this situation does not appear to be as urgent as other people on this site, but I know in my heart that these kids are going down in a bad way if someone does not help them! I am not asking to just their sake. I am asking for the sake of those dear little babies who love their daddy & mommy very much! My children want to be able to live a better life. They need your help! Please help.

I recently saw this posted on some shitty website i dont care to disclose. not because i dont like the website, i just really dont give a fuck.

"Force people to feel your pain, put it on them. Show them how this world can create someone like you. Remind them that the state of the world we are in will continue to bring about people like us, the unloved, un-noticed, under-appreciated."

And it made me think, wow thats a fucking GREAT idea!!, what a wonderful way to make yourself feel better, why did i never think of that before? Well it seems like everybody else is doing it so why not? the worlds already fucked up so lets just add to all the bullshit and drama of life and see just how bad we can make it for others, after all wont we then realize just how good we've got it? even when you think you have nothing at all, if you think about children that are kidnapped, taken to a place their not familiar with, repeatedly raped by ass holes who would rather pay somebody to fuck a kid than find a real woman, beaten, held down and forced to develop an awful drug addiction that will keep them in a lifestyle of tragedy for the rest of their lives. Do we really have it bad? I want to kick myself in the ass sometimes for pitying myself and wishing i had it better. but then again is it really so bad to want the finer things in life? i mean it seems hope is what drives most people in life, without it where would we be? if we didnt have any hope at all why get out of bed in the morning? we do it for various reasons but mainly because we hope to achieve some kind of goal whether it be to see whats going on in the world around us, complain about it, to suppress that feeling of hunger, to use the bathroom instead of shitting or pissing on yourself, go to work or whatever. im tired of hearing about people being depressed because there is no hope in their life. the only people that really have no hope at all are already dead. Show yourself no mercy, make life what you want it to be, after all life really is whatever you make it. You can have nothing at all and not have eaten in days and still be a happy fucking go lucky numb skull without a care in the world if you pity not yourself but everyone else. I served a few months in jail this past year and found that i was really fucking HAPPY! I know what your thinking, what kind of brain dead fucking idiot could be happy to be in jail? i was not happy to be in jail but happy that i had a roof over my head, a mat to sleep on, a blanket to stay warm, 2 meals a day i mean what else could you ask for? all of your basic needs are met. Do you really deserve to have anything more than anybody else? when there are people out there that die all the time because they CANT get those basic needs fulfilled why in the hell are we driving brand new cars or even cars at all, living in homes made of enough aluminum, brick, wood and other materials to feed someone enough to keep them alive for a good part of their life. Doesnt it seem to you that if people really gave a shit about themselves or anybody else they would be more than grateful to be able to give up material possessions to give someone else a chance to live a life at all? The truth is we are all stuck up pricks that dont give a shit about anything but satisfying our own lust of pleasure. I will say there are a "few" good people out there but if your sitting there reading this on a computer and you think youve got it bad, your a stuck up peice of shit too. After all you can afford to spend money on electricity but you cant afford to feed someone, even if you do donate to charities are you really doing enough? No because your still on the computer wasting money that you could be using to feed a kid somewhere out there that otherwise will starve to death. Thats just the way it is and we've been doing it our whole lives. If you dont like the thought of being a selfish peice of shit, youve got 2 choices. Either get over it and accept the fact that your just as bad as the shit heads that flew their planes into the twin towers and killed all those people, or give up everything you have and help somebody out, stop wanting, start giving. Which will you do? If you want to change your ways you can start by donating a few dollars to help keep food in my stomach and a warm place to sleep. We'll see just how many "good" people are out there, i doubt many of you are. - Gabriel Turner You can email me at damaster406@gmail.com or send money to that email address using paypal at http://www.paypal.com

I suppose it is a familiar story, I am a single mother with three children. I work very hard to give them everything they need, and maybe this is where the problem started. With no father figure and mom absent from the home working 12 hour shifts my kids had a lot of freedom, combine that with trying to compensate for the missing father figure in their lives and I closed a blind eye to things that in retrospect was a mistake. My son is now drowning with a serious addiction, and the family is going down with him. I have not made good choices in how to help him, and I am not very good at tough love. I am now in so much debt that we face losing the family home. On top of the stress of trying not to lose him to this addiction I face the stress of overdue bills and credit cards. Another parent would have handled all of this different and not need your help, I accept it is my failure that brought me to where I am. My back is against a wall, I ask you to help me even though I am not sure I deserve it. I do it though for my other children who I have allowed this to affect. Thank you.

