Abandoned Tags

Hello.I finished high school one year ago.At my father "advice" i then went to engineering college which I abandoned after a month. I want to go to art school but my father will not support me and told me that if i don't get a job he will kick me out. I can't get a job and i would much rather be hone drawing and painting.I need about 200 euro / month to convince my father that I am working or getting money somehow. Please support me any amount will help.

Hello.I finished high school one year ago.At my father "advice" i then went to engineering college which I abandoned after a month. I want to go to art school but my father will not support me and told me that if i don't get a job he will kick me out. I can't get a job and i would much rather be hone drawing and painting.I need about 200 euro / month to convince my father that I am working or getting money somehow. Please support me any amount will help.

Hello.I finished high school one year ago.At my father "advice" i then went to engineering college which I abandoned after a month. I want to go to art school but my father will not support me and told me that if i don't get a job he will kick me out. I can't get a job and i would much rather be hone drawing and painting.I need about 200 euro / month to convince my father that I am working or getting money somehow. Please support me any amount will help.

I am faced with an impossible request I think. 3 years ago I was a strong, confident woman, 13 credit hours away from a BS in Biology with plan of going to graduate school. I was in an extremely abusive relationship with a man that I had to assist authorities in putting in prison. The same man left his daughter in my custody under the pretenses that her mother had abandoned her. I cared for her for two years as the only mother she knew before I found out that he had in fact kept her from her real mother and I had to return her to her biological mother. That same man sent people after me to attack me later and forced me to fear for my life. I still do.

I now understand that I was dealing with a psychopath.

After that man was incarcerated I tried to rebuild and began a relationship with another man who later went to prison for a charge that he accepted for someone else basically. While he was incarcerated my best friend of over 20 year died of unknown and still unexplainable causes. Once the man that I was with came home I then suffered two miscarriages.

I am told by my physicians that the constant state of being in a heightened and frightened state caused post traumatic stress disorder which led to an anxiety disorder coupled with daily panic attacks and agoraphobia.

Due to my condition I lost my job and no longer have health insurance. I am unable to drive or leave my house 90% of the time. I have been hospitalized on several occasions in an attempt to control the anxiety and depression that seem to only be getting worse. I feel over medicated but still as if nothing is working.

My physicians have suggested a residential psychatric program that would last approximately 30-45 days to assist me in in getting a handle on these conditions and assist me in regaining control of my life. However these programs are all self pay even if I did have insurance and range from 40-60,000 for the complete care in a facilty that can handle both the medical and therapeutic side of psychiatric care.

There is simply no way that I can accomplish this, but I feel as if I am slipping away and I am scared that I will never come back.

I just want my life back. To be free from these nightmares, this panic, these fears and to not live my life on medications that due nothing but make me a zombie. I had a life and a plan, I was going somewhere, and now I can't even leave my house for weeks sometimes months at a time.

My parents have basically been placed in financial ruin to assist me during this time, and they can no longer assist me. I am scared beyond words, If I don't find a way to get help, to get better, I fear for what will happen to me, how I will live, pay bills, work, be a functinal member of society.

I feel that committing to a residential program as suggested is my only option left, my only option for survival. I am desperate and scared. But I don't know how to accomplish what seems to be the only hope.

Please Help, someone please throw me a rope, I am desperate, lost in a dark pit somewhere, I can't see out, there seems to be no way out......I need a rope.....Please help.

I have anxiety disorder, sometimes raging agoraphobia and also fell in 2007, causing two vertebrae to bulge and also did some nerve damage to my left arm. I suffer from severe back pain, hip and leg pain everyday and I drop things with my left had constantly! I tried and tried to push on, through the pain and depression I had but finally cracked and I was laid off in 2010 from my job for not being able to handle the pain or the pressure and stress and shortly thereafter met a guy who I will call Jake. Jake has panic disorder, agoraphobia and dependent personality disorder. His family had abandoned him, his friends had become fatigued with his panic attacks. He was in a bad situation being abused by someone who was taking advantage of his disabilities. My mother had over 20 years of suffering this type of illness and was in an abusive marriage, and I had had my own issues with anxiety and depression so I felt I had to help. I invited him to come live in my home. I told him I would do all I could to help. I arranged some free therapy. Introduced him to my friends and family. Gave him all the kindness and love I had in me.