Hi.
I am a Grandmother that has custody of my five yr old Grand daughter. At one time my husband and I had a very nice home, cars, furniture, and clothes. However a job loss for my husband and a ten year battle trying to save our middle son from a drug addiction that started at age 15 has bankrupted us. Our Grand daughter is the light of our lives. We had to take her from my son and his wife almost a year ago due to their addiction to Meth and alcohol. She is a bright child but has been through a lot in her short five years of life. Due to what she has been through we decided last year to put her into a private Christian school. The tuition is quite high and we struggled through keeping her there. Now school starts in less than a week and we need $1,800.00 to get her started. We are still behind on the previous year and until we pay the behind amount and the first month tuition she can't start. She will be going into the 1st grade and is so excited. We could opt for public school but due to her mild form of Autism and her history we fear that she will have a hard time. She loves the school she has been in and has done very well considering the life she has had. My husband and I have been Christians throughout our marriage. We raised our children in the faith. We never imagined that our American dream would crumble and we would loose everything trying to save one of them. We and Paige would be so grateful for any level of help. You can contact me through my email and I will be happy to send you information on her school where you can send her donations. We want nothing more from this but help keeping her in this school. We are truly grateful for anything you can do. God bless you and thank you.

I hate doing this, but here goes. I am a recovering drug addict. I have not used any drugs since March 2003. I was a Registered Nurse in California and lost my license due to my addiction. I was arrested in March of 2003 for possession. I was required to go to out patient counseling for drug addiction by my county of residence. This counseling I believe saved my life. I looked for any job and after months of searching, I landed a job working with Buck Owens Enterprises delivering Camera Ads Magazine to local businesses around my area. Quite a change from being an Emergency Room R.N. As you can imagine my income dropped dramatically. After losing my license and thus my livelihood, I needed a new career. I decided to go to school. Aided by The California Department of Rehabilitation, I went to California State University, Bakersfield and earned a certificate in Drug and Alcohol Studies. Soon I started working in the California Prison System as a Substance Abuse Counselor. That was in 2008. I continue to work in this capacity.

A few years prior to my arrest I began working for myself as a contract R.N. And, because I was very heavy into my addiction, I was not taking care of my business responsibilities and not paying my taxes as I should. Now the State of California has attached my wages for back taxes of $4900.00 and the IRS is wanting back taxes of about $21,000.00.

I love my new work as a Substance Abuse Counselor and feel I am making a difference in turning prisoners lives around. I want to reapply for my R.N. license and use it in conjunction with my Counseling for co-occurring disorders,(mental illness with drug addiction). I am sure the California State Board of Registered Nursing would not look well on my owing back taxes.

I am almost 56 years old now and see no hope of paying these back taxes anytime soon. For this reason I am asking help. I need approximately $25,000.00 to pay off all back taxes and follow my dream. I am respectfully asking for help in this matter. And thank you for taking the time to read my story.

I am a single mom to 3 kids age 13-8 we came for a visit to see the kids grandparents and my youngest dad called me and told me not to come back. After 8 years of dealing with his medical problems and his drinking addiction. Anyways we are starting over with nothing I do not even have a vehicle a friend came and got me and we were only suppost to be spending the weekend with their grandparents. I have horrible credit due to having fibromyalgia, degenerative disc disease, IBS, osteoarthritis, asthma, chronic fatigue syndrome, chronic migraines & depression. I have not worked since 2002 when I was injured at work and had to sue the company but by the time I paid Medicaid back & the lawyer I got a whole $4000 and a surgery that has left me with a permanent handicap due to it never healing right. We are staying with my parents but need are own place ASAP, my youngest daughter needs size 7/8 clothes, my oldest daughter needs 14/16 in shirts and size 3 in jrs. & we desperately need a bed we are sleeping on air mattresses and the queen size one has so many holes in it that it deflates every nite and I end up waking up on a concrete floor. My ultimate dream would be to have a tempurpedic mattress but would settle for any kind of new bed I can not ask for one on freecycle because my parents are worried about bed bugs getting into their house are state has had a bad outbreak of them. I also REALLY need a LAWYER the only income I have is my daughters social security check and I have a LOT of debt and I need 2 file for bancruptcy since I see no other way of digging myself out of the hole. I also will need to find out if I am considered common law married and what I need to do to make sure I have custody of my daughter and her alcoholic father can't get her. If you have read this all the way to the finish Thank You!

I know, all of us have. But you know that sinking, desperate feeling when you realize it? Well, as they say, hindsight is 20/20...

I'm a 37 year old mother of 2. I left my husband a few months ago due to his inability to put family first. He was spending all of our money to support his addiction to pain pills. Long story shorter, when the kids and I moved out, he said it was a huge wake-up call for him and that he realized how badly he had messed up. He got off the pills (or at least quit buying other than his actual monthly prescription from his doctor) and told me how sorry he was and how much he wanted help and to change.

Given that we have been married almost 9 years, I thought I owed our relationship another chance - without the influence of his habit or having to constantly worry about how we would get by. A little over a month and a half ago I allowed him to move into my house. Since that time, things have steadily regressed. I have caught him in lies a few times about money, and am now facing losing my car because he used my payment for himself instead of taking it to the car lot. I also found out that he is once again letting pain pills rule his life.

I've had enough! However, I'm stuck relying on him to help with the bills right now until I start my new job in mid-July (I was laid-off this month from the job I had).

I want to do the right thing for my children and for myself. I don't only blame my husband - I blame myself as well for allowing things to get to be the way they are. I don't intend to wallow in self-pity though. I want him out, and I plan to make a better life for me and my kids. I just need a little help getting there...

Any money that I receive will go to pay my rent and utilities, and to buy groceries. I am taking classes and will be licensed soon as an insurance agent. I am not one to sit around and just rely on others to pay my way, I just need help getting through a rough patch.

It is my sincere hope that I will be able to help others in need as well. I truly believe in paying it forward. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and for any amount that you are able to donate. May God bless you and yours.

Hello,

I have been out of a full time job for the last 2 1/2 yrs living at home with my dad which has been a total wreck. I moved in with him after I lost my job working for Pepsi back in June of 2008. I did end up going back to school for computer networking & I am currently A+ certified as a computer technician. I have managed to get short term contracts to pay the small bills that I have but nothing has come through that will allow me to get my own place. Living in his place has been a total disaster...he suffers from a crack cocaine addiction so that means he is constantly going through mood changes that I suffer from, he is constantly begging, I don't have much privacy & he is all around rude. I don't leave out of my room unless im eating, going to the bathroom, or leaving out of the front door. I have 2 sons's 15yrs old and 6yrs old and I don't want my kids here because I stay confined to my room & don't want my kids to feel confined. I often come home to the smell of crack being smoked throughout the house & it makes my stomach turn. I would like to purchase a foreclosed home for me & my kids that I can call my own. Everything here that I speak of can be confirmed.... I am asking everyone who reads this & cares or who can even relate to this situation please donate what you can. Even if I can't buy a home from the donations recieved I will get my own place and pay the rent up for at least a year & will have a nest egg to keep me going until I find another job. This is not for paying of credit cards, to make a million bucks, or for that luxuary vacation....This is to put me in my own home and for me to have a piece of mind. Please donate $5, $10, $20, $50, $100 or whatever you can.
I am trying to raise approximatley $50,000 this is lower and more reasonable for ths who are interested in helping me. The picture listed is not the picture of the property. If you are a business and you donate I will promote your business and if your on ebay I will promote your auction.


List Price:
$50,000
(Bedrooms)
3
Bathrooms:
2
Property type:
—
Size:
1200 sqft
Year built:
1986


Thank you in advance.


Snail mail donations can be mailed to

KM
6917 S Sangamon
Chicago, IL 60621

My ex man left us, me and our 4 children, 1½ year ago for a younger woman that he obviously wanted to share his life with.
Hel left us with the house, all bills and everything. The point is, he was very controlling and sometimes violent because of his addiction to alcohol. He never allowed me to work, to have a social network etc and that made me get a severe depression with panic syndrome. When he left, there was no chance on earth for me to save our house, to pay our bills and so on, so life for us at the moment is really really bad.
I just got a job 2 weeks ago, 3hrs/day, not much but at least it is a job but it is hard to get back on track again and we would really appriciate if there is someone out there that want to help us to get back to a more or less normal life again. What we need is about $50.000 and we could pay the loans on the house we lost, all bills, buy some clothes, maybe with some luck buy an old, cheap car and then start to live again.
Thanks for taking time to read this and we hope someone would like to help, no amount is to small, everything counts. Thanks once again and god bless you all.