I had hoped it would help. It has not. He is still depressed, still agoraphobic and the worst part for me, still has dependent personality disorder. Now for those who don’t know what this is, well it means I can’t leave the house without him and naturally he can’t leave the house without me. We have not been more than 50 feet from each other in the year he has been here. He can’t go and do anything like movies, bowling, shopping or anything like that so I can’t either, when I myself feel able to do any of those things that is. Don’t feel sorry for me though. I have fallen in love and this is a small sacrifice to make sure he is okay.

We both applied for disability five months ago but it is still working through the process. My unemployment ran out six weeks ago so we have no more income and to make matters worse my father who has early onset dementia with psychotic features had no where else to go so he is living with us now. This has all put serious strain on me. How to pay bills with no money? How do I help this man I love get better? How do I get my sick dad, who has no one else to help him get to appointments with doctors and therapist when I can’t leave the house myself? How do I get better?

I am in serious need of help. I need to be able to at least keep the house and keep the lights on. I don’ t know what to do. I am lost. There is no help for someone who tries to help others. I called the department of family and children services and asked if there was any government program or even charity they knew of that I could apply for help with and they acted like I was a crazy person. She was like, “I’m sorry, I don’t know what to do for you.”

I am out of savings and my bills are due. I have appealed to family and friends but they are all strapped themselves. I have sold my van, a computer and anything else I had around my house to survive but I am tapped out. Now I am here, depressed and hurting all the time, my friend is here, depressed and we both are having a lot of anxiety. My dad is here and has no where else to go and I am so scared. I have never been in a situation where I had not only my life but the lives of others in my hands and I can’t do anything.

I feel helpless, hopeless and sometimes think it’s not worth going on. I just need some help making my bills for now until disability comes through. Then some of my stress will be reduced. Some that is. But that is most pressing right now. Like I said, keeping the lights on and a phone and car going in case of emergencies.

On top of everything I feel so alone. I have to try and smile because I don’t want my friend or dad to worry. I won’t them to know I am gonna be here for them and not let them down. But I don’t know where to turn to get the help so that does not happen. I am afraid. I am scared. I am depressed and stressed. I need help.

I have always led a good and honest life. I was married for 17 years. When my Grandmother became ill, I felt it was my duty to take care of her. So, I quit my job to take care of her full time and we moved into her home, while my husband continued to work and support our 4 children and I.
A year ago she passed away and my husband after finding out there was nothing in her will and the house was under because of a reverse mortgage, he divorced me and abandoned our children.
I have been working part time at a large retailer, doing my best to keep us a float. But now the bank is selling the house we have been living in. I can't find any full time work and I have 4 children in school. I don't have enough money to make a deposit on a new apartment, and have only been surviving so far because of the graces of my church fellowship and friends.
I am just looking for some help to get us back on our feet. To allow me to make a deposit and get us moved and maybe put some newer clothes on my children.
For my part, I promise to keep working and looking for full time work. If I find a full time job and make enough to survive, I promise to become a donor here for another needy family.

Hello,

My name is Tori. I am a 22yr old Secondary Education English Major at a College in Mississippi I stay on campus but they do not allow anyone that is not involved in sports to stay during the weekends. I recently lost my car so now my parents or siblings have to try to come get me and the past few weeks it has been impossible I have been telling them that I was staying with a friend but I stayed in an abandoned building not far from campue and on sundays I walk back early enough so that I can take a shower before anyone else gets there. Yes bad I know but I do not have any other choice so I need help. This is my last semester here and I am transfering to another college that allows you to stay weekends. I have never had to ask for help before so anything will heelp out.

THANK YOU!

Long story short.. my father passed away in 2010 and with tht money i got an apartment in north carolina... not even a month there i was home invaded and robbed... then i found out my job wasn't going to transfer me... i was traumatized by what happened and didn't feel safe with my kids so I came to NY to stay with my gram for a few months. Unfortunately we don't get a long n she doesn't have money to help us move. I was going to go back down to my apartment in NC but found out it was robbed again and my furniture and my kids clothes are gone. The landlady then said I abandoned my apartment(which I didn't). So now I found an apartment but I have no money to put down on the deposit and first months rent. If anyone can help change my bad luck, please help.

Long story short.. my father passed away in 2010 and with tht money i got an apartment in north carolina... not even a month there i was home invaded and robbed... then i found out my job wasn't going to transfer me... i was traumatized by what happened and didn't feel safe with my kids so I came to NY to stay with my gram for a few months. Unfortunately we don't get a long n she doesn't have money to help us move. I was going to go back down to my apartment in NC but found out it was robbed again and my furniture and my kids clothes are gone. The landlady then said I abandoned my apartment(which I didn't). So now I found an apartment but I have no money to put down on the deposit and first months rent. If anyone can help change my bad luck, please help.

Hi all, i really dont want to bore anyone with desperate pleas so i will attempt to give everyone an outine of my situation and just hope someone can find it in their heart to help.
In short i was forced to leave work when i was abandoned by my wife, who left me with my young daughter, as a single father.
Now i have found a new, wonderful partner, who is about to give birth to our new miracle.
Unfortunatly, after being diagnosed with a degenerative issue with my spine, i am unable to continue work in the normal way.
Having these issues and refusing to give up, i looked for a profession that would allow me to still work to support my new family and get back on our feet with the bills that have built up over the years of being unable to work and (more importantly) allow me to offer help to others in return.
This opportunity i found in the form of Hypnotherapy, an option to allow me to get back into workand not suffer the usual pain and also allow me to offer help to many more people.
Unfortunatly, in order to allow me to do this i need to raise £2500 in order to go to college and get myself qualified and finally get back on my feet by opening my own business in aiding others with their issues.
If you could find it in your heart to help me support my family and help others in the process, then id be exceptionally gratefull.

I have been fostering feral cats in my rented home for about a year. They are desperately hungry pitiful creatures and I provide them with food, beds, blankets and shelters on the property. Now my landlord has decided he wants to sell the home and refuses to renew the lease. We are hoping to raise enough money to be able to buy the house and stay in the home. If we have to leave the property then these poor creatures will be lost and abandoned once again. We have been able to bring in some of the kittens but most of them are ferals and they are not adoptable. Their only hope for survival is to continue to come to us for food and shelter. We spend all the spare money we have to feed them and we just do not have the funds to put a down payment on the house. These cats have come to view the home as a place to eat and sleep and feel safe. So much so that one of them was out and got hit by a car. In the middle of the night with a broken hip she managed to crawl her way back to our house where we are currently nursing her back to health. We feel so guilty abandoning them since they have come to depend on our sanctury and wil be lost and miserable if we move. Please please I appeal to all you animal lovers to help us raise enough money to buy the home and take care of these precious creatures who have been completely abandoned to the world. We are their only salvation. Please help our time is very limited.

Hi i'm a 22 yr old female that doesn't leave her home. I've been like this since very young. I have these insecurities that give me nothing but paranoid/depressed feelings. I come from a poor family. I hope that one day i will be able to live my life because right now i just exist. My insecurities come from family, u see when i was younger i was abused by my older sisters. incest that went on for years though i cried out for help nobody believed me/or just didn't care. Not to mention i was continuously abandoned. . My sisters would make jokes about my teeth and my lower body telling me that my teeth were crooked and that i had a man's body. Telling me this wasn't enough they passed this on to their friends that also put me down & sexually abused me as well. i'm a genuine person with a lot of love but i'am too insecure to explore anything in life. My mother died not too long ago and i really have nobody to be there helping me in any way really. I have no income at all because i'm afraid to leave my home, My grandmother puts food on the table and does the best she can but as for anything else i have nothing. it's gotten so bad for me i know i won't b able to give my 100% working or in school anywhere with how i feel about myself always. It's been extremely hard for me i did not finish school and i have no friends. Nobody really knows i exist because they've never seen me. it's hard living a life peeking out the window sometimes seeing people with their children or coming from work knowing i'm way too scared to leave my house to even begin to have a family of my own or what they have. I don't need everything i really don't... Just want the option that i can make something of myself& finally put these insecurities behind me. I dream of being able to help myself support & be independent. But too insecure that people will point and stare like they have in my past. The truth is when u don't love yourself nobody else will. All my family has moved on in their life's, i'm the only one stuck with no help. & the only one so far behind with these things holding me back. I'M LOCKED IN MYSELF and i would really love if someone can help me with the money so i can fix my lower body and teeth. I just want the confidence so i can make a difference in my life. I know thats all i need is to feel good about myself. i'm strong to even still be alive after all i've gone through but that's the little faith i have that someone would help me. i'm not sure the exact amount but from what i've researched the cheapest amount it's about $12,000-13,000 thank you so much for taking the time out to read. Anything to help will be greatly appreciated i'm willing to even loan it until i can pay it back.thank you !!