I am the mother of 5 children ages 11, 9, 6, 6 and 2. One of my 6 year old children is legally blind but otherwise blessed with intelligence and no other problems. My story is like this, in 2007 after 15 years of marriage I left my first husband due to his prescription drug and alcohol addiction. He stayed in our four kids lives for about 6 months and then disappeared. He has never paid any child support or even supported them at all since the divorce. I have since then met and married my husband and we have a 2 year old little girl together. I have worked at the same company for the last two years and I try very hard to support my kids. My husband works as a mechanic and due to the economy, his income has dropped. If we could only get $15K we could pay off the two loans we have, get caught up on our utility bills, pay the bank the money I owe them and for once go to a regular store to get our children's clothing. My van which is the only way we have to go anywhere, is falling apart. Summer is coming up and the air doesn't work. I need two tires for the back of it. I make decent money but I have 299 coming out every two weeks for insurance, life insurance and things for the future and what if's. Any help we could get would be great. We are in a rental that is really too small for us but we make do with what we have. My daughter starts sixth grade this year and it would be nice to be able to buy her the instrument she wants for band. My son would like to play baseball but we just cant afford the uniform or fee's they have. For once, it would be nice to catch a break from all the stress. I was diagnosed in 2009 with Rheumatoid Arthritis and it is absoutely the most painful thing i have ever felt. If it were not for it, I would be working another job. My body just wont allow it. Please, I am throwing my pride away for my children's sake. I am so tired of telling them "not today" when they ask me for things which is actually not that often. Just once, it would be nice to say "ok...you deserve it". please help me just this once and I promise to one day pay it forward. Thank you for your time and consideration.

Hi Everyone, I'm 50 y/o and I have never thought of begging until now. Over the past few weeks I kept praying and asking God to help me, saying repeatedly, "Lord, there must be a way that I can ask people for help...I'm at my wits end". I started searching putting in phrases asking for help and discovered this site. All I can say is that so much is happening at once...I have faith, but it's really hard.

I suffer with bouts of hemorrhage which impede my ability to maintain a steady job because when it happens I'm absent from work almost two weeks. When it happens I lie in bed and wonder/pray Lord will I live or die? Do I need a transfusion? I'm about two points from a transfusion now. I need to purchase medical insurance so I can see a doctor and take care of this one way or another. Hospital bills are about 20,000 now. I need money for medical insurance and also to have dental work done. My teeth hurt. I need about several thousand dollars of dental work done. One dentist's attorney is threatening to seize my car. I owe him $6000.00. I had paid him $3000.00 already, but he raised it back up as if I had paid nothing. I couldn't make it to court because of hemorrhage and the judge put the judgment through.

Even worse, I have a son whom I love very much, living with his dad. David is 18 now with prior developmental challenges. His father made repeated threats on my life if I didn't transfer custody. How I mourn that I gave in. I owe back child support because I haven't been able to work steadily. I do whatever I can with dignity. I do private caregiving, clean houses, some occasional paralegal contract work, sew-make native coats and sew clothes in general--all when I'm able, feeling strong. When I'm not well with the hemorrhage I'm on bed rest. My earnings are not even enough to pay my bills...not to mention child support. I presented proof of hemorrhage to a semijudge(mediator etc.)in court and she rejected it and computed a monthly amount of $400.00 based on my ability to earn money because of my educational background. She didn't compute it based on facts. Anyway, I have to appear in court on May 2 for another violation of nonpayment not because I don't want to pay, but because I can't afford it. They're saying that in total I owe $26,000.00. There is a chance that they'll incarcerate me on 5/2/11 for nonpayment of child support. God says do not be afraid, but this is alot, more than I can bear alone.

Please, I am begging, pleading for help, for compassion with tears in my eyes and my heart just wants to burst. I feel so alone with these problems. No one really knows how badly I feel. I love life and I love people, and I do whatever I can to love my neighbor as myself and to love God with all my heart mind and soul, but this just seems to much to bear.