Please help me pay for my grandfather's medical bills. He had a heart attack and was confined in the ICU for a 3 days now. His doctor said that he is still unstable would still need to stay in the ICU for further monitoring but the fee in ICU would cost us at least $500 a day plus the doctor's fee, and the medications it would cost us probably around $5000 for just a week in the hospital. We don't have that kind of money. We don't have medical insurances, we live in the Philippines and all of the medical expenses our shouldered by us, we don't have that much government assistance when it comes to hospitalization.

My mother is the only one that supports us all, I am still a college student and this is the only way I could think of to help. You see I am the only grand daughter, my father abandoned us when I was young and grandfather is the one that stood as a father figure to me and I love him so much and I do not want to lose him

Please we are really desperate. Your donation can really help us in our life.

Hello I'm posting here because I don't know where else to turn and there is little hope. I guess a quick background I was divorced and left with all of the debt. A few years later I met a girl who like me was abandoned by her ex but only she had a an infant. We fell in love and became a family. She was riddled with debt a well. I am trying to support this family while paying off a $30,000 debt at the same time. $5,000 of which is owed to the IRS by 4/15. I am starting to lose hope but I am trying to stay strong for this little girl. I dream everyday of being able to overcome and provide a safe place for us to call home permanently; but right now it looks like I could lose everything. I am asking for any kind of help, even prayers not just money. To everybody in he same shoe as I am, I will give my prayers as well and if I should ever overcome....I give my word to come back and help. Thank you for your time.

Hello I'm posting here because I don't know where else to turn and there is little hope. I guess a quick background I was divorced and left with all of the debt. A few years later I met a girl who like me was abandoned by her ex but only she had a an infant. We fell in love and became a family. She was riddled with debt a well. I am trying to support this family while paying off a $30,000 debt at the same time. $5,000 of which is owed to the IRS by 4/15. I am starting to lose hope but I am trying to stay strong for this little girl. I dream everyday of being able to overcome and provide a safe place for us to call home permanently; but right now it looks like I could lose everything. I am asking for any kind of help, even prayers not just money. To everybody in he same shoe as I am, I will give my prayers as well and if I should ever overcome....I give my word to come back and help. Thank you for your time.

I have been looking for a job for over 6 months since my husband abandoned me and my 3 children. I need money to take care of them, and right now i am living off of 600$ a month trying to pay rent and all of my bills. I have an associates degree, and Im working towards my bachelors in Psychology. I have been out of the work force for a while and just need a break to prove that I am an asset to any team given the chance. Please...any leads and/or help that anyone can provide will be greatly appreciated. Thank You and God Bless You

I am a single mother of 3 small children, recently abandoned by my husband and worried about how I am going to care for my children. All of my bills are due Rent,Electric,and Phone and i am having to try to make ends meet with 600$ a month which is the amount of my rent. I have applied for assistance from the state and was informed that it could take up to 30 days to get approved. I am desperate and losing hope very quickly. Any help would be a blessing from the Lord. I am overwhelmed right now and just need a little help to get our lives back on track.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Thanks for taking the time to read this. I've never done anything like this before, so I am just going to speak from the heart. I am a 23 year old, gay, white male. I grew up on Disney. I believe that anything is possible, if you believe it to be. I have always tried to be a source of inspiration and strength for my friends. But my life keeps taking very negative turns.

My friends know a lot about the "adventures" I have been through in my life, but not all of it. They know that I have been homeless before, but they all assumed that I was staying at a different friend's house every night. They didn't know that I was sleeping in an abandoned apartment, a bus stop, a laundromat, and even under a bridge at one point. Being homeless is nothing new for me, but I am trying very hard to get back on my feet and take control of my life.