All I can offer is my love and friendship, appreciation if you will be so kind and compassionate as to donate to my cause. I will be forever grateful and I will pray that you have stored up treasures in heaven with Almighty God. I will pray for you and your loved ones. If you are ill or suffering with illness or addiction of some sort I will pray with you. I could meet with you in NYC or you could join me in the mid hudson valley, brunch, walk and talk when I'm able. I just mean to say that this is the truth. I need desperate help before May 2 and ongoing. I need an attorney as well as money. Please help me to turn this around. I'd have a hysterectomy if I could afford it. Leave your number or mailing address and I'll be glad to personally thank you. Money is a tool and I need the help now more than ever. Please help me. Thank you and God bless you.
Cristi

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Hi Everyone, I'm 50 y/o and I have never thought of begging until now. Over the past few weeks I kept praying and asking God to help me, saying repeatedly, "Lord, there must be a way that I can ask people for help...I'm at my wits end". I started searching putting in phrases asking for help and discovered this site. All I can say is that so much is happening at once...I have faith, but it's really hard.

I suffer with bouts of hemorrhage which impede my ability to maintain a steady job because when it happens I'm absent from work almost two weeks. When it happens I lie in bed and wonder/pray Lord will I live or die? Do I need a transfusion? I'm about two points from a transfusion now. I need to purchase medical insurance so I can see a doctor and take care of this one way or another. Hospital bills are about 20,000 now. I need money for medical insurance and also to have dental work done. My teeth hurt. I need about several thousand dollars of dental work done. One dentist's attorney is threatening to seize my car. I owe him $6000.00. I had paid him $3000.00 already, but he raised it back up as if I had paid nothing. I couldn't make it to court because of hemorrhage and the judge put the judgment through.

Even worse, I have a son whom I love very much, living with his dad. David is 18 now with prior developmental challenges. His father made repeated threats on my life if I didn't transfer custody. How I mourn that I gave in. I owe back child support because I haven't been able to work steadily. I do whatever I can with dignity. I do private caregiving, clean houses, some occasional paralegal contract work, sew-make native coats and sew clothes in general--all when I'm able, feeling strong. When I'm not well with the hemorrhage I'm on bed rest. My earnings are not even enough to pay my bills...not to mention child support. I presented proof of hemorrhage to a semijudge(mediator etc.)in court and she rejected it and computed a monthly amount of $400.00 based on my ability to earn money because of my educational background. She didn't compute it based on facts. Anyway, I have to appear in court on May 2 for another violation of nonpayment not because I don't want to pay, but because I can't afford it. They're saying that in total I owe $26,000.00. There is a chance that they'll incarcerate me on 5/2/11 for nonpayment of child support. God says do not be afraid, but this is alot, more than I can bear alone.

Please, I am begging, pleading for help, for compassion with tears in my eyes and my heart just wants to burst. I feel so alone with these problems. No one really knows how badly I feel. I love life and I love people, and I do whatever I can to love my neighbor as myself and to love God with all my heart mind and soul, but this just seems to much to bear.

All I can offer is my love and friendship, appreciation if you will be so kind and compassionate as to donate to my cause. I will be forever grateful and I will pray that you have stored up treasures in heaven with Almighty God. I will pray for you and your loved ones. If you are ill or suffering with illness or addiction of some sort I will pray with you. I could meet with you in NYC or you could join me in the mid hudson valley, brunch, walk and talk when I'm able. I just mean to say that this is the truth. I need desperate help before May 2 and ongoing. I need an attorney as well as money. Please help me to turn this around. I'd have a hysterectomy if I could afford it. Leave your number or mailing address and I'll be glad to personally thank you. Money is a tool and I need the help now more than ever. Please help me. Thank you and God bless you.
Cristi

Hi Everyone, I'm 50 y/o and I have never thought of begging until now. Over the past few weeks I kept praying and asking God to help me, saying repeatedly, "Lord, there must be a way that I can ask people for help...I'm at my wits end". I started searching putting in phrases asking for help and discovered this site. All I can say is that so much is happening at once...I have faith, but it's really hard.

I suffer with bouts of hemorrhage which impede my ability to maintain a steady job because when it happens I'm absent from work almost two weeks. When it happens I lie in bed and wonder/pray Lord will I live or die? Do I need a transfusion? I'm about two points from a transfusion now. I need to purchase medical insurance so I can see a doctor and take care of this one way or another. Hospital bills are about 20,000 now. I need money for medical insurance and also to have dental work done. My teeth hurt. I need about several thousand dollars of dental work done. One dentist's attorney is threatening to seize my car. I owe him $6000.00. I had paid him $3000.00 already, but he raised it back up as if I had paid nothing. I couldn't make it to court because of hemorrhage and the judge put the judgment through.