In an attempt to find a relationship and a home, I moved across the country to be (quite literally) a live-in sex slave for a couple whom I met on the internet. It seemed to go well for a short while, but they don't realize that they don't really want a third in their relationship. I have been the target of emotional and mental abuse for the past 6 months.

In November, I had a major operation on my ankle. I broke my ankle in 2006, and last year it began to deteriorate. Because of my ankle, I can't work a regular (read physical) job at this time. I have been searching for something I can do, even though I am not cleared for work yet. I am doing everything I can do, but the people I have been living with have decided I have to leave. I am doing everything I can to get together enough money to get back across half of the country to stay with some friends.

I don't have any money for food. The northern winter is killing me, as my clothes aren't really built for this weather. I still owe for the walking boot, cane, walker, and other equipment that I need for my physical recovery. I have to find a way to get somewhere where I'll be safe.

Everything that I have learned from Disney tells me to push forward and try to stay positive. I have done everything for my friends and family but they can't or won't help me now. I am asking for help, because I need to do whatever I can do to make sure that I will survive this winter. Thank you for your consideration. I appreciate any help I can get.

I have come across this site in hopes of people out there that can read this and hopefully assist my family with our financial emergencies; because there are many. I am a 26 year old male, and the only one who has a job right now in my family. I have a younger sister and younger brother. We live with our Mother in a small, cramped, decaying 2 bedroom apartment that can barely be suited for 2 individuals, let alone 4. Our Father has abandoned our family, this being several years ago. Since that time, and even before that time, we have been struggling with bills, rent payments, and utility expenses that are not included in our rent. After my Father left, the situation has gotten increasingly worse, with the term "living paycheck to paycheck" sounding like it would be a better life. We are living well below that standard, with the money I'm making barely covering rent payments; sometimes going into the next month. My bills are always 2-3 months behind, because I simply cannot pay them. My Mother's bills are even worse, some 4,5, even 6 months back. We simply do not have enough money to get back on track, and I feel that soon this battle may be lost if something goes wrong. If I lose my job or somehow become incapacitated; we are homeless, it's that simple. In total, truthfully my family needs close to $70,000.00 to get out of our financial crunch. This includes my bills, as well as my loan for my truck, being the only family vehicle and me as the only one who can drive. I have $12,000.00 left on that loan, and due to rent I cannot pay it. If I default(I have already received repossession letters), we are in serious trouble. My other bills, such as credit cards and loans against my 401K to pay for rent are roughly $15,000.00. Credit cards were maxed out to pay bills, and I could not make the payments back, that is why they are maxed out. My sister's student loans for college, which are approximately $30,000.00, my Mother's bills which are ALL behind, are close to $14,000.00, which are credit cards again for bills, and interest on those cards due for over the credit limit penalties. I beg any and everyone who is capable and able to donate to please do. This situation is not getting any better, and I fear the worse. With eviction threats, repossession letters, and certified mail coming with threatening legal actions being taken against us for being unable to pay these bills, stress would be an understatement. Rent is $1575 a month, not including utilities. With utilities, we pay over $2,000.00 a month, just to keep a roof over our heads and appliances for food working. PLEASE, we need help, desperately and immediately. I thank anyone who has read this in advance. Thank you so much, any contribution would really be a blessing.

I never thought I would be on one of these sites. I worked very very hard to get to where I am today and now I am faced with losing it all.

We had a very difficult last couple of monthes, but manageable. I was sick for a month or so, nothing serious but enough to exhaust me. It all started with a minor yet very painful back injury. We, made a decision to purchase a friendlier mattress as my husband and I both work in intensive labor jobs and our bodies have taken quite a toll. It helps emmensely and although i was still sick, i was sleeping through the night. Recently married in August, we have about 10,000 in credit card debt, most of which is still paying for the wedding. Being suckers for animals, we took in an abandoned cat a couple monthes back.. she turned out to be pregant with behavioral issues. We kept 2 of the kittens, making 4 cats total, which is a huge adjustment. The damage to our apartment though is considerable. We figured by the time we decided to move we'd have the damages saved up as it is importnat to leave the apartment int he best shape possible. I knew we had stretched ourselves a little thin but I figured we'd be able to catch up in a couple monthes. After vet bills to care for the cats (a staggering $400) we were settling in to figure how to bring ourselves back on track. My husband's job puts him at risk for injury, as does mine. He was diagnosed with a hernia a week ago and meets with the surgeon to schedule the repair before it gets worse (it is already interfereing with his life as it is painful).

This morning my husband lost his job and I was put on notice. We cannot pay our bills. The timing is the perfect storm and we are desperaste.

We know we made poor decisions. This is too public a venue to truly explain How far we both have come in our lives, the obstacles we overcame to get here and how vehemently hard we worked to make our lives what they have been these last couple of years. There was a time I would not have dared to dream my life could be so blessed. And now, a few small mistakes could take it all away.

I am hoping to get a little money, any money really..to help offset our bills so that we have time to find another job. This website is my my desperate plea.
thank you

IF YOU ARE INTERESTED in donating any amt. of $$ at all, please click the YELLOW button as the green one is not linked to anything. thank you

Happy holidays to all!
A few months ago I asked for your help but I have not received a penny.
If before I was in a bad way now worse.
I still can not find work and I can not save almost nothing.
I live with my son 19 year old needs a complicated surgery to the mouth.
If we do not act soon his face will deform with hearing loss and other consequences.
Pay the mortgage or bills overdue for some time is no longer my priority.
For several years I have done charity and taken into custody boys stavaino community.
I have always believed that doing good I would one day pay off, earning a place in heaven.
Today it is up to me, no one offers them hospitality for this money and I often wonder if God has always given me the strength, the abundance and the joy of sharing, now that I need so much, I have abandoned it.
Maybe if I am here writing this I still have faith and to look for in you my God that I loved so much.
Sorry for my English, I'm Italian.
I am convinced that God is in each one of you and I'll soon confirmed.
Donate as much as possible.
Thank you.

i wrote here cause i've met 15
different childrens that they dont have family or
a place to go home some of them their parents abandoned them some are their parents died..they beg on the street to continue living. while others work in a charcoal maker they are already working on their early ages..after a few more weeks i met another 6 kids who join them they say 4 of them are siblings abandoned by their mother due to poverty this six childrens joined the other 15 sleeping with them in a vacant lot with no proper blanket proper food proper clothes..they are enduring the cold night together..as i wrote this please help them this little 21 hands help them with any amount will do just to give them food this christmas season...they would appreciate that so much..
thank you for your time reading this..

i wrote here cause i've met 15
different childrens that they dont have family or
a place to go home some of them their parents abandoned them some are their parents died..they beg on the street to continue living. while others work in a charcoal maker they are already working on their early ages..after a few more weeks i met another 6 kids who join them they say 4 of them are siblings abandoned by their mother due to poverty this six childrens joined the other 15 sleeping with them in a vacant lot with no proper blanket proper food proper clothes..they are enduring the cold night together..as i wrote this please help them this little 21 hands help them with any amount will do just to give them food this christmas season...they would appreciate that so much..
thank you for your time reading this..

Hi everyone. If you're reading this, thank you. Let me say upfront, I'm not asking specifically for money. I'm just going to spill my guts about this hand I was dealt.

I've had a hard life. My mother passed away when I was 12, and my father passed away at 20. He left me a lot of debt and a house to maintain.

The stress of all this has given me problems. I started having panic attacks and was hospitalized for a cardiac arrhythmia. Recently, I developed optic neuritis. I'm working on getting Medicaid to cover some of my costs but right now I'm in debt about #1000.

There is one blessing in my life, a relative who pays my internet and utilities. He also helps me with food. But that's all he can do. He goes without to provide me with that. Otherwise I'd be homeless, hungry, and who knows where.

So I'm blessed to have the basics in life. But there's so many things that I need that I have to beg other people for. My family is...not so supportive. All I have left are aunts and uncles, all except one on my mom's side. My mom's side of the family pretty much abandoned me when she died. They put me though shame and humiliation when I ask for help.

I want a job, but I live in a very rural area. I've applied s o many places up to an hour away but I don't hear anything back. Recently I applied for some state jobs which I'm hoping might come through.

These are the things I need and things I want, so you know what my intentions are.

Need:
Toilet paper.... :( The way I've been getting it now is to go into public restrooms and putting some in my purse. I feel wrong about this. But what can I say, it's a necessity?