Even worse, I have a son whom I love very much, living with his dad. David is 18 now with prior developmental challenges. His father made repeated threats on my life if I didn't transfer custody. How I mourn that I gave in. I owe back child support because I haven't been able to work steadily. I do whatever I can with dignity. I do private caregiving, clean houses, some occasional paralegal contract work, sew-make native coats and sew clothes in general--all when I'm able, feeling strong. When I'm not well with the hemorrhage I'm on bed rest. My earnings are not even enough to pay my bills...not to mention child support. I presented proof of hemorrhage to a semijudge(mediator etc.)in court and she rejected it and computed a monthly amount of $400.00 based on my ability to earn money because of my educational background. She didn't compute it based on facts. Anyway, I have to appear in court on May 2 for another violation of nonpayment not because I don't want to pay, but because I can't afford it. They're saying that in total I owe $26,000.00. There is a chance that they'll incarcerate me on 5/2/11 for nonpayment of child support. God says do not be afraid, but this is alot, more than I can bear alone.

Please, I am begging, pleading for help, for compassion with tears in my eyes and my heart just wants to burst. I feel so alone with these problems. No one really knows how badly I feel. I love life and I love people, and I do whatever I can to love my neighbor as myself and to love God with all my heart mind and soul, but this just seems to much to bear.

All I can offer is my love and friendship, appreciation if you will be so kind and compassionate as to donate to my cause. I will be forever grateful and I will pray that you have stored up treasures in heaven with Almighty God. I will pray for you and your loved ones. If you are ill or suffering with illness or addiction of some sort I will pray with you. I could meet with you in NYC or you could join me in the mid hudson valley, brunch, walk and talk when I'm able. I just mean to say that this is the truth. I need desperate help before May 2 and ongoing. I need an attorney as well as money. Please help me to turn this around. I'd have a hysterectomy if I could afford it. Leave your number or mailing address and I'll be glad to personally thank you. Money is a tool and I need the help now more than ever. Please help me. Thank you and God bless you.
Cristi

I'm a 24 year old female currently living in a friend's dorm room. His lease ends in May, and that will be the day I become homeless. I've put in job applications everywhere and nobody's gotten back to me, and I still have a single bill that I've yet to pay off... the time is ticking, and I couldn't think of anything else to do.

I'm pretty sure nobody reads these things, but this is my last shot at doing something for myself and getting out of the rut that will inevitably leave me homeless in one month. Here's a story that shows just how terrible gaming addictions can become and how much harder it is to dig yourself out of a hole that only deepens by the day with no hope of escape.

In 2007, I began playing World of Warcraft on my crappy laptop (which at the time had been a great piece of machinery). It started out innocently enough. I had real life friends who played the game and I'd wanted to know what it was all about so I bought and installed it. I was instantly hooked in the world, and made some friends that I talk with even to this day. I went through several guilds before I finally found the one I thought I would enjoy. I began spending endless amounts of time in the game, engrossing myself in it. I quit all of my outside activities and all of my hobbies revolved around getting in the game and playing it until the wee hours of the morning. I would come to work sleepy and dislike everyone around me. After the first two years I fell into an odd depression that could only be quelled by, what I thought, was WoW. By the time 2010 rolled around I had been living in four different places IRL, bumming from one place to the other in order to have more game time. I hadn't had a job, I hadn't even looked for one.

Eventually, in September of 2010, I'd had enough. While I want to blame the game for everything wrong I've done in my life, I can only blame myself for letting it get so bad. I could have shut it off at any time, but I didn't. I could have listened to everyone who told me what I was turning into, but I hadn't. My parents had driven from Illinois to Cleveland, Ohio to bring me back home. It was the opening for a new beginning that I thought would get me back on the path of redemption... but it was only the start of a larger nightmare. Between an internet addiction and an unquenchable withdraw from a lack of a game I could no longer play for fear of losing the roof over my head, I managed to find a job at a local gas station.. but that wasn't enough for my parents. They held my misgivings over my head constantly and for every one thing I did right, twenty things were wrong. After I forgot to do the dishes for the fourth time that month, my internet connection had been taken away.

Instead of taking this as a queue to get away and start my life anew, I fell deeper into depression. Withdraw took over and I used the library computers for an hour or two a day before I went to work to keep in touch with the friends I'd been cut off from. Eventually I'd put enough money together to get my own internet connection and had told my father that the Comcast guys were going to come over to install it. He'd been fine with it though knew my mother would throw a fit. A week later, the internet guys installed my box and left. The internet worked for an hour then shot out. When I told my father that the guys had to come back to re-install whatever they had forgotten to do, he'd thrown a fit about people "drilling holes in his wall, and walking into HIS home", and refused to acknowledge that I'd ever had the conversation with him in the first place. This sent me into a panic attack that ended in a night of hospitalization.

While I was in the hospital I had told the doctor while in tears that I didn't wish to see my parents while I was being treated because they were the reason I was in the situation I was in. While they had not physically harmed me, I was in no mental state to deal with their accusations anymore (which my father had yelled and argued with me the entire way to the hospital already). When they'd finally discharged me, I had found out that I had been abandoned at the hospital with no way home; I'd called a good friend to take me home.

The next day, I was told via text that I was no longer welcome in my parents' home.

While trying with everything I could not to lose my mind for a second time, I made as many phone calls as I could. Nobody could help me. Finally, my sister had offered me a place to stay in her friends' dorm room for a day or two just to make sure that I wasn't left on the street. As if by an act of God, an old friend from high school came into my life and offered me a place at his dorm room until I was able to get back on my feet. I now live two hours away from where "home" used to be, and am typing from my computer here. I had to leave the only stable job I'd had in 2 years to come here and getting back on my feet is proving harder than I could've ever imagined. I've had job interviews with no luck and I don't have enough money to put a down payment on an apartment in the area. If I don't find a solution by May 1st, I -will- be homeless.

I wish I could blame everything I've done on my gaming, and the internet, but as said before, it was my own stupidity that has landed me in this situation. Mental addictions are harder to break than physical ones and even now, 6 months after quitting World of Warcraft, every part of me still wants to go back to it, to get back the comfort of living in another world that it used to give me. The only thing that seems to break the feeling and keep it down is a cigarette; cheapest pack available, mind you. The point I'm trying to make is that gaming addictions can be dangerous, all consuming, and deadly. Someday I may write a paper on all the effects of letting yourself succumb to the beautiful world of anonymity and pixels... but here isn't the place to do that.

This is my last ditch effort to get out of the hole I've dug myself into. Today I offer you my heart and soul, and everything I have left that (Thank God) hasn't disintegrated along with everything else I used to be good at.

Thanks for reading. Hope you guys have a fantastic rest of your week.

ok so here goes. for those of you who know my past know how far i fell into the depths of addiction. after spending 8 yrs under the department of corrections supervision. behind bars and on parole. I realized, again, who i am and where i came from. I was raised Right I Just Forgot. Today i am a father, dad and someday a husband.i'm almost 9 years clean. my life is good . however there are times when ,what i call "my Lion" awakens and tries calling me back to the life of debauchery i lived for so long/ to put my lion to rest i spend a lot of time fishing. hence my plea. for the last 3 yrs ive been professionally walleye fishing locally competing against other teams. sure for cash, but mainly for the the sense of peace and freedom i feel on open water,instead of the fear, loneliness and hatred i felt on the concrete ocean i came from. today i feel my peace and freedom being threatened, ive contacted corporations, and businesses both locally and nationally expressing my desire to partner with them and share my story of success However the the "economic crisis"which hit me personally. Until a month ago i'd been unemployed for a little over 3 months. has most corporations and businesses not sponosing this year.With that and having to take a job that barely pays the bills surely wont allow me to be on the water hardly at all, let alone in a professional series of circuits as planned. therefore i am reaching out to my friends and family, to their connections and resourses to ask for help. Help to maintian the life i ve gained and to maybe partner with a sponsor whom isnt afraid to let a man like me live a life long dream , to be a professional fisherman and share my story maybe helping someone along the way . so if you have any ideas ,connections or maybe even know Oprah or DR. Phil , a portfolio of our promotional overview along with ranks and abilities can be seen at FishingSponsors.com