Personal items...I won't go into detail but I'm talking about um, feminine ones. I get the Dollar Store brand kind, but even then it's too much. I've had to go without it which is very hard.

Hygiene items...I stopped using soap and shampoo conditioner. I would love to...I feel dirty honestly. But I can't afford anything. I only use deodorant every few days because the bottle is running low and I'm trying to make it last.

House items...I need dish washing soap. I can't afford paper plates and am just washing dishes with hot water now. Sometimes I cant' clean it all the way through that way, but I just have to forget it. I also need laundry detergent. I'm almost out of a huge bottle that I have made last over a year. It was Sun brand from the dollar store, and I loved it. I'm all about generic.

Gas money...My car is an old SUV, and it takes a fair amount of gas. I try to limit when I drive. But it's a necessity since I live alone and in a rural area. I have to drive to run errands, go see the doctor, go to job interviews. I usually beg for this the most cause this is one of the things I can't do without.

Medication...I'm on two heart medications because of my arrhythmia. It's important I take them. I tried taking them twice per day instead of three, and I had horrible palpitations. So this is kind of my priority. As I'm still uninsured, both medications cost about 12 dollars a month.

Okay those are all things that I feel I need. Now, what I "want".

Clothes...I haven't bought new clothes since 2007. That's when my dad got diagnosed with cancer. My shirts have holes in them, so do my jeans. I got them from Goodwill originally most likely, I like to be frugal. The only person I have is made of linen and has a hole so things fall out of it! I've lost weight and I have had my jeans fall down in public. It's bad. I only have one bra and it's way past it's prime. I would love a little money to buy some basic things. Jeans that fit, some cotton T-shirts, a purse. Maybe even something for job interviews? I think part of the reason I get denied is because I show up in jeans and a T and flip flips. But that's all I have.

Beauty stuff...Okay, this stuff is totally not worth your money, I get it. But I just thought I'd list everything. It sucks being a young woman who can't feel pretty. I'm unwashed, my clothes make me feel like a hobo. I see other girls my age in class (I attend college part time thanks to financial aid) looking and smelling beautiful. I mean...

I just want a hair cut. Recently, I hacked about 6 inches off myself with scissors. It's not pretty. I just want a little powder and some lip gloss to not feel so plain. I just want a spritz of perfume so that there's something beautiful in my senses. I daydream about when I used to wear cute clothes, go to a salon. Wear mascara and paint my names. Ahh...But this is just a dream. I don't expect anyone to help me with things like that.

A new laptop/tablet...The one I have now is really old and really slow. Don't expect anyone to get me one. If it happened, I would probably assume I'm dead and in some sort of heavenly afterlife. Then I might pass out from shock.

So this my friends, is my general beg for help. I'm a 23 year old girl without much family. My basics are covered, but that leaves a lot for someone who is broke. I'm actively searching for employment. I've applied from Dr.'s offices to bars. I'm part time in college, and I'm not sure what I want to study yet.

I don't drink, if I had the money for beer I'd buy TP instead. I don't smoke or do any illegal drugs. I'm not a criminal.

I am not someone who wants to just take money. If you are down on your luck too, please don't send me anything. Put it in savings. Give it to some of these people who are about to lose their homes if you must. They're deserving.

If you're apprehensive about giving money but still want to help, you totally can. A package filled with toilet paper, tampons, shampoo...that would be like Christmas morning to me, I swear.

I'm not sure what I'm going to get out of this. Writing this was therapeutic though. If you're on this site, you're already a nice person. I bet 90 percent of the traffic is people who want something, like me. People who go on here to help someone is probably such a rare thing.

Thanks for reading.

good day to anyone who reads this..
hi im airah 29 year old living with my mother and three siblings..i wrote here cause i've met 15
different childrens that they dont have family or
a place to go home some of them their parents abandoned them some are their parents died..they beg on the street to continue living. while others work in a charcoal maker they are already working on their early ages..after a few more weeks i met another 6 kids who join them they say 4 of them are siblings abandoned by their mother due to poverty this six childrens joined the other 15 sleeping with them in a vacant lot with no proper blanket proper food proper clothes..they are enduring the cold night together..as i wrote this please help them this little 21 hands help them with any amount will do just to give them food this christmas season...they would appreciate that so much..
thank you for your time reading this..