HELP SAVE MY SON FROM A OXY CONTIN OVERDOSE..
Cody has always been a good boy. He was smart,athletic, and considerate. With a promising future. Somewhere along,he has lost complete focus on what was important in life. He is 15 and strung out on Oxy Contin..That drug has robbed my son of his innocent inner being. He has done so many hoeric things to feed his addiction. my son has almost od twice. the paramedic had to give him a shot of Narco to revive him. Each time ha is taken to juvenile hall. Each time he gets out, his addiction is worse... My worse fear is that my son will end up dead or in prision. I have no insurance to send him to a rehap. Anything donated is greatly appreciate.
A little info on oxy contin:. Oxycontin is a time-release formula that contains a significantly greater amount of oxycodone.Oxycontin has been linked to over a hundred deaths. Its high and addiction have been compared to those of heroin. The devastation associated with Oxycontin includes armed robberies, criminal indictments of doctors, individual and state lawsuits against Purdue Pharma, and concern from the DEA and FDA. The DEA has asked Purdue Pharma to change its strategy regarding Oxycontin. These suggestions included: marketing Oxycontin only to pain specialists, omit the claim that Oxycontin is less subject to abuse than other narcotics, and reformulation of the drug.
I initially began writing this blog as a means to combat the use of oxy-contin and to point out how easily it hooks you on heroin. What i realized is that I am the mother of an addict… I have never taken oxycontin or heroin. Who am I to talk about addiction? What I have recognized is the pain that runs through a family dealing with addiction….

Cody has always been a good boy. He was smart,athletic, and considerate. With a promising future. Somewhere along,he has lost complete focus on what was important in life. He is 15 and strung out on Oxy Contin..That drug has robbed my son of his innocent inner being. He has done so many hoeric things to feed his addiction. my son has almost od twice. the paramedic had to give him a shot of Narco to revive him. Each time ha is taken to juvenile hall. Each time he gets out, his addiction is worse... My worse fear is that my son will end up dead or in prision. I have no insurance to send him to a rehap. Its over 10,000. Iam desperate. please donate just 1 dollar to help him get the help he needs.!

So i decided to go to college. All my life i had trouble with the law and my single mom who raised me always had financial problems. When i was 16 years old i went through an alcohol addiction that im recovering from. I was given house arrest by my po for 3 months. He did not inform us that it would cost us 26 dollars a day. After those 3 months my view on life has changed and i have stayed clean and sober and im trying to go to school. I would be the first person in both sides of my families to be a college graduate if i did. I feel bad, because of my probation my mom is being charged over 2,000 dollars. She is already over 10,000 dollars in debt. I plan to work part time and save up money. With school though it would take me a long time. I promised my mother i would pay her back. I just dont want this to be yet another promise i have broken to my family.

First I would like to say that I have read some of the stories here and wish that I could help. My prayers are with all of the people here who need the help of kind strangers.

My story. I am the mother of 3 great kids. My husband was a wonderful man until an injury lead to his addiction of pain pills. We tried rehab and counseling several times to no avail. Four years ago I had to ask him to leave. My energy needed to be put into taking care of my Children. From that moment I went to work and have provided all that I could to keep things going by working 2 jobs. This past year I took a little break from one job to go back to school so that I can earn more money. It was a sacrifice that pinched. I lost my car due to unaffordable car repairs. I'm not complaining about that. I can take the bus. My son has always been my biggest supporter. He has worked from the time he was 14 to try and help out. He has taken care of his own needs so that his sisters could have a little more. He has worked hard over the years and now he is enrolled in an Art school in another state. He always calls home to see if their is anything we need while he is living on pennies.He is working and going to school determined to make a better life. We have applied for financial aide and are grateful for that help. He received a letter stating there was a mistake on his award letter and he would have to pay 3,000 dollars by September 9th to stay in school. My heart is broken. We have sacrificed and worked hard to get him there. I have tried everything I could to try and help. Because my credit history was wrecked from my husband I do not qualify for a loan. My family has helped with his school supplies and money to help get him there so I can't ask them for any more help. His grandfather agreed to co sign a student loan and we were relieved. Turns out my son's father screwed up again and is in rehab and needless to say his father is footing the bill. He backed out on co signing the student loan and now there are just days until the money is due. I need help to try and raise the money to help my son stay where he deserves to be. If anyone could help it would be greatly appreciated. I don't have anywhere else to turn. Thank you for taking the time to read about my hardship.

